yazzthoughts

[yazzthoughts]

Poem from me to my uunborn baby-

A tiny spark begins to grow, A love so deep she'll always know. A heartbeat echoes soft and true, A bond that's built for just these two.

She dreams in shades of lullabies, With hope and stars behind her eyes. Each flutter felt, a quiet song, A sign that love has grown so strong.

Though days may stretch and nights run long, Her heart beats steady, fierce, and strong. For in her arms, a life will be��� A story written tenderly.

[yazzthoughts]

How to mother

SONG: we don’t gotta talk about it -  dj gummy bear

Dear our unborn child,

Everyday as it gets closer to our due date, I can't help but imagine who you look like more- me or your dad even though I held you in  my tummy for what seems like a lifetime of lessons I didn't know I was ready for, yet it's only mid - April… I'm only halfway there, but I know I already love you unconditionally, which is probably the most fulfilling thing I've gotten to do in my life thus far. With unborn eyes I can't wait to see that you will capture this world with whatever you're meant to fulfill this world with, because mine was meant to be your mother and to love your dad, he is one of the reasons you exist.

How will I teach you lessons I still haven't learned yet or the ones I'm still learning… I don't really know yet, but I promise I will learn by showing you, you are not alone- YANA. The acromion that got me through a lot of tough times. Yet my mistakes made me, my mom always told me an easier way if i would have listened. How do you mother a child so innocent to the world that is so cruel? Do I search that up on google too and see what comes up like i do everything else in ife?

No one truly prepares you to be a mom. You just do it and learn along the way. But i know i was taught to love unconditionally because your grandparents do that for me, and i was just meant to be who i am, hopefully one day you see me as the mother that would stop the world for me because when you came into my womb and we learned about you, you did that for us. Giving me a bigger purpose. Purpose i was lacking for many years, But i wouldnt change the person i made you with. He is very loving, hard headed yes- but without a doubt gonna be one of the many biggest supporters in your life until the circle of life repeats itself.

My promise to you is not to be a perfect mom, but to just show you you are love and your potential in this world. I wish someone along the way told me my dreams could be fulfilled but not without hard work and i identifying them. You are my dream and I didnt know that's what I meant to do in life until your dad saved me from all the mess and chaos I was living in… a topic for another day. 

My goal right now is to meet you and tell you I love you more than the stars in space could hold. Get ready for you and show you there's no one like your mommy in this world. You were meant to be my child- Our kid for whatever divine reason and I can't wait to find out why.