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This is even more reason to not come back.

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Get you a boy who wants to be your play-thing one minute and who’s willing to fuck you into another dimension the next.

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“I feel shaking. Is the world ending again?”

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“Even if I didn’t mind water, it’s not like I have many opportunities to get shampoo anyways.”

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“Yeah, what a surprise, the guy that doesn’t bathe with water too often, and lives in the woods has fleas. I’m not even bothered by them half of the time.”

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“To nobody’s surprise, I have fleas... sometimes.”

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“Well... I DO have that one skateboard I.... acquired, let’s say, from that one kid a while ago.....”

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“Eh.... It’s been the same old same old with me. How’ve things been around here?”

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“Sup.”

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In other news, I re-edited my icons, I like how the colors pop more :)

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Just this week, in the last four days, I’ve blocked 6 porn bots. Please

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H-hewwo.....

I am tentatively thinking about coming back, though I think I’d be extremely selective with who I interact with. And even then, probably only through asks and stuff

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Now, with that said, I’m going to bed, as I feel like I’m about to have a panic attack, and I literally have tears in my eyes.

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Update.

So, I think it might be time for this post. As of now, Boz is on a least a temporary hiatus, as are my sideblogs, I think. Just the thought of coming back here and interacting with people has me terrified. 

I’ll still likely be around, and I may send asks to other people, but I’m not looking to start anything more over here for a while. I’m also considering cutting myself off from everyone but a select few people, possibly a group or two, until my mental health finally starts looking upwards. 

As for my sideblogs.... I’m not sure. I may post on them from time to time, I love Excelsius and Ludro, but..... writing here has become far more of a chore than I hoped it would ever be.

I hope eventually I’m out of this slump, but this is just the state of things here. For those who love seeing Boz on the dash, I’m sorry. This actually just breaks my heart to type this, as I love playing him just as much.

I hate feeling awkward talking to other people.

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In other words, I need a break from being messaged, thank you for understanding!

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Okay. I think I have pinpointed my sources of anxiety for the last couple of weeks.

1. The last day of a job I liked and was comfortable at was last week.

2. I’ve been getting less and less sleep, and have been feeling sluggish, and with a lack of energy. This does not help, as I have what’s referred to as a ‘social battery’. This battery recharges when I sleep, or take time away from people, but lately, it feels like the energy has been extremely low.

3. I want to talk to people, but don’t really want to be messaged first????? Like, for some reason the sound of the discord notification for DMs is setting me off, and I don’t know why, as it never has before.

4. I think I mostly just want to be left alone, unless I start conversation.

These are the biggest things at the moment. I’m going ask to stop being messaged via discord for a while, and see if that helps, but otherwise, I’m not sure what else I can do.

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Mmmm.... Maybe trying to force it isn’t the best idea, I can already feel the anxiety creeping up on me