wannabe-holmes

[wannabe-holmes]

Mental health problems don’t define who you are. They are something you experience. You walk in the rain and you feel the rain, but, importantly, you are not the rain.

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And sometimes when the demons reach for me, when the voices in my head drown everything out, when I'm lost in the dark I'm raising my voice, not letting the darkness get to me I'm screaming until my voice gives up, until there's nothing left to say Because even the darkest night will go by and I will be alright, Not bowing down to my fears and insecurities, still standing strong

[wannabe-holmes]

i am a simple girl i seek academic validation and get absolutely destroyed when i don’t receive it

[wannabe-holmes]

Every time our eyes meet, tension is rising in the air Not the angst driven tension nor tension filled with hate But the kind of tension that makes you want to stay, find out more about your opponent Every time our eyes meet, our game continues The game both of us grown to love and to hate at the same time We're longing for each other, wanting the other one to finally make a move, to set their king at risk But instead we let our queens strive through the field, let them fight their battle until we're ready to do it ourselves Meanwhile I'm tired of waiting, longing for you, missing you But when the time comes, when we set our kings, move all our pawns aside Will one of us have to lose in the end Or will our thirst for adventure be combined and, instead of killing our kings, we decide to let them stay in stalemate and join our hands for years to come? Never losing the tension that gets created when our eyes meet, never losing each other But also never losing what had drawn us to each other Never quite stopping our mind games Never let our love go to waste Tell me, my love, are you willing to put your king at risk? Are you willing to meet me in the middle, are you willing to put our kings at stalemate?

[wannabe-holmes]

“Eye contact is a dangerous, dangerous thing. But lovely. God, so lovely.”

— Hedonist Poet

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People keep talking about having Ao3 Wrapped but personally, my Ao3 history is between me, God, and the poor FBI agent assigned to me.

[wannabe-holmes]

"Well just because the creature was being polite and not killing him at the moment didn't necessarily mean he wanted it to follow him... It followed me home, mom, can I keep it?"

[wannabe-holmes]

Fast and yet precise Your pen never seems to leave the paper Carefully crafted words spill out of your mind at a rapid pace as if you know exactly how to capture my attention -- -- Not inspired by Death Note for once but thought it kinda fits? I thought of this while writing an essay in class. I'm still in class btw but I finished the task early so now I'm just extremely bored again ups

[wannabe-holmes]

Bloodshot eyes, pale skin, hands shaking, piercing headache, troubling thoughts

[wannabe-holmes]

"I wish we could have met in some other way."

"This is the only way we could have met."

[wannabe-holmes]

Grief is something that will accompany you for the rest of your life once you experienced it Grief of losing a loved one Grief of losing a pet Grief of losing the person you once were You grow around it but it never gets less It will be easier on some days It will be harder on other days You will find yourself laughing and dancing around one evening But the next morning is filled with pain and hurt and crying I believe that those you lost never really leave you You still carry them around within your heart The love you felt for them will always be with you With this, my darlings, I once again want to apologize I wasn't able to save either of you Both of you suffered terribly the last few weeks of your lives And I know there's nothing I can do to make up for it For any of the harm I caused you by not being able to take the pain away from you And I'm sorry for not being able to say goodbye I visit your graves quite often I talk to you every night, I tell you about my day and what I'm thinking about I just wish you were here Soon snowflakes will cover your graves You two loved snow so much but you couldn't stand the cold But don't worry, I will give you some company out there and keep you warm And while I couldn't save you or take the pain away from you I hope you know how much I loved you, how much I still love you today We will see each other again some day, as soon as my time is up I don't know when that is gonna be but I know that I can't wait to see you again

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a relationship should be 50/50 we physically fight each other while being connected by a chain so every time someone gets hit we fly across the room together

[wannabe-holmes]

"I dreamed of a world with and without you. I couldn't stand it. Tell me, do you trust me?"

"Probably more than I should"

"Do you care about me?"

"That should be obvious, I wouldn't be sitting here with you otherwise. I would've let you jump"

"Seriously?"

"Calm down, I'm joking"

[wannabe-holmes]

The tension between me and driving of off every cliff in Mario Kart is immaculate

[wannabe-holmes]

"You're so far in the closet your home might as well be Narnia."

[wannabe-holmes]

Hidden glances when you pass by Searching eyes when you don't spot me on first sight Messy hair sticking up in every direction Quiet voice, sharp-witted words Subtle stares during class I feel myself wanting to find out more about you And yet I shy away Because I'm sure you'd run away as soon as you break through my carefully crafted walls Still, I am curious Come find me, mystery boy Let's start the game Let's see who stays and who flees when it gets serious Who are you, my unfathomable stranger?

|| Once again a "poem" (ig?) inspired by Death Note/Lawlight. This poem is not about me or my personal life since my life basically consists of studying and trying to not die atm ||

[wannabe-holmes]

"From the moment you had the bad manners not to die when I wrote your decoy's name on TV... I knew I had to have you"