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[ Valocodamoco, September 2021 ] from Kristin Young on Vimeo.

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[ Valocodamoco, September 2021 ] from Kristin Young on Vimeo.

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YAAASSSSS! She made it! 💙💚🧡💛 But not without a few cracks and bruises along the way. Isn’t that a lot like life though? . Can’t wait to experiment and explore more with this slip project once I get settled back in CA. Studio mates, message boards, teachers and artists from other mediums have lent me so much insight and advice and I am so excited to try out these new tricks and techniques I’ve learned. This is what I love about this community! It’s been fun being a sponge and a student again. If I had only known that my high school chemistry would have come in handy almost 20 years later, I would’ve paid more attention in class ☺️ Baseball and physics and geometry. Ceramics and chemistry. Now that’s a school I would never ditch. 😂 (at ArtShack Brooklyn) https://www.instagram.com/p/ByI_ni6A7PE/?igshid=4099c30lbqje

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Writing

I often struggle with the act of writing and expressing when the emotions seem too much. And lately, or the past few years actually, it has felt like more than I can handle. This blog has long been forgotten. It was a way for me to capture all of life’s moments and feelings, but somewhere along the way, I got caught up living (which is a great thing), but when things got too overwhelming, I found myself somewhat scared of it--scared of being with my own thoughts and emotions, scared of wanting to remember it all. I sometimes find myself going back and reading old posts when I am going through something tough or feeling pensive and reflective. I guess it’s nice knowing “it’s always there when I am ready to ‘talk’” and captures a beautiful collection of vulnerable moments, challenges I’ve been through, deep emotions I’ve felt, and a reminder of how far I’ve come...even if at some times it just feels like I’ve gone in circles.

The biggest challenge I face is being my own editor. I'm not good at free writing, although, I long to be a stronger and more eloquent writer...and I know that that only comes with the practice of reading and writing. As a producer at work and a planner by nature, I constantly find myself even editing my own thoughts before they even make it onto a page. We are our own’s worst critic, but we often lack the perspective to realize that we are only holding ourselves back. This has come to the forefront in my life currently, as I feel like I am living in this strange “in between.” However, the hammock continues to swing. I am not at a standstill, but I do have feelings of being drawn one way or another, only to be pulled back in the other direction again. Waiting to move, not wanting to stay. Everyone says, “You’ll know when the time is right.” So for now, I'm going to keep swinging on my hammock, waiting for that feeling or sign, and challenging myself to write while I hang here. This isn’t for anyone but me now, so why not. Channeling my 15-year-old self and trying to “dear diary” again. All the while, trying to keep this a secret from the 33-year-old editor I cannot seem to hide from.

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It’s harder to wait around for something you know might never happen. But it is even harder to give up when you know it is everything you want. #calligraphy #obliqueholder #script #cvwql #craftvaries (at Craft Varies)

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Finding space between breaths. . . . #photoshootonmybed #isitspring #thisisconfusingweather #followthelight #nestingbowls #createspace #peachandteal #wheelthrownpottery #ceramics #pottery #instapottery #ceramicarts #ceramicsofinstagram #functionalpottery #functionalceramics #claylove #handmade #handthrown #handcrafted #madewithlove #madeinbrooklyn #loveyaahmoreceramics #prettylittlething #flashesofdelight #thehappynow #nothingisordinary #shopsmall #artforsale #forsalebyartist (at Brooklyn, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BtogeBkguZR/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=t0pz0fxc2n6j

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One year without Ngin.

When I was little, Ngin sewed me four or five different costumes that I loved to dress up in. They were amazing and crafted with such skill and detail. There was a nurse or doctor's outfit with a doctor's bag and a mini stethoscope, a chef's coat with one of those big white hats, a painter's smock with pockets of every size for any tool you could imagine, and maybe a police uniform or something...I sort of forget the rest. But what I do remember is the excitement I would feel as soon as I walked into Ngin and Yeh-Yeh's home. I would head to the back of the family room where she had a small plastic pocket shelf which beautifully organized all of the different costumes. Im pretty sure she sewed that shelf herself as well. I would stand there and contemplate which outfit I wanted to dress up in first. To me, it was less about the "dressing up" part...but what I love most about this memory is how she helped me see that I could become anything that I wanted to be when I grew up! And now that Im...well, sort of grown up, depending on who you ask, I still love looking at life that way. We always have the opportunity to grow, to learn, to explore and to change. Perhaps her costumes were just meant to be something fun for me and all of the future grandkids to play with, but the memory of them will always hold a little more weight for me. She helped open my eyes to possibility! She helped me believe that I could do it all, if that's what I wanted! And I will especially never forget how those costumes made me feel. Excited and confident. Playful and smart. Hopeful and driven.

A few years ago, someone from our family sent out a funny group text message which included a picture of Ngin who had fallen asleep on the couch. Sun on face. Mouth wide open. It was amazing and made me laugh out loud at work when I received the text. I immediately sent the picture onto my best friend with the caption, "I want to be just like her when I grow up." Within two seconds, my friend texted me back with a picture she had secretly snapped of me sleeping on a recent road trip. Sun on my face. Head back, mouth wide open. Her caption read, "You already are." I didnt know it then, but that was one of the greatest compliments I've ever received.

Today, Ngin, as we celebrate your beautiful and full life, I want you to know how much you have meant to me. I have looked up to you in so many ways:

as my supportive and loving grandmother,

as the mother of my amazing father;

as a devoted Oakland A's fan, a talented seamstress, a passionate Bingo player, and an awesome Bowler;

as a loving sister, a caring friend, and for me, most of all, I have admired and respected the independent and strong woman that you were--someone who knew what she wanted--like a thick slice of prime rib...medium rare...for lunch...just so you can bring half of it home as leftovers.

So out of all of the things I could be when I grow up--or as I guess I continue to grow up--Ngin, I still want to be just like you.

How lucky have we all been to know and love your beautiful spirit and soul. It has truly been an honor to share these days with you. Thank you.

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Somehow amidst all the end-of-the-year-Christmas-is-almost-here chaos, my December got wiped clean. It’s left me in a strange in between—feeling the urgency to find new work but also retreating to this new quiet space where I just want to be on my own and reflect on this past year. I don’t know what these next few weeks will bring, so trying to stay open to the possibilities and reminding myself that this is all part of the process. Control what you can. Let go of what you can’t. Being patient with your work and with yourself. This is what this ceramics has taught me...so grateful to have found this practice and this special place. . . . #trusttheprocess #patience #quietspace #ceramics #pottery #potteryandcomedy #instapottery #ceramicart #handmade #wheelthrown #madewithlove #madeinbrooklyn #brooklyn #bedstuy #loveyaahmoreceramics #prettylittlething #flashesofdelight #thehappynow #nothingisordinary #shopsmall #artforsale #forsalebyartist (at Brooklyn, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrLH8KSAO57/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1it9m236hgbxs

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🔘🔘🔘 The B U B B L E icon. Depending on who you are talking to or what end of the conversation you are on, those three dots can hold a lot—a lot of emotion, a lot of meaning, a lot of time. But that icon is the best way I can think of describing what these next few months will be for me. A series of dots that exist within a moment of time, indicating that “I’m still writing.” Trying to figure out what’s next, keep an open heart, and embrace this unique moment “in between.” This summer is going to be a long love letter to myself and I’m excited to see what I discover. Sometimes we are the only ones who know exactly what our hearts need to hear. 💕 (at Brooklyn, New York)

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I hope I am lucky enough to always be surrounded by lots of talented female artists. . . . #thanksladies #femaleartists #yougogirl #inspiredbyfriends #staycreative #stayhungry #ceramics #pottery #wheelthrownpottery #instapottery #handmade #madewithlove #madeinbrooklyn #brooklyn #bedstuy #prettylittlething #flashesofdelight #nothingisordinary #thehappynow (at Bedford–Stuyvesant, Brooklyn)

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Alright, alright, alright. . . . #charcuterME #daylightsavingslight #sanantonio #texas #iseeyou #firstnonhotelbarmeal #meatmeintexas #dontmesswithtexas #ndujandujaIDOYA #worktraveleatrepeat #eeeeeats #prettylittlething #thatsdarling #thehappynow #flashesofdelight #petitejoys #livethelittlethings #nothingisordinary #afterlight (at Cured at Pearl)

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A handwritten letter with a special vessel and an open heart. Off you go, little one. ✨ . . . #specialdelivery #ihopeyougettowhereyouregoing #ceramics #pottery #wheelthrown #wheelthrownpottery #instapottery #ceramicart #handmade #madewithlove #artshackbrooklyn #madeinbrooklyn #brooklyn #bedstuy #loveyaahmoreceramics #prettylittlething #flashesofdelight #nothingisordinary #shopsmall #artforsale #forsalebyartist (at Brooklyn, New York)

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Excited to share lots of my new work on Instagram! Come follow me at @LoveYAAHMore.

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How can something this beautiful make you feel so happy and yet so sad? (at Mendehall Glacier)

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Corn muffins, fried chicken, Cajun baked chicken, fried pork chops, biscuits 'n gravy, peach preserves, green beans, stuffing, corn pudding, mashed potatoes, caramel bread pudding, new friends, old stories, all shared across a long family table....this is what the best travel meals are made of. • • thanks, Nashville. • • (at Monell's Dining & Catering)

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MOMMAsoHAPPY. 🍜 (at Star Noodle)

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Sunday morning cakes. BYOSnow.