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Hear, Listen, Take It In - Just Us Chapter 41

Warnings: Talk of PTSD, Mentions of Abuse, Some Fluff.

Word Count: 2622

Series List | Chapter 40 | Chapter 42

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I must have fallen asleep at some point because the next thing I know Wanda is gently shaking me awake; and I am met by the most beautiful smile and green eyes. Our position on the bed also swapped around at some point, I am now laying on my side with my head on Wanda's chest as her hand plays with my hair. I look up at Wanda with confusion at the change in position.

"You kept moving about in your sleep dorogoy, so I moved us around so I could hold you better. It seemed to help you sleep peacefully." Her hand continues to smooth out my hair as her voice is soft like music to my ears.

"Well even though I prefer to be the big spoon, this is a nice sight to wake up to. And you're very comfortable. Thank you princess." 

"You don't have to thank me baby, I love you and I love taking care of you." I tilt my head back so I am looking directly in her eyes.

"No I do. I have a lot to thank you for. Especially for not running away when you found out the truth." I remember how mad and upset she got and it hurts me to know I caused it.

"Well we are past that now. I Know the truth so please don't allow what happened to hurt you. It was all one big misunderstanding."

"Misunderstanding is an understatement." I hear Wanda huff out a laugh. "Do you forgive me?" Wanda's brows furrow in confusion. 

"Baby you have done nothing that needs my forgiveness, but if it will help put your mind at rest then yes I forgive you for it all." She leans down to kiss my forehead.

"I love you so much. Thank you for staying." 

"There's nowhere else I would rather be." I look at the clock and realise the time.

"Wait, where are the twins?"

"Sharon and Yelena picked them up. Taking them bowling or something." I pout at the thought of Wanda not being with her boys.

"I'm sorry." 

"What are you saying sorry for? You've done nothing wrong." 

"I caused you hurt when you thought I was married. Then I caused you panic when I had flashbacks and now I am taking you away from time you could be spending with your boys." 

Wanda moves from beneath me and I almost whine at the loss of contact. I was comfortable. She presses the button that makes the head of the bed fold up to a sitting position and she pushes herself back against it sitting criss-cross applesauce. She looks down at me patting the space in front of her, following her silent instruction I move myself so I am sat in front of her. My hands in my lap, as my fingers of one hand pull at the fingers of my other hand.

"Dorogoy, I need you to look at me when I say this. I need you to hear it, listen to it, take it in. I need you to hear what I'm about to say. So please can you look at me, just one more time?" 

I let out a shaky breath as I move my head upwards so I can look into her eyes, a small smile graces her lips, her nose scrunching and I fawn over the sight. Her hands move into mine, grabbing onto them and placing them on my calves as she holds them.

"Everything you just apologised for you have no control over. Now before you say 'I could have told you about Sarah' no, no you couldn't. And that's because your brain was conditioned not to by her , and your brain and your body still react to things in  a way because of her . So not telling me you were married is more her fault than anyone else's. Your flashbacks are completely and utterly out of anyone's control. I know that you have therapy for a reason, and that it has probably helped but baby PTSD will always be with you. Now I want to learn what I can do to make sure I don't trigger you into an episode like today. I want to be able to look after you and care for you but I also need to know how to not put you in a situation where you need to be cared for and to be looked after. If that makes any sense at all. Finally, I chose not to pick the boys up. They are 14 years old, and very very smart. Sometimes too smart for their own good. I didn't tell them what happened or anything like that, I just said I have to be with you right now and all they said in return was 'go be with her'. That was a decision we made together for you. So please, and hear me when I say this. Please stop apologising for things that you cannot control. I know you felt guilty but you have to find a way to let it go because I am not mad, or angry or frustrated with you. I love you so fucking much Y/n, you hear me, so much. So please stop apologising."

I know I have tears in my eyes because my vision is now very blurry, my bottom lip is quivering and even though my breathing is steady it is shaky. Wanda removes one of her hands from mine to use the pad of her thumb to wipe at the bottom of my eyes to help the tears to fall. When I blink away the rest, Wanda's hand moves to cup my cheek wiping some of the tears from my skin. She has what seems to be a proud smile on her face, it's not big and wide it's subtle and her eyes have this extra emotion I can't quite read. 

"I hear you." It's the first words to leave my mouth and she presses her lips together still smiling slightly as she looks at me like I am the most precious thing in the universe.

"Do you believe me when I say those words?" I hesitate for just a second, but Wanda allows me to take that moment's hesitation to recollect my feelings and thoughts and there is only one word that I can see floating around in my own head.

"Yes."

A knock at the door brings us out of our little bubble, my head turns to look through the small pane of glass to see who it was. Natasha is on the other side, with a guilty look on her face. Why is she guilty? When our eyes meet through the glass I smile at her waving for her to come inside but her expression doesn't change. The door opens and closes slowly, Natasha's head bowed to look at her hands as they fiddle with the ends of her sleeves. I look back at Wanda with confusion written on my face, but all she does is give me a small smile and shuffle to the left side of the bed so I can join her in sitting up against it. 

Natasha stays standing by the door, I think her eyes are red and puffy but it's hard to tell when she isn't actually looking at me. I feel Wanda's hand come to rest on the back of my neck as she plays with the baby hairs, also remaining silent. 

"I'm sorry." The words leave Natasha's lips with a sigh, my brows furrow as I tilt my head in question but her eyes stay trained to the ground.

"Is the floor really more interesting than me?" Natasha huffs out a laugh as she brings her head up but her eyes don't follow her movements. "Natasha...Nat...what's wrong? Why are you apologising to me?" 

"I scared you." My face scrunches in complete confusion turning to Wanda to see if she knows, but she simply nods her head towards Natasha telling me it's between me and her. Great guess I have to figure this one out.

"How did you scare me?" I ask gently, my voice level so she knows I have no anger towards her.

"You flinched." Another sigh escapes her lips. "Twice actually. Both times because of me."

"That wasn't on you Natasha. You did nothing wrong. It's my fucked up brain that reacted." I tap my head a couple of times to get my point across, but before Natasha can say anything we are interrupted.

"Okay I was going to let you talk it out but your brain is not fucked up, it has been fucked with and now you are dealing with it. There is a difference." Wanda glares at me, hating how I talk about myself. 

"What do you mean it's been fucked with?" Natasha is now looking at me, the guilt look almost gone and replaced with worry. Meanwhile my eyes dart between Natasha and Wanda.

"You...you didn't tell her?" My mouth agape with shock.

"It's not my story to tell. I did tell her not to come barging in here and to try and keep her movements not so...aggressive I guess." I'm speechless, blinking back a few tears. I don't know why I am getting emotional. "Baby, do you want me to give you some time with Natasha?" 

"Do you mind?" I can't comprehend how Wanda knows what I need, but also has so much care about her that she doesn't tell her best friend all my dirty little secrets, the skeletons in my closet if you will, the moment she can. She didn't tell Natasha. She really cares, I mean I knew that but she actually truly cares about my feelings. My emotions. My fucked up brain, no, my trauma. And I trust her with my life with that information. I'm brought out of my thoughts by a kiss on my cheek.

"Of course not dorogoy, Natasha can come and get me when you're done." Natasha simply nods as Wanda walks past, but not before enveloping her best friend in a hug and whispering something in her ear that makes her visibly relax. Once Wanda closes the door behind her, Natasha looks up at me pointing to the end of the bed.

"Can I sit?" She is apprehensive, she seems nervous of every little move she makes.

"You don't have to ask." I pat the space in front of me, and she slowly makes her way onto the bed. Her movements are slow and calculated. "You don't have to move so slowly Natasha, you won't hurt me." 

"But I did."

"No you didn't. Steph hurt me." The words flew out of my mouth before I could stop them, Natashas movements stop as she looks up at me. "Sorry that just came out."

"Is it true?" Natasha is now sitting criss-cross applesauce in front of me, like me and Wanda before, her head tilted slightly but a relaxed smile on her face.

"Has Wanda told you anything?" 

"Only that your ex's actions have caused a lot of reactions. I know about the panic attack, and how you got the black eye but not why on both accounts." I hum in acknowledgement taking in the small bit of information. "I know trust can be a hard thing to give, I get it I do, but Wanda doesn't tell us anything that we don't need to know. I trust her with all I have and she has never let me down."

"I trust her. That's why I told her these things. Apart from the I used to be married part, but she told me it was because of what Steph did. Something I became conditioned to." 

"Do you believe that? Because from the sounds of it she is right." 

"I do mostly. I'm working on it."

"Is there anything I can do to help?"

"Just be there for Wanda when she needs you." She furrows her brows.

"No I meant for you Y/n. What can I do for you? What actions of mine today caused you to flinch? What can I do as a person to try and stop myself from causing whatever I caused?" Natasha frowns at the thought.

"You didn't cause anything."

"Y/n you ended up in hospital after flinching at me, how did I not cause this."

"I have PTSD Nat. No one could have done anything. It was a massive flashback that I truly didn't realise was a flashback till I woke up in hospital. PTSD works in wonderful ways like that."

"Okay so you have PTSD. Is there anything else I need to know?" Her voice remains calm. 

"I'm in therapy, wait Wanda told you that. Just that the quick movements you jerking your arm like you did where it left my peripheral vision, and the quick bending down. That's what caused me to flinch but it didn't cause anything else before you ask." 

"Is this what Wanda means by your brain is condition to those sort of reactions?"

"Steph wasn't the best when it came to my PTSD."

"Steph is not sounding the best here Y/n."

"She wasn't." I bow my head at my confession. 

"Why did you stay with her?"

"It's not like I had a choice!" I scoff, scowling at Natasha, before completely hating what I said and shooting her an apologetic look. "Sorry, I just mean I had just got to a place where I thought I could date again after losing Sarah, and there was Steph. She seemed so perfect and so ready to help me back to a place I once was. She started out patient and kind, but it soon turned into controlling and, uhm, yeah. Anyway, I was only with her for like 6, maybe 8 months."

"That's long enough Y/n. She used your trauma against you. If I ever see her she is going to have to deal with a very angry russian on a warpath." Natasha seethes and I feel the anger radiating off her body.

"And an angry Sokovian." Me and Natasha both laugh as we think about what Wanda would do to Steph if they ever met. Natasha seems to realise something as she looks up at me.

"You trust and love Wanda, but you still have that fear that she is going to turn on you like Steph did. Don't you?" I open and close my mouth to try and tell her no, I know Wanda wouldn't do that but I don't know that because we have only known each other a month.

"I wish I didn't." Is what I say instead.

"Y/n. I've known Wanda for years and never once as she ever used my shit, my deep dark secrets against me not once. So take it from me when I say Wanda is not going to hurt you like Steph did. Wanda loves you. Like full on, in this forever love and I truly believe that. The love Steph had for you was not love Y/n it was pure and utter manipulation and an abuse of power. Wanda doesn't have an abusive bone in her body. She would never use your shit to get what she wants."

"I want to be 100% fully committed in this, I mean I am, I just mean my brain needs to catch up with my heart."

"Is there anything she can do to speed that process up at all?" 

"Yeah." I let out with a huff of air as the one thing that I would never ask of her but know needs to be done because Steph never did.

"What is it?"

"For her to meet Sarah."

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[wandafiction]

First Meeting - Just Us Chapter 40

Warnings: Mentions of death, Blood, Abuse, PTSD, Little bit of sexual tension and suggestive theme.

Words Count: 3432

Series List | Chapter 39 | Chapter 41

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"Y/n what does she mean murdered? You said she died, nothing about being murdered." I think I hear restraint in Wanda's voice, she's mad at me again. I'm sure of it.

"I mean I guess you could call it murder. That's what the man is going down for." I shrug nonchalantly.

"Y/n what man?" I jump a little when I hear Natasha's voice forgetting that she is a part of the little huddle on the floor.

"The man and his crazy fucking boss." I explain like it's the simplest thing in the world.

"Y/n you're not making any sense."

"The man that killed my wife and child is going down for murder, his boss is going down for plotting said murder. It's easy enough to understand, is it not? 1 man paid another man to kill my wife and child because of something I did!" My voice raises as I become a little hostile towards the two women and I don't realise what I've said until it's too late.

"You still blame yourself." It's not a question but a statement that leaves Wanda's lips. "This is what was going on between you and Loki, wasn't it? Whatever happened he blamed you for it all. Y/n none of this is your fault, you told me so yourself."

"I know that. Deep down I do, I do, I do. I do. I do. I didn't kill her. I didn't kill her. I didn't kill her. I...I...I….I didn't…..I didn't…..I didn't….kill. I didn't kill her." My voice fills with hatred towards myself because the more I say it the less I believe it. 

I didn't kill her.

No.

Yes.

No, I didn't kill her.

Yes, I got her killed.

My brain keeps going in circles over and over, a constant battle of what I did and didn't do. The pain I did, or didn't cause. How I got my own wife and child killed. How it's all my fault. How none of it is my fault. It's a viscous cycle that won't just end, it's keeps going and going and going and going and going and fucking going. And then when it seems to have quietened down and I have a split second to think about where I am in reality I'm sucked back into the void, the endless void where I see my wife holding my child in the hospital bed with that amazing smile on her face. 

"Baby we did it. Look at our baby girl. My little Stark. My beautiful girl, you have your mama's eyes." 

My wife looks up to me and the Hospital bed is thrown across the void, the scene changing before I can even comprehend that I'm being pulled towards them. Their lifeless bodies, covered in each other's blood. Covered in my blood. Glass and metal shards embedded in their skin, their eyes white with no ray of life visible. Not even a slither. I lean down to close my little girl's eyes, before moving towards my wife. I place my hand on her forehead staring into her lifeless eyes, my two fingers pull down over her eyelids. 

"It's your fault." My body jerks back as my wife's body comes to life, her cold broken hand gripping onto my wrist leaving bright red marks. "It's all your fault." 

Before she can do anything else I see two white lights flickering above me, the darkness of the void momentarily lights up and I see a hint of red….maybe some green too. Then darkness….

I jerk awake, the harsh white lights blinding my eyes as I scramble to sit up struggling for breath. I slam my eyes shut to protect them from the white light, I feel a pair of hands on me but I shove them away mine fly to my chest as I feel the tightness of it. Everything stops when I hear a voice. Her voice.

"Y/n it's just me. It's Wanda." Her voice sounds hoarse. Has she been crying?

I slowly open my eyes allowing them to adjust to the light, as they dart around the room to try and identify where I am because I am most definitely not in Tony's office anymore. I hear a rapid beeping and turn my head to look at a machine, a heart monitor, I'm in a hospital. How the fuck did I get here? What the fuck is going on? The last thing I remember is, is my wife staring at me with those lifeless eyes. I look up to see Wanda's worried eyes on mine, she hasn't moved since I opened mine, she hasn't attempted to touch me, her hands on the railing of the hospital bed. It must have been her hands I pushed away. I slap my lips together swallowing saliva to try and wet my throat and lips.

"Can I touch you Y/n?" My throat is too dry and sore to reply so I just nod my head rapidly.

Wanda stands from the hospital chair, slowly placing her left hand on my right hand. She doesn't hold it, or try and squeeze it, she just rests her palm on the back of my hand. The instant I felt the skin on skin contact I let out a shaky breath, my bottom lip quivering as my eyes filled with tears as they looked at Wanda's tear stained cheeks, her red and puffy eyes. But she was smiling, it wasn't a fake 'try to make you feel better' smile. This smile was real. It was genuine. It gave me the strength to turn my hand in hers, our palms coming into contact with one another as I slide my fingers in the gaps between hers and squeeze it. Holding on with all I am. 

Wanda let's out an small laugh, as she bites her lip to contain the huge smile trying to grow on her face. Her eyes darting down to look at our hands, they glisten a little at the sight before they look back up into mine. 

"Hi baby." Her voice is soothing, I could fall asleep listening to her talk, the hoarseness is still there but I'm way too distracted by her smile to notice.

"Hi…" The words get stuck in my throat as I cough at how dry it is.

Before I can even ask, Wanda leans over to the table next to my bed, her free hand picking up the cup as she holds the straw between two fingers and places it between my lips. I take a few big sips, and it hurts more as it goes down my throat then when it was just dry. Because that makes sense. After I have finished off the cup, Wanda pulls the straw from between my lips placing the cup back down on the table. Her other hand remained in mine the whole time.

"Hi princess." She smiles widely as a few tears fall down her cheeks.

"Hey my sweet girl. I love you so much." Wanda's free hand comes up to cup my cheek, instantly I tilt my head leaning into the touch. 

"Did I black out?" 

"You did baby, yeah. You kept repeating yourself and me and Natasha couldn't even get you to look at us or even hear us. So Natasha went to get Stark, who phoned your sister who then told us to phone your therapist. And while all that was happening you collapsed in my arms and I was on the phone to 911." 

"Sounds very dramatic even for me." Wanda laughs and I beam up at her when I hear it. 

"Even though that's funny, it's not the time for jokes." Her eyebrows almost touch as they scrunch with worry, her eyes filling with new tears. "You scared me baby. I didn't know what to do, nothing I was doing was working." 

"Hey, hey." I squeeze her hand, bringing my other one up to hold hers against my cheek more. "There was nothing you could have done." 

"There has to be something I could have done. Baby you looked so helpless and I felt awful not being able to help you." 

"Princess come here for me." I shuffle my body to the left side of the bed patting the small space I created.

Wanda raises her eyebrows at me but easily follows my directions, carefully placing her body next to mine. Her body is positioned higher than normal as her head rests at the top of my arm looking down at my chest as her right hand draws random shapes. Her left one is still holding mine as our arms connect with each other. Wanda looks up at me through her eyelashes, I am just looking at her taking in the sight of the red-headed goddess next me. The very same goddess who is looking after me, making sure I'm okay, making sure she knows how to help in the future.

"Wanda you wouldn't have been able to help me because I had a severe PTSD episode." Her eyes never leave my face, she frowns slightly at my words but let's me continue. "I haven't had one in maybe 10 months, then before that it was probably 2 months. Both those times I was with steph. Both of those times she thought I was playing the crazy card. The first time it happened she tried to get me to snap out of it by tapping my cheeks, when that didn't work it turned to a big ole slap. I mean that worked. But it meant that the second time my brain completely shut down to the outside world until I passed out. So that's what happened today, it's not because of anything you did or didn't do, it's because of…."

"Her." Wanda's voice is harsh, her tone sharp not mentioning her name. 

"I've been working on it." 

"With your therapist?" Her voice is unassuming as her whole mood does a whole 180.

"Yeah. I've been going ever since the accident." 

"And then she added to the trauma?"

"Yup." I pop the p as I smile down at Wanda.

"Sorry for interrupting with all the questions." I feel her hand slide down my chest towards my abdomen where she starts drawing a random pattern. 

"What do you want to know?" Wanda moves her head so her chin is resting on my arm, her eyes searching mine as she thinks quietly to herself. 

"Tell me about Sarah." Her voice filled with excitement as her nose scrunches. 

"What about Sarah do you wish to know?"

"Hmm. How did you two meet?" Wanda lifts her body up slightly, pushing herself down the bed a little, moving her head to hover over my chest looking at me for permission.

 I nod my head in answer to her silent question, her head lowers to my chest, her chin resting gently on my sternum as she looks up at me. Her whole body is on mine as her legs wrap themselves with mine, her torso on my lower abdomen and waist. I feel her let out a content sigh as her hand that's on my abdomen moves back up to my chest. Our hands, that are still tightly gripped together, are resting on the pillow so it is comfortable enough for both of us. 

"How did me and Sarah meet?" I feel her nod against my chest.

"Please baby. I want to listen to the whole story."

"Okay princess." Wanda moves her right arm to bend underneath her head as she rests her cheek on her forearm, her fingers still lightly drawing shapes and patterns.

2014

I'm walking through the halls of NYU, yes I am at the University at the age of 14 -soon to be 15- I'm just that smart. I finished highschool this year and am looking around the science study areas. Luckily, I'm quite tall and with the help of a little makeup I look like I fit right in. I'm being shown around by some student council member or something, they were very proud of their title...don't tell them but I definitely ended up rolling my eyes at it.

They push open door 10a, the class of students all turn to look at me before looking back to the lecturer. My eyes search the room as everyone sits in their lab coats preparing for the experiment on the board. It is an acid and base experiment, one I could do with my eyes closed but the lecturer is explaining it in baby talk to them. 

"Can anyone tell me how the hydrochloric acid and sodium hydroxide will react together?" The lecturer looks at the class.

"Will it lead to a neutral solution?" The lecturer raises an eyebrow at the boy who asked the question.

"Mr Rumlow I said can anyone tell me not can anyone ask a question." I smirk as the boy slouched down in his chair.

"Come on, anyone. This is basic science." The lecturer places his fingers on the bridge of his nose. "Imbeciles."

"The result will lead to a rise in temperature and the formation of salt also known as sodium chloride. Water is also a product of the reaction." I state matter-of-factly. 

"See that's what I'm asking for class. What's your name miss?"

"Y/n. Y/n Danvers."

Now you have to remember at this point, even though I was living with the Barton family I had not yet been adopted so I still had my maiden name.

"Well Miss Danvers." I grimace at the use of the name the lecturer seems to realise. "Sorry Miss Y/n. I'm Professor Stark or as everyone calls me Howard. So Miss Y/n could you explain to the class what type of reaction this is?"

"Sure! It's a neutralisation reaction where sodium hydroxide is the base. The Na+ being the cation. The hydrochloric acid is obviously the acid with the Cl- being the anion which means the sodium and chlorine will bond together while the hydrogen and oxygen bond together. Henceforth you get salt and water."

"Thank you Miss Y/n. You're one of the two young students, correct?"

"Yes sir. I don't know where the other person is thou…" I get interrupted by someone else entering the room.

"Hi sorry I am late, my car broke down." The young girl starts rambling.

"I don't want excuses Miss Potts." Howard is stern and it makes Miss Potts scowl.

"Sorry Sir. Sarah is fine." 

"Sarah this is Y/n the other young student starting today. Y/n and Sarah you will be lab partners throughout this whole semester. I hope your work is as good as they say it is."

"Of course Sir." Sarah is quick to make her way to the only free desk, leaving a space for me. 

"Is there a reason you are still standing Y/n?" I look back to Howard and nod.

"Yes sorry, I just have to hand you this." I make my way to his desk handing a note over that explains a little about my current situation if I am ever late or falling asleep in class.

 I may be living with the Barton family, but that doesn't mean I have escaped my own. He simply nods and points to the free chair next to Sarah, which I scurry over to bringing out my book and notepad. Sarah on the other hand brings out a brand new laptop and tablet that sync up with one another, a smug look on her face.

"So. How did you get accepted into NYU so early?" Her smugness is really pissing me off already and I have to work with her for the whole semester.

"On scholarship." I reply like it's no big deal.

"Yeah right. Like someone like you could make it into a programme like this." She scoffs next to me.

"What exactly do you mean by that? What sort of person am I?" I keep my voice calm and measured, raising a simple eyebrow her way.

"You know." She flicks her hands towards my notebook. "Poor people." 

"Oh and little Miss daddy buys me everything, definitely isn't here because her grandads the lecturer." She scowls at me, turning her chair that makes a horrible noise against the floor, making everyone laugh, so she can look directly at me, my voice quiet as we argue at the back of the room trying not to draw attention to ourselves.

"What do you mean by that?" She spits her words at me.

"Mr grand daddy dearest, up the front there. You see him. Big nose greying hair. Oh right you know that already because you have known him your whole life. Anyway, how much did grand daddy dearest pay the board to get you to come here. Was it full price or do you get a family and friends discount?" Her eyes dart to look at Howard at the front of the room, then back to me.

"How did you know he was my grandfather?" Her voice softens, afraid the rest of the class might hear.

"It's not that difficult to tell. His son, Tony -also known as your dad- is married to Pepper potts. Your surname is potts. Also you have his eyes."

"Oh shut up and get on with your work." She turns in her chair to start up her laptop."

"You're not the boss of me. I can do whatever the fuck I like." Her head turns on a swivel, giving up on turning her laptop on her undivided attention to me.

"Yeah like what." I smirk and see her eyes drop to look at my lips and my smirk only grows. I lean in closer so my breath tickles her face.

"Telling you how if you're a good girl and get on with the work this semester there may be a fun reward at the end." I hear her breath catch in her throat and I try not to laugh, this is too easy.

"Yeah, well what would the reward be?" She tries to act cool after her little breathing mishap.

"Still trying to think of something, well I can think of something…"

"But?"

"But you will just have to be good and find out won't you." She grumbles to herself but I catch her readjusting in her seat. Ha I win!

Present day

"So wait, you're telling me you knew she would be into that sort of thing and you played her weakness against her?" Wanda's question makes me laugh out loud, covering my mouth so I'm not laughing in her face.

"It was a gamble, that paid off."

"Well you did end up marrying her."

"I did."

"So was it like an enemies to lovers sort of thing?"

"Even though that is an overused storyline sometimes yes we very much didn't get on at first. I continued to fluster her, she continued to fight me against every little thing."

"What changed?" 

"Her grandad was chewing her out for not getting the same grades as me, and I only beat her by a few marks each time. So one time when we had a test I completely flunked it got a 0 out of 100 and when I was the one being chewed out I put him in his place saying 'you can't pick and choose between fighting me and your granddaughter because we both have our different strengths I failed this test to show you that you're pitting us against one another. Your granddaughter got the same marks as last time but because I got 0 I am the one in trouble. We may not get along, me and Sarah not properly but it isn't fair on her to have her role model bare down on her everytime my strength shows through. So until you can learn to keep your anger and god-like complex in check I will keep failing.' What I didn't realise was that Sarah heard the whole thing and that night she came to my dorm crying happy tears and hugged me. And from there on we became more than friends to one another, it took time and patience but we got there."

"Wow. That's quite the beginning for a love story." 

"It was you're right...but I like the way our story started the most." Wanda's eyes shine brightly at my words as she lifts her head to look down at me.

"Really? Ours was nothing compared to that."

"It was everything compared to that."

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[wandafiction]

Love Persevering - Just Us Chapter 39

Warnings: Angst, Mentions of Death/Murder, Over Thinking, Implications of Past Abuse

Word Count: 3100

Series List | Chapter 38 | Chapter 40

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(Natasha PoV)

Stark shoves me out of the door, leaving Wanda and Y/n by themselves. He tells Pepper something that I don't listen too, I am seething with anger. I'm angry. No, I am fucking livid. I am angry beyond comprehension. Stark is blocking my path to the door to his office but I half a mind to push him out of my way, go in there and drag Wanda out of there before I beat the living shit out of the other person in that room. But I can't because Stark is using his body as a shield, and he is currently holding his daughter. Well his younger daughter now that I know he has another one.

"Miss Romanoff, follow me please." My head turns on a swivel at the woman's voice, my eyebrows scrunching.

"Sorry?!"

"I said would you follow me down to your office." She presses the button for the elevator and I let out a hollow laugh.

"You really think I am going to leave my best friend up here alone with that cheating whore?!" Pepper winces at my words, her gaze dropping to the floor before back up to me with new found anger.

"I said follow me to your office. It is not a question but a demand. So Miss Romnaff get your ass in the elevator and follow me. And watch your language when around my daughter. Thank you very much." I feel like a scolded puppy as I kick my feet at the floor walking towards the elevator.

Me and Pepper wait outside the elevator doors, Tony disappears into the stairwell with Morgan probably telling her that 'everything will be okay'. Which is complete and utter bullshit. How is any of this okay? She cheated on her WIFE with WANDA, after Wanda had opened up about Vision. She even met the twins! I mean how screwed up and pure evil do you have to be to work your way into someone's life, get that person to fall in love with you only to find out that you were screwing them on the side. It's like some sort of conquest! 

The doors to the elevator open, Pepper places her hand on my back walking me in, knowing that if I get the chance I would turn around and give Y/n a piece of my mind. As the elevator door starts to shut I hear Wanda erupt with anger in the office, okay so she can handle herself for the moment. The doors close and the elevator starts to move, silence engulfing the two of us.

"You need to apologise to Y/n." My head whips around a look of utter shock on my face.

"You can't be serious right now Pepper. That girl in there cheated on your daughter with my best friend and you want me to apologise." Pepper holds her hand in front of my face to get me to stop talking.

"Nat, is it okay to call you Nat? You know what it's not important. What is important is that when you go back in there after you have calmed down you apologise for scarring my daughter, Morgan if you were wondering. You apologise to Y/n for raising a hand at her…"

"I didn't raise my hand at her, I pointed at her. I may be angry but I wouldn't have hit her, especially not in front of a child."

"It's all the same to Y/n. You may not have noticed it but Tony did, she flinched when you moved your hand. So I don't care how angry you are, you apologise for scarring her." My jaw drops to the floor. How am I the one in the wrong right now?

"Why are you protecting her? Whatever fucked up fantasy land dreams you're thinking up this isn't it. Your daughter-in-law cheated on your daughter and you are taking the whores side?! Explain it to me Pepper. Why are you and Tony so adamant that everything will work itself out? Because it doesn't, we don't find the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. When you wish upon a star it doesn't come true. So when you cheat on your spouse you create a fucking tsunami of hurt and yet here you are defending her!" I slam my hand against the side of the elevator, getting my pent up anger out.

"All I am going to say is it's not what it looks like." I scoff and nod my head sarcastically.

"Right because what does it look like. Y/n who has been fucking my friend for just under a month, made her fall in love, met her children ends up being fucking married! Tell me how it is not what it looks like Pepper. Tell me how Wanda is going to explain to her boys that the Y/n that they spent all day watching movies together with yesterday, that they are never going to see again because Y/n is a dirty cheating whore. And if I had half the mind to do what I wanted to do then we wouldn't have to hear from that scum on earth ever….."

"SHE WAS MURDERED NATASHA!" I immediately shut up what I was about to say, Pepper's hand flies to her mouth realising what she has said she takes a breath before continuing. "My daughter. My beautiful baby girl and m-my grand...my grandchild were murdered "

I'm at a loss for words, I'm no longer angry. How can I be? I mean I'm still a little mad that Y/n didn't trust Wanda with this information and that it had to be found out this way. But then again I understand, because I've been where Y/n is I've been in that dark place. Where you wish yourself to tell them but every time you do it's like your subconscious takes over telling another lie, or at least not the truth, because it wants to protect that side of you. Oh god I called her a cheating whore in front of her sister and parents in-law. Fuck!

"Pepper, I am so fucking sorry." I turn to the woman to try and show her how sorry I am, but nothing I can do will fix what's been said...what's been done.

"About which part?" Her voice is cold, yet full of emotion.

"All of it."

"You were not the one who killed my daughter and grandchild, so please don't apologise to me about that." Pepper turns to look at me, I may be a scary Russian who drinks vodka for breakfast but right now I feel like I am being put in time out by my mother. That's scary. "It's also not me who you should be apologising to."

"Right. I will apologise to everyone. Now am I allowed to go back up to the office to make sure my best friend hasn't murdered my other friend?" I say as the doors to the elevator open on my floor. Pepper doesn't say anything, she just steps out, gives me a smile and presses the button to the top floor.

What the fuck am I going to say when I get up there?

(Y/n's PoV)

Wanda ended up pulling me into her lap, now I may be tall but it doesn't seem to bother her. My right side of my body is against her chest, my legs placed over hers with my knees bent up slightly towards my chest. Just so not all my weight is on Wanda's lap. My head is stuffed into the crook of her neck, and it's now my hands turn to fiddle with the rings on her right hand while her left scratches at my scalp gently. We have been sitting in silence since she told me we were going to be okay, I still have a lot of guilt towards the whole situation but just knowing that she isn't going anywhere helps a little at easing that.  Wanda seems to realise something as her movements in my hair stop and she moves her head to look down at me.

"Baby?" Her voice is gentle, her breath hot on my neck causing a small shiver down my spine.

"Princess." I kiss her neck so she knows I am listening.

"You know you can talk about her right?" I tilt my head back to look at her.

"We have talked about her."

"No, I mean the way you allow me to talk about Vision. I know it's not the same situation at all. But you can talk about her, what she was like, your memories together. It wouldn't upset me, in fact I would feel honoured to know about the person that made you so happy you married them." I almost feel like crying again, steph never let me talk about her...maybe that's why I didn't want to tell Wanda, oh I don't know.

"I'm happy with you." Wanda gives me a toothy smile at my words, her beautiful green orbs shine brightly in the harsh office light.

"Yeah? Well I'm happy with you too." She leans her head down, our lips join together in a slow and love driven kiss. Showing each other nothing but the love we have for each other.

"But you mean it. You want to hear about her?" I put my head back in the crook of Wanda's neck as her hands restarts its movements through my hair 

"I want to know anything and everything you are comfortable sharing with me." My face pales as a thought jumps to the front of my head.

"I hid a photo from you." Wanda's brows scrunch in confusion, but her movements in my hair don't stop.

"What are you talking about?"

"That first morning, after we met, I woke up before you. There was a picture on my bedside table of mine and Sarah's wedding day. I ended up putting it in the draw….the draw where I still have my ring….I didn't know what else to do. I didn't want you to freak out, but maybe if you had seen it we could have gotten past this part of my life so much quicker." I hear and feel her take a deep breath in before releasing, pulling my head closer to her neck with her hand.

"There is no getting past death Y/n. She will forever hold a place in your heart, she was your wife. You thought you were going to have forever with her, she was the one to you. But being truthful, if I had seen that picture I would have probably freaked out more and left, at that point we didn't have each other's numbers so we probably wouldn't have seen each other again."

"Huh, I guess not. I still hate that I hid this from you." 

"You didn't hide it from me Y/n, you didn't lie about it. This is a part of you that you have to take time coming to terms with, this is something that only you know when you are ready to tell the other person." 

"Why are you so good to me?" 

"Because Y/n you deserve all the happiness I can give you and more, you deserve to be treated the way you treat others. Full of respect, love, and kindness. You are humble, you are magnanimous, you are compassionate, you have a good disposition and you deserve all of that and more Y/n. I want to show you how it truly feels to be loved the way you love. If you let me." 

"You're going to make me cry again. Stop saying all the right things, you're meant to hate me, cuss me out for lying to you, tell me never to speak to you again or at least about her." I feel Wanda move beneath me, she shuffles her body so she is sitting facing me, her legs under my butt while mine are either side of hers. She is looking into my soul again. 

"I want to give you a piece of advice that Vision once told me. He may not have been the best husband, or good with emotions but he was a smart man. Can I tell you what he told me after my brother was shot?" 

"Of course Wanda." I look back in her eyes, I will never get bored of those eyes.

"He told me. What is grief if not love persevering?" I take it in, she is right, Vision is  a smart man. "I don't like the fact that he was the one to come up with it but here we are. I mean he is right, the only reason you feel the level of sadness that you do is because of how much love you had for Sarah." 

"I like that saying. Thank you Wanda. Would it be okay to put the photo of her back up, and in my wallet?" 

"Can I ask you something Y/n?"

"Anything." She smiles at me, remembering the first time I ever said that.

"How did Steph react when she found out?" I swallow harshly realising what she is getting at.

"I know you're not Steph, I'm sorry...I...it's just hard to get out of the mind set sometimes."

"It's not about you knowing I'm not Steph, it's about me knowing how I can help you when your mind goes back to the place it was in when you were with her."

"She didn't take it very well." 

"How bad is not very well?"

"She chucked the ring down the garbage disposal. Took me forever to get it out." 

"Well I promise you now I am not going to throw anything that belongs to you and her away. Have as many pictures out as you want. You are allowed to grieve for her when you are with me, please, please know that." I take in her words, I allow them to settle in the dark parts of my brain, soak them in. I feel her words speed up my heart, her eyes searching mine for any hesitation about what she has said but when she finds none she smiles and kisses me.

"I love you Wanda."

"I love you too Y/n."

We both jump apart slightly when the room to the office swings open and collides loudly with the wall behind it. I hide my face back into the crook of Wanda's neck but keep an eye on the person's shoes as they stand in the doorway. It's Natasha. Oh fucking hell!

She starts to make her way over to us, her movements from what I can see are calm and maybe calculated. She isn't stopping or rushing; she is taking her time, hardly making a sound. I don't like this. Her movements stop when she is standing in front of us, no one has said a thing but I can feel Wanda's jaws move slightly so I know she is trying to silently communicate with Natasha.

Natasha suddenly bends down and the movement is so quick it causes me to flinch and press myself against Wanda, like a toddler who is scared of the big bad monster and needs protection. Natasha freezes, not moving a muscle, Wanda's hand momentarily freezes in my hair but within a split second continues. Why did I flinch? Stupid, stupid subconscious. Natasha may be angry but she isn't going to hurt me...well at least not when Wanda is around.

"I'm sorry Y/n I didn't mean to scare you earlier, or just now." Natasha's voice is as calm as I have ever heard it, like she is trying to get a wounded animal to come out of hiding. 

"What do you mean earlier Natasha?" I can feel Wanda's head move as she looks between me and her best friend but I keep my head hidden in the crook of her neck. I want to look at them I really do, but some part of me deep down is stopping me.

"Can you look at me Y/n? I want to apologise and I want to give you a hug but I need to know that you're okay first." I close my eyes pressing my lips together at Natasha's words trying to get a control on my mind that is moving way too fast for my liking. 

"Baby?" 

"Look Wanda's here. You know nothing is going to happen with her in the room." Natasha slowly lowers herself more to the floor so she isn't crouched on her toes anymore. Once her butt is on the floor she slowly pulls her legs in sitting criss-cross applesauce, then puts her hands on her calves where I can see them. 

She doesn't want to hurt me. I know that. Her movements, her actions and her words show me that. But I've heard those words so many times and so many times it was a lie. Natasha slowly and ever so gently lifts her hand in the air, but it remains in my line of sight.

It's okay Y/n breath. She is not going to hurt you. She may be a very angry Russian but she isn't going to hurt you.

Natasha holds her arm out straight, about an arms length away from me, and turns her hand up so her palm is facing the ceiling. She doesn't say anything, she doesn't need to. I know what she is asking for, and know what she is doing and it brings me so much relief that she is letting me do this on my terms. I finally and slowly move one of my hands out, raising it in the air and moving it towards Natasha's. I hover my hand over hers, only a few inches between them. She doesn't move her hand, she is waiting on me. I place my hand in her hers, wrapping my fingers around her hand and drag her towards me. Her body comes into contact with mine, her arms instantaneously wrapping around my body as Wanda does the same. I finally feel my mind stop racing and my body relaxes into the touch.

"I am so sorry Y/n." Natasha is the first to break the silence.

"I guess Tony or Pepper told you?"

"Pepper kind of shouted it at me when I wouldn't shut up."

"That sounds like Pepper." 

"Why didn't you tell us they were murdered?" Natasha asks and my mind freezes over and I feel Wanda tense against me.

"Murdered?"

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[wandafiction]

Sarah Stark - Just Us Chapter 38

Warnings: Angst, Hurt, Conflict, Mentions and Talks Of Death, Small Panic Attack.

Word Count: 2586

Series List | Chapter 37 | Chapter 39

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You're married!?" Wanda's voice is laced with anger.

"Okay Wanda we heard you the first time no need to shout it out again. Why do you care anyway?" Tony hisses at Wanda.

"Not the time Tony." I grit my teeth, trying to hold all my emotions in.

"Because I am dating your daughter-in-law." Wanda pushes herself off of the couch her and Natasha are on, her words venomous. 

"Oh I see what's happening here. Wanda…." 

"Stark shut it." I interrupt him before he can say anything else to add fuel to the fire.

"Right! Morgan, Natasha let's leave these two to talk." Morgan makes her way to Tony who lifts her up and Natasha stands from the couch, her eyes boring into mine.

"Leave these two to talk. What is there to talk about? She is married to your daughter! Isn't it obvious what is going on. Your daughter-in-law is a filthy cheat!" She spits out as she moves towards me, her hand moves quickly and I flinch. She ends up pointing her finger up at me. "You disgust me."

"Miss Romanoff!" Tony's voice echoes around the room and she falls silent. "I said let them talk." 

Natasha huffs out an angry puff of air before turning on her heels to look at Wanda who simply nods, not trusting her words. She turns back around to look at me pointing an accusing finger but before she can do or say anything else Tony is pushing her out of the room with his free hand.

"Pepper escort Natasha back to her office where you will stay, me and Morgan will join you once I've got her a drink." Tony's voice softens as he speaks to his wife, as the door shuts behind him.

The room falls quiet. The tension is so thick I feel like I am being strangled by a pair of invisible hands. Wanda is pacing backwards and forwards in front of the couch mumbling away to herself, not that I can hear what she is saying. I don't move a muscle afraid of the repercussions if I did. I swallow the lump in my throat as my eyes follow her movements.

"Wanda." I don't get to finish as she comes to a halt in front of me, her nostrils flaring her face red with anger.

"No! No! You don't get to hey Wanda me! You are married for fuck sake Y/n! What, was I some sort of game to you! Some sort of have your fun then dump me on the side of the road?! Was I even something to you! You told me you loved me, you promised me! You promised me that you would never hurt me the way Vis did! But here we are! You have hurt me, so fucking much! And your poor wife! What is she going to say?!" She fumes saying everything that is on her mind. "Do you even care how I feel about this whole thing? What about the boys? They adore you! What am I going to tell them now? Oh by the way boys turns out that it was all big fucking lie! Y/n never loved us and do you know why she never loved us. Well I will tell you. Because she is fucking MARRIED! SHE HAS A FUCKING WIFE AT HOME!"

"Wanda." My voice barely a whisper that I don't hear it myself as Wanda continues. 

"My friends, my friends trusted you! Natasha trusted you! My little boys trusted you! I FUCKING TRUSTED YOU WITH EVERYTHING I HAD! And you throw it in my face like it's some useless words on a scrap of paper! How fucking dare you!" She pushes her hands into her hair gripping it tightly as she gets angrier and angrier. "I should have listened to Natasha when she said you were hiding something! Deep down I knew it too but I didn't want to believe that because you made me so fucking happy. You made me happy for the first time in a long time and then you just go and rip my heart out of my chest like none of it mattered! Did I actually matter to you Y/n?! Did you actually give a fuck about me and how I was feeling?! Or was it all just a fucking act!"

"Wanda." My voice is louder this time, and she turns to look at me with tear stained cheeks and red puffy eyes. I can feel the tears rolling down my cheeks too, but I stand my ground as she seethes at me.

"What Y/n? What could you possibly say to fix this?! There is no fixing it! You have completely destroyed anything that we had going!"

"They died Wanda!" I shout at her not being able to get a word in-between hers, and all her movement stops and her jaw opens and closes.

"What?" Her voice is quiet and breaks a little.

"They died….she, she died….they both did." 

"Both?" She slowly takes a step towards me, all of her anger disappearing from her body morphing into concern.

"My wife and m-m- my 2 month old baby girl." I take a couple steps back and when I feel my legs hit the desk I slide down to the floor and a loud sob escapes my mouth. 

"Y/n...I…" Wanda moves towards me, bending down to match my height. "Y/n...can...can I touch you?"

"Mhmm." In an instant her arms are around my body as uncontrollably sobs take over me.

Wanda sits on her knees pulling my head down to her chest, my hands move to grip the front of her shirt pulling on it slightly. My knuckles turning white the longer I hold on, I can feel Wanda's arms wrapped around my head holding it in place against her beating heart. Her hands weave through my hair as she rocks us side to side.

"Shhh….shhhh...I've  got you. I've got you Y/n, okay. I have you, I'm right here." Her voice is no longer angry, but it's transformed into this calm, level and soothing voice that I concentrate on. "Just listen to my voice, my heart beat, feel my hands in your hair and my shirt in yours. I have you. You've got me. I am right here."

It took me forever to calm down, now be proud of me I didn't have a panic attack, just a very emotion fueled breakdown. Wanda held me in her arms the whole time whispering reassurances in my ear making sure I knew she was there and willing to listen. I loosen my grip on her shirt first which is now soaked through either my tears, I feel her look down as I remove them completely resting them against my own damaged heart. I don't have the nerve to move my head to look up at her, so I keep it on her chest, her arms securely wrapped around it.

"I'm sorry. I should have been honest with you from the start." It's the first words out of my mouth, I have to let her know that I truly am sorry and that I will apologise till the end of my day's making sure she knows it. 

"You have nothing to apologise for." I scrunch my brows in confusion, why is she being so nice to me.

"But I do. I hurt you, I hurt you badly. Don't be nice to me when I hurt you." 

"You didn't mean to hurt me."

"But I did." 

"But you didn't mean it. And it only hurt badly because I thought I was a homewrecker. That you had used me. I didn't know you were a widow."

"How would you? I didn't tell you." She pulls me closer to her, I feel her lips connect with the top of my head as she plants multiple kisses up there.

"Were you ever going to tell me you were a widow?" I swallow harshly. 

"I was." It's the truth. "I was going to sit you down and tell you. I had this whole idea of making you food and spending time with you so you know how much I love you. Then I was going to ask you to sit down so I could tell you something. You weren't meant to find out like this."

"I know baby, you're okay." She gives my head another kiss. "When did she pass away?" 

"It will be 2 years next month, on the 8th of November. My baby girl would have been 2 this year." My bottom lip quivers as I think about the prospect of my child not growing up. 

"You were only 20 when she died?"

"Mhmm. She had just turned 21." Wanda continues to stroke her hand through my hair, placing kisses on the top of my head every now and again. 

"How long were you married?" Wanda's questions are cautious but I am glad she is asking them because I need to tell her.

"We were married for two years. We married in 2017 a few weeks after I turned 18." 

"What was her name?" 

"Sarah. Sarah Stark."

"Can you look at me please baby?" I reluctantly move my head away from her chest, closing my eyes as I lean my head against the desk.

I take a few deep breaths before opening my eyes, looking at the wall ahead. Wanda's hand grasps mine that's fallen into my lap giving it a squeeze. I take a shaky breath as I slowly turn my head to the right to look at Wanda who is still sitting on her knees next to me. I can't meet her eyes so I just look down into her lap.

"Dorogoy please look at me." Her voice is patient and it almost makes me cry again. "Baby please." 

My bottom lip quivers more as I move my head upwards, my eyes still trained to Wanda's lap. I push my lips together to try and get the bottom one to stop moving, to no avail and slowly move my eyes up Wanda's body preparing myself to meet hers. The tears start freeling rolling down my cheek when I see nothing but love and a bit of sadness in Wanda's eyes, her cheeks stained with old tears. My bottom lip moves rapidly as my emotions take over. Wanda cups my face stroking her thumbs against my cheek to try and rid them of some of the tears. She brings her forehead to mine, her eyes darting from left to right but I can hardly see out of mine with how many tears they are holding.

I feel Wanda's thumbs move from my cheeks to between my cheekbones and eyes, where she gently rubs them left to right pulling the skin slightly so that my tears can escape. I blink rapidly a few times trying to clear my field of vision and when I do I am met by the view of the most beautiful and amazing woman but I still feel so fucking guilty within myself that I didn't have the guts to tell her.

"I'm sorry Wanda. I am so fucking sorry. I feel so fucking horrid for not telling you before, I should have told you. I should...I should have told you." Her hands move back to cup my cheeks as she pulls my face up gently making sure I am looking at her.

"Y/n stop." I suck in a breath, her words stern but ultimately caring. "Please just stop. You my sweet, sweet girl have nothing and I mean nothing to apologise for. You shouldn't have to apologise to me about how you couldn't tell me you lost someone you loved."

"But you told me about vision." 

"Oh my sweet baby. They are two completely different situations. I told you about vision because we divorced, because the children I wanted you to meet also have a father involved and I knew he would be brought up. I didn't tell you about vision under some false obligation that you would do the same. Divorcing someone who you no longer love is on the complete opposite scale when it comes to having what you love most torn away from you. So please do not apologise for this. Do you understand me dorogoy?" 

I have no words, I'm not even sure my own voice works at this point so I just nod and take my bottom lip between my teeth trying to stop it from moving again. Wanda moves her hand down to my jaw, her thumb pulls at my bottom lip until it slides out from underneath my teeth. She strokes her thumb across my lip before moving it so she can kiss my lips. Her left hand moves to the back of my head to pull my face closer as her right hand holds onto my jaw, her pinky finger resting underneath it while her other fingers spread out up to my cheek. 

The kiss is full of emotion, as she gives my bottom lip most of the attention not letting up as my hands weave into her hair to hold her close to me. When she starts breathing through her nose she slowly releases my lip from her, pulling hers away so they are ghost mine as she rests her forehead against mine. 

She pulls me with her as she sits back against the desk, her feet under her butt as she sits on them, her right hand pulls my head to rest on her left shoulder. I look up at her emerald eyes, once again getting lost in the forest of greens and other colors that swirl together. Wanda looks down at me, I can't decipher how she is truly feeling but I just hope we can work through this.

"There is nothing to work through Y/n." 

"I didn't say anything?" Wanda looks down at me, a small smile tugs at her lips.

"You didn't have to." She pecks my forehead. "There is nothing to work through because you did nothing wrong, nothing about this ends up with you in the wrong. You were scared, worried and you probably don't won't do bring up a conversation about someone so close to you passing away. I feel horrible for you that I had to find out this way."

"Shouldn't  I be the one saying you should have found out from me." She shrugs her shoulders.

"Maybe, but ultimately your past shouldn't have been dragged out like that. It doesn't matter what it is. It shouldn't have come out till you were ready for it to." 

"I love you so much Wanda. Please know that." My eyes search hers for any hesitation when I say the words, but I don't see any and a smile grows on her lips.

"I love you too Y/n. So much." Her thumb starts to draw circles against my cheek as she leans down to peck my lips a few times.

"Are you going to be okay?"

"I am going to be just fine Y/n. Are you okay?" 

"I will be." I hesitate before asking. "Are we going to be okay?" 

"We Y/n are doing just fine. You keep on being your caring, loving, adorable and big hearted self and I will continue to share all my love with you. We are going to be okay." 

"We're going to be okay."

"Yes."

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[wandafiction]

Tickle Monster - Just Us Chapter 37

Warnings: Fluff, Angst.

Word Count: 1904

Series List | Chapter 36 | Chapter 38

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It's now Monday, gah I'm so in love with the woman on my lock screen….yes Wanda is my lock screen call me whipped or a simp because that is exactly what I am. The rest of the weekend was really calm, I managed to make my special pancakes which everyone enjoyed while we watched an early morning movie. Yelena and Sharon managed to join us just before I had to get Nathaniel home and ate the spare pancakes I saved for them. I have now been labelled the breakfast chef, so whenever we hang out I have to be the one who makes breakfast. I don't mind, I love to cook.

Sunday Wanda invited me over to hers, to hang out with her and the boys. It made my heart melt when she phoned me to ask, she was so nervous which confused me because I practically spent most of my nights and mornings there before the boys returned from their dad's. I mean she was so nervous Billy ended up stealing her phone from her to ask me instead.

"Do you want to come around to watch TV, play games and help my mama cook dinner?"

It was wholesome and I swear I could hear Wanda blushing from my end of the call. Of course I said yes, and went Via the ice cream parlor and shops to grab some things for everyone including Wanda's favourite Pumpkin ice cream. We had such an awesome day full of us snuggled under blankets laughing and enjoying the movies we watched. Me and Wanda were cuddled up together on one couch, me sat against the corner, my legs laying straight towards the other end while Wanda sat in my lap, her legs intertwined with mine as her back pressed against my front. And Of course I gave her head scratches while she played with my rings on the other hand. 

I kept looking from the TV to the boys every now and again, as they sat on opposite ends of their couch. I caught them looking at me and Wanda a few times, every time they would smile at the sight of Wanda in my arms. It was in moments like those that I knew I would protect those boys, I even gave them my phone number in case they needed anything. 

Anyway, back to the present. I am currently leaving my workplace to head to stark industries, or as we like to call the building the tower. Stark called me in, something about him wanting me to meet a few people who could work a joint operation for his company and mine. So here I am, coffee in hand as I head up in the elevator to Tony's floor. 

Ding . The elevator doors slide open and I am met with the view of the blonde woman at the desk. A smile grows on her face as she sees me and I scoff at the sight of her still sitting behind the assistant's desk after all these years.

"I see papa T still has you as his assistant even when you own half of the company." I laugh as Pepper stands up to bring me into a hug. "How are you Mama P?"

"I am doing well Y/n. How are you doing? How's the thing with the woman you are seeing going?" She sits on the edge of her desk and I park my butt next to her as we both look at the mural on the wall in front of us.

"Honestly I am doing fucking amazing. I feel amazing, I am happy. Also me and her, we may have said 'I love you' to each other." I feel a small blush grow on my face as Pepper's jaw drops.

"No way?"

"Yuh huh. It happened this weekend."

"When you were with Nathaniel and her boys?" 

"Yup. She just hugged me and said the words. Honestly I forgot how to breathe when the words left her lips, it's like the earth stopped spinning on its axis. It was so scary hearing those words but at the same time it was so perfect. They weren't forced or dragged out. It was just the two of us and she just sort of said it in the moment." 

"That's how it should be. You shouldn't have to have these big grand gestures to show your love for one another. I mean sure treat her to an expensive meal out or a surprise holiday once in a while, but don't pin all your love on those things. It's the small things that really woo a lady." 

"What is Tony Stark all about grand gestures?" I bump our shoulders together as she laughs looking down at that floor then back up to me. "He still hasn't got it through his head you are allergic to strawberries has he?"

"No he hasn't." Pepper laughs as I wrap my arm around her. "But he tries and that's all I can ask for."

"That's all anyone can ask for." 

"You speak the truth. Right anyway, Tony is going to be waiting for you."

"Is it formal or can I address him by Papa T?" I stand up from my desk smoothing out my suit.

"No, not at all. Morgan is even in there. It is really an unofficial meeting just something to chuck ideas around."

"Okay, well I will see you on my way out Mama P." I lean over to kiss her cheek as she gives me another hug before situating herself at the desk.

I enter Tony's office, which is huge, to see that instead of him at his desk it's Morgan. She looks up as soon as she hears the door open, her eyes shine with excitement as she spins the office chair around scrambling to get off of it. Her little body darts around the edge of the oak desk barrelling towards me, jumping into my arms squeezing me half to death.

"Sissy!" She snuggles her head into the crook of my neck as I lift her up onto my body a bit more, her legs wrapping around my torso, her arms around my neck. 

"Hey nugget. Look at you, you got so big. How old are you now, 12?" She shakes her head laughing at my silliness. 

"No silly. I'm 5." 

"Oh really? Well, do you know what you get when you are a big, strong 5 year old?" 

"No. What?" She leans back in my arms to look at me in question. 

"They get a visit." I slowly and discreetly move one hand away from her back ready for what I am about to do.

"From who?" 

"The tickle monster!" She squeals as I push my hands against her stomach, attacking it with my fingers as her body squirms to try and get away. 

"Stop!" Her voice is breathless between broken laughter, so I stop for a second to let her catch her breath. 

I move her body so I am cradling her more in my left arm and her right side is against my front as she catches her breath. When I see her breathing calm down a little, her chest not rising and falling so fast, I walk two fingers from her foot all the way up her leg. Her little body wiggles to try and get away but I tighten my grip, not too hard but enough so she won't fall out of my arm. When I reach her t-shirt, she is fully prepared for me to tickle her because I hear her hold her breath. A smirk plays on my lips before I lift up her top slightly, planting a big raspberry on her stomach, making her giggle and try to push my face away with her hands. I do it again on the other side of her stomach, before starting my tickle attack again. 

"Sissy, stop. Please." I immediately stop and bring her body back against mine so she can snuggle against me. 

"You good?" I check in with Morgan bouncing her a few times in my arms.

"Yeah, I'm okay."

"Good. I didn't hurt you."

"No. But my lungs hurt from laughing."

"Okay, well they can rest now. The tickle monster needs a break too." She hums against my neck. "Where's your dad kiddo?" 

"I'm right here." Tony says as he gives me the Tony Stark winning smile as he enters his office from a door on the left hand side of the room, where I believe the toilet is.

"Papa T!" I bounce Morgan up and down to grab her attention. "I'm going to put you down so I can greet your dad."

"Okay. I will be at the desk." Once I put her down she scurries back into the office chair continuing on with whatever she was doing before I interrupted.

I turn to look at Tony who opens his arms up for a hug, which I gladly embrace in pulling him tight as we both pat each other's back. He takes a small step back moving his arm to cup my face, running his finger over where my back eye was a few weeks ago. When he sees no evidence of it he smiles and nods at me.

"How are you Papa T?" 

"I'm perfect dear. How is my favourite daughter doing?" I nod my head in his hands.

"I'm great, but technically it would be daughter-in-law." He points his finger at me trying to act tough.

"You became my daughter the moment you married mine." I give him a sad smile as we pull each other in for another hug.

"There are two people I would like you to meet." He spins my body around to face the back wall that you can't see when entering and my entire being freezes up. "This is Natasha Romanoff and Wanda Maximoff. They are my international relations people for Russia and Eastern Europe and I thought they could work with you in getting supplies deployed over there."

I don't say anything. I can't say anything. I am currently looking at a very angry Russian, I mean if looks could kill I would be way past 6 foot under. I mean she would lock my body up, throw away the key, incase me in cement before locking that up and throwing it all in the ocean never to be found again. She is way past livid, I am shitting myself right now. 

I then turn to look at Wanda. My heart breaks as I see tears in her eyes and a look of complete devastation and heartbreak. That look is going to be burned into my brain for the rest of my days, it is going to haunt my mind, my thoughts, my dreams, that look...that look I wish I had never caused. She wipes at her eyes, looking at Natasha who is still staring daggers at me, then back to me. She opens her mouth to speak, no words come out. I do the same. Then finally she sucks in a harsh breath, looks me dead in the eye and asks me the question I never wanted her to have to ask. I wanted to tell her I did, but there was never a good time. The only words that leave her mouth, break mine and her heart as she says them.

"You're married?"

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[wandafiction]

10 Out Of 10 Dive - Just Us Chapter 36

Warnings: None

Word Count: 2671

Series List | Chapter 35 | Chapter 37

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(Wanda PoV)

I freeze on the spot. Holy shit I didn't mean for those words to come out of my mouth, but they did and it's too late now, there is no turning back. Y/n hasn't said anything but I did feel her grip me tighter, so I know she definitely heard. What if she doesn't feel the same? What if this was all a huge mistake? Me and my big mouth I couldn't just keep those words buried deep down inside could I? No. It felt good to say them…

She still isn't saying anything…

Why isn't she saying anything?

I've scared her off... 

But she is still holding me…

Say something. Please fucking say something.

"You love me?" Okay so she said something. 

I pull away from the embrace slightly so I can look up into those captivating eyes that tell 1000 different stories all at once. Her hands come to gently rest on the sides of my arm, while I move my palms flat to her chest as I rub up and down it with miniscule movements: afraid I've already scared her off with my words I don't want to scare her off with my movements. She moves her hands so they move up and under the t-shirt sleeves so there is the skin on skin contact that I always melt into and cherish. Her thumbs rubbing gently at the skin just below my shoulders. I press my lips together, gathering my thoughts on what to tell her, but I can't tell her anything different because she already heard the words. So I am going to explain why I love her. I hope she feels the same or is getting to a point where she does because of course she does not have to say the words if she is not ready. I just, subconsciously, needed her to know where I was at. Stupid subconscious for making this amazing morning into this, stupid 3 word talk.

"I do. I love you Y/n. I really do love you so much." I let out a small sigh as the words leave my lips but continue on. "I love everything about you. I love the way you take care of me in and out of the bedroom, I love how you always ask me about how I am feeling or what I want to do. I love how you ask for my opinion on matters that I thought wouldn't need my opinion, but when you ask for it my heart skips so many beats. You just care so much about me and my wellbeing it's infatuating this feeling that only you can make me feel. The feeling of being safe, of being cared for, of being someone's priority, being something to someone. You have helped me escape the cage of never feeling good enough for anyone in just the few short weeks we have known each other. You always tell me how much you adore me, how much you love seeing me smile and hearing me laugh, you make me feel enough for someone. For my kids. For myself. I dived right in head first. 10 out of 10 dive, and you have caught me like you promised you would. I am wholeheartedly in love with Y/n and I want to share that love, the passion I feel towards you with the world. I just want to shout it from the fucking roof tops. I love, I am in love with you, Y/n Barton. I want everyone to hear it. I want everyone to know it. So to answer your question. Yes I do. I love you Y/n."

I have no idea how I just did that, without becoming a nervous wreck. But I did it and I can feel my nose scrunch from the smile on my face as I go over and over in my head what I am feeling. It's just indescribable. It's love.

She hasn't said anything…

My smile drops when I realise she still hasn't said anything. I bow my head, my sock covered feet becoming the most interesting thing in the room. Why hasn't she said anything?

"Wanda." Her voice is level, calm and soothing but I don't look up. "Wanda please look at me."

I feel her place her finger under my chin, lifting my head up to meet hers. What I don't expect to see are the tears in her eyes as they become glassy, a few having already escaped. I scrunch my brows as I use the pad of my thumb to clear her face of tears that have already escaped. 

"I'm sorry for freezing up. It's just, I didn't expect those words. Well not when you said them. I wanted to say it first." I bite my bottom lip in anticipation of what she is saying. "I wanted to take you back to Hela's kitchen, maybe stroll back down to the park. I wanted to go and watch and listen to that violinist again. And then I was going to tell you how I am so head over heels in love with you. It's impossible not to be. Wanda you are one of the most amazing people that I have ever met and I feel honoured to have been able to meet you, get to know you, call you mine and fall in love with you. I promise you now, that I will do everything in my power to show you just how much I love you everyday, how much I care for you and how happy and loved you make me feel. I will be there with you right by your side through everything. And do you know why?"

"Why?" My voice cracks with emotion as I feel my own tears start to fall down my face.

"Because I love you, and only you. I am in love with you."

Well shit here come the waterworks. I let my tears flow freely as I smile so wide it hurts my cheeks and I can taste my salty tears but I don't care. I don't care because she loves me as much as I love her. She is in love with me. I am in love with her.

"You worried me for a second, you went so quiet. You didn't have to say it back, but when you said nothing at all I think I might have shit my pants with how scared I was." 

"I'm sorry, truly. I just. I haven't heard those words being spoken to me in a fair while and the last time someone said them they used that to their advantage. Not that I think you ever could or would, I just need you to know why I froze." My heart breaks at her confession. I hate what her ex put her through, not that I know much but I know enough to know that relationship was abusive and toxic. 

"I know baby, I know. Just know that I will never hurt you the way she did." I cup her cheeks stroking my thumbs across them.

"I know princess."

"But I need you to listen, to hear it and to understand it." She bites her lip as her eyes scan mine and I stop all my movements so she can concentrate on my voice and only my voice. "I will never hurt you the way she did. I will never use your feelings or my love for you as an excuse to hurt you." 

Her bottom lip quivers as she wraps her arms around my body bringing me in for an emotional hug as I feel her tears drip from her face and down onto my shoulder  as she whispers thank you in my ear over and over. My arms are wrapped around her body, and I have to go up on my tiptoes to be able to run my hand through her hair and down her head to try and soothe her a little bit, my other one rubbing up and down her back. Damn her and her tall stature. 

I feel a small body wrapped around my legs, making me jump a little bit but when I look down I smile at Nathaniel who is hugging my leg resting his chin on my hip as he smiles up at me. Y/n's left arm unwraps from me and I feel another body join us snuggle into my right side, as Y/n's left arm wraps around the body and me. It must be Tommy as he is just below my height and it was easy for Y/n to wrap her arm around the both of us. Her other arm moves and I feel my other son, who is annoyingly taller than me, join our huddle. When Y/n wraps her arm around Billy she plants her hand on the top of Nathaniel's head running her fingers through his short hair. 

I want to stay in this moment forever.

(Natasha PoV)

My movements stop in the doorway of my kitchen, I didn't really expect anyone else to be awake, let alone have a huddle of 5 bodies cuddling one another in there. I look past them to see a small mess in the kitchen, pancake mix it seems, it looks like they had fun when trying to make breakfast. Obviously, they got distracted because I see no pancakes in sight. I must look like a creep just standing in the doorway watching this family have a moment.

Woah.

Family. 

I mean that is exactly what they look like from an outside perspective. They look like they have known each other forever, a loving and caring family. I know that's all Wanda has ever wanted, and even though vision gave her the twins who she loves with her whole heart he could never give her the family aspect of it. Sure he did his bit when he was home, it wasn't very much and it wasn't the best. He treated Wanda like a piece of shit on the bottom of his shoe, but she could never escape it because her thoughts were always about the boys.

"I am staying with him for the boys. I can't have them growing up with parents who don't at least try."

She always used to say that to me. Always. Whenever I would bring up the idea of leaving him. Now I think about it, I don't think they were ever her words. No. They were Visions. He was never physically abusive, not that I knew of as I always would pay close attention to Wanda looking for bruises that thankfully weren't there. However, I know he was manipulative and got inside her head twisting her thoughts to become his own. I will never understand what he did to make her stay for so long, or if she really just put up with him for the children until she couldn't fight it anymore.

That day she turned up on my doorstep, the twins in the car bawling her eyes out which were red and puffy, I swore to myself I would never forgive him. I also promised myself never to let Wanda get into that sort of relationship again, not that she tried getting into a relationship. It's hard when you're a single mother of two teenage boys, there is either no time to look for someone you want to be with. Or when you find that someone and want to introduce you to their kids, they run. Now Wanda had been with a few people over the past two years, but they all ran saying they were not ready for children and they were definitely not ready for two teenage boys.

And then she met Y/n.

Something changed in her, for the better. It's like she is floating on air whenever she is with her, she smiles that amazing smile i haven't seen in so long, she never shuts up about her. Which is annoying, but shows me how much she truly cares about Y/n. The night after they first met, on one of our girls nights, I had asked Wanda what Y/n was like. 

"She doesn't care that I have children."

Now that sentence took me by surprise. It's not the first thing I thought she would say in a million years, that someone she had literally just met the night before already knew she had two teenage boys and didn't run. Y/n didn't run. The smile on her face when she told me that she didn't run was insane, her face creased with happiness. Then she mentioned she was 22 and to say I was surprised was an understatement, it took me a second to realise she wasn't joking. But after she told us more and more about Y/n over these past few weeks, I soon came to realise that it didn't matter how young or old Y/n was because Y/n makes Wanda extremely happy.

She has had this extra glow this past week and a bit, this extra confidence within herself. I've noticed it, I know the girls have noticed it. I'm not sure if Wanda is even aware of the change in herself, but we can all see it. The way Y/n is looking at her right now shows me she can see it too, her eyes are full of adoration and she is so gentle with Wanda. She is so good for Wanda, she has brought my friend's confidence back. She has brought my friend's smile back. She has brought my friend who I have missed for so long back to me. For that I can never thank her enough. I love to see Wanda so happy.

However, I still get the feeling she is hiding something from Wanda and I love Wanda to bits so if she hurts her I will kill her especially with how happy Wanda has been. It would destroy her. Whatever she is hiding she better tell Wanda soon, because the fallout could be huge. I am brought out of my staring at the family when I see Wanda plant a kiss on Y/n, well they must have told the twins then.

"I love you." I hear Wanda say between the two of them, my eyes go wide and I feel my jaw drop to the floor. 

She loves her.

Now she better not hurt her.

"I love you too Princess." Y/n speaks the words so softly I almost don't hear them, but then she looks up to me and smirks. "Hey Natasha."

"Hello." I push off the doorway, seeing Wanda hiding her very red face against Y/n's chest. "Sorry you guys. Did I step on your moment?"

"Shut it Nat." Wanda grumbles against Y/n's chest and the boys and her laugh, me joining in too. 

"So you love each other?" I raise an eyebrow at the lovebirds.

"Yeah, got a problem with that?" Wanda shoots towards me, no  malicious intent behind it.

"Nope." I say popping the P.

"Sorry about the mess Natasha, me and the boys were making pancakes. It sort of turned into a messy pancake fight. I will clear it up once I've actually made some." Y/n moves away from the group hug as she starts collecting the ingredients to start again.

"No problem. Also please call me Nat. Friends get to call me Nat." I see her smile with her back turned to me.

"Okay Nat. Why don't you take Wanda and the boys into the living room to watch some TV while I cook everyone some food."

"Sounds good to me, chef." I turn to the boys and Wanda ushering them out of the room, the look Wanda is giving Y/n makes me feel very single because all I see is love. Ugh.

But she loves Y/n.

Y/n loves her.

They love each other….

Holy shit they love each other.

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[wandafiction]

Pancakes And L Bombs - Just Us Chapter 35

Warnings: None

Word Count: 3861

Series List | Chapter 34 | Chapter 36

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"I'm hungry." Tommy interrupts Nathaniel's story about something that I have no clue about, he just keeps babbling on about aliens and space but we are all still huddled together just listening. 

"Me too." Billy pipes up.

"Me three." Nathaniel looks at me from the end of the bed.

We have all shuffled around, since I kept losing feeling in my limbs with everyone on top of me. I am currently in the center of the bed, sitting up with my back to the headboard, Wanda is laying down on my left with her head in my lap as I weave my hand through her hair and allow her to play with my fingers of my other hand. She is so cute and very much just like a puppy who loves attention. Nathaniel is sitting with his tiny butt on my shins, his legs in the small gap between mine as he leans back a little against my feet using them as a cushion. 

Tommy seems to be like his mom when it comes to physical contact as he is on my right side leaning against me, with my arm wrapped around his shoulders he has one hand on his lap while the other is holding onto Wanda's free one that is resting on my leg. Billy seems to have become quite protective, much like an older brother, towards Nathaniel because he is currently sat behind Nathaniel. Behind my feet because I am not dealing with two humans on my leg. His arms wrapped haphazardly around his little body, as he rests his chin on the crown of his head. Billy is also allowing Nathaniel to play with his hands, which consists of a lot of pulling of his fingers and clapping his hands together. It is so cute my heart can't take it.

"You hungry Wanda?" Her head turns upwards to look at me, a small smile plastered on her face.

"I could say yes to some of your famous pancakes." I look around at the other faces.

"Pancakes good with everyone else?" Everyone nods their heads excitedly at me. "Good because I make some killer pancakes and I haven't made them in a while."

Now even though me and Wanda are all cuddly at the moment we haven't actually told the boys about us, and when I say boys I mean Tommy. But it's not hard to see what's right in front of you, and I wish I could read Wanda's mind to know what she is thinking right now. I know Billy knows and is perfectly okay with it, Nathaniel is too young to know 100% what's happening but he is also not supid. Tommy keeps giving me a look, not a threatening or confused, but he looks at me then down to his mom and just smiles back up at me. I think he knows, no I know he knows but I also think Wanda wants to tell him just so everyone is on the same page.

"I can hear your thoughts from down here Y/n." I'm broken out of my train of thought by Wanda's raspy voice. I can hear a small amount of her accent present in her voice. I noticed she hides it more in front of her friends but it comes out when she is with her boys.

"You can speak normally Wanda, I think Nathaniel would find your accent pretty cool." She snuggles her face more into my lap and I feel her smile against me.

"You have an accent? That's so freaking cool, American people are so boring!" Nathaniel lifts himself a little so he can shuffle up my body, his feet are now against mine and his stomach is on my legs as he rests his head on my thighs to look up at Wanda.

"I do indeed little one?" I fawn over Wanda as she lets her full accent slip out, removing her hand from mine and gently weaving it into Nathaniel's short hair before cupping his cheek. 

"Woah. I love it." I feel Wanda giggle into my lap as she rubs her thumb against Nathaniel's cheek and he leans into her touch more. 

"Even though I am enjoying sitting in bed doing nothing, I need to get up to make pancakes." I say out loud as my stomach grumbles and Nathaniel laughs against my leg while Wanda turns her head to look at me.

"That was right next to my ear." She whines up at me cringing at the thought of the sound.

"Well if you got up from her lap she could go and make food then you can relax against her all you want without weird whale noises ruining the moment." Billy gives his mom a cheeky grin and I lean across to high five him.

"Your child is right. Up or no pancakes." I hear Wanda gasp and scramble to get off my lap.

"Rude, that is rude. You can't threaten me with no pancakes to get your way." She pouts at me knowing exactly what she is doing and I have to refrain from kissing her.

"She's right though mama she can't cook pancakes if she is still in bed." I laugh aloud when Wanda's hand makes contact with Tommy's thigh at his cheekiness but he earns a high five from me.

"I'm up see, not on her lap she can easily get up and go." Wanda tries to act angry but the small smile on her face doesn't go unnoticed by us. 

"Aww is mama all sad she is going to miss out on her big Y/n bear hugs." Billy moves to sit next to Wanda bumping her shoulder as she grumbles. 

"Nope. Not one bit." Wanda tries to act stern but it's really not working and me and the boys are trying hard not to laugh.

"So you're saying if Y/n left this room right now without giving you a hug. Just up and left to make food, you would be okay and wouldn't chase after her for a cuddle?" Tommy leans his head forward looking past me to his mom to see her reaction, she grumbles a little and sticks her tongue out at the boy.

"No, I mean yes I would be completely fine." Wanda's arms are crossed against her chest as she sits criss-cross applesauce sauce trying to force a pout onto her lips. 

"Should we test it out. Y/n, Nathaniel, let's go make those pancakes." Billy climbs off the bed leaning over to grab Nathaniel holding him against his chest to carry him downstairs. 

I turn to see Wanda's eyes widen slightly but she regains her composure a little still trying to act like it won't bother her. Her hands land in her lap, starting to fiddle with her fingers as she looks down at them hiding her true emotions. Oh my poor baby. Billy taps my foot to bring me out of my thoughts and I slide my butt along the bed slowly until I'm at the edge. Wanda hasn't moved but I can see her look at me through the corner of her eye. Okay then let's see how long she lasts.

I push myself off the bed turning back to see Tommy has a smirk on his face and his waving his hand at me to keep going. So I do. Billy and Nathaniel exit the room first while I hold the door open for them. Tommy is still on the bed with his mom and I tilt my head in question but he just waves me off trying to get a reaction out of his mom. 

As I exit the threshold of the bedroom, I hear the bed sheets rustling and the padding of feet against the carpeted floor. I feel her arms wrap around me from behind, her head between my shoulder blades squeezing me tightly. Her hands come to rest on my abdomen, I remove them gently, hearing a protesting whine leave her lips but she smiles at me when she realises I am just turning around to look at her. I wrap my arms over her shoulders bringing her face to my chest, I can feel her leave small pecks against it obviously not caring that the boys can see it too.

"Okay you got me. I like cuddles." Tommy and Billy laugh while Nathaniel awws which makes Wanda's smile grow. 

"Never do that again." Wanda looks up at me with pleading eyes.

"Never."

"Promise."

"I promise." I look past Wanda to see Tommy with a huge smile on his face looking at his mom, then to me and his smile seems to grow.

"Mama, why don't we let the boys and Y/n cook us pancakes." Wanda turns to look at Tommy as he suggests the idea.

"Um, okay. Everything alright?" Her eyes look worried as she looks back to me and I can guess what is going on in that beautiful mind of hers.

"I will leave you two to talk." I bend down slightly to whisper to Wanda. "He looks happy Wands try not to worry."

"Wands?" She smiles so bright I swear I need sunglasses. 

"Yeah, I thought I would try it out. You like it?"

"I do."

"Good. Now we will be downstairs when you guys are done."

"Okay." I let go of Wanda as she takes a few steps back in the room, my eyes go to Tommy who smiles and nods at me.

I turn around heading downstairs to join the boys who are already in the kitchen getting all the pans and mixing bowels out. I smile when I see the sight. Nathaniel is on the counter top swinging his legs in the air as Billy searches the cupboards for everything we need to make the pancakes. Nathaniel lists a few things he wants with his pancakes and Billy easily follows and grabs stuff out of the fridge, smiling at Nathaniel's smile. 

"Did we win?" Is the first thing Billy asks me upon entering the kitchen.

"We sure did." He comes up to me, for what I expect is a high five but in reality he hugs me tight. As he is hugging me I realise how tall he is as his head comes to just in line with my chin. "You're taller than your mother. I bet she hates that?"

"Yeah, I inherited my dad's tall genes and Tommy seems to have inherited my mom's height."

"Well she is still quite tall."

"Yes but not as tall as us." I see him look past me, so I turn my head to see Wanda leaning against the door frame as Tommy makes his way into the kitchen tickling Nathaniel as he passes. "Hey mom." 

"You two good there. You need a moment?" Wanda smiles at the sight as Billy is still hugging me.

"No, we are good just celebrating our win."

"Your win?" She curls an eyebrow in question.

"Yeah about how you can't keep your hands off Y/n." I choke on my spot and Wanda's face turns a dark red at Billy's choice of words. "Ew gross no I meant how you like physical touch….you know what never mind you know what I mean."

Billy playfully pushes me off of him in fake disgust, and I hold my hands up in surrender. He makes his way back to the ingredients and starts to measure them out for me while Tommy turns on some light music and starts dancing and singing in front of Nathaniel who is giggling his head off, wiggling his butt against the counter with the music. Wanda is still leaning against the door frame so I send her a small wink, which she smiles widely at, before I make my way to Billy to start making the food.

(Wanda PoV)

I watch as Y/n heads out of the room to go and make us all some food, turning around I see Tommy on the bed sitting criss-cross applesauce with a small smile on his face. He pats the space next to him, and I feel my stomach drop through my ass with nerves. Holy shit. I know that he knows that I know he knows, and all he is doing is smiling at me and patting the bed. How is he so calm? I take in a deep breath before releasing it through my mouth, making my way over to the bed. I place myself on the left hand side of the bed, my back against the headboard and pull the covers over my legs slightly because they are getting a little cold where I am in shorts and a shirt.

Tommy shuffles his butt across the bed to sit in front of me so I pull my legs up slightly, folding my arms on top of my knee and placing my chin on the back of my hands. I tap my foot against the bed as my nerves begin to build up, biting the corner of my lip to try and calm myself down a little and bring me back to my son who is sitting in front of me. I wearily search his eyes for any sort of emotion, but before I can get a definitive one he raises his hands up taking one of mine into each of his and starts rubbing his thumbs along my knuckles. 

"It's okay mama." I feel my lip start to quiver and the tears threaten to make an appearance. "I just want to ask a few things. Is that okay?"

"Sure honey." He brings my hands together clasping them inside his and the warmth I feel from them calms me down a little.

"How did you two meet?" Tommy and Billy have always been protective of me, Tommy more so than Billy so I expected questions. I'm just not sure which questions to expect, so I am going to be open and honest with him.

"We met at a bar, when I went out with my friends." He keeps rubbing his thumbs against my knuckles, not once does he stop knowing it will help keep me calm.

"Does she know about dad?" Okay I didn't expect that question, I furrow my brows slightly but relax when he reassures me that he just wants to know more about the situation.

"She does. She knows we divorced two years ago, she knows how he cheated and is with the very same woman. She knows that he wasn't the best husband but is a good father to you." 

"Okay, I just wanted to make sure I could talk about dad in front of her."

"You can. She lets me talk about him when I need to rant about something he did or didn't do in the past." I smile at the memory of her telling me it's okay to talk about.

"That's really amazing of her."

"Mhmm, she's amazing."

"She is. Next question." I look up to meet his eyes only seeing love in them. "How long have you been together?"

"I asked her last Saturday. She said yes obviously." Tommy laughs a little, shaking his head at me and looks right back at me with those oh so caring eyes.

"How long were you seeing her before that?" I stay quiet as I do the maths in my head.

"Something like two weeks. It's the 2nd right?" I'm still trying to work it out, but am amazed at how quickly we are moving. It's quite scary but it just feels so right.

"Yeah, we are in October now mama."

"Okay, then yeah about 2 weeks before I asked her out. We met on the 10th of September and I asked her to be my girlfriend on the 25th." Tommy nods his head a little as he takes in the information.

"So you guys are moving quite quickly. How are you feeling about that?"

"So many things Tommy. It's scary how much I feel towards her in just this short amount of time. It's scary and nerve racking but at the same time it feels amazing and I feel so safe with her. It's like I am feeling every emotion all at once but the one that stands out the most is…."

"Love." My eyes widen slightly and stay locked to Tommy's. "You love her mama. Don't you?"

"I do. So, so much Tommy." I see a huge smile grow on his face causing his eyes to almost close. My nerves all but dissipate at this point as a matching smile grows on my face at my admission of my feelings. "I really do love her."

"Does she treat you right?" 

"Amazingly Tommy, you saw how she was this morning." He nods for me to continue. "Well she is like that everyday. She cares about what I have to say, and what I'm feeling. She is so patient with me, as this whole thing is new I'm still learning about myself and she has been there with me the whole time. She answers my questions with no judgement, especially when I think it's a stupid question but she simply tells me that I am allowed to ask those question. Tommy she is just, ugh, words can't describe it." 

"She sounds truly amazing, mama. I'm so happy to be able to see you smile like this again, to be able to feel safe and comfortable with whatever it is you are thinking or feeling. One last question. Are you happy?"

"Tommy there are not enough words in the dictionary to describe how I am feeling. I just feel so buoyant and exuberant. It's exhilarating, truly it is. This feeling is so euphoric and freeing. I never thought anyone could make me feel this way." I struggle to wrap my head around what I am feeling let alone describe it to someone but the smile on Tommy's face lets me know he gets it.

"I'm so happy for you mama." I see a tear escape his eye and I feel my own eyes sting with tears at my boy's words, my lips turning downward slightly as I try to control my emotions. But when he lurches forward and brings me into a hug, I wrap my arms around him and hold onto his t-shirt for dear life. 

He lets me cry, happy tears, into his shoulder for as long as I need as his hands rub up and down my back helong to calm me down. He whispers sweet nothings into my ear just repeating how happy he is for me and how he can't wait to get to know Y/n more. When I finally pull away from the embrace, wiping what's left of my tears, I cup Tommy's face with both hands making sure he is looking at me when I ask him what I'm about to ask him.

"Are you happy with Y/n being a part of our lives more? Now don't lie, tell me the truth."

"I'm extremely happy mama. I really like her and I know Billy does too. We really like Nathaniel too, he is like a little brother already." 

"I love you Tommy." I kiss his forehead before climbing off the bed and ushering him to follow me downstairs.

"I love you too mama." He kisses me on the cheek and heads into the kitchen as I lean against the doorframe. 

I've been watching Y/n and the boys, well Billy because the other two are having a dance party, cooking the pancakes and the sweet aroma filling my lungs. I haven't moved from the door frame too in awe at the sight in front of me, afraid that if I moved the moment in front of me would end. Billy bumps his hip against Y/n as she wipes pancake mix onto his face, but he gets her back almost immediately by wiping both his grubby hands on her face. At first I'm not sure how she will react because her body freezes, and she turns to look at Billy as he takes a step back. I relax a little when an evil grin makes its way onto Y/n's face and she reaches out her arms to grab Billy by the waist and tickles him. 

His screams of laughter fill the kitchen, making the other two boys stop their dance party and turn around. Billy's legs are flailing in the air as he tries to escape Y/n's grasps, but his brother decides to team up with her and wraps his arms around his legs to keep them still. Nathaniel decides he wants to join in so starts tickling Billy's feet, Tommy informing his brother to try not to kick around so much.

Once he pleads with them to stop, Y/n ushers the other boys away, placing Billy back on the ground so he can catch his breath and compose himself. She asks if he is okay, and he lets out a tired 'yeah I'm good'. From all the playfulness the kitchen and the children, yes that includes Y/n, are covered in pancake mix and other ingredients. 

"Right boys, why don't you go get showered and sorted while I make a fresh batch of pancakes. They should be done by the time you get downstairs and then I can take a shower and get myself cleaned." Y/n grabs a kitchen towel wiping her face off as best she can as the boys let out a chorus of okays moving past me to head upstairs but not before I give all three of them a peck on the forehead as price for passage out of the kitchen.

Y/n sways her hips as she walks over to me slowly snaking her arms around my hips to pull me closer, I let a small gasp out at the contact between our bodies. I look up into her eyes full of so much emotion, my heart feels like it's about to explode with the way she is looking at me. I couldn't care less right now that she is covered in pancake mix, as I snake my arms around her waist resting my head gently on her chest. I breathe her in, the smell of vanilla and cinnamon fills my airways and I smile at it. I love how she smells. 

I look up at her resting my chin on her sternum, as she puts her chin down towards her neck so she can look at me. We have what feels like a silent conversation as our eyes move in sync with one another. My breath is taken away from me as the light catches her eyes and the amber and blue burn so brightly it almost hurts. I lick my lips to wet them standing on my tiptoes, slowly moving my lips to hers as they dance together. When air becomes an issue I pull away to look back up at her. This is it. This is what I want to feel like the rest of my life, I am certain.

"I love you."

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Superhero Trio - Just Us Chapter 34

Warnings: None

Word Count: 2795

Series List | Chapter 33 | Chapter 35

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I have been awake for a few minutes, just taking in the sight of the children and Wanda on the bed. I have been wondering why and how the children joined us and when because I certainly don't remember waking up in the night to them climbing on me...wait no I remember a vague dream of Billy entering with Tommy and Nathaniel in his arms telling me he had a nightmare or something. It was so vague I thought it was a dream, but it's obviously not. I must have been so tired that I went straight back to sleep after the boys joined us in the bed. I also know for a fact Wanda didn't wake up as I made sure the boys were quiet and gentle when getting on the bed. This is going to surprise her for sure, hopefully it's a good surprise. 

There is not much else I can do to be fair, I'm trapped underneath both Wanda and Nathaniel, my left arm trapped under Wanda and Tommy. Nathaniel has Wanda and Billy holding him, so if I move anything someone else will end up moving causing someone else to move. All in all if I move I create a domino effect of moving people, well shit. My left arm is, well I think it's still attached to my body but I definitely can't feel it that's for sure. My right arm, I believe is under Nathaniel but I can't be certain as I have another dead limb. Good thing I can feel my legs, or at least I think they are my legs. They could be Wanda's at this point as mine and hers are definitely intertwined and crossing over one another with arms here, there and everywhere from all the other bodies. It's like one of those poorly designed interstate junctions and I can't figure out whose limbs are who's, but apart from that and some slight confusion I'm enjoying the view and the feeling: from what I can actually feel right now.

My body freezes when I hear a low groan come from the woman on my chest nuzzling her face against my chest. I see her go to move her arms but she freezes her movements. She slowly lifts her head with furrowed brows as she looks to her right (my left) and sees Tommy cuddling up to her and basically me as he holds our hands using them as a pillow. Her head then moves to look to the other side of her where she sees Billy holding Nathaniel close to him, her and his hands holding onto one another. She follows her arm as she leans up a bit to check if Nathaniel is still asleep then moves her head to look up at me, who has been watching her this whole time. Not that she realised I was awake.

She raises her eyebrows at me in a silent question, I simply shrug a smile tugging at the corner of my lips as I take in the view one last time. This view will never get old. She seems to wake up a bit more, fully taking in what is actually happening and a huge smile appears on her face. She tries not to move too much so as to not disturb the tranquility of the morning, but it doesn't stop her from whispering out a small 'wow'. Her fuzzy look appears on her face as she looks back up at me and I know for sure that I have the same look on my face. 

"When did this happen?" She whispers, trying not to wake the boys.

"Last night, I think." She scrunches her eyebrows in confusion. "I have a very faint memory of Nathaniel being held in Billy's arms standing next to Tommy mentioning something about him having a nightmare but I'm really not sure it's all fuzzy and feels more like a dream." 

"What one of my boys had a nightmare?" 

"No Nathaniel." I feel her hum against my chest as she takes another look around at the bodies on the bed.

"Does he get them often?" 

"Not as regularly as he used to, but as the evidence proves yeah he has nightmares from time to time. But sleeping with someone he is familiar with works in easing him back to sleep afterwards."

"Probably why they are in here now."

"Probably." I look up to the ceiling as I bite my lip in thought. "Your boys are so good with him, I didn't think they would want to hang out with a 4 year old all day and night but they did. You have raised them so well Wanda, they are going to be absolute gentlemen when they are older."

"You think so?" 

"No, I know so." 

Wanda bites her lips as she looks up at me moving her free arm, lucky bitch, to my face cupping my left cheek as she rubs at my cheekbone with her thumb her fingers spread open on my cheek her pinky resting on my jaw. She moves her hand so it's hovering above my face, and using her finger draws an imaginary line from my cheekbone up to my eyebrow. From my eyebrow to my nose, pulling her finger down the bridge of my nose only to go back up and across my other eyebrow before making its way down to my cheek. She then moves it to my bottom lip pulling it back slightly and releasing it as she stifles a laugh. Wanda takes her hand back to her face, planting a kiss on her three middle fingers before placing them gently on my lips as I kiss them back. I can feel her body buzz a little with mine as she places the fingers back in her lips before resting her hand gently on my chest drawing random shapes and patterns, her left cheek now resting on my chest as she angles her head to be able to see me.

"Morning mama." Billy's rough morning voice brings us out of our little world, moving our heads so we can smile at him. 

"Good morning Billy." Wanda signals for him to try and stay quiet as the other two boys are still sound asleep.

"Morning Billy." He turns to look at me. "What time was it when you came and joined us?"

"Maybe like 2am. Nathaniel had a nightmare, something about flying Aliens attacking New York through a portal, I don't know he was crying pretty hard about it until I held him." 

"Thank you Billy, it can be hard to get him settled back down after one. Especially if he hasn't got his dog Teddy with him, or someone like his brother and sister snuggle up with him."

"Yeah I tried to get him to settle down, but he kept tossing and turning. Then I remembered you said it was okay to come and get you if he needed anything, so I came up to ask you what to do as I left him wrapped in a blanket next to Tommy." How awake was I for any of this?

"Oh I don't remember that."

"Yeah I came knocking on the door, and when you answered you ushered me inside. I told you what happened, then you asked me to go and bring him up and said to come straight in so we didn't wake Wanda by knocking again." He is about to continue the story but we see Tommy roll over stretching his arms above his head, he rolls over some more until he is pressed against my side, his head resting on my bicep. Wanda's smile is huge at this point.

"Is it okay if I rest like this?" Is the first thing out of Tommy's mouth making me laugh a little.

"Yeah let me just shake out my arm as I can't feel it." He lifts his body up so he is sitting up a little so I can shake my arm trying to get the blood flowing back through it, once the very painful pins and needles disappear I lay my arm back down. "Go for it, but try not to kill it off this time."

"Sorry, not sorry." I hide a laugh as Wanda pokes his back playfully. "What are you guys talking about?" 

"How we ended up here. I was just telling them about when I came back downstairs and saw you rocking Nathaniel side to side." Wanda eyes widen slightly as she looks between her two boys, obviously not expecting them to be so loving and caring towards Nathaniel.

"Oh right, yeah he woke me up when he started crying again. Which wasn't an issue, but I couldn't seem to get him to calm down with words. It's like he couldn't hear me. So I did the next best thing, I brought his head to my chest so he could listen to my heartbeat and slowed my breathing down to try and get him to match it." Tommy explains as he moves his head up to my shoulder to make sure he isn't cutting off the circulation as he notices me squeezing my hand into a fist shaking it a bit.

"Did it work?" Wanda asks, getting evermore curious

"For a few minutes, but when he tried explaining what happened he started crying a little again. Then Billy came back into the room and said he was going to take him upstairs, as he had asked you what to do." I move my arm a little to gesture for Wanda to lay down behind Tommy so she can snuggle into him as I see her trying to get comfortable.

She doesn't hesitate to do just that, wrapping her arm around Tommy resting her hand on my chest as her head comes to rest on my bicep that was once occupied by Tommy head. I bend my elbow bringing my arm inwards a little until my hand comes into contact with Wanda's head and I start to scratch at her scalp as soon as it does. 

"So how did it go from Billy bringing Nathaniel up to you all ending up in the bed?" I question lightly so they know I'm not mad or anything that they are in bed, just genuinely curious about the whole situation. 

"Right. So Billy came over and unwrapped Nathaniel from the blanket so he was easier to carry, and he was going up to a bed so didn't need the blanket. Anyway, as Billy lifted him up and into his arms Nathaniel's hand shot out and grabbed onto mine. When I tried to convince him it was okay, and to let go he just whined and said he wanted us both. Which I would have thought was really cute if it wasn't for the fact he was so sad." He looks at Billy to see if he wants to continue the story.

"So I held him close to my chest, he was practically squeezing me to death but I couldn't care less I just needed to make sure he was okay. We made it to the door and I told him I would take him inside and that he would snuggle with you and me and Tommy would head back downstairs. When I say that the boy's death grip on me somehow got tighter I'm not lying, I thought I was going to suffocate." He laughs quietly at his exaggeration as we are all still trying to remain as quiet as possible not to wake the sleeping child in his arms.

"I thought my hand was going to snap in two the way he was holding it at that point." 

"When I asked him what was wrong, he just let out a small 'please stay'. I told him only if Y/n let us and he said he would convince you." My heart breaks a little the more I hear. 

"So I opened the door for us, and called out your name quietly. When you sat up in bed, you looked tired so instead of explaining the whole thing we sort of just said is it okay if we join you Nathaniel won't let go. You just patted the bed and said the more the merrier." I feel Tommy get squished between me and Wanda when she squeezes me. "Mom, you're squishing me."

"Sorry Tommy." 

"It's okay, I guess."

"So yeah that's basically it, he wouldn't let go of me so I had to snuggle him between me and you, and Tommy went the other side between you and mama sort of. It was difficult because mama was half on you half on the bed." He laughs out as I feel Wanda's cheek heat up against my arm.

"I know, tell me about it." Wanda's palm makes contact with my chest with my words. "Okay I deserved that." 

She gives me the middle finger knowing Nathaniel is still asleep, the twins laughing at us both as we act like children. But not once did I stop scratching her scalp, ironic that she is hitting me and giving me the middle finger but here I am turning her to putty with my fingers on her head. 

"Morning sissy." Nathaniel shuffles against me and I feel Billy's protective grip on him tighten a little as he worries about the small boy. 

"Good morning buddy, how are you feeling?" I inquire, his movements allow me to free my other arm and I gasp when I feel the pins and needles shoot through the whole thing.

"A lot better." He pauses for a second before he lets out a tiny whisper. "It was scary sissy." 

"Yeah? You want to talk about it?"

"Mhmm."

"Now or later?"

"Now."

"Okay. Tell me what happened."

"It was the same as last time. The aliens come through the portal from space. Some are already on the ground and some are flying in the sky." 

"What next?" 

"A big one came through the portal."

"A big one. How big?"

"Huge, as tall as a building."

"What did it do?"

"It came flying down towards me and before I could do anything it opened its mouth and went to eat me. And then I woke up." 

"How do you feel now?"

"A little better. Thank you for listening, everyone." A chorus of your welcomes came from the other three in the room, and an idea pops into my head.

"You know you now have three superheroes to look after you." I feel everyone turn their heads to look at me.

"I do?" Nathaniel's voice sounds excited as well as hopeful.

"Oh yeah. Three awesome superheroes."

"Who are they?"

"Well Tommy, Billy and Wanda." 

"They are superheroes." 

"They can be in your dreams if you make them so." I look around to see everyone's eyes on me waiting for me to continue. "So firstly you have Speed also known as Tommy Maximoff. He is a superhero so fast that he can take down a whole group of people in seconds. He once disarmed a group of soldiers before they could even blink. Then there is Wiccan also known as Billy Maximoff. He has some cool powers of energy manipulation amongst other things that make him a very powerful young man. He once stopped a trail of bullets from harming his family with a wave of his hand. And finally there is the all powerful Scarlet Witch also known as Wanda Maximoff. Wanda is the most powerful witch to ever live, it's written in writing about how she comes across her powers and isn't born with them that makes her just as unpredictable as it does powerful. But she tries to use her power for good and she once defeated a witch who wanted to take her powers and family away. And now you are her friend, so she will protect you at all costs." 

"Wow! That is so freaking cool!! I have a team of superheroes to protect me from. The stupid aliens!" He hugs Billy more then wiggles out of his grip before clambering over my torso accidentally digging his knee into my kidney as he scrambles onto Tommy and Wanda giving them a big squeeze. "You guys are sooooo cool." 

"Yeah?" Wanda asks as Nathaniel gets excited about my story.

"Yes and you guys are going to protect me from the big bad aliens!" Wanda brings her free arm to wrap around Nathaniel pulling him down into her so she can give him a big squeeze. 

"I love you guys so much!" Nathaniel's voice is muffled against Wanda's body but we all hear it and we all smile at the words when he says them.

"We love you too buddy."

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Billy's Discovery - Just Us Chapter 33

Warnings: None

Word Count: 3243

Series List | Chapter 32 | Chapter 34

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Wanda is currently sitting on my lap,

both of us wrapped in one of Natasha's blankets as we sit in front of the fire that we started not too long ago. Because it's a Friday night and the boys don't have school tomorrow we are letting them stay up a bit later as they are watching a film down in their bedroom for tonight. Wanda is sitting sideways, her legs hanging off of my right one, her head in the crook of my neck and her hands are playing with my rings as I rest them in her lap: with one arm around her back to make sure she is secure. 

I get random kisses on my neck and jaw which make me smile at the woman and melt into her touch more. We are currently listening to a story about how Natasha and her sister went to Budapest, pronounced budapesht from what Natasha tells us, and how it was a complete shit show. Something about their Airbnb being nothing like the pictures and people on bikes chasing cars.

"If you ask me you sound like Russian spies on the run." I interrupt the story telling when Natasha mentions bullet holes in the wall of the Airbnb. 

"What is it with you and thinking I'm a Russian spy?" Natasha takes a sip of her drink slouching back in her chair. 

"I don't know. I mean everyone from Russia are Russian spies or sleeper agents."

"Not all of us, no." She smirks and I laugh.

"Believable." I peck Wanda on the forehead as I lean forward to take a few sips of my beer before returning to my original position.

Wanda grabs my hand that's in her lap and moves it slightly, when I scrunch my eyebrows in question at her she simply lifts the hand to her head. I get the message and weave my hands through her hair, before I start to scratch it. I feel her sigh into my neck and completely relax against my body, sinking further into me and the blanket. Her eyes flutter at the feeling, continuing to listen to the campfire stories people are telling. 

"Y/n why don't you tell us a story." I sit up a little at Yelena's request so I can look at everyone as I tell the story, allowing Wanda to remain in her position.

"What do you want to know about?" I continue to scratch at Wanda's head as I feel her head shift a little so she can listen to my story better. 

"What's the best place in the world you have visited?" Sharon asks as she too wraps herself in a blanket. Even though the fire is creating enough heat to keep us warm the blankets are an added comfort.

"That is easy, well there are two places." I feel Wanda smirk against my neck already knowing one. "So you have Sokovia."

 "You've been to Sokovia?" Natasha sits up more in her seat, becoming slightly more interested at the mention of the country.

"Yeah, many times." 

"Y/n says she goes every few months. She has a promise to keep. How many years has it been since it started baby?" Wanda leaves yet another kiss under my jaw.

"4 years."

"So you started going when you were 18?" 

"Technically since I was 17, I turned 18 the first time I was over there. It would have been 2017." 

"Wow I forget how young you are sometimes." Sharon laughs out as she finishes off her glass of wine pouring herself another one quickly. 

"Are you saying I look old?" I joke.

"Oh, yeah, you do!" Sharon jokes back.

"I mean you're not the first person to think I'm older than I am, I bounce my leg which in turn bounces Wanda so they know I'm on about her.

"Yes but I've already said, the suit, the hair, the make-up and the fact you were drinking fucking whisky made you look so sophisticated and in my mind that made you seem older." She defends herself. 

"I mean she isn't wrong. I thought you were older when I saw you sitting at the bar too, I mean you don't see many 22 year olds drinking alone at a bar." Natasha comes to Wanda's defence. 

"But there I was."

"But there you were. And then I caught you staring at Wanda." 

"She wasn't staring." Wanda sits up more and her statement makes me laugh a little.

"Sorry?"

"I said she wasn't staring, she was admiring. Staring is something that creepy guys do." Wanda pushes her body against mine more, pulling the blanket tighter to us as well.

"I'm pretty sure it was staring." Natasha gives me a pointed look and I just smirk.

"Nope it wasn't. Y/n made clear she was admiring me." 

"Okay so she was admiring you by staring at you." Wanda chuckles into my neck as I place a kiss on her forehead laughing out as well.

"Anyway back to my campfire story." I get us back on track, as we have completely derailed from our previous conversation.

"Right so you have Sokovia. Then what's the other one?" Yelena asks, allowing me to continue where I left off.

"Wakanda."

"Wakanda?" Both Natasha and Yelena look at me with furrowed brows while I feel Wanda scrunch her eyebrows together as they all seem confused.

"Isn't that the place in Africa where they mine vibranium and that? King T'challa rules the kingdom there now, right?" Sharon asks, intrigued.

"Yup, that's correct. Have you been?"

"No I haven't but Shield works closely with them for stuff."

"What stuff?" I playfully wiggle my eyebrows so she knows I'm not 100% serious.

"Classified." She says with a straight face.

"Or do you just not want to spill your secrets in front of the spies." 

"We are not spies." Natasha grumbles bored of the joke already.

"That's what a spy would say." Sharon retorts and I lean over a little bit, making sure Wanda stays in my lap, as we high five.

"I'm sorry, I know you are not spies. I just mean it would be pretty cool if you were." 

"Why don't you draw them?" Wanda's voice vibrates against my neck causing a few goosebumps.

"Draw us? What do you mean draw us?" Yelena asks as she and Natasha look between me and Wanda.

"I draw comic book style super heroes, well I've only got a few so far and some of them are just names that me and Carl came up with. I need to base my drawings off of people to be able to bring them to life." 

"She uses Tony Stark to draw a man named Robert Downey who's superhero alias is Iron Man." Wanda feeds them some more information.

"I mean I could always use more characters and evil Russian Spies turned good would make a good story line." I fidget in excitement until Wanda starts rubbing her thumb against my hand and whining at the fact I stopped the head rubs, which I didn't realise, so continue as she relaxes against me once again.

"What would my character name be?" Natasha asks first.

"I don't really choose the names really. That's Carl's job."

"Who's Carl?" Yelena asks as more things are revealed.

"A boy back in Sokovia." Wanda answers for me, noting the tiny change from relaxed to uncomfortable in the way I squeeze our hands together. 

The women seem to get the message as they drop the subject moving on to their own conversations as they continue to drink their wine, well beer for Yelena. Wanda shifts upwards a bit bringing her face closer to my ear.

"Sorry about them dorogoy, they can be so unaware sometimes." 

"It's okay princess, just didn't know how much you have told them about anything." I turn to look down at her as she gives me an acknowledging hum.

"I haven't said anything, not that I know much anyway…"

"I promise I will tell you one day, soon hopefully."

"I know I didn't mean it like that, I just meant I can't tell them something that I don't know about truly myself. And I won't share everything with them, as that's not fair on you." She goes to kiss the underside of my jaw but I turn my head so we lock lips, but only for a few seconds as we hear fake gagging come from the other women at the table making me and Wanda laugh into each other's mouths. 

Wanda buries her head back into my neck where I feel her yawn against it. I brush my hand through her hair, cupping her cheek to turn her face to look up at me. Her tired eyes meet mine, another yawn leaves her mouth bringing her hand in front of her mouth to yawn into instead of my face. 

"Time for bed princess?" She nods slowly against my neck. "Okay, it's been a lovely evening and an amazing day but this one is tired so we are going to head to bed."

I pick Wanda up bridal style as she snuggles her head into my chest, wrapping her arms around my neck as she says a small goodnight to everyone who replies in the same tone. Just as I make it to the door Yelena is next to me opening it, I give her a small thank you as she closes it behind us. I quietly make my way upstairs, as Wanda's eyes start to shut on me and I can see how she is struggling to stay awake.

"It's okay princess you go to sleep. Is it okay if I get you changed and put the boys to bed for you?" I feel her nod against my head a small please and thank you coming from her. "No problem."

I use my hand that's under Wanda's legs to push the handle of the door down, pushing it open with my foot before kicking it gently closed behind me. I place Wanda down on the end of the bed, as she struggles to stay sitting up rubbing the sleep from her eyes to try and stay awake. I go to her bag, picking out her sleep shorts and the oversized t-shirt in there before making my way back in front of her. I place the clothes next to her on the bed and crouch down so I can untie her shoes, slipping them off easily and putting them on the floor at the end of the bed. I unbutton her pants, pulling them down her legs and off her feet, folding them up and placing them on her shoes. I pick up the sleep shorts and shimmy them up her legs until they get to her bum, lifting her body with one arm so she isn't in contact with the bed I am able to pull the sleep shorts up properly with the other arm.

I place her back in the bed and unbutton the shirt she had changed into, slipping it off her arms before unclipping her bra. I fold her shirt up, putting it on top of her pants on the floor and grab the oversized t-shirt. 

"Up." She lifts her arms in the air lazily making it that little bit easier for me to put it on her. "There. All done. Why don't you clean your teeth while I go downstairs and sort the boys out."

 She simply nods so I give her a quick peck before moving out of the room and down to where the boys are: in the basement bedroom situation that's going on. A fond smile grows on my face at the sight of the boys snuggled together on one bed, Nathaniel snoring lightly in between the twins' bodies as they hold him in their arms as Tommy seems to be asleep too. My eyes move to Billy who is smiling up at me as the light from the TV illuminates the room.

"Hey Y/n."

"Hey Billy. I just came down to say it's time for you guys to go to sleep, but the other two seem to have beaten me to it." I let out a quiet laugh as Billy laughs with me.

"Yeah they have been asleep for a while, but I wanted to finish the movie."

"What are you watching?" I move into the room more to see Cars 2 on and I smile wider when I look back at Billy. "You put his favourite movie on?" 

"Yeah, me and Tommy watched ours so it's only fair he gets to watch his." Urgh these boys are too good!

"Thank you for today Billy, I would thank your brother also but…" Tommy shifts in his sleep, mine and Billy's eyes darting towards him before he settles back down and we continue.

"It's no problem Y/n I had lots of fun, and I know Tommy did too. It was really nice to play with him, he is like a little brother to us already." Ah, my heart, this is too precious. "Where's mama?" 

"She is in bed. She was super tired so I said I would come down and make sure you guys got off to bed." 

"Okay fair enough." I turn to leave but Billy's voice stops me. "Y/n."

"Yes Billy?"

"Are you and my mama dating?" I freeze on the spot.

"What would make you say that Billy?" What else can I say?

"Just you're a new friend, one we haven't met before today, but mama seems a lot happier when you are around. Also I may or may not have seen you kiss out by the fire." I knew me and Wanda were being all snuggly outside but we didn't think the boys would come and disturb us and Wanda wanted to cuddle so who was I to deny her?

"If I said yes, would it be a bad thing? Hypothetically that is." He is smart enough to know what I'm asking for.

"No. I like you and I love to see mama really happy. You make her really happy. I don't even think papa made her this happy. So thank you for making her smile again Y/n." 

"Oh, I don't know. Uh, thank you Billy. I promise to make her happy for as long as I can. Also she didn't want to tell you today because she didn't know how you would react and it's all still new, not because she wanted to lie to you about it."

"I know. But you can tell her that we like you, and want to see more of you." 

"I will Billy, now try and get some sleep. If you need your mom or if Nathaniel needs me we are in the guest room." I make my way to the door, turning around one last time. "Goodnight Billy."

"Goodnight Y/n." I close the door behind me and make my way up to the guest bedroom.

Upon entering the room, Wanda rolls onto her back lifting her arms in the air making grabby hands at me. I gently laugh and roll my eyes, but walk to the bed to join her under the covers. Once I'm settled in the bed Wanda pulls half her body on top of me, resting her head on my chest with one arm gently resting next to her head while the other wraps around my torso. One of her legs tangles with mine while the other remains on the bed. Her hand on my chest draws random patterns, turning her head slightly to look at me through tired eyes.

"How did the boys go down?" Her voice croaks adorably as she whispers into the quiet room.

"Perfectly. Tommy and Nathaniel were already asleep, while Billy finished watching the movie. All three of them were snuggled together. It was really cute and adorable."

"I wish I could have seen it now." 

"You will get to see it again. Billy called Nathaniel a younger brother which is really sweet so I can only assume they want to see him again"

"Billy is so cute."

"He is. But he is also clever too."

"What do you mean?"

"Well he saw us outside during the campfire. More specifically he saw us kissing and proceeded to ask me if we were dating." I don't feel Wanda tense or stop her hand from drawing on my chest which is a good sign.

"What did you say?"

"I said in a hypothetical situation what would he say if we were." Wanda moves so her chin is resting on my sternum giving me her full attention as her hand stops drawing, obviously a little nervous of what I'm going to say.

"What did he say about us hypothetically dating?" 

"He said that it is nice to see you smile like this again and that he can see I make you happy. He also said to tell you that they like me and want to see more of me." I see Wanda's eyes turn slightly glassy, even the small things like this are so important to her and it must mean everything to have her boy's approval.

"You're right. Billy is smart, too smart for his own good sometimes."

"Are you princess?" She hums not understanding. "Are you happy?"

"Extremely happy. So happy that words cannot convey how happy I am." Her smile is so big, her nose scrunches and her eyes almost close as she looks up at me. "Are you Y/n? Are you happy?"

"I'm the happiest I've been in a very long time." Wanda leans up to kiss me slowly and I kiss back just the same. Once our lips finish dancing together she pulls away to smile at me.

"Goodnight dorogoy."

"Goodnight princess." I settle into the bed more once Wanda is back comfortably on my chest, as I listen to her breathing even out as she falls asleep. I smile down at her as I think about what Billy said, and how he noticed that she is happier now and it allows me to think about our future. My thoughts soon turn into dreams as sleep overcomes me.

When I wake up, I feel an extra presence next to me as they snuggle into my neck a little, while Wanda still sleeps comfortably on my chest. I look down to see Nathaniel's tiny body next to me, his small arm laying across my chest, his other one trapped between his body and the bed. I lift my head up more to see Wanda has shuffled a little in her sleep, her body now more on top of mine than when we fell asleep. Her arm that was wrapped around my torso is also wrapped around Nathaniel and I smile at the sight. I hear something else shuffle in the bed, but Wanda and Nathaniel don't move. I turn my head back towards Nathaniel lifting the cover slightly and see Billy next to him with a protective arm around him, his hand holding Wandas.  As I look back to Wanda I notice the extra body next to her as well. Tommy is snuggled up to Wanda as my other arm is wrapped underneath Wanda and curled under him too, I can feel his hand in mine as he rests his head against them. 

I want to make up to this, this family, every morning.

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[wandafiction]

Head Scratches - Just Us Chapter 32

Warnings: None

Word Count: 3497

Series List | Chapter 31 | Chapter 33

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Me and Wanda finally managed to get out of the shower, and are making our way downstairs to head back outside. Wanda is being a lot more clingy all of a sudden, not that I'm complaining, but I just want to know what is going on in that beautiful head of hers. Before we make it to the last step Wanda pulls me in for a kiss that holds a lot more emotion than I thought it would as she doesn't let our lips move from one another until she has given mine the utmost attention. 

"You okay Wanda, you're very touchy all of a sudden not that it's an issue but I thought you didn't want the boys to know and you're just taking a few risks."

"I can't help it, you're just so sexy and beautiful and I'm afraid if I blink or let go I will miss it all." I give her hand a reassuring squeeze.

"I'm right here with you Wanda." 

"I just want us to stay in this moment. I want so many things with you Y/n, big things and I just, I just admire you so much please know that." My hands cup her face as hers hold my wrists as we look into each other's eyes.

"I admire you too Wanda. I admire the way you look at me with so much emotion it makes my heart soar out of my chest, it makes my tummy do so many somersaults it might as well be a gymnast, my breath catches in my throat everytime I see you because you are so indescribably beautiful. I admire how you seem to be able to read my thoughts, knowing what and when I need something, knowing when to push and when not to push. We are still learning so much about one another but I admire you and I want to see what is next for us." 

I don't realise she was crying until she brings a shaky hand up to her face using the back of it to wipe away tears as she lets out a shaky laugh smiling up at me as she does so.

"I didn't mean to make you cry princess.' I pout a little, not liking the fact I made her all emotional.

"These are happy tears dorogoy, so many happy tears. I promise." She leans up to capture my lips with hers only pulling away when air becomes necessary. 

"Good because I hate seeing you upset. Now let's go join the others back outside." I hold my hand in the air signalling for her to go first.

She gives me one last quick peck on the lips, before heading straight outside to join the others. I go via the kitchen grabbing myself another beer, before heading out to join the adults at the table. It's getting into the late evening now, so I decided to put on my spare clothes after mine and Wanda's shower activities instead of my bikini because the sun is starting to disappear behind the horizon.

"Look who finally showed up." Natasha announces my arrival as Sharon and Yelena give me a round of applause. I play along giving them a bow as they all laugh out a little.

"Sorry ladies, I got a little...preoccupied." I say slowly as I sit down in the only spare chair next to Wanda and Sharon.

"Oh if by preoccupied you mean, doing some rather extraneous extracurricular activities then sure." Natasha smirks at me, as I see Wanda's cheeks darken as she slouches in her chair trying to hide away from the mocking.

"Well I mean I might have to put some money towards your water bill by the end of the day, just let me know." Natasha bursts out laughing while Sharon and Yelena fake gag and Wanda hits by arm as her face burns up with embarrassment.

"Y/n stop." Wanda grumbles next to me as her face is bright red. 

"I'm sorry princess, I didn't mean to embarrass you." 

"Aww what happened to babygirl?" Natasha is getting top marks for teasing as the other two women burst out laughing now. 

"Nat!" Wanda hides her face under her hands as the women calm themselves down.

"I'm sorry Wanda, I mean it's just too easy sometimes. Honestly, I bet Y/n can turn you to putty without even doing much." Natasha raises her bottle to her lips taking a sip.

"No it won't be that easy. I bet Wanda has some control in the room." I raise my eyebrows at Sharon, as Wanda grumbles next to me a little more.

"Alright bet." Natasha holds her hand out to strike a deal with Sharon. "If Y/n can turn Wanda to putty then I get to chuck you in the pool, if she can't you get to chuck me in." 

"But Y/n can't speak, no dirty talk." Sharon counters Natasha's offer, I laugh along at the antics as Wanda slumps in her chair more.

"I'm right here guys." Wanda waves her arms in front of everyone. 

"We know. But we don't care." Natasha is brutally honest. "Fine deal."

Sharon and Natasha shake hands but before anything can start the boys come running up the decking towels wrapped around their bodies.

"Me, Billy and Nat are going to get changed. Is it okay if we play the Nintendo switch in Yelena's room? It's a bit cold out here and Nat is getting a little tired." 

"Of course you can boys just keep your wet bodies off my bed please." Yelena demands as they walk inside.

"Nathaniel, we will go after I finish this drink okay buddy." He gives me a small nod as he rubs his eyes tiredly. 

"You guys could always stay the night if you want, if it's easier." Natasha suggests. "I mean I'm sure Wanda doesn't mind sharing the bed with you and the boys can sleep in the basement, which has a few pull out beds for other guests. Don't worry, it's all heated and clean down there." 

"I don't know." I rub the back of my neck not sure if Wanda would be comfortable with sharing her bed when the boys are just downstairs from us.

"Please dorogoy." I see Wanda's puppy eyes and know I can't say no.

"Let me just check with my dad." I say as I bring my phone out of my pocket clicking his contact name so I can facetime him.

Clint: Hey kiddo!

Me: Hey Dad. How was your evening with mom?

Clint: It was great. No kids, no stress. Very relaxing…

Me: Okay TMI, by the way you are on speakerphone. 

Clint: Oh well hello invisible friends of Y/n's. Wait, where is my son?

There is a chorus of hello from the other woman around the table making me laugh a little.

Me: Don't worry he is inside getting changed and playing with Wanda's boys.

Clint: Oh good. Now not that I don't like hearing from you, but why are you calling?

Me: Okay rude, much? But I was just calling to check if you were cool with Nathaniel staying the night here at Natasha's and I will bring him back around noon tomorrow all fed and watered.

Clint: Y/n he is not a dog.

Me: Never said he was.

Wanda: She called him baggage earlier Mr Barton!

I give Wanda a glare but all she does is smirk at me taking a sip of wine from her glass.

Clint: Y/n, come one now.

Me: Hey in my defence he is tiny and super light weight. He could class as my carry on.

Clint: I mean you're not wrong, but you didn't hear me say that.

Laura: Hear you say what?

I smirk as Clint's eyes go wide pleading me not to tell.

Me: Oh nothing Mother dearest nothing at all.

Laura: I'm meant to believe you now am I Y/n.

Me: I didn't say that. 

Clint: Y/n!

Me: Sorry Dad, love you Dad. But I still need an answer. 

Clint: We are more than happy for Nathaniel to stay the night and you drop him off tomorrow.

Me: Perfect. I will make sure he has gone to the toilet and is all watered and fed before I leave him at the door.

Before my parents can reply I hang up the phone with a laugh, and only when I hear Yelena's laugh do I remember that there are other people in front of me who just heard that whole conversation. Oh well.

"Right back to the bet. Come on Y/n, show us what you've got." Natasha sits up eagerly waiting.

"Are you okay with this princess?" I check with Wanda who gives me a nod, but I tilt my head at her.

"Yes it's fine go ahead."

"Wait, wait, wait. I said no talking." Sharon interrupts.

"I haven't started yet." Sharon's jaw drops, as Natasha stifles a laugh and Yelena just takes another sip of her beer. "But you just made her go from nodding to talking. How?!"

"I guess we know who has control in the bedroom." Natasha remarks.

"And outside of it too by the looks of it." Yelena remarks, making Natasha burst out laughing again.

"Are we doing this or not?" Wanda grumbles, her face turning red once again.

"Sorry princess." Sharon gives me a look and I bring my hand to my lips, pretending to zip them up and throwing away the key.

When I don't make a move, I see Natasha lean over the table to watch me closely as Sharon eyes dart between me and Wanda confused. I know exactly what I'm going to do, I know what makes her turn to putty in my hands. I look down to meet Wanda's eyes that are moving left to right as she looks up at me, the late evening sun dancing with the colors of them. I bring my right hand up towards her head before placing it at the edge of her hair line. I weave my hand through her hair a couple times removing any knots I find on my way before placing my hand toward the crown of her head and scratching gently. 

Wanda releases a content sigh as her eyes close, I allow my nails to scratch around her scalp more and she leans back against the back of her chair, her body slides down a little at how relaxed she becomes. I continue my movements, another sigh leaves her lips, her eyes fluttering open to look up at me searching mine for what I'm not sure but they once again close when I move my scratches to another part of her head.

"Holy shit. She is like a puppy." Natasha speaks softly not to startle Wanda.

"Mhmm, but she loves head scratches and I love giving them so it was easy to find that she melts at the touch." Wanda's hand moves to my thigh, her thumb stroking the edge gently, just to have that extra contact as I keep my scratching going. I bend down to whisper in her ear so the others don't mock her further. "You okay with this princess."

"Mhmm, please keep going, it's nice." She turns her head to whisper back to me gently placing a peck on my cheek.

I turn back around to the other women who are smiling fondly at the sight as I continue to give Wanda's head gentle scratches. Her eyes flutter open to see the smiling woman, a small blush grows on her cheeks but she just smiles back at them. We both let out a laugh when Natasha suddenly stands up pulling Sharon onto her shoulder and runs to the pool to chuck her into it. Sharon shrieks as her body flies through the air into the water and quickly swims to the edge towards Natasha. 

Before Natasha can react Sharon pushes herself up, grabbing Natasha's shirt pulling her into the water too. Me, Wanda and Yelena burst out laughing as the two women start splashing water at one another, dunking each other under the water also as they chase one another around the pool. I continue the head scratches as Wanda relaxes back into her chair taking another sip of wine. 

"For what it's worth I think it's adorable that small things like head scratches and words of meaning do so much for you too." Yelena speaks softly and honestly as I take another sip of my beer, knowing I will want another one now that I don't have to drive until tomorrow.

"Thank you Yelena. I don't know what it is about head scratches that makes me melt at the touch, there is just something about them that makes me feel so relaxed and at peace." Wanda sighs out as I move back to the crown of her head where I know she loves it the most. "Keep it there please dorogoy."

"Aww she calls you dorogoy." Yelena coos at Wanda's cuteness. 

"She does, and she is my printsessa." Wanda melts into my touch more at the use of my Russian, noted. "Is there anyone special in your life, Yelena?" 

"I, uh, no. No there's not." She bows her head to look down into her bottle.

"Well there is no issue with being single." Her mouth twitches slightly. "So it's not that you're single?"

"Uh, not really. I mean it might be the reason I'm single." Wanda furrows her brows as I let out a knowing 'oh'. 

"Well Yelena you like who you like. Some people are straight, some people are gay, some people label themselves as bisexuality and queer. Some people don't label themselves at all. Now I'm not saying that's all there is because sexuality is a whole spectrum and each and every person is unique and different." Wanda looks up at me, still slightly confused with where I am going but I have Yelena's full attention and she has mine. 

"And some people Yelena, some people don't find any attraction to anyone. So no sexual attraction towards a person or no sexual desires and feelings. Again it's different for everyone but am I right in thinking this is the part of the spectrum you would fall around." 

"I don't know, I've never really thought about it. I mean it's weird that I don't feel anything towards anyone right, or that I don't want to do any of those things that other people do." She shrugs dismissively of the matter.

"Yelena." I wait until she looks up at me. "The term is asexual. Now I can't tell you that you are or aren't but you have a label for it, which of course you don't have to label yourself, but at least have a look into it. I think you will find just what you're looking for."

"You mean I will find answers to why I'm a weird human with no sexual desires."

"Yelena it isn't weird, it doesn't make you a freak. There are plenty of asexual people out there. Here, look at this for a minute." I bring up an article on asexuality on my phone, passing it over to Yelena who looks up at me with a quirked brow. "Go on. Read it. We are not here to judge, it takes time to figure these things out but looking at articles and talking to others in the community helps. I promise."

She gives me a small nod as she starts to scroll through the article I brought up, just as Natasha and Sharon make their way up the decking and into the house informing us they are going to get changed and dry. Wanda tugs on my arm to grab my attention, so I swivel in my seat so I can give it all to her. She has an adoring smile on her face, her smile lines crease near her eyes as she looks up at me.

"What's up princess?" 

"Does this mean I'm bisexual?" I smile softly at her but shake my head causing her brows to furrow.

"Not at all, like I said sexuality is a spectrum it can take time to figure out what you prefer to label yourself as if you prefer to label yourself at all." She hums but still seems confused, which I can't blame her for. This is all so new to her it can be very confusing.

"Well what do you think I am?"

"Now I can't answer that question for you princess, I can help you with figuring out your sexuality but ultimately I can't tell you what you are or aren't for you."

"Please. You sort of helped with yelena. I don't care if you assume, it might really help me figure it out." 

"Okay, well you might be right with bisexuality as you have an attraction to me, who identifies as female. You have also had a husband and I know for a fact he is a straight white man who probably labels himself as such."

"But what if I don't care about gender?" A look of defeat crosses her face as she can't figure herself out.

"So you don't care about gender identity or anything like that, you're just attracted to who you're attracted to?" I question gently.

"I think so, yeah. I mean I've never had the chance to really think about it but that's what makes most sense to me, fall for the person and not for the gender." 

"Well I think you should look up up term Pansexual. Like I said, I can't assume what your sexuality is."

"But you're assuming it's this one."

"I am making an educated guess that it's this one, yes."

"Well it's okay because you're helping me. Thank you.'

"Of course princess."

Wanda brings out her phone to start looking up the terms as I see mine slide across the table from where Yelena is sat, a huge smile on her face as she looks up at me.

"So I am not weird for not feeling any sexual attraction."

"No but it's possible for you to still feel romantic attraction." I point out knowing that it doesn't always mention it in articles.

"Wait so I can fall in love with someone and not ever have to be with them in such a physical way?" 

"Exactly. You just have to find the right person."

 Just then the doors open and the other two women come and rejoin us in new clothes and their hair in wet messy buns. I see Yelena's eyes follow Sharon as she moves past her to sit back in her seat. Huh. Yelena blushes when she notices I have caught her but I just send her a subtle nod and wink, and a small smile grows across her face as she looks back at Sharon before starting a conversation with Natasha. 

"Baby." Wanda pulls my attention from the other three women handing my phone back to me. "Thank you." 

"No problem princess. I will answer as many questions as you have whenever you have them. And it's okay to have questions okay?" 

"Okay. Thank you for being so patient, caring and kind. It means a lot that you aren't rushing me and that you're allowing me to figure out who I am." 

"You don't need to thank me Wanda for something that I would deem as respect. It's what everyone deserves, especially you so of course I am going to give you the utmost respect there is. And if that is helping you figure out who you are, if that's what you want, then I respect that fully and wholeheartedly."

I see Wanda's fuzzy smile return, her eyes dancing in the light of the now very bright stars, once again I can feel her staring into my soul looking into every part of me. Seeing me for all I am and for who I am. My heart soars at the sight of her looking at me like this, the zoo in my stomach is going wild and my chest tightens. I have seen her fuzzy look before but never before have I seen it so powerful. 

My eyes are darting left to right as I take in all the colours of her beautiful and mesmerising green ones, the light bouncing off of them at the perfect angle to create an altogether new color. It's like a galaxy mixing with the rainforest. It's enchanting, it's magical...it takes my breath away. Wanda is ethereal. I am effortlessly and wholeheartedly in this forever. My mind races at a million miles a second but all my thoughts are of her, of the memories we have shared together, of the memories I want us to share and this moment right here. With her. It dawns on me, the feeling growing loud inside of me. This truly scary, but most amazing feeling in all the galaxies. 

I love her.

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[wandafiction]

Water Fight - Just Us Chapter 31

Warnings 18+: Fluff, Smut, Thigh Riding (Wanda), Slight choking,

Word Count: 3679

Series List | Chapter 30 | Chapter 32

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"Okay what's the game plan?" Me, Yelena and Natasha are standing at the back of my car looking at all the water guns. 

"I want that one." Yelena's eyes have a devilish glint to them as she points out the gun.

"Okay so Yelena gets the Super Soaker Hydra." I grab it, passing it off to Yelena as she takes in the details of the plastic toy.

"Natasha, which one do you want?" Natasha doesn't speak, she just leans in the back grabbing out another one of the big guns, I also don't miss the pistol she puts behind her back. "The Super Soaker Soakzooker, excellent choice."

"What about you Y/n?" I turn to look at Yelena, a smirk growing on my face.

"I've got my baby right here." I open up a box in the back that I hid the gun in to make sure I got it. "Brand new Spyra Two."

I chuck the rest of the guns in a duffle bag, there are a few super soakers, a couple of pistols and one of those small rubbish pistols for Nathaniel to use as he is still too little to pump the guns properly to get them to work. We make our way into the house, checking our corners to make sure we are not going to get caught on our sneak attack, hopefully everyone is still in the garden. 

"Psst, come this way. Will can fill them up in the sink out here then sneak out the side door." Natasha waves me and Yelena over to the utility room, filling up the large sink so we can fill the guns up. 

All the guns take a while to fill up, because of course we had to choose the biggest of the lot but once we are ready we make our way to the side door that opens up to the side of the backyard that you can't see from the decking. Natasha leads, with Yelena close behind and me at the rear as she slowly and quietly opens the door swiveling her head left from right to make sure no one is in view. She lifts her hand in the air wiggling one finger silently, telling us to follow her. 

"Are you sure you're not a Russian spy Natasha, this all seems very tactical." I hear her huff out a laugh rolling her eyes at me as she turns to face me.

Just as she is about to say something we hear laughing close by and we simultaneously press our backs to the wall, crouching down to try and hide ourselves a little more. When the laughter moves away from us Natasha slowly slides her body along the wall putting her head past the corner to check the surroundings, holding up a fist to tell us to stay where we are. Me and Yelena hold our breath waiting for Natasha's singal.

We wait…

Her finger waves us to move as she moves around the corner.

"WATER FIGHT!" Yelena shouts as she rounds the corner immediately aiming for Sharon, firing with no remorse and laughing like a crazy person when she gets her right in the face. "Bullseye!"

I turn to see the children running away, so make my way towards them as Tommy and Billy group together to protect Nathaniel. If I wasn't so interested in attacking them with my water guns I would have melted at the sight, but I couldn't let it distract me. They hid Nathaniel behind their bodies who was shouting out about how the alien is after him. 

"Don't worry Nathaniel, we will protect you." Billy raises his arms in front of him, like has some sort of magic powers that are going to stop me.

"Your powers aren't going to stop me Billy." 

"Billy take Nat, I will distract her!" I smile at the nickname they have given him as Tommy shouts at them as he runs towards me, jeez Wanda's right this kids quick...but not as quick as me.

I turn my body running after Tommy who is already a few paces ahead of me, so as I am running I move my gun to aim for his back. When the cold water makes contact with his shirt he squeals a bit zigzagging around to try and put me off. He makes his way up the decking, essentially trapping himself so I spray him a few times and he dramatically collapses to the floor shouting 'man down, man down'. 

I turn around to search the backyard for the other two boys taking in the sight of Yelena chasing Sharon as she vaults over a plant pot or two showing off the skills Shield has obviously taught her as she avoids heavy fire from the young Russian. I also see Wanda, who has been cornered by Natasha, holding her hands in front of her face to try and stop the water as she laughs that gorgeous angelic laugh of hers. I pull my eyes away from watching Wanda, looking over to where I see Billy and Nathaniel running towards Wanda to go and help her. I smirk as I vault over the railing landing in front of them causing screams of horror to leave their mouths as they slide to a complete stop in front of me.

"Go Nathaniel!" Nathaniel darts back the other way as Billy holds up his hands waving them in the air. 

I stop all my movements like he has got me in his trap, frozen on the spot. His eyes widen slightly as he looks at his hands then back to me with a smirk. His smirk drops when my hand twitches, the gun moves ever so slightly upwards as the water makes contact with his face.

"I'm too powerful to be stopped by you Wiccan!" 

"Wiccan?" He tilts his head, wow he is just like his mother.

"Uh, yeah just came up with it now. Like you're some form of wizard with what you were doing with your hands."

"Oh cool. I like that." 

"Good because it's sticking."

"Does Tommy have a nickname?" As I'm about to answer I realise he is just trying to distract me so I shoot his forehead one more time.

"Don't distract me." He laughs at me as I scoot past his body searching the backyard for Nathaniel, smiling when I see his small body behind a tree. 

I take quiet steps till I'm close enough to the tree to get the rascal. I see his hand move to his mouth as he tries to hold his breath, obviously sensing that I'm close, but it's too late for him because I jump around and start shooting at his body. He shrieks as he runs back towards the other people who all stop their movements when they hear a very horrific scream only laughing when they realise it's Nathaniel being very dramatic. They all laugh as I wrap my arms around him instead of shooting him with water, and he kicks his legs around and he screams to the twins for help.

They make their way over to me trying to pry my arms open to allow Nathaniel to escape. I quickly bend down to place Nathaniel on the ground, as he turns to run away I quickly grab the twins wrapping my arms around their bodies so I can hold one under each arm. Damn they are heavier than I expected. So I don't drop them on the floor. I quickly make my way to the edge of the pool that is in the backyard and the boys look up at me in pure horror. I turn to Wanda to make sure it's okay to chuck them in, and as soon as I get a small nod I take a few steps back running towards the pool. As I jump I let go of the boys making sure to push their bodies away from me so we don't end up colliding as we go underwater. 

I bring my head up below the surface of the water, as the boys make their way to me pushing me back under. I flail my hands while under grabbing a leg of one of the boys, I hear a muffled scream from underwater as I pull the body under with me and push myself off the bottom of the pool so I come to the surface. I see Tommy above the surface so it was Billy I dragged under, I wait until he pops back above the surface before I swim towards Tommy who makes a quick swim towards the stairs. 

Tommy manages to get out of the pool, running towards Wanda and the other woman who have been watching this whole thing go down with Nathaniel standing there, his small body wrapped in a fluffy towel as his lips have a tiny hint of blue, he must have been standing still for too long. Instead of continuing the chase with Tommy, I stop and turn to Nathaniel even though we are having fun I can't let my little brother die of hypothermia.

"Do you want to dry off and get changed or do you want to put your swimming shorts on and get in the pool with me?" I see Tommy poke his head out from behind Wanda as he realises I have put a pause on the game we were playing.

"Ca-can I get in the pool. I want to p-p-play some more." His teeth chatter a little as he speaks.

"Of course let's get you warmed up a little first." I pick up his tiny body, making sure the towel stays securely on him and I tuck the extra length under his feet so he doesn't drip water through the house. 

"Can someone show me where our bags are please?" 

"I will come with you. Come on boys you should get into your shorts too if you want to stay in the pool." Wanda takes the lead as the four of us follow her inside, the other woman heading back to the table to catch their breaths and finish their drinks.

"Tommy, Billy your clothes are in Yelena's room so you can get changed in their and the bathroom opposite. Y/n and Nathaniel, your clothes are in the guest room with mine." 

Tommy and Billy disappear into a room on the left side of the hallway while I follow Wanda, Nathaniel still in my arms as he snuggles closer to me trying to keep warm, to the end of the hallway. She holds the door open for me and I place Nathaniel on the bed as I go to grab his bag, picking up his red and blue swim shorts. 

"Alright buddy, up." He pushes his body off the bed, as I bend down to match his height, rubbing my hands up and down the outside of the towel to help dry him off a little while creating some warmth. 

"Here you go buddy." Wanda pulls one of the blankets off the bed wrapping it around his small body to try and help warm him up.

"Thank you Miss Wanda."

"Wanda is just fine, bud." She gives him a gentle smile as she strokes a hand through his short brown hair.

"Okay Wanda." He shuffles his body closer to her, as she wraps her arms around him moving them up and down to help keep him warm.

"Are you warming up?" 

"Yes thank you Wanda." 

"Good. I will leave you to get changed, just come and get me when you're done so I can get sorted." 

"Okay. Thank you Wanda." I could really kiss her right now, but Nathaniel would witness. Wanda seems to be thinking the same as she takes my hand in hers and gives it a light squeeze, stroking her thumb on my knuckles before letting go and making her way out of the room.

"Okay buddy let's get you sorted so you can play in the pool."

Once Nathaniel is changed I tell him he is okay to go back outside as long as he is with the boys or one of the adults in the pool, while I get changed myself. Before he leaves he gives me a hug and squeezes me tight.

"You okay there buddy?" He nuzzles his head into my neck.

"I'm okay. I'm really happy right now! Thank you for today. It has been a lot of fun! Can we do this again sometime?" I stroke my arm up and down his back as a smile fondly at his request.

"Of course we can. We will talk to Wanda and maybe organise something with the boys and we can bring your brother and sister next time too. How does that sound?" 

"Amazing!" He gives me a sloppy kiss on the cheek before trying to wiggle out of my arms. "Can you put me down now please? I want to go and play again."

He gives me the biggest puppy eyes ever, so I give into his request giving him a quick kiss; and place him on the ground. I'm amazed when I see him calmly walking out of the room, closing the door behind him. He must know not to run in the house. I make my way to my bag pulling out my bikini, which is a Nike sportswear one as I'm not very comfortable with wearing two pieces of fabric held together by string. Instead this has high waisted bottoms, and a crop top like top. It gives me enough coverage to be comfortable but still shows off everything a normal bikini does. It's a win, win for me. 

I have just finished changing my bottom half, and as I'm taking my top half off I hear the door of the room open and close in quick succession and then a small click. I turn my head to see Wanda leaning against the door as she drinks me in with her eyes, her bottom lip between her teeth. 

"Take a picture it will last longer." What I don't expect to hear or see is the sound and flash of her phone taking a picture. I turn my head to look over my shoulder ready to give her the 'really' look, but when I see her eyes darkened with lust a small smirk plays on my lips. I see another flash. When she looks down at the picture and then up at me I see her gently squeeze her thighs together, eyes closing when she catches me staring. 

"Like what you see princess?" All she can do is nod, her lip still between her teeth as she puts her phone down on the desk by the door, her hands resting on her thighs gently scratching at them with her nails. 

I turn my whole body around now, her eyes drop to my chest a small whimper leaving her mouth as her thighs clench even more. I start walking towards Wanda as her eyes watch my every movement moving from my chest, to my chiselled abs back to my chest then up into my eyes. I come to a stop in front of her, looking down at her as she looks up at me, her pupils blown wide open with lust. I place my left hand on the door just above her head so I can lean over her some more, but leaving enough room for her to move if she needs to. 

My right hand comes to rest on her cheek, stroking it gently, before using the tip of my index finger to draw a line from her cheek, down her jaw to her neck then from her neck to her shoulder. My finger is barely touching the skin but goosebumps grow along her skin the further I get, her body arching slightly to get closer to me wanting more friction. My finger dances down her arm until it reaches her hand where I place my palm in hers, pushing my fingers between hers. I move my left arm down to do the same with the other arm, before suddenly moving them up above her head using one hand to hold both her wrists. My right hand coming down to hold her waist, holding her against the door.

"These stay here babygirl. Is that okay?" She gives me a nod. "Words babygirl."

"Yes, please, just please."

"Desperate, much? What's going you so riled up?"

"You." She states quickly.

"What have I done?"

"Vaulting over the railing. God that was so fucking sexy, like my god I didn't realise your muscles could look any better and then they tensed and your veins. Don't even get me started on your veins." She lets out a moan as I push my knee between her legs putting pressure on her core, she starts moving her hips riding my thigh.

"Keep going." My hand on her waist helps guide her movements against my leg, letting her know I am more than okay with her bringing herself to an orgasm.

"And when you did those press ups. Baby you're so strong, your muscles nearly broke through your shirt. I've had to control myself all day, to make sure I didn't drag you into the bathroom to let you take me. I need you." Her voice is becoming breathy the more she rides my thigh.

I stop her movements for a second, she lets out a small whine but moans when my hands make contact with her clothed core. I move my hand to the band of underwear pulling them down till they fall to the floor. I slam my lips against hers in a passionate kiss, keeping her arms above her head as I put my leg back between hers. The grinding of her core against my thigh immediately continues and I can feel the trail of wetness her movements are leaving behind.

"That's it babygirl. Work yourself up for me. Be a good girl and make yourself cum on my thigh." Her pace picks up as moans and sighs leave her mouth. I let go of her wrists, her hands drop to my shoulders for support and I bring the hand down to her neck giving it a slight squeeze.

Her breath hitches in her throat.

"Is this okay babygirl." She nods but then sees the look on my face.

"Yes it's more than okay." 

"Good because you have to be quiet there are other people here." Wanda bites her bottom lip to suppress her moans as her movements become erratic against my thigh.

"Please baby I'm so close." 

"Please what babygirl?" I squeeze her throat a little tighter, before releasing the pressure not wanting to hurt her or leave a mark.

"Please can I cum, I want to cum." 

"You've been such a good girl controlling yourself all day, so cum for me." I move my mouth against her ear, poking my tongue in her lobe to see how she reacts, I hear a moan from the back of her throat and smile. "That's it babygirl. Be a good girl now, cum for me."

With those final words her hips jutter as her head flings back against the door, eyes rolling to the back of her head. Her back arches, her body coming into contact with mine as I feel her juices release onto my thigh, her nails digging into my shoulders, one of her hands flies to her mouth to muffle her moans. Her hips move lazily against my leg a few more times before her body completely relaxes against mine slumping into me.

"You okay princess?" I cup her face with my hands, moving her hair behind her ears.

"More than okay." I smile down at her bringing our lips together for a few seconds before leaning my forehead against hers.

"Feeling better." She smacks my arms gently as I let out a small laugh.

"Rude, but yes so much better."

"Well seeing you cum against my thigh is something I'm not going to get out of my head." She hums as she pecks my lips a couple of times. "I think I am going to shower before I head back downstairs don't want to get in the pool with you all over my leg " 

Wanda's face flushes at the thought, burying her head against my chest to try and hide it. I don't say anything but start stroking my hand through her hair. After a few minutes of calm she rests her chin against my chest looking up at me. 

"Y/n I...I…I…" She bows her head, becoming all shy before taking a breath and looking back up at me." I want to join you in the shower."

"Won't your friends and the boys wonder where you are?" She shakes her head.

"Natasha told me to stop staring and just get laid. Her words not mine, she was fed up with me just watching you. And Yelena and the boys are playing in the pool." 

"Okay well I'm more than happy for you to join me." I grab her hand, dragging her into the ensuite locking the door behind us. 

I wonder why she got so nervous about asking to join me? I would never say no. Unless she wanted to ask something else but got too shy or nervous. I will speak to her later about it. For now I am going to enjoy this shower, which is definitely not going to stay PG for very long. I hear the water turn on and see Wanda stepping under it and I can't help but stare at her.

"Take a picture, it will last longer." I laugh at her using my own words against me as I step in the shower to join her.

"Your beauty cannot be captured by a single moment. A picture would do what I see in front of me no justice because you are too beautiful to describe, you Wanda are ethereal." 

"And you Y/n are ravishing." 

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[wandafiction]

Pile On - Just Us Chapter 30

Warnings: Pure fluff

Word Count: 2621

Series List | Chapter 29 | Chapter 31

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"Hey don't go out there without me." I point to the doors that out to the decking, making Yelena stop in her tracks and turn to look at me in the kitchen.

"And why not?" She comes and joins me in the kitchen, so I open another bottle of beer and pass it off to her. 

"Because you will be dealing with an angry Russian and an angry Sokovian, emphasis on angry, and there isn't anything Switzerland can do about it." Yelena's eyebrows raise at my point.

"I'm assuming the ole so peaceful Switzerland is Sharon?"

"You assume correctly."

"So how am I meant to go out there without being chucked across the garden by the two of them?" I giggle as I look out the kitchen window to see Wanda look towards the house, not seeing me in the window, a worried expression on her face.

"We just go out there all buddy buddy."

"What does that entail?" 

"Oh I don't know." I inch closer to her as she takes another swig of her drink, looking at me over the rim of the bottle.

"What are you doing?"

"Nothing." I drag the word out as I walk right past her towards the doors, but touch my arm to her shoulder as I pass. "TAG YOUR IT!"

I bolt out of the kitchen scurrying to get the doors open, just in time before Yelena could get me back.

"Oh you little shit. It's on!" I run outside onto the decking, Natasha and Wanda immediately stand from their seats as they see me rush past.

 I stand on the opposite side of the table to the house, placing my drink down, so I don't have to run with it. My palms are flat to the table as I see Yelena finally join us outside. As she moves to the left of the table I shuffle the opposite way, as she moves back the other way I move opposite to her once again. Wanda and Natasha seem to relax as they see the large smiles on our faces and us dancing left to right as Yelena tries to get to me while I try to get away.

What I don't expect is for her to vault over the table, but I react just in time turning around and I vault over the decking railing rolling as I hit the ground to break my fall. Wanda's bottom lip is between her teeth, but I can only look for a millisecond before I make another mad dash away from Yelena as she jumps down the stairs of the decking still coming after me. I run towards the boys, who are playing in their own little world and when they see me running towards them their eyes widen.

"RUN YELENA IS TAGGED!" I shout, all three boys immediately scrabble to their feet sitting up but Yelena relents and continues to chase me.

After a few more minutes of Yelena chasing me, she almost gives up until I trip. I trip over nothing but air landing hard on the grass earning an ow from the three women who are spectating this ridiculous game of tag. So Yelena places herself on top of my back to keep me on the ground.

"Boys I got her!" Yelena fist pumps the air in celebration as the boys come and see as Yelena does a little celebratory dance on top of me.

"PILE ON!" Nathaniel is the first to run up and jump on me, and I let out a sharp breath at the impact. 

"Oh careful Nathaniel, you could have hurt her then." Yelena's voice sounds suddenly caring but not for long as she shouts the other two boys over.

"Sorry sissy, did I hurt you?" Nathaniel leans down to my ear as the twins scramble to join the pile on.

"Not too bad, you just made all the air get pushed out of my lungs." I feel Tommy pull Nathaniel off of me so he can lay down on me, with Nathaniel on him so he doesn't squish him. "Thank you Tommy."

"No problem Y/n just wanted to make sure he didn't get hurt." I feel Billy sit on my legs now too. 

"Everyone comfortable?" I ask sarcastically.

"Very." I hear them all speak at the same time.

I move my hands next to my face ready to push myself upwards to get them off me so we can continue our game of tag, but I am stopped by Nathaniel when he requests for me to do something.

"Sissy, can you show everyone that pile on trick?"

"Which one?

"Pile off."

"Okay, so Billy I need you to come up and sit on my back, Nathaniel and Tommy make room for him please. Yelena you can stay where you are."

"I wasn't planning on moving." I roll my eyes, not that she can see the movement but I feel her smack the back of my head. "Ow."

"Well don't roll your eyes at me."

"I didn't." 

"Yes you did. Don't lie."

"Fine whatever, I rolled my eyes." I get another smack on the back of the head and move my hand to rub the sore spot. "Ow. What now?"

"That's for lying to me." 

"Okay, moving on. Everyone on my back?" I hear a chorus of yes'. "Good, tighten up your legs so you don't fall off and try not to move about too much. How many should I try Nathaniel?" 

"Hmmm. MISS WANDA!" Nathaniel grabs Wanda's attention from where the other three are standing on the decking. "Can you please shout a random number out?!" 

"10!" I hear her angelic voice shout back, I can hear the smirk in her voice.

"10!! Jeez what are you trying to do kill me?! I've got 3 elephants and a Russian on my back right now. OW!" I feel another smack to my head, okay I probably deserved that one. "Fine, you owe me a drink after this though." 

"Sure thing ba...Y/n." I hear her stop her words before she says them, I hope the boys didn't pick up on it.

I grumble as I put my hands in position, my toes on the floor ready to do 10 push-ups with people on my back. The first one is the hardest to do as I have to actually push myself off of the floor and get the momentum going. As I dip back down, my nose touches the floor before I bring us all back up.

"1!" Nathaniel shouts as I lock my arms out before starting to descend again. My nose touches the ground and I push back up, locking my arms. "2!"

"3!" I hear Tommy and Billy join in the counting, and Nathaniel cheering in my ear that I can do it.

"4!"

"5!"

"You're halfway there sissy!" I can now feel the strain of lifting my body weight plus that of four others up and down repeatedly but it's not painful at this point. I go back down again, nose touching the grass. I let out a breath as I push upwards.

"6!" I hear Yelena join in the counting.

"This is impressive 4 more Y/n." I feel her shift slightly on my butt as I go down and up again, so I hold my movements so she can lock herself in place again. "Right I'm situated, go again."

"7!"

"8!"

"9!" 

Now the three adults on the decking are counting on too, I can hear Wanda give words of encouragement alongside the boys and Yelena. I pretend to struggle as I lower my body, breathing in and out at a fast pace to try and get as much oxygen as I can around my body as I can feel the acid build up in my muscles. I take in a breath holding it for a second. As I push upwards I release the breath at the same pace as I move up. As soon as my arms lock in place, everyone cheers and Nathaniel leans his body downwards wrapping his arm around my neck as he places his left cheek against my right cheek.

"You did it sissy! That was amazing!" 

I feel Yelena climb off of me first, helping Tommy and Billy off of my body. I know Nathaniel is holding onto me securely so I move my arms along the ground towards my waist so I can push myself up to a crouching position before standing up straight. Nathaniel's legs wrap around my torso and he holds his arm like he is carrying a sword.

"Onward horse!" 

I laugh, but oblige, and start galloping towards the decking making sure to bounce Nathaniel up and down on my back. I can feel his little butt lift off into the air before bouncing back down against my back, his giggles filling the backyard and I can feel his chest heave with laughter against my back. I carefully climb the stairs of the decking, not willing to vault over it with a child on my back, making my way to the table and chairs. I turn around, Nathaniel still on my back, and move to sit down in one of the chairs. I make sure Nathaniel is in the chair as I continue to sit down, not putting any of my weight on him but also knowing he is trapped between the chair and me.

"Someone help! I'm trapped!" I feel Nathaniel's feet and hands push against my butt and back as he tries to move me out of the way, which doesn't work. "Tommy! Billy!"

I see the boys run up the decking, each of them grabbing my arms and pulling on them as Nathaniel pushes against me. I use all my strength to stop them from moving me, but end up sliding a little against the decking. Billy and Tommy use that to their advantage and give one big tug which leaves enough room for Nathaniel to scramble off the chair. I check behind me to make sure he is off of it before I pull the other two boys back, collapsing in the chair with them ending up on my lap, one arm wrapped around each of them. I stop my movements for one second before my hands make it to their stomachs and I start a tickle attack. Their laughter and giggles are carried through the garden and when I look at Wanda she has a fuzzy smile on her face as she watches us; and a look in her eyes I can't quite decipher.

(Wanda PoV)

I watch in awe as the boys laugh travel across the backyard, their smiles so big their eyes are almost closed their cheeks red from laughing. I haven't seen them relax this much, or laugh this much in a really long time. When they beg her to stop, and I see Nathaniel curled up on the floor as he laughs at them, she immediately stops and her head whips around to look at Nathaniel who knows he is in for it now. 

The twins bolt off of Y/n's lap, Tommy grabs Nathaniel off of the floor running ahead of his brother. He is just like Pietro, fast on his feet and so quick. Billy is running closely behind them, as Y/n once again vaults over the railing landing in front of the boys who slide to a halt. Her vaulting over that shows her arm muscles flexing and putting strain on her shirt which is a little tight around her biceps, not that I'm complaining. Oh and when she grabs the railing her veins, oh god the veins in her arms bulge and I have to clench my thighs together when I feel my body warm as I think about her.

I didn't even realise I was staring into space, until inside of laughter I hear Y/n say shit apologise to the boys for her foul language and then a cry. My motherly instincts kick in, standing from my chair dashing to the stairs of the decking looking towards where the crying is coming from. I see Y/n cradling Nathaniel in her arms, bouncing up and down on the ball of her feet, as she tries to calm him down. She is so good with him, and the twins, and it makes my heart happy but also ache because I asked her to be introduced as a friend first.

Out of my peripheral vision I see Natasha come and stand next to me. She wraps her arm around my body bringing me closer to her so I rest my head on top of hers. She gives my side a squeeze so I lift my head to look at her.

"She is good with them." Natasha doesn't need to tell me who she is on about.

"She really is."

"Why did you not want to introduce her as your girlfriend?" Ouch, there it is I feel my heart stops at the question and I feel like a deer caught in headlights.

"When I told her it made sense, she also agreed and made the situation make sense even more like she does with her words and just knowing what to say."

"And now?" I look from Natasha to Y/n who is giving Nathaniel's knee a small kiss, placing him on the floor and he bolts away from her as soon as his feet hit the ground. Tommy and Billy now reassured that Nathaniel is okay join back in, chasing after Nathaniel or the other way around. My eyes watch as Y/n acts casual trying to trick the children into moving closer to her.

"Don't be afraid I don't bite." She says in a creepy voice that let's the boys know she is definitely lying. "Well I mean I did bite a kid once." As soon as she said it she bolted towards them gnashing her teeth playfully to imitate some sort of monster as the children squeal and run away.

As I'm watching her run around with my children a new feeling, a scary feeling creeps up on me. I feel it in my heart causing it to speed up as I watch them all. My palms become sweaty, I feel the butterflies trying to escape, my mouth dry. My heart skips a beat when I hear her laugh from across the yard, and that smile. I want to see that smile everyday, I want to be with her every waking moment. I know I have her but I want her, no one else. It's all her. She is all I have ever needed all wanted, I feel an invisible string tugging at my heart, causing this pull between me and her. I crave every bit of her. From the scar on her rib and back, to the dipoles that show when she smiles so widely at me, her eyes always seem to be a different shade from what they were the last time I saw them. Her charismatic charm, humbling personality and that oh so ever smart brain of hers. 

There is also this look that makes my heart fly out of my chest, it makes me lose my breath every time, the zoo in my stomach going wild when I see it. It's when I have her complete and undivided attention, like she is looking at the most precious thing in the universe, in the multitude of universes. She looks at me like I'm the most important thing there is. I know for a fact I look at her the same way.

I need her.

I want her.

I crave her.

I love her.

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[wandafiction]

It's Real To Me - Just Us Chapter 29

Warnings: Angst

Word Count: 2211

Series List | Chapter 28 | Chapter 30

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"Hello ladies, and Yelena." I join them at the table sitting myself next to Wanda, Natasha sitting next to her sister.

"I am a lady too Y/n!" Yelena holds her hand to her chest feigning hurt as the other three women laugh and I shake my head pointing my finger at her as I speak.

"How old are you Yelena?" She mumbles something under her breath, I catch her swearing in Russian but not much else.

"Yelena!" I gasp as I look at the children. "Watch your language there are children about." 

"Blyad!" (Fuck)

"You just swore again. Surely you're too young to be cussing." Natasha is laughing at her sister now, her hand resting on Yelena's shoulder. Wanda pinches my leg under the table telling me to behave, while Sharon joins in on mocking Yelena.

"Yeah Yelena! I'm sure your mother would love to hear that you're cussing someone new out and in front of her younger brother."

"Oh shut up will you." She folds her arms and pouts, but can't hide the smirk that grows underneath as she looks up at me. Oh this is going to be good. I rest my arms on the table rubbing my hands together, curling an eyebrow as I wait for a response. 

"Well at least I didn't have to climb down a beanstalk to get here today." The three women look at Yelena confused as I give her a smirk. "You know, because she is so tall. Jack and the beanstalk, the giants live, oh never mind." She waves her hands dismissively. 

"It's okay Yelena I got it, maybe I could take you to my kingdom one day. I heard there was a goose that lays giant golden eggs or something." She gives me the middle finger as she scoffs. "Hey I'm just saying." 

"Well I bet someone like you does have a goose that lays golden eggs. For all we know you have one of those fabergé eggs." 

"Not worth the money." I shrug dismissively. Wanda places her hand on my thigh trying to take my attention away from Yelena as Natasha gives her sister a pointed look telling her to stop. Unfortunately she doesn't see, Sharon is just enjoying the show which I can't blame her for.

"Not worth the money, oh Miss self righteous I give money to poor people because I can." I take in a breath, placing my hand on Wanda's taking control of my emotions so I don't react. She isn't the first person to say something like this, she isn't going to be the last but if it's going to create tension between her and me then I might say something. I don't want to ruin what I have with Wanda because Yelena is butt hurt I have money. 

"Yelena stop." I hear Natasha hiss in her sister's ear, so I know Yelena heard it. Luckily the boys are too preoccupied with chasing one another to notice what's going on.

"No, I want to know how some 22 year old has a fu...has a business and all this money. We don't even know who she works for!" Yelena throws her hands in the air aggressively as she gets more wound up, at least she stopped herself from swearing so she has some control. "I mean she turned up in a brand new G-wagon, she lives in a penthouse according to Wanda, has a few expensive cars and a house. Now you tell me, how someone who is my age can have all of that! I bet it's not even hers. She is probably just another trust fund kid who shows off mommy and daddy's money."

"My mom and dad own an ice cream parlor, how on earth would you expect them to have enough to have a trust fund let alone a multimillion dollar trust fund." 

"That's not real though is it?!" Her eyes widen and she says it, the other three women's jaws drop as their heads whip around all of them glaring at Yelena. She seems to shrink under their gazes, her sister hits the back of her head seemingly the most angry with her. 

"Yelena that's enough." Wanda's voice is scarily calm and even, but her head tilt and eyes tell a different story: I would hate to be on the receiving end of this Wanda. 

"I'm sorry Y/n. I didn't mean, I shouldn't have said that. It just came out before I could stop myself." Well fuck!

"It's okay Yelena." My eyes meet hers as I give her a smile, one that I know doesn't meet my eyes, but my voice is soft and calm.

"It's not though. For what it's worth I am so sorry, I really didn't mean to say it." 

"But you did." 

"I did." She drops her head, disappointed with her own actions which already lets me know she is truly sorry but I just need a minute.

"I'm just going to the toilet." I stand gently from my chair, giving Wanda a peck on the forehead as I make my way inside.

I hear Natasha's hand make contact with the back of her sister's head as she chews her out once again. I close the decking doors behind me, taking a deep breath to compose myself before making my way to what I assume is the bathroom so I can splash some water on my face. I assume correctly as I walk into the rather large bathroom immediately locking the door behind me so no one can interrupt me. I place my hands either side of the sink as I look up into the mirror.

Like I said before, I have heard those words before and so much worse so I am not angry or upset that I heard them. It just stings a little to hear them come from one of Wanda's friends. I get she said it in the heat of the moment, but she still said it. 

It isn't real? Of course it isn't fucking real, they are my adoptive parents so no it ain't fucking real. But it's a real as it is going to fucking get when both your blood parents who were meant to love and cherish you don't, well maybe my mom still does but I can't be sure I haven't visited her in a while. And my dad, well he is not my fucking dad. Clint is my dad. Clint is my real dad. I chose Clint to be my dad so surely that makes it real, it makes it all real. Right? 

I'm brought out of my thoughts by a quiet knock on the bathroom door, I almost don't hear it.

"Y/n it's Yelena. Can I please come in?" 

I let out a small sigh as I unlock the door, only to be knocked back when it swings open and Yelena jumps at me, wrapping her arms around me, squeezing me tightly. I turn my body to kick the door closed, and lock it because no doubt the other three women are going to want to eavesdrop, so I lock the door just so they can't watch it. I feel Yelena's shoulders shaking against my torso, a wet patch leaking through my shirt. She's crying. 

I move backwards so I am leaning against the counter top, allowing my feet to slide along the floor a little so I am at an angle where Yelena's head is resting on my chest and not on my stomach. She is tiny too, just like her sister, cute.

"It's okay Yelena." I feel her shake her head against my chest.

"It's not okay. I hurt you." I hate the way her voice croaks with emotion.

"You didn't hurt me that bad. I've heard worse."

"Well you should have never heard it in the first place. You didn't deserve it. Not one bit." I let out a small sigh, moving my body to stand up detaching Yelena from me. 

She lets out a surprised squeak when I pick her up, putting her on the counter top so our eyes are almost level, I take a few steps back to make sure there is space between us. I know I locked the door, but I do not want to have to deal with another angry Russian let alone an angry Sokovian if they were to catch us in that sort of position. Sharon's like Switzerland, very neutral, knows when to speak and when to let things just happen: she is a peacekeeper. 

"Can I ask you something?" Yelena furrows her brows in confusion, but nods her head nonetheless. "Why did you get worked up so quickly? We were joking around and then it's like a switch flipped and you completely lost it."

"I don't know, not really. You just sort of said that fabergé eggs are not worth the money, and something just flipped. I think that's the way I interpreted it."

"How did you interpret it?"

"That you were saying they were such throwaway things. Like you were just able to spend all that money, which is not even a big spend for you, and then you were like 'no I don't like it'." She shrugs. "I don't know, it's hard to explain."

"Well try." She huffs out a laugh looking up at me unamused.

"I think maybe it's because I'm living with my sister."

"Well it can't be that bad that you lose your shit at a practical stranger. A stranger that's dating a Sokovian woman by the way."

"Yeah I know. She did the head tilt thing and I swear I nearly shit myself there and then."

"It was pretty scary." I laugh along with Yelena's giggles.

"I know right?" 

"So why do you think living here caused the outburst?"

"What are you my therapist now?" 

"Amuse me."

"Okay Dr Y/n." She smirks at me as I giggle a little, but nod for her to continue. "It's not just living here, it's not having a job here either. I mean I am relying on my older sister for pretty much everything and I am struggling to get to the interview faze of so many places. No one wants me." 

"So that's it." I speak softly as I look at Yelean who lets out a defeated sigh as I take all the information in. "You think your not needed, not wanted and that you are going to have to rely on people all your life and yet here I am at the same age as you living some people's wildest dreams."

"No offence but I hate how you can have everything in the palm of your hand yet here I am living with my sister with no job." I perk up when I get an idea.

"What sort of jobs are you applying for?"

"Uhm, anything and everything. But something that pays more than $10 just because I need to start putting money behind me. Why?"

"What does your CV look like? I could maybe help you put something together if you would like help. I've read so many, and done so many interviews that I sort of know what to look for and what not to look for. And if they are going to read the first two lines and chuck your CV or phone you up." Yelena's jaw drops at the idea.

"You would do that? For me?" Her bottom lip quivers a little. "After what I said out there."

"All is forgiven Yelena. You need to stop beating yourself up about it. It was in the heat of the moment, and we all say things we don't mean."

"That would be like so fucking amazing if you could help me. Like you don't even know what this means. So yes, please could you help me with my CV?" 

"Of course I will. I will give you my number and email and we can start on it tomorrow or something, but for today let's just relax and have fun. Oh by the way you are going to be on mine and Nats team for a water fight, but don't let the others know I brought water guns. I wanted to surprise the children." 

"Thank you so so so much Y/n. You don't even know what this means to me! Thank you, thank you, thank you!" She jumps off the counter to give me another hug, wrapping her arms tightly around my waist as I wrap mine around her shoulders draping them over her back lazily. "Me, you and Natasha are going to win the battle by the way." 

"Of course we are. Now let's head back out there, maybe have a drink and then we can have a good afternoon." 

Yelena let's go of me heading straight to the door, but as she grabs the handle with her hand ready to unlock it she turns back around to me: keeping her hand on the handle.

"Me and Natasha are adopted too, so I know it's real because it's real to me too." I smile softly and nod in understanding at what she is saying, as she turns to unlock the door so we can leave the bathroom.

She is right.

It's real.

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[wandafiction]

Protective Friend - Just Us Chapter 28

Warnings: None

Word Count: 3029

Series List | Chapter 27 | Chapter 29

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I hold onto Nathaniel's hand, mine and his bag on my left shoulder, as we walk towards the front door where everyone one is standing. As we make it to them Nathaniel hides his body against my leg, so I place our bags on the floor and pick him up resting him on my right hip. My right arm is placed under his butt and legs to hold him in place, his arms instinctively wrap around my neck as he hides his face against my shoulder.

"Now Nathaniel there is no need to be shy. These people are friends." I bounce him up and down a couple of times to try and get him to move his head to look at them. When I see the smiles on the women's faces grow and hear Sharon and Yelena coo at his adorableness, I angle my head to look at him. He has very red cheeks, a shy smile placing his thumb in his mouth. It's a nervous habit that he has been getting better at not doing, but he does it a lot when around new people. 

"Why don't you introduce yourself to everyone." I whisper in his ear, as I gently remove his thumb from his mouth. 

He looks to the floor, which signals he wants to be put down so I follow his silent demand. I watch as he walks to Sharon first who is on the edge of the group, she bends down to match his height giving him a friendly smile. Nathaniel's hand shoots out in front of him, causing an eyebrow to raise on Sharon's face and to turn to me for reassurance so I simply nod. She takes his hand in hers and he shakes his arm a couple times, it looks all floppy because he doesn't quite understand that a handshake should be just that and not a whole ass arm movement.

"Hi there Miss. I am Nafanul." Like I said he struggles to pronounce his full name but was taught to introduce himself as such. 

"Well hi Nathaniel, I'm Sharon. It is very nice to meet you."

"You too Miss Sharon." He lets go of her hand, making his way to stand in front of Yelena while Sharon remains crouched with a caring eye on my brother.

"Well hello young man. I'm Yelena. I'm more of a hugger, could I get one?" Nathaniel nods his head excitedly. Yelena bends down to match his height, Nathaniel practically chucks himself into her arms as she falls backwards onto her ass making us let out a giggle.

"Nathaniel be careful please." 

"Sorry Miss Yelena. Thank you for the hug." He climbs off her body as he stands in front of Natasha. He shuffles his feet, slightly intimidated by her quirked eyebrow and crossed arms.

'Hello. I'm Nafanul, Y/n's little brother. It is very next to meet you." He holds at a slightly shaky hand, but visibly relaxes when Nat copies the actions of the other two women, bending down and giving him a firm handshake back.

"Hey Nathaniel. My name is Natasha. How old are you buddy?" 

"I am 4 Miss Natasha. Oh Natasha sounds like Nafanul." He shows 4 fingers to Natasha as he squeals about his discovery. 

"Nathaniel." He turns to me with a curious gaze. "Say your name again, but slowly you're still making the f sound not the th sound." I show him my tongue between my teeth so he can copy how to make the sound.

"Sorry."

"Don't apologise, you're still learning. Just try again." I talk gently to him so he knows I am only trying to help.

"Na...thhhhhhhh...an...ul….NATHANIEL!" I smile brightly at him as he runs to me in celebration so I pick him up tickling him lightly till he tells me to stop.

"Well done my dude. Now you have 3 other people to meet." He doesn't let go of me so I keep him on my him as I walk to Wanda and the twins for introductions, the other three woman are stood closely to one another with careful eyes 

"Nathaniel this is Wanda my friend, Wanda this is Nathaniel my little brother." I gesture between them both as I speak, and I see Wanda's eyes shine at the sight of the child in my hand.

"Hello Miss Wanda, it is very lovely to meet you." 

"It's wonderful to meet you too. Can I get one of those famous hugs you gave Yelena."

"Yes!" His body practically buzzes against mine until I transfer him from my hip onto Wanda's where she rests her arm under his butt to keep him attached to her. She bounces him lightly before turning to look at the twins.

"Boys introduce yourselves please." Wanda goes back to looking at Nathaniel as he starts talking about something random, I catch the words astronaut and aliens, that boy is obsessed with space.

"Hi I am Tommy Maximoff and this is my brother Billy Maximoff. It is nice to meet you." Both boys shake my hands as Tommy introduces them.

"It's lovely to meet you boys. I'm Y/n, I am a friend of your mom's from work." 

"You also work for Mr Stark?" Billy questions.

"I work with him, yeah."

"That's cool, so are you like a super smart scientist person just like him?" 

"Yes, my sissy is super smart. Big brain smart." Nathaniel joins in on our conversation, quoting what Clint used to call me. "Daddy always says that you are just like mommy." 

"Hmm. Right why don't you go inside with Wanda and the boys and I will get the rest of the stuff from the car. Is that okay Nathaniel?" I check knowing he can be shy around new people.

"Yeah that's okay sissy. I like Wanda's cuddles so I will be okay." 

"Ah rude! Nothing is better than my cuddles, you told me so yourself." 

"Miss Wanda, can you put me down for just one second please." 

"Of course." Wanda bends down so Nathaniel can steady himself on the ground, he comes walking up to me everyone looks at us with a curious gaze I quirk an eyebrow in question to my brother. 

"Well I lied!" He squeals as he runs away from me and I start to chase him, being careful because we are still on Natasha's driveway at this point. 

He shrieks as he sees me getting closer to him turning back towards the woman who are now laughing their heads off as both me and Nathaniel are panting. He looks between the woman as he runs towards them and sharply turns towards Wanda. His body collides with her leg, causing her to stumble backwards a little, as he wraps his arms around her and hides his body behind her.

"Help me Miss Wanda!" 

"It's okay, I will protect you." She smirks at me while tilting her head, holy shit that's something scary right there! I stop in my tracks in front of her squinting my eyes at her and Nathaniel.

Nathaniel smirks at me so I try to go around Wanda to grab him but she turns her body, using one hand to hold onto Nathaniel's back so he turns with her. Okay, so that's how we are playing. I give Wanda my signature 'oh you've done it now' smirk and her face drops. 

"Tommy! Billy! Want to team up against your mom and my brother?" They both nod at the prospect. "Get them!"

Tommy and Billy bolt towards Wanda and I see Nathaniel run from behind her legs heading towards the house but stopping at the open door which in turn makes us all stop. I tilt my head in question, but see him pick up one foot to take his shoe off before taking the other one off. 

"It's okay you can run through the house to the back garden, just be careful." Natasha's voice is delicate but stern and the boys take off through the house to chase Nathaniel into the garden.

"He is cute." Yelena states the obvious. 

"He is." I smile when I hear laughing echoing through the house. "Could one of you help me unload the ice cream please?" 

"I will. Ladies, why don't you go get yourself some drinks and Wanda you can put Y/n's and Nathaniel's bag in the spare room." Natasha's voice is commanding but not in a patronising way as I usher her to follow me to the car. 

As we get to the car Natasha stops me from opening the trunk door, holding her palm flat against it as her eyes bore holes into the side of my head. She is analysing me, trying to get a read on me, trying to figure me out without asking the question. I know because I've done it myself, so I turn to look at her keeping my expression neutral and calm giving her a soft smile.

"You can ask, you know. Now that we are away from her you can ask." Natasha seems surprised by my words not expecting them, but I know I am on the right track when her hand falls from the door as she relaxes slightly. 

"What are your intentions?" 

"Intentions?"

"With what?"

"With Wanda?"

"I don't have anything but good intentions when it comes to Wanda." Natasha huffs out a breath. I know she wants to say something, maybe ask some more so I wait patiently.

When she doesn't say anything, having an internal battle between whether she should be the over protective friend or not I have a try at opening the trunk again. When she doesn't move a muscle I swing the door open wide so that you can no longer see us from the house, protected behind the tinted windows of the trunk door. I hop up onto the ledge of the trunk and look at Natasha. 

"Natasha. I won't hurt Wanda, not intentionally and I will try my best to protect her from the things that can hurt her. I know she is worried about what you guys think, especially you because you are, aside from the boys, the most important person in her life right now. She has the boys, she has you, Yelena and Sharon to guide her through life and protect her from the bad side that can come with living life. But I want to be there for her too. I know that it is going to take a while for you to trust me, or even like me. I'm young, and that leads to the stereotype of being reckless but I try my best not to be." 

"She has had so much hurt in her lifetime." Natasha's voice wavers with emotion as she looks up at me with teary eyes. I don't say anything or change my expression. I let her say her piece. 

"Vision did such a fucking number on her, if it wasn't for the boys he would be 6 foot under somewhere or maybe nowhere. Who knows how would get rid of the body, but he would be dead. Like no turning back the clock to bring him back dead, no pretending he would still be alive dead. He would be dead, dead, oh so fucking dead!" She seethes at the thought of the man. "But the twins need their dad, even if he is a cheating, emotionally manipulative man towards their mother."

"Fuck him!" I whisper which earns a laugh from Natasha.

"Yeah fuck him." She looks down at her hands as she fiddles with her finger. "And then there is her brother. It was horrible seeing her so destroyed when she got the phone call, seeing her lose herself because of it. Has she told you she is in therapy?" 

"She has, not the reason why, but I sort of had a clue it would be to do with Pietro. Not that I need to know, and I only know because I opened up about being in therapy myself but assume she already told you that." 

"Yeah I knew you were in therapy. Sorry she sort of tells me everything. Oh, wait no not everything everything but everything. You get me?" 

"I get you. And I think it is amazing that she has someone she can feel so relaxed and open with. I don't mind if she shares with you what inshare with her, she confides in you and goes to you for advice so I wouldn't expect anything less." 

"There it is." I feel my face pale slightly, did I say something wrong.

"There's what?" My heart starts beating out of my chest at the thought of her answer.

"Exactly what I needed to hear to know that you won't hurt her." I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding my heartbeat slowing down. 

"All I said was that she can be as open with you as she wants to be about us, it's healthy actually with how her last relationship ended. She needs that reassurance not just from me but from her friends too, she needs to know you're on her side."

"Vision would never allow it." 

"Allow what?" 

"Wanda and me to talk about their relationship. He said it was her and him only and that no one else should be involved. I mean I get what he was saying, it's just…"

"How he said it?"

"Exactly." 

"Can I ask you to do something for me?" 

"Uh, sure."

"If Wanda ever confides in you about something I have done wrong or if I do something something to hurt her and she is too stubborn to tell me or I am too stupid to figure it out. Please have a go at me."

"I wouldn't dare."

"How many times did you want to beat up Vision for something he did to Wanda."

"So many times."

"Why didn't you?"

"Because the one time I did it, he went straight to Wanda, blaming her and how she spoke out of turn about their relationship. So from then on she didn't tell me anything and I didn't ask, it created this divide until the day she came crying into my arms when she found him in bed with another woman." 

"Please know I would never blame Wanda or cause an argument with Wanda because you chewed me out about something I have done okay. So please know you are allowed to be a protective friend." She lifts her head to meet my gaze, a smirk playing at her lips. "You can say it."

"If you hurt her I will kill you, got it?"

"Got it." We both laugh but what takes me by surprise the most is she pulls me into a hug, now she is even smaller than Wanda so it's a little awkward as she wraps her arms around my hips I end up wrapping mine gently around her head. 

"You're good for her." She leans back to look at me. "Promise not to break her heart."

"Promise."

"We better get inside before the ice cream melts." Natasha's eyes flick from looking at me to what's in the trunk as she speaks and I see her eyes light up. "You brought water guns?"

"Uh, yeah I did. Is that okay? I did check with Wanda and she said I could bring them along."

"Yes, it's more than okay. It's going to be a fun day today. Wait, you said you checked with Wanda?" She goes back to looking at me with a hint of curiosity about her.

"Oh right. Yeah I wanted to make sure she was okay with the boys playing with them." 

"They are 14 years old."

"I know."

"And they are toys that a two year old can play with."

"I know that too."

"So why did you check with her?"

"Firstly, because I didn't know if she was a 'I shelter my children from everything' parent. Secondly because I wanted to make sure that she knew to bring spare clothes for herself and the boys in case we had a water fight."

"You're sweet." Natasha gives me a sweet smile as she starts taking a few tubs of ice cream from the back.

"Thank you. Wanna team up later?" I grab the rest and close the trunk door with my butt as we start walking towards the house.

"Yes, me you and Yelena vs the rest." 

"The two Russians on my side fuck yes!" 

"Why are you so excited about having the two Russians on your side?" 

"Well for all I know you could be some super secret Russian spies, which means you know how to use a gun properly and have done since like the age of two."

"For your information we are not Russian spies."

"You see that could all be a lie, I wouldn't know."

"Why because I'm a spy?"

"Exactly!"

"See now I see the age gap between you and us adults." She jokes and I feign hurt.

"How rude! I will let you know I am living the dream of every 22 year old around."

"Keep telling yourself that kid." 

"Imma let that slide because I want you on my team for the water battle ahead." 

Natasha throws her head back with a laugh as we enter her house kicking off our shoes as we close the door behind us. We make our way into the kitchen to place the tubs of ice cream in the freezer and get ourselves a drink. We both go for some orange juice, looking out the window at the twins chasing Nathaniel around who is laughing his head off without a care in the world. The other three women are chatting amongst themselves on the decking as they sit at the chair and tables, but seated so they can keep an eye on the children.

This is how life is meant to be, relaxed, fun and you should be able to enjoy it without a care in the world sometimes. Natasha nudges my arm so I look down at her, seeing her already swing up at me.

"Let's get out there shall we?"

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[wandafiction]

Mr Blue Sky - Just Us Chapter 27

Warnings: None

Word Count: 3245

Notes: I know in this chapter Nathaniel is shortened to Nat and I should edit it but lets all just pretend for the moment it says Nate :)

Series List | Chapter 26 | Chapter 28

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So it's now Friday and I am currently getting dressed to go to this family and friends cookout thing where I am going to meet the twins Tommy and Billy, I'm quite excited to meet them to be honest and I hope they like me because if they don't I don't know what I am going to do. So, anyway, here I am standing in my room in front of my full body mirror critiquing my own outfit even though it consists of black chino shorts, a nice salmon polo shirt and some white vans.

Wanda informed me that Natasha and Yelena are hosting, Yelena is currently living at Natasha's while she looks for a job. This means there will be a pool, and Wanda said to bring my swimwear so I have it packed in my bag alongside a towel and some spare clothes just in case. I also have some water guns packed in my car, but made sure to ask Wanda's permission to bring them so I could play with the boy's if they wanted. 

A smile grows on my face just at the thought of Wanda with her children. After Sunday morning's emotional talk and discussion we decided to just stay in bed, only leaving for food and when we needed to pee and I only left after Vision texted Wanda that he was on his way with the boys. We wanted to spend every last second possible with one another, relaxing in the little bubble of us that we created that day. 

Also Wanda came to my work place everyday with lunch after I said I was putting her first, though she should have never been second in the first place, and I greatly appreciated the gesture. One day she brought in picnic style food, sandwiches, fruits and even a slice of cake for us both. Oh and she even brought Mantis something everyday, saying something along the lines of 'I was an assistant once I know that your breaks are when you go to pee'. However, Mantis assured her that she gets plenty of breaks throughout the day and a long enough lunch break to fully relax, she also mentioned I'm the best boss she has had. I mean not to toot my own horn but...TOOT TOOT.

I also think Wanda enjoyed bringing me lunch every day as it meant she got to cook something different each morning or the night before, as she would sometimes bring leftovers from when her and the boys couldn't eat it all. I don't know how to describe it but each day Wanda seemed to be glowing more than the last, she has this aura around her that just seems to get brighter and brighter with each passing moment I see her. She talks more and more about her life at work, home with the boys and even some highschool stories. 

I share some parts of my life with her too including how my maiden name is Danvers, but when I got adopted by Clint it changed to Barton. I also told her about the not so cool scar I have on my left eyebrow from where I tried skateboarding once, but instead of moving with the board the board went one way and I went the other hitting my head on the floor. Wanda also started opening up more about her brother and what he was like when they were younger and how he used to steal food back in Sokovia to give it to someone who was on the streets. A silver-haired Robin Hood, the people used to call him, apparently he was quick on his feet and couldn't be caught. 

"He would have been in the Olympics one day." Wanda had said to me when she looked back at the memories of her time in Sokovia. 

I talked about how my sister is in the airforce, which is where she met her wife and how they have a stupid and very evil ginger cat. I swear that thing is out to get me. Also a beautiful daughter, who I adore with every fibre of my being. Monica is the same age as the twins, which I mentioned in passing to Wanda and she had suggested that when everything was settled and I was officially introduced to the boys we should have a family dinner. 

I'm snapped out of my reminiscing by the ding of my phone seeing a text from Wanda pop through with Natasha's address attached and lots of kisses. She is so cute. 

Dorogoy: I'm just heading to the car now, I will see you soon princess.

Princess: See you soon baby!!

Oh yeah, and that, she loves to call me baby now and I love it every time she does. It makes my heart beat likes it's trying to escape the prison behind my rib cage, my stomach flip like I'm on a fucking roller coaster at the same time as feeling like a zoo is on the lose. I could never get bored of that feeling. 

I head down to the garage, choosing to take the G-wagon so I can take anyone home if needed but also have plenty of room for the water guns in the back. As I pull out and onto the road Clint's name pops up on the onboard screen, so I accept the call.

Me: Hey Dad, to what do I owe the pleasure?

Clint: I have a huge favour to ask.

Me: Go ahead.

Clint: Me and Laura kind of forgot to get someone to look after the child today, and I was wondering if you could maybe...you know...take him with you today?" 

Me: Oh yeah, sure thing. It's it all three of them or just Nathaniel?

Clint: Just Nathaniel. Cooper and Lila are both heading to their friend's house for sleepovers.

Me: Okay no problem. I am just in the car so will be at yours soon. Make sure he has some sleepwear, his swim shorts and some spare clothes for me please.

Clint: No problem kiddo, see you soon.

Me: See you soon Dad.

I hang up, I am using hands free by the way thank god for technology, and scroll down to Wanda's contact, knowing she is already at Natasha's I give her a call.

Wanda: Hey baby! Although I love to hear your voice, aren't you driving?

Me: I'm on hands free. I'm just calling because I just got a call from my dad and something has come up.

Wanda: You can't make it?

Her voice sounds disappointed.

Me: No I can make it, sorry the way I said it wasn't the way I meant it. I just mean they have plans for today and because the two eldest had plans they forgot to get someone to look after Nathaniel so I was wondering if it was okay to bring him along?

Wanda: Of course it's okay dorogoy, you don't have to ask me.

Me: I just wanted to make sure that it was okay, that was all. Also I am going to be passing the shops on the way down. Do you need anything?

I hear her ask around if anyone needs anything, before there's a moment of silence.

Wanda: No, no one needs anything but are you picking up Nathaniel from the ice cream parlor?

Me: I am. Why would everyone like some?

Wanda: Well if you don't mind grabbing some?

Me: Of course not princess. What does everyone want?

Again I hear her ask the people she is with and I hear a few mumbled replies in the background. 

Wanda: So let's have two tubs of chocolate, one Vanilla, the boys will have a rocky road between them and I will have…

Me: Pumpkin, I know.

Wanda: Am I really that predictable?

Me: No...well maybe, but only when it comes to ice cream. Is that everything?

Wanda: Yeah that's all. Thank you baby.

Me: Right, I am just pulling up to the Parlor. I won't be long. I will message you when I am on my way with the ice cream and the extra luggage. 

Wanda: Don't call your brother extra luggage!

Wanda laughs down the line, hearing her explain to her friends that I just called my 4 year old brother luggage.

Me: Well I mean he is the same size as a carry on bag, probably is about the right weight so yeah luggage fits him perfectly.

Wanda: Really y/n?

Me: I am only joking. He is my little rascal. Anyway, I will text you in a minute. And see you soon.

Wanda: See you soon baby!

See what I mean with the new name!

With that I hang up the phone climbing out of the car, not too shortly after closing the door my leg gets tackled by a small body that I didn't see coming. I look down to see Nathaniel looking up at me brightly, his red and blue backpack with some figures from a children show, securely on his shoulders. I bend down to pick him up by his armpits, he immediately let's go of my leg knowing what I am going to do next. As soon as he lets go I stand up straight chucking him in the air, his body leaving my arms as a squeal leaves his mouth. When I catch his body he laughs loudly and he has the biggest smile on his face.

"Again! Again! Again!" He wiggles his body in my hands to get me to do it again. I happily oblige, placing his feet on the floor first but keeping my grip on his armpits so he knows I am going to do it again.

"Nathaniel 1 this is Houston over."

"Houston this is Nat over." Seeing as he is only 4 some words still elude him sometimes when it comes to pronunciation, nothing of an issue and it is very cute if I am being honest. That's why he calls himself Nat because he struggles with his full name.

"Nathaniel 1 this is Houston. Ready for liftoff. Over." Each time I finish my sentence I make it sound like I am speaking through a walkie talkie.

"Houston this is Nat. Ready for liftoff. Over."

"Liftoff commencing in 10...9...8...7...6...5…"

"4...3...2...1...LIFTOFF!" As soon as Nathaniel shouts the words my body shoots up bringing him with me and I once again chuck him in the air before catching him.

Instead of just catching him though, I hold onto his small body and spin in circles a few times, bending up and down which makes him laugh. I turn the other way doing the same thing so that we don't get too dizzy by spinning a certain way too many times. Once I have stopped spinning, and as we are still by the car, I take off running with him in my arms to the door of the ice cream Parlor before bursting in, making Clint and Laura laugh at the action.

"ALIENS!! Nathaniel shrieks, so I play along and we whiz around Laura and Clint a few times before I slowly put Nathaniel back on the ground.

"Nathaniel 1 this is Houston have you landed safely? Over."

"Houston this is Nat 1. I have landed safely. Over" 

"Good mission astronaut. See you on the next one. Over and out."

"That was so fun sissy! Thank you for playing." He beams up at me, slightly red cheeks from being chucked in the air, span around and then run inside.

"I will always play with you Nathaniel because, and don't tell the others, you are my favourite." I tap my nose twice to indicate it's top secret and he copies me.

"Thank you for doing this." Clints has a smile on his face as I bend down to match Nathaniel's height so I can check what he has in his backpack and pull the tabs to secure it a bit more. I stay crouched next to him as I pull him to sit on my knee, thank god I do squats everytime I go to the gym.

"It's no problem Dad. Does he have everything?"

"Right here." Laura holds up a small duffle bag which, I assume, has the rest of Nathaniel's stuff in it.

"Right Nathaniel say bye to Mom and Dad while I super discreetly, and definitely sneakily grab a few tubs of ice cream." I say loud enough so Laura and Clint know I'm taking some stock but want to use Nathaniel as a distraction.

Nathaniel happily obliges, creating a sneak attack by hugging their legs trying to wrap his arms around Clint's right one and Laura's left one at the same time to keep them standing next to each other. I hear him squeal 'alien attack' when they bend down to give him a tickle attack. I smile fondly at the sight of the relationship the young boy has to his parents. 

Once I've 'stolen' a few tubs of ice cream I grab the duffle bag from Laura giving both of the adults hugs and leading Nathaniel out to the car. Well Nathaniel led me out to the car because both my hands are full with ice cream tubs and bag. He opens his door by himself, wow I remember when he was too small to do that, with a little struggle. He gives me a huge smile when he realises he can now open the doors on the G-Wagon and I tell him how proud I am of him growing up fast. I chuck his duffle bag in the trunk, placing the tubs of ice cream in there too but make sure that the bags and water guns sort of hold it in place. I cannot be dealing with spilling ice cream in my car. As I close the trunk I grab out the spare child's chair I have in there placing it in the seat behind mine so I will be able to see Nathaniel through my side and rear view mirror. I strap him in, making sure he is secure, before I hop in the front and send Wanda a quick text to say we are on our way.

I connect my phone to the car's bluetooth and select my only child friendly playlist from Spotify, all that means is there is no profanity and little innuendo. So no slumber party...unfortunately. But this playlist does have a good few songs on it that Nathaniel likes to think he knows the words too; and it is always very cute when he starts to mumble along with the song until the chorus where he will scream out the lyrics. 

"Sissy, play blue sky! Pwease!" I see Nathaniel clasping his hands together in the mirror as he begs me to find his favourite song.

"You want me to play Mr Blue Sky?" 

"Yes! Pwease! Pwetty pwetty pwease! I will love you forever and ever!" His voice cracking slightly as he says please. And it's so cute.

"You should love me forever and ever anyway!" I jokingly glare back at him.

"Okay well I will give you candy." He bargains.

"Huh, what sort of candy?" I raise my eyebrow in question knowing he can see it in the mirror as I watch the road.

"Your favourite." 

"Do you know my favourite?" 

"Yes." 

"Then what are they?" I don't actually know if he knows or not.

"Sour Patch kids!" 

"How did you know!?" I fake surprise because even though I like them they are not my favourite, but he doesn't need to know that.

"Because I am smart."

"That you are mister. Now let's see if we can find your favourite song."

"Yes! I love you!" I see his body wiggle in excitement.

"I love you too, kid." I press the play button once I find the song. "Are you going to sing with me?"

"Of course! What sort of silly question is that?" 

"A very silly one apparently. Anyway, here we go!"

( Mr Blue Sky - Electric Light Orchestra)

Sun is shinin' in the sky

There ain't a cloud in sight

It's stopped rainin' everybody's in the play

And don't you know

It's a beautiful new day, hey hey

Runnin' down the avenue

See how the sun shines brightly in the city

On the streets where once was pity

Mr. Blue Sky is living here today, hey hey

Mr. Blue Sky please tell us why

You had to hide away for so long (so long)

Where did we go wrong?

Mr. Blue Sky please tell us why

You had to hide away for so long (so long)

Where did we go wrong?

Me and Nathaniel are singing our hearts out as we drive down the streets of New York City, of course Nathaniel being Nathaniel wanted to listen to this song again and again so we are currently on our third round of this song. Not that I care. I could never get bored of singing this song with him.

Hey you with the pretty face

Welcome to the human race

A celebration, Mr. Blue Sky's up there waitin'

And today is the day we've waited for

Oh Mr. Blue Sky please tell us why

You had to hide away for so long (so long)

Where did we go wrong?

Hey there Mr. Blue

We're so pleased to be with you

Look around see what you do

Everybody smiles at you

Hey there Mr. Blue

We're so pleased to be with you

Look around see what you do

Everybody smiles at you

We continue to see the song, now for the 5th time, as I pull into Natasha's driveway putting the car in park. I can't end the song here, so instead I keep it playing and open  my door before rushing to Nathaniel's door who seems to have the same idea as me. We keep our doors open as the song plays, now dancing as we sing as well.

Mr. Blue, you did it right

But soon comes Mr. Night creepin' over

Now his hand is on your shoulder

Never mind I'll remember you this

I'll remember you this way

Mr. Blue Sky please tell us why

You had to hide away for so long (so long)

Where did we go wrong?

Hey there Mr. Blue (sky)

We're so pleased to be with you (sky)

Look around see what you do (blue)

Everybody smiles at you

As the song fades, Nathaniel and I take a few breaths to calm ourselves down and I look up from him to see that we had an audience. My cheeks flush a little at the attention, and Nathaniel hides his body behind my leg. I don't know how long they were stood there but Wanda, the twins, Natasha, Yelena and Sharon are all stood outside the front door with amused smiles on their faces. I recover from the momentary embarrassment pulling Nathaniel from behind me holding onto his tiny hand as I bow. Fuck yeah, I bow. Might as well relish in the attention and end the performance the way it should be. I do another bow, this time Nathaniel joins in a small laugh leaving his lips as he watches me pretend to catch roses and fake happy tears and send kisses to our audience. 

"Let's grab our bags and I will introduce you to everyone." 

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[wandafiction]

From Second To First - Just Us Chapter 26

Warnings: Lil Angst But Mostly Fluff

Word Count: 2582

Series List | Chapter 25 | Chapter 27

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I wake up to the feeling of kisses being planted all over my face, a smile growing on my face as they go from my forehead to my cheeks down my jaw and back up to my ears. I feel a smile grow on Wanda's lips as they come to peck my cheeks a few more times before moving to my lips now she knows I am awake. My eyes flutter open and my smile grows at the sight in front of me. Wanda is gently sitting on my abdomen, a leg either side of my body, her hands now moving to rest on my abdomen in front of her as she sits up straight looking straight down at me. I rest my hands gently on top of her thighs smiling up at her.

"Good morning princess." My raspy voice makes Wanda's smile grow as she leans down, her hands staying on my abdomen, her lips ghosting mine.

"Good morning dorogoy." Wanda's voice is full of rasps and her Sokovian accent is thick, making me shiver at the sound. I tilt my head slightly upwards so our lips can meet in a sweet kiss.

"What happened to you not liking morning breath?" I quirk an eyebrow in question remembering, as she lifts her face slightly to hover above mine, how she normally wants me to brush my teeth before she kisses me in the morning. 

"Well you see, now that you're mine I guess I'm just going to have to get used to it because all I want to do now is kiss you. And if that means dealing with morning breath, well so be it." I raise my eyebrows at her words.

"Oh really I'm yours, I thought you were mine?" I move my right hand from her thigh all the way up her side, then her neck all the way to her cheek making sure my hand stays in contact with her body. When I see the goosebumps grow on her skin I smirk. 

"Isn't that right babygirl? You. Are. Mine." I bring my mouth to the edge of her jaw gently digging my teeth into her skin, not enough to hurt or leave a mark but enough that a sigh leaves her mouth. 

"Mhmm." She gives me a small nod.

"What's that babygirl?"

"I'm yours." I bring my mouth to her earlobe allowing my hot breath to travel past it.

"That's right you are." I bring my face away, not wanting to start something so early and on an empty stomach. 

You see when we got back last night, and after our talk about how we are going to introduce me to the boys all Wanda wanted to do was snuggle and watch some movies. Of course I was happy to do that, it was our way of being close with one another without being close and it was nice for a change. I mean something has shifted between us. A good shift, but still a shift. 

I mean normally when me and Wanda are together the night always ends with us having sex, or at least a good old fashion highschool make out session. But not last night. We did nothing but hold each other, of course we still had the skin on skin contact as we were wearing sleep shorts and t-shirts but nothing else occurred. We just cuddled and shared the moment together. It was nice, no, it was amazing. So like I said, it's a good shift. To me it means that we don't always need a physical need for one another, not in that way. I'm so happy right now.

My heart is happy. 

"Baby?" I'm snapped out of my inner thoughts by the new term, my eyes meeting Wanda's that are glowing in the early morning light that is forcing its way through a gap in the curtains, the dust in the air visible as it floats through the light beam.

"Baby?" Wanda hums, nodding as she bites her bottom lip. "What's up printsessa?" 

"Nothing baby, I just wanted to call you baby and see your reaction." 

"Goof. Did you like my reaction?"

"Mhmm, I did. You called me printsessa, so I did indeed." She smiles down at me until I see her give me a questioning look as something seems to spring to the front of her mind. "Do you speak Russian?" 

"I do." I place Wanda's hair that has fallen in front of her face, and is tickling my nose, behind her ear placing my hand on her cheek as I rub my thumb along her cheekbone. "I started learning after the second time I went to Sokovia. I thought it would make everything easier when I visited. I mean I am a foreigner in Sokovia and hardly any of the older Sokovians know English and are not going to learn. So I decided that I would learn so there wasn't a language barrier between us." 

"That's really sweet. I bet that boy you visit was surprised when you spoke Sokovian to him." Wanda moves her arms from my abdomen seemingly tired from sitting up, wrapping them gently around my torso as she lays her head on my chest. 

"He was. It was amazing to see the smile on his face. I don't think I've seen him smile like that before and not again till I gave him my iron-man artwork." 

"I can't wait to see your artwork. Do you know any other languages?" 

Instead of answering with my voice I tap the side of Wanda's head so I know she is looking at me. Her green eyes meet mine, but I grab her attention with my hands instead.

I do. I know ASL as well. 

Wanda scrunches her eyebrows at me. "I'm assuming that was. I know ASL too?" 

It was.  

She gives me an unamused look, and I hold my hands up in surrender but a small smile grows on her face when I bring my hands down one of them running through her hair scratching her scalp the other resting on one of hers on my chest. 

"What are you doing this week?" Wanda's free hand starts to draw random patterns and shapes on my chest as she waits for me to go through my calendar in my head.

"I have meetings all of this week. What about you?" 

"The boys come back today, not till this evening though." Her hand stops for a second before continuing. "Can you stay today, just until before the boys are here. We aren't going to get to spend this much time together for a while." 

"Wouldn't want to do anything else printsessa." 

"Can I bring you lunch at all, or are your meetings going to run all day?" I can feel her pout against my skin about the idea of not being able to see me until the cookout." 

"I'm the boss, I'm sure I can get away with calling an hour break if you just message me when you are on your way, or phone Mantis who will let me know." I feel her body stiffen slightly at my words, her hand becoming still on my chest as she looks up at me.

"What do you mean you can call a break? I don't want to cause you issues with the people you're in the meeting with."

"You're the one who asked me if you could visit, but now you don't want to interrupt my work?" Wanda huffs a little as she leans up on her elbows, which are either side my chests, my hands moving to rub the tops of her arms.

"I wanted to come when you didn't have work. Your work is important and I don't want to get in the way of it."

"Work is important, yes, but spending time with you even just for a few minutes will always come before work." I make sure to keep eye contact with her trying to show her how much I mean what I say with my eyes. 

"I'm sorry, I just. You're the boss and that means it's important that you stay in these meetings."

"Why are you trying to push back on this?" I scrunch my eyebrows tilting my head utterly confused why one minute she wants to see me and the next she doesn't.

"It's not that I don't want to see you or spend time with you, I just want to make sure you have your priorities right. I mean work comes before all else."

"Does work come before your boys?" Her eyes widen at my question, obviously not expecting it.

"No, of course not. How can you think that?" 

"Well then why should my work come before you?" Her mouth opens and shuts, like a fish out of water, trying to come up with an answer. She mumbles something that I don't quite catch but I heard Vision's name being mentioned. "Sorry printsessa I didn't get what you said." 

"I said that I've always been second to work." Her bottom lip quivers slightly. "And you saying that I come first, that, I didn't think I would ever come before work in any situation." 

"Well you do. You should have always come before work, and from now on you will be put before work." A few tears roll down her face as she takes her bottom lip between her teeth to try to stop it from moving.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to bring up Vision and my past with him. And I'm sorry about crying about something so insignificant." I use my hand to clear her tears that have fallen down her face.

"Hush, what have I said about apologising for your feelings and emotions?"

"To stop apologising because it invalidates them." I raise one eyebrow at her which earns me an eye roll from Wanda. "I'm sorry I said sorry." 

"Good and this wasn't something insignificant, okay. This is big for you. After however many years of you and Vision being together and however many times he put work before you, that thing of being second is being changed. That's big." She nods, not trusting her voice. "And as for talking about vision. You are allowed to talk about him. How long were you with him?" 

"I think around the 14 or maybe 15 year mark." 

"How long did he put work before you?" 

"Maybe 10 years." HOLY SHIT! Imma kill a man! I tell you that much now. How fucking dare he! 

Of course I don't let Wanda hear these thoughts, keeping my face as loving as possible to hide any anger I have with what she just said. She seems to realise just how shitty he treated her as her eyes glisten over her bottom lip quivering once again and she collapses against me as a sob escapes her. She grips onto my shirt, her knuckles turning white with her hard grip. I don't say anything, I just stroke my hands through her hair scratching at her scalp every now and again, letting her get it all out for as long as she needs. 

After a while, Wanda's sobs turn to quiet whimpers as she starts to regain control over her emotions. Her hands relax against my chest, no longer gripping onto my shirt. She moves her head so her chin is resting against my sternum as she looks up at me, I give her a soft smile knowing nothing can be said in this moment to make everything that's happened in her past go away. Her eyes are bloodshot and puffy from all the crying, her cheeks stained from the tears that have dried on them. But she is as beautiful as ever, nothing can change that.

"He treated me like fucking shit." I give an acknowledging hum, as I continue to stroke my hands through her hair making sure to look at her so she knows I'm listening: giving her all my attention which is what she undeniably needs right now. "I mean I know he wouldn't be the best sometimes but I think I've only just realised how badly he did treat me. There's just so many differences between how you two are, and I know you are two completely different people and I shouldn't compare. But if I compare, I see how bad it was for me before."

"Or how good it is for you now?" It's the first time I've spoken since her realisation and it seems like I said the right thing as her sad eyes and small pout transform into that fuzzy look again.

"How amazing it is for me now. How amazing you are. How you make me feel." 

"How do I make you feel?"

"So many things, so many fucking amazing things. You make me so happy, the longest I've been this happy in a while. You make my tummy do flips every time you call me princess and don't even get me started on babygirl. You can make me blush just by giving me that sweet y/n smile." She stops for a second, organising her thoughts and then looks at me shyly. "You make me feel appreciated, and like I'm a human being with emotions and feelings." 

"But you are a human being with strong emotions and even stronger feelings. Why should I treat you like you aren't?" I interrupt here, hating that she is only feeling these things now.

"Y/n you make me feel seen. You make me feel heard. You make me feel...you make me feel better about myself, and I feel so free with you, free within myself. Like I could do anything."

"Well you can do anything."

"I can do anything?" She asks herself more than me. "I can do anything."

"You Wanda are so strong, passionate and you are beautiful; and amazing and so so fucking adored by me and those around us. But you are also independent and don't need to rely on people to tell you how or why to do something for you. Do you know why?" I say in a strong unwavering voice.

"Why?" She whispers out as her eyes become glassy. 

"Because you can do anything you put your mind to. I hate the way vision treated you in the past, and how it makes you feel about yourself still to this day. I'm not going to lie about that." Wanda let's out a small laugh and it makes me smile up at her. "But I am going to spend every day proving to you how much you deserve and how you should be treated. I promise you." 

All she does is nod as she lets a few tears escape leaning down to connect our lips in an emotional and salty, tear stained kiss. Wanda's hands grips onto my face, her nails digging in slightly, not painfully, but like if she didn't I would disappear and it would have all been too good to be true. I wait for Wanda to pull away first, but she doesn't move her face from mine as she rests her forehead against her hands now relaxed against my face as she strokes at the small nail marks she created. I tilt my head to peck her lips a few times, moving both my hands to cup her face gently as her eyes meet mine.

"You deserve the world and more printsessa." I whisper in the small space between us.

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