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7 Affirmations to an Okay Summer

accept the things you cannot control

remind yourself, "it'll pass"

relapse is a part of the journey

it doesn't get easier, you get stronger

the road to healing is long, but you'll make it

grief is love's souvenir

getting worse is easy but being happy feels better

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TW; mild violent imagery

Do you search for me too? On those restless nights, with clouds overhead, I'm out with my lantern, searching for your darkness which comfort it once gave. And I found you, slowly rotting, shriveled, and only the vessel where your soul haunted so I raise my lantern up high where light could not reach where you once reside. Like an apple falls from a tree, down it came, my lantern, and tungsten saw not a twinkle in your eye before I shattered the broken glass into your face.

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If I dreamt, up to the sky; I’d hope that I could heal my scars.

But from above, I’d see below; My life had painted a tableau.

Then I’d wake, back down to earth; My scars unchanged and my future placid.

But thoughtless wanderings bore; Wherein my mind held all the answers for.

Then in bed, I would rest; Days unnumbered as I’d lay unstressed.

If outside, I’d hear some song; The wind would howl ‘Come, where you belong’.

Then I’d stand, and see a tree; It’s branches began to stretch out to me.

But I’d stare, dumb and still; Until my limbs moved against my will.

Then I’d watch, our bodies merge; Within my blood I felt a surge.

But there’d be, a shaft of light; Where she above and I below to feel her smite

If but then she shook us all; ‘How have I only stood-by?’–We'd cry.

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I am having trouble–

forgiving myself for what

I have not done,

motionless,

but eyes wide,

wallowing in my guilt

and self-hatred.

There is so much

to be done

and so much

I have yet to see.

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"your liberal education has radicalized and brainwashed you." no, i just learned more about the world and the people in it and gained greater understanding and empathy than you will ever have in your fucking life, apparently.

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god i think about that man who i have transatlantic relations with so fucking much. anyone know a guy who can get me on a cargo ship for cheap? (preferably for free)

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24/ 365 Things That Don’t Suck, Take 3:

trans rights

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CONTENT CREATOR ARCANE AU INTRODUCTIONS ⭐

finally put together this handy dandy info sheet for your ease of access!

Jayce a.k.a. ManOfProgress (benevolently referred to as MOP by his fans) — 31 years old, he/him, bisexual trans man, Mexican-Brazilian — Started content creation in 2020 as a hobby to battle the pandemic boredom but blew up and decided to make it his full-time gig — Streams games and goofballery on Twitch [623k followers] and posts & streams more personal and unrelated content on YouTube [102k subscribers] — Found Viktor’s channel ~6 months before they started talking and feels very comforted by his voice; sleeps to his videos every night and puts one on whenever he’s anxious or angry — Got into a bad car accident as a child that was fatal to his father and left him with chronic pain on his left leg; now wears a knee brace and a calf compress periodically

Viktor a.k.a. TheMachineHerald — 32 years old, he/him, gay trans man, Czech-Polish — Was unable to leave the house during the peak of the pandemic and found joy and inspiration from Jayce’s content, and chose to start dabbling in content creation in 2022 — Creates very technically advanced and meticulously crafted ASMR videos; usually fully focuses on the mechanical sounds and tech aesthetic but lately has been brancing out more [12,3k subscribers before he gets in kahoots with Jayce] — Started showing his face only around the time when Jayce started watching him and is a bit irritated over the boost in popularity it granted him — Has many health problems, including scoliosis and rheumatoid arthritis (which has caused lung scarring and severe cartilage damage to his right leg and spine from when he was younger and could not access the necessary care to get the inflammation in control)

Mel a.k.a. Melicious (to this day her fans argue whether this is a reference to delicious or malicious) — 33 years old, she/her, bisexual; Jayce’s ex-girlfriend, African-American w/ Algerian roots — Was with Jayce during her time in Piltover but they made the mutual decision to part ways when she was accepted into an art school in London; are still close friends — Made very high-quality weekly diary-style vlogs, often related to art [837k subscribers]. Went on a semi-hiatus after moving but is active on other social medias like Instagram [1,4 million followers]

Jinx a.k.a. GETJINXED — 19 years old, she/they, agender aroace; in a queerplatonic relationship with Ekko, American — Gained popularity on TikTok and later on Twitch when people realized she’s the sister Vi is always complaining about; has no niche and does literally anything she wants to do that day, which usually has to do with either art or engineering [166k followers on Twitch, 850k on TikTok] — Working on an independent music career on the side with their debut single Get Jinxed going viral on TikTok — Lost her finger ON STREAM when working on an art installation, the clip has millions of views

Ekko a.k.a. The_Boy_Savior — 20 years old, he/any, probably nonbinary but he has a job so he doesn’t care abt that rn, bi & asexual; in a queerplatonic relationship with Jinx, African-American — Creates well-researched and thought-provoking video essays about worldwide issues, especially dedicated to the health of the planet and its people [317k subscribers] — Surprised everyone by appearing in one of Jinx’s tiktoks because nobody knew they knew each other let alone that they were in a QPR — Frequently holds fundraisers and has done a lot of good for his community

Caitlyn a.k.a. KillshotKiramman — 23 years old, she/her, lesbian; Vi’s girlfriend and Jayce’s best friend, Chinese-British — Makes videos about weapons (mostly guns and shooting) [176k subscribers] and plays games on her Twitch [29k followers] — Moderates Jayce and Vi’s streams, and completely destroys both of them at FPS games — Had a gun misfiring accident which left her blind in her left eye

Violet a.k.a. vistandsforvideogames — 24 years old, any pronouns, gender-apathetic (call her whatever you like) lesbian; Caitlyn’s partner, American — Gamer on Twitch, but also shares about her side job as a boxer [212k followers] — Sometimes mods for Jayce but mainly just shows up to kick his ass in Mortal Kombat and exude chaotic energy

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THE DATE pt 2: old habits die hard

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THE DATE!! ITS HAPPENING EVERYBODY STAY FUCKING CALM ‼️‼️‼️

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content creator au continues! viktor makes the first move... bold is his middle name

pt 1 | pt 2

(seriously, thank you so much for all the love on this silly au, i wasn't expecting anyone to give a fuck about a youtuber au in the year of our lord 2024 yet here we are!)

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Sirius as Dr. Frank-N-Furter

send post.

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So you know how Jayce made Viktor’s brace and crutch?

I’m so normal about them…

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In an alternate universe they're university professors and married I saw it in the wild rune

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part 2 to this... the mutual parasocial relationship thickens

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they've never had sex

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i love slowburn and drama🥰🤗🤩