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[stiko]

"Your alters are all a part of you."

We're all parts of a person that could be. Hell, maybe even a person that should have been.

But they are not a part of me.

I'm as much of an alter as they are.

I have parts in me, as in, I have moods and tastes and goals. Those part are not alters.

Alters are their own separate entity, although we are all parts of a dissociated potential whole.

I am an alter. They can't be parts of me if im also a piece of the puzzle.

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It ain’t fun when you wake up on your birthday after a week of anxiety with extreme fear and paranoia.

It’s not my birthday yet but it’s coming up and I’m in the anxiety stage of the extreme panic I feel on my birthday. It’s so extreme but I contain it and express it as excitement and I don’t know how sustainable it is and how much longer I can do this.

Small things trigger me and I am going through all my coping mechanisms like a wildfire and desperately trying to find new ones.

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I really suggest getting colouring books and twistables/crayons for littles.

Panic? Colour.

Fronting? Colour!

It also helps us stay present and not slip into flashbacks.

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Maybe I relate to Mabel the most because she does the most to make friends and to have everyone like her but they see her as weird or odd and either ignore her or bully her for her differences. Some find her fun and are her friends, but they’re also the outcasts and bullied for their differences.

Moving to fandom, there is a whole section of people who like Gravity Falls but hate Mabel because they think she is a lot of hurtful things.

Maybe I relate to her because she forgives and trusts too easily.

She fucks up a lot and does a lot without thinking but at least she always realizes and tries to make it right. Her way of seeing things is that of a tween with a lot going at home probably but the show doesn’t mention it.

-a Mabel fictive

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Squeaking and squeeing is honestly gives me some of the best species euphoria.

I am a fox and I squee and yipp and squeak.

Find me in my blanket burrow.

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Being disabled is SO EXPENSIVE

Like the mobility aid that would legit change my life would be 2,000$

Meds add up along with aids that aren’t for mobility

Housing has to be chosen with disability in mind

A service dog can range from $6k - OVER $20k

And people still say disabled people do it for attention or for fun.

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WELCOME TO OUR PAGE!!

This is our space where we talk about shit- like everyone else. Documenting experiences being plural for both the system and for others who feel alone with weird questions.

We will not tolerate people fakeclaiming or claiming systems can be anything but formed from childhood trauma.

We have a few headmades who are fine with saying their names, and then some who will be posting under an emoji. Any littles will stay anonymous, use the same identifier, and any hate towards them will be deleted.

Worm : they’re a crude copy of the previous host Wuorm. Pretty chill overall but not quite fully formed with chunks of personality and supposedly shared memories missing. They are now the current main host (though they like to dip due to not remembering SHIT).

Ren : Human-Fox hybrid. He is a fictive trying to separate himself from source. Very political/has strong beliefs and tends to get upset at injustice or assholes.

Flick : Legit formed out of a need to share information to people due to our extreme resistance. May be a bit extreme to balance it out. Human-fish-calico hybrid that takes on most of the days the body’s legs barely work.

🍷: He's fully source separated besides his name, hence the use of emoji to prevent instant assumptions. He's typically stuck in a pseudo drunken state since we don't really drink.

🍎: A major trauma holder. They remember quite a bit about our trauma but has been pretty quiet on sharing. They like to vent about their feelings.

🃏: A clown. He likes to jest. He also likes gore.

💗: ANY LITTLE - They will not identify who but may identify pronouns. Do not ask them to identify anything about them but pronouns.

LOOK AT THIS LINK FOR ABOUT US USERBOX POST

↓↓anti-recovery and anti functional plurality are also included ↓↓

It's fine if your goal is final fusion that's just not what is best for us and our system.

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THIS! IT EXPLAINS IT SO WELL

heads up I'm about to rant.

Endos really believe that a brain can just- shatter with no reason. Maybe they don't think they have trauma because the dissociative barriers are preventing them from remembering or thinking it wasn't all that bad.

Legit if you're autistic and have more needs that aren't taken care of it can be traumatizing. If you are any kind of neurodivergent and it affected your growing up, there is a chance to be plural if it is not handled well. If your needs are not met it can be traumatizing, complex trauma but trauma none the less.

Sure, some 'endos' are systems, but they're not endogenic. They just haven't looked deeper into their life to see that they were actually really hurt as a kid. There has to be something there to disturb mental development for it not to.

Legit if you are experiencing symptoms of plurality please talk to a therapist. They may help you realize that you are either not plural but going through something, or are plural and just don't quite understand what caused it.

Endogenic systems CANNOT EXIST.

Please- if you truly are experiencing:

An inability to recall childhood memories and personal history

Feelings of detachment or disconnection

Flashbacks or the sudden return of previously forgotten memories

Hallucinations

Lack of awareness about recent events

Losing chunks of time

AND IN GENERAL EXTREME DISSASOCIATION

This disorder makes life so much more difficult, even if it started off as a coping mechanism. You forget how old you are, what year it is, the people you care about, even your entire identity. You don't get to make decisions for yourself, like job field or even hobbies. I get stuck for hours sometimes not knowing what to do because of the literal inner conflict.

I'm not saying you have to have an official diagnosis, but please understand the symptoms and challenges it is to be plural. It is not fun.

It is not a choice.

It is not something you should actively want.

We’re so excited to show you the little lesson we’ve been working on about systems! Please try to spread this for educational purposes!

The last slide is only some examples of people/ alters personalities that can form!

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There is something so earth shattering-

So world crushing-

So life haulting-

Figuring out you’re only alive because of happenstance, and I’m not talking about being a surprise pregnancy, but knowing that you were born and were in conditions that would kill you-

and then living through it all.

Unable to tell the people around you because they’ll think you’re crazy for believing you went through the things you went through, but wanting to shout at them:

“LOOK AT ME! LOOK AT THE MONSTER I AM AND TELL ME I DIDNT EXPERIENCE MY PAIN! JUST BECAUSE YOU WERE BLIND TO IT DOESNT MEAN MY SCARS ARENT HERE!”

I’ve had to battle with my own mind to get to where I am, to remember what I do now…

And I wish I stayed in the fucking dark.

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Just stood up for myself and told a toxic man in my life he needs to better himself and until then I wont speak to him.

✨☺️✨

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Y’all the headspace is so chaotic tbh kinda hate it here /hj

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It's my 6 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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When ur called to front cause they found a tween cofronting and smoking weed with the rest of em…

But you’ve never met this kid before till you realize it’s one of the dormant trauma holders trying to cope…

Cause you’ve caused a lot of their pain in the past, too much that you couldn’t even begin to apologize for what you did to them…

And they smile at you???

They give you their necklace?? They feel calm, but, they can feel your guilt…

The others tell you they don’t talk, they walk away with your approval to continue…

How cruel this world this world can be.

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"system joy" comic from an OSDD-1b system

i'm sorry if there is any noticeable art style changes throughout the comic. it was worked on across several days, and usually our comics are completed within one. our comic style isn't always 100% consistent depending on who is fronting or co-fronting :') but we tried to keep it similar enough so that it hopefully wouldn't be too disorienting.

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Okay not steam but for the tags I think you should take a look at Roblox! They have a lot of different animal RP servers with variety of quality. The Warrior Cats RP server is really cool and keeps on getting updates, The Island of Mezaai is great for wolf and sometimes fox RP, Moo is a cute but simple cow game, and probably more but those are my favorite to play (first two my main).

steam

does anyone have steam game recs??!?!? :D