I‘m sorry for hurting you so much. I have no idea why I‘m doing like this because it’s not your fault for what the world has done to you. But I have no idea how to love, I have no idea how to treat myself good. No one ever teached me. I was living from the lies of the past. Please, forgive me for being like this. I hope that I will make you proud one day. That you will not depend your happiness on others. But that you will only do it by yourself. I want you to look up at yourself. Be your own example of how it should be. You know better than anyone what you deserve. Wake up my dear and step out of this spiritual prison because you deserve to live.