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“I think u have a ed” god forbid a girl has a hobby

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no cause litterally

sometime I think maybe she didn’t realise how she questions all my food choices or would like complain about me eating too much or not fitting in my clothes nicely to the point where I would dread shopping with her like bbg ur the one giving my all the food and telling me to finish it even when I told u I couldn’t stop complaining abt what u caused

(btw don’t blame her for all of it i know as i got older most of my food choices became my own but she did make it more difficult)

My mom had the audacity to be like "you shouldn't be so rough on yourself" while I was complaining abt being too big, as if she isn't the one who fat shamed me for years.

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Idk if I’m mentally unstable or relatable (actually I’m pretty sure I am so it’s relatable I get we both are)

but like I used to wanna kms💀 (this was when it was bad not as bad rn) but then I would remind myself I was fat and I was like shit I can’t die fat yk.

as well as I’m just always convinced being skinny is gonna solve all of my problems I know it won’t like consciously but theirs just something subconscious in my head where whenever something goes wrong it just replies with “well if you were skinny …” ike like bbg weather you’re skinny or not it wasn’t your fault you litch were there

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Manifesting -5kg for everyone who reblogs

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Cal intake 8th

(Trying to keep in as accurate as possible Thursday 08/05 - 994 cals

I’ll probs delete this post if I end up ditching it

hey I didn’t end up finishing the week cause I was in the hospital the next day I got really drunk on my adhd meds and I ended up in an ambulance and stayed the nex Day in the general public ward but Yh. I’m good now tho

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i felt this one.

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There is no body dysmorphia. I am fat.

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the st4rv!ng student ୨୧

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Sometimes I imagine myself skinny, like flat stomach, small thighs and legs, small arms, small chest and there's this deep yearning that I feel lol 😭

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All I need is -5kg less and I can breathe

-10kg less and I can smile

-15kg less and I can live

-20kg less and can break free and dream forever

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whenever thinking about myself doing something, I see myself already skinny in my imagination, looking amazing and beautiful, then I realize I'm not skinny yet.

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does anyone else weigh themselves every morning? i genuinely just cant help it im so eager to see if i have dropped a pound lol

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idk why this time feels so different? like before i would always cave and just eat something small but now i have full self control. not sure what changed but im not complaining !! watching the number on the scale drop is such a good feeling:-)

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Ah shi- here we go again 😃

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Am I crazy

cause I feel like I’m loosing weight but I’m scared that as soon as I step on the scale it’s gonna be like “nah your still fat”