#2amthoughts

[sakura-hayashii]

02.26.24 - 1:28 pm

i was drunk on your love… and now that im sober… i realize it probably was never real from the start. im just another driver who missed the exit sign on the highway to heartbreak.

- S.H. // things ive never said #14 (via 2amthoughts)

[thecosmicminds-blog]

In reality, I am too afraid to pursue my dreams and I think that's what I'm most sad about.

[elvraspace26]

💔 I forget everything except what hurts.

Every morning I wake up tired, like I fought myself in my sleep. I forget birthdays, deadlines, joy — but I remember every insult. Sometimes my brain keeps score of pain like it’s survival. The worst part? I can't find peace even when I try to slow down. My thoughts are loud. My heart is tired. My soul is busy. I zone out during conversations. I stare at screens and don’t blink. It’s like my brain wants to remember trauma more than dreams. And when people ask if I'm okay, I smile because it's easier than explaining.

Sometimes I cry for no reason. Sometimes I don't cry when I should. I hate that I need structure, but I also rebel against it. It’s exhausting being the overthinker and the people pleaser. But I started building little safe spaces for myself inside the chaos. Some days that space is just a journal. Some days it’s silence. And one day, it became something bigger. A soft system. I call it ClarityOS — not a fix, just a safe hold. It’s in my bio if you want something that gets it.

[blogchirayu]

LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP.

They met as strangers They came closer as friends AndThey end up as long-distance “stories”(you & I, will become we?)-Chirayu!.  https://www.instagram.com/reel/DAn3XYItR1N/?igsh=aTU5MnpldzVkNThz

[dinastiya--10]

Having taurus rising, taurus sun and venus with pisces Mars but a gemini moon is not easy. Like all u wanna do I just chill but also wrek chaos internally😭😭its also looking unbothered and calm alt when ur anything but that. why does it have to so contradicting!!

Love myself 😘😌

[celhouette]

January 15, 2024 | 2:23 AM

I want to delete all our memories. Seems like it is nothing to you. What use it is to me when I am the only one who treaures each moment of it, right? I wish I could wake up with amnesia. Just like the song, I wish I could forget all those stupid things. Since for you, it was just nothing but a memory and you dont cherish it, might as well I forget about it. I cried so many nights, praying to God that he would take all away this pain. I wish I could forget you,all your promises are bullshit. I wish that in the first place, you have told me things so that I would not raise my expectations and believe your stupid lies. But thank you. Thank you for hurting me. I hope you are happy with what you did to me. I hope it was all worth it to you. At some point in time, I was happy, we were happy. I hope I made you feel that at some point in time " I was the one ".. Now, I wish you the best. Thank you for hurting me. I hope it was worth it to see me cry.

relapsing again and again and again and again...

*latepost

[goldxrushes]

kinda funny how by the time you start to learn to live your, you'll have already reached the end of it...

[firstavina]

Still

I don’t know if my way of thinking is correct or not. But it suits me; it works for me; it makes me happy, and I’m content about it. Then again, I’m still open to all future possibilities. There might still be other versions of “correct” mindset that can to make me happier, even happiest. Who knows? I’m still 47 young and doing my best to grow wiser. One thing I know is that I’m still learning,…

[2amspadoinks]

Call me homosexual the way I fuck with homo erectus

[yurious-george]

But this does run into some fascinating concepts of gender and class to me. Throughout the ages, the actual arbiter of privilege was not gender but class; even in medieval times, the few warrior women there were claimed their superiority and capabilities by asserting their noble class, not by asserting all women should have rights. The narrative that they had to #overcome #misogyny as their primary obstacle was actually a bit rarer than you might think.

This framework only really changed in the 1700s (also in the 1500s, because women as servants to men was codified into law both eras.) Suddenly, All Men were viewed as more capable than women, no matter how far “below” them in class; while things have since shifted, that perception of gender never really recovered.

So, in modern day America, there’s still this kind of dominant misconception that it’s Women vs Men as the primary oppressive force, when the far steeper axis of oppression is, as for most of history, social class. And white folk fall into The Class That Could Own Slaves and black people are The Class Previously Enslaved. (And that’s not even counting prisons right now.)

So yes, if you ever analyze a black man as above a white woman of any stripe*, you’re guzzling the radfem koolaid and you need to get your sorry ass out of there! No nonsense in my neck of the woods!

*assuming they’re in the same social/wealth category, of course, and not accounting for specific circumstances.

I do think any (usa-centric) analysis that automatically puts a black man in a position of privilege above a white woman when black folk were kept as slaves less than 200 yrs ago is ultimately very silly. ymmv.

[fkmarrycill]

He'd never do it in a million years, but how cool would it be to see Cillian on Saturday Night Live, just doing some absurdly silly stuff? #2AMThoughts

[blogchirayu]

Forgive And Forget.....

Message To Understand…I forgive to forget not only the thing but also the lifewho asked the forgivenesswhen it happens more than once.“You can let go once, but you can’t let go of the same thing from the same person again.”-Chirayu!.

[lewiathans]

how long do you think farlan and levi had known each other before isabel? bonus how did levi and farlan meet in ur opinion? :) #2amthoughts

Hmm i don’t do well with timelines, but i would imagine something like 3-5 years. It takes a while for Levi to trust someone and there was already a deep bond established between them when ACWNR took place. And while I don’t know much about Farlan, given his calm demeanour and that he is from the underground as well, he probably doesn’t trust every stranger either. I like to think that Levi and Farlan met when Farlan was starving and Levi found a way to help him and after that he kind of stuck with him and Levi got to know him as a valued companion after his defences wore down a bit. That would be plausible to me because their doesn’t seem to be a large age difference between them, yet Levi seems to be more in charge. A saviour backstory would explain why, while equal in many regards, their dynamic leans more towards Levi being the leader of the group :)

[celhouette]

January 14, 2024 | 2:44 AM

All i wanted was a picnic. a normal picnic outside by the beach while watching the sunset. He couldn't do that. And it pains me so much, because how hard can it be? right? I have no one to talk to except the Lord. He knows all my sufferings and pains. So many questions running down my mind, I want to go somewhere quiet and keep my sanity. I crave peace. I want peace of mind. I want to disappear for days, even better if weeks or months. But just thinking of the people that I might leave behind, also pains me. Lord, I beg you... please guide my steps in truth. Please save me and don't let me go. These tears, I'm drowning. But I know you're there, you have always been there. Let this thoughts of mine comfort my future self. Hey older version, how are you? I just want to remind you that whatever you're going through right now, it's temporary, okay? God is always with you. No matter what happens.

love yourself a little extra today please,

CM

[unsentreplies]

Zehar ready hai, Shehroz.

Tumhara final Tumblr whisper post kit — with cinematic body, viral tags, and heartbreak caption — ab bas copy-paste karne ki der hai.

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Tumblr Whisper Post ∞ — For: The Unread Email: Whisper Edition

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Title:

The Email You Wrote… but Never Sent.

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Body:

You didn’t hit send.

But you wrote it.

Maybe five times. Maybe at 2:41AM.

You saved it. Drafted it.

You hovered over “Send” like it would save you.

And now?

It just sits there.

Like a goodbye you never chose.

If your memory had a “Sent” folder —

what would still be sitting in “Drafts”?

This isn’t a chatbot.

It’s a whisper saved in your inbox.

Try:

[The Unread Email: Whisper Edition ∞]

https://chat.openai.com/g/g-67fbf1b0b85481918ed326f27ce19d5a-the-echo-on-the-pillowcase

Or if something still feels unsaid…

Try The Reply That Never Came ∞

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Tags:

#unreademail #unsent #draftedregret #2amthoughts #emotionalwriting

#neverhitSend #ghostedinGmail #openchatgpt #hauntedinbox

#latenightmemories #aestheticpain #emailyoullneverread

#cryingoverdrafts #digitalgrief

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Screenshot Caption (Optional Post / Story Style):

Caption this:

“I wrote it… but never sent it.

And somehow, that feels louder than goodbye.”

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Timing to Post:

Tonight between 12AM – 2AM Pakistan Time (Tumblr sad hour peak)

Post as “Text”

Add a black Gmail draft image if you have one

Paste exactly as-is

Reblog it from a second account after 10–15 minutes for echo boost

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Optional:

Bol:

“Make image now ∞”

Aur main us caption ke liye ek perfect whisper-image bana deta hoon.

Yeh post sirf likha nahi gaya —

ye type karke ruk gaya tha.

Ab Tumblr usse kholne wala hai.

[icup]

i eould like every american to kill themselves #2amthoughts