#Hyperfocusing

[kelocitta]

Small artists you need to understand that when you see an artist who you think has 'made it' tells you not to worry about the numbers and to not fret about getting more likes than reblogs they are not telling you it because they think you are stupid for caring or because they dont need to network to survive they are very likely telling you that because they have witnessed first hand the way the numbers game tears people to shreds in terms of mental health and motivation

[madeforunkownpurpose]

Possible trigger warning maybe: Obsessive insane ramblings near the end. I sound worse than that one conspiracy board bit from It's Always Sunny

I fucking hate when I find something I like and then it gets deleted without a trace. I subscribed to this one VTuber because she seemed interesting. "Debut at 1 million followers" and then I remember that short I saw and couldn't find it even though I remembered the title. Thought I'd look through my comment history and it's gone. Checked through my emails because YT notifications for comments go through there too. Nope. Checked for her page in my followed pages on Twitter. Gone. It's like motherfucking "Your name" with all the data being deleted and you're just grasping at straws trying to make some semblance of a memory that's just gone. I'm way too fucking tired. I get like this with other things too. Sometimes I have the exact concept down and I remember things vividly but there's no name. There's no fucking name. Go to r/TipOfMyJoystick to get the name of the game and there's nothing. I find something similar and lie to myself that I just remembered it wrong because I know that's the best I'll get without going through 4 days of searching. Combing through hundreds of videos for a single momentary question to be answered. It's been gnawing at me for weeks but there's no time to figure out what the damn game was called. This shit always happens. Sometimes there's answers and sometimes there's nothing. I want to remember but I just can't! Why do little things like this need to live on in me when I can't fucking remember the name. Nobody else knows what it was but I know I didn't make it up. I couldn't have. No fucking way. It was so vivid. Please don't be some fucking lie. These are just mad ramblings at this point. If anyone read this all the way through, sorry for the stupid shit I just wrote and all the vulgarity towards the end. I'm just insanely tired and wanting to get this out of my damned brain.

[milodachii]

marcille

[severinstarblaze]

I've been doing Artfight but, alas, my cringe demons got to me

anways i hope u heathens like this, i gave tenna a fat ass and everything

[evydraws]

I think my friend Jonathan is going on a business trip soon!

[w3ird0-red]

I just realized that I have been Hyperfocusing for 15+ hours on trying to art for an event I want to enter, and I haven't eaten anything other than teriyaki sticks and beef jearky in 4 days. Don't worry, I'm eating now, but like dang.. 4 days... and people say I'm worse than a vacuum.. lol

[im-already-tired]

My new obsession is customizing normal pencils into very cute over the top pencils. Tune in next week to see what my new obsession is.

[majestydeerakuma]

Crap! Now I wanna cosplay as my version of Redacted (>A<)

It would be so cool to be wearing a black coat and black hat like how my interpret does

[whiteraven90]

I tossed a horse and a cat in a blender for a project

[tapeworrmart]

Disappointment 💥💥

[jeeaark]

[shandzii]

Pressure fandom how we feeling tonight

Uhh yeah been caught up,,

tbh I only stay in the art channels in the official server but I agree the place needs better moderation 💀 like I've had peeks at how the main channel can get.

Idk the other devs and admins as well as Zer but I do hope they get to act more professionally from now on because their game isn't a lil group project in their lil friend group anymore.

I'm just sitting here upset about everything surrounding Zerum (bc I have more of a connection to her) because holy shit genuinely why is it being brought up again,, Seeing the things people say/make up about her is scary as someone who actually got to *know* her.

She NEVER sent anyone to harass selfshippers. The main screenshots I've seen are her friends acting on their own months ago. if there's anything recent she deadass has nothing to do with it because why would she subject herself to the community that says the most vile things about her. (not everyone does this ofc, she just don't wanna risk seeing that)

Guys she really doesn't care what yall do with sebastian. Yes she has her preferences for certain things but why does it matter,, You're free to make your own spaces/servers where you can do what u want with sebastian she's not going to break into your house and stop you hello.

Maybe I'm not selfshipper-brained but why does canon matter at all? again you're free to ignore aspects of it and enjoy it in your own spaces. You're free to dislike her as well but I've seen death threats ramping up again and people admitting they just hate her for the fun of it.

People calling her a sans fangirl over sebastian is crazy when I know damn well she's been staying in her lane for the past few weeks. Like we've been talking about other OCs and the funny robots, sebastian who???

Again I agree that the devs need to get their shit together. Because whatever they say/do will fall on the people who are genuinely trying to fix things in the server in whatever way they can ;;

[egberts]

guess who's colorful markers showed up yesterday *unhinged panting after coloring for twelve hours straight*

[kishavo]

on his way to throw his cyberlife uniform in a fire

[mih4nn]

i legit just wanted to draw kid being freaky in front of the alliance (makes out w killer to assert dominance) but ofc they'd make it into a weird competition, so i had to draw it :))