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Man, brain fog is so frustrating. Like, logically, I know I can write reasonably well. I fucking went to university for it. So why the fuck can I not string a simple sentence together because I keep forgetting every second word.

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i want to write!!! i want to write!!!! i want to write!!!!!

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Also Provider by Sleep Token is the sexiest song I've ever heard wtf Vessel. This song might have to make an appearance in TWTSA at some point ;)

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I really REALLY miss writing D;

Working really hard on my health to get to a place where I can sit at a desk again. It's slow af but I'm getting there!

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Hello I love your writing and have been on your masterlist to many times to count and I always notice the title at the top about your disability and have always wounder what your disability is I don’t have a disability and I don’t know what it is likes so I’m sorry if you feel uncomfortable but if you don’t mind ive always been curious thanks :3

Hi! I don't mind talking about it :) I have a connective tissue disorder called Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome (EDS) which basically means my body produces faulty collagen and causes all the connective tissue supporting my joints and organs to be weaker and stretchier than it should be. I have the hypermobile type which is the most common type. It's hereditary and incurable, and causes me pretty severe chronic pain and chronic fatigue, joint dislocations and subluxations, brain fog, and a whole host of other problems that are too many to list. I also have fibromyalgia and POTS (postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome) which are caused by my EDS and contribute to the pain and fatigue. My symptoms were pretty mild growing up so never really noticed anything was wrong until it started getting really bad in my mid-20s when I developed debilitating chronic fatigue. And now I'm frequently bedbound and can't really do much of anything except crochet ^^' It sucks, but I'm managing. I'm finally in a place thanks to being accepted for the disability pension where I can regularly go to physical therapy to help improve my stamina and joint strength so I can do more stuff, the upkeep is just extremely exhausting which is why I haven't really been active online in a while. Hopefully I can get to a place where the upkeep doesn't take literally all of my energy and I can start doing more of the things I enjoy again.

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Why did “be critical of your media” turn into “find all its flaws and hate it” why did people become allergic to FUN

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Look, no one is as frustrated at my inability to DO THINGS as I am. I am sick of being sick but I am trying. I wish people could understand that being disabled is a full time job. I have to keep up with regular doctor visits, medical tests, physical therapy, and also make sure I rest enough to continue to be able to do these things, as well as keep up with my business which I need because the disability pension is well below poverty wages. Abled people just can't seem to grasp that something as seemingly simple as sitting down to write is EXHAUSTING. I can't even sit upright in a chair for more than 2 hours at a time anymore without getting postural migraines thanks to my POTS!

I'm just trying to take things one day at a time right now. Please don't make me feel guiltier than I already do for not keeping up with something I do for free and purely for enjoyment.

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Are you planning on writing anymore or taking any more request?

I want to write, but my chronic pain and fatigue have been so bad lately I just haven't been able to find the motivation or energy. So idk.

And I have never taken requests so no.

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I’m curious

Explain in the tags no matter what you vote for if you want to ^_^

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"I wanna write but I am too fatigued to write" is just my permanent state of being now I guess.

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GET. AI. OUT. OF. FANDOM. Stop making headcanons with it, stop making fanfic with it, stop making fanart with it. If I see one more "asking chatgpt *blank* about *character/characters in a fandom* I'm going to lose my goddamn mind. Use your own fucking brain, stop asking AI to do everything. You could even ask other real people what they think. Just. Stop. Using. AI. In. Creative. Spaces.

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writing? oh, i’m definitely writing. in my head. during the most inconvenient times. like in the shower or when i’m about to fall asleep. actual typing? no, no, we don’t do that here.

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Love ur writing. Been reading all ur fics when I can 😁 I was just wondering if ur continuing Celestial (FallenAngel!Doflamingo x Reader)? It's the first fic I read that you wrote. 👋🏻

Thank you! <3

I will eventually. I don't really have a time frame for when though. I just kinda have to rely on the combination of my disability cooperating and actually having the time, which has been eluding me lately.

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Hello I love “Three Ways to Study Anatomy” and a lot more that was written by you and I’ve read it 3 times over so can you please make part 1.9 I don’t know what your working on at the moment so take your time I just wanted to ask Thxs :3

I'm glad you enjoy my work <3

But I'm disabled, it'll get updated when it gets updated. Could be a month from now, could be a year from now. I can't predict how my pain and fatigue levels are gonna be on any given day.

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Happy New Year, friends <3 I am very tired. 2024 was A LOT. Hoping for a very chill 2025 pls D;