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I think a lot of people in the fandom don't see anyone else as a living human being but instead as entertainment honestly and its fuckin sickening. No one owes ya'll shit they should prioritize their own well being above anything else.

i NEVER got why people kept saying that they couldn't deactivate or that they had a problem with Sai and Polly deactivating. Its??? it's THEIR blogs???? They can deactivate for any reason including no reason. They could deactivate because they didn't like the new Tumblr logo if they so felt like it. What in the entitlement????

BASED

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NGL a similar dreadful anxiety that i got when the incident originally went down is starting to hit me now after making that post, legit actually scared please god be gentle with my soul

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I didn't wanna bring this up while shit was going down but now that things seem to have calmed... I saw someone say I made CSAM jokeS and I just wanted to clarify I made one incredibly ill thought out and shitty joke one time, that I apologized for as soon as someone pointed out it was fucked up. I'm not saying 'oh you can't be mad at me for it' but I'd prefer if it not get twisted into 'yeah Venti has or still makes these kinda jokes on the regular' because that's kinda a really serious thing to accuse someone of and even though I don't go by Venti anywhere else anymore, I'd rather not have that misinfo spread about me in the event that it ever gets connected to my current idtentity (Also it's upsetting to hear someone claim that and the idea of being known as 'the CSAM jokes guy' is a terrifying concept. I try to not get angry about it when people bring up my fuck up, but I will admit it is frustrating when I'm trying to move past it and improve. I know it hasn't been that long since it happened but... I guess it makes it hard to stay motivated to keep going when people only refer to me as my fuck ups, idk, it's disheartening. I'm not expecting people to like, instantly forgive me for anything I've done, especially those I've hurt personally, but I swear I am trying.

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It is actually disgusting people are dogpiling on someone that just had a breakdown, fuckin wait until you know the person is in a better place and not in risk.

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what joke did you make?

Its in my FAQ

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Genuinely I don't know how to feel right now, I'm kinda in shock> I wasn't going to say anything bc I had just said i wouldn't talk about it but uh, I'm now scared people might claim i support this so uh... that was... not okay to say and a poor way of calling others bystanders. I do not want to be involved in this I do not support what was said I'm not even gonna repeat it, I think everyone need to step away and like, take care of themselves, I hope everyone is okay, I'm lowkey kinda scared for peoples safely and the only reason I'm not really scared is tht I think I'm in shock/numb. This was handled terribly, I'm so sorry if anything I said contributed to any harassment, this was a mess and I am not okay with this and deeply uncomfortable and like... I don't know what to say, I hope everyone is okay and alive.

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I still stand by what I said when I said that Sparklecare must be forgotten about and left to rot in history. There is a reason why I distanced myself from the fandom. I want to forget but still have the lessons learned from the situation.

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On the request of Chaos' partner, I will no longer be talking about Chaos or his situation, any asks I get regarding the subject will be ignored. Furthermore I would like to remind people that any posts I have made have been of my own freewill and not because Chaos told me too. So if you are to blame anyone for what I say, blame me and only me

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I THINK ENABLING ABUSERS IS WRONG

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You DO realize how insane it is to seemingly compare me to either Lopsy or KC, right? because I made a thoughtless joke ONCE that I have apologized for multiple times and also was punished for by being kicked from two servers and losing friends? Because I got angry in the past and have apologized for it? I am not a saint but I would appricate if people didn't act like I am the devil or on any level as bad as an abuser. You can dislike or hate me for my past actions if you want, I am unable to control that, but please do not put me in the same box as actual abusers.

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Also I swear to FUCK if I see one more post using me to bring down Chaos I will lose my mind. Like actually my patience is wearing thin.

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Alright, I don't want to interact with this but I'm gonna. No one acted with the intent to harm Ridley here, not Chaos or even me. Chaos was also feeling suicidal as he revealed, and was being harrassed and such because of Ridley's actions along with Mod Blairs actions.

Ridley also, from what I've seen, showed NO signs of having a suicidal episode until they announced a desire to kill themselves. I am NOT claiming Ridley is lying, for the record, I fully believe they feel the way they do, but no one could've known until they said something.

I myself, have apologized, not directly because I know Ridley does not want to talk to me and I would like to avoid distressing them with my direct presence. If Ridley has not seen my apology, then I am willing to link it or even give another more personal one to them if they wish.

Ridley cannot pull the 'I'm a minor' card every time they mess up, just because someone is calling them out on their mistakes, does not mean they are harrassing them, Chaos being older than Ridley does not make Chaos some creep harrassing an innocent child.

Again, if Ridley wants an apology from me, I will give them one, be it by making a public post or by sending it to someone Ridley trusts to send it to Ridley, hell if they want I'll send one on anon from my main blog. I truly am sorry for how I acted and for listening to Doc at the time, I am perfectly willing to give Ridley a sincere apology if they want one.

I'd appreciate it if a certain somebody and his group of dick riders didn't use MY tag to repeatedly harass my friend ridley to suicidal ideation and near deactivation everytime y'all realize you can't handle genuine criticism and go whine publically for any ounce of comfort KC-style (from people who comfort you deeper in this "you can do no wrong and if anyone disagrees with that they disrespect your victim status" mindset) because you can't handle being told when you do something wrong. thank you and fuck off👍

oh and yall better fucking apologize to bun at least once in your lifetime for repeating bullshit like this on MULTIPLE occasions already. I'm sure typing out the words "I'm sorry for making you the target of an entire group of people's harassment and fueling the fire at every opportunity i had, i am in the wrong" won't get your fingers chopped off, you'll live.

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An anon just sent me an ask accusing someone of something, and I felt it important to say I am not a ventblog, I will not be posting gossip or anon asks not directed at me. If you wish to speak to me, my messages are open, I will not tolerate or post any asks that are vent based or act to demonize or insult others.

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could you not misgender mod blair you fucking dickhead

I was not aware I was doing so, and I apologize for it. I did not know that Mod Blair used it/its so I used they/them at the time since I was unaware of its pronouns. In the future I will make sure to remember

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You cannot undo harm you have done, but you can apologize and resolve to not repeat that harm again. You can apologize but no one is required to accept it. Do not be like me and let anger control you like I did in the past. You are not an irredeemable monster, you are a human being, please treat yourself as such. I've learned that even if you lose friends and community, even if you are never forgiven for your fuck up, it is not the end. There will be others who will love and care for you, you do not need to dedicate yourselves to repenting, there will always be a place for you in the world, you just need to look for it sometimes. I hope that everyone in the community, even those that I do not like or who hate me, find that place, we are all deserving of it. And please remember that, just because you have improved, does not mean the people you hurt in the past are obligated to forgive you. You are not obligated to forgive someone who harmed you even if they have gotten better, you are not wrong for still hating them. You are not vile for a thoughtless comment or being under a false impression, life is more than one singular moment.

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Everyone here has an objective now; Fucking survive and don't kill yourself. You are all worth so much more than this shit, and you are not irredeemable. Apologize for your fuck ups, move on, and live, okay? Live for yourself and outlive your abusers, it WILL get better, I promise.

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EDIT: it appears that Sparklecarevents did not mean to remove the dono link and has since re-added it, it has also apologized for their actions and removed their posts. Since I am not Chaos I cannot give it any forgiveness nor thank it, but I am adding this edit to prevent misinformation from being spread and to update any info. I am not in support of Sparklecarevents, my opinion is that they acted very far out of line.

A victim doesn't stop being a victim when they aren't perfect and quiet and unproblematic. A victim still deserves respect when they freak out or express negative emotions, they still deserve support.

It is only when a victim becomes an abuser, like what happened with Kittycorn, that it is even okay to stop supporting them, when they purposefully harm others and put them through abuse, and at that point the best thing to do is support the victims of that abuse. Chaos is not an abuser, he is and will forever be a victim whether you like him or not, and Lopsy will forever be his abuser along with KC.

To remove Chaos' donation link is to imply that he does not deserve anyones support, and to make matters worse, this choice to remove support from Chaos is built on lies. Lopsy is a notorious liar who has abused multiple people, not just Chaos.

The actions of Sparklecarevents are horrid and vile, and I hope the rest of the vent blogs will agree with this take and show Chaos some support, or at least cut off and distance themselves from the owner of Sparklecarevents for their actions.

For everyone else in the community, I hope we can all put aside our differences and personal issues with each other and work in showing Chaos support and helping him in any way we can, we stand stronger united than apart and now is the time to support a victim in desperate need of help.