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hate that we're just fully back in the thinness economy in full force . just like, a picture of a painting, a video about some company crochet pattern, a blog about video games and for some reason they all feature twenty-something year old women in body check poses in the thumbnails . alexa insert that photo of a white man in a t shirt smoking a cigarette and sighing

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congratulations to anyone who feels like having adhd is a superpower but personally I find it miserable and debilitating, it degrades every aspect of my life, and if I relax for 0.5 seconds it will ruin me financially and destroy my work and relationships

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I wish things would stop happening !!!!!!! why is there water coming through my ceiling!!!!!!!!!!

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if you dont mind sharing, whats your phd about?

going to keep it vague to avoid doxxing myself but high level it's on institutions in the roman republic and empire, so like from the 400s bce to 212 ce

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‘dawn’ by richard siken

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Mosab Abu Toha, from Forest of Noise: Poems; "No Art"

[Text ID: "You know everything will come to an end: / the sugar, the tea, the dried sage, the water. / Even your shadow will abandon you / when there is no light."]

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monmon2133

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My poem, "Having a Gay Awakening at the Elm Grove Public Pool," published today in ONE ART [text below]

Having a Gay Awakening at the Elm Grove Public Pool

They carried their bodies like they had none, the men I watched at the public pool when no one was watching me—

Not even God, whose body I imagined while sitting erect in the crooked church pews as gleaming, hefty, cloudy, wide.

My church: a pool of shirtless men.

What stirred under the water I couldn’t name, wouldn’t tame.

O had I known the animal want I wanted to name and tame me.

Thank God I slept with God. Thank God He ghosted me. Thank chlorine water and summer heat and the blood flower blooming wild, yes, this beating want,

those bodies disastered into doorways, the body made enjambment, this Godhood I found

when I was too sacred and too scared to be both prey and prayer,

hands cupped on holy bushfire.

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soooo excited to date after I've finished the PhD so that I can stop pretending to entertain the batshit historical theories of random men

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in a surprising turn of events I actually do like man of the year but the fact that lorde thinks it's the best song she's ever written is . umm. hm.

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something I can't get over over when I'm teaching is like . the profound lack of curiosity like. don't you want to know anything

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can't complain about this anywhere else but had the worst night sleep of my life last night, it was me on an exercise mat on a layer of sofa cushion backs on the floor of a friend of a friend's conservatory . the dust . the smell . I took a melatonin tablet and it did nothing . I slept for maybe 30 minutes in 6 hours . I was freezing cold . I slept so badly that the trauma of it has followed me home and I'm legitimately getting flashbacks as I try and sleep in my own bed . horrific

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hate when people use modern sex words in my sci fi erotica like . please . sir. my suspension of disbelief

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following in the footsteps of many great writers and scholars before me by being miserable on the east coast

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challengers (2024) is about the importance of unionising even when your boss is a woman

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julien baker lucy dacus relationship reveal was not on my 2025 bingo card

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a symptom of my particular damage but I always find romances where someone falls in love with someone they swore not to slightly off-putting because I personally am stubborn and self righteous enough to maintain such a stance even to my serious detriment and in fact part of me believes this is the most honourable and ethical thing to do