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Repost if you’re an 18+ Ed blog

I know there’s more of us out there

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Ohh😮‍💨To have those skinny legs…

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Summer thnpso to make me stop eating like a f@t b!tch 😅🥰

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You need to stop eating.

You need to ⭐️ve.

You need to stop thinking about food.

You need to stop rewarding yourself with food.

You need to fit back into those shorts.

You need to be skinny.

You need to feel empty.

You need to control yourself.

You need to get a grip.

You need to discipline yourself.

You need to stop changing your mind.

You need to keep going.

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I know I’ll only be happy when I’ve lost the weight. My body has changed so much since I’ve turned 20 I swear I see it in my face the most. I just don’t look the same and idk what it is exactly maybe my face is fatter.

I cannot think properly. I hate how confusing this disorder is, I can’t decide whether to eat or not. I keep going back and forth over and over again and I can’t make any decisions about food and it’s getting so stressful because I know these thoughts aren’t mine. I feel like there’s a parasite inside me that’s making me crave all this shit food. I feel like I can’t make up my fuck1ng mind and I’m so sick and tired of going round and round in the same circles constantly.

It’s not about willpower at this point. I’ve proven to myself so many times that I can go without. But there’s this thing that happens inside my head and it’s like I lose all sense of my morals and my whole way of thinking changes to the point where I want to recover and just eat everything I can see. But I know that’s not recovering. Binging is just as bad as starving. I feel so sick and my thoughts are so jumbled and broken and I feel I’m not in control of my actions at this moment.

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Looking for an ana buddy, 18+. We can fast together and hold each other accountable. Motivate each other. Compare calories. Rant and shit.

Dm if interested I’m really serious about ana this time (lol that’s what I always say).

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You're gonna give up you're dream body for 15 minutes of pleasure? Is It really worth it?? Ofc its not.

Giving up the 15 minutes of pleasure for ur dream body is actually worth it.

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Kinda annoying that I never get to the point of shaking, fainting and extreme dizziness when I’ve been fasting for over 36 hours since I drink a lot of coffee and water to suppress my appetite. This also makes me feel super bloated at the end of the day and it ruins the whole idea of ⭐️ving. I still lose weight but I don’t get to feel like I’m really ⭐️ving.

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This is the first weekend in forever that I haven’t just said fuck it and eaten everything I can see and I’m actually so proud of myself. I feel like I will actually start making big progress now!!!

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Ahh yes going through the whole day without eating and seeing how much longer you can go without food is the most powerful feeling.

the whole reason i relapsed was literally because i forgot how good it feels

the feeling of being hungry but not craving any food is just so amazing it makes me feel so skinny

feeling lightheaded is such a good feeling

knowing i’ve made it through the whole day without eating just makes me feel so proud and accomplished

and when i look in the mirror and see my stomach looks a bit flatter or my thighs look a little thinner it’s just so good

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Miss Bella for thinsp0 xoxo

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Fruit is actually such a delicacy. Thank god we took the initiative of making it more delicious by breeding them to be bigger and juicier.

I don’t even understand how I crave junk food so much when fruit is sooooo delicious and is so good for you.

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I love being around fat people. Sitting next to them, watching them eat (I’m talking extremely fat people not just a little chubby).

I love the way they walk and waddle and love looking at how and where their fat is stored around their body. Where they hold the most of their weight and seeing how it’s proportioned. I love watching them shove food into their mouths and when they get out of breath from doing the bare minimum.

I love the way they look at food as if it’s their god and savour. I love when they pretend to be pretty and try to make themselves look good. (This is so mean I know I would never say it to anyone in real life because that’s just cruel but it’s just the way I think).

I remember when I was in secondary school and I was in year 9 or 10?? (Age 14-15) and there was this younger girl probably year 7 (age11??) and she was pretty fat, and she had the reddest cheeks and she always ate alone and I saw all the food in her lunchbox and it made me so happy that she ate so much because I wanted her to be able to enjoy food and I loved watching her eat (I swear I’m not a pedo lol wtf). I also felt tremendously bad for basically silently judging her and watching her and just for the fact that she would probably be fat for the rest of her life and at the time I wanted to be able to make her better and make her healthy (not starve to lose the weight but to make healthier choices). But I also liked watching her eat more and more and just get bigger and bigger.

I hope this don’t sound weird asf but does anyone else have similar thoughts?? Like just looking at FAT fat people and watching them exist. Sometimes I’m not even judging them or being disgusted by them, I just watch them like they are animals in the wild or something idk????

Anyway guys it’s weigh in day tomorrow so let’s see if IM fat or not

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I actually cannot STAND hearing people chew. Even if they have their mouths shut I can still hear the gumminess of the food they’re chewing and it’s DISGUSTING. JUST STOP EATING!!!

This includes myself…

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If anyone ever asks me what the goal is I will show them these pics.

SHE IS THE GOAL!!!!

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summer th1nsp0🎀☀️☀️