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Just words of a dying man...

I fear I might never be able to write something meaningful again. Since art has been shamelessly turning into business, I have lost my life's calling, my genuine purpose and passion...

It is now I feel absolute weakness from life bereft of joy and hope... and want nothing more than to sleep forever. Forgotten along with my stories and poems... soon, we shall be here no more. No one will miss us and neither will we miss anybody.

Please... if possible, don't let anyone lose their passion as I did. Happiness is fleeting and rarely comes back when obliterated by ignorants and ingrates.

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So... many years ago, while playing Final Fantasy XII, I thought to myself: “How hard can it possibly be to get max level at the very beginning of the game?” (I know that would mean getting Reks to level 99 but I value my sanity...) And after 914 HOURS of gameplay and a genocide of werewolves in the Giza Plains... I made it to level 99...

So what happened when the ps4 version came?  I did it again... in record time - 41 hours (fast forward option is a heaven’s blessing) but... holy science, it was painful...  mind-numbing monotony of running back and forth and defeating werewolves...

And what was it good for? The game is practically killed since now I can beat almost anything with one hit now.... well, this is my warm-up for Yiazmat, because he pissed me off SO MUCH when I was younger, casual player (as opposed to old grinding maniac that I am now) so this is my form of turning into super saiyan... and trust me, I screamed in frustration when “transforming” into this max level beast... aaaaaand I am very lazy to indiviadually level up each character later - this way they will all be maxed up when they join the party.

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Storks don't deliver children... GRIFFONS DO!

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So, I just finished fighting with this turtle and I would like to share my angst with you. This fight was NOT fun, but for all the wrong reasons... if any of you felt sorry for Noct at the end of the game, well... don’t be. This fight made me think Noctis is suicidal more than me. :D 

This fight was not the longest or the toughest boss *cough* Yiazmat *cough* however, here are some points that I have noticed:

I - Those of you who actually fought this thing without the ring (I did that once too... poor turtle...) know that when you attack him, you take damage. Okay, I guess. HOWEVER, for some reason, Noct ocassionally (8 times out of 10) refused to warp strike of point-warp when falling from the skies... so, imagine the situation: you are falling to certain death but have the ability to teleport either to your enemy or to a safe place on the ground.  Noctis’s mind: “It’s hopeless... guess I’ll just commit suicide...”

So, I fall to the ground and my HP reduces to zero. And guess what? Suddenly warp striking the enemy seems like the most awesome idea in the world... so Noct warp strikes the turtle with 0 HP and the recoil hits him SO HARD he falls to the ground like a ripe prune in danger condition... This happened way too many times... T___T 

II - How do you miss hitting something as collosal as Adamantoise? Well, when Noct actually felt like attacking (he refused to attack 9 out of 10 times...) he kept missing A MOUNTAIN THAT IS RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM!  Noctis: “Yeah, the turtle is dangerous, but have you thought about air? Because that is what I am slicing and dicing right now - air! Air is bad for you! Bad oxygen! *slash* *whish*” And then he fell to the ground again... T_T

III - Partnership is a beautiful thing, isn’t it? Well, f**k your hopes and dreams - because unless you are at a certain point, your friends refuse to use techniques...  Noct: “Gladio! Do it!” Gladdy: “Well... I can, but... come a little closer, will ya? I am a bit deaf on this ear with teh turtel roaring and my sword dislikes you.”

CONCLUSION - This battle seemed to have wanted to deliver a moral. “The greatest enemy is yourself.” No kidding, I felt like I was fighting against Noct’s nihilism as he soared through the sky, falling faster than my framerate... and I suppose others just retired back to Hammerhead for a coffee, laughing their rears off at me...

Just... *sigh*... I proved my mettle, I am content with myself. But I shan’t do it again. I’d reather eat my shoes.

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The Raven in a Cage

The raven sings in his cage, his black feathers are falling. No wisdom came of age to silence the inner calling of such a lonely heart - calling upon the forgotten art of loving and being loved...

The raven cries in his cage, as he forgets the warmth of light. Nothing but fury and rage forcing upon him an endless flight from all that he once knew, even from the very few which he called his beloved...

The raven forgets in his cage, that he ever knew how to smile. Spilled ink all over the page of his life lasting only a while erased from everyone’s eyes the truth, now hidden in lies, for it only left us torn...

The raven dies in his cage, the only home he ever knew. To the blackened lonely sage death gave a lighter hue for a life spent alone with pages torn from his tome. Alone, broken, forlorn...

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Final Fantasy Movies Reviews

I- The Spirits Within

I have failed to see why this movie had so many negative feedbacks. I take into consideration the time period in which the movie was made and the specifications of that current period. The movie was well made and I think the only reason for negativity is because The Spirits Within feels different when it comes to the plot. It feels like watching a Mass Effect movie, for which I am rather glad (I am a Mass Effect fan.) On the average, I would give Spirits Within 8/10 points only because I have seen it too late and my standards are now higher than what I would expect in the year 2001.

II- Advent Children

Final Fantasy 7 Advent Children was the first of these movies I saw. I am here to tell you the experience I had back then. It was amazing – the characters were well animated and stylish. The story was rather linear although there are some flashbacks present. The movie was made in a fashion that even those who haven’t played Final Fantasy 7 would understand what’s going on. The only difference would be the hype for the characters which we would know and love. I personally liked the dark atmosphere – you can see that it feels rather gloomy and there is an abundance of black colour on the character’s clothes. One thing that I could not get out of my head was the music; it was amazing. To this day I cannot listen to the soundtracks without remembering the scenes during which it played. Overall – I’m giving the movie 9/10… it missed on some relatively important characters, so I deducted one point as it was not the perfect movie yet.

III – Kingsglaive

Right up front, I have to say: the final battle reminded me of Devil May Cry. Just a cherry on top, served first. Now then, the review… I’ll put it personally now. This is the kind of movie I would like to make – fantasy yet it seems mostly real. The special effects were lovable and it made me long for using magic myself. I also felt a big leap in storytelling and overall atmosphere as opposed to Advent Children; a leap that I have not welcomed well. It may be just me, but there is a certain, unspecified stereotype that has been in every movie for the last five years or so. I can’t really specify it, it just feels like there is this dark seriousness surrounding it. I personally enjoy more fairy-tale approach, classics with certain je ne sais quoi. Overall I’m giving Kingsglaive 9/10… points deducted for the dark stereotype mentioned above. Now, don’t get me wrong, I like dark atmosphere, but can’t you feel the same presence in every movie nowadays? Maybe we are over-satiated. Or maybe it’s just me.

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Here’s a f***ing haiku...

Nothing else matters, Just falling dead into the dark, endless waters.

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Artist: ginuBunny

Character: Abby Heart from Future Memories.

Another fan-art. This one is Abigail Heart, a magician addicted to caffeine. Chill and fun to be with, although with some dark things beneath the surface.

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Fan-art for the coming book: Future Memories - by Vick Valentine.

Artist: ginuBunny Character: Erato (mage) Short info: Era is a spirit of a muse that is mostly annoying the hell out of the protagonist. She can be caring, but also very mischievous when the mood strikes her. 

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Ah... I remember the times when I made this. I should listen to my own advices more often and stop being dumb af. 

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Tragedy Begins (Perfect Chaos)

How many times I’ve heard, how many times I’ve heard, Sweet words sung to me by a beautiful lass. So many times it hurt, so many times it hurt, When she sang to somebody else.

Cast out from heaven, cast out from hell, young man roamed the gardens of past. His soul is barren, not feeling well, hungers for a feeling that would forever last.

An angel without honour, an angel without wings, just a puppet in wrong hands and his veins are the strings, lost to fate, she claimed the throne, he proves that he can fight alone.

Armed with a soul, armed with a heart, on a quest of lust, in a search for art, leaving the body, leaving the mind, in perfect chaos young man did himself find.

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For N. #2

I cherish the warmth of light that you bring near me each time I lose my fight and darkness is all I can see.

Please, don’t leave me here, where cold shadows burn. I may be brave, but still I fear that you will not return.

Long are the night in pain and hopeless are the days, when there is no joy to gain and darkness covers all the ways.

Long are the days and the weeks, the months and the years, when my heart only seeks the one over whom it constantly fears.

Long is the time I have known you, yet, together we are, oh so little. I wish we could fight together through the dark clouds that come hither.

Long I have kept silent when I was meant to shout - never saying what I truly meant and then left alone to pout.

Mayhap this will end in tragedy, but thou art needful to me. And I cannot hold this profound truth within my flawed mind or body.

Let the amorous fate favour me for the first time since I was born - let it hear and let it see the carpe diem of the lovelorn!

It’s not about me, not shall it ever be - your welfare is all I see, for I truly love thee.

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This is me... as portrayed by my 4 years old sister, who obviously sees me like a anthropomorphic super potato ^_^ I always wanted to be a potato... with an ability to turn into fries.

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- Collective Subconsciousness -

“Let us meet here, in this place...” Once your mind hath departed on a journey to a lovely dream keep in mind, that some of them are much more than they may seem.

“Bless me with your grace...”

I can’t give you a proof to hold, just a profound feeling and the lust of a poor dreamer in search for some meaning.

“Come the where we can be...”

Come to the place in dreams, that’s more than the reflections of your deepest wishes and fears, more than a parade of affections.

“... much more than you will ever see!”

The collective subconsciousness - where minds secretly meet. Just close your eyes, fall asleep, and leave it to your mind to lead.

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- Child of the Abyss -

What is the light you speak of? What feeling is this „warmth“? What is the fulfilment you, oh so much, hurry forth?

My dear friend of light, please understand this - I am and always will be a child of the dark abyss.

Aphotic in emotions, I fear the happiness that you will eventually lose too - And to me you shall falleth.

Coldness shall fill your veins, thou shall see the time is nigh - not knowing how to love anymore, you’ll be wishing to die.

I pity you... the memories. I too am hunted by distant past. With them I keep praying that each night will be my last.

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The good news: found an outdoor chess board...

The bad news: got no one to play with...

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For N.   #1

Oh, please do tell me under the moon that you and I shall be together soon

Oh, please do tell me under the sun that against all odds we have won.