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(slight AoT final episode spoilers below) — calling all reiner braun lovers; this is not a drill! i repeat, this is not a fucking drill! after years of waiting, we finally got clean-shaven rei-rei ><

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Could’ve been Levi Ackerman x Black reader part 2.

A/N: For the sake of this story lets pretend Levi is 5′10 lol. Also smuttttt warning ;)

Levi

“Did you hear me son?” My moms voice brought me out of my thoughts that seemed to be reiterating itself. “Yeah, you’re gonna come stay in a couple weeks. got it.” I said setting the phone up so she could see me as I stirred the pasta on the stove. 

“Son,  I worry about you sometimes and you know if my sickness takes a turn i just don’t wa-”

“Mom, stop talking like that. It wont come back and i’m fine. Now tell me about your vacation.” that seemed to ease her because she started rambling on about what she did on the vacation i just sent her and my aunts on. 

My mother had lupus and some days were worse than others. The medication and lifestyle the doctor had her on seemed to be working so far, she just worried too much about getting real ill again or leaving me and my little sister Isabel behind. “Anyways, enough about that. Hows the family? You know i miss my grandson. I havent seen him in awhile, i just cant wait to see you guys. Make sure your sister is actually coming this time. You know how that girl can be with all her partying and drinking ugh she worries me that she will never settle down.” I rolled my eyes as she began to ramble on again. Erwin walked into the kitchen and mouthed ‘your mom?’ before i nodded and he backed out of the kitchen. ‘Thank God.’ My mom had a weird crush on Erwin and if she saw him i would be on the phone all night. 

“Hey mom, i gotta go. Im gonna burn the food if i dont pay attention. I will make sure Isabel is there. Alright?”

“Okay, call me tomorrow Levi. I mean it! I love you my handsome boy, i cant wait to see you!” i quickly said my goodbyes before hanging up. 

“Dinner almost ready my handsome boy?” Erwin joked returning to the kitchen, setting plates on our dining room table. 

“Fuck off.” I rolled my eyes and took the pot off the stove taking it to the dinner table.

“So, you don’t seem so sick to me, why did you leave early today?” Erwin asked cutting off a piece of garlic bread. I shrugged. “Petra is trying to get me to move back in. Then my mom text saying she's gonna come visit so of of course she cant know that i live with you and not at home.” 

Erwin nods. “So you're stressed because now you have to act like the perfect family while your mom stays?” “yeah” I sigh starting to lose my appetite just by talking about what awaits me back home. 

“You are your moms pride and joy, i don't get why you just don't say ‘hey mom, Petra and i are separated and on our way to a divorce and by the your grandson? Yeah he’s not really mine.’ See? that’s so easy.” I roll my eyes again at Erwin. Which feels like a pretty reoccurring action. 

“Maybe its easy for you since you tell your mommy everything.” Now it was his turn to roll his eyes. “I just don't wanna stress her out, she's been through a lot this year. Plus, she's already stressed over Isabel. Just don't wanna add to it. Let alone think about Petra”

“I understand. There is something I wanted to ask you.” He says and i cock my eyebrow at him. “Now, don’t jump down my throat. I couldn't help but to notice you taking her out to lunch often. Which isn't typically Levi behavior to be so... dare i say doting?” I almost choked on my water. ‘Fuck... am i being obvious?’

“And, if you're thinking ‘damn, am i obvious?’ yes..yes you are. At least to me.” 

“Erwin i-” 

“BUT” He cuts me off wagging his finger at me with his dramatic self. “I noticed today you ignored the poor woman this morning, and then later at lunch when i let her know you wouldn't be back today she looked for a split moment like i had just shot and mutilated her dog right in front of her.”

“Okay that's a little much.” I say picking up my plate to take it to the kitchen. Erwin following behind me “So I ask my dear handsome boy. What's going on?”

I lean against the counter glaring at him, hopefully to make him uncomfortable enough that he will  fuck off. It doesn't work he just stares back smiling annoyingly wide. “and don't lie because, for a lawyer you're not good at lying when it comes to yourself.” 

“Nothings going on, I find her attractive but she works for me. So I'll just look and not touch.” Erwin slowly nods.

“Yeah so how long do you think you can keep that up for? Im all for you finding happiness especially after your divorce is final from the wicked witch of the east, but then again you do have a point. “ 

“Yeah, i think ill just die an old lonely man.” I say turning my back to him putting the leftovers in the fridge. 

“Wrong, because tonight we are gonna go out and drink like we are 21 again and maybe even meet some ladies.” He says doing a little dance. 

“I'm so good on that actually. Besides i have go to the office in the morning and finish up on the paperwork i didnt do today.” 

“Thats so funny that you think you have a choice.” He laughs obnoxiously all the way to his room. I sigh going to mine to get ready.

2 shots in and I'm kind of enjoying my time out. Erwin invites two woman to our table after buying them drinks. One of them keeps rubbing her leg up and down mine under the table. It makes me think of the other day when Ivy did it. If this was her sitting next to me doing it, i would be much more receptive. I excuse myself from the table once i feel her hand land on my thigh. “I'm gonna get a beer.” I state out loud mainly to Erwin. “I can come wi-” The one whos been touching me for the last 20 minutes responds but I'm already walking away from the table. Luckily she stays put. 

Deciding to drink my beer at the bar i pull out my phone and open up Instagram. Hange convinced me to create one a couple months ago but I didn't post any pictures. To keep from looking like a “spam account” as Hange put it, I just put a profile picture and my name. I had no use for this app until after meeting Ivy. I found her through Connie's followers. I mentally thanked Connie for making me follow him.

Fortunately her page isn't private, i felt like a creep for how many times i searched her account just to stalk her page and check if she posted any new pictures. I noticed that her profile picture had a pinkish/orange ring around it. ‘Thats interesting’ I clicked to see what would happen and saw she was out. She posted a video of a blonde girl taking a shot, the next video was of them clinking glasses, after was the last post she put. It was a selfie of her in a bar, the lights in the background looked familiar, I turned around and noticed the lights near the bathroom looked just like the ones in her picture. ‘Is she here?’ I looked back n forth between her photo and the lights behind me. 

“You good man?” Erwin came up behind me grabbing my shoulder. 

“Yeah, i just started talking to the bartender and lost track.” I Lied which he caught on to.

“They’re leaving, and they invited us back to their place. I have no problem telling them no if you're not into it.” 

“I’m definitely not into it. But you should go, have fun i dont mind.” 

“No, i was hoping you would say no, im not feeling it either. I'm just gonna walk them out to their uber and ill be back.” Erwin, always the gentleman. I made my way back to our table. Keeping a look out for Ivy. I was certain she had to still be here. The photo was posted 10 minutes ago. 

Just as i suspected she walked from the bathroom area with a blonde holding her hand leading her to a table on the other side of the room. She sat with her back away from me. She couldn't see me but i had my eyes on her. I noticed the other men watching her as she walked to her table. You had to be blind not to think this woman was beautiful. Her beautiful sandy brown skin always seemed to be glowing. She had the biggest brown eyes. Every emotion she had shown in them, her hair was a beautiful shade of auburn. Tonight her beautiful tight coils were out and free. She never wore her hair down at work. I wanted nothing more than to wrap my finger around a curl. Or maybe get a handful of it as she-

“What are you looking at?” Erwin pulled me out of my thoughts before they turned lewd. “Did you wanna go to a different bar?”

“No, lets stay.” I said a little to eager

“Okay, someone caught your eye?” Erwin sat next to me looking in the direction i had been. 

“Don't be obvious, but that's Ivy.” I said turning my back to the table she sat at. Erwin smiled and waved in that direction, catching the eye of Ivy’s friend. 

“What? that's great! I’m gonna invite them over. Go to the bar and order whatever they’re drinking.” He said getting up

“Erwin wait!″ I tried to grab for him but he was already halfway across the room.

Ivy

“Quick! How do my tits look?” I gave Hitch a thumbs and tried to keep from looking behind her at Levi. I noticed he tried to grab Erwin's arm when he was coming over here. ‘damn, he really must be trying to avoid me.’

"Hello Ivy. I thought that was you, small world.” Erwin smiled down at me.

“Hello, Mr. Smith. its nice to see you again.” I don't know why i tried to sound so formal. I immediately sobered up. 

“Ah come on Ivy, we’re out of the office. Please call me Erwin.” I nodded “And whos your lovely friend?” He asked taking Hitch’s hand kissing the back of it, which she ate right up. If there wasn't so many people in this room she would've pounced right on him by the look she was giving. 

“Hitch, but you can call me baby.” She winked at him. I rolled my eyes but, Erwin seemed find it amusing. He gave a big laugh and kissed the back of her hand again. 

“Well would you ladies like to accompany Levi and I tonight? we’ve got a section over there, its too much room for just us.” 

“Yes! “ Hitch answered before i could. She was already up and following Erwin forgetting her purse. I grabbed our things and slowly made my way over. Levi was at the bar and made his way back to the table at the same time i did. Setting down a drink for Hitch and I. She happily thanked him while I avoided eye contact and gave a quiet ‘thanks’.

“Of course.” He said taking his seat across from Hitch and Erwin leaving a spot in the booth for me right next to him. 

 Hitch giggled across from me as Erwin whispered something in her ear. I could feel Levi burning a whole in the side of my face so i pulled my phone out scrolling through Instagram. Luckily for my privacy screen he couldn't see what i was looking at if he decided to lean closer to peep. I liked a couple photos before going to my insta story to look at who viewed it. ‘Levi.Ackerman87′ viewed my story. My stomach felt like it had a whole cage of butterflies in it. Checking my following i didnt see his name on there. I glanced over at him, he was making small talk with Hitch and Erwin. Putting my phone back into my purse, I stood up. “I’m gonna use the bathroom, ill be back.” 

“Oh do you want me to go with you?” Hitch asked.

“No, I'm okay. Ill be quick.” I said before heading to the back towards the restroom. This bathroom was one of those fancy clean types that had a person inside waiting with mints and rolled up towels, luckily the person who was supposed to be in here left out as i entered. I drenched a towel in the cold water and placed it on the back off my neck to cool myself off. I took my phone out again just to double check what i saw. ‘Yup, Levi.Ackerman87′ Clicking on his profile he had no pictures, just as i expected. But his profile picture was definitely him. I held my phone close to my face to get a better view. He wasn't smiling, but a long haired seal point cat laid across his shoulder ,with its tail covering a side of his face. ‘ugh, why is he so cute with zero effort.’ If someone were to walk in i would look pretty dumb. My phone so close to my face while i smiled and giggled like an idiot to myself. I washed my hands and walked out the bathroom heading back to the table. I slowed my pace when i noticed that Levi was at the table by himself.

“Uhm, they went to get more drinks.” He said as i took my seat looking over at the bar. Hitch had her arms leaned on the countertop as Erwin stood smiling down at her. His hand placed on her hip as she giggled at something he said ‘mans cant be that funny.’ i thought. “How are you?” Levi asked bringing my attention from the view at the bar to the beautiful raven haired man sitting inches away from me. 

“I’m quite fine. How are you? I heard you were sick. Remind me to get your doctors info, he must work miracles.” I was proud of myself until i saw the slight frown on his face that he immediately replaced with his normal stoic look. 

“Yeah, i think it was just a bad migraine...needed a break.” i nodded.

“You’re right, i’m sorry. I dont think i’ve ever heard of you missing a day of work.” Embarrassed with my unusual behavior i turned my gaze to watch the other occupants around us. Levi was silent next to me, but i could feel him looking at me and then down at his hands and then back to my face.  

“I cant stop thinking about you.” He said in a faster pace than he usually talked. My heart quickened.

“What?” I said now giving him my full attention.

“I know its not ethical of me, but i cant get you out of my mind. I'm actually dreading Hange coming back because I'm not ready to let you go.” He opened his mouth like he had more to say but Hitch and Erwin's laughter killed whatever tension was in the air as they took their seats. 

 The rest of the night Levi seemed to have relaxed after his confession. That made one of us because now i was more nervous than before. I couldn't believe he would so confidently say something like that. I was used to men beating around the bush with me. Levi kept scooting closer to me throughout the night until his hand was the only thing from keeping our thighs touching. Hitch and I started our own conversation as Levi and Erwin started talking about work related things. Levi finished off his glass of whiskey as his pinky rubbed against my thigh which at first i thought was an accident until it started moving gently up and down. I tried to keep my face from showing any emotion as i listened to Hitch’s story about her class of 10th graders. I guess he took that as me enjoying it, which he wasn't wrong. His hand found its way to my thigh and he gave it a light squeeze. My face didn't react but my body sure was. My thighs squeezed together as the heat between my legs grew more intense. To make matters worse he pushed my legs apart with one hand and rubbed circles on my inner thigh. Now, I'm not tiny girl. I have curves, this mans whole hand was squeezing my full thigh like it was nothing. 

 A couple drinks later and we were heading out the doors. “Ivy, I'm gonna go home with Erwin, I would say take Levi to our place but,he doesn't seem like your type.” She giggled. Hitch wasn't wrong. Normally i would never go for guys like Levi. My typed seemed to be broken man-child’s who could never fully commit. Levi was the first older and very mature guy I'd ever had feelings for. 

“I can drive you home.” Levi said as Hitch waved from inside the uber with Erwin.

“ Are you ok to drive?” I asked following him to his car. He threw a glance at me over his shoulder as if to say ‘really bitch?’ 

“I had 4 drinks Ivy. I could probably do a backflip right now.” He said opening the passenger door for me. “Besides, i wouldn't put you in any harm.” He said looking at me as he slid into his seat. It’s not like i was drunk out of my mind. I mean i paced myself like i always do and had water in between my drinks. I just still couldnt believe that the Levi everyone tried to stay clear of and stay on his good side was talking to me like this. Besides earlier today, he had never made me feel like i was a bother. 

 Levi reached over taking me out of my thoughts ‘oh my god he’s gonna kiss me.’ I prepared myself for our first kiss, but he leaned past me and grabbed my seatbelt clicking it. “Safety first.” He smirked at me before clicking his own seatbelt and starting the car. 

Per usual Levi gave me the aux. I typed my address into his maps and, put on Lullaby by Umi and looked out the window. New York was beautiful at night. Especially this time of year when everything was decorated for Christmas. “ I meant what i said earlier.” Levi said making you look at him. God, he was fine. I studied his face, he was still looking at the road and glanced at me real quick. Tightening his grip on the wheel. “I feel like im going crazy.” He chuckled. “I’m actually losing sleep over it, you should feel bad for me.” He smiled and i laughed. 

Levi parked outside my building. I felt stupid for not telling him that i felt the same. I was losing sleep over him too. “Do you want some tea before you go home? If we’re lucky you might kill enough time to miss Erwin and Hitch.” I laughed trying to cut through the thick air in the car that appeared after his second confession. 

“Yeah i’d like that.” He said turning off the car and hopping out to come open my door before i did. He followed me up to my apartment on the second floor. “ I hope you're not allergic to dogs.” I turned to him, my back pressed against my door. 

“Allergic? no. Wary? Most definitely.” I nodded and held a finger up at him. 

“Wait here and when you hear me, come in.” He nodded as I slipped inside the door. My doberman Arlo already waiting at the door to either greet or snap at who came in. “Okay, you can come in.” I said grabbing my pup’s collar. Levi looked right and left before coming in and his eyes widened as he looked at Arlo by my side. “Come, let him smell you so he knows you’re not a threat.”

“I’m not sure i wanna do that.” Levi awkwardly laughed. 

I rolled my eyes smiling at him “ Now don’t tell me you’re scared of my little baby.”

“Tch, i wouldn’t consider him little.” Levi scoffed. “If he’s harmless than why are you holding him back?”

“Because he can smell your fear and that’s what gets him going.” I laughed at my little joke but Levi didn’t find it funny as he glared at me which only made me laugh harder. “No, i just wanted you to feel safe. See I'm in control, He listens to me.” I said letting go of Arlo’s collar telling him to stay and he did just as i said. I reached my hand out to Levi and he cautiously grabbed it. I pulled him over to us and stood us in front of Arlo. Holding Levi’s wrist in my hands as he slightly stood behind me i let Arlo sniff him. He sniffed his hand a couple times and then started to lick it. “ See! he accepts you.” I smiled at Levi, leaning down and rubbing Arlo behind his ears “such a good boy!” I praised. Levi held his hand a little away from him because it was covered in slobber. 

“Come here, you can wash your hands in the kitchen while I start the tea.” I said leading him to the kitchen sink. 

“Your apartment is very clean.” Levi said watching me take off my shoes and slip on my slippers. He took his shoes off as well and i placed them on the shoe rack near the front door. That’s something i noticed Levi and i had in common. I kept my house tidy, or at least tried to. Hitch was kind of unorganized but we managed.  

“Thank you i try. My mom would give me an ear full if my place was dirty. Growing up she instilled cleanliness in us so now i cant help but to continue the tradition.” I said placing a coaster down and putting his tea in front of him. Sitting down across from him with my own mug of peach and ginger sweetness. 

“My mom is the same way, she used to clean houses when I was a kid and would sometimes take me on big jobs with her. Its like a hobby now.” He smiled like he enjoyed a memory in his mind.

 “I didn’t know your mom used to clean homes?” Not judging but i and many people at the company assumed Levi grew up a rich kid the same way Erwin did. “I don't talk about it. I’m pretty sure none of my colleagues grew up they way i did.” He trusted me enough to let me in on that detail about his life. My heart swelled.

“Talk to me about you.” He said leaning back in his seat.

“Ugh, i hate that question. I never know what to say.” I groaned dramatically, rubbing my scalp.

“Fine lets do a game. I ask a question and then you can ask me one in return. Nothing is off limits.” I could get down with that. 

“Well ask me something specific.” He rubbed his chin thinking. 

“What’s your middle name?” Okay he’s starting off tame. 

“Rose. What’s yours?” Great question Ivy. Even though i really wanted to ask what color his di-

“Tal. How old are you?” What a beautiful name.

“That's beautiful, does it mean something? and I'm 26.” He nodded taking another sip of tea.

“ It’s Hebrew for rain dew. That’s a relief because you look like you could be 20.” He said smirking.

“I always get told that, i guess i should consider it a compliment. Do you speak Hebrew?” Now I'm gonna imagine him giving me commands in two different languages. ‘God, why is my mind always in the gutter when he’s around?’

“Its a compliment. You’ll appreciate it more when you get older, and I speak enough. I’m surprised you didn't ask me how old i am.”

“That’s because I already know your age Levi dot Ackerman 87.” I smirk at him trying to look unfazed.

“Are you stalking me?” He asked finishing off his tea and placing it into my dishwasher. ‘That shouldn’t be hot but it is.’

“Quite the contrary Levi. I think you have been stalking me.”

“How’d you find out?” Shame. I thought he was gonna deny some more.

“Come here.” I waved him over, he stands behind my seat as i open up my phone and show him how you can view whos seen your snap story. He leans down his face near mine as he looks over my shoulder as i point out his name. He scoffs and i laugh. "Now, 35 ain’t old but that was definitely an old person mistake.” I begin to laugh harder as he glares down at me a small smirk on his lips. 

 Levi joins in my laughter. After awhile we calm down staring at each other in silence. Levi pushes a curl behind my ear. “So beautiful.” He mumbles. “You make it impossible to not want you.” He says caressing my jaw. I don't even care about the consequences now, I've never wanted anyone as bad as i want him. 

Levi grabs my chin making me look up at him. His thumb going over my bottom lip. I’m drunk on him and he’s barely touched me. The way he’s looking down at me like I'm the most fragile, beautiful thing he’s ever laid his eyes on has me feeling hot in more ways than one. I open my mouth a little as Levi pushes his thumb inside. I don’t know what’s coming over me, what spell his ashen eyes have on me. I graze my bottom teeth over his digit, giving a kitten lick before closing my mouth around it. 

“Suck.” Is the only command Levi gives me and I do as I'm told, keeping eye contact. A scarlet tint covers Levi’s cheeks as his mouth opens slightly, and if i thought he couldn’t get any hotter he lets out a low groan as i grab onto his wrist to take his thumb further into my mouth. 

“I don’t care what happens.” He says removing his thumb and standing me up. Everything feels like it happens in one fluid motion as Levi pushes me up against the kitchen wall. One hand around my neck and the other that has a tight grip on my hip. The way Levi is kissing me, i can’t explain it. Like he’s making love to my mouth. His kisses are slow and sensual, running his tongue in my mouth like he’s trying to savor the last drop. The hand on my waist has now traveled to grip my thighs like earlier, but he doesn’t stay there. Levi pushes my legs apart with his knee and glides his hand up my thighs until he’s playing with my panty line. He releases my mouth for a second to help me out of my underwear. I’ve never been more proud of myself for wearing a thong. Levi stares me deep in my eyes as he puts my thong in his pocket instead of discarding it on the floor. I never knew it was possible to be as wet as I am. 

 Instead of holding me neck his hand is hovering near my hair “May i?” He asks and not able to find words i just nod with my mouth slightly ajar. Levi grabs the hair on the back of my head gently gripping it and pulling my head back to gain full access to my neck. He’s careful to not leave hickeys on the places it would be hard to cover. He kisses up my neck back to claim my mouth again. I could kiss him for hours. “Turn around.” He says before giving my one last kiss on my lips. I do as he says and he unzips the back of my dress. But he doesn’t take it all the way off, just my back and the top of my ass is exposed. I don’t feel him touching me anymore so i glance over my shoulder. Levi is just taking in my appearance. “It should be criminal being able to touch you the way i am.” he says running a finger up my spine giving me chills. He steps closer to whisper in my ear. “And it should be very criminal the way I'm about to ruin you. I don’t want to leave room for any thoughts of another man again in that pretty head of yours.” He kisses my cheek as he peels my dress off. Grabbing my hand to help me step out of it. I began to turn around. “No, turn back around for me.” I nod turning back around. My breast pushed against the wall. Levi moved my hair off my shoulders to kiss my neck, down to my shoulders, making his way to leave open kisses against my spine. He’s on his knees behind me as he’s kissing the dimples above my ass. One hand keeping me steady against the wall while the other spreads my thighs. Levi kisses my ass. I moan, I never thought gentle kisses on my ass would turn me on and get me this wet. At this point I'm dripping and he hasn’t even touched my sacred part yet. Levi chuckles and then does it again to each one giving it a little nibble. "I just wanna worship this ass.” He uses the hand that spread my thighs to slap my ass, running his tongue on the reddened skin after. Another moan escapes my lips “Levi, please.” I pant. 

 He kisses his way back up to my mouth. His large hands gripping and groping all over me except where i need him the most. I hook my leg over his hip to bring him closer. The hand not kneading my breast slides down my abdomen and right between my legs where I've been craving him. I let out a gasp as he gathers my slick before inserting one, then two fingers in. “Because you asked so nicely” He smirks against my mouth. His fingers are sinful, using his thumb to circle my clit while his index and middle finger curl and stretch me out. Bringing me close to the sweet release that’s been building up. Levi pulls away his fingers and his mouth from me, earning himself a frown and a confused look. The lust filled look in his eyes is one of hunger, like he wants to do nothing but devour me. Bringing up the fingers he just had inside me he sucks off the juices i left on him. “Mmm, just as sweet as i imagined. I don’t think i can continue without tasting more.” I’m in awe, his eyes, the moan he let out tasting me on his fingers, the language. I do nothing but nod leading him to my bedroom with his hands on my hips and his lips never leaving my neck. This man is the grand multi tasker. How he can do this in a dimly lit hall and not skip a beat is beyond me. There is nothing he can’t do. 

“Lay on the bed for me. Keep your legs open.” I crawl on the bed laying my head against my pillow, Levi waits for me to pull my legs up and spread them. He smiles as I do so. “Good girl.” He says walking to my bedside table using my little remote to turn the fairy lights in my room a beautiful shade of purple. “Much better, I like to see while I eat.” He smirks unbuttoning his shirt and pulling it off. ‘Damn’  I mean i know he had some muscle from how broad his shoulders look in his button ups but this man was art. Art I wanted to drag my tongue across. Levi stood at the foot of the bed, grabbing my legs to pull my down to the end of the bed. He kneeled eye level to my pussy. I’ve only had a couple guys go down on me before. A couple hookups in college and rarely my ex would. They all sucked, so i grew to not care for it, thinking maybe it was just me from hearing the stories my friends talked about mind blowing orgasms they got from it. I also never did much with lights on. Always feeling insecure in my body since a young age. Levi was opening the door for a lot of my firsts. 

I suddenly felt self conscious about being so exposed. Physically and mentally. “Don’t hide from me.” He said opening my legs again rubbing up and down my thigh. My hands covered my face. “Ivy, i wont do this if it makes you uncomfortable.” Levi peeked at me from around my legs grabbing my arm to take my hands off my face. 

“No!” I said a little too eager. “I just, I don't do oral.. often. I’ve never finished and i don’t want you to think its something you did. I think I'm just broken.” I awkwardly chuckled. The look on Levi’s face was pure disbelief, quickly replaced with determination and lust. 

“Sit up, i want you to watch me. I’m so eager to taste you again, it should be something we both enjoy. “ He said kissing my inner thighs as I leaned up on my elbows nodding at him to show I'm ready. He kissed all the way up my thigh. First placing a gentle kiss on my clit. I had to keep from moaning. He brought both my legs over his shoulder placing another kiss on my clit flicking his tongue on the sensitive bud. Switching his flicks out for swirls had me opening my legs for him more. ‘Yeah I definitely hadn't had it like this.’ I bucked my hips forward throwing my head back to let out breathy moans. Levi slid two fingers in me gently nipping my clit then swirling his tongue around it before sucking. “Ungh Levi i-.” He smirked up at me repeating the same combo over again. I felt euphoric. If there was a drug of this feeling i would be a fiend. 

 I gripped the hair on the back of his head as Levi removed his fingers and ate me out the same way he was kissing me in the kitchen, hot and sloppy. I couldn’t help but to buck against his face trying to catch that release. “Such a good girl, fuck my face just like that.” As if he said magic words the air in my lungs were knocked out and all i could do was moan his name like a dirty chant. “That’s it Ivy.” He said leaning over me placing his two fingers back in as he brought me over the edge. 

I lay on the bed panting like a ran a marathon. Levi crawled over me smirking kissing up my abdomen, over tp my breast giving each nipple a bite. He kissed me rolling his tongue over mine. “You see how good you taste? I could eat you all day.” I sat up on my knees to unbuckle his pants. Levi stood off the bed to pull his pants down, now standing in his black briefs that did nothing to hide the tint. Tint was actually an understatement, The head of his dick was poking out from his waistband. It glistened under the purple light. I sat up on my knees to kiss him again placing my hand on his bulge. ‘There's no way this is gonna fit.’  I thought to myself. “Ivy, i uh i dont have condom. I didnt expect for this to happen. We dont have to do this tonight." 

“I’m on the pill!” I said a little to eager. Even after that leg shaking orgasm i just had i still wanted him, needed him. “And i trust you.” I said pulling him closer by hooking my finger into his briefs. 

“I trust you too.” The look in his eyes was soft, like his words meant more. Kissing him again I pulled his briefs down and laid back onto my bed as he stepped out of them. My eyes went right to his member. I always imagined Levi would be packing. He had an aura about him. He had to at least be 7 1/2 or 8 inches I'm not sure. The girth is what got me, nice and thick with a slight curve. I wanted him in my mouth. I leaned forward to return the favor.

“You don’t have to do that. “ He placed his hand on my shoulder. “Plus I'm dying to be inside of you.” He said settling on top of me capturing my lips again. Levi grabbed his dick rubbing it between my folds gathering my slick on his tip. Gently pushing inside. I gripped his shoulders. Digging my nails into his skin. Its been almost a year since I last had sex but, regardless i don't think that would make taking him any easier. Levi buried his face in the crook of my neck as he pushed all the way in “fuck, you're so tight baby.” Levi moaned his voice muffled. Not wanting to wait to adjust i pushed my hips against him to let him know to move. 

Levi was slow and sensual, taking his time dragging out of me and pushing in painfully slow. “Leviii ungh.” I moaned throwing my head back against the pillows. 

“Use your words.” He used one arm to keep himself above me while the other slowly tightened around my neck. Kissing me hard. “Use your words baby.” He murmured against my lips. Keeping his sinful deep and slow pace. 

“Faster, please fuck me faster. Ruin me Levi.” That’s all he needed. The grip around my neck tightened making me clench tighter around his dick. Levi pulled one of my legs over his shoulder and began his assault on my pussy. At this point my only vocabulary was ‘right there’ or ‘harder’. Levi was fucking me dumb that soon i couldn't say anything but incoherent words mixed with his name. 

“You cant even speak can you baby?” Levi said against my ear not letting up on his pace. He reached his hand between you two to rub on your clit. It was too much, but you loved it.

“Levi i mm please.” He smirked at me barely forming a sentence. Levi sat up on his knees holding my legs behind my knees. Slowing his pace down a little but the way he slammed into you was ungodly and as you felt your second release that night building up you didn’t want him to stop. 

“You’re, gonna take all of this dick. Like the good girl you are.” He said flipping me  over to all fours. This new position putting him so deep I let out a muffled scream as pressed my face in the pillows. “Answer me.” He says slapping my ass. The grip he has on my hips is sure to leave bruises. 

“Yes Levi.” I moaned out his name. Levi switched to long deep strokes while reaching his hand between us again to rub on my clit. This man was gonna kill me. Now i could see why some woman went crazy over dick. I don’t know how any other man could ever compare in bed now that i had Levi. I didn’t want other man again. Levi had me already thinking about a monogamous relationship[p. Had me imagining a white picket fence and what our kids would like. 

“ Look at yourself”. Levi pulled my chin up to look in my large mirror across the room. He had a nice view of himself fucking me. The look in his eyes as he looked down at his dick going in and out of me to him looking up smirking in the mirror. Levi’s mouth was slightly open and his brow furrowed as he let out pants and moans. Leaning over to whisper the most lewd things of what he wanted to do to my body. ‘I wanna hear how loud you scream when i put it in your ass. would you let me do that baby?’ to ‘I want you on all fours watching me in the mirror as I eat it from behind.’ 

“Levi i mmm i’m gonna cum.” I moan pushing my ass back to meet his thrusts. “Me too baby, i’m so close. Turn around i wanna look at you when you come on my cock.” Levi laid me on my back like i weighed nothing. God, this man is everything. He leaned down to kiss me picking his pace up again, i tightened around him. My second orgasm that night crashing hard. My back arching a bit off the bed as Levi is still fucking into me chasing his orgasm.

”Keep fucking me like that baby.” He says as i raise my hips to meet his while he rubs my clit again overstimulating me in the best way. At this point i don't know if I'm screaming or moaning. 

 Levi finishes collapsing on top of me, laying his head on my chest. Both of us laying there trying to catch our breath. He looks up at me. Both us laughing because the only sound in the room is us panting. He looks over at the the clock reading 3:51. “ I haven't been up this late in awhile. “ He chuckles laying next to you, propping himself up on his elbow to look at you. 

“What?” I smile. He must think i look a sweaty mess.

“Nothing, i just think you’re beautiful. I cant believe i had the balls to actually do it.” his smile fades for a second.

“What do you mean?” His raven hair is hanging in his face. His sweat causing some strands to turn wavy. I run my fingers through his hair.

“ I was supposed to be in California for a couple months not Hange. But i convinced them to take my spot and bring Moblit with them. Hange of course jumped at the idea of going to LA since they have some family there. They were worried about leaving you so i told them i would take you as my paralegal for the time being since i hadn't met you officially. I had only seen you in meetings with Hange. And Ivy i have to tell you it took me weeks to realize that i never put myself first. I wanted you and i had to have you. Plus it doesn’t hurt being your own boss so i can bend the rules.” He smiled smirking at me.

 I had no idea this whole time he had wanted me. He saw me from my first day and knew he had to have me. God, this is not something i would have ever thought to happen. But I'm glad it did, now a new feeling of abandonment and jealousy if someone else wanted him as bad as i do comes to mind. I didn’t think these feelings would happen so soon.

“What is it? Tell me what you’re thinking.” He said with his lips against the back of my hand. i shook my head looking away from him, getting ready to shower. But, he held my hand to keep me put. “If something is bothering you i want to know. You can talk to me about anything. I wanna be here for you.” Its lame to cry after sex right? My eyes welled up with tears. Men like him were not real. There has to be a catch.

“I’ve never done something like this. Anyone one night stand I've had was years ago and under the influence and i hardly knew 

who they were or saw them again. I haven't been in a relationship in years and i.. i don't know. This amount of care and reassurance is new for me. I’m sorry for crying I'm such a baby.” I said getting up to hide my face and start the shower. 

“Ivy, lets talk. I’m being honest. I want you and not just because we had the best sex i’ve ever had in my life. But because im drawn to you, and i feel like this could be something great and i get it. I’m not used to being this open but im not blind i saw how men were falling over you tonight and i just cant stand the thought of you not being mine.” He was now in the bathroom holding my face between both hands. Using his thumbs to wipe away the tears that found their way down. I nodded with more tears falling from my eyes. 

“Baby look, we don’t have to talk about this tonight. Lets get cleaned up alright?” We showered. Cleaning each others bodies and giving gentle kisses filled with so much emotion. I stepped out before him to grab clothes in hopes that he would stay the night with me.

“Uhm these are my brothers from when he visits. But they should fit you.” I finished putting lotion on my body as Levi dressed. “Also if you want that is. No pressure. You can stay the night with me. I know you mentioned having to go to the office tomorrow but i mean its late and i would hate for you to make that long dr-”

“Ill stay” He chuckled pulling the shirt over his head. 

‘Perfect because im exhausted after that workout.” I said laughing at how Levi winked at me. He got behind me in bed as i pulled the covers over us. 

“A workout indeed.” He tickled my sides and giving me a kiss on the neck. We talked a bit more before bed. Sharing childhood stories. I laid on Levi’s chest  drawing patterns on it with my finger as he told me a story about how much of a partier Erwin and Hange were in college. I closed my eyes the sound of his voice lulling me to sleep. Levi looked down as i opened my eyes. “ I swear i was listening.” He chuckled and kissed my forehead. “There will be more time in the future for these stories. Go to sleep, ill see you in the morning.” He pulled my chin up to kiss me deep, a couple pecks later i laid back down on his chest as Levi turned the lights off. The idea of doing this every night with him one day swelled my heart. I dont think i could ever let him go.

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Could've been- Levi Ackerman x Black reader

A/n: This was originally supposed to be a one shot but I think it's gonna be more like a 3 shot?? Also I gave this character a name, I hope I'll enjoy!

“Tell me what happened Ivy,” My roommate Hitch asked me as I lay on the couch staring blankly at the spinning ceiling fan. 

I blew a breath out trying to steady my breathing before going down the shithole story of my current situation. ‘Don't cry Ivy. Don't you dare.’ No, I refused to cry again. Could I even? I’ve lost count of how many times today let alone this week I cried. 

“Where do I even start?” I scoffed turning to my side to face my best friend. 

“Well for starters you could tell me how you even started fucking your married or separated? whatever he is. But tell me where this situationship started with your boss.” She said moving a curl out of my face. 

Six months ago

“Ivy could you come to my office when you get a second?” Hange asked as they walked past my desk into their office. I had only been working at this law firm for three months and my sole purpose was to keep Hange Zoe afloat and on top of things. They were an excellent lawyer but tend to be a little scatterbrained and went through paralegals like nobody's business. 

“Hey, Hange, what's up?” I asked entering their office, closing the door behind me. “ I wanted to tell you that ill be taking care of some business in California for a couple of months with one of our big clients. I realize you haven't been here that long so I would hate to stress you out by making you come across the country with me. So I’ll be taking Moblit.” Hange chuckled at me still standing by the door and offered me a seat in front of their desk. 

“Anyways I don't know if you heard but Ackerman's assistant quit, and I figured you wouldn't mind working with him for the next two or so months until he found his own. “ They smiled at me waiting for my reply. I felt like a deer caught in headlights. This was Mr. Ackerman's second assistant since I started here. From what i heard he was not an easy man to please. 

 “Now I know you have probably heard things but honestly he's not that bad of a guy. He's just...particular.” Hange said before I could answer. I mean I didn't have much of a choice. It's not like I had any seniority here to even deny their request. I just never actually met the man. I've only seen pictures of him in the main meeting room, considering he owned part of the company.

 “Uhm yeah, I could do that,” I barely managed to get out before Hange came around the desk and enveloped me in a hug.  “Perfect! I’ll let him know, by the way, you'll be working with him this coming Monday, have a great weekend byeeee.” They rushed out as they walked me out of the office and practically ran to the elevator. 

Great. 

I could barely relax over the weekend. It felt like it went by way too fast. I spent my time emailing anyone I could who worked with Mr. Ackerman to get any information to make these next couple of months go by smoothly. Lucky for me I happened to be cool with Connie Springer who worked on Mr. Ackerman's floor. “Yeah, your kind of fucked Ivy,” Connie said to me as he passed me the bong. I needed some sort of stress reliever so I practically invited myself over to Connie and Jean's apartment. “I mean I wouldn't necessarily say fucked.” Jean laughed. “Just stay out of his way and bring him tea or something. He shouldn't fire you if you do that.” Jean mumbled the last part before taking a hit himself. You groaned and laid your head on the back of the couch. 

 So I woke up two hours earlier than usual on Monday to grab some tea before heading to the office. Since Connie and Jean were little to no help I texted Mikasa asking if she knew what kind of tea he usually drank. None of them I knew of course but, she mentioned Eren picking him up a tea from a coffee shop that he seemed to like. As if the universe was on my side today the shop was only 5 minutes from my apartment, which meant I would be early to the office. I grabbed a cup and also a couple of tea bags to make him more throughout the day. ‘Tea and stay out of the way’ i repeated to myself over and over as the elevator took me to the top floor of the large building. 

 He wasn't in yet. I placed the cup and his schedule for the day down on his desk before I hurried out of his office and sat at the desk outside his door. I put my AirPods in and started on my daily tasks as I would usually do waiting for Hange to get in. 

Typing away on my computer and Humming to ‘SOS’ by Sza I didn't take notice of someone standing in front of my desk until an airpod was moved out of my ear. “Does Hange usually allow this? Actually don't answer of course they do.” He scoffed as he tossed my airpod back onto my desk and walked into his office. He paused as he walked in looking at his desk maybe noticing what I left on there. Instead, he said nothing and closed the door behind me. ‘Yeah I'm fucked.’ i thought as I sat there still in shock at what just happened. 

I didn't hear any requests or demands from Mr. Ackerman for about two hours after that. The phone on my desk rang and I quickly answered it noticing it was him calling from the office. “Come here.” was all he said before hanging up. I almost got whiplash from how fast I got up and knocked on his door before peaking my head in. 

“Yes sir?” I asked my hands clasped in front of me. I probably looked like I saw a ghost from how apprehensive I was. He stared at me for a second like he was drinking me in. Looking from head to toe. If I wasn't on the verge of a nervous breakdown i probably would've melted to the floor with how hot and intense his gaze was. I mean I knew he was attractive but damn I didn't think he looked like he belonged on Mount Olympus. “The tea was good.” He stared blankly at me. Was that all? 

I slowly nodded “Thank you, sir. Would you like more? I bought a couple of bags just in case you liked it.” He raised his eyebrow as if he was surprised at what I did. “With your own money?” he questioned. Fuck was Hange supposed to leave me a company card? They rarely needed me to pick up drinks or food so I wasn't used to this. 

“Yes….Sir?” I was confused by his question so my reply came out more like a question itself. “Don't do that anymore, if I need anything or if you need something while you're my assistant ill pay for it.” ‘Ok flex’ i thought to myself. “Yes sir, I'm sorry sir” You squeezed your other hand suddenly feeling clammy. “No need to apologize.” He said grabbing his phone and scrolling through it. ‘Maybe this won't be so bad he doesn't seem as mean as everyone says.’ I internally relaxed. 

“Ok you can get out now,” he said bluntly not looking up from his phone. ‘Oop spoke too soon.’ I nodded and scurried out of the office quietly shutting the door behind myself and going back to my desk. 

Finally, it was time for lunch. I scrambled around this morning trying to get Mr.Ackerman’s tea and get here on time that I didn't eat breakfast. which I never miss, I mean it's the most important meal of the day. I got up from my desk and walked around a little too fast because I bumped into someone almost knocking myself on my ass. “Oh gosh, I'm sorry Ms. Toussaint.” Mr. Smith said as he held onto your hips to keep you steady. “No, I'm so sorry I should've been paying attention. I was in a rush to the cafeteria.” I laughed a little trying to make this situation less awkward. 

“Ahem.” Mr. Ackerman stood outside his office door watching Mr. Smith and me with that famous dead look he gave everyone. Mr. Smiths' hands were still on my hips until I stepped away straightening my dress and gabbing my purse. “Gentleman.” I bid my goodbye before turning to Mr. Smith again “Again, I'm sorry ill be more careful next time.” I tried to speed walk to the elevator faintly hearing the conversation of Mr. Smith asking Mr. Ackerman if he was going to join him for lunch but he denied the offer “I have plans. See you later.” He walked towards the elevator and I silently prayed it would close before he reached it. I guess the universe wasn't actually on my side. I stiffened as he stood slightly behind me. It was just us in the elevator. If it wasn't for the acoustic Christmas music you could probably hear a pin drop. ‘This is kind of early it's barely going to be Thanksgiving’ I thought. “Have lunch with me.” Mr. Ackerman's deep voice pulled me out of my thoughts. 

“Excuse me?” I turned to ask him as he pushed the garage level when the doors opened for the floor of the cafeteria. “ I said, have lunch with me.” Again, with the dead eyes look. 

“Oh,” I awkwardly chuckled. “That's okay honestly, the cafeteria food is free, and its actually really good. I think they're serving catfish today which I was kind of excited about.” I tried to offer a smile but he continued staring as if he was waiting for me to shut up. “ I can take you to get catfish if that's what you want.” He says stepping off the elevator walking into the parking garage. “Ivy, it's no longer a question. Let's go.” I quickly nodded and followed him to his car. 

 Of course, he had a luxurious car. Some type of Audi I had no idea what model but I’m sure it was a new model with all the features it had. “Mr. Ack-”

 “Levi. Please call me Levi, at least outside the office.” Levi said briefly taking his eyes off the road to look over at me. “Okay.. Levi where are we gonna go?” I nestled into my seat after he cut the seat warmers on. ‘Yeah, this was definitely the most expensive car I would ever be in.’

“Somewhere to get you that catfish you were craving.” He answered matter of factly. “Put on whatever you like.” He said handing me the aux cord. I laughed to myself thinking of what his reaction would be if I put on Meg The stallion. Grabbing the aux I scrolled through my playlist to figure out what would be “Sitting in my Bosses who could easily fire me car” appropriate. “What's funny?” he asked stopping at a red light. 

“Uh nothing Mr. Ackerman, I just don't want to put on anything that's not work-appropriate.” He cocked his eyebrow at me before looking forward driving through the now-green light. “Well, I think you would be surprised at what I like Ivy.” His little smirk made me think we were talking about something completely different. “And it Levi.” 

I nodded just deciding to put on Self-control by Frank Ocean. A little into the song I looked over at Levi to soak him in while he wasn't paying attention. He was lowly singing a long and drumming his fingers on the steering wheel. “ You listen to Frank Ocean??” I said a little too surprised because he scoffed at me. “despise what they may say at the office I'm, not a total square Ivy.” He smirked and rolled his eyes at me causing me to laugh. Who would've known he had a sense of humor? “I don't know Levi, that was a pretty square thing to say.” We both laughed, me more than him. I was surprised that Lil ol me was breaking down the Levi Ackerman's walls. 

Levi pulled up to the restaurant. “Wait we’re eating here??” I gasped as he parked. This was a very expensive restaurant for very expensive people and I wasn't one of them or even dressed like them. I picked the wrong day to dress business casual. Hange never expected me to dress in a pencil skirt or pantsuit. I usually opted for a long form-fitting dress and depending on the weather I wore flats or loafers. Today I wore an ankle-length black spaghetti dress that hugged me just right. With a cream cardigan and my favorite black loafers. 

Levi got out and walked around to open my door. A sweet gesture I was not used to. If I wasn't so nervous about my attire I would've been swooning. “Levi i-I'm not dressed to eat here,” I said lowly standing awkwardly behind him as he gave the hostess his name. Levi ignored me and grabbed me by my elbow to follow behind the man to our table luckily in the back. I wasn't blind to the stares I got. Especially from women who looked from Levi’s hand wrapped around my forearm to me sizing me up and rolling their eyes. I was feeling self-conscious about how I looked now. 

 Levi glanced back at me as we approached our table. I'm guessing he noticed the looks I received as well. He pulled out my chair for me to sit. “Relax.” He leaned down to whisper next to my ear as he pushed my chair in. Goosebumps covered my arms and a chill trickled down my spine. He had to be somewhat aware of the hold he had on woman.

 “I’m sorry. I just don't want to cramp your style.” I chuckled awkwardly. I felt a bit more at ease that we had a table in the back now away from looks of judgment. “Ivy, you could be wearing crocs and I would still rather be seen with you than anyone here.” He said to me looking up from his drink menu. I tried to hide my smile by biting down on my lower lip and hiding my face behind the menu. 

Levi ordered our drinks and meals for the both of us, while we waited for our food he stared at me with that look again. “What? did I spill my drink?” I looked down at my cardigan hoping I didn't spill some of the red wine he ordered. “Tell me Ivy, are you always this so wound up?” Wound up? Levi is calling me wound up? 

“That's kind of funny coming from you of all people. How many times did you wipe that spoon down?” You knew he was a neat freak, which you didn't hate coming from a family that cleaned 3 times a week. He gave you a half smile “There she is, I was wondering when I was gonna see the Ivy that Connie gets to see.”  I almost choked on my drink. What had he heard about me? And why did he say it with almost a twinge of jealousy?

“I'm sorry, I don't know what you mean.” I didn't realize how fast I finished my glass. I should probably slow down considering I still have to work after this. 

He shrugged. “I asked about you.”

“Yes, but you could've asked Hange?” Why would he ask Connie of all people? That dumbass I need to smack him later.

“Because I wanted to know the real you.” He leaned back in his chair looking at me as if he was peering into my soul. 

“You could’ve saved me the embarrassment and just came straight to me...if you wanted to know more” I whispered the last part suddenly feeling I got a little too bold. Levi nodded and we began to silently eat after our food was brought. I couldn't contain my happy reactions to the catfish. It was better than what wouldve been at the cafeteria. The catfish was great and reminded me of being back home. I let out a little moan from how well seasoned the breading on the fish was. 

“That good huh?” Levi smirked at me. “I'm sorry, I haven't had catfish this good since being back at home.” I could slap myself right now. Moaning? Over food bitch? man i mustve been touch starved. 

“I'm not complaining.” He said wearing that extremely attractive smirk, man was i glad for my melanin because I'm sure I would be a tomato right now. “and home? wheres home?” he asked pushing his plate aside and pouring himself and you half a glass more of wine. 

“you didn't get that from Connie?” Yeah, I shouldn't have had a whole glass, and now half of one. I'm getting way too confident. 

He chuckled shaking his head. “There are some things I wanted to learn personally.” Damn this man. ‘Get a grip bitch, he's your boss!’

“Louisiana.. is where home is. This is my first time living anywhere but there. So you can imagine the culture shock I had when I came to New York.” I began to ramble on about my life in Louisiana, I missed it so much. Once I started talking about it and my family it gets hard to stop. “ Feel free to tell me to shut up.” I chuckled averting his gaze. He was now leaning forward on the table watching me talk with an intense look. eyes moving from my lips to my eyes.

“Never. I like the accent, it's refreshing. We don't go down south much for work and I think you and another guy I know might be the only southerners I know. But your accent isn't like his. Almost sounds like a warm hug.” He laughed at his last statement. I did too, it caught me off guard. 

  The ride back to work was filled with small talk and more questions. Mainly from Levi, I had to remind myself that he was only asking these things to get to know his temporary assistant better. Once we got back to the office the day seemed to go by much faster. Levi had a couple of meetings, and only one of them I had to sit in and take notes. I noticed him watching me instead of listening to the man speaking a couple of times. That did not help the battle I had in my mind that he was only being nice to me as his assistant. My momma always did say that I had a “nasty habit of falling fast over the bare minimum.” 

 The rest of the month went pretty smoothly. I hyped myself up over this position for nothing. I usually had lunch with Levi one or two times a week, and sometimes Mr. Smith would accompany us. Most of the time I turned him down to eat with Sasha, Connie, and Jean.

 Levi wasn't as bad as everyone made him seem. Or so I thought. I had been Levi’s paralegal for about a month now and even considered talking to Hange when they got back to extend my help to Levi. Most of the coworkers I saw outside of work, worked on his floor so it was a win for me. 

 “Happy Friday Mr. Ackerman! I placed your tea and schedule on your desk of course and als-.” I was cut off by his office door shutting before I could walk in. He just breezed right past me not speaking a word. Not wanting to add fire to the fuel I sat at my desk and tried to get back to work, my mind kept wandering back to Levi and what could've bothered him so much this morning that he ignored me. ‘This is exactly why you should've killed those feelings you knew were developing and just kept it professional.’ I thought to myself. Because now of course my feelings are hurt and they shouldn't be. This whole thing is one-sided. Levi had made no moves besides taking me to lunch and bringing me tea on the days he asked me to come in on a Saturday to help with cases he was working on. God, I hated how I was such a hopeless romantic. I even turned down a date with a coworker named Porco in stupid hopes Levi would make any kind of emotion known. 

Levi didn't even come out of his office at lunch either. I was starting to think he was sick. Instead of going to the cafeteria I went home for lunch and decided to bring back some of the gnocchi soup I made for dinner last night to bring Levi. When I arrived back to work the lights in Levi’s office were off and his door was locked. “Oh, Ms. Touissant, Levi left for the rest of the day. He said something about not feeling well” Mr. Smith said walking up to my desk. Why wouldn't he tell me? Any other time he stepped out of the office he let me know. Did I overstep somehow? Maybe I made him uncomfortable the day before when we had lunch. I accidentally brushed his leg with mine under the table a couple of times and to make matters worse when we left I tripped and grabbed hold of his arm. I heard he wasn't a very touchy man so I must've made him uncomfortable. Maybe he didn't like me like that and he was just doing all of this to be a good boss. 

Mr. Smith looked like he had more to say but instead, he gave me that infamous white man smile and said his goodbyes before walking to his office. I put away the leftovers I brought for Levi in the breakroom fridge. The rest of the day went by slowly. I decided to leave an hour early since Levi didn't leave any instructions or work for me. 

“Okay bitch, we’re going out. Let's go get some drinks, dance on some men, and act up.” Hitch said walking into the kitchen and pouring a glass of wine. 

“Hitch I don't know, I just want to drink a glass and perhaps watch a movie then go to bed,” I said pulling the covers over me as I plopped on the couch. 

Hitched ripped the covers off me “Perhaps not.” She pulled me up from the couch. “We have both had a shitty day at work. Let's go drink, dance, and possibly get laid.” She cheered and skipped over to her room. Reluctantly I got up from the couch and went to my room to get ready. “That's my girl!” Hitch shouted at me when I walked past her room.

 Two hours later we pulled up to the chain of bars downtown on 4th street. I decided to listen to Hitch and dressed a little skimpy tonight. Sporting a tight long sleeved black velvet dress, that came to the middle of my thighs. “Okay, I'm thinking we start off at Bailey's tonight to get a little tipsy since the drinks are cheaper and the bartender tends to be ‘sweet on us’,” Hitch said imitating my accent and the phrase I use. I rolled my eyes and hooked my arms with her. “Now I see why you decided to go into teaching instead of acting.” I laughed and she playfully scoffed at me. 

 3 shots and 2 martinis in we decided to make our way to Amour Ivre. Which was a more upscale bar that the suits usually frequented. Every time we came Hitch made it her mission to go home with a rich man in hopes of becoming a sugar baby. “ Okay, Ivy don’t be obvious but look at those two guys towards the back at that table. Both are super hot but I have my eye on the blonde. He’s my mission for the night.” I nodded waiting a second before turning around to see the guys she was talking about. Immediately turning back around after making eye contact with one of them. “Hitch, let's go to a different bar,” I said anxiously. “What? Why? you don't think they're cute?”

“No bitch! Those are my bosses. The brunette is the one I was telling you about!” I whisper shouted at her. “Well, that's super awkward because my target is making his way over here now.” 

Part 2. 

[xxlynxxx]

Masterlist

Last updated: 12/19/2022

Works: 1

Attack on Titan

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Reiner Braun

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MHA-TBD

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Jujutsu Kaisen-TBD

Series

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Demon Slayer-TBD

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With me-chapter 13

A/n: I think I’ll write a couple more chapters to this story before it comes to an end. Y’all better buckle up bc next chapter is gonna be DRAAAAMAAAAA!

Xoxoxo enjoy! 

The next couple of weeks felt as if they went by in a blur. Unfortunately, you had to go back home when Zeke arrived. Even though he didn’t actually see you until 3 nights after he returned, "Late nights" at the office again He of course tried to make those up to you with another couple thousand dollars in purses and sex, although you denied both. Keeping your word to Reiner, you didn’t allow Zeke to touch you. 

 

You had plans to break things off after the gala. Yes, you knew it was selfish to stay until then, but you also figured if Zeke got to use you the way he wanted this whole time, you might as well even things out. 

A couple times out of the week, you would meet up with Reiner. Half because your gala was rapidly approaching, and the other part because now that your promiscuous boyfriend was back in town, you feared he would catch you and Reiner together. 

Even though Reiner made it known, he had the opposite feelings you did when it came to getting caught. "Baby, I would like to tell you I care, but I would never want to lie to you." He would chuckle on the other side of the line as you scoffed. You looked forward to his calls on the days you couldn’t see him. His voice felt like a warm hug, even when you were apart. 

 

Tonight was the big night, and you couldn’t be more nervous. Everything had to be perfect. This gala would be your breakthrough if everything played out right. Reiner arrived two hours early to help you set up, and just having him around you was better than any anti-anxiety medicine you could take. "Yes, honey, everything looks perfect." He said kissing your forehead. "I can’t tell you enough how proud of you I am." You turned to fully face him, standing on your tippy toes to kiss him. 

As the guests poured in, Reiner pulled you aside for one more chaste kiss, knowing that tonight you two would have to act like the past couple of months never happened. What was meant to be a quick kiss turned deeper as he held you close. "Ahem," someone coughed behind you. Mikasa walked up to you two, smiling as she enveloped you in a hug. Reiner took that as his cue to find the rest of the group acting as if he had just arrived. "Damn girl, everything looks great..and you seem happy." Don’t think I didn’t catch that kiss. I feel like I haven’t talked to you in forever. "I'm going to need details." She whispered that last part as Eren walked up, handing her a glass of champagne. "Yeah, these pieces look great. "Lots of bigwigs here tonight." He said he was looking around the place. "Yeah, thanks to your brother, of course." "Most of the guests are regulars at this type of thing, but you can of course guess who Zeke’s guests are." 

 

"Speaking of which, where is he?" Mikasa asked as you took her glass, taking a gulp and giving a quick eye roll; only she picked it up. "That’s a great question, Mika. He was supposed to have been here an hour ago. " You had to remind Zeke of this night more times than you could count. At this point, you weren’t even sure if he would show up. "He mentioned something about getting caught up at the office when I spoke to him earlier, but he should be here." "Especially on your big day." Eren said he was giving you a sympathetic smile.

You excused yourself to schmooze buyers and greet the rest of your friends. Reiner had his eyes on you the whole night; he didn’t want anything ruining this night for you knowing how important it was. Because of that reason, he didn’t try to make it known to you that Zeke had arrived and spent the first 45 minutes of his arrival at the open bar whispering in some blonde's ear. He wanted so badly to take you away from all of this. It made him physically sick to watch Zeke sleazily go from that random woman to coming up behind you as you spoke to a woman interested in one of your paintings. Zeke pinched your butt, causing you to jump, then put his arm around you, squeezing your shoulder while the other hand held whatever number of glasses of whiskey he had already. Reiner couldn’t even pay attention to the conversation he was having with Jean, Connie, and Bertholt. He saw the quick look of disgust you had when Zeke touched you. 

Reiner downed the rest of the liquor in his glass as he watched with rage and disgust. He tried so hard to fight his inner thoughts of wanting to rescue you. claim you as his in front of everyone. "Calm yourself; this is Y/N night." "She's worked so hard to get here, so don’t let your emotions fuck it up," he thought to himself. 

"You good, bro?" Bert nudged him, following his peripheral vision. His best friend softly grabbed his shoulder as if to silently calm him, knowing he couldn’t say what he wanted out loud. "I’m going to get another drink." That was all Reiner said to him before walking to the bar and downing a shot of vodka. Normally he wasn’t a fan of shots or even hard liquor, but he needed to take the edge off and calm himself. 

[xxlynxxx]

With me- chapter 12

A/n: I think I’ll upload a couple more chapters for this story bc I have some stories I wanna put out for a couple aot characters and some different fandoms 🥰 enjoy! Xoxoxoxo

You let yourself out of the truck without waiting for him to open your door like usual. Unfortunately for you, the front door was locked, and you had to wait for Reiner to open it. He cautiously walked behind you, keys dangling as he nervously looked for the one belonging to the door. "Sorry," he mumbled, accidentally rubbing up against you. You just nodded as you walked into his foyer. "Y/n.. please let’s talk," he said before you reached his staircase.

"I don’t want to argue with Rei." I kind of just want to nap and then head back to my place. "I still have a painting I need to finish." You said you were turning around to head up the stairs. "Yeah, well, this sweeping things under the rug and waiting until later to talk isn’t me. "I think you owe me just some sort of explanation after everything we’ve done."

He was right, but at this moment, you were so angry at Zeke and at yourself that Reiner was an easy target for all the anger.

You were never one for confrontation and you were never good at speaking your true feelings. No man ever wanted to with you anyways. "What explanation? What do you want to hear from me Reiner?! Yes we fucked and yea I cheated on Zeke and yes I’m feeling guilty because this isn’t me but part I don’t regret it because." You could finish the sentence. Only groaning in annoyance and stomping up the stairs like a child. You didn’t know who you were at the moment. Why was this so hard? Why couldn’t you just put your big girl panties on.

Reiner quickly chased you up the steps and into his bedroom, where he caught the door before you could slam it. "Y/n, please take a breath and just talk to me." "You know you can talk to me." He pleaded with you as you paced back and forth in the room. Pacing—it felt like you were doing that a lot lately.

  "Why Reiner? "Why do you care?" Your voice broke on the last word. Biting your bottom lip to keep it from quivering "No more breakdowns, yes or no." Be a big girl and feel everything. Just let go. You thought to yourself.

"If you think I did all of this for a meaningless fuck," He closed his eyes, taking a breath. "Zeke doesn’t care about you, y/n." You know that. Jesus Christ, everyone can see that! Reiner didn’t want to hurt your feelings, but he needed you to open your eyes. to be real with yourself.

"I’m leaving," you said, walking past him. Halfway out the bedroom door, he grabs your wrist.

"No. Stop running from me. "Y/N..I would do anything to..."

"No! What makes you any different than every other man who’s used and abused me? "I'm damaged goods." Tears fall down your cheeks as you jerk your arm away from him and make your way downstairs. "Y/n baby, please listen to me."

He’s running down the stairs now, trying to reach the front door before you do.

As if some divine being heard his inner thoughts and felt his desperation, thunder sounded from outside. Rain is pouring down hard. You sighed as you looked out the window. "Look, it’s a mess outside." Let's just sit down and talk this out. "Tell me what you’re feeling so I can figure out what I need to do to make it better."

   Right In front of you was a man who told you things you weren’t used to. Because he was willing to put whatever he felt aside to understand where all this emotion was coming from. All he wanted to do was comfort you.

 That night you poured everything out to him; he sat quietly and listened, holding you and wiping your tears. He reassured you that he would be by your side and wanted you to go at your own pace, but at the same time he knew you would be his and only his. You told him you wouldn’t sleep with Zeke, especially now that you feel your body belongs to Reiner. You just needed to get the courage to break it off with Zeke.

Chapter 13.

[xxlynxxx]

With me- Chapter 11

Warnings: Drama y’all, drama.

After Freya prepared a lunch in the main house, another car pulled up. "Who else did you guys invite? I don’t want to overwhelm you." Reiner half-joked to Elsa as she brought plates down from the cabinet. "Well you know how excitable Freya can get. She texted Johanna, who of course doesn’t go anywhere without her kids and husband Joseph is coming too. Dad was already going to come check on the foal. Luckily mom is visiting her sister today so she won’t be here. But I know you’ll be getting an earful." Reiner rolled his eyes. He did not plan for anyone to be here. He felt bad that you were being thrust into his family without warning. You seemed to be doing well, still in deep conversation with Freya and Gabby. "So do you guys have any embarrassing stories?" He heard you ask from the other room and took that as his cue to interrupt before Freya said anything.

The Reiners family all sat at the table and enjoyed the food. "So yea or nay, my son has told me that you paint?" Reiners' father asked. He was a large man with a thick accent. You could see where Reiner got his height from. As intimidating as he looked, he was a big teddy bear. "Yes, sir, I do." You smiled over at Reiner, who was already looking at you. "I would love to see some of your work; you know I was something of a painter in my youth," his father said, causing his sisters to grumble. "Oh gosh, please don’t get him started. Father, your paint splatter was not art." Johanna said, earning giggles from the rest of the family. The rest of the dinner went well. At first, you were worried that this would be too much. not knowing you would be meeting any of the Reiners family today. But his sisters were so welcoming that you couldn’t help but feel almost at home.

The thought scared you a little because, of course, the dumb voice in the back of your head kept reminding you of your reality. After dinner, you helped his sisters clean the dishes, even though they insisted on it since you were the guest. Gabby suggested staying longer to play board games. She loved getting to see her cousin Reiner, but unfortunately for her, Elsa reminded her she had homework to do, and technically she was supposed to be grounded for sneaking out to see Falco. Johanna invited you to their annual Braun barbecue before taking her leave. Of course you accepted, wanting to spend time with his sisters again. You and Reiner accompanied Mr. Braun to check on the foal when your phone vibrated with a text from Zeke. Ignoring it, you put your phone back into your pocket as you watched the men examine the horse. Again, your phone vibrated, but this time it was a call. You quickly declined it. He called again. Irritated, you answered the phone. "So are you just going to ignore me?" Zeke sounded irritated that you didn’t even do much to offer him a "Hi, how are you?" When you answered the phone, "You’ve been keeping busy; I didn’t want to interrupt you," you said, walking away from the stables to ensure no one heard the venom in your tone. "What’s gotten into you? I’m always busy on trips, and you never act like this." You scoffed; he had the audacity to lie. "Zeke, if you wanted to, you would make time. I’m just not going to beg for it anymore," he laughed, which angered you. "Listen, I’m not going to argue with you over trivial shit. I’m busy. You should be used to this by now." Now you were seeing red. "Trivial shit? Another woman answered your phone, Zeke?" he chuckled again. His lack of remorse made your blood boil. "Okay, young lady, she answered my phone. The world is not ending. You act like I’m out here getting bitches pregnant." There was a silence after he said it. He knew the betrayal by your ex and your friend was a sore subject. But he still weaponized it to get you off his case. "Good bye, Zeke," you said, not waiting for a reply before you hung up.

You turned around to head back to the stable to see Reiner standing at the entrance. "Was that him?" Reiner asked with his hands in his pockets and his eyes looking down at his shoes. "Yes," you hesitated to answer. Reiner nods his head, not saying a word. I'm afraid he would be out of line to ask you the details of the conversation. But would he? After everything you two have done, The air feels thin as you two stand in silence. Both of you want to speak, but neither knows what to say. "I—" you began, "Are you leaving him?" He said without thinking. He stunned himself with his brash tone. You knew you couldn’t even be mad at him for sounding the way he did. But you were on edge because of your conversation with Zeke. At the same time, Reiner had a battle within himself. He hated that you answered his call, but he hated even more losing his composure with you. "I think we should go," he said, turning back into the stable and leaving you standing there. I'm not sure what to say from there. You said your goodbyes to Reiners' father and headed back to his house. The two-hour drive was a completely different feeling than earlier, when you guys were headed to the ranch. The only sound came from the radio. Reiner stole glances at you throughout the ride. kicking himself for not apologizing.

Chapter 12. 

[xxlynxxx]

With me- Chapter 10

Warnings: A lil smutty

Every time you came, you didn’t think you could handle another one. At least that’s what you thought until Reiner had you on the bed, on all fours with your ass in the air. "Rei please, I can’t mmm so deep." You moaned as he gave you slow, deep strokes. Hands gripping your hips, you were sure there would be marks later to remind you of how good you made each other feel. This angle had him so deep you could feel him in your stomach. a new experience for you that you haven’t gotten used to yet. Don’t run from it, baby, take it. It’s yours. " He moaned into your ear before landing a slap on your ass and picking up the pace. Those words caused your vision to blur, and you spoke incoherently as you approached.

He flipped you over, so you were now on top. Wanting to bring him the same euphoric feeling he just put you through, you rode him nice and slow. Sliding up his length and going back down is painfully slow. smirking down at him. You loved how Reiner let you take control. He didn’t mind being submissive, and that turned you on so much. "Don’t tease me, Meine Liebe." He moaned, throwing his head back, mumbling in German. You hadn’t seen him speak in his mother tongue before, so it only fueled you more to continue what you were doing. "Do you like it?" You leaned down, whispering in his ear as you nibbled on his lobe. "Yes mmmn," he moaned, trying to meet your hips to make you go faster. You grabbed his hands off your wrist, holding them above his head. "I love seeing you like this. so weak under me. " His breathing became more erratic. You loved how much this was turning the both of you on. "So submissive baby, be a good boy and grab the bars." He did just as you asked, and for that you began to ride him faster until one hand tried to grab your waist. "Mmm mmm. I’ll stop if-" "Please! don’t stop. "I'll listen," he whimpered, and grabbed the bar again. "Good boy", you rode him faster, bringing him to his own orgasm. Reiner was a moaning mess below you, and you couldn’t help but cum again just from the sight of seeing him so fucked out. You made a mental note to do more submissive roles. As he poured hot cum into your walls, you kissed him.Both of you were lying on his chest, painting hard. "If I knew how much you liked me in control, I would’ve done it a lot sooner." You sat up to kiss all over his chest, bringing one of his nipples into your mouth. "I didn’t either. That was a first for me. I can’t help myself around you. I’ll do anything you tell me to. " He let out a little moan, loving the feeling of your mouth all over him. You giggled as he flipped you over, kissing wherever he could reach. Okay, I actually have a little surprise for you. So we need to shower again. So we can head out. " Reiner wouldn’t tell you his plan no matter how many times you asked. You finally gave up on asking since he told you it would be about two hours until you arrived at your destination. The ride was comfortable as you joked and sang the whole time. Reiner let you have free rein over the aux chord since you insisted on putting him on to new music. Reiner listened to pretty much all genres, but he always found himself playing rock and old school rap. You played him your music and his favorite soon became "Bad Habit" by Steve Lacy. "He does have better songs, but this is a catchy one." You giggled as Reiner grabbed your hand and began singing the lyrics to you.

"Alright, my little hase. "Close your eyes and no peaking." Reiner said as he turned down a path surrounded by trees. You covered your eyes with your hands, smiling. "You better not try to scare me," you laughed. "Also, what’s hase?" You asked, your eyes still covered. "It means bunny." He said, moving one hand to your thigh, giving a little squeeze. "That’s cute. Why bunny though?" You meant to ask him about the other name he called you during sex earlier, but you forgot what he said. You made a mental note to add German to your Duolingo app. "Well, you’re cute like a bunny. And you fuck me like one too. " He laughed. You scoffed, laughing at him as you smacked his hand that was on your thigh. Eyes still closed

"Okay, keep them closed." He said he would park his truck and get out. Reiner opened your car door and helped you out. Holding your hand, he led you down what sounded like a dirt and gravel road. He stopped and stood behind you, grabbing hold of your hands. He reached your hand out and stopped when you landed on something that felt like velvet. "Okay, now open." He whispered in your ear before kissing your cheek.

You opened your eyes to see that you were standing in front of a metal fence, and your hand was on a beautiful chocolate quarter horse. You gasped and looked up at Reiner, your eyes watering. "You remember? Oh my gosh, she’s beautiful. It’s a she, right? What’s her name? " He smiled, rubbing soothing circles on your back. "Yes, it’s a she. Her name is Matilde. This one belongs to my little sister. That white one back there? Her name is Pearl, and the baby next to her was born not too long ago. I don’t think he’s been named yet. Pearl belongs to me. There’s more in the stable if you want. " "YES," Immediately yes! " He laughed, grabbing your hand again, leading you to the stables.

When you first met Reiner 6 months ago, you mentioned your favorite animal was a horse. Growing up, you would spend the summer at your grandparents' ranch. Your favorite part was when your pop-pop would tell you stories of black cowboys and his time as a boy learning to be a farrier. He would let you ride the horses. You even went with him to the local horse shows. You always thought if you didn’t work out as an artist, you would be an equestrian.

Reiner showed you the other 6 horses in the stalls and introduced you to each one. They all have a funny or unique name. The majority of which were named by his younger sisters."Do you want to ride one?" You felt like a kid on Christmas morning. "Yes! It’s been a minute, but it should be like riding a bike, right? " He chuckled at your eagerness. I’m sure it’ll be like you never stopped. I’ll also ride next to you on Pearl. " He saddled up the horse of your choosing. You decided to ride a beautiful black and white quarter horse named Luigi. It just so happens he is the father of Pearl's foal.

He was right; it was like you never stopped. Reiner was concerned by your confidence, and you made Luigi run around barrels.Keeping up with you, you were impressed at how well Reiner rode. which you found out his parents owned this ranch and lived not too far from it. They wanted one like his grandparents had in Germany. You were so wrapped up in riding that you didn’t notice the two trucks approaching the house on the other side of the ranch. All you can think of is how amazing it would be to come here when you feel anxious or stressed. "You hungry yet?" Reiner asked while riding up next to you. Truthfully, you were, but you were having so much fun you didn’t want to admit it. "I promise we can come back after we eat." Reiner said, as if he could hear your thoughts. Agreeing with him, you followed him to the stables to let the horses eat as well. "Brother? Is that you? " A voice called out as you and Reiner debated on what to eat for lunch. You froze, not realizing it wasn’t just you two on the ranch. He squeezed your shoulder, assuring you it was okay. Three women came into the stables. Two blonde women who looked in their early twenties and a brunette who looked to be about sixteen. "Reiner, you’re here!" The young brunette ran up to you guys, engulfing Reiner in a big hug. He hugged her back just as tight. The sight in front of you warmed your heart. "Hey guys, this is Y/n.. y/n. These are my younger sisters, Freya and Elsa. And this rascal is my cousin Gabby. " They all smiled at you, offering a hello. Freya grabbed you into a big hug, "Sorry, I’m a hugger! You’re the famous y/n we’ve heard so much about. Reiner mom is going to be upset that she wasn’t here to meet Y/n. She teased her older brother. Your heart jumped at what she said. He had told them about you. You were curious as to when and what he said.

You turned to see a blushing Reiner. His sister could never hold water. "Oh, I’m sorry. Did I say too much?" She smirked at him, locking arms with him. "Y/n we saw you riding, you’re a natural! Where did you learn? " Elsa spoke up this time as Freya led you out of the stables. When Reiner tried to catch up to rescue you, he knew his sisters would talk your ear off and pry. Gabby linked arms with Reiner and followed behind the three women. "Well.. at least she’s getting a taste of what it’s like to be in the Braun family." Gabby joked with her older cousin. He watched as you started to seem more comfortable with his sisters. He loved the idea of you being apart from his family. He just needed to make it a reality.

Chapter 11. 

[xxlynxxx]

With me- Chapter 9

Warnings: Anxiety

Reiner kissed your shoulder before lathering it up with soap. You sat with your knees to your chest and your cheeks stained with tears. Your brain is repeating everything that just happened. You couldn’t help but begin to cry again. You didn’t even realize Reiner had been calling your name. "Babe? Please, I promise you, everything will be okay. I would never let anything or anyone bring you harm. You sat quietly registering his words. "You hear me?" He asked, placing another kiss on your shoulder. "Yes, I’m sorry." You answered, wiping the remaining tears from your face. "Please don’t apologize. There’s nothing you need to be sorry for. " You were embarrassed for reacting that way.

You hated how your anxiety could make the best of days turn for the worse in a matter of seconds. "But I am, I get so anxious it’s dumb. Embarrassing actually. I wish I could stop... I’m not mad at you, by the way. I guess I was worried Bertholdt would tell someone and then it would get around. That I coughed, "you stopped yourself, feeling the lump in your throat grow again. You were starting to question if you felt bad about actually cheating on Zeke or if you were just disappointed in yourself that you stooped to his level.

You had to be honest with yourself; Zeke hadn’t been faithful to you since before he asked you to be his exclusively. That alone should shock you too. "It takes two to tango." Reiner chuckled. Bert would never say anything. He wouldn’t do that to me or you. He knows how much you He stopped his words and his movement behind you. Reiner came around the tub to face you. "He knows how important you are to me." He said, while grabbing your hands. The confession caused you to look down at the water.

The intensity in his eyes didn’t make you uncomfortable, but you knew if you looked at him, it would be hard to hold back again. He lifted your chin up with one finger. "Look at me y/n. I mean it. I..I can’t let you go now. I’ll fight the motherfucker if I have to. " He said, causing you both to laugh. And please don’t be embarrassed to act that way around me. I know how it feels to be anxious or to have a panic attack, and I refuse to let you feel that alone. You don’t have to anymore. Not as long as I live. " He said, placing a kiss on your knuckles. Something in his words and how he handled you like you were made of glass had your stomach and your lower regions feeling a certain way. You grabbed the back of his neck, bringing him in for a kiss. You needed him again. "This tub is pretty big. I’m sure it could fit us both." You smirked at him. Reiner wasted no time stripping his clothes and getting in the bath with you, causing some water to spill out. You both laughed as he pulled you into another kiss.

Over the next couple of days, Reiner had you walking on cloud 9. cooking meals for you and giving you the most mind-blowing orgasms. You still hadn’t heard from Zeke, but you also didn’t try to reach out. Bert came over again for breakfast and apologized for coming unannounced the other day.

He also assured you that not a peep would come out of him about your being here. Besides Annie, who in fact gave him an earful about interrupting your time with Reiner, They invited you and Reiner over to their house for dinner, and at first you were wary about it. I was worried one of you guys' friends would come over and see you guys. You hadn’t even told Mikasa about it. You didn't doubt your best friend; you were just afraid Eren would find out in some way. Since Zeke was his brother.

Chapter 10.

[xxlynxxx]

With me- Chapter 8

A/n: hey y’all! Long time no post 😭 I hope you guys enjoy this chapter! She a angsty one!

Warnings: angst, panic attacks

You woke up to the smell of bacon. It had been a minute since you had had a home-cooked breakfast. feeling like you were on 'Go' every day.

You realized the ache between your legs when you tried to get out of bed. Sitting back down, the events of last night put a smile on your face as you caressed your thighs, a couple of bruisers here and there. It felt like a dream you didn’t want to wake up from. Putting on Reiners' over-sized t-shirt, you walked downstairs to see him in nothing but grey sweats. He was humming to the music playing from the speaker while scrambling some eggs. You couldn’t help but admire the scene before you.

"Good morning," you said softly, coming up to stroke his back muscles.Reiner picked you up and placed you on the counter, kissing you deeply. "Good morning, beautiful." He kissed your forehead before turning back to the stove.

You set the table while Reiner brought the breakfast over. Not wanting to be too far from you, he sat next to you at the table. One hand spooned food into his mouth while the other stayed on your thigh. Reiner couldn’t help but to marvel at your beauty. "Why do you keep staring at me?" You tried to hide your smile behind your hand as you ate your food. "I still can’t believe this is real." He said it barely above a whisper. Looking down, moving the rest of his food around his plate, he suddenly felt caught. "What do you mean?" You asked, now turning your body to face him. I just..I’ve wanted this for so long. It feels unreal. I never want to come back to reality. " His saying that made you think of the one thing you hadn’t thought of this whole time. Zeke.

You excused yourself to the bathroom, feeling a little claustrophobic. Reiner mentally kicked himself for bringing the mood down. You splashed some water on your face and stared at yourself in the mirror. You wanted that feeling back again. You didn’t blame Reiner. He wasn’t wrong. You both knew this wasn’t the reality you both wished you were in.

When you checked your phone this morning, you had no missed calls or texts from Zeke. ‘If he’s not thinking of you, y/n, why are you worrying about his feelings?’ You think to yourself. You’d never done anything for yourself. You wanted to allow yourself this moment.

Drying your hands, you walked out of the bathroom to enjoy this morning with Reiner while you could.

"Sorry for just leaving, I needed to use the bath." You stopped. I was looking like a deer in headlights. You stared at Reiner as he looked back at you. At the same time, you both looked over to Bertholdt, who was taking a piece of bacon off Reiners' plate, looking between the both of you equally shocked. Well I can’t say I’m surprised , but damn Reiner, I didn’t think you had the balls to actually do it. " He laughed, shoving the bacon in his mouth.

You were speechless, still looking at Reiner as if you were hoping he would find the words you couldn’t get yourself to say. You turned to walk back down the hall and up to Reiners' room before he could speak. Pacing back and forth, your mind racing with thoughts of everyone finding out. Now the guilt you pushed away is eating at you. This causes your stomach to turn and your chest to tighten. You didn’t realize you had begun to hyperventilate until Reiner was in front of you trying to calm your breathing "Y/N? Baby? Are you listening to me? " Finally, your gaze meets his, "slow breathes okay?"Match mine. " He coached you.

Tears poured down your face faster than Reiner could wipe them away. "I-I can’t Rei. I need to go. I shouldn’t be here. Oh God, I can’t believe I let myself be so stupid. " You pushed his hands off you as you walked to gather your clothes from the night before. "Y/n please." His voice cracked as he tried to take the clothes from your hand. "You’re not stupid. This wasn’t stupid. Don’t leave, you don’t have to leave. " He begged as you scrambled around the room looking for your other sock. You couldn’t stop it even if you wanted to. Your fight or flight kicked in as you panicked and all you could think about was getting the hell out of his house. "Baby, please stop and listen to me." He tried to hold you, but once again you backed out of his reach. Reiner, please don’t call me that. Please just let me go. Don’t make this harder than it is. " You said you were too afraid to look into his eyes. "Why? Why can’t I call you that? Why do you need to leave? Would you just stop? " He said the last part louder than he wanted to. It got your attention as you stared at him with wide-eyed wonder. "Hey, I didn’t mean to yell. I’m sorry. Come here." He pulled you into him, kissing your forehead. "Please just stay. At least until you’re calm. I can’t let you leave like this. " He whispered, kissing the top of your head and rubbing soothing circles on your back. "Reiner.. this isn’t right." You cried into his chest. "What makes it wrong, y/n? We know we both want this. Just please let me take care of you. I’ll run you a bath.. just relax for a while, okay? If you feel like after you want to go home, I’ll take you home. " He held your face in his large hands, looking down at you, wiping the remaining tears from your cheeks. "What about my car?" You sniffled. "Whatever you want y/n, I’ll take you to get your car. I’ll follow you home to make sure you get there safely. Whatever you want. But for right now, please just say you’ll stay and let me take care of you. " He pleads, looking deep into your eyes. Your eyes were unreadable to him right now. If he wasn’t trying so hard to keep calm so he could focus on you, he would be a mess right now. He felt like you were slipping through his fingers, and he couldn’t allow that to happen.

You couldn’t resist; you had never had someone else to lean on during a panic attack. You were too embarrassed for anyone to see you like that, yet here you were having a full-on breakdown in front of Reiner and, surprisingly, you weren’t mortified. If anything, deep down, you knew you were safe here with him, more safe than you had felt in ages. But your morals tried to get the best of you.

You waited on the edge of Reiners' bed as he made you a bubble bath. He led you to the bathroom, holding you like you were made of glass. He carefully undresses you and helps you into his large tub. Reiner was respectful and didn’t gawk at your body as he helped you in. He watched your face the whole time, still unable to gage your thoughts by the look on your face. You were lost in thought as Reiner sat behind you, massaging your shoulders. You tried to stay as stoic as possible. You wanted to breakdown again. Not because you have been caught. This time you wanted to breakdown because how could you have left yourself to go this long in life feeling like this? You didn’t know how you would ever be able to get him out of your life now. There was no way either of you could go back.

Chapter 9. 

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He lovelies!! I will be updating with me soon! I didn’t abandon it 😭 I moved apartments and had the flu! But I’m back now! Stay tuned and thank you for reading and continuing to like my story XOXOXOXX

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[xxlynxxx]

With me- Chapter 7

A/n: I’ll tell ya H’what it’s a lot easier reading smut than writing it lol but I hope y’all enjoy! Xxxx

Warnings: Smuttttttt

“What do you want y/n?” He asked kissing down the side of your face. Hands still holding your waist as you sat on your desk. “Reiner please.” You whined pulling him closer to you with your legs. He chuckled kissing down your neck. “I need to hear you say it baby. Now, please tell me what you want.” He paused his kissing to look into your eyes. You glared at him. Which caused him to smile. Everything you did made him smile, he couldn’t get enough of you. You leaned forward whispering in his ear as your hand trailed down his chest “I want you..to take me. Make me forget everything.” You leaned back and you swore his eyes darkened. He kissed you again. This kiss was different than before. It felt so sensual.

“I will. But not here, I didn’t imagine our first time in your office.” He said lifting you off your desk and putting you back on the floor. “You’re such a tease” you groaned. “I am not, I just want you to have the best experience, and I don’t want it to be on your tiny work couch.” He chuckled as he kissed your neck while you locked your office back. “Yeah yeah, well what’s your plan Prince Charming?” You didn’t know if it was the cool breeze outside or Reiner but you had chills. “Well darling, you had two very full glasses of wine.” He said causing you to playfully scoff and push his shoulder. “So let’s leave your car here and we can take mine.. back to my place.” He said the last part like a question. “Sounds like a plan.”

He opened his truck door for you and held your hand to help you get in. Everything he was doing was a first for you. You never had a man treat you with so much care. Especially a man who wasn’t even yours. Reiners voice brought you out of your thoughts that almost turned to guilt. “I’m sorry what was that?” He smiled at you grabbing your hand and kissing the back of it. “I said I live 45 minutes from here so buckle up.” He started his truck and began driving. One hand on the steering wheel while the other still held yours. The whole way to Reiners you talked and laughed.

Everything felt perfect. Even the silence that fell upon you guys in between conversations was comfortable. It felt like the two of you had known each other for years. One minute you were having a heated make out session in your office and the next you were making jokes driving to his house to continue said make out session. It surprised you how you weren’t nervous at all.

He pulled into his long driveway and you were amazed by his beautiful home. “Reiner this is all yours? You don’t have a secret family here right?” He laughed helping you out of the truck. “No I don’t, this was my grandfathers house and he left it to me when he passed.” He lived in a beautiful two story farm styled home. The house laid on a couple acres. His closest neighbor was definitely not a walk down the sidewalk. “When I’m overseas my cousin stays here and helps take care of the horses.” You pulled on his hand as he lead you to his front door. “Horses?? I love horses I used to ride a lot back home. My grandfather had a couple.” You said looking around his home. You could definitely tell this was a family home. It looked like nothing had been rearranged in some time. ���I can show you them tomorrow.. if you’d like. And I know, it’s not the nicest decorations in here. I haven’t had the time to make it feel more like me.”

You waived him off, while looking at the old paintings in the foyer. You felt his hands come around your waist as he was leaving open mouth kisses down your neck. You turned around to kiss him, he lifted you up. Your legs around his waist as he led you to his bedroom.

He laid you down on his bed, you say up on your knees staring at him as you took off your shirt. Reaching behind you, you unclipped your bra and slid your straps down your shoulders, tossing it on the floor. His eyes left yours to take in your half naked form. Feeling a little insecure you tugged on his t shirt. “You’re wearing too much clothes.” He quickly removed his t shirt and stepped out his pants.

You looked down at his growing member. Your eyes slightly widened, he wasn’t even fully hard and you were a little worried. He smiled as If he could hear your thoughts. Pushing you back onto the bed he crawled over you, taking your lips with his again. He kissed you slow and sloppy. You don’t think you’ve ever felt this turned on. You bucked your hips at him trying to feel some type of friction. His kisses made you feel so high.

Reiner kissed down your body until he reached the skirt you were wearing. “May I?” He asked grabbing ahold your skirt and underwear. You were embarrassed about how fast you nodded your head. But you needed to be touched by him. Reiner slid them off never taking his eyes off your glistening folds. He didn’t know what came over him but he needed to taste you. He leaned up to kiss you again while his fingers toyed with your lower lips. You gasped into the kiss needing more as you instinctively grinded against his fingers. He smiled into the kiss loving how badly you wanted him. Because he wanted you even more.

Reiner settled between your legs taking one agonizingly slow lick down your folds, earning a breathy moan from you. He did it a couple more times before you became impatient and gripped on his hair “Rei..please.” You moaned grinding against that beautiful nose of his. This is exactly what you thought about earlier when you commented on his nice. He sucked hard on your clit as he slid one long thick finger inside you. “Oh god yes.” You knew you wouldn’t last long, he could tell you were close by how hard you were squeezing around his finger. He added in another one. He seemed so skilled how he pumped his fingers in and out of you as his mouth went to work on your clit. “Reiner” you moaned feeling so close to your release. “What is it baby? Tell me.” He asked as he curled his fingers inside of you. “Mmm don’t stop. I’m so close.” You gripped the back of his hair tighter. “Whatever you want baby.” He curled his fingers again. Shoving them into you quick and then taking them back out painfully slow. Reiner sucked flicked his tongue on your clit before sliding it down between your folds. “God baby you taste so fucking good.. You’re doing so good for me.” He moaned into your pussy. That did it for you, you came hard on his hand. He didn’t stop he picked up the pace of his fingers as you screamed his name. Reiner was still licking you up as you came down from you orgasm. It was too much but it felt so good. He kissed you, rubbing his tongue with your eyes to let you taste yourself. “You see how good you taste? I’m hooked now.” He moaned against his lips pushing him back onto the bed to return the favor before he stopped you. You looked up at him confused. “You don’t have to, besides I want tonight to be about you. I also don’t usually do this and I didn’t plan for this to happen.. so I don’t have any condoms.” Your mouth fell open a little. Never hearing a man deny head before let alone wanting to please you all night. You crawled on top of him kissing and biting his lips. “I’m on the pill. And I always use condoms. But I trust you.” He flipped you so he was on top kissing you once more while lining up at your entrance. “I trust you too.” You hardly slept with Zeke these days and you especially never slept with him without a condom. Especially because if you were suspicions were true about his whereabouts you didn’t want to face consequences for his actions. Looking into your eyes he eased himself inside. You closed your eyes. You weren’t a virgin but being with him made you feel so. He gave a minute to adjust to him before you squeezed your legs around his hips to give him the go ahead.

Reiner was thick all over, you should’ve known he would be thick and long. You couldn’t believe a man with a weapon like this didn’t just get around. “Look at me y/n.” He held the side of your face while the other hand held him up above you. Keeping a steady pace. He leaned down kissing your and knipping at your jaw. Picking up the pace his moans got a little louder. You were incredibly turned on. You loved how vocal he was. “Y/n, baby you’re so tight. I don’t know how long I’m gonna last.” He moaned grabbing your hips with both hands as he leaned against his knees. This new angle had him hitting just the right spot, especially because he had a slight curve. “Rei, please go faster.” You moaned leaning up to straddle him. He thrusted up into you as he helped hold you off. He held you like you weighed nothing.

Reiner flipped you around so you were on your hands and knees. “Ngh Reiner you’re so deep.”

“You like it baby? Tell daddy how he makes you feel.” You moaned louder “you like that?” He slapped your ass earning another moan from you. Reiner through his head back feeling so much pleasure from you. He had imagined this night for months. To be honest he never thought it would happen and he was glad he was lasting as long as he was. He hadn’t been with a woman since before he met you. “You’ve got me so hooked on you babe.” He leaned down to kiss your spine. Never letting up on the pace. All you could do was moan and speak incoherently. He was literally fucking your dumb. “Reiner, I went to ride you.” He stopped to help you climb on top of him. You sank down taking him all the way in. You could feel him in your stomach. All these months you were missing out on this. You didn’t know how you could ever stop this now. Reiner was thinking the same thing, with each thrust up into you he knew he was never going back now. Never letting you go. And he wouldn’t stop until you were completely his.

You picked up your pace taking the reins. His grip was so tight on your hips you were sure it would leave marks. Reiner started to meet your thrust. “Fuck baby you feel so good.” He moaned throwing his head back onto the pillow. You gripped your hand on his throat thrusting on him harder. The only thing on your mind was making this man cum but the way he was moaning had you close again. “Rei I’m so close, mmm you’re gonna make me cum again.” You tightened your hand on his throat. Who would’ve thought Reiner would have a choking kink. You were definitely gonna keep that in mind. “Cum with me baby, mm don’t stop fucking me.” He nearly whimpered causing you to hit your second orgasm. “I’m gonna cum babe.” He tried to lift you off of him but you kept riding him harder. “Then cum” you whispered into his ear before kissing him. He moaned into your mouth as he gripped your hips harder fucking his cum into you. You kept riding him even after he came. “You’re gonna kill me baby if you keep doing that.” You giggled at him as you collapsed onto his chest. The room filled with the both of you panting.

“Are you ok?” He rubbed your back while you laid on top of him. He was still inside you. You looked up to kiss him. “Never been better.” You said getting off him, you underestimated yourself because your legs almost gave out when you tried to stand. He grabbed you by your waist pulling you back into him. “Be careful Bambi.” He laughed kissing wherever he could reach. “I think you broke me.” You said to him as he carried you to the bathroom. “Should I buy you a wheelchair?” You glared at him as he laughed at his own joke. “I’m sorry, it’s been…a long time. And in my defense I’ve never had sex that great before. You did some voodoo on me or something.” He kissed your head leaning over you to fill the tub with water. Helping you get in he settled behind you. “I’ve never had sex that great before either… by the way.” You played with the bubbles feeling suddenly so vulnerable. He kissed your shoulder as he helped wash you up. “Can you stay?” He said barely above a whisper. You nodded. “I already planned on it.” You turned to give him a kiss. “Have you ever had sex in a tub before?” You asked straddling him again. Amazed at how big his bathtub was. “I have not. But there’s a first time for everything.”

You and Reiner had sex one more time after the tub before finally deciding it was time to get some sleep. You felt so alive with him. So safe in his arms as he held you in his bed. He felt the same. He held you tight that night afraid he’d wake up and it would just be a dream. Neither of you wanted to face reality. So instead you focused on the now and fell asleep peacefully in his arms. Reiner hadn’t had a good nights sleep in what felt like years. Every time time he closed his eyes before he was back overseas. Watching and feeling helpless as men in his unit were slain. Tonight with you in his arms Reiner didn’t dream. And for him that was the best sleep he’s ever had.

Chapter 8. 

[xxlynxxx]

With me- Chapter 6

A/n: This chapter has a lil spice at the end. But the next chapter will defleeeee have smut. Enjoy xxxxxx

Reiner greeted everyone, saving you for last. He knew you were avoiding him and he wanted to get to the bottom of it.

"Y/n", he smiled down at you, grabbing you into a hug. "God, he smells good," you had to back away from him before anyone noticed how long you and he had been holding hands.You needed to come back to reality. You purposely sat away from him, and after each of his turns to bowl, he found himself sitting right next to you.

While everyone was engrossed in the competition and having their own conversation, Reiner leaned closer to your ear, acting like he was tying his shoe "You’re avoiding me. Why? " It felt more like a statement than a question. You turned your head to give him a look, quickly realizing how close he was. "I don’t know what you’re talking about." You faked a smile to seem like you were chill, but in reality you were screaming inside from how damn good he looked and smelled. "Bullshit y/n, talk to me. You want to step outside? " Your heart pounded against your chest. He was so sweet and attentive. This was foreign to you. "Reiner, why are you making this so hard?" You sighed. It doesn’t have to be. Just talk to me. " You shook your head and got up to go outside. You needed to call Zeke. Maybe talking with him would stop you from acting on your feelings.

You paced back and forth in front of the building, waiting for Zeke to answer the phone. "Zeke Jeagers phone, how can I help you?" A woman drunkly giggled on the other line. You immediately looked down at the phone, confused as hell, as you put it on speaker. "Y/n hey." He laughed. "I’m sorry about that. Hailey had a little too much to drink. " Hailey was his assistant who you always felt did more for Zeke than a normal assistant would. "Yeah, well you should get her under control. Why haven’t you texted me? " Zeke scoffed. "Now honey, don’t be like that. You know I’ve been busy, "you rolled your eyes. "Well, you don’t sound busy now." You heard what sounded like more than one woman laughing in the background and a couple of cheers from some men. "Zeke, come back to the party!" Two women yelled in the background. Listen y/n, I’ll call you in the morning. You didn’t answer back. You just hung the phone up before shoving it back into your purse. "Y/n, why are you out here? It’s cold." Reiner came up behind you. You turned to him, eyes watering. "I-" you croaked, "I know I kind of eased down. I’m sorry. He’s an asshole. " He grabbed you into a hug, you laid your head on his chest, and as much as you didn’t want to, you started to cry. "I’m so stupid and I’m so embarrassed." You said, trying to calm your tears. The last thing you wanted tonight was to cry like this in front of Reiner. You’re not stupid, y/n. and please, don’t be afraid to cry in front of me. " He said, rubbing soothing circles on your back. "Why are you out here?" You look up at him, sniffling. "You were gone too long. I started to get worried that I made you uncomfortable and you left, or worse, something happened to you out here. " You hid your face in his chest again. Thank God for your melanin. Otherwise you would’ve been as bright as a tomato. You looked back up at him. He held your face, wiping away your tears with his thumbs as the both of you held eye contact. He looked at your full lips and back to your e/c eyes. He swiped his thumb over your bottom lip. This is it. You closed your eyes as you saw him leaning in. As if on cue, your phone dinged twice. You pulled out of his embrace and unlocked your phone. As he saw you reading texts, he could only assume they were from Zeke.

‘You hung up on me.’

‘Sweetheart, don’t be like that.’

And just like that, you felt guilty again for how good it felt to be in another man’s arms. You put your phone away and looked up at Reiner, who was already watching you. "We should go back inside now." I’m getting a cold. " You head towards the building without waiting for a response.

You guys continued to bowl throughout the night. Attempting to clear your mind of the events that occurred outsideAs you all said your goodbyes in the parking lot, you headed towards your car. You waved goodbye to Sasha and Nicollo as they drove off, leaving you and Reiner the only two in the parking lot. You stared at each other, both having so much to say, but nothing came out. You began to speak at the same time as Reiner. Laughing, you looked down at the ground, feeling kind of awkward. "You go first," he said, stepping closer to you. I was just going to say how I had this amazing bottle of wine I accidentally left at my job. I think I’m going to head over there now to pick it up. " He is right in front of you now. He fiddled with the end of your braid, looking into your eyes. "Man, he’s killing me." You thought "Is that so?" He smiled down at you, still touching your braid. Well, I have nothing better to do. I can follow you if you want. Since it’s dark and all. I want to make sure you’re safe. " He said the last part in almost a whisper. You nod your head. "Yeah, it’s not far from here. Maybe 15 minutes.. you can follow me. " He opened your car door for you and shut it as you slipped in and started your car. He got into his truck and followed behind you. Part of you thought maybe you should answer Zeke’s text. You decided not to.

You walked into the dark building, hurrying to turn off the alarm system before it went off. Reiner followed behind you the whole way to your office. "Voila!" You pulled the bottle of wine out of your mini fridge. Reiner smiled as he took in your little office. Beautiful art work all over your walls. Hand sculpted clay bowls with beautiful designs sit on your desk and coffee table. "You did all of this?" He asked, holding the bowl that seemed so tiny in his big hands.

"Mmhm," you said as you poured a glass of wine."Would you like a glass?" He nodded. You handed him the glass and the room was quiet as you both drank your wine. He cleared his throat, "Your work is beautiful y/n. I’m excited about your gala " He said, taking a seat on your mini sofa. "Really? You’re really coming? " You were nervous and excited for him to come. It was your biggest night and you were shocked that he was excited to go. You weren’t even sure if Zeke was going. "Yeah, of course. I want to support you. " He smiled at you before taking another drink. You watched him intensely. This man was making you feel so many emotions that you needed to reel yourself in. Instead, you finished off your glass before pouring both of you another glass. "I want to show you something I haven’t shown anyone yet." You practically skipped behind your desk to pull out a large black album. You took a seat next to him on the couch, which he was spread on, which you definitely did not mind. These are a couple of the pieces I’m working on. smaller versions, of course. They're just sketches, but at home I have the canvases I’m painting on. I haven’t shown anyone yet. I’m feeling kind of vulnerable about them. " He took the book from your hands and started looking over the sketches. A photo of a woman who almost resembled an older version of Y/N is crying, looking at herself in the mirror with a glass of wine on her bathroom counter. On another page is a woman with her eyes closed, crying, while holding her sleeping toddler. "These are amazing y/n. What’s the inspiration? These look so raw, the emotion on this woman doesn’t even look like a drawing. " A small smile on your face while he complemented your work. You hadn’t even shown these pieces to Mikasa, but something about Reiner made you feel so whole that you felt you could show him. "My mother For years, I drew everyone but her, even though she asked me countless times to. " You sighed, putting your glass down. "She won’t be able to make it to my show. Unfortunately, her new boyfriend is taking her to Hawaii. At least one of our relationships is healthy, "happy for her. You whispered the last part, picking up your glass and finishing it off again. He closed the book, feeling your emotions shift. mentally kicking himself for asking you. "Hey, I’m sorry, we don’t have to talk about her." You leaned against your desk, smiling at him. He was sitting on the couch leaning forward with his elbows on his knees. "You should let me draw you one day." He chuckled and leaned back against the couch. Is this the Titanic? Wanna draw me like one of your French girls? " You both laughed. "I’m serious, you have such a beautiful face and I love your nose. I would love to draw you." You stopped rambling when you realized the wine gave you a little too much confidence. He touched his nose, smirking at you. My nose, huh? Do you like it? I’ve never heard that before. " He knew what he was doing by smirking at you like that. Yeah, it’s.. it’s a great nose. I mean, all of you are great. "'Ugh, stop talking already.'

He laughed, standing up and coming to stand in front of you. Reiner must’ve been obsessed with your braids because he was fiddling with them again. The air was thick as you stared at each other. You felt déjà vu as he looked from your eyes to your lips again. "You don’t know how badly I want to kiss you." He whispered, coming closer. "So kiss me."

This time there was no interruption when he kissed you. No thoughts of Zeke and no guilt when you kissed him back. He lifted you on top of your desk as he deepened the kiss. He is sucking on your bottom lip, causing you to gasp and tighten your legs around his waist. He took the opportunity to slip his tongue into your mouth. Your hands gripping the back of his head's hair and his squeezing your thighs.Finally, you broke away to come up for air. Your foreheads pressed against each other. The only sound in the office was the cars driving past outside and the two of you trying to catch your breath. He held your face in your hands as you two stared deep into each other’s eyes. "Tell me to stop." Although he said it, he didn’t truly mean it. "I can’t." And you meant it. This is what you were afraid of. All you could think about now that you had him was how much more you wanted.

Chapter 7.

[xxlynxxx]

With me- chapter 5

A/n: another shorty! But the Y/n and Reiner moments only go up from here! Enjoyyyy xxx

Warnings: none really, little bit of guilt.

 Y/N probably retyped her reply to Reiner five times. "Gosh, it shouldn’t be this hard.’ She thought to herself. She finally settled on a reply that she hoped sounded chill.

'Hey, I don’t mind at all, and thanks for checking up on me. I’m doing fine.’ Y/N let out a breath she didn’t even realize she was holding in. Placing the phone down on the sink she paced back and forth. Thankful she had acrylics on otherwise she would’ve bitten her nails down to nubs. Her heart dropped to her stomach when her phone started to vibrate. He was calling her. ‘I know this man is not trynna call me right now.’ She thought to herself. Picking up her phone she let her thumb hover over the decline button. "Fuck it." She whispered to herself answering the phone.

   "Y/N." He breathed out her name. She sat on the sink counter with her mind going a mile a minute. She couldn’t believe she was locked in the bathroom on the phone with Reiner at 2 a.m. while her boyfriend slept in bed.

"Y/N, are you there?" He asked again. She didn’t even realize she was sitting in silence.

"Uh yeah, I’m sorry, it’s me. Are you ok?" She asked mentally kicking herself.

"Yeah I’m great now.. I didn’t think you’d answer. I just wanted to make sure it was actually you I was texting." He laughed trying to make it less awkward. "You didn’t have to call." Guilt filling you the longer you stayed on the phone with him.

"I did, I needed to know that you were okay." You cut him off before he could say more "Why?" You didn’t mean to sound so abrupt. He took a minute before he finally answered. Exhaling on the other side of the phone "I think we both know why y/n."

   You did know why, but you didn’t know why you needed to hear it. As if it would make anything easier. "Hey, I gotta go, I think I hear him getting up. Rei.. please don’t call back. I’ll speak to you soon. " You hung up before he could answer. Holding your phone to your chest again you let out a shaky breathe trying to calm your nerves. Getting back into bed, you deleted your texts from Reiner and the phone call notification. You were paranoid. You had never been in a situation like this before, and you never knew something so wrong could feel so good. That’s what made you feel so guilty. You loved that he went out of his way to check on you. No man has ever done that for you. Because of this, you felt even worse for hanging up on him before he even had the chance to tell you goodbye.

   The next morning when you woke up Zeke was gone. He sent you a text saying he didn’t want to wake you, and he would see you in a week. You know how these trips go for him. You would hardly hear from your boyfriend the entire time he was gone. He always chalked it up to him being in and out of meetings and kissing up to old rich CEO’s, but you knew better. You knew he was hardly ever going to bed alone when he was out of town. You felt so stupid, so weak. Every day you asked yourself why you stayed. Part of you thought maybe it was security. Zeke had money and came from money so you knew you wouldn’t have to worry much if for some reason your art work never sold. The other part of you knew it was fear of abandonment and being alone. Your mother always kept a man even if she knew he was trash. Because at the end of the day she still had a man. You wanted to get rid of that learned behavior but just didn’t know how.

  You got ready for work when your phone buzzed. Thinking maybe it was Zeke telling you he finally landed in Germany. Your stomach did flips and you couldn’t help but smile like a fool when the same number from last night texted you. ‘I really need to save this man’s number.’ You thought to yourself.

    ‘Good morning beautiful, I hope you slept well.’ Reiners one text had your heart pounding in a way you don’t think you’ve ever felt before. Sure sometimes Zeke would try to be romantic but you always felt like it was more for him than you. You got ready for the morning before you replied to Reiner. Finally sitting in your car before heading to work you wrote him back that you slept well and hope he did too before putting your phone in your purse and heading to the gallery.

   Work kept you busy during the week. Your art show approaching, you had to make sure everything was perfect. You had been texting Reiner as much as you could. Mainly at night when you were off. You had to stop yourself from turning the conversation from PG-13 to rated R when he apologized for taking awhile to reply because he got out of the shower. You laughed to yourself thinking about sending a ‘without me?’ Fuck boy text. Every time you let go and joked around with him, Zeke popped in your mind and you suddenly felt shame. Taking longer to reply to Reiner.

   You arrived at your apartment when you got a group text from Sasha asking about going out for bowling and drinks. Excited to not think about the art gala, or Zeke you got ready to meet up with your friends. Putting on something cute and comfortable and refreshing your makeup from earlier, were out the door.

"Y/N! I feel like we’ve barely talked this week! I’m so glad you came" Sasha hugged you as you got your bowling shoes and walked toward the group. "I’m sorry, you know this Gala is taking a lot of my time up. I’m excited for it but I’ll be glad when it’s over." You said before greeting all your friends. No Reiner in sight.

"Looking for someone y/n?" Mikasa smirked at you. You felt your face get hot as you shot daggers at her. She giggled and dodged you trying to swipe at her butt. " What? What’s the little joke?! Guys fill me in!" Sasha looked at you two. Before you could answer, you heard Connie yell "Reiner welcome to the party!" If your face felt hot before it was on fire now.

Chapter 6.

[xxlynxxx]

With me- chapter 4

Warnings: the tiniest amount of smut

A/N: This chapter is pretty short! But no worries Ch. 5 is coming soon 💕

Zeke smirked down at you, then smirked up at Reiner. “You’re right babe let’s go home.” The whole time, his eyes didn’t leave Reiner. This was very entertaining to Zeke. He let you go to walk inside the house. Before you followed, Reiner grabbed your hand. “You don’t have to leave with him.” His eyes pleading with you. “Y/n!” Zeke shouted from inside the house. You were so thankful for the loud music. The only people who heard the whole interaction were Annie and the brunette Zeke had been flirting with earlier. “I’m sorry” was all you left Reiner with before leaving the party. 

 The drive home Zeke didn’t say anything from the passenger seat, but you could see his jaw clenching and unclenching. When you arrived home is when he finally decided to break the ice. 

“Can you believe him? I mean, he has never had the balls to speak to me that way, and how he was practically following you around like a puppy all night.” Zeke chuckled, taking his shoes off. “Well, I just wanted to make sure you got home fine. I’m gonna head back to my place.” You said, walking to the front door, not wanting to argue. “What? Why? You don’t like me talking about your boyfriend that way?” He said smirking. ‘Ugh he’s so smug’ you thought to yourself. “Zeke, I’m not trying to fight with you. Especially when you’ve been drinking. He’s right, you may say something you’ll regret. Plus, I have work in the morning, and you have that early flight.” You really just wanted to be alone tonight. “Exactly, I have that business trip. I won’t see you for a week, so that’s more of a reason for you to stay the night with me.. wouldn’t want me leaving on a bad note, right?” 

 To be honest, you were looking forward to this week away from him. Maybe with him being gone, you would miss him more, and it would put things into perspective for you. Or maybe you were just trying to convince yourself that being with him wasn’t all that bad. 

   So like always you gave in. You let him win, and you let him have his way with you. You had to admit, even if Zeke had his faults, he was great in bed. Just that alone would make you forget why you were ever mad at him. That and he was a grade A manipulator. 

  He was rougher tonight than usual, gripping your hips tighter with each thrust. Telling you that you were his and no one could make you feel this good.  Before, you would’ve believed him. This time felt different. You kept turning your head to look at the clock on the dresser. Because the faster he was done, the sooner you would stop feeling guilty thinking about if it was a different blonde man between your thighs. 

  You woke up from your sleep to a random number calling your phone. You pushed ignore and tried to go back to sleep. The number called again as you watched the phone vibrate against the night stand. You looked over to see Zeke in a deep sleep when your phone vibrated. The random number had texted you. Sitting up and grabbing your phone, you looked over at Zeke one more time to make sure he was sleep before you unlocked your phone. 

  ‘Hey, I hope you don’t mind, but I got your number from Annie.’

 ‘Sorry idk why I called twice, your probably asleep.’

‘If I woke you up, I’m sorry again.’

‘I just needed to know you were okay.’

‘It’s Reiner, btw…if you couldn’t tell’

 You chuckled at his messages. ‘Gosh, even the way he texts is cute’ you thought to yourself. You held your phone to your chest, suddenly realizing you were still in bed with your boyfriend while giggling and smiling like a fool over texts from a man who was in fact not your boyfriend. Quietly slipping out of bed and locking yourself in the bathroom. 

Chapter 5.