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What are we

It’s confusing. Sometimes I wish it wasn’t that complicated. Sometimes I wish we hadn’t made it the way it is. Maybe it would have been easier. It has been going on for quite some times now, but in two days the game might change. I keep thinking about how it could or couldn’t be. Can we be together again? Maybe, maybe not. Can we be appart? I don’t think so. I always thought we had to figure us out once we are closer again. But, maybe there’s no answer yet. Maybe the right thing to do is not overthink it and just letting it be. I’ve realized, why do we need to figure everything out? Maybe it’s what makes us so confused, or me at least. What if I change my mindset and let it go instead of needing a reason, an answer behind everything. I mean, if I am happy and you are, why not just not figure us out and letting us be what we are, or are not?

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You taste like a memory, I won’t end up forgetting.

faithfulfriend (via wnq-writers)

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– Wow, you really know a lot about that movie ‘Thor’, Claire. (Brunch, SNL)

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# me

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Yes you are Rebekah!

I’m afraid we have a far more urgent problem.

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I hope this plan to keep rebekah daggered for a year until the threat of the prophecy has blown over is gonna blow up in their faces. I hope someone finds her and unleases her on the world and she becomes the villain of the last couple of episodes bc I'd like to see how they would deal with a villain like that. A villain they love so much that they can't harm her, even if it is to save themselves.

Maybe she’s going to end up being the beast from the prophecy? Villains they have emotional connections with are always my favorites. 

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Im in love.

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rebekah mikaelson appreciation week ❋ day four: funniest moments 

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Exactly.

I once dated a writer and

Writers are forgetful,

but they remember everything. They forget appointments and anniversaries, but remember what you wore, how you smelled, on your first date… They remember every story you’ve ever told them - like ever, but forget what you’ve just said. They don’t remember to water the plants or take out the trash, but they don’t forget how to make you laugh. Writers are forgetful because they’re busy remembering the important things.

Oh, my heart is melting.

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11/17/15

Also, the truth is that, as long as I don't know, and as long as I keep my worries and wonders to myself, I cannot move on. I keep thinking about it, and keep arranging my life in function of it... And I realize that it is all holding me back, when I should move forward. I'm just living my old life instead of going on with my new one, and it's going to be that way as long as I don't face it.

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I think I figured it out. You want it, you regret it, you love it. But, you're not ready for it. Truth is, I could actually wait for you, because I want you, I chose you.

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Being with you

I fell in love with you, I didn't fell in you for the way you loved me, but for the way I loved you. For that amazing feeling I got from being with you. Then, I fell in love with us, our story and in our future. But, before I could realize it, it was over. And I had to learn to be without you. And even after only couple of months together, I felt like I had to live without my whole life. I got to know you, every thing you liked and disliked, your fears and hopes, every inch of your body, your favorite expressions and how you like your food. And then,I had to act like I didn't know all of it, like you were not the most important person in my life for the 9months that it lasted. I have to say, getting myself occupied was what worked best to forget. But I never truly forgot, there was always space for you in my mind. Even when boys came knocking at my door, they were not you. But after I had accepted that against all of my hopes and dreams to be with you, it would never happen, you came knocking back. And I got to be smile at by you, talked to by you, laughed at by you,held by you, kissed by you, touched by you again, I got to be with you again for a quick time. And that time was the best I had in months. Just being with you made all the troubles go away for a time. Because it is what being with you does to me, it makes me feel good and free. But then, the worries came back as soon as I left you. They got back even worse. The thought of you, of us, started to haunt me back again. And even more questions were spinning in my mind by the second. And I was sure I'd never get to be with you again to solve the mysteries. And I got to be with you, once again. I felt so lucky. I had the chance to do it all again for a time. I got some answers, and some not. But I still have you on my mind all the time. And I swear, being with you is all that I hope for, day after day.

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Justin Bieber ft Selena Gomez - Strong (Lyrics)

[Verse 1: Selena Gomez] There’s no sophistication in my lack of patience I’m just wishing you were better at communication As I sit here steady waiting Wishing that you would call my name in [Pre-Chorus: (Selena Gomez) & Justin Bieber] (Wishing I was better with the distance) It’s cause you’re the only one I’m really missing Nobody else would be forgiving Cause of all the love that you give me All of the love that you give me All of the love that you give me, give me (Wishing I was better at this damn thing Cause it’s just been too long and I can’t change) Wishing I was better at this damn thing Cause it’s just been too long and I can’t change [Chorus: Justin Bieber] Gotta be strong, strong, strong Gotta be strong, strong, strong [Verse 2: Justin Bieber] What should I do? Should I go? Who do I talk to? Nobody knows Who knows the answer to all of my questions? When will I get over this, over this? [Pre-Chorus: (Selena Gomez) & Justin Bieber] (Wishing I was better with the distance) It’s cause you’re the only one I’m really missing Nobody else would be forgiving Cause of all that love that you give me All of the love that you give me All of the love that you give me, give me (Wishing I was better at this damn thing Cause it’s just been too long and I can’t change) Wishing I was better at this damn thing Cause it’s just been too long and I can’t change [Chorus: Justin Bieber] Gotta be strong, strong, strong Gotta be strong, strong, strong

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idk

I don't know what to think anymore, how to feel, what is right or wrong. I don’t know. I’ve never been so mixed up in my life.

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The story of us

27.09.14 was our first kiss. I knew then that I loved you, your lips were so soft on mine, like them belonged on mine. Then, on 03.10.14 you officially became my lover. For months, you were all I needed, and we loved each other deeply. Until it all came crashing down, after nine months, on 9.07.15 and ended 12.07.15. After that, everything around me felt like a disaster. I was trying my harder to be strong and not care, which worked pretty good. But even after over two months, I still missed you in my life. Hopefully and surprisingly, we stayed in good terms, so we could talk and even spend a little time together without anything being weird. That’s why, for the last two months, I have been trying my hardest to see you, whether it is by passing by your place or out on the street or in a bar. As long as I can have a view of you. Then, something strange happened the day before I was moving out of town to go to college, we hung out at the bar, alone together, and talked for hours. We were still so close. I ended up walking you home, and you apologized for what you had done to me, and just when I was about to go back home, you grabbed me in your arms. You held me so tight, and after a couple seconds, you took a step back, and stared into my eyes for a bit, until you came closer and kissed me. You kissed me like before. Passionately. I tried that day, week, month, not to get my hopes up, because you were drunk that night. I convinced myself that it was meaningless. But then, something else happened. Suddenly, your name was all over my notifications online. You were keeping track of what I was doing in my new city, liking every picture I posted of me or friends. It got me wondering what was that about… I was thinking maybe you miss me, and regret what you did to me, or then I thought, maybe you were just happy for me or maybe it was just a coincidence. Last Saturday, on 27.09.15, exactly a year after our first kiss, I was back home for the weekend, and when I thought you were out of town, I received a message from you. You asked me if I wanted to go out with you for a drink, and of course I jumped on the occasion to see you. It was nice and friendly, like always. It is so easy being together because we know each other by heart. Like usual, after a couple of drinks, you started being closer, touching my thighs or rubbing my back. Since you were playing pool, I went to dance with friends. Eventually, you came to joint us, and we dance and smiled. You then came closer and closer to me, still dancing. You took me by my hips and got me closer to you. You stared in my eyes and smiled for a bit, and you pulled me even closer, kissing my lips, dancing. I kissed you back, your lips against mine, your hands on my back,my hands around your neck, nothing felt better than that. Eventually, it was time to go, and you took my hands and said lets walk. After a few steps, you took my hips again, and kissed me as we walked. And we kissed and kissed. You were saying I look beautiful and calling me babe. We were barely walking. You wanted to carry me home in your arms, and I laughed. After seeing a taxi, you called it out and I said your address only, and you looked at me, smiling. I spend a night I never thought I spend again. I never thought I’d get into your little black and grey room, and that I would get to fall asleep with your arms around me. It was almost like a dream. You were holding me so tight, and you said you liked my smell, and I asked you if you missed it, you immediately said yes. And from time to time, I would wake up in the middle of the night, with your arms around me, or your hands on me. It was so natural being with you, exactly like it used to be months ago. I don’t know what is going to happen next. I just know that I am letting life following it course and we’ll see what happens or not. The only thing I know is that you asked for a goodbye kiss before I left to go back at school and you told me we were coming to my new city next weekend…

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I wonder...

I wonder what you would say if you knew I was talking to someone. Would you envy that person? Would you feel sad? Happy for me? Would you want me back?