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Actually, I'm my own Verosika and it's fucking beautiful, isn't it ? Well, thanks me 🫶

I need a Verosika in my life.

She's so supportive, and funny, and fucking fabulous! ✨

God/universe/santa/whatever, plzzz send me a Verosika to be my BFF 🥹🙏

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... without words... 🌸✨

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HOW. FUCKING. ADORABLE.

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"I'm too much imp to simp"

Yeah yeah, sure, my chaotic reptilian friend but.. what's this then?

You're fucked as hell, baby. Accept the truth.

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THE MASTER OF MY FATE

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Sometimes I forget this.

Well, here’s a little reminder for all of us. Because, you know what?

We’re the fucking masters of our fate. You can do anything, darling 🫶

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Why is the fandom so obsessed with male pregnancy? Like, why the fuck are there so many fanarts of Stolas, Fizzarolli, Angel Dust, and Lucifer (and even Yogirt now, you weirdos) being pregnant? What’s with that weird obsession?

And while we’re at it, why are gay bottom men characters always so overly feminized, referred to with feminine terms, or even completely represented as women in fanart? Like, being a gay bottom man and being a woman are not the same thing, you know? Honestly, that’s pretty homophobic and misogynistic, just saying.

Anyways, you do realize that being penetrated doesn’t automatically give you the ability to get pregnant, right?

And if these characters were trans, we would’ve known way earlier, and I’d be so happy to have more trans representation, but that’s not the case here. If the whole marriage/baby thing is so important to you, your fave gay characters have other options, like finding an abandoned baby, adopting, surrogacy, or whatever. Pregnancy is physically impossible for them, actually.

If it were that simple and non-linear, Stolas wouldn’t have been forced to have sex with Stella.

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Stolas made a lot of mistakes, ofc. Who doesn’t? Especially when your whole life has been nothing but isolation, pain, and keeping up appearances. But beyond his mistakes, he loves so deeply and tries so hard.

Personally, my parents never loved me. In fact, they just can't love at all. I was just a little toy and a sort of punching bag to those pieces of shit. Anyway.

When I see Stolas with Via, it really hits me. I understand Via's pain so much, that's not the point. It's just so hard to watch.

That sincere and deep love is so beautiful. And right now, it's just a stupid chaos of misunderstandings and ofc, it fucking hurts.

Obviously, they're going to reconcile, but for now, it’s just terribly sad for both of them.

But to me, it’s also the beginning of honest communication, and that’s important and beautiful too. Breaking to rebuild is painful and terrifying, but sometimes it's necessary.

Just saying, if you're picking sides between Stolas and Via, you clearly missed the point of the show (and of human relationships). Same goes for Stolitz, ofc. Sorry not sorry.

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I need a Verosika in my life.

She's so supportive, and funny, and fucking fabulous! ✨

God/universe/santa/whatever, plzzz send me a Verosika to be my BFF 🥹🙏

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I love Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss SO MUCH, but please, stop acting like Vivienne Medrano is a god. She’s not perfect, and personally, I’m fine with that. But pretending her flaws don’t exist and throwing a fit the second someone criticizes her work? That’s just weird.

She’s really good with at trauma stuff and dysfunctional relationships, but she clearly has an issue with writing female characters (and don’t even get me started on the ONLY lesbian couple), internalized fatphobia, and honey.. what’s this obsession with gay men?

It’s great to love an artist and their work, but you can still recognize its flaws while loving it just as much. In fact, that’s actually pretty healthy.

Overcriticizing sucks, but putting someone on a pedestal and freaking out when anyone points out a flaw isn’t any better.

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When Adam died, I was like 'Fuck yeah! FINALLY, he'll shut the fuck up!' but in the second season, I'm pretty sure he'll come back as a Sinner.

Sir Pentious died again and climbed to Heaven, so Adam dying again and ending up in Hell makes sense to me.

But that means we'll see (and hear) this fucking crybaby AGAIN. Well, I suppose he'll be miserable, so that’s some consolation.

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I'm not bad at analyzing human behavior (especially traumatic behaviors), and I looove decrypting human emotions. But honestly, Alastor is still a big, creepy mystery to me.

What destabilizes me is, ultimately, the concept of this character itself. I can't understand his intentions, and I HATE THIS!

I tolerate him because I hope he loves Charlie (not romantically, of course) and that he truly wants to help her. I hope for some kind of redemption for him.

There are so many things we don't know, obviously (like his original intentions), but I hope he truly cares for Charlie now (and maybe even for the whole team, why not?). But in the end, I just don’t know. I don’t understand this fucking weirdo.

That's why I really appreciate the moment at the end of the season, when he is destabilized and, FINALLY, lets a fucking real emotion appear.

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Weeell, on a lighter note than usual, I saw someone point out that Mr I-only-eat-fancy-food mostly survives on alcohol and cereal, and now I can't think about anything else. You can't fool us Stolas, we know the truth lol.

P.s: If I said 'on a lighter note' it's because it wasn't serious, I wasn't making a deep analysis here. Can I take a break sometimes?

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Edit: It doesn’t seem clear, so I’m talking specifically about the moment right before the song starts, when the chandelier falls, and also at the start of the song. Ofc, he's deeply concerned for Charlie's safety, but that's not the point here.

I have so much compassion for Lucifer, I've been through a fucking long and violent depression and I feel it.

I've watched Hazbin Hotel over and over again but I couldn't understand why he wanted Charlie to fail so much.

I just figured it out (yeah, I was a bit slow on this one). Actually, I think he wanted to be useful, he wanted Charlie to need him. He seems to think he doesn't deserve to be in Charlie's life, so making himself useful (even indispensable) is his way of deserving to be in her life, I guess.

It's a really dysfunctional behavior, obviously, hoping your kid fails so you can be needed and deserve to stay in their life. Instead of wanting to see his daughter rise, he wants to bring her down to his level. Yeah, that's really messed up, but honestly, I understand the point. It's so fucking dysfunctional, but he doesn't do too bad for someone who's so traumatized and stuck in a deep depression.

As for Alastor, I still don't totally get it. He definitely feels threatened, but the reason why isn't quite clear to me. But I hope we'll understand better in the second season.

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TW - violence, abuse, and trauma ⚠️

In episode 4 of Hazbin Hotel, the studio violence scene is obviously hard to watch, but for me, the hardest part comes just before that.

When Charlie accidentally sets the studio on fire, Angel freezes, not because of the flames, but because he knows exactly what's coming next. Then Valentino switches to that sickly sweet voice, and all Angel can hear is the subtext: Come. I'm going to hit you where no one can see.

Having to follow my abuser, knowing exactly what's waiting for me, is one of the worst things I've ever been through. Beyond the physical violence, it's an act of pure domination. You're there, dying inside, following your abuser without a word. You hate yourself for it, but if you want to survive, you have no choice and you know it.

We can see it later in Poison, especially when Angel says: What's the worst part of this hell? I can only blame myself.

Yes, he signed the contract, but that's definitely not the only reason he blames himself.

Valentino's sickly sweet voice, I know it so well. It's all our abusers' voices. It's my mother's voice when she used to tell me: We'll talk about it at home with that look that made my blood run cold.

Even today, I can still hear that terrified child’s voice in my head, repeating over and over: It's just a bad moment to endure, it's just a bad moment to endure, it's just a bad moment to endure.

Lucifer or Satan are not the devil, the real devil is all the Valentinos that exist, have existed and will exist.

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I’m rewatching Apology tour. I love Blitzø so much and honestly, I know why he acts this way. I can see these patterns in his head. But sometimes (often), he’s the worst stupid fucking idiot in all the fucking universes! Thank god Sinsmas exists, because I just want to kill this fucking dumbass right now!

Anyway, do you see the pictures? It’s my face when I see people write "Blitzo" instead of "Blitzø" or "Blitz" (I see you, and I'm mad at you) 😤