iii-han-nah-bae-iii

[iii-han-nah-bae-iii]

Would you love me like a child loves their mother? Like a mother loves their child? Would you love me like a boy? Would you love me as a girl?

I just want to be a child again.

- HB

[iii-han-nah-bae-iii]

I like it when you speak. I like it when you don't speak. I like it when you nibble my skin. I like it when you need me. I like washing behind your ears, and seeing you all bare and desperate.

I miss you like a dog.

I miss you, my darling.

- HB

[iii-han-nah-bae-iii]

I want to kiss your fingertips and let my tears run down the valleys of your knuckles. Let me bite down gently on your shoulder as you inhale my unwashed hair.

Only you can heal me.

- HB

[iii-han-nah-bae-iii]

It's February, and you're on my mind. I hoped to see you in my future, and now it's the future again.

Where are you, my love?

- HB

[iii-han-nah-bae-iii]

I trust your hands, though many have hurt me.

You caress where others have clawed and stroke where they have stabbed.

And you admire the places where electricity still crackles and crawls; where blood simmers and hair prickles your fingertips.

Where time is still needed, and touch is still tainted.

You wait patiently, hoping to touch me again.

- HB

[iii-han-nah-bae-iii]

The father of my children. The bearer of my dreams.

-HB

[iii-han-nah-bae-iii]

I dreamt of you last night. You were sitting at a peeling picnic table packed with all of your friends.

Your grateful smile. The smooth curve of your head. The twinkle in your eye.

I kissed your temples and took your hand.

Your smooth steps, aligned knees. The straight line of your collarbone. 

I dreamt that you came back. A different person. A better person. Loving and caring, with your memory intact.

I dreamt that you were ok. That you were safe. As if it never rained; As if the accident never happened.

- HB

[iii-han-nah-bae-iii]

ਮੈਮ ਤੁਹਾਨੁ ਪਿਆਰ ਕਰਦੀ ਹੈ।. 사랑해. أحبك. አፈቅርሃለሁ.Ես սիրում եմ քեզ.মই আপোনাক ভাল পাওঁ. 我愛你。. আমি তোমাকে ভালোবাসি. я цябе кахаю. איך האב דיר ליב. हम तोहसे प्यार करेलीं. Обичам те. မင်းကိုချစ်တယ်။. تۆم خۆش دەوێت. 我爱你。އަހަރެން ތިބާ ދެކެ ލޯބިވަން. में तुगी हिरख करना. ខ្ញុំ​ស្រលាញ់​អ្នក. Сени сүйөм. я тебе люблю. მიყვარხარ.Σ'αγαπώ. હું તને પ્રેમ કરું છુ. אני אוהב אותך. تۆم خۆش دەوێت. I love you.

- HB

[iii-han-nah-bae-iii]

I want to be loved by you,

To be held by you,

To be read by you,

Be understood by you,

And believed.

I want to be kissed by you.

I want to be respected by you and adored by you.

Because I can't see myself giving them to me yet. Yet I want them so badly.

- HB

[iii-han-nah-bae-iii]

I wish I could stop searching for you in the eyes of strangers.

- HB

[iii-han-nah-bae-iii]

My dear, I would show you off in a ballroom full of strangers and kiss you in a kingdom full of the ones we've known forever.

I will not be ashamed of human thoughts and a human heart

- HB

[iii-han-nah-bae-iii]

I want to go to the end with you, my love.

I will love you through joy, and through pain.

I will love you through health, and through sickness,

Through success and failure,

Through laughter and tears,

And through life and death.

I will love you until the very very end.

-HB

[iii-han-nah-bae-iii]

You are my sun that sets each day. You are breath. You are time. You are my favorite song.

And you are always here.

When I'm barely holding on and when I'm soaring. You hold my hand either way.

I’m grateful you are here. And I'm grateful that you never left, and that you’re here to stay.

- HB

[iii-han-nah-bae-iii]

The girls say I should get over you. Maybe when my mind is well and the sickness is gone, you will go with it.

- HB

[iii-han-nah-bae-iii]

I know you would see me the same. Through the storm. After the storm. In my fears. In my sweat. In my skin and nothing else. I know you would. No weather could change it. My failures. My pain. My falls. My shame. My tantrums. My tremors. They could never sway you or your loving arms as they hold me.

- HB

[iii-han-nah-bae-iii]

I hope you infiltrate reality like you do my mind.

- HB

[iii-han-nah-bae-iii]

You gave me what I was searching for once.

I found it in you and I will keep searching for someone who sees it in me too.

I look for you in everyone.

I will try to find you

And hopefully someday I will.

- HB