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Kabuto gtfo the table before I get my spray bottle

kabuto cat NOW

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For a special cunt!?🤣🤣🤣🤣

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So I heard this song New Machine Gun (Fuck the NRA)by Yungblood and it was so over the top my first thought was "fuckin Sasuke". So here we go. This is what happens when I'm hyperactive and sleep deprived.

I made the news today

Because I hurt my friends

They scribbled down my name

Tied both my hands behind my head

They made me meditate

To analyze my mental state

They looked inside my brain

It turns out I'm not okay

Wanna see my machine gun?

Wanna see my machine gun?

Wanna see my machine gun?

That I bought for fun

Wanna see my machine gun?

Wanna see my machine gun?

My new machine gun

I don't give a fuck about myself

All they do is analyze my mental health

I don't give a fuck about myself

You're making us famous

You're making us famous

I drank some bleach today

Because they forced me to

Hide it with lemonade

Round about ten to two

I ate a razor blade

Just for attentions sake

I'm just wired up that way

If you're not watching me

Wanna see my machine gun?

Wanna see my machine gun?

My new machine gun

That I bought for fun

Wanna see my machine gun?

Wanna see my machine gun?

My new machine gun

I don't give a fuck about myself

All they do is analyse my mental health

I don't give a fuck about myself

You're making us famous

You're making us famous

I don't give a fuck about myself

All they do is analyse my mental health

I don't give a fuck about myself

You're making us famous

You're making us famous

Wanna see my machine gun?

Wanna see my machine gun?

My new machine gun (My machine gun)

That I bought for fun

Wanna see my machine gun?

Wanna see my machine gun?

Wanna see my machine gun? (My machine-)

You better fuckin' run

Run, run, run, run, run, run, run, run, run, run, run, run, run, run

Run, run, run, run, run, run, run, run, run

Run, run, run, run, run, run, run, run, run, run, run

Wanna see my machine gun?

Wanna see my machine gun?

My new machine gun

That I bought for fun

Wanna see my machine gun?

Wanna see my machine gun?

My new machine gun

You better fuckin' run

Wanna see my machine gun?

Wanna see my machine gun?

My new machine gun

That I bought for fun

Wanna see my machine gun?

Wanna see my machine gun?

My new machine gun

You better fuckin' run

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We've been here forever

And here's the frozen proof

I could scream forever

We are the poisoned youth

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And here's one for Oujidere types

Cause I'm the fucking king of the world

Get on your knees

I'm the fucking king of the world

Do as I please

So get up or get out and I'll show you

What it means for me to control you

'Cause I'm the fucking king of the world

[King of the World-Porcelain and the Tramps]

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Made one for himedere types. The image was too large to make into a gif, sadly

I'm the number one

princess in the whole wide world

so make sure you know by heart

how to treat me...

got it？

[World is Mine-Hatsune Miku]

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And here's one for Kamidere! If you guys want me to go a step further and actually flesh out these characters let me know

I went to God just to see

And I was looking at me

Saw Heaven and Hell were lies

When I'm God, everyone dies

[The Reflecting God-Marilyn Manson]

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And one for Deredere!

You got me high, you got me low

You make, make me go, go, go out of control

I l-l-like the way we flow

Let's go, go, go get me that sensory overload

Got me, got me love, got me love, got me lovesick

Got me, got me love, got me love, you got me lovesick

Turn it up, turn it up, turn it up, turn it up

Turn it up, turn it up, turn it up, you turn it up

[Lovesick-Emily Osment]

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Made one for danderes!

If I could say what I want to say

I'd say I want to blow you, away

Be with you every night

Am I squeezing you too tight

If I could say what I want to see

I want to see you go down

On one knee

Marry me today

Guess, I'm wishing my life away

With these things I'll never say

[Things I'll Never Say-Avril Lavigne]

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And here's one for all you kuuderes out there!

You've already won me over in spite of me

Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet

Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are

I couldn't help it

It's all your fault

[Head Over Feet-Alanis Morissette]

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Here's one for the yanderes!

Say that you want me every day

That you want me every way

That you need me

Got me trippin' super psycho love

Aim, pull the trigger

Feel the pain getting bigger

Go insane from the bitter feeling

Trippin' super psycho love

[Super Psycho Love-Simon Curtis]

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I decided to make vaporwave-esque gif moodboard-y collage things for each of the major dere archetypes. Avatar was made with charat genesis. Here's the one for tsundere!

She likes, she likes

She likes to fight and make up

She likes, she likes

She likes to be alone

She likes, she likes

The heartache of a breakup

She likes, she likes

To be my bittersweet love

[She Likes (Bittersweet Love)-Forever the Sickest Kids]

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I know this whole damn

City thinks it needs you

But not as much as I do

As much as I do

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Me ft The Dysphoria Beanie cause I can't cut my hair yet T_T. Dying my hair back to black soon. Finally starting to recover from the damage done to my body by 2019's tuberculosis clusterfuck. Getting a more healthy healthy complexion instead of looking like a corpse and gained back about 5 lbs of the 20 lbs I lost. Was kinda buff pre-TB, lost an unhealthy amount of weight (and hair) to the illness and came out looking like a skeleton. My hair is also no longer thinning like it was from the antibiotics - it's growing in quite healthy and alarmingly fast if I do say so myself. And I no longer look 20 years older than my real age thank GOD.

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After years of not being taken seriously I came out of the closet about being a trans man to my mother. I've done it again and again and again since I was a little kid. She refuses to acknowledge me as me. Claims that I'm some kind of fucked up entity wearing her daughter's face who took her daughter away. And she tries to gaslight me saying that I am not her child. A stranger that she's never once seen before. It's fucking with me so I made this. I don't enjoy being treated

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I've had this shit from a young age. I hate being bossed but I feel like I can't trust my own judgment and need someone to tell me what to do. I even psyched myself out and convinced myself that I was an alter and therefore not allowed to even dress how I wanted because I had convinced myself that my body wasn't even mine. I've felt like it wasn't mine for a while. It belonged to my parents, anyone who dated me, my doctors...but not me. Sometimes I still ask for permission to use the bathroom in my own house.

hey y’all wanna talk about a lesser talked about trauma effect?

loss of autonomy.

not knowing how to do anything without explicit permission or instruction.

feeling like you’ll get in trouble if you do anything on your own will.

waiting until you’re given permission to do so much as eat.

not feeling like your body is your own.

if you experience this you aren’t broken or alone. you were abused and traumatized and conditioned to be like this. remember you belong to nobody but yourself. you are and will be okay.

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Scar, can you feel my power?

Shoot here and the world gets smaller

Scar, scar, can you feel my power?

One shot and the world gets smaller

Scar, scar, can you feel my power?

Shoot here and the world gets smaller

Shoot, shoot, shoot motherfucker

Shoot, shoot, shoot motherfucker

Each thing I show you is a piece of my death

No salvation, no forgiveness

No salvation, no forgiveness

No salvation, no forgiveness

No salvation, no forgiveness

I met my shadow self in 2020. This piece is based off of that. His personality is vaguely reminiscent of the Old Testament God - a zealot, intolerant, harsh, vengeful, pure, logical, perfect and merciless towards those he views as contaminated, cowardly, stupid, useless, not chaste enough or overly soft hearted. Aka...merciless towards me.