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also hey can we talk about violent psychosis for a sec. cause i really appreciate all the talk surrounding psychosis positivity and stuff but a lot of it is "we're not all violent! sometimes hallucinations can be positive!" like sorry mine are not. im scary psychotic.

im "cant have anything that even remotely could be used as a weapon in the house" psychotic. im "if i miss my meds one day i have to go to the hospital for homicidal and suicidal thoughts that literally aren't my own thoughts but theyre controlling my actions" psychotic. im "im seeing horrors you cant even imagine to the point where i dont exist in the same world as you anymore" psychotic.

im not going to hurt you, i just need help. when im rocking in the corner talking to myself at 3am, remember that i am in a state of terror. im afraid for my life. i either genuinely believe everything is trying to kill me, and i only know one way to deal with it; or something is telling me to be violent or else it will kill me; or i have dissociated so hard that i autopilot myself to violence to try and wake myself up.

some of us are violent, and that's okay, because it has to be, because it's the truth. just get us help.

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I've added a lot more the past few days!

You can view all the presentations for my neurodiversity 101 series here. You are welcome to share them! Please let me know if you have any trouble accessing the folder or slides or if you would like to see a certain presentation! Feedback is welcome as well!

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“You shouldn’t self-ID as ADHD/autistic, you’re turning a very real mental condition into a trend” Ok then stop saying delulu. Stop speculating on which cluster C personality disorder the criminals you hear about on the news have. Stop saying “schizoposting” and “acoustic” and “is it restarted?” Stop using “psycopath” and “sociopath” as catch-all ways of calling someone a bad person. Stop saying “the intrusive thoughts won” when you bleach your hair and then turn your nose up at people who suffer from very real, very scary urges of physical/sexual violence. Stop saying “I’m so OCD” as a way of calling yourself neat. Stop treating BPD/ASPD/Bipolar as inherently abusive. Stop saying “OP I am living in your walls” without tagging for unreality. Stop diagnosing complete strangers you’ve never met on r/AITA with NPD.

You first. If you don’t want our disabilities to be treated like trends then stop belittling and minimising them. I’ll NEVER judge a person for trying find labels for their symptoms when an apathetic, racist, sexist, ableist healthcare system refuses to. But I will absolutely judge a hypocrite. Which a lot of you are

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Sooo sick of meeting autistic and adhd people who were diagnosed at a young age but know absolutely nothing about their own condition because their parents and doctors decided that instead of teaching them the different ways their brains work, they would just shame and correct them for the behavior and slap the diagnosis label on as the name for what needs to be Corrected. I met a whole college adult recently who said that he thought he was having dementia because he would forget things randomly all the time. He was diagnosed with adhd as a child. I had to be the one to tell him that's literally one of the most common symptoms. From the rest of the conversation I'm pretty sure he was told nothing about what he might experience mentally, only why he was too hard for other people to handle. It's so gross to me and I'm just collecting beef with a bunch of random people's parents. As a demographic we have been so neglected and it kills me.

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there was a tiktok I made a while ago basically saying "your abusive ex boyfriend is more likely a misogynist than a narcissist" and while most people agreed some said I was victim blaming(?) and that I couldn't know what their ex is like, and while obviously I don't, every fucking person describing their narcissistic ex is describing a typical misogynist. ask yourself, is this behavior you associate with narcissism directed at women or does he treat his male friends the same way? is his general functioning in life impaired?

many people don't seem to know this, but a mental disorder is NOT based on symptoms alone, it's based on how much the symptoms actually impair you in daily life. most people could look at a list of mental disorder symptoms and identify either themselves or someone else with them. as far as a narcissistic personality, we all know people who appear more self absorbed than others, but this is typically subclinical narcissism (presence of narcissistic traits without significant impairment of functioning) which is not a disorder. there is also a misunderstanding of what npd is. a narcissist is not a supervillain invincible to emotion. npd is a defensive reaction to trauma that lead to deep insecurity and fear of being seen as weak or vulnerable. so narcissists aren't actually "in love with themselves" at all and often are diagnosed when seeking help for other issues such as substance abuse resulting from their struggles.

this focus a lot of abused women in online pop psychology have on narcissism is particularly concerning because it completely glosses over misogyny which is literally a huge factor in violence against women. people really only know misogyny as a surface level thing. they don't know it can lead to family annihilation, for example, and is one reason most family annihilations are committed by the husband. it's always "this man is a sociopath" "this man is a narcissist" when the man's behavior is driven by ideology. I am so fucking tired of everything being tied to mental illness and left at that. you know what this leads to? courts "fixing" abusive men by...giving them anger management therapy. guess what? it doesn't fucking do anything because the problem isn't mental instability leading to anger, it's targeted, purposeful abuse. we are getting nowhere

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"I love freaks and weirdos and strange people and people who don't conform and behave oddly because they can't mask all their symptoms and-" you guys genuinely can't even handle it when an anxious person uses a script in a conversation

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You can view all the presentations for my neurodiversity 101 series here. You are welcome to share them! Please let me know if you have any trouble accessing the folder or slides or if you would like to see a certain presentation! Feedback is welcome as well!

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Another one for this series! OCD this time.

[Image description: a series of slides about OCD.

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OCD 101

from somebody who actually has it [smiley face]

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Definition

- Obsessive compulsive disorder is what it sounds like: a disorder characterized by obsessions and compulsions. These obsessions and compulsions are excessive and interfere with a person’s day to day life and/or cause immense distress.

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Obsessions

- Obsessions are unwanted, recurring thoughts, urges, or images. They may cause feelings such as fear, anger, or guilt.

- Obsessions can involve anything. Some common ones involve contamination, symmetry, harm coming to oneself or others, and immoral sexual acts.

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Compulsions

- Compulsions are repetitive actions that one feels driven to perform. They may be mental actions as well. For some, compulsions can be stressful to perform. Compulsions typically provide temporary relief from obsessions.

- Compulsions may or may not be realistically connected to a person's obsessions. Like obsessions, compulsions can involve anything. Some examples include repeating certain phrases in one's head, washing hands, checking things like locks or the stove, and asking for reassurance.

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Types

- OCD obsessions and compulsions can be about anything. Having more than one type is not uncommon. Some examples of common types follow.

- Harm: A person with harm OCD may obsess over hurting themselves or others. They may avoid anything that could cause harm and repeatedly check that no one has been hurt.

- Pedophilia: A person with pedophilia OCD may have unwanted sexual thoughts about children and fear that they have sexually touched a child. They may avoid being around children and mentally or physically punish themselves.

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Types (Cont.)

- Relationship: A person with relationship OCD may fear that they are not with the right person or that their partner may leave them. They may ruminate, look online to see if they should be with their partner, or ask their partner for reassurance.

- Contamination: A person with contamination OCD may obsess over germs and contamination. They may fear getting or spreading illness. They may wash their hands, shower, and clean items.

- “Just Right”: A person with “just right” OCD may need things to feel or look a certain way. They may rearrange things and do things until they feel “right.”

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Pure OCD

- Purely obsessional OCD, also called Pure O, is characterized by obsessions that occur without observable compulsions. There are compulsions, though, which may involve asking for reassurance, avoiding things or situations, and repeatedly going over memories to determine that nothing bad happened.

- There is controversy surrounding this subtype because of its nature of not involving compulsions that can be seen.

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Treatment

- The most common therapy for OCD is exposure and response prevention, a type of cognitive behavioral therapy. This therapy involves gradual exposure to one’s obsession while avoiding compulsions.

- Medications such as antidepressants may be used in addition to therapy.

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[Image description: a series of slides about bipolar disorder.

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Bipolar 101

from somebody who actually has it [smiley face]

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Mania

- Symptoms include elevated mood, rapid speech, increased energy and motivation, feelings of self-importance, distractibility, irritation, decreased need for sleep, engagement in risky behavior

- May involve psychosis (a break from reality, includes things like believing things that aren't true or seeing things that aren't there)

- May involve hospitalization

- Lasts a week or more (or any duration if hospitalization occurs)

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Hypomania

- Same symptoms as mania but less severe

- Can be bothersome but not debilitating like mania

- Does not involve psychosis

- Lasts four days or more

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Depression

- Symptoms include feelings of sadness or hopelessness, lack of energy, difficulty concentrating or remembering things, loss of interest, feelings of emptiness or worthlessness, feelings of guilt, self-doubt, over or under eating, sleeping too much or too little, suicidal thoughts

- May involve psychosis (though typically doesn't)

- Lasts two weeks or more

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Other definitions

- Mixed episodes: mania/hypomania and depression symptoms occur at the same time or in quick succession without time in-between

- Euthymia: normal mental state experienced between episodes

- Rapid cycling: four or more episodes of mania, hypomania, or depression are experienced in a year

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Bipolar I

- Mania with or without depression

- Can include hypomania

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Bipolar II

- Hypomania, no manic episodes

- Depression

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Cyclothymia

- Hypomania and milder depression

- Periods of euthymia are shorter; cycling is more frequent

- Symptoms must have been experienced for two years in adults and one in children in order to be diagnosed

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Treatment

- Common medications include mood stabilizers like lithium, anticonvulsants, and antipsychotics

- Antidepressants may be prescribed, but their use is controversial due to the possibility of triggering manic/hypomanic episodes

- The most common therapy is cognitive behavioral therapy, though others may be used

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Updated version of my Bipolar 101 slideshow

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thinking about how i was telling an old therapist my hands would bleed from washing them so much and she looked me in the eyes and told me she wasn't going to diagnose me with ocd because it wasn't bad enough

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took all i had not to tell my boyfriend's mom that my psychiatrist changed my medications

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when i'm hypomanic i sometimes get so bored that i am genuinely mad and in pain, and i was telling my boyfriend who has adhd about it and he says he feels that way too sometimes

thinking about the similarities between adhd and mania

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thinking about the similarities between adhd and mania

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I FINALLY GOT DIAGNOSED WITH OCD LET'S FUCKING GO

[plain text: i finally got diagnosed with ocd let's fucking go]

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Love how ADHD, autism and schizophrenia objectively have the same amount of traits and experiences in common, but schizophrenics aren't welcome in the metaphorical club house because they're bad for the image the neurodivergency movement is currently trying to capitalize on and with "love" I mean fuck y'all