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my soul desires me to be perfect, polished, and pure against the scorn of the world. irreverently beautiful, a breath of fresh air. needed in desperate times for i’ll come to represent hope for tomorrow. i don’t wish to wait for it to come, now i must be it. i’m currently tweaking my function to make every output a stroke of good luck or good times.

i just wish to be needed and adored. appreciated.

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no longer shall i ponder (let go and let God)

action, magic, wonder, (let go and let God)

facing the only one that matters, (let go and let God)

i’m gonna let go and let God.

i do not know what’s for me, (let go and let God)

but i know my God, he adores me, (let go and let God)

everywhere that i’ll be, i’ll let go and let God

consistently working through me, i let go and let God

i can disregard all that i feel and see for i know to let go and let God

i gain every little thing being unexpectedly blessed because God has made me grateful to just be and experience.

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“Don’t fall in love with sadness and pain thinking it adds depth to your life. God has made life boundless. For what are all-consuming waters but the enemy when God has made a whole world for you to see…”

pick your head up and fall in love with the one and only Him!

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i’m still a person, despite it all

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i’m comparing where i can’t compete

in my own lane but barley moving

but today never defined tomorrow

i’m just garnering inspiration now for immense grit later

or is that what we’re calling laziness…

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“you can’t dim your own light just cause others don’t see you shining.” - @profoundpondering

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I have cried over spilled milk before actually,

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i’ve been a bystander to my own life lately but today’s sadness has never defined tomorrow

i shall overcome! (after this joint)

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i’m driven by pure curiosity, with no regard for others. doing things because i want to because the opportunity always presents itself deliciously.

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okay icon ˚✧₊⁎❝᷀ົཽ≀ˍ̮ ❝᷀ົཽ⁎⁺˳✧༚

SHU QI — Cosmopolitan China (Sept 2023), ph. Nick Yang

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new sticker for my car

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my just for now, how’d you learn to be so cruel

i hate the sadness of temporary that washes over me with every ransom note that falls out your mouth

and i’m right to be upset, mostly sad for myself

i wish you’d change soon because the distance now feels permanent and all we have is an era, memories

my just for now this all feels cruel, being loved by you

is a lie, no truth

cowards the both of us

why do i feel stuck when options fall into my lap by the day

options that would make me feel way less ashamed

maybe the fire would be more tamed, but we’ve held onto this wallowing water for so long (indecision)

it’s bad we get along so well

and i wish you hell

farewell, farewell

just for now, let’s just tie loose ends

you never had it in you to be my man

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Jana Sterbak, Ethics, Virtue, Sexual Fantasies, and Reputation, 1987, embroidery on cotton 

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the stars have aligned to say that passion has entered my life, insatiably.