yourmockingbird

[yourmockingbird]

thank you, tyler jospeh & josh dun

[yourmockingbird]

good bye.

[yourmockingbird]

the vanishing (1988)

[yourmockingbird]

the tragedy of life is that sometimes bad things happen and there isn't anything you can do to reverse them

you just have to find comfort in existing, even if it's in a damaged world.

i'm sorry.

[yourmockingbird]

i have the mentality of superman

[yourmockingbird]

this letter is for the eyes of whoever comes across it:

i have a decent life. i have a roof over my head, a family that loves & supports me, friends who look out for me, a job that allows me to save, hobbies i'm free to explore. i have my freedom.

when i'm actively doing these things, when i'm with my family or friends or working on a passion project of mine or indulging in things that bring me joy, i am otherwise O.K.. i mean, i may not be the happiest person in the world, and in most cases, there is a level of sadness behind my smile, but i survive.

however,

every second i have to myself is filled with dissatisfaction. the moment i'm by myself, i'm reminded of how unhappy i am. unhappy in my own skin, my head, my life. this feeling is something i'm unable to escape or put to rest. it's something i fear i'll suffer from for the rest of my life, no matter how this all turns out.

i'm never quite able to be here. there's a part of me that resides elsewhere at all times. where i do not know. i do know that as a result of being there comes a level of pain from being here. it does hurt being on my own. i don't like the feeling i get when i think to myself.

no matter whom i'm with, where i am, what i'm doing, i'm sad. it's a different kind of sadness. the best way i could describe it is the feeling of your body shutting down completely. falling down and not getting back up. the edge of failure.

i wish i could be optimistic more often. it's a fleeting feeling for me, and it kills me that it is. i wish i could be different. i know i can, but i think i won't.

i don't know.

[yourmockingbird]

my eyes have always followed you around the room.. .

[yourmockingbird]

i want to explore the world & meet all kinds of beautiful human beings

and those i encounter who express negativity, i want to sit down with them and listen

we all need to listen more !

[yourmockingbird]

can you see me ?

[yourmockingbird]

i need you to call me when you see this. you know who this is.

ok

[yourmockingbird]

i love pi'erre

[yourmockingbird]

i am here, and one day, i will not be.

this message will be lost to time, the same as i.

whoever reads this, i love and thank you.

do not keep yourself from contentment.

please, let it all work out in the end.

[yourmockingbird]

love yourself, and let everything else follow

[yourmockingbird]

the comfort from knowing

[yourmockingbird]

interesting.

[yourmockingbird]

Stay alive.

i'm trying.

you try as well, make sure you have someone to say that to you.

[yourmockingbird]

play someone out of town at my funeral, please