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This!!!!! Just this!!!!!

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CW/TW: CLOWNS, UNREALISTIC GORE

[Let's just pretend that the month w/o any posts didn't pass and that I was still here and still active]

So. I got my FNAF hyperfixation back. And just like with any hyperfixation in my life it takes up ALL my thoughts. Including my dreams.

I've already had lots of them but my last one was like. The reason why I now have a new f/o.

I know I know that might sound silly but I just can't help it, I fall in love with fictional characters too easily <3

This dream inspired me so much that I decided to make a small doodle about it in my journal.

[I know it's not nearly perfect but trust me I tried my absolute best]

So the dream was just. Me and Withered Bonnie just kinda. Holding hands. That's all.

It wasn't the only thing that caught me so much. It was how the whole thing felt. I can vividly remember feeling the cold metal of his bare endoskeleton with my skin and hearing my own heartbeat. My dreams are usually very chaotic and often violent - this one was just so calm and soothing. Just a dark room and two of us.

It was just a small thing that I really wanted to remember. One of the dreams that I'd like to keep in my mind while I'm alive.

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CW/TW: CLOWNS

So... it's trans day of visibility!!

Since Pennywise was my first case of gender-envy AND I literally can't see it as something cis (and moreso as something that has a sense of gender even partially close to what humans have) I decided to make some affirming pictures... sorry if they look a bit forcemasc-ish, that was made on purpose XD

I just absolutely love how these turned out 🙏

The things don't really have a target auditory though they were made with transmasculine, nonbinary, anonbinary genderfluid, multigender and agender people in mind since 1) I'm those things (yes damn, all of them) and 2) those groups are always being left out when it comes to trans positivity, affirmations and visibility unless its them making something for themselves.

I'm just tired of basically every bot of trans content being targeted at momogender binary trans women.

But overall

Happy trans day of visibility everyone! 🏳️‍⚧️

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CW/TW: NON-GRAPHIC NSFW, CLOWN

I didn't post anything for quite a long time. But I promise it'll get better🥺

So... My Cuphead hyperfixation returned (as well I got interested in Exhibit of sorrows, but that's an entirely different post that I'm gonna make.)

And of course I couldn't resist and omg... I literally think about Beppi 24/7 for like... the last week or so. I love him with my whole heart (just like I love all my clown husbands honestly).

And to be honest since I haven't done anything like that in a certain period of time it was pretty hard for me - but anyways I wrote some headcanons!

Here's the SFW part:

If you're not able to read from the picture, here's the text version:

• He's a total extrovert. Expect sudden visits and somewhat dumb ideas about your time together!

• He's a drama queen. Atleast you would never get bored when you're together! Although it can be quite annoying if that's not your cup of tea.

• KEEP AWAY THE NEEDLES!! Or anything else that's sharp and pointy. He's not gonna get too hurt anyways but that still would be unpleasant.

• Oh boy he has plenty of bad puns up his sleeve. He's just like Sans, but instead of bones he jokes about balloons and all the clown stuff he can come up with.

• He really is full of hot air. Not that you can't trust him entirely, but be careful - he can be quite forgetful.

• His anatomy is strange. Weird, even. Don't try to ask why he doesn't have a heart but you can still hear the heartbeat - he doesn't know either!

• On the days when he's not in the best shape and form he can and will be clumsy and inattentive. A bit of air will definitely fix the problem.

• He's impulsive and emotional. When around him don't expect any peace and quiet.

• Overall if you get on well - he'll be a total sweetheart. He is really attentive with those who he loves and will try and cheer them up when they feel down.

• His beloved love language for both romantic and platonic relationships is small gifts. He knows pretty well - that can make someone's day!

And so. The last part is left - cw/tw for NSFW now!

• He totally enjoys the way his body works. Maybe even too much.

• He DOES have inflation kink and is kinda open about it. It's not up for discussion.

• Is actually fully bigenital. How do the organs work? Only God knows, but it's a lot of fun.

• Oh boy he's S T R E T C H Y. It's actually pretty hard to hurt him with penetration.

• If his partner is up to something - he won't mind to try something new.

• Has a LOT of sensitive spots. Even a bit of petting will do it's thing.

• The process of healing is pretty different for him unlike for others. So his only taboos are anything sharp and anything too hot that could damage his "skin"...

• ...or is that so? There are rumors that he's a masochist but is scared to admit. He keeps it a secret for his own safety.

• Expect a dose of jokes after sex. Or maybe even in the process. He's a clown after all!

• Doesn't mind both top and bottom positions.

• He's not a total sadist but has a bit of good ol' humiliation kink.

So... that's all <3 Hope I don't get killed by the fandom~

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CW/TW: CLOWN, MENTION OF PANIC ATTACKS, MENTION OF HALLUCINATIONS ⚠️

Yesterday I had a panic attack

Long story short: I'm in a group chat for trans people and allies and there was some sort of "raid" from transphobes. My immediate reaction? Have a shot of water + motherwort tincture and start rewarching "IT" for like... third time in a span of last two months? Literally.

And guess what? It helped. Things immediately got better and I slept nicely for eight hours straight. I didn't have to stay up all night just because I couldn't calm myself down and fall asleep and had intrusive thoughts filling my mind.

I'll be honest, I love Pennywise so much and it brings me so much comfort that only thinking about him can bring a smile to my face even when I'm half through pa, shaking like a wet mouse and having hallucinations. He's not just my f/o, he's my damn soulmate.

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CW/TW: CLOWNS, SCARS, BRIGHT COLORS ⚠️

Just a silly piccy + some ranting about my fictionkin-like things. You can just skip the second part if you're not a big fun of them <3

It's it now that I reaches the point of understand that back then when I firstly joined it fandom in 2017 that tickling feeling in my chest every time I stumbled across some moments from the film weren't just slight fear or admiration, it was envy. Pure and deep envy. And I never quite felt the same thing when looking at the actor himself? Don't get me wrong - Bill is absolutely gorgeous, who am I to even try to deny that? But the one who always caught my eye was only Pennywise itself. The image of a tall, rather strong and a bit intimidating figure with painted face and dressed up in that costume that looked utterly comfortae .

I remember the first time I dyed my hait. I became a redhead and literally the first thought that crossed my mind was "wow, I look like it" and it made me so jappy. And it made me smile.

Now that I'm much older then I was in 2017 (wow, it's been already 8 years...) and I have a lot more abilities I seriously started thinking about cosplaying it just to... you know? Finally feel that. That feeling of previously unknown piece of clothing touching my body and feeling like I've finally changed and I can finally put on an entirely different personality.

I will put the costume together myself since I have some expirience in sewing (before that as some sort of training I will make Art the clown cosplay. I already have a full plan what to do and I think be the middle of the summer it will be ready - that'll be my first one.) and I really hope it will turn out atleast decent.

Sadly since I'm quite why when it comes to taking photos/videos of myself there will probably be not a ot of people who will see it. Just a few queer chats where I hang out and my IRL friends but oh my god I swear, I will try my best to be as much in character as possible. It'll be +points if I manage to scare someone.

So. Wish me luck I guess? <3

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CW/TW: CLOWN ⚠️

Oh gosh, he's my boy. I bet he smells like an old teddy bear with a bit of mold and moist. And he also looks so huggable. So soft and squishy. I love him.

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CW/TW: CLOWN, A BIT OF BLOOD⚠️

So, I've some more.

My recently found fixation. He is rather. Wow. I have no more words.

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CW/TW: CLOWN, SCARS ⚠️

My beloved Stitches, he's so underappreciated I swear... I wish more people would love him as much as I do. I can endlessly talk about how handsome and pretty and beautiful and and... So shortly he's my dear boy <3

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CW/TW: CLOWN ⚠️

Recently made some stamps with one of my beloved killer-clowns <3

Made them just for fun AND because I truly like to keep some pics of my lovely creature in the gallery. May as well print them out and put one under my phone case.

I think I'll make some more later, he's just too gorgeous ‼️ Also I have more of them but with other similar characters (aka 1990! Penny, Art and Stitches, my damn clown creature polycule)

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Firstly!

DNI: queerphobes, antis/censorship supporters; kinkshamers/paramisists; pro-c for non-con paraphilias; ableists; racists.

Main info below 💋

°~ This is my fandom sideblog that will contain mainly shitposting about my current hyperfixations, some stuff involving my f/os, arts, fics and other shit.

°~ I've lots of fandoms (to the point when I can't even remember some of them lol), so, my mains are: Thomas the Tank Engine; Slime Rancher; Subnautica; My Singing Monsters; Five Nights ar Freddy's (and lots of famgames...); My Little Pony.

°~ Also im hugely into horror. My faves are Child's play; Nightmare on Elm street; IT; Saw; Terrifier and Stitches.

°~ Everything that possibly needs trigger and content warnings will be properly tagged.