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It irks me when little girls read Lolita by Nabokov or watch the movie and think ‘omg I want that’ like okay, you can have the modern version of that right here right now on your fucking phone. It’s not gonna be some Lana del ray shit. You’re gonna have people telling you to put toothpaste in your cooch and to cut yourself on your tits, and if you block them they’ll just message you on another account telling you to tell them to kill themself. It’s not cute, it’s traumatizing. Even if you seek it out purposely. Go touch some fucking grass. Quit romanticizing this shit.

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Intro

My names Oliver, I’m young, if ur a mdni block me.

I’ve been on ed and sh tmblr on and off for three years.

Sw: 159ibs (72 kg)

Cw: 153ibs (69 kg)

Gw: 120ibs (54 kg)

Gw: 100ibs (45 kg)

Ugw: 90ibs (40 kg)

I’m 5’7 (170 cm)

I’m a tranny, ftm, you can call me anything other than she/her.

If ur a fatph0be or pro4n4 I’d prefer you don’t interact with me but whatever your internet people you don’t give a fuck.

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I wish my body felt thin, I remember months ago when I was small, it was so nice. I stare at old pictures of myself from September and I look so good. I can’t wait to get even smaller than that. Right now I feel big and it’s making my sensory issues worse.

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“As they reach their teen or adult years, survivors often try to de-sexualize themselves. They may work to make themselves very fat or very thin in an attempt to render themselves unattractive. They hope their armor of fat or thinness will protect them from sexual advances or even to wipe out their own sexual feelings which feel too threatening to deal with. Survivors may not be fully aware of how they manipulate their food or bodies to make themselves feel safer. Much of this behavior occurs unconsciously, behind the scenes, until therapy or a self-help program increases the person’s awareness. And, of course, attempting to manipulate your body shape is a pseudo-solution to inner problems.”

MLA: Mary Anne Cohen, LCSW. “Sexual Abuse and Eating Disorders: What’s the Connection?” Psych Central, Psych Central, 25 June 2020, psychcentral.com/blog/sexual-abuse-and-eating-disorders-whats-the-connection#1.

Hope this helps

@loser-loses @angelic-dismay

Did you guys know that sometimes subconsciously after experiencing sexual abuse the brain will basically get you to eat less or more in the hopes that your body will become unattractive to your abuser?

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I hate being a sexual little fucking wh0re. Aren’t I too young for this?

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Need

|| TW || thinspø, cigarettes 🚬

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Did you guys know that sometimes subconsciously after experiencing sexual abuse the brain will basically get you to eat less or more in the hopes that your body will become unattractive to your abuser?

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^^TW 3@ting d1$0rd3r^^

I don’t need to 3@t.

I’m an angel. Angels don’t 3@t. And if I do eat, it’s just to appease the people around me. I don’t need f00d, nor do I like it. It’s just something in my mouth. F00d isn’t something I care about.

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Fuck getting better I never feel good for more then three months or less I’m back bitches I feel like shit. My bmi says I’m overw3ight I’m going to k1ll my self. Time to stop 3ating.

BMI 24.0

I’m gonna try to go from 160 ibs to 120 ibs

Might go back to cvtting but who knows.

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Contemplating r3lap$ing or not. Do I wanna suffer with or without bl00d?

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I hate how fucked up I am from being sexually abused by my brother. Like now I have a fucking ag3 d1ff3renc3 k1nk and inc3st k1nk no matter how much I don’t wanna have it. Fuck my life. It’s like my brain is now wired to only derive pleasure from the things that hurt me.

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Attempting to sleep deprive myself so I stop feeling

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I wonder if I’ll ever be free of this all

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I used to be wr1st-cvtter or smth like that but I got t-d :/