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She was.

She was my baby, my little sister, my heart, my soul, my world, my universe, my sun, my moon, my hope, my motivation, my joy, my smile, my breath, my beloved, my precious, my everything

Beautiful Siberian husky with blue eyes deeper than any ocean on earth

She was the sixth birthplace - I don't even want to think what would happen if my father hadn't taken her away.

She was wonderful. She had character, she could dominate us, impose her opinion and get what she wanted. But that's what we loved most about her. Of course, her stubbornness annoyed me sometimes, but now I miss it incredibly

I miss every second spent with her 💔

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Pond

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Favourite Designs: SRETSIS ‘Celestial’ Ready-to-Wear Collection

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It's hard to concentrate on anything else ... the activities we did together are immensely painful. We had a board game ... but now it doesn't make sense to play it without Grandma, doing crosswords is also difficult ... I decided that I would start writing letters to my beloved Grandma - I hope it helps. Yesterday I visited her grave and left my last poem to her. Maybe it sounds weird but I really wish I had the power to heal so that I would be able to bring her back and heal her.

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So far I have lived in a dream. Maybe not perfect, but a dream. I had people important to me and kept going. But now everything is different. My sun has gone down, my smile hurts a lot, my faith is fading, I feel as if my heart has been torn out. She's gone. And although I'm glad she didn't suffer anymore, I miss her a lot. I have the impression that she just left for a while and will be back soon and everything will be like it used to be. I miss you ... I miss you so much.

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Christian Dior ‘Le Château Du Tarot’ Spring 2021 Haute Couture Collection Pt.1

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Iris van Herpen ‘Roots and Rebirth’ Spring 2021 Haute Couture Collection

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No matter what the circumstances, time flies on - the dates on the calendar change quickly and they don't think to slow down. In turn, what seemed to be abstract in the past is still abstract, therefore it is extremely difficult to continue this course not fully accepting these things. As a great dreamer, even a master of fiction, I set myself the goal of never losing this image of myself, so that my reactions to what is important to me would be so sincere all the time. But the further you go, the more you must adapt to the real world. Being out of time, out of bounds, beyond understanding is not something given forever. There will also be time to give up something, to change it significantly - I really hate it. I have often expressed the desire for time to stop at a given moment, so that nothing changes or remains the same.

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stasis

Anything that was supposed to emerge or to separate now just can't. Just like on this famous meme, "no thoughts, head empty". There is time, the funds are probably somewhere, but first you have to specify them and then of course get it. For now, however, I still try and try and try... in the most real aspect of existence. 

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Brilliant purples and pinks bring the daughter of the void to life in this incredible illustration inspired by League of Legends.

“Kai'sa” by Zarory.

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Emmanuelle Junqueira S/S 2019 for Vogue Noiva by Mar+Vin

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Friendship

This is really valuable thing. Of course, I can write and write about all the advantages of having friends, but probably everyone knows it. The point is, I have a really strong friendship issue lately. I had a friend once ... a real one. We knew each other for a long time, we shared many wonderful memories, we could rely on each other and everything was fine up to a point. This moment crossed everything out very quickly. And the reason itself? Well ... it's ridiculous. Personally, I know many cases where the reason for ending a friendship is because one of the parties starts a relationship with girl or guy in our case there was one such situation where my ex-friend found an admirer but strangely it didn't affect anything. So I was even more surprised, and not just me, that this ridiculous reason caused so much damage.

It caused her lies, the abrupt cancellation of meetings, and so on. And one day I decided to think about everything. I looked at how she had previously behaved towards me and our other friends, and well ... I decided to cross out these years of friendship. Fortunately, when I thoroughly presented the situation to my good friend, he wrote me very wise arguments in support of my decision. So I took the right steps. Breaking this bond has also become a catalyst for several major decisions in my life. But nothing is that simple. Several times I found myself wanting to come to terms with her as the first to reach out for agreement. What's more, I recently watched a series where the theme was broken friendship and in the end everything went well. So then I was like ,, ok maybe I should try''. But every time when I want to write to her I have in my mind her behavior. Well then...its time to give up.

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Recently, I had the opportunity to see them again. And well, it was one of my best evenings lately. Of the four parts, the last two were the greatest - they complemented each other perfectly. Of course, after all, my legs hurt, I was extremely tired, my neck hurt and I could barely hear but that was what it was about. However, I'm not talking about it now. 

The thing is that ... I know what a scenic image means, I know what it means to create a completely different image, I know what it means to take actions to maintain this created image, probably and also attention and as such popularity. I also know, however, only from information provided by a person very close to them that by removing these masks (literally and figuratively) it all looks different. I know that. I’m a creator myself and I have always dreamed of being part of such an amazing mosaic where your one move can also bring incredible forms to life. Well, maybe someday. 

But if then the matter of belief arises, and this mosaic is something that further strengthens the character of that belief, I think you can use it for something much bigger. No influence, no pleasure, no numbers - something above that. I'm not saying they haven't tried, well, I even hope they did it many times. In their place, I would not hesitate. 

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,, Don’t forget to write a beautiful farewell

I would like to read it before next daydream

Falling into a storm of empty terms

The black curtain wants to be a dress...”

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I am.

I always loved to write

I have my own Bible with my own work

I am a master of all kinds of fiction

And a multicolored mirror image

I am the force that blur the boundaries between fiction and reality

I am the one who for nothing in the world will not submit to the role and universal rules

I am strength and weakness

I am not two but four colors

I am titan and porcelain

I am a wooden music box

I am four trunks

I am music

I am a theater

I am a memory

I am past and present

I am balm and venom

I am helping hand and a gun by the head

I am something that cant be understood

I am error and fixes

I am a museum

I am a lilac, iris, lavender and lily of the valley

I am a princess and a knight

I am only a shadow

Invisible to visible

I am breathing and breathlessness

I am A

I am E

I am M

I am I