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poured this out when i was smoking that blunt

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ok so… i also vent here. visual diary or whatever u wanna call. as u can see my bio: “i feel things and visualize my feelings”. i alsway feel the urge to transform my emotions inside me into any kind of art that i could possibly do. i dont even know what i should do, im just trying to figure it out. i know im not alone. mhmm… and that feels good. being emotional and vulnerable sometimes so lame and embarrassing, but i think its the only way we could find out who we really are and who people around us are. idk, im probably being blah blah blah right now haha idk should i just shut up?

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im so lonely.

i want to cry but then i see

theres no reason to cry about

i know i should have just cried

just for a while.

are you tired of me? yet?

i hope you were here right now. hug me and, i wouldnt say a word.

i want to be with you. i want your love. i miss our love. i miss you. i miss us.

i cant explain my pain. i dont know what emotions im feeling right now, but its painful. the kind of pain that makes you wanna give tf up but keeps your ass moving forward at the same time.

oh i have just found some words. “tired” and “helpless” to this pain. and “lonely” as well. and “choke”. choke. ive been hard to breathe lately. my chest is heavy, and more silent than before.

i dream a lot lately. its always about me with someone in my family preparing for a trip, a long trip. i dont know what that means.

i love music

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“ur the person i love when i hate the world and everyone” you said to me.

thinking about you is so warm

i think imma post my love letters here

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touching grass

braid my hair with them

let mud creep between fingers

swallow my body

feeling earth

cleaning mind

reborn

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2 years ago, my very first watercolor painting

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“some other pencil drawings of mine”

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kizz

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2 years ago

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my begging stare

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here’s the sketch

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my fav ever

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i made this with my makeup kit <3 gotta try again bc it was so excited ><

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me designed for a brand but sadly they didnt like it :( i like it tho :)

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"love me"

drawn on my arm