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Aphrodite has helped me so much. She’s made me realize that I can TRULY love myself, not just surface level. She’s called me out on my filth and has made me clean my room, get up and dress nice, and hasn’t let me just wallow in self pity.

I am so, so so glad that she has reached out to me and has helped me realize that there is more to me.

[witchy-girll]

Many people think that this is just a normal song but, to me, it means a whole lot more than that. 

I believe that spirits, guides, and deities can communicate through songs, movies, shows, stuff like that. When I went to the theater and seen this, the only thing that i liked was Elsa’s solos. I felt powerful when i heard into the unknown, like it was meant for me and just me. in a way, it is.

I just now realized that this was someone reaching out to me and telling me something because all i wanted to do was listen to this song. I re-visited the song and really delved into the lyrics. What I looked at really shocked me. Every bit of this song just felt like it was a letter to me from my deity Hades. He’s always telling me that I am more than what I am right now, that I’m destined for more. He’s always telling me I need to take more risks and this song, is all about that.

In the beginning she talks about how she just wants this thing, spirit, to go away and that she doesn’t hear it. This reminds me of how I’ve denied the fact that spirits and deities exist. How I would deny the fact that I see things in my peripherals and I would always deny that something was there. 

Then she says she has always longed to go into the unknown. I have felt like this my whole life, like I was stuck here when I knew i could be better than what i was, what i am. 

Then she shouts out Are you out there? Do you know me? Can you feel me? Can you show me? This really stuck out to me because i always look for someone to help and guide me. I didn’t realize that I could’ve been calling out for my spirit guides this whole time. 

This lyric really resonates with me and its this, Where are you going? Don’t leave me alone, How do i follow you into the unknown? Anyone who has asked me what my biggest and deepest fear is, they could tell you that I’m terrified of being alone. Another close second is being stuck where I am currently. 

This song perfectly represents how I’ve been feeling for a very long time and I really believe that this is Hades telling me that I need to get out there and let myself be me. Truly and un-apologetically. 

[witchy-girll]

How It Started

Now you might just be wondering how someone can just become a witch because, i’m kind of wondering that myself. I want to be one its just... how?

My best friend showed me her tarot card and gave me a reading in the middle of McDonald. After getting a past, present, future reading and it being so accurate that I nearly had a panic attack, It was time too enter this crazy world. 

For a while I didn't use my deck that much. I kind of lost interest until my best friend and I were un-taping some cords for our winter percussion group and we started to just talk. The day before Aubry, my best friend, and Aaron, a little brother figure to me, were talking about which Greek god was who in the group. I had no clue what i was talking about so i just piped in and said i would be Poseidon and stuff like that. back to the taping, I was talking to Aubry about how I’ve always felt like the ocean was truly my home, like i feel homesick about the ocean. Its strange because i live in Michigan and i only see the ocean like... Once a year maybe? But then she started talking about this religion Wicca.

She told me that you could have a matron, a patron, or both. I thought it was super cool and we left it at that. Aubry then texted me about Aphrodite. She heard the song Alrighty Aphrodite and instantly thought of me so naturally, we looked to see if i had been receiving a calling from her. Little did I now, I was getting shit tons of signs. during a time where i hated the way that i looked and just wanted to love someone and receive love, I seen pearls everywhere. I watch youtube a lot and during that time a crap ton of clam opening videos came up on my feed. Before this, I had never searched for pearls, talked about them, nothing. Also during this time I had two doves that would stay in my backyard during spring. they would never leave and me and my mom would call them dumb and dumber because even after my cat would go after them, they would just stay there and prance around our backyard. After we figured this out, i decided to do a deity spread and low and behold.... It wasn’t the beautiful Aphrodite that responded... It was the god of wealth, the god of the underworld, Hades.

I was nervous when i got that news and also confused. How were we SO off? I did another spread and realized that I really do need his help. He wants me to take control of my life, my destiny, to become more than what i could possibly imagine. 

I have major troubles picturing the future so to have a god that wants to help me plan and take control has really helped me bring peace to my inner self. And this is only a month in.

Not everyone believes in deities but, I sure as hell do. I have an offering set up for him and so far he has liked it. 

I will write more about my experience with Hades because so far, its been a lot.