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why I stared blogging....

So I honestly doubt anyone cares or reads these but whatever, I started doing these blogs to get what’s trapped in my brain out and be able to smile and not be depressed anymore!! So to you, these blogs may be pointless but to me, these aren’t pointless... They help me out!

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College (im) possible

So... You know those people who grasp certain subjects like *snaps finger* well that?? I am so jealous of those people LOL Because I am not one of those people and I honestly can’t stand that about myself!! My reason is that I have a learning disability and thanks to having it; I struggle and it sucks!

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Burning desire

Have you ever had a burning desire that makes you feel like you just have to chase?? I feel like that every day; and whenever I do try to bring up my biggest dream or my burning desire people just shove it off and ignore it! Yes, it can be annoying but keep going and never give up because if you do, Trust me you will regret it!!!

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Once again sick as a dog!!

I swear I can’t win anymore, This is so miserable I hate this!! Why do I have to feel like this?!? Why can’t I just go back to feeling normal?!?!? I don’t understand :( 

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Your destiny is too great, your assignment too important to get discouraged or sidetracked. When you’re tempted to give up and settle, it’s because you’re close to a breakthrough. If you press through, you’ll become all God’s created you to be.

Joel Osteen

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Bowling itch!!

I have had the itch to go bowling for months now and I do not know why knowing that I am the worst bowler ever! But I guess it’s because it’s just fun and something to do!! I don’t know it’s just fun I guess and it makes me feel free and like I’m not being judged!

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confused and conflicted!!

I wish I could just say “This is what I want to do and this is how I am going to do it!” It would be so much easier but unfortunately, I cannot!! My reason is that honestly.... I have no freaking clue what I wanna do and it’s driving me crazy!!! I have so much respect for the people who know what they wanna do because it honestly feels like that will never be me! 

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Travel itch

I want to just get up, pack and leave one day!! I swear just leave and never return!!! My life has been nothing but hell and I am so ready to escape to new place and never come back! 

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Now what?!?

So I found out that the place where I work is losing a program that I used to work with and I do not understand why the program is getting cut but I am not about to argue with the decision!

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Cheating Confession

So I used to be the worst person in the world to date, my reason?? I would cheat on whoever I cheated. Why?!? I don’t know but I had a horrible habit of having a wandering eye! Although I have grown out of that it doesn’t mean that it wouldn’t happen again and that scares me; So the moral is either stay loyal or don’t get into relationships!

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Joyride Confession

So I have a confession to make, When I was 17 years old I stole my mom’s car and went on a joyride around town. I also almost wrecked her car and got arrested for reckless driving!! I feel so much better confessing this because honestly, this has been weighing on me and literally killing me!

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Finding happiness in every situation

So lately, I have been sick with a bad stomach bug and trying to see the silver lining hasn’t been easy, But today I think I did finally find it!! It took forever for me to find it because honestly, I felt like crud!!!!!!!!! And my depression was at it’s highest so finding happiness and or a silver lining wasn’t in my sight! Anyway, I’m rambling but the point is always trying to find a silver lining and happiness in every situation!

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Finding happiness in every situation

So lately, I have been sick with a bad stomach bug and trying to see the silver lining hasn’t been easy, But today I think I did finally find it!! It took forever for me to find it because honestly, I felt like crud!!!!!!!!! And my depression was at it’s highest so finding happiness and or a silver lining wasn’t in my sight! Anyway, I’m rambling but the point is always trying to find a silver lining and happiness in every situation!

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Wishing I could defy expectations

Why is it whenever I try to defy what is expected of me, I fail and fall flat on my face?? I do not understand why whenever I try to do something that my parents expect of me I end up back at square one and fall flat on my face?!?

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fresh start

So I have decided that I am going to try and attend college next fall, don’t get me wrong working in a school is fun but I don’t want to do this forever and next fall is my time! So now I have to hatch a plan to convince my parents into letting me attend college! Wish me luck

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Conflicted heart

So I don’t know what to do, for months now I have been working as a teacher’s aide for an elementary class and don’t get me wrong it’s amazing and so fulfilling but honestly, lately I have been feeling like I am not happy anymore and just feel like I am going through the motions! So what the hell do I do????

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Conflicted heart

So I don’t know what to do, for months now I have been working as a teacher’s aide for an elementary class and don’t get me wrong it’s amazing and so fulfilling but honestly, lately I have been feeling like I am not happy anymore and just feel like I am going through the motions! So what the hell do I do????