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Okay, y’all, I have to finish my thesis this year, ideally before July, or at least by the end of September, so I’d like to try an accountability exercise. This is my 1 / ? days of productive work (as opposed to depressive dwelling in bed). I'll update this counter daily, striving to maintain a streak. Please feel free to anonymously (or not!) reprimand me if you notice that I’m blogging excessively instead of focusing on my work. [x]

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what resembles the grave but isn’t, anne boyer // i didn’t apologize to the well, mahmoud darwish (trans. fady joudah).

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Solar Eclipse Diamond Ring 2024 © Michael Cain

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Killing must feel good to God too, he does it all the time, and are we not made in his image?

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PSYCH WARD VETERAN

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Flintlock blunderbuss with silver decorated barrel, North Africa, mid 19th century

from Czerny's International Auction House

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hm. i think every time i feel an impulse to people please, to be unproblematic and likable and charming and feel the safety that comes with universal adoration, i need to remind myself that i want to be loved like a person, not like a dog.

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cemeteries aren't creepy they're actually devoted to memory and rest and love and humanity

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the weird thing about growing apart from friends is that you can never fully be rid of them. i don’t think once about the girl i promised to never lose contact with for weeks at a time but whenever i see a certain book series i’ll think about how much she loved it. i haven’t talked to my old friends from camp in months but i’ll never not like their pictures when they come up on my feed, and i’ll never not like the friends themselves either. and it stings a bit when a boy i used to talk to for hours doesn’t say hi to me when i see him in the cafeteria but whenever i see a supermarket cake i’ll remember the time in middle school when i brought one to school for his birthday and he ate three slices and told me it was the best cake he’d ever had. you can pull away from friends but never fully break apart. the process of growing apart has a beginning but never an end

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from Andy Goldsworthy’s Rain Shadow series.

“they show the human presence without the intrusion of a personality”

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Albert Camus, from The Myth of Sisyphus

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being a person is so weird bc i’ll be like “i wish my brain was kinder to me esp when i’m already having a hard time,” and then i remember that i’m my brain and i have to be kinder to me and that nobody else will do it for me

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It's okay if it takes a little longer than you thought.

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For anyone who’s wondering. This is a sculpture from Luo Li Rong, a contemporary artist that makes hyper realistic sculptures (usually out of bronze) . This one is made of clay (not marble) because it was the prototype of the actual sculpture.