#((prolly cause im STRESSED))

[deus-ex-mona]

i miss her…

[roscvcins]

sometimes art is the bane of my existence shhh

sigh I am once again.....doodlin....strugglin with hands....

[oddestishottest]

Doing a homemade facemask with honey, turmeric, cinnamon, and lemon juice, and drinking a coldbrew with oat milk horchata. The horrors have been postponed for now

[oddaesthetin]

junhan is probably the type of boyfriend/love interest who:

- will ask you on discord movie or anime dates late at night when he’s done with practice and couldn’t sleep but is too tired to travel, and/or when he’s at tour

- LEGO ACTIVITIES. i’ve read from somewhere that he likes assembling models (idk how to explain it but when i read it i aGREED cause he just looks like that kind of person)

- mostly when he knows you need a break. he’s not that great with words so it’d be his own little way of keeping your mind away from what’s stressing you out.

- if you like baking, he’ll probably ask you to teach him ;;; he’s a really attentive guy so learning will be easy for him. after that, he’ll always have a cookie in his pocket to give to you when you two are out and about

- he’ll share his hair ties with you anytime anywhere 💯. if you let him, he’ll do your ponytail, too

- will also let you corrupt his punk-goth-emo aesthetic by letting you put those cute little and noisy keychains on his bag ++ will let you design/paint his nails (only if you let him do yours, too ;P)

- will also be your go-to stylist for whenever you don’t have the energy or doesn’t feel like dressing up

- since he’s not big on gatherings either, if he notices that your social battery is down he’ll pull the two of you out immediately for the sake of the both of you

- the type of boyfriend who stares at you with those two lil shy and googly eyes. as an introvert, when he stares, HE STARES. and you don’t even notice it most of the time, but other people DO

- aLSO, contrary to popular belief, i don’t think he’d be that shy or too much of a sub when he’s with someone he truly trust?? almost every fic i’ve read of him already established him as a puppy but gUYS, you know how they say it’s always the quiet ones 😉🙂‍↕️ (no but also bcs as someone on the introverted side, being comfy w/ people really just takes a lot of time but that doesn’t necessarily mean we cannot get accustomed to certain things 😭😭)

- will subtly kiss the back of your hand when nobody (NOBODY) is looking #alexaplayshyboybysecret

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lol my render is done id hav to byebye. ill prolly just update this list after im done being occupied w other things. this will be it for now, c ya

[thebestandrealestever]

moon river , & me.

miles1610 x reader . sum : miles can’t hold it in anymore . warns : cursing , n word , the short film doesn’t mention miguel or spot so im not going 2 . a/n : currently binge watching drake & josh , wyd?

*starting point is right after his panic attack*

it wasn’t that late at night so you were still awake to hear the frantic opening of your window. you know who it is but still look , “hey ma, u got a minute?” he says in a shaken tone, you sit up and squint your eyes to see him more clearly in the darkness and say “yea of course what’s wrong?” he clears his throat and you stand up to look at him “can we take a walk?”he says taking a sharp breath like he was running from something . you nod and put on your coat and shoes , you tell him you’ll meet him outside because you don’t know how to down from the window and he leaves. on the walk down you were a little nervous . you saw a spider man mask in his coat pocket about two weeks ago but didn’t know what to say so you just didn’t ? it caused you to be a little distant from him because you were worried , he acted like he had something to hide and even though you knew what it was it his tone still scared you .

when you got outside he was standing in front of the door being all awkward, you walked closer to him chuckling a little and said “you okay babe ?” you kiss his cheek and he sighs letting go of a breath he didn’t know he was holding . “i dunno actually, i think i just had a heart attack at home” you guys start to walk and you turn your head to look at him with confusion on your face “hm?” you say and he sighs “i dunno it was crazy , felt like my chest was caving and i couldn’t breathe even though i wasn’t doing anything? i was bugging” he rushes out his words in talks in total disbelief “it was prolly a panic attack, you been stressed recently ?” you ask and you take his hand “like never before i just got so much on my mind” he exhales deeply and looks up as he continues walking “yea i can tell , you’ve been a little off . but you know you can always always always tell me anything , you gotta talk to me miles” you say reassuringly and you squeezed his hand . he lets go of your hand and freezes in place looking straight at you when you turn to face him, all you do is squint your eyes a little , miles inhales then

“i’m spider-man [name]. andi’vebeenspidermanfortwoyearsandifeellikei’mgoingfuckingcrazyican’ttalktoanyoneaboutitordoanythinganditstakingovermyentirelifeitsdrainingmesomuchandputtingastrainonallofmyrelationshipsespicallyoursandihatethatbecauseiloveyouandnimnotfinnaletthisruinusbutthenagainirlycantgoaroundtellingpeopleandijustdontwhatishoulddomyparentsareallonmyassaboutschoolandcollegeandidontwannathinkaboutcollegeicantevendogoodinschoolnowbecauseofthisstupidassjobandifeellikeimdrowing” he just spills out his feelings and the complete double life he’s living at 15 and all you can do is listen , you’re a little stunned by the delivery of his confirmation of your boyfriend being the city’s hero but you truly did already know . it’s quiet for a little , you just hug him hard and he returns it slowly . “miles, im really happy you finally said it , it felt like i was gonna have to force it out you of you .”

you chuckle into his chest and he pushing you back by your shoulders looking into your eyes “wait wtf are you talking about” he says with genuine concern “i know you’re spider man baby” you smile and he looks dumbfounded “but- how??” he goes through all the instances in his mind where he almost slipped but he can’t think of one where he did . “i never see you and spider-man in the same room , he sounds just like you , and i found your mask in your coat pocket a while ago” he just scoffs “do you feel better now?” you ask you start walking and he puts his arm around you sighing softly “yeah i do, feels like a weight lifted” “yea you don’t have to keep sneaking around me , almost thought you were cheating before i put the pieces together . i can help you with school , maybe it’ll get your parents off your back a little ?” you suggest and he nods with a big grin “yes please i love you sooo much and i would never cheat on you mami” you smile and walk in silence with him for a little until he noticing you yawning “wanna go back home baby?” you nod and he picks you up . “what are u doing?“ you ask and he smirks “now i don’t have to hide we can just swing home.” your face lights up “i’ve always wanted to swing let’s go” he chuckles and you guys swing all the way back to your house .

when you get back in your room through the window “moon river” by frank ocean is playing softly through your speaker and miles starts to sing along as he takes off his outside clothes so he can get in your bed “wtf u know about moon river?” you say playfully and he sings louder the says “stfu i know a lot more than you, this song is sweet” you giggle at the absolute sass monster he is and get into bed with him , you listen to the sound of his heart beat and fall asleep to his voice lightly singing the song . now whenever you think of that song you think of the moment when you and miles relationship changed for the better

[softsinnamonart]

vampire kavetham/haikaveh au where kaveh is a half vampire and

he can taste food but can’t digest any of it except for alcohol, some half vampires can eat a lot of food fine but he got super unlucky

500 year life span as opposed to the regular vampire 1000

doesn’t burn in the sun for the most part but is very prone to it in the desert

hates drinking the blood of any animal, feels bad for them, and also doesn’t like it when alhaitham offers him his but at least he can consent to it

he could probably tell what he’s feeling too by the taste of his blood (bitter when he’s stressed and good when his mood is good, prolly through hormones)

hides his vampire identity from other people by constantly filing his fangs to the point of teeth pain and damage, ingesting normal food with people only to throw it up later, basically trying to fit in with everyone else even if it ends up hurting him cause society is scared of vampires or hates them

guys i think im cooking

anyways this is probably gonna be my next comic idea, once i finish the mermaid one :3

[batfambrainrotbeloved]

Thought popped in my head an won’t leave. Stress causes white hair, an timmy is under a heap of stress. What if he started going gray at an early age? He prolly doesn’t get them a lot but they’re still there. First one he found maybe at 14?15? And he just.

From then he just dyes his hair black. Even if it’s just 1 gray hair.

I find the thought of him having a break down a singular gray hair hilarious.

Genuienly?? if DSB Tim found a grey hair in his head he would curl in a ball and cry at the idea of needing to keep matinence to keep it hidden

His whole thing is "Im juggling so many balls one more will fuck me up, or i might drop another" this would be another ball for him to juggle and even if its not THAT big of a deal- hed say "Fuck it" and leave the hair

(Also while I absolutely ADORE this concept (also cuz its hilarious as hell) probs wont be canon for DSB purely because giving him grey hair would be allowing him to age, which he hasn't earned that right- yet)

[sviisyra]

I might not be in the know, but I won’t judge you or anything :3 I prommy /gen

alr… sorry for. grammar issue stuffs m tired

souh

like 99% of ppl that hc siffrin as a regressor donthem as an age regressor. but i was thinkin (+ passive influence from sif vaerself). kitten (pet) regressor sif…

i think he’d prolly do it involuntarily as a stress response. cause of their mental health stuff bein stressful, y’know??? shrug. is. orobably a source of snxiety for them methinks. cause the whole “oh im fine!!!” when he’s rlly not.

sorry but he eouldnt tell anyone. he would not do that (esp durin and before the loops and stuff). maybeeeee mirabelle wld vaguely know but. Shrugs

bur sometimes they’re just. kitty. usually they try to keep messin aroudn nd stuff when the rest of the party is asleep. whichh is hard cause… yknow. involuntary regression. so sometimes he uses his dagger as a subtle toy thing cause they can. but sometimes they get so enthralled in Play Time that he forgets “oh stars m tryna hide this” nd everyone is. mildly concerned probably

shrug. i have. Ideas bout this

[ynbabe]

Vent!!

Okay talking abt it here cause im miles away from my home and everyone I love is sleeping.

For the first time in a long time I’m having a panic attack. My heart hurts and my head feels dizzy. I hate it, truly. I also feel like this was a long time coming. Idk it’s just been a long month. Prolly just stress (or periods. Love being a woman haha) but yeah I didn’t realise being away from home and family as a student would affect me like this. I look sick and tired, and ppl have noticed— not that this has helped lol but yeah.

Mental health is something I haven’t spoken abt but ig now is a better time than any! Pls take care of yourselves, hydrate and talk to someone if you need to. I may not always be able to help but if anyone needs to vent on anon or in my dms please do!! It helps me and it may help you, not feeling alone is a great feeling and sometimes knowing people are struggling and it’s not just you is a blessing.

As always im so so grateful for everyone that interacts with my post and if anyone needs to talk please reach out! Its better to talk than to suffer alone(take it from me lol)

[unhingedkinfessions]

(TQ USER IM NOT YELLING I JUST TYPE LIKR THIS I FORGOR I HAVE TO PUT A DISCLAIMER EVER TIME OR WHATEVER) HAI !! FIRST TIME SENDING AN ASK HERE LMAO. SO I TELL EVERYONE ABOUT THIS KINNIE DISCORD SERVER DRAMA I HAD SO I MIGHT AS WELL SUBMIT IT HERE.

SO IM A VRISKA SERKET KINNIE, UNFORTUNATELY. BUT BACK IN 2022, I BELIEVED I WAS DIRK STRIDER, DUE TO SHITTY IDENTITY ISSUES AND PROBABLY OTHER THINGS. I HAD RECENTLY GOTTEN MY KINNIE BOYFRIEND (NOW EX) INTO HOMESTUCK, AT THE TIME. WE’LL CALL HIM SODA. SO SODA HAD MET THIS GIRL ON TIKTOK, GOING BY THE NAME TRANSFEM TEREZI. SHE HAD A BUNCH OF FOLLOWERS AND WAS GENERALLY WELL KNOWN ON HOMESTUCK TIKTOK. SO THEY BECAME BESTIES, AND I THOUGHT SHE WAS NEAT SO I STARTED TALKING TO HER ON DISCORD. WE BECAME BESTIES AS WELL !!

SO WE ALL KINNED FROM HOMESTUCK, THEREFORE WE DECIDED TO MAKE A HOMESTUCK KINNIE SERVER. AFTER A FEW DAYS IT WAS DONE, AND TEREZI INVITED ALL OF HER FOLLOWERS. ALL OF US BEING DUMB AND HAVING NO MODERATION EXPERIENCE, WE MODDED RANDOM PEOPLE, WHICH WILL BE IMPORTANT L8TER.

THE SERVER WAS PRETTY ACTIVE AND EVERYONE WAS HAVING FUN. FOR LIKE 5 DAYS. ONE DAY, I WAS AT THE BEACH WITH MY FAMILY AND MY PHONE WAS IN THE CAR. ONCE WE WERE DONE, I CAME BACK TO CHECK IT. AND THERE IT WAS, 100+ NOTIFS. I WAS CONFUSED AND WENT ON DISCORD, ONLY TO SEE THE HORRORS:

TONS OF DMS FROM 6 DIFFERENT PEOPLE, 3 DIFFERENT NEW GROUP CHATS, 5 PEOPLE ASKING ME WHAT HAPPENED, AND SOME PEOPLE TELLING ME TO DIE. I WAS SO DAMN CONFUSED, SO I LOOKED TO SEE WHAT WAS GOING ON AND ASKED ABOUT IT.

APPARENTLY, A GUY NAMED BEEF NUTS JOINED THE SERVER AND STARTED SPAMMING SLURS AND SCAT JOKES, AMONG OTHER THINGS. REASONABLY, ONE OF THE MODS BANNED HIM. THIS TURNED OUT TO BE A HORRIBLE IDEA, AS ONCE HE WAS BANNED, THE OTHER MODS AND SOME MEMBERS GOT PISSED AND STARTED SPAMMING “JUSTICE FOR BEEF NUTS,” WHICH HAD CAUSED TEREZI TO JUST GET STRESSED AND FUCKING LEAVE THE SERVER WHILE IT ALL WENT DOWN??

SOON ENOUGH, THE SERVER WAS IN SHAMBLES. EVERYONE WAS CONFUSED AND THE OWNER HAD LEFT, PLUS CHANNELS WERE CLOGGED. EVENTUALLY, WE DID DAMAGE CONTROL, AND FIXED IT UP.

AFTER THAT, EVERYONE WAS FUCKIN PISSED AT TEREZI. WE DUG UP A BUNCH OF STUFF ABOUT HER AND JUST DECIDED TO H8 HER. WE CALLED HER ABLEIST AND RACIST AND TRANSPHOBIC, AND WENT TO HUNT HER DOWN AND HARASS HER, BECAUSE DUMB CHILDREN.

AFTER SHIT GOT REAAAL BAD, SHE DECIDED TO RESPOND TO THE ALLEGATIONS. HER RESPONSE WAS BASICALLY “IM A SYSTEM NOT A KINNIE NOW ACTUALLY. ONE OF MY ALTERS IS JUST AN ASSHOLE” AND EVERYONE BELIEVED HER I GUESS BECAUSE PPL STOPPED TALKING ABOUT IT.

MORE HAPPENED L8TER BUT IM SAVING THAT FOR ANOTHER ASK. REMEMBER ME AS VRISKA ANON. BAI :333

ok thats cool and all but all i asked is if you wanted fries with that not so happy meal. a bit weird that you're admitting to harassing some random maybe-system who got overwhelmed and prolly didnt deserve to get hated on like its such a funny story. from what youve said here in this drivethrough with the broken sign and cracked pavement it sounds like you guys were weird and in the wrong. "dumb children" 2022 was last year own up motherfucker

have a bit of shame and compassion in your heart girl we aint your friends. but what do i know im just a humble worker here at uhkfdonalds or some shit

[noxxuniverse]

HIII, I've had a problem recently. this might sound confusing but I don't know if I want to BE or be WITH (my ideal type).

Basically, I have this whole ideal self thing, but it's also my ideal type in a person. e.g: having a specific vibe, being fit, etc. (but it's extremely particular)

but I don't know if I would rather embody it myself and basically 'become that partner' or find a partner with these traits, you get me??

I'm not going to vent but I've always had gender dysphoria and I think gender plays a huge role in this because my ideal self seems to fit more masculine traits and a male body plus i find it so admirable in another person. ive also got pros and cons listed.

if I become: I get to live out my ideal self, my ideal aura, vibe, everything, im my own best friend so i could look in the mirror and see my ideal self right there. but if that's also my ideal type, how would I find a partner if I already AM that partner ifygwim, as in, e.g. if I want to match a character completely so I became them, but that character was also my ideal type, then how would I be able to find a partner if I literally became my highly specific ideal type? everyone I admire has always fit a trend - Its like, all of my ideal types are what I desire to be (because they have what I lack).

be with: I get to see my ideal self close to me, live with them and become so emotionally close to such a cool person. but they can't be with me 24/7, when their presence isn't with me with attention on me my ideal self basically isn't there and I'll feel that lack again. it's like the other person is a piece of a puzzle that connects what I lack to me but emotionally. I find my ideal person to be such a comforting one which is why becoming them causes so many doubts lol. I could only name 3 characters/people rn which fit my ideal type, and 1 character of which im embodying rn because it matches with one of the 3 characters (which is one of the reason on why it's so specific)

I kinda prefer that masc x fem relationship (it's so sweett)

anw, opinions?? what would you do?? I can't really choose which I prioritise more so I'd kinda prefer if someone made a conclusion/solution for me, a specific answer i guess? (no pressure tho). thank you am!

living life as a whole I'd rather be male, though I prefer female friends since they're the absolute best, but in a relationship I'd rather be a woman since my ideal self is closest to being a man tbh (other genders don't apply rn since thats a diff situation) and like before I prefer those relationships with complete opposites. there's prolly more to this but idk. it's lowk that situation where someone in the comments is like "idk if I wanna be with them or be them"

- Zy

So for me personally, I'd become my ideal self. Sometimes we want to date our ideal selves because we want to be them and we can sometimes get confused on whether we want to be someone or be with someone.

I'd say, take some time to figure it out, you have so long so don't even stress. You might end up wanting to switch over even during manifesting it, if you do, that's completely fine. Just do what you want to do, you know?

[prettyboykatsuki-moved]

It’s prolly cause I’m an idiot but hsr is so hard to me LMAO like I’ve played many other games casually and never struggled this much to grasp team building/character building/certain mechanics of the game. There’s parts of it I enjoy like much of the quest lines and turn-based fighting and certain game modes… but like overall this game stresses me out LOL

- @yuutito

KJDSKJDS beloved aleks i have seen ur hsr woes... im curious about your acc and what characters u have. not that im an expert i kinda suck also LOOOL but i def don't think ur an idiot

its been a while since i've started the game so i can't say for sure but i also rmb it being pretty difficult at the start and even now some of the late game content completely dogwalks me LMAOO (moc my beloathed)

i think the main issue with hsr that can make it feel like an ass kick is that the game mechanics and teams require a lot more nuance than a game like genshin where u can have 8 rlly invested characters and get through overworld just fine. u need a lot more coverage for hsr in many ways i can see it being unfriendly.

like. you really have to have an extremely thorough understanding of how the meta is structured, how a characters kit works and what supports they need, and you especially need to think about speed and speed breakpoints but those r not super straight-forward mechanics. like break meta is crazy

i mostly play my jing yuan and dh il teams because i understand their kit mechanics the best of anyone else in my roster and that's after a lot of reading and testing so i think that might be what makes it difficult for some folks

[bunnygirl678]

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Anxiety posting under the cut feel free to ignore lol

So we have annual reviews coming up and they’re like super high anxiety for me.

My boss is the type to always list something to improve which is a good thing I know but I just get so hung up on it…

We used to do these quarterly but now we do them once a year but ughhhhh

And like this one is one that we’re doing salary type stuff which is even more stressful and it’s worse because I know the financial health of the company so I don’t always feel comfortable negotiating especially when I know other people can’t get raises

But then the way I try to get myself ready for them is to assume I’m going to get an absolutely horrible review, like I’m mentally preparing to be crushed which is dumb cause my boss did a pre review a few weeks back where he was like you’re doing great and I want to move you up

But my brain is still like no you need to assume this is terrible and you’re probably about to get fired…

Like originally it was hmm I wonder how much my raise is gonna be, then getting kinda excited but then stepping back and like no don’t expect a big one which turned into the cost of living we are giving people which would mean like a very tiny raise, and then that snowballed into you’re gonna be lucky to get anything then you’re gonna get fired

Like this is the only work related thing I just can’t handle lol

Anyway all this to say im freaking the fuck out and will be taking a sleeping tablet for the night LOL

It’s funny too because last year he was like… do you actually like this job because your self assessment is much worse than what I said, and I’m like you don’t understanddddddd, but when we did the pre review he was like do not freak out this is not a bad review, and I was still like ima puke my guts out omgggg

That and he always says something really sweet and I get uncomfortable cause it’s always a thing for me with like authority figures and honestly I think this is cause my parents suck… WAIT hold on I think I just worked out why I’m like this

My mother had a parent teacher conference when I was like 5th grade and apparently the teacher said something about wanting to hold me back a year because I was so mature and a good role model (honestly red flag if a kid is overly mature there’s prolly something wrong lol) and my mother decided to play a joke on me and tell me the teacher wanted to hold me back, and I remember being in the car and like sobbing??? Thinking my life was over, which is dumb but literally my entire self worth as a kid was around being smart and being successful,

Anyway I’m going to read I’m glad my mother died at some point haha

As an adult I don’t base my self worth on success of careers or anything like that but I still get super anxious with reviews— also I got a really shitty review at a company once buttt I was very poorly trained and my boss didn’t want to help me with anything?? Anddddd I was pregnant and I’m going to be honest my brain was not smart when I was pregnant, my IQ must have dropped 50 points lol apparently that’s common tho anyway they couldn’t fire me cause I told them I was pregnant that next day and I ended up quitting instead of coming back after maternity

So between that job and my mother I think that’s the core to my current reaction. My boss is already like ‘please don’t freak out and I’m not firing you’ so at least he knows me lmao

[loafbud]

yo it's oversharing anon back at it again.

been a hot minute, probably gonna take awhile to read through all your posts and what not but hope you're doin well and stuff. dont worry too much about grades and veung inconsistant and stuff that happens man.

also in my 20s and man it sucks to not know what you wanna do. being told you need to "prepare for the future" and all that biz is stressful cause the future's uncertain. i got thrust into my family business with no warning and got real big expectations to live up to so i can kinda sympathise a lil bit. work's tiring and i wanna quit but i dont really have a say in the matter.

but ill hold on to the little things that make me happy and keep marching on. therapy helps alot and looking at your art or even watching your stream vods (cant catch em live due to work and all but s'alright ill find a way to watch live one day) and i hope you know that you're an inspiration to not just me but prolly alotta other people too. dont get too down and maybe take a breather once in awhile.

oversharing anon out

hey oversharing anon!!

thank u for the words of encouragement-and i definitely agree with the whole future being uncertain thing

i still find it crazy that there's even anyone out there who says that im inspiring in a way /pos; it always means a lot to me when i hear that !!!

[meemospeebos]

i'm so excited for good omens 2 but also rlly scared. i've made my own "predictions" abt what's gonna happen, but there are some theories ive seen on twitter that destroyed my day.

like the scene where crowley gets so mad smoke and lightning come out of them? in my mind only two things could've caused that. their dramatic ass is overreacting/jealous abt smth. OR smth happened to aziraphale. but that's just a first thought that came to my head, im prolly overthinking it and stressing myself out lmaooo

[wifiwuxians]

sorry for the late reply! im the songxue anon! just saw your responses a few minutes ago and my gosh, you're really very sweet ;; im sorry to have caused so much of a fuss but thank you for being so compassionate and kind ;; (also i adore that crying xue yang omigosh what are you talking abt how can you think thats not amazing its perfect i love it). also the tags? on your first reply??? people are mean to song lan????? WHO IS MEAN TO SONG LAN??? WHY??? HOW????! i'll be honest, i tend to avoid getting involved with fandom discourse At All Costs bc i dont need that kind of stress in my life, so mainly i just look at fanart and fics i like and stay in my lane so i had no idea there were people who hate on song lan???? like??????????? how????????????????? okay, i love xue yang, he's my baby, but i TOTALLY understand people hating him. he has no rights and he deserved everything bad that happened to him and so much more. i just happen to adore him and wanna spoil my stupid lil meowmeow. like it makes SENSE to be mad at xue yang but like.................................. how can anyone hate song lan?!?! HE DID NOTHING WRONG?????? LITERALLY HE JUST GOT HURT, OVER AND OVER, FOR NO REASON????? im sorry for going on such a tangent over a very short tag you added but im a lil flabbergasted that anyone could hate on Best Boy. also while im going on tangents about tags, your 500 aus are part of what i adore about your art oki. like you have such a wonderful and vivid imagination and the way that you give life to the ideas with your art is breath-taking. even if its a concept i dont think i would enjoy just hearing the idea, when i see your execution i am 100% on board because my gosh you have such a beautiful way of bringing life to things.

and you don't need to apologize for anything btw! it's totally oki to assert boundaries and i really dont speak for anyone other than myself. i just saw a few "dont tag as ship" things and i was like "ahh... oki they prolly wouldnt like me" cuz im an anxious bean and i also dont wanna reveal myself as a gross loser who likes weird ships to one of my fav artists, ya know? so you were 100% just doing the good selfcare thing (which much approval, we stan) and i just got the wrong idea cuz im a nervous weirdo. as for revealing myself i feel a bit embarrassed to do so now after being such a weirdo at you oaeurhgiauehrg but one way or another, your are IS getting reblogged, especially now that i have permission to look at some pieces disrespectfully oiaerhjgohre (not SUPER disrespectfully, just maybe a lil bit of 'they're in love your honor' oki) (a silly random thing but im a bit happy to know you dont hate songxue oijghiouehrg its silly but knowing my favorite 'songxue artist' (not-really-songxue-but-i-totally-see-it) doesnt hate my otp is kinda nice 😊 i thought the irony of it was a bit funny before but i also felt guilty for seeing stuff that your didnt really intend with your art and yeah eoirjgioejrg basically my initial asks were all that struggle so its just kinda nice. its not a very popular ship so its cool when its not disliked, even if its not actively enjoyed. idk if im making sense LOL sorry) ohergiuearhg sorry i feel like i went on a bunch of tangents instead of responding to you properly and i think maybe i have a problem of Talking Too Much so i swear i will really try to keep this one short. i love your art, youre completely valid and wonderful, im doing okay and im really happy you responded to me so kindly despite my strangeness, i think you're neat and you deserve a ton of people showering you with praise cuz damn, you make things great. and i'd like to take a moment to express how you can really influence people with your art: i never even considered wen chao x xue yang before your art and now i think they're a really funny couple, and thats completely bc of how lovely your creations are. please believe in your ability to make people love the things that you love through your beautiful art. be proud of how incredible you are. you make everything a lil brighter just by existing but the fact that you exist and choose to share your beautiful art (and fics, ive read some of them and i Love your writing, its incredible) you make the world a whole lot brighter cuz damn, now i get to look at this stuff and just smile and feel warm inside. so thank you for making my life a lil happier and please be confident in yourself!

okay sorry to put em all together but also i felt it was best so let's begin,

^me

1- you've caused no fuss at all so don't worry about that!! i just wanted to make sure it wasn't a ships in the night situation LOL i wanted to make sure you got my response! :) (I'M GLAD YOU ENJOY THE MEME LOL) as for song lan meanness, that's what i'm saying THAT'S WHAT I'M SAYING and YET! this is why i stay out of the tags all the time. there's just too much shit out there in the world and sometimes i fail at just gritting my teeth and letting people say their thang, and it gets me in trouble... but maaaaaaan i really need to say it's a shame you wanna stay anonymous because i think we'd get on like a house on fire! you've summed up exactly how i feel about both of them + how i wish others reacted to them haha (but no pressure to reveal yourself! just know i think we'd get along)

and as for 500 AUs... i'm so glad 😭 i am an AU machine, i have so many i can't keep track and they bring me so much joy, but i admittedly feel sort of alone in making them haha SO THIS MEANS A LOT!! especially you complimenting my execution like i think i may just melt into a puddle and pass away jfghsjh thank you,, so much

2- but seriously, don't worry about the tag thing, it is 100% a boundary thing and the only time i think i'd dislike someone for it is if they saw i said not to tag it as something in the body of the post and did it anyway! 'cause that's just rude (and then i feel despair bc what else can i do to get people NOT to tag LMAO) it's for my own comfort, i'm not trying to dictate what people can or can't ship or feel, it's just i'd rather not hear about it :p especially when it's not what i drew! but also i'm a favorite artist? 😳

you haven't been a weirdo at all! no pressure to go mask off but please don't let anything be because you think i think you're a weirdo or a loser, ok? it's not true! hooray reblogs my NUTRIENCE.. THANK YOU! (but haha this isn't a 'theyre in love' type of piece but the one i personally look at most disrespectfully is when i drew sl straight up eating xy's flesh off his ribs... i know cannibalism isn't for everyone though and neither is gory imagery! just... sharing... oversharing...)

for the aside: no problem! i will say for transparency purposes that my relationship with it IS complicated and that i personally would need it to fit a very uncommon mold (that i do not often see) for me to be like 👍 which is why i tend to stick to my own stuff + what a chosen few friends make when it comes to them in general, but my god you're a rare breed! i've never met anyone who had it as their otp!! you're braver than any US marine because it's such a rarepair it didn't make it into the like top 11 mdzs ships on ao3 or whatever...

3- i love talking though! i really appreciate your messages and i hope this response wasn't a complete jumbled mess ahhh...

thank you so so much for all the lovely praise and encouragement, getting these messages actually helped me break out of my funk a little and do some chores, so know your words do have an impact too! 💕 i need to remember more often that as long as even one person smiles at my work, it will have been worth it. i promise i'm trying ;; sometimes i get caught up in the numbers still and i'm very ashamed of that, but damn, you took time out of your day to let me know that you love and appreciate what i do, and that's honestly made me tear up a little, so THANK YOU AGAIN !! i'm sorry i'm failing at expressing myself and my gratitude properly kgjdklhjkgh (also, thank you for the xuechao support, like THAT's what i call a RAREPAIR! (canned laughter) i really try to spread the joy with those two)

i'm really floundering on how to say thank you well enough so... maybe i can show you some birthday art i made for a friend who also loves xy and sl and xy/chao (which of course now im being nitpicky about but the friend loved it so idc LOL)