yashiroreaper

[yashiroreaper]

DID symptoms that people don't talk enough about

The cycle of forgetting and then re-remembering trauma memories

Constant depersonalization and derealization

Feeling as if you're stuck living someone else's life

Failure to plan for the future because nothing feels real + losing time

Thinking a flashback is over when you've actually just dissociated away from it, and having it resume as soon as you stop dissociating

Dissociative stupor/trance

Alexithymia

Identity issues outside of alters

Inability to connect with other people

Being unable to tell if you've healed from a past problem/trauma or if you've just dissociated away from it

Not learning from past mistakes because of amnesia and dissociation

Feeling nothing psychologically despite physical shaking, racing heart, nausea, crying, etc

The extreme disorientation + identity confusion that comes with co-consciousness and co-fronting

Somatic flashbacks

Being triggered by your own DID symptoms because you know the only reason you're experiencing any of this is because of what they did to you

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Enjoyed the new Superman movie

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Pondering my orbs.

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My favorite example of 2003 splinter 100% making up stuff as he goes

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COMMISSIONS ARE Closed until the fall uwu

Consider joining my patreon for sneak peeks and early access

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Same As It Never Will Be (on-going)

1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8 - 9 - 10 - 11 - 11.5 - Ch 3 Cover - 12 - 13 - 14

SAINWB DTIYS: due 1 Feb 2024!

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No Rest For The Weary (on-going)

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Shenanigans:

The Toaster: 1 - 2 - 3 (complete)

Lil Prick: 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 (complete)

Death Clause

Lost

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Castling AU Series:

Mikey joins the art scene

Ghosts Aren't Real (only great great great great great mystic grandmas): 1 - 2 - 3 - 4

Flashbacks and Veterans: 1 - 2 - 3 (complete)

Armageddonnie: 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8 - 9 - 10 - 11 - 12 - 13 - 14 - 15 (complete)

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Ko-Fi

Artwork Tag

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Shiro is the protector of our corporeal form. He often is the wrangler, steering us back when our gremlin chaos goes too far. This image is a good representation of the dynamic he has with everyone when we go off the rail.

(I am a pngtuber streamer and content creator with CPTSD and DID. Want to use my platform to show people that we exist and that people need not be afraid.)

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Right now, I feel defeated. Utterly defeated. I was let go from my job a little over a month ago. My job didn't send the form for EI in the legal timeframe, leaving me a month out without money.

Right now, I have no money, my bank account is in the negatives. I apply to jobs everyday but no interviews.

I try and stream to put my mind off it. Right now, it is one of the only things I enjoy in life. Besides my partner.

Everything is taking far too long and my mental health is detiorating. I feel like a shell, like I am a failure or that life is out to get me.

I hate this. I hate it.

Why is life like this?! Why can't things be easy for once?!

I'm tired...

I'm tired of fighting...

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A cozy outfit drawing of my pngtuber model. Will definitely work with more posing and improve at drawing hands.

Hands. The bane of most artists.

Love this cozy outfit vibe. Love being cozy af.

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Drew some art for my Twitch. Got a BRB scene and an offline scene.

The BRB scene is inspired by the totoro opening.

Check me out live weekdays at around 1pm AST on twitch.tv/yashiroreaper

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Working on dynamic posing and new coloring methods. Think this turned out pretty good. Have more methods I am going to test before I finish my next model.

Watch me live weekdays at 1pm AST or 6pm AST.

Twitch.tv/yashiroreaper

Stay safe. Stay hydrated and don't forget to take your meds.

Love you guys.

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Latest VOD is up, went on a journey in Minecraft this stream. Was fun to see the sights. Saw even more creatures.

If you want to catch me live, I stream at twitch.tv/yashiroreaper

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The last 4 thumbnails before I pop them up on here more regularly. Don't forget to check me out live at twitch.tv/yashiroreaper

Don't forget to stay hydrated and take more meds.

Stay safe.

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As you may not know I've been streaming on twitch once again. This time as a pngtuber. Since I have no patience for editing I have been posting them on my YouTube as VODS. But for each stream I've been drawing a custom thumbnail. Here is half of the six I've posted. Will share the other 3 later and when then share them as they come out.

Watch live on Twitch: Twitch.tv/yashiroreaper