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Be mature enough to own up to your actions!

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If it is meant to be, it will be!

Part 1: When I was on my first year of high school, I had a major crush on a schoolmate of mine. He's tall, dark and handsome. I was drawn to his high bridged nose, his perfectly shaped thick eyebrows and his eyes that can speak volumes without him uttering a word. A classmate of mine heard that I have a crush on him, later on finding out that that classmate of mine was a close friend of his back in grade school. And so he found out about it. Early that day before pre period he came up to me and said: "Hey, someone told me you have a crush on me?" Before I could answer, as if I could, why bother opening my mouth, when I still couldn't believe he was talking to me. He declared "Starting today you're my girlfriend." The bell rung and he went to pre period and there I was feet stuck on the ground. My friends giggling after hearing what my crush said as they pull me into the classroom and sat me down. It may started that way but we were a young happy couple. We go on group dates with our friends. We would hold hands and hug. He kisses me on the cheek most of the times, especially on my dimples. He was a lot taller than me so he always puts his arm around me protectively. He would sit in my class and pretend he was my classmate and listen to lectures twice. He would try to walk me home. But since I'm still not allowed to have a boyfriend I only let him drop me off a couple of blocks away from my house. He makes me feel proud of myself and I do the same for him. We boost each others' confidence. I admit I was really timid back then, but that was just an effect he had on me. He can make me really quiet and shy. But that was okay since he was always concerned to know what was wrong if I suddenly become too quiet. See we may started yound but the connection was great. Until one day, my father found out I have a boyfriend. He threw a fit and told me to break up with him. Obviously I denied him first then I begged him to let me and boyfriend be together but he stand his ground. He said it's either I break up with him or he will pull me out of my school and send me back to my old school in grade school which offers high school classes too. I hated myself that day, wishing the ground to eat me up alive instead. First I don't want to lose him, second I don't know how to break up with him cause I really have no reason, we were perfectly happy and last but not the least of my reasons why I don't want to break up with him is because I love him. But I thought breaking up with him and seeing him in school is bearable than being pulled out of our school and never see him again cause my father will make sure I was on full lock down from him. The following day, early morning same time as to when he told me to be his girlfriend. I had my bestfriend back then hand him a letter stating I want to break up with him. No reason, no explanation. He threw the paper on the ground and stormed away. I was there left in tears and watch as how I lost my first love. To be continued...

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He finally broke it off

He finally told me the truth that he is not in love with me anymore

He finally set me free

I know it hurts now.

Someday, somehow I'll be ok again and move on~

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Almost Lost Him

Ever been in a relationship that yesterday was perfect, but somehow today things crumbled down all of a sudden?

Arguments and problems are normal... Fixing them and compromising is also normal... Because if you want to be together, you'll have to commit to make it work...

But what if one of you thinks it is time to let go... Like they are hurting you too much for being not enough... You know they did their best... They tried so hard to meet you halfway but things like work or studies are getting in the way...

You know what priorities and obligations are... You understand everyone has one because you have one yourself... And you never wanted to be their priority... You just wanted a little bit of their time, especially when you need them the most... But somehow even that they can't give... The circumstances made it impossible... Yeah yeah nothing's impossible but still the circumstances made it hard...

He then thought that the only way to make you happy is to set you free... Of all the people in the world you thought you'll never part with unless death comes, tells you that you'll be happier without them and leaving you was a choice... And you got yourself thinking "Why? Why did he thought leaving me was a choice when leaving him wasn't even an option in my heart and mind" how can someone you trusted say that???

So you still tried to compromise... He agreed... But at the end compromise means was you adjusting and him being able to put his obligations and priorities before you... Even though you're already used to it... And that is fine by you... Somehow deep inside you, you know he won't change and he had leaving you in his mind as the best possible solution which makes you realize he doesn't love you anymore... But still you held on and fight for someone who is not fighting for you anymore... Maybe you already lost him, his love that is... He is physically there since he chose to stay... So maybe that is still considered... Almost lost him...

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What I look like when I just woke up from my naptime at work~ 😊 Make most of your lunch break, take a power nap! 😂😪💤

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This headband is so cute~ 😍😍����😍😍

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Another day at work...

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At work, bored and trying to use my camera as a mirror... accidentally pressed record... And this happened~ 😂😂😂😂😂

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Messing with facebook filters 😂😂😂😂😂

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I decided to wear this blue dress to work today... Someone told me it was cute~ but I was trying to look fierce but it is not working 😂😂😂😂😂

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Starting a Tumblr

So I'm not sure how this goes... Or how tumblr works... Feel free to follow me on my other social media accounts though:

Instagram: viistagram30

Twitter: viitweets30

Snapchat: viisnaps30

Well honestly I'm not good at sharing anything on my other SSN accounts... I think this will become a new thing for me and will also be like an experiment to make me a little braver when it comes to sharing... But pretty sure no one cares 😂😂😂😂😂