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Girlpool—Before the World Was Big // memorial bench quoting Toni Morrison's Sula // @inanotherunivrse // Iain S. Thomas, I Wrote This For You // Zadie Smith, Swing Time // Fall Out Boy—The Kids Aren't Alright // Audrey Emmett // Mikko Harvey, "For M" // Mahmoud Darwish, Memory for Forgetfulness: August, Beirut, 1982 (tr. Ibrahim Muhawi) // Langston Hughes, "Poem"

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I think I was just born with something dark and ugly inside of me. Always waiting to be found out.

planetarium - adrienne rich/@twoheadedfawnn/ugly, bitter, and true - suzanne rivecca/a burning hill - mitski/a hora da estrela- clarice lispector/ @100493503004422/sharp objects - gillian flynn

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Just needed to scratch that itch for my fix over tl0!Shinichiro and something dark but bittersweet. Like ofc he's gonna find you after timeleaping, ofc he's gonna desperately come back in your life. Whether you like it or not. He knows better now and you missed him anyway, right?

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OMG YOKO HI

EMMA HIIIIIIII IT'S BEEN SO LONG!!!!! HOW HAVE YOU BEEN!!!!

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Of course it was doomed. I know that now, but it ended so quickly, and I was young. I hardly remember that summer in Seattle— except for her. The city seems just a rainy backdrop. From the moment I first saw her at the office I was hooked. I started visiting her floor. I couldn’t work unless I caught a glimpse of her. Once we exchanged glances, but we never spoke. Then at a party we found ourselves alone. We started kissing and ended up in bed. We talked all night. She claimed she had liked me secretly for months. I wonder now if that was true. Two weeks later her father had a heart attack. While she was in Chicago, they shut down our division. I was never one for writing letters. On the phone we had less to say each time. And that was it—just those two breathless weeks, then years of mild regret and intermittent speculation. Being happy is mostly like that. You don’t see it up close. You recognize it later from the ache of memory. And you can’t recapture it. You only get to choose whether to remember or forget, whether to feel remorse or nothing at all. Maybe it wasn’t really love. But who can tell when nothing deeper ever came along?

Dana Gioia, Being Happy (from ‘99 Poems’, Graywolf Press 2016)

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Endings

The story has two endings. It has one ending and then another. Do you hear me? I do not have the heart to edit the other out.

— Sandra Lim

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Franz Kafka, Draft of a letter to Felice Bauer

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What does “thinking of you” mean? It means: forgetting “you” (without forgetting, life itself is not possible) and frequently waking out of that forgetfulness.

Roland Barthes, A Lover's Discourse: Fragments (translated by Richard Howard)

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I don't ask you to love me always like this, but I ask you to remember. Somewhere inside me there'll always be the person I am tonight.

—F. Scott Fitzgerald, Tender is the Night

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“Why love what you will lose? / There is nothing else to love.”

— Louise Glück, from “From the Japanese”, The Triumph of Achilles

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i think it’s important to get deeply emotionally unironically involved in a bad piece of media whilst fully aware that it objectively sucks ass. like for your health or whatever

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“Love with the Hands Wide Open” by Lisa Suhair Majaj from We Call to the Eye & the Night: Love Poems by Writers of Arab Heritage

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hi yoko my favorite author. how are you? im wondering if u hav other fandoms ur planning to write on? wat series r u currently obsessing on? (aside frm TR)

ANON HOW ARE YOU!!

I'm good, just busy with real life! Unfortunately I haven't been watching or obsessing over anything else, I guess I'm just that loyal to TR 😝😝😝

I probably won't be writing for any other fandom (or at least, I don't forsee it now), cuz I'm already having trouble updating ROAC 😭 I PROMISE you though, that I'm working on the new chapter!!

Here's some proof ✌️

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If you receive this, you make somebody happy! Go on anon and send this to 10 of your followers who make you happy or somebody you think needs cheering up. If you get one back, even better! ✨

OMFG I AM SO SORRY IDK HOW I missed out on this super sweet message Anon!!! 😭😭😭 Idk long ago it was sent but you DEFINITELY make me happy too ahhhh this is so goddamn nice and sweet!!! Wishing you endless happy days anon!!

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HI YOKO HIIII HOW HAVE YOU BEEN

EMMA

I'VE

BEEN

GOOD

HOW ABOUT YOU??!!!

I love that whenever I dip in and out of the TR fandom I still get to see you around ahhhh

Hope you've been enjoying anime!Shion!! They did him justice with the VA!!

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Once again, I am BEGGING people to realize that tumblr tags are a filing system and not a visibility metric.

One does not come to tumblr to tag-spam for notes and get popular. There is no algorithm here. There is no monetization here. There are no influencers here.

This is where every other social media system comes to die. And we cackle and roast marshmallows on the pyre like the gremlins we are.