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So, it's been more than a year since the first visit, and what I thought was to be a two-time visit, was actually four times.

I've barely survived 😩

However, the dental splint I was getting is supposed to be replaced once a year and I've once again visited the same doctor this summer.

Since I am still so damn touched starved, I've been thinking about this years visit for the past couple of days, so, for my own peace of mind, I have a need to write down what has happened 😩😩

Again, it was a three or four times that I've been to the doctor this year, I don't exactly remember what happened on which occasion, so I'm just gonna list the highlights 😶‍🌫️

- on the first visit, I was expecting her to lean onto me™, since she's done it last year, but this time, while I was sitting/laying on the chair, she stood next to me, reached for something across and pressed the front part of her pelvis onto my thigh 🫠🫠 her torso so so close to mine...

If I haven't melted into that chair it that moment, I don't think I ever will

- she used all the pets names on me, I kinda felt like she was addressing me as a child, which was so far stretched from my thoughts 😅 and so weird, since we're basically the same age... Then, on one occasion she called me "my love", as you would call your child, your spouse, lover or some you love, but she swallowed the last syllable, I guess she didn't mean to say it, and it was kinda awkward

- she took a napkin and cleaned my mouth 🤣🤣

- while she was taking the imprint for the splint, she told me "you relax, I will push" (which sounded very very sexual in our native language 🫠😩). She made me feel as if I was a child with all the pet names and yet a grown woman at the same time with that comment, it was so strange

- all the time she switched from formal and informal form of "you" (again, our language)

- while she was explaining something to me, she stood and pressed her hip into my thigh. That lasted maybe less that minute, but it was so domestic, like a such an everyday, mundane thing to do... I usually don't like being touched by strangers, but this felt so natural, as if she's been touching me for years 😶😶

- once, her nurse was on the vacation or something, so we were alone for 45 minutes, she was doing her thing, her back turned to me and I just kept staring into her hair, back and ass 🫣🫣

We didn't speak for the most part, nor I felt the need to fill the silence since it wasn't awkward

- she stood with her breast 10 centimeters away from my face while her fingers were in my mouth, I've had the most impure thoughts known to human kind in that moment

- I've accidentally bit her finger 🫠😶‍🌫️ , she nearly left a small scream, and by reflex, I reached for her hand apologizing, she looked at my hand, which was trying to take hers and then she looked me straight into my eyes 🫥

- I had allergies and my eyes were watering, she carefully asked me what has happened, while she was standing next to her table. I explained the allergy, she came to the chair and looked me so deeply into my eyes, I don't remember the last time I felt so vulnerable 🫣

- because of the allergies, my nose started running, I told her I need to take a tissue, but she insisted on giving me one, she went to the other side of the office, came back to me and handed me the tissue, the way she stretched her arm and the way I told her "thank you" once again felt so domestic and normal...

Jesus christ, I only now see how many thought I've put into this whole interaction 😳

Either way, fun fun experience 😩😩

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I am so touch starved.

Today I was at the dentist (some kind of specialist and I will see her only twice). The doctor seemed to be a few years older than me, very pretty, not tipically my type, but...

While she was examining my teeth, she leaned into me, the side of her thigh was touching mine, all while her fingers were in my mouth.

She had the most gentle touch. Then she touched the sides of my face, while making me open and close my mouth.

I must have looked scared or confused, coz after she was done, she put her hand on mine, but all I could thing about, was the touch of her thigh on mine, her lean finger in my mouth, almost pressing on my tongue.

I am so touch starved, that even the briefest contact with the women's body made my brain melt. Her touch has been on my mind constantly since it happened 5 hours ago...

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what do u mean i don’t have a social life I just went grocery shopping with my mom

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shout out to phones for pausing music when u unplug headphones bc im really not out here to blast waterloo by abba to a train full of people

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Blue nights 💕

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listen man, *pulls heart shaped lollipop out of my mouth with a pop noise and points it at you* im gay and not in the mood  

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