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apparently abba is releasing more music and i sobbed when i found out. i’ve never felt such joy.

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i wish that someone loved me the way i love you.

-me, thinking about my unrequited love for the person who won’t even talk to me anymore at 4 am.

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this but i’m all of the above.

Dark academia is the aesthetic for people who:

Had a tense emo phase that matured into dark academia

Had an unhealthy Harry Potter obsession and now hates J. K. Rowling

Played games revolving around mythical creature as a child

Was able to read at an adult level at age 8 and spent their childhood reading

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lepidopterophobia.

by yours truly, h.k.s. or, hani.

silly. silly is the word that people use to describe my fear. “butterflies are so beautiful, how could you ever think to be afraid?” i understand why some people would think that. i quite agree, of course they can be beautiful. anything can. their devine velvet wings, splattered with any colour that you could imagine. patterns of oranges, yellows, blues, as if they were painted by a fairy. yet i still feel that shiver run through my body when i see them. my heart beats as if i’ve ran across a wide field when they are near, afraid that they might come closer. i can’t explain why i feel the intense amount of panic. i can’t explain why i break into a sweat. i can’t explain why tears stream down my face and a sob rips out my throat. i can’t explain why i feel the need to cower away from such a free-spirited creature. i wished that i loved them, i really do. why am i so afraid? perhaps they are right. perhaps i am just being silly. but if it’s as simple as that, wouldn’t i have overcome my fear already? fear is not something we can not control. maybe they are the ones who are truly silly for thinking that i can change my feelings. silly.

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it’s about time i started using this app again. last time i was on tumblr was a DISASTER. wonder how much has changed since i’ve last been here.