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you wanna know how i know phil lester has imprinted on me? in the past week ive replied to unsavory situations with "i will call the police commissioner" and "don't make me call the national guard" 😭😭

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i love them my god!! proof they'll always love the phlesbians...

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an hour and 32 minutes into my 21st birthday and i'm already crying. why does my ex have to ruin my life like this? and the one person (besides my bf) who'd understand is MIA like always and i'm not mad i swear im just so defeated. at this point im genuinely scared of my ex girlfriend. like the bitch is planning on following me 1500 miles away. like? JUST LEAVE ME ALONE TF.

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jegulus au whe[GUNSHOT]

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dude i had a dream last night that phil died and dan posted a video that was titled "i guess im single now" and it was a mix of him just crying to the camera and making god awful widow jokes and he ended it with "phil was the first person to believe that i was something more than a depressed gay disaster and ill never truly find the words to say what he meant to me. goodbye internet" and then he just never posted anything again.

i woke up so fucking distraught i couldn't see straight and then later they post "date everything 3" i CANNOT with these twinks

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just took a shower and realized halfway through that i was in fact watching youtube while I shampooed my hair- i'm truly never beating the dannie allegations 😐

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WAR IS OVER !!!!!!

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literally a single text- a single stupid apple text reaction- something 🫥

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love how i'm even worse today than when i posted this haha

like am i an asshole for missing who is essentially my best friend? probably.. do i definitely need to go to sleep? yep.. am i going to? nope.. am i going to telepathically stare at this dry ass text thread and manifest? you betcha..

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literally a sliver of acknowledgment is all i want idk anymore if that's selfish im allowed to be selfish im allowed to want things

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and i'm crying again cool i just wish things were different i can't do this

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this situation got me feeling like the most selfish bitch in the world- at least i know im not blocked.. that's gotta be worth something right?!

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haha love a 2:30 am crash out 😝 brb just gonna aimlessly ride the subway all around NY till i feel something (one of the major perks of the city)

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like am i an asshole for missing who is essentially my best friend? probably.. do i definitely need to go to sleep? yep.. am i going to? nope.. am i going to telepathically stare at this dry ass text thread and manifest? you betcha..

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and now i'm #crying again

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dude everything sucks so bad. i lost someone very close to me/my family in the tx floods and i feel so useless when it comes to helping bc im literally so far away rn and even if i was there idk what i could do to help. and i hate saying this bc i feel so selfish but the one person that i want to talk to rn- the one person that never ceases to make me feel better is like MIA and i feel like such a jerk for wanting to talk to her but it gets to a point where i can only do so much 😔