#I don’t have much of a outlet idk I just need to get things out of my head and into words

[manthemoth]

ANOTHERRRR LIFE UPDATE

Hii sorry I haven’t really been on here much I like to ramble about the going ons in my life and I feel bad when I neglect a social so hi I’ve mostly been doing like James self ship on one of my Twitter accounts and don’t know if you guys would like it over here which is why I haven’t been posting much bcs it’s all I have the energy for at the moment it’s become a coping mechanism lmaoo. I had to go to the er recently because my mental health hit a new low and am having to start intensive out patient care yay so essentially I want to draw and I want to finally update my fic but I just have not had the motivation or time I have such little energy for most things </3 I have not abandoned y’all I’m just…going hashtag through it. Found out I have a disorder of the borderline and personality variant which I’m still sort of trying to work through my feelings about it’s been real rough. I hope you guys have been doing well I do miss it over here I will return to you one day…if anyone wants the account I’m most active on rn it’s brasspeta1s on twt

Here’s some lil selfship doodles under the cut I did idk

[batsandbirdbrains]

Okay but say Dick did turn out to actually be Bruce’s biological son. Maybe when he was traveling the world learning to be Batman or whatever, he stumbles upon a circus in Europe. And he meets a young couple of acrobats, and they teach him acrobatics for a few weeks. And one thing leads to another, and they have a threesome maybe once or twice or thrice. It’s just fun. They’re all barely 20 and they’re just having a good time.

And then he gets a letter a year later with a picture of a black haired, blue eyed baby who, in Bruce’s opinion, looks just like every other baby he’s ever seen. And Mary and John let him know that they’re not really sure who the dad is, it’s either John or Bruce, but they love their little Robin (he was born on the first day of Spring! The thought makes Bruce smile) and they just wanted to let him know that it’s very possible he’s a father. They’re not asking for money, and they don’t want to send little Dickie to live with him or anything, they fully intend on raising him in the circus, but they thought it would be polite to let him know he’s maybe got a child out there.

Bruce falls in love the second he sees the first picture of Dickie. He writes back immediately saying he wants to meet the baby, he won’t take him away, but he wants to keep in touch and he wants to know him.

Bruce flies out to Sweden a few months later and meets the baby when he’s 7 months old. He thought he’d already been in love with sweet little thing, he has a whole album of pictures that Mary and John have sent him, but holding him for the first time is magical. He knows in his heart that Dick is his son, he has no doubts about it.

Bruce visits them regularly. Dick is 9 months old when Bruce swears he hears him say dada, when Bruce is meeting up with them in Spain. When Dick is 11 months old, Bruce is visiting them in France when Dick takes his first steps.

Bruce meets up with them every few months. John and Mary send pictures regularly. Dick calls him Daddy. Dick has a Mama and a Pa and a Daddy, and he knows his family is a little different, but he loves them all so much.

Then the first time the circus visits Gotham, Dick is eight years old. He hasn’t seen his Daddy in what feels like ages, and he’s so excited to be in Gotham, because after the first show, Mama and Pa are going to take him to Daddy’s house and they’re going to have dinner and they’re going to take six whole months off from the circus to stay with Daddy in Gotham. They’re going to spend the spring and the summer together. Dick’s eighth birthday was a couple weeks ago, but Daddy couldn’t be there because of a big Wayne Enterprises meeting, so he promised to make it up to him by giving them all the best vacation they could imagine.

But then the wires snap, and everything is a blur of screaming and flashing lights and blood, so much blood.

Dick ends up in juvie for a month before Bruce can get custody of him, Dick’s social worker claiming there are no available foster homes. He’s not allowed to visit Dick more than once a week, because there’s no formal documentation that Bruce is actually his father.

The first thing Bruce does once he gets custody of Dick is prove that Dick is his son. And even though Bruce never needed a DNA test before, they need it now to make everything official.

No one believes it at first. The media makes outrageous claims that Dick, the apparent eight year old evil mastermind, has somehow tricked Bruce Wayne into making him his heir.

Several news outlets get sent cease and desist orders. Bruce is livid.

Idk I just think it’s fun when Dick turns out to be Bruce’s actual biological kid.

[vaguely-concerned]

My two cents on how much of Mind!Varric is Rook’s mind trying to fill the blank space and how much is Solas actively talking through a convenient blood magic paper doll of the mind: I think it's a mix of both, a truly collaborative psychosocial horrorshow if you would, but waaaay more towards the second. It feels too directed and tactical at times to be anything else. Rook's mind is willing to go along with the denial phase as far as it can fucking carry them to not have to face the grief and regret and does its part in papering over details that don’t make any sense, the way brains will strive to create coherent meaning even out of deeply confusing input, but to my understanding it's a collaborateur in how that plays out, not the instigator or control center. Solas is using it as a path to agency and to gather insight into Rook as a person unguarded as he can't count on in his own guise. (That stoic option that leads to him being like 'oh I see you're cautiously denying me access to your inner life. well. at least you still have Varric to talk to. y'know as an outlet :)'. You absolute BITCH Solas! That alone convinced me that he HAS to have an active hand in it on some level.)

My guess is that it takes considerable effort on Solas’ part to make Mind!Varric do anything more involved or complicated than seeming to sit up in bed and give casual commentary, and that’s why he keeps having eerie five minute shallow pep talks with you before he announces he conveniently needs a nap aaanyway good luck kid you got this haha. When he’s just spouting NPC lines from his bedrest, I’m ready to believe that could be Rook’s mind being allowed to improv lines for him more freely because it’s less about Solas trying to get something out of them or working an angle and more ‘Still here! Still totally alive and fine and the mentor figure you know and love and trust :) don’t even worry about it! Thankfully there is no war in Ba Sing Sei, as we all know’ upkeep work lol. Rook’s mind is allowed to set the tone of Varric, the outlines, but not always the content. 

AND, on a (beautifully fucked up) character psychology level, I feel like Solas is indulging in actually getting to be the good supportive mentor figure to Rook with one hand to assuage the guilt he feels about what he's done -- and what he's going to do -- to them with the other. Same internal logic as he uses in Trespasser about the Qun. ‘Almost everyone is going to die from the course of action I’m doggedly pursuing eventually. But at least I can make their last years happier and freer and kinder than they would have been otherwise. and that kind of makes up for it right. a little bit. doesn't it. doesn't that make it better at least. I need that to make it better)'. Did I really take your beloved mentor and friend from you if you don’t know yet that I did? Some philosophers would argue not really! So it’s probably almost ok actually. Isn’t it even a little noble that I’m taking all this grief and guilt on myself and shielding you for now. With undertones that I’m not sure he would realize himself (and might be mortified by if he did) that he is so incredibly lonely, and even a dishonest and indirect emotional connection is more than nothing when you’re that desperate. In this setup he gets idk. Both the control he craves so incredibly badly in relationships and over himself, and the scraps, the fading afterimages, of intimacy and warmth and companionship, even second hand. The one thing Solas and Rook agree on deep deep down is that they really wish Varric weren't gone. They're handshake memeing this in the saddest and most creepy way possible.

I think an important element too is that Solas needs Rook and their team to *succeed* —  up to a certain point. He needs someone to hold the two other elven mean girls off until he can get out of here. Ideally, in a perfect world, even do all the hard work of killing them so he can swoop in at the end and do his thing when both sides are exhausted and out of resources to stop him, and then Bob’s your uncle! Same logic as he was using with Corypheus, and after that worked out so well, too! King of choosing to never learn from a single solitary mistake he’s ever made even though i fully believe he could have the capacity to Fen’Harel <3 The underlying idea isn’t flawed, you see, it was just unforeseen circumstances getting in the way. This time for sure it’ll all work out the way I cleverly imagined it in my head beforehand. Cue By Talos this can’t be happening etc. in the form of a statue almost crushing him like a bug. 

So he's providing guidance and forging Rook into a leader from two angles: one Rook might not trust, and one they probably will. Shaping them into what he needs slowly and carefully. He’s helping you hone your team into their most effective state, as he might have done with his own agents back in the day, setting up his chess pieces even if he has to squint through two glimpsed realities to do it haha. Pincer maneuver of an insidious stealth mentor you never asked for. Also… at one point mind Varric gives you a whole little monologue about how Solas' problem is that he’s always seen his interpersonal connections as flaws and see where it’s landed him, all alone and the worst part? it hasn’t even worked. it’s all been for nothing he’s back where he began with nothing to show for it but his mistakes. Like...that has such strong 'uh okay happy to play your therapist from two rooms away here what the fuck kind of traumadump is this' energy to me, I’m not sure Rook like. Thinks that much about Solas as a private person. So much of Solas' self-loathing and futile insights into his own flaws seem to shine through in Mind!Varric's dialogue all the time ��� I just can't believe that there's no guiding hand behind it as it were. 

Most of all. I feel like people underestimate the degree to which Solas is incredibly funny. As in, he has a very consistent and recognizable sense of humour. It’s one of my very favourite things about him. We must remember — it is crucial that we always keep in mind — Orlesian accent and wig Solas from May The Dread Wolf Take You (my beloved, the explanation for why I love this dude even with the. All of the everything else. No one does it quite like him). He is not at all above doing things or adding little flourishes for his own obscure amusement, in fact that seems to me to be one of his most consistent traits. The Randy Dowager Quarterly comment Varric has? The ‘Maybe this is the Dread Wolf’s revenge. Forcing us to house sit for him’ thing? To Me this is 100% Solas amusing himself in his boring Fade jail surrounded by the screaming hellscape of all his regrets. Source: it came to me as divine revelation through pure vibes trust me bro 

If nothing else I find it much more narratively interesting personally if the connection between Rook and Solas really is that defenselessly intimate and entwined (and so unbalanced!), and the sense of violation and invasion and betrayal afterwards consequently all the more nauseatingly intense. Even if you kept him at arm’s length in the open, he’s been under your skin the whole time, looking around, gathering what he needs to destroy you, wearing the face of a friend. Regretfully, probably, but choosing to do it every step of the way anyway. (Sound familiar, Inquisitor? Solas doesn’t have that many tricks when you actually look at it, he keeps returning to old tried and true ones like a dog with a bone haha.) Maybe he even genuinely meant some of it as mercy, which only makes it so much worse. It makes his sin against his own core principles of autonomy and the freedom of all beings in mind, spirit and body so much more juicily grave if it’s something he pursues actively and consistently, rather than it half-falling into his lap as a happy accident mainly orchestrated by Rook’s own subconscious. Solas, too, is at his very lowest point, the closest to giving in and becoming his own antithesis fully that he’s ever been, and it makes the choice of whether you still reach out your hand to him one last time or not all the more impactful and difficult.

[gatorbites-imagines]

Hello! First of all I wanted to say that damn I love your fics, they give me so much gender euphoria and are so validating. Second, I understand if you feel unconfortable with this request but how do you think Homelander would react to reader's self harm scars? Since he's basically a god, I wouldn't be suprised by how a "fragile little creature" like a human could do this and why.

John Gillman/Homelander x male reader

Headcanons

idk why i chose this gif, he just looks so cute here.

I ignore how in canon hed probably be a horrible guy about it. I am a firm fanon believer.

In the beginning I don’t even really think John would register that his lover has self-harm scars, since it’s never something he’s thought about himself. I imagine he’s had self-harming thoughts before sure, but never cutting himself since nothing can cut through him.

Hes probably tried to hurt himself one way or another, since he isn’t really the best place mentally, or when he thinks he isn’t doing good enough and whatnot.

But at first it doesn’t really click for him, since he’s so unused to seeing scars since he has none himself. It would probably take John longer than he would like to admit for it all to make sense, and it would be after you got comfortable enough to go around in short sleeves.

Maybe you think he’s just always known, since he’s got x-ray vision and all that, so he must have known from the beginning, right? And he just never said anything about it. yeah, not really.

He will act like that’s how it all went, because there’s no way Johns gonna admit that he didn’t notice something so important, no matter if they are old or fresh. If they’re fresh, John would build a habit of checking on you every time he sees you, just in case, you know?

He might still do this, even if they are old and you haven’t done it in a long time. Because who knows, maybe things become so stressful that you need that outlet again.

Shamefully, to John at least, the hero would find himself going online to check it out. Hes got no training in mental illness or how to deal with that, which messes with him since he’s supposed to be perfect.

So he finds himself on different forums, from both people who have done it, and partners of people who have self-harmed, reading into how they deal with it or react. John being, well, John, would probably grow annoyed because its all types of emotionally vulnerable stuff, something he’s horrible at.

There is also little chance he would bring it up, at least in the beginning. Again, because it’s a new ground he’s never been on, and its an emotional conversation he can’t figure out how to navigate.

The conversation would end up coming up as you two are cuddling, and John finds himself carefully stroking the area with the scars, trying to comprehend why and how you would do that. What did you go through? There might also be some guilt, since he couldn’t save you from whatever made you self-harm, even if you guys didn’t even know each other at the time.

It would end up with you explaining it to him, since you guys are in a relationship and its all built on trust, right? And he’s been so chill about it this entire time, so why not tell him.

You almost get a heart attack when he starts getting glossy eyes and his bottom lip wobbles just a little, because John has been stressed about this since he figured it out, and he just doesn’t know how to react or what to do.

In the end its you that has to comfort him, and explain that it isn’t a big deal and nothing to cry about. But you also know it’s a new experience for John. Theres also some fear in John, since seeing your scars make your morality so clear. If you could get scars from that, imagine what others could do to you.

After some cuddling and comforting, John would tell you strictly to never do it again. You cant take him seriously though, since his usually styled hair is all mused and his eyes are pink around the edges, and, he’s pouting again.

You promise not too though, since it gets him to smile a little and cuddle you again, clinging to you as hard as he dares with his super strength. You make him vulnerable, and the Homelander part of him doesn’t like that, but the John part of him basks in it, at how human you make him feel.

Maybe hed even let slip that he had thoughts like that too, even if he couldn’t cut or burn himself like you could. That just means his self-harm shone through in more mental or extreme ways.

John builds a habit of brushing his fingers or kisses over your scars, not just the self-harm ones, but all of them. Its part to remind himself that you are so fragile, but also to remind him that you are alive and there with him.

He won’t admit this though, since its cheesy. And he grows embarrassed if you ever bring it up, making him grumble and walk away to pout. It never lasts, and he’s back not long after.

[httpvomitello]

Oi amore (also br lol)

Ok hear me out, miscommunication Headcanon but with a bit of spice, what if! Tmnt boys (separated, like a Headcanon for each turtle) and reader hooked up (like… on accident lmao, idk they got heated after a discussion, mission or drinking and it happened, and it *kept happening* without them having “the talk” of feelings and all, it’s mutual but the turtle and reader are afraid of commenting on it)

After their last hook up reader is silent + looks troubled; when the boys finally ask what’s wrong reader hits them up with the question “what are we? What do you want to be?” And out of defense mechanism the boys respond they just wanna keep it as it is, (they are afraid of reader not desiring something more / thinking they deserve better, etc) to stick to something physical, which leads reader to pull back a bit on how affectionate they were and become reserved? Cold? Calculated? They do deliver what they are told, both reader x turtle are still physical, but cuddling, kissing, anything the reader used to do, they don’t anymore; and turtles miss that?

(Does this make sense ? I hope so! If not you can ignore it, thank you 🫶)

Eai, amore! Tudo bom? Fiquei feliz em ver mais um BR por aqui ksksks. Espero que goste! ♡♡♡♡

What Are We?

Leonardo

Leo never intended for things to escalate the way they did

It started after a particularly tough mission, emotions were high, and you both needed an outlet

One thing led to another, and suddenly, you two were hooking up. At first, he convinced himself it was just physical

You both needed comfort, and it was mutual, no big deal, right? But it kept happening

It became something regular, yet unspoken, and that scared him

You’d just finished another night together, and while you’re lying beside him, there’s a silence that feels heavy

Leo can tell something’s on your mind

When you finally ask, “What are we? What do you want us to be?” it’s like a punch to his chest. He freezes

His immediate instinct is to protect himself, and maybe protect you too

So, he says, “I think it’s best we keep it how it is.” He’s afraid. Afraid of wanting more, afraid you don’t want the same, and afraid of getting too close

After that, something shifts

You stop with the little affections, the way you used to touch his arm, the gentle kisses you’d leave on his cheek

You still hook up, but it’s mechanical now. No cuddles, no lingering touches

Just sex.

At first, Leo tries to tell himself it’s better this way. Less complicated. But soon, the silence after each encounter starts gnawing at him

He misses the intimacy, the connection

He misses you.

One night, after you leave his side without a word, Leo can’t take it anymore

He stands in front of you, blocking the door. “I don’t want this anymore,” he admits, his voice barely above a whisper. “I was wrong. I do want more. I want you, all of you.”

He looks at you with those piercing blue eyes, vulnerability written all over his face

Maybe... Just maybe, you could start over.

Raphael

For Raph, it all started after a heated argument

The two of you were butting heads about something stupid, and in the midst of all that frustration, you ended up in each other’s arms, and bed

It became your thing, no feelings talked about, just raw, physical connection

For Raph, it was perfect

Until it wasn’t.

After your last encounter, you sit up in bed, looking troubled. Raph’s stomach twists as he watches you hesitate before asking,

“What are we, Raph? What do you want this to be?”

His defenses go up immediately. Feelings? Talk about feelings? He’s terrified that you’ll think he’s too much, or worse, that you don’t actually want more with someone like him

So, he shrugs, pretending not to care. “Why mess with what’s workin’? It’s fine like this, ain’t it?”

You take his words to heart, and the change is immediate. You pull back

No more playful touches, no more affectionate kisses after your hookups

Everything between you two becomes colder, more distant. It’s just physical now, and Raph hates it

He tells himself this is what he wanted, but every time you get up to leave without a word, it tears him apart

He misses the way you used to look at him, the softness in your touch

After another cold, emotionless encounter, Raph snaps

He grabs your arm before you can leave, his voice rough and vulnerable. “I can’t do this anymore. I want more. I need more. I need you,” he admits, his heart racing. “Don’t pull away from me.”

Donatello

For Donnie, it started with a late-night research session

You were hanging out in his lab, the two of you laughing and talking about random things, and before he realized what was happening, you were in each other’s arms

It caught him off guard, but the chemistry was undeniable

The hookups became regular, but Donnie, ever the overthinker, analyzed every second of it

He never brought up his feelings because he was scared of ruining things, scared that you didn’t want more than the physical

After your last hookup, Donnie notices you’re quieter than usual, and his anxiety spikes

When you finally turn to him and ask, “What are we, Donnie?” He panics

His heart is screaming to tell you how much you mean to him, but his brain is warning him that you might not feel the same

In a rush, he says, “I think we should keep it as it is. It’s working, right?”

After that conversation, everything changes

You stop with the soft touches, the gentle kisses, the affectionate moments that used to make Donnie’s heart soar

Now it’s just the physical, and Donnie feels hollow inside

He misses the closeness, the warmth you used to give him. Every time you leave, he stares at the door, aching for things to go back to the way they were

One afternoon, after another silent, distant encounter, Donnie can’t take it anymore

He stops you before you can leave, his voice shaky but determined. “I can’t do this,” he says, his eyes pleading with you. “I was wrong. I want more. I want... us.”

Michelangelo

For Mikey, the whole thing started as something fun

You were always teasing each other, and one night, things escalated

It was easy, natural, and Mikey thought it was the best of both worlds. You two had chemistry, and the physical touch was exciting

He didn’t see any reason to mess with it by having “the talk"

Deep down, though, he was scared you wouldn’t want more with someone like him

After your last hookup, you sit in silence for a while, and Mikey feels the tension

He tries to lighten the mood, but when you finally ask, “What do you want us to be?”

He freezes

The idea of confessing how much he wants you scares him. What if you don’t feel the same? What if you think he’s too much?

So, he jokes it off, saying, “I mean, we’re good, right? No need to complicate things, babe.”

After that, things change

You stop with the affection, no more playful touches, no more sweet moments after your hookups. Everything becomes cold, and Mikey feels the shift immediately

He misses the way you used to cuddle into him, the way you’d kiss him softly when you thought he wasn’t looking

Now, everything feels like a transaction, and Mikey hates it

One day, after another cold, distant encounter, Mikey breaks

“I miss you,” he blurts out, his voice shaky. “Not just... this. I miss you. I don’t wanna keep pretending like I don’t care, because I do. I want more. I want you.”

[xoladybella]

this is my two cents on the topic, nobody asked for lol. The question everyone is asking- why now?? Many months later? So either Nic is trying to tell everyone, Luke & I are besties with partners or Nic & Luke are a family ( I say family if you follow Fiat & Fran. It the answer is option 1, cool! We are adults. This shouldn’t change how you see Nic and Luke BUT, why now lol. If Nic and Luke were just besties, why now follow Anotina back in June when luke was being bullied everyday. A simple hit of the button”follow” would have stopped majority of the troll behavior to Luke. But nooooo, she didn’t follow in June, July, august, September, October, November, December, or January but chooses February to now follow 👀. If you follow Fiat & Fran, they have explained in great detail, why February is an important month.

let’s be honest, Luke was unhinged- and we love it- last night. He lights up around her. Nic tries to play it cool with buddy vibes but soon, she can’t keep up the charade either. I mean, she is literally touching Luke at the dinner tag at the event. The seats are designed to be close enough to talk to one another but space to eat and mingle. Nic’s chair is right next to and close to Luke. When they are on the red carpet, he is talking to someone and she just waits on him. She could have said, I’ll be back. Sunday was the perfect night to let the world know they are friends. They had every media outlet there. And they didn’t do that at all. They went back to no space, never being separated, sitting next to each other at the after party, Nic doing a bad job trying to act like she didn’t know Luke went to that Mexican restaurant- her response, oh you did! Ma’am you know this, you just saw him last night lol. Luke staying: Nic this and Nic that. Nic keeps talking about that baby like it’s their baby. She did that at the Irish award show. It confused on interviewer. Then when the ET lady said- we need a happy ending, Luke just looks at her and smile, awkward silence and Nic goes- hey hey. WTF was that!!!! Now they have people who didn’t know them or part of the GA watching them.

lastly, sorry for the book lol. Fiat made this comment months ago. Luke fell on the sword for his family. Luke would give his kidney to Nic. He took a lot of abuse this summer. What if Nic is falling on the sword for Luke to protect their family. Nic is doing all this to protect something or someone. It may look crazy to some people but it’s doing what she feels is best. I hate to say it, but I fear- if together, Nic and Luke are going to get papped soon. Nic is trying to control the narrative and pookie is no help on that lol. They do compliment one another. Luke is unhinged in person but great with his SM presence. Nic is great with her lives, but she is unhinged on SM lol. I think Nic is on tumblr so she is seeing when people said- why not just follow Antonia.

Thanks for reading.

Don’t apologize anon, I love this. I like the thought process you’re putting out. I agree with so many things you said. The timing is of the follow is definitely weird. But idc about it honestly. I actually laughed when I first saw it all over X, the tweets were so funny. She isn’t fooling anyone! She realized what her and Luke did (reveal that they’re still unhinged together and completely in love) and is trying to throw a curve ball. Or, as I’ve seen, is to help A? Idk. I’m still trying to gather information and figure out where I land on this.

That middle paragraph is 💯. Luke and Nic couldn’t get enough of each other and it was so obvious. They light up together but I agree, Lukey pookie was even more obvious about it. He loves that woman so much.

He did get so much hate, unfairly and we know there was a lot going on bts. She can try to control it as much as she wants but the cat is out of the bag 🙂‍↔️ I hope they don’t get papped either. I want them to come out on their time, when they’re ready. Umm if she is, hello Nic 🤭👀

[atopvisenyashill]

imagine you’re ned. your son and heir is nearly marriageable age and your family is down to one (1) slender branch. your eldest daughter is also a major catch and nearing an age when a betrothal might be arranged. you’ve also got a bastard son whose future urgently needs to be decided, and three younger children whose futures must be considered too. you are severely traumatized by everything that went down during robert’s rebellion, and while it’s the long summer, winter is coming. what plans do you make for your children?

i think the key thing here to understand is that ned wants to BURY this secret. that’s his MAIN priority. so personally if i’m ned, i don’t want any of my kids in the capital. rip to robert but if i was ned trying to avoid the capital, i would have made sure those kids were promised before he came calling. probably also, the best place for jon IS the wall comma but we know ned did sort of want robb & jon to continue being close and EYE think it’s mean to banish a child to the wall SO!

i’m going to apologize without apologizing to catelyn about being so hostile about the wylla of it all*** and signaling that i will be less hostile to anything she has to say regarding her feelings towards jon or wylla from this point forward.

im sitting the oldest three down and telling them You Aren’t Grown But You’re Not A Baby. i am expecting more from you but also, i didn’t know shit when i became lord, its fine if you don’t know, that’s why you have all these advisors. i’m emphasizing family togetherness here.

also im telling catelyn to have a talk with sansa about like, Being A Woman; like a for real one where she’s Serious to Sansa about the actual reality of it (bc it does seem like they don't ever....genuinely prepare Sansa which is crazy bc Catelyn seems from her own memories plenty prepared for her move & marriage)

idk that Ned notices the catelyn-arya issue as an issue. i think he sees this as very typical exasperated mom-unruly daughter thing. however, if he’s paying more attention to them bc he is being possessed by the spirit of bisexual asshole from chicago, i think the fact that sansa & arya argue all the time is p obvious, so i Do think id sit them down & be like “the hell is happening between you two” and i’m arriving much faster at “arya needs an outlet” and letting her train with the boys/finding someone who will train her. if catelyn is like “this will not help her behavior” my argument is nothing else has why can’t we try something new + i mean cat if YOU want to learn how to use a sword, i can get someone to train you too. maybe you would feel better if you got to beat the shit out of something once a day idk. i can put some padding on theon if you want and you can just go hog wild. something something the north is hard.

then i am engaging sansa POST HASTE. even one Second of thinking would tell you that robert was gonna want to engage joffrey to sansa, they are Very close in age!!! so im simply beating him to the punch PUBLICLY

but not like too publicly, i dont want robert to know im husband hunting until its too late

who do i engage her to? i mean that’s tricky bc catelyn is going to have opinions & imo if they’re too Weird of a choice, robert is going to send a raven like “hey just call that off i got joff right here.” probably the only non northern house that Doesn’t get robert’s attention in a negative way is the blackwoods, with brynden being around sansa’s age and heir.

but really staying in the north is key - you’re probably guaranteed an immediate yes and i think ned could absolutely pull the “my whole family is dead robert, let me keep my kids in the north” card. does this argument work? honestly, no idea but i think it doesn’t hurt to announce it first and if necessary ask for forgiveness afterwards.

esp bc as you say, they’re down to One (1) branch. i do think ned can and Would lean heavily on guilting the hell out of robert IF after he announces the engagement robert is like “what the fuck”

(if robert asks about arya, well first of all i’m making the same argument, second of all, i will have prepared for that and had a betrothal for her too that i can’t possibly break.)

but we’re threading a thin needle here when it comes to all these engagements being Good but not Suspicious. the girls are tricky are on their own but jon is a whole can of worms. i dont need to get jon engaged any time soon - men get married later often anyway, and if i give him a nice match, catelyn is going to have a heart attack. but i think ned would just fully commit to Giving Jon A Place At Winterfell if he gets to make the choice before robert comes (is sending him to the wall easier? probably, but so was sending him with howland so). to tell jon “you will be to robb what i would have been to brandon, what i wish i would have had.”

i think id just like, foster jon somewhere. and not in a “im sending you away” way, i would once again compare him to myself, since ned also got fostered, and i'd ask for jon's input to make it clear this isn't a punishment for Existing As A Bastard. two ways to do this. either i get the boys together (EYE Rani VisenyasHill would also bring sansa in but i do Not think that would occur to ned) and say “what are your opinions on which of our vassals we should foster a stronger bond with by sending them jon for a few years?” OR im going “and i know just who to send you to - my good friends HOWLAND REED” whatever causes ned less anxiety. robb gets to escort jon there (do i go with?? idk, worried that would make Robert look at me too much) and stay for a bit (brandon seemed to travel a lot, i think ned should encourage the same with robb. get these kids out of the fucking house ned!!). might send robb out on a lil tour just so people don’t get jealous idk

Prepare for Winter. idk what this entails when you have years longs winters. are they hoping to get one more round of produce planted and grown? do they start consolidating in the same castles for warmth and safety in case of snow? do they flock to the southern north houses, like does white harbor get Super packed during winter? i would assume white harbor gets kind of important as the only major port city but how far out does the ocean freeze?

anyways i think i’d float the idea of fostering bran out to white harbor, so he can become a knight and live in The Big City, with the aim of preparing him to start his own Stark cadet house. I'd focus on making it kind of Manderly-esque, in that the house is meant to be built around a city (maybe another port city?) and meant to culturally be a lil Southron-y.

i would ask jon & robb what they would prefer - jon living with bran (eventually) or jon returning to winterfell.

NOW ROBB'S MARRIAGE. okay, like, the thing is, i think it wouldn't hurt to continue fostering a sense of unity with the south by reaching out to a rich house who will give me a bride with a huge ass dowry that we can use to continue Preparing for Winter. but also. again it's about not pissing robert off. would he be upset if i said like, hey i'm engaging robb to margaery tyrell? maybe a myrcella match would make robert feel less jilted, especially since i am potentially sending jon off to foster elsewhere, so robert won't even have contact with the kid nor will myrcella until they're all grown up. but i do worry robert would get greedy, and also that this would be too much for ned's nerves.

not to be like, ned should be angling to be known as the Stark Who Cured Winter Starvation, but i do think Ned should have been really digging in and trying to make it easier to travel in the north. it gives him a great excuse to ignore robert, it regains some points with some of the lords in the north who seem to feel bitter about rickard & brandon's behavior, it cements his own legacy as A Lord Who Rose To The Occasion, A Lord Who Cared (which, imo, seems to be something Ned cares about - he is quite preoccupied with his reputation tbh!!), and it helps him get his house rebuilt.

tldr - foster jon somewhere in the north and let him feel like its his joint decision alongside robb (and sansa, maybe). get sansa & arya engaged BEFORE i even THINK about contacting robert for anything. send bran to foster at white harbor (not right away). Prepare For Winter (whatever that means). get robb a rich fiance so i can Prepare For Winter and be known as the stark who Prepared For The Winter. call me Ned the Prepared. Ned the Winter Killer.

all of this is so that by the time robert comes north after jon arryn has been off, i don't have to send sansa & arya down there, jon is already gone, and potentially I can say that myrcella can marry robb if robert gets pushy. also, this would allow me some semblance of control over the south if i have to go there - i've already started working on shit with wyman, mending fences through arya and sansa's engagements, and i have CRONIES to bring south. then i am immediately and i mean IMMEDIATELY going to fire the entire small council including renly, putting my own people in there, and telling stannis that if he doesn't get his ass to the capital right now i am accusing him of conspiring against the king and having him marched across the goddamn bay to answer for his behavior.

*** listen i can’t tell cat. this isn’t a debate about whether he should have it’s about If Ned Realized His Kids Would Grow Up One Day What Would He Do. if i want to keep jon around and fight marginally less with my wife about it, i think id just be up front about The Lie. that is to say, i'd apologize without apologizing (i dont think he’d would want to apologize when he’d do it again and i also think ned is too Like That to just lie to manipulate cat and say he’s sorry for how he’s approached it - and i do think we’re really stretching the limits of ned’s ability to lie here), and just tell her something about wylla. like, she was married & i completely fucked her life bc i was horny & sad and then i took her kid away from her and i’ve been really touchy about whether that was a good thing to do or not. something. say anything. fucking anything. just acknowledge he’s been a dick & also make her feel a little bad (he said that line about brandon, he’s not above a little guilt & low blows).

(the ashara story would work BETTER to get cat’s sympathy - like she KILLED HERSELF do you know what kind of yarn he could spin about that & his guilt keeping jon here bc of that!! but he’d never do that lol. tbh i’d also just bring up ashara - i would say that i reacted so negatively bc like, i murdered her brother and then she killed herself 😭 that’s bad enough and now people are saying she had my BASTARD? that i ruined her life TWICE and then she killed herself?? of course i was pissed off people were gossiping about it, but i should have been nicer to cat about it. but anyways, ned would just never lie on ashara’s name, he had the wylla story in mind and that’s the one he went with. but,,,, he HAS a story. ned SAY THE STORY OUT LOUD.).

Does this fix everything in their marriage? Obviously not, i’m sure Cat is still going to push about Jon, but I think signaling that i'm going to be less hostile about this would bring Cat’s hostility down in turn.

[cameronspecial]

hey lovely!! i’ve been thinking about rafe spoiling angel and taking her to those cute little stores with all of the cute plushies and stuff. idk, but i absolutely love your work, and i literally giggle and kick my feet when i see that you’ve written more 😛

ilysm pookieeee 😋😋

Let Me Spoil You, Angel

Pairing: Frat!Rafe Cameron x Reader

Warnings: Mentions of Sex

Pronouns: She/Her

Word Count: 1.0K

A/N: Thank you so much. It makes me giddy that you enjoy my work!

Masterlist

Y/N had just found out that she got into her top-choice Master’s Program and Rafe couldn’t be more proud of her. She’s been working so hard, so he wants to reward her for her accomplishments. “Rafe, why are we at the mall? You know I mostly shop at outlet stores,” she complains. Rafe brings her to his side, “I know, but why don’t you let me spoil you, Angel?” She exhales and bobs her head. “Fine, but not more than a hundred dollars,” she limits. She really does love it when he pampers her, but she needs to set some boundaries or else he’ll buy the whole mall. He shakes his head, “One thousand.”

“Two-fifty.” 

“Five hundred.”

“Fine, except I get to buy dinner.”

Rafe is satisfied with the offer and holds his hand out for her. He doesn’t want her to feel guilty about him always spending money on her. The first stop on their tour is the bookstore. He purposefully picked this mall because of the big indie bookstore inside. This is probably where she’ll spend most of her money. She has been browsing the science section of the store for about ten minutes now and has already picked out a few books. Rafe wants her to choose whatever she wants; however, he has a small request. He resets his chin on her shoulder, “Could you throw in some spicy romance books? I like proving to you that I am the ultimate book boyfriend.” Y/N giggles, remembering what happened when he caught her reading Icebreaker. She takes his hand and heads over to the romance section. She browses the books for a few minutes and picks one out. She examines the back, proceeding to add the whole series into the basket. “What’s the book about?” he asks because he is intrigued by the fact that she wants to buy all four books. She smiles at her, “The first one is a grump x sunshine book. She is a photographer and he is rich and her brother’s best friend. I’ve seen it on Bookstagram.” 

He follows her further down, “That sounds interesting. I can’t wait to see where it has us having sex next.” Shy about his words, Y/N turns her head away and continues to look at the books. They spend about forty minutes in the bookstore before moving on to  Miniso. Y/N stares at the wall of stuffed animals in front of her. She knows she wants one, but can’t decide which to choose. “Okay, so there are four possible ones that I want. The penguin, the cat, the bear, or the banana. Which one do you think, Rafe?” she consults. Rafe doesn’t use words to reply; instead, he goes to each one she points out and puts it inside the bag. He adds an elephant in just because he thinks she’ll find it cute. “Rafe, that’s too many. Where am I going to put them?” she reasons, trying to reach into the bag to return some of the plushies. 

He holds his hand out to stop her, “It’s still within your budget. We can put them in the frat storage if there isn’t space in my room and when we find a house in the summer, we just have to make sure there is enough room for them.” “Okay, I guess we can do that. Come on. I want to buy you some things too,” she tells him. They pay for the toys and she drags him to J. Crew. “You don’t have to use the money on me. It’s supposed to be for you.” She turns to him with a grin, “I know. This is for me too. You are going to do a fashion show for me.” Rafe isn’t one to like going shopping, but he will find joy in it if Y/N enjoys it. 

Y/N sits on the little stool Rafe got a sales associate to bring over, waiting for him to come out of the changing room. The door opens and he comes out wearing the teal and white-stripped button-up shirt with the tanned chinos that she picked for him. He does his best to catwalk towards her and spins around for her to take in the full look. “What do we think?” he questions. She gives him a thumbs up, “Rafe, you look so good. We are definitely getting those.” He nods his head before going back to the changing room to try on the next outfit. He comes out in black shorts and a light blue polo, which compliments his eyes. He mocks taking a golf swing, “This is the perfect outfit for golfing. We are going to have to get you a matching one.”

“I don’t golf, Rafe. You know that.” 

“I do, but don’t you think it would be fun to have a matching outfit? I can teach you how to play.” 

“Fine, it would be cool. We can go next week. Now, go finish trying on the rest of the clothes.”

He gives her a mock solute. After trying on the other outfits, they get her a matching outfit to Rafe’s and then go pay. They head to his car, having spent five hundred dollars in almost three hours. It’s a new record for them honestly. Rafe opens the passenger side door for her and she slides into the seat with a thank you. He puts the shopping bags in the trunk, making his way to the diver’s side. “Did you have a good day?” he postulates. His eyes land on her beaming mouth and she holds his chin in between her fingers. Her head moves up and down, “I had the best day. Thank you for spoiling me, Rafe.” She gives him a sweet kiss. “I will always shower my angel with gifts. Now, where are you treating me to dinner?” “Let’s get sushi!” she announces, pointing her finger in forward. He chuckles at how adorable she is and starts the car, driving in the direction of her favourite sushi restaurant.

Taglist: @winterrrnight @loves0phelia @thelomlisrafecameron @wickedlovely121 @queen-shadow22 @nonbullshit-toleratingkindagirl

[sunflowersandsapphires]

alrighty, i come to you for your thoughts on frank or matt, totally cool with either, with an emotional and sensitive reader, and maybe one of thr guys say something about a quirk of the reader, they meant it jokingly, but reader doesn't take it that way. they get defensive or try to maybe change that quirk, not wanting them to find them annoying cause of the people in their life, and the guys are so quick to apologize once they realize.

idk, i tend to be sensitive myself and always that people pleasing tendency to change myself if someone makes a slight comment, or cry over it 😭😂 so hearing an apology through them seems very helpful lol

Hello dear! I hope you’re having a good weekend.

And I HEAR YOU about being sensitive. I’m a sensitive girly myself, which is why I wrote the Reader in my Frank fic (When Skies are Gray) to be so sensitive 😂 I needed an outlet. But I can totally see this being a situation where Frank and Matt end up with their feet LODGED in their respect mouths.

This got LONG so I’m going to put it under a cut.

Matt

For Matt, I think he would genuinely be remarking on a quality he liked about you, not knowing he was treading on thin ice.

Like maybe he gets home late from work and you’re already bursting at the seams, excited to tell him every little detail about your day. The moment he steps through the door, you’re squealing and darting to kiss him hello. Immediately, he’s chuckling, happily accepting the tiny pecks you plant on his nose and cheeks.

He lets you eagerly tangle your hands together, tugging him inside and towards the couch as the words start pouring out of your mouth.

“Hi, Matty! How was your day? Did you win your case? Oh that reminds me! I picked up dinner for you! And the funniest thing happened on the way home!!”

You’re leaving room for him to respond, of course, but you can’t help the sheer giddiness you feel every time you’re in his presence. Matt loves it, of course. It makes him feel wanted, feel loved. But when he brushes a hand over your arm and gently cuts you off, it makes you freeze.

“I can’t wait to hear more about your day beautiful. Let me run and change first, then I’m all yours.” There’s a beautiful grin on his lips as he makes the offer, but it’s hard to focus on that when you suddenly can’t breathe.

Matt might not have meant anything by the comment, but many people before him had. Suggesting you were too much, too loud, too self-involved—seeing your excitement as a nuisance. Your mind immediately goes to that place, the defensive little corner you always felt pushed in when people picked on you. The echo chamber of self-doubt that suggested you fold yourself into something easier to swallow.

Your heart is lodged in your throat as he leaves to change, your lungs straining to take in oxygen around the obstacle. You shrink in on yourself instinctively, sitting on the edge of the couch like you don’t deserve to relax, to be comfortable in his home when you’ve taken up so much space already.

When Matt comes back, there’s a soft smile on his face. One that quickly falls when he registers your stuttering breaths and downward gaze. “What, what happened, sweetheart? What’s wrong?”

He sees right through your little fib of “Nothing,” dragging you into his lap with his amazing strength.

“If nothing’s wrong, you won’t mind telling me that funny story then, will you?” You shouldn’t be surprised that he can pick up on the root of the issue that easily, he reads your thoughts as if they’re transcribed just for him.

You duck into his neck bashfully. “You sure you want to hear it?”

Matt squeezes you tightly, hands splaying over your back and shoulder. “Of course I do! I love listening to you.”

After your story, he prods a bit further, investigating the cause of the sensitivity and assuring you that he loves the way you greet him when he comes home.

Rather than avoiding it entirely, I think Matt would honestly compliment your quirks even more going forward. I don’t think he’d have a single problem dating someone who was on the sensitive side. I actually think he’d love that about you!! (Even if it confused him at times)

I’ll probably reblog with Frank thoughts! But here’s this for now!

[tillythemenace]

People who enjoy THW come off as much more passive agressive and hostile to me than people who don't, in the sense of many arguments and debates I've seen even if the other person is being polite and showing constructive criticism at one point they just get indirectly or directly called dumb and illiterate by the movie enjoyers (or just the amount of posts I've seen from them saying that people who don't like the movie just don't have media literacy and disregarding any form of criticism)

Man I hear you… so far every single interaction I’ve had with those types of ppl is hostile and honestly, it’s not worth it. Makes me sad cause HTTYD fandom was such a huge part of me in my adolescence and seeing new hostile and entitled ppl come and take over these safe spaces is harsh 🤧

The thing that bothers me about THW is that it tries so hard to be “deep” when it really isn’t. There is no hidden message, no deeper meaning, it was just dumb. The movie is actually very blatant on its message that it actually lacks subtlety, which bothers me. And this is what creates these arguments…

And people particularly seem so defensive about it cause they do like it and they want to create meaning around it which is NORMAL. BUT the problem relies on how you treat others. I personally don’t understand the diehard defence of this movie. To me, it just screams insecurity. Like they can’t stand ppl not liking what they do cause it means you’ve failed as a person pfff ok…. It’s insanely pretentious to me to make statements like “you just don’t understand the genius of THW” cause no. There is no genius. It may have personal meaning to YOU, which kudos good for you, I would NEVER question the impact a movie has on an individual for personal reasons, but pretending no one understands it but you is just not objective. Learn to differentiate. If you wanna have an actual debate on it, you should be able to put aside your bias and analyze properly and FOLLOW THROUGH to the end but most ppl just don’t, so it creates an instant rift. Also calling everyone an idiot doesn’t help your argument, which is funny cause they label everyone as just mindless haters with no “critical skills” or “illiterate” (the adore that word lol) but when THEY hate on something just because then it’s ok pfff

Like it’s OKAY I PROMISE YOU, it’s totally OK to like trash. Just admit that’s it’s trash. Like, I like Sharktale and I know it’s trash and it’s ok. I still enjoy it. I can admit that. This goes for anything in general. I get it tho… it’s complicated… to feel like the whole fandom is against you so you push just as hard… but idk man maybe stop interacting if it bothers you this much?? Like why keep going?

Another thing you mention is this passive aggressiveness? Like yeah… that happens a lot in fandoms. Especially nowadays… there’s so much entitlement and defensiveness towards something u like (I talk about liking something not disliking), that you need it to be PERFECT AND MORALLY GOOD, otherwise you can’t like it. This moralization of “liking” the perfect good thing cause then it reflects on who you are as a person is an insane new wave of consuming things rn and it’s an incredibly toxic mentality. This has become a huge problem. You don’t HAVE to only like perfection and the things that you like don’t have to be perfect, it’s ok to like morally questionable things, to like trash, to like stuff that’s maybe weird. Cause then it can give you an outlet to explore things out of your comfort zone and maybe grow as a person idk man… So you defending THW to death doesn’t make u any better than the ones who don’t, cause they don’t “get it” like no. Ppl don’t have to get it and even less when is something personal TO YOU.

I can respect more an honest person than a fake toxic positivity type deal any day… it’s a toxic environment when you surround yourself with ppl that can’t bare any “negativity” or “criticism” cause then there’s no for reform. No change, no growth, no introspection. Engaging with hard stuff is a thing of LIFE itself. But oh well :/ My advice is stay in your own lane.

[blairdii]

do you know what i think?

i feel like all these people who hate lando are the same people who said that they would break the generational trauma cycle but think it doesn’t count on the internet because they still need some sort of outlet for that trauma.

like, they hate him for being sensitive and wearing his heart on his sleeve, because maybe someone in their life made them feel bad about being sensitive or made them feel like wearing your heart on your sleeve is a bad thing to do. they were called weak for doing that. so now they’re calling lando weak.

they hate him for having an ego, even though he’s not got as much ego as other drivers. maybe because they were taught that doing anything for yourself is selfish and shows that you’re egotistical. so him winning and him wanting to win makes him selfish and egotistical.

they hold him accountable for things he said six years ago. like they get held accountable for saying things they don’t even remember anymore, and they’ve suppressed everything that someone else said because they can’t hold them accountable.

they hate him because he hasn’t suffered enough for not being confident or whatever, that he had supportive parents, and more importantly, rich parents. because it’s drilled into their heads that only suffering = mental health problems. a rich, white guy in a rich sport is not suffering, he’s living the dream life.

they hate him because lando blames himself instead of the team or the car, except they hear him blaming the team or the car. just like when they were blaming themselves but someone else changed it completely and twisted their words to take it that they’re blaming someone else.

they hate him for having a life and travelling while also being good on track. because they were told that to focus on something, you have to let go of everything else, and now they’ve achieved that dream but they’re still alone.

they hate him for having emotions, because they were taught that emotion makes you weak and vulnerable and should never be seen by other people. how dare he have the privilege to be open about his emotions and they don’t?

they hate him for wanting to be the best, because they wanted to be the best too but someone compared them to someone else and made them feel like shit, so now they’re comparing him to someone else.

they hate him for wanting to earn every win, because it reminds them of how much blood sweat and tears they gave for their dreams and wished that a little luck would’ve helped them out instead of someone else.

they hate him for not being ruthless, because again, they were taught that being ruthless will help you achieve anything and everything, and they can’t fathom the idea that someone gentle was on his way to achieving his dreams.

they hate him for opening up about his life because they think he wants sympathy. no one gave them sympathy, or even empathy when they were growing up, so why should he get any?

idk if a lot of this made sense or not. it’s my post exam brain. but, some of the reasons that antis use to hate on lando could just be linked to trauma… of course there are people who are plain bullies too and like to hurt someone else to make themselves feel better. but idk… have fun reading this, i guess?

you are so right. a lot of them have unprocessed trauma, and it's so palpable in the way they treat lando. they can externalise all the feelings they've repressed unto him because they know they're never going to face the consequences for it.

and frankly speaking? most of them will never break their generational cycle of misfortune. if they can't comprehend how their actions and words affect another living human being despite there being a disconnect (in one way or another), then they don't have the maturity nor the emotional intelligence to not pass that on to their children. it's why i always say "we're in big 2025 and still making fun of people for their mental struggles?" because we're in times too progressive to be doing this. it's sad, it's pathetic, and atp too many fans crave validation from the majority that they'd rather have moral failings than just accept being the few who are disliked for being right and speaking truth.

people cannot compute the fact that their trauma or past experiences isn't an excuse to treat people the way they do, and as they grow up they'll realise that they definitely will not got scot free like they would online after battering lando to hell and back, and that life is beyond a phone screen.

a lot of them also can't understand how lando trangresses everything that's expected of a high performance athlete. men will come at him for being mentally weak and "feminine" or not "masculine enough" because they've got this warped perception of success as a man. it's why male fans would, so weirdly, be like 'yeahhh the abuse max got wasn't good BUT it made him the driver he is today so it's not all bad'.

they're never gonna break their trauma because they haven't realised how to live without it. they haven't realised that you don't have to abide by a certain criteria to do well, so they'll take it out on lando and continue to tell him he's not good enough and how he 'needs a mentor to fix his mentality'.

drivers are not robots, they're people with feelings and emotions just as much as we have them. i'm not gonna sit here and tell someone to shut up about their struggles when being open about it is not only a way to educate people and say 'hey, even us athletes, at the pinnacle of our sport, struggle too', but also to supplement that with encouragement and say 'so you can be open about your challenges, it's not a bad thing'.

lando is the most emotionally mature and intelligent driver on that grid. no fan can convince otherwise, and he will be remembered in 100 years for what he's done. being hated for being human is quite memorable no?

[littlelalaland]

so idk if this is the right thing to ask but, what if you can’t get a cg or just someone who knows?.. my family isn’t approving of my regression and I’m afraid that all of my friends will find me weird if I ask them for help so I have to be alone while I regress. I just want some tips or something to make it more bearable until I can find a cg, please..

Hi love! thank you for reaching out <3 this is a safe space for anyone to ask, there isn't any right or wrong questions :3

First, let me just say how brave you are for sharing this. Feeling alone in your regression and not having the support you deserve is so hard, and I’m so proud of you for reaching out!

I know how heavy it can feel to wish for a caregiver or just someone who “gets it.” It’s completely valid to want that kind of connection and support—and while it’s tough to not have that right now, I promise you’re not stuck feeling this way forever! 💌

Let’s talk about making regression feel safer! (and less obvious so you don’t have to worry about judgment from others.)

The truth is, a lot of regression activities can blend in with “normal” adult hobbies:

🌸 Subtle ways to regress:

Love coloring? Call it “adult coloring for stress relief” (which is super trendy right now!)

Like plushies? They’re just cute room decor or collectibles (many adults have them!)

Cartoons or kids’ shows? Totally normal—nostalgia is a big thing these days.

Playing with toys? Call it a “creative outlet” or say you collect them—it’s way more common than people realize!

You don’t have to call it regression if you’re not comfortable sharing that yet. Frame it as self-care or stress relief, and you’ll find it’s a lot less intimidating for others to understand. Plus, this way, you can still enjoy your little space without feeling too exposed!

💡 It’s okay to start small with your family and friends. For example, you don’t have to explain everything about regression to them. Maybe you can share that you’re into things like cozy routines, nostalgic shows, or collecting cute things because they make you happy. If someone asks why, you can just say, “It helps me relax and unwind.” Simple and true!

💌 Your family shouldn’t judge you for what you like. I know that’s easier said than done, but here’s the thing: you’re allowed to enjoy what makes you happy, and that’s not something anyone has the right to take away from you. If they don’t understand, that’s on them—not you. It’s okay to set boundaries with people who can’t be supportive. You don’t need their approval to be you.

🌟 The online community can be a great source of comfort. If you’re feeling isolated, finding others who understand can make a huge difference. Even just reading posts, connecting anonymously, or observing the community from a distance can remind you that you’re not weird, broken, or alone. You belong, and there are so many people who would love to cheer you on as you explore this part of yourself.

Lastly, I want to remind you that you’re doing so amazing right now. Even if it doesn’t feel like it, you’re showing up for yourself and doing the best you can—and that’s more than enough. 💖 You deserve to feel safe, loved, and free to express yourself, and I believe with all my heart that you’ll get there. Until then, keep being gentle with yourself, okay?

Biggest hugs and so much love,

angel <3

[sixeyesonathiel]

i need to confess that i literally check if ur blog updated like every 10 minutes… i keep up with that shit like a NEWS OUTLET the things u have to say are so interesting and relatable and funny i eat it up all the time. when i wake up, i open up tumblr to see if u updated and once the clock hits 6 pm i check to see if u updated im starting to feel like an obsessive fan LMFAO

sometimes i send asks and when i see that i get a response i think i literally giggle and kick my feet and go “omg she responded to my ask!!! yippee!!!”

point is, i genuinely love your blog so much its so entertaining for me idk i hope this doesn’t come off too creepy ;;

NOOOOOO OKAY WAIT. this message is actually so dangerous 😭😭😭 i read it with my hands over my mouth like “omg.” not because it creeped me out, but because that is serious devotion. like checking my blog like it’s the morning paper?? me competing with cnn and bbc??? that’s actually insane. you’re feeding me emotionally. i’m literally screaming “EXTRA EXTRA READ ALL ABOUT IT” in my brain right now.

but also. also. giggling and kicking your feet when i respond??? no bc that’s so cute i have to clutch my heart a little. knowing someone gets that happy just from a silly little reply of mine??? what the hell. i don’t deserve that kind of joy power but i’m so grateful to hold it 😭🫂 and don’t worry—this didn’t come off creepy. you said it with love and self-awareness, and that’s all that matters. i genuinely appreciate this message more than you know. pls continue being dangerously sweet and chronically online. i support your brain chemistry fully 🥹🩷

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Once again I am using tumblr as an outlet to infodump about ninjago!

disclaimer: I haven’t watched the entirety of season 3 yet! I’m just talking about the first maybe 4 episodes I’ve seen so far. And my highlights of what I liked/disliked about them. This isn’t a comprehensive analysis or explanation of all of the aspects I just wanted to talk bout specific things

Okay so firstly! I love frak, frak is great, Sora is good I suppose idk she’s fine I don’t care for her too much. Zane lore! We finally have confirmation that he doesn’t have taste buds which is kinda weird because obviously he doesn’t he’s not organic, but this implies he has no ability to taste at all. Which is weird considering we see him enjoy food on several occasions and that would imply he can taste it, right? I mean he can dream and so far more complicated things, I feel like it makes sense he has some sort of taste ability, though it was used as a one off gag about Soras pies so maybe it’s not true? Like an unreliable narrator situation? Not sure why Zane would lie about that though. Also why did he seem so turned off by Frohickys swamp tea if he can’t taste? I dunno it feels weird to me, like the whole Zane breathing thing (he canonically has lungs) but I digress. I’ll still be going by my headcanon of him having the ability to taste but it’s just really basic and limited.

Zane referring to Pixal as the smartest most attractive member of the team was amazing. I love their dynamic.. gosh I love Pixal and Zane so much they’re so.. cute!!

Now for the meat and potatoes

Anyway. Breadcrumbs include!! Zane getting reaaaaallly excited when he found Pixal!! He stimmed a lot in his own way, mimicking the voices of his friends to showcase them all to Pixal like an excited child. It was so wholesome and great! And it also highlighted how much Zane has been struggling recently, and that Pixal has been the only person that’s given him hope and allowed him to push forward, her voice in his mind while he does things, and worries.

Zane having more of his sarcasm and silliness :] Guessing what the bad guys would say, so peak!

And also Pixal being a badass we love her slay girl we love u so much. She’s great guys she’s amazing.

Pixal looking out for Zane constantly, amazing great best wife.

Zane talking about how he loves the other ninja but Pixal is the only one that thinks like him and gets him.

Lloyd actually defending Zane!! Like he stands up for him, points out how Zane is a person! With emotions!! And feelings and everything. When frak says otherwise.

Go Lloyd! I never really cared for u too much but you’re kinda growing on me a little. Dragons rising rlly helps his characterisation tbh

Tho! I am!! Annoyed!! Because whilst it is super in character for Zane’s first instinct to be another ||suicidal|| act of pointless self sacrifice when there’s clearly other ways to save the day. I get it his core programming is “protect those who cannot protect themselves” but someone really needs to stop him from pointlessly injuring and or killing himself just to save something or someone. Care about yourself too dude! Man really has no regard for his own safety.

It felt rushed towards the end, the writers don’t like to give us crotons of Information and angst, having the most important narrative element! Characters reacting to their trauma and the pain and problems they’ve faced, oough I just want some detailed right in ur face angst. Let the characters be totally upset and lost and let it sink in for a moment! Let it be there have it happen.

Braaaahhh pleaseeeee let Zane actually express the problems he’s going thru or showcase it in more ways that’s like substantial, same with the other ninja!! Ur doing pretty well with Lloyd and Nya so come on brah do it with Zane!!

Have Pixal try to give him an intervention or something. To stop him from doing this! It’s stupid and reckless u big metal oaf!

I just want the writers to give us the juicy juice juice.

This is why I will henceforth be dedicating myself to giving the juicy juice… as I have been in my own writings. Zangst!! Please! Yes!! Let him feel his feelings and recover, he has just been suffering and suffering and hasn’t really overcome these problems

But oh a good funny thing was Zane made a callback to when he danced with the falcon back in season 2? I believe? And told the dragon (I forgot their name) that dancing with birds is considered weird.

PLEAAASE come on! That’s so cute and sweet and sad. He’s learnt social cues and all sorts of stuff over the years, and he stops himself. From doing too many “weird” things because he’s been bullied for it in the paaast noooo nyoohohoho

I’m stimming!! Rn! I love this show so much I love Zane I love the ninja!! So good! Ugh!! So great!

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tell me the solimiller thoughts i also have thoughts on them 👀 i feel like they scratch a similar itch that bbkaz and vkaz does for me of kaz wanting love but also being obsessed (first positively and then negatively) with big boss and never really coming to terms with the fact that he can't ever really get the peace that he longs for as long as big boss still consumes his life (also probably part of why his marriage to his wife didnt work out lbr). also the sort of parallels where kaz hates big boss for using him, only to basically flip things around and play the same role of using venom and david for his own goals of revenge, except unlike big boss, who i feel never really loved/cared about kaz the same way kaz cared about big boss/wanted big boss to care about him, kaz Does actually care about venom and david (i feel like david even more, since by the time they're in each other's lives kaz has had time to mature and calm down a bit and has even became a father himself) but its still not enough to keep him from using them just the same. also the idea of kaz going through the messiest divorce ever with big boss only to immediately rebound with not one but TWO copies of the exact same guy makes me so fucking insane. Messy Bitch Miller at it again

yussss. i love all of this! u clearly have been thinking about it more in depth than me. i hadn’t even considered the vkaz parallels! to me, solimiller is completely inextricably linked to bbkaz/kaz’s feelings about big boss, which is such an intense mix of love and hatred that kaz really doesn’t know how to deal with and channel. solid is just such a perfect outlet for those feelings. like under normal circumstances i don’t think kaz would be interested in a relationship with an early 20’s recruit. but solid is a man who looks exactly like the ex that broke kaz’s heart, except this version is younger, nicer, and (most importantly) subordinate to kaz* so it’s a perfect fantasy. almost irresistible. it’s literally like [slap’s snake’s ass like that car salesman meme] this dude can be the target of so many complexes about myself and my ex.

i don’t think he would ever like be super pushy to solid, or even make the first move, but if solid showed any interest? i think it would take so much restraint on kaz’s part to turn down such a sweet deal/outlet for his obsession with big boss. i’m not entirely sure he has this restraint. i also don’t think he would really be overly cruel towards solid just bc of his hatred towards big boss, that’s way too unfair. but he absolutely is using solid to work out his big boss obsession, and there might be little weird things he does in the relationship bc of this. and that’s all before he, like you said, literally uses him for revenge. i think solid doesn’t understand this for years, until everything was declassified and solid Realizes and is like. hm. bit fucked up innit.

ofc u can always have faith in kaz’s restraint and self-awareness and decide he was like. this is tempting but too fucked up and unfair to solid, so i will NOT have sex with my ex’s clone son even tho i may want to. i will channel my feelings otherwise. also a very valid take, i’m just having fun in this messy space.

also love that u mention his big boss obsession ruining his marriage, bc i feel the exact same way. kazwife absolutely realizes kaz is too hung up on his ex to be a good husband. i need more kaz divorce fic so badly. i do love a good affair so i’ve often tried to incorporate bbkaz hatesex into dooming the marriage but sometimes that seems implausible so maybe the solimiller affair being the last straw could be something? idk

anyways sorry for this long rambling response i just raughh i love messiness i love cycles of cruelty. i defo don’t think it’s a positive relationship in any way but it is just so interesting and fun to think about and makes sense

*i think kaz was into getting “dominated” by big boss during their relationship, it is good for his self-respect to tell himself he wants to have control, and it would certainly feel good to have power over this big boss doppelganger now that he feels big boss has taken everything from him. like he’s taking his life back. tho i don’t think it ends up actually working out that way. oof sorry long footnote.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - May 6

m/m anon (new), poem anon (new), outlet anon, catholic guilt anon, therapist anon

m/m anon (new)

hi cas :)

i’ve seen your advice posts and you honestly seem really nice and idrk who else to talk to about this thing that happened the other day, because it’s sort of been tearing me up a little bit.

so on thursday, I was in my physics lesson next to my friend T, and we were sort of chatting like usual. T likes to consume a lot of m/m romance, fanfic, anime etc and asks me for recs but she’s straight and a christian. I didn’t really have a problem with this, bc I find the whole ‘straight women reading gay stuff is morally wrong!’ kinda weird and tbh I don’t get it so idk I was happy to chat to her about this stuff.

now i’m pretty openly queer & transmasc, and i’ve never had any issues about it from her. i’ve never actually heard her use my preferred pronouns and she’s only used my chosen name a few times, even tho I did explicitly come out to her, but I was sorta giving her the benefit of the doubt yk since I takes some getting used to.

so anyway at some point in the conversation i made like a silly joke smth like ‘oh imagine being straight couldn’t be me!’ and we kinda giggled and she said kinda jokingly ‘you can’t say that it’s against my religion’ and then I sort of. like froze up a bit? and I asked her to expand on that, which made her look kinda uncomfy. she was like, ‘well yoy can’t be gay and christian, being gay is a sin! god said to go forth and be fruitful, and gay people can’t have kids.’ (gay people can have kids wtf?) so I asked her well what about straight people who can’t/choose not to have kids. what about people who adopt, right! and then she sort of looked really agitated and i felt bad for pushing her and she said ‘well idrk it’s just what my mum tells me’ so I just dropped it. because I didn’t want to upset her.

but then I was sort of upset and kinda only half responding to her for the rest of the lesson. we haven’t really spoken since, and I feel really guilty, but also a really upset woth her. when I got home, I literally started typing out a very long message about christianity and homophobia and started like citing sources etc but I never sent it bc I was too scared. it’s still in my notes app and i’m actually considering just sending it to her.

and also, teh fact that she thinks gay people are sinning but reads m/m stuff really icks me out. and also the fact that she didn’t really have much justification other than ‘my mum told me’ bothers me because if you’re having homophobic opinions, at least be able to justify them yourself.

the thing is I know I can’t really change peoples beliefs if they don’t want to, and T is honestly so nice, and an amazing person. my general attitude towards religious queer phones has always been, ‘well i think it sucks that you think this, but u can’t change that, so i’m just not going to talk to you more than u have to’ but I really don’t want to stop being friends with her.

like really, this is the first time she’s ever brought this up, but i’m so uncomfortable around her now and it’s just. not great, like how am I meant to just ignore that she thinks my existent is sinning you know? idek what she thinks on trans people, but now i’m too scared to ask her. because I don’t think she understands that you can’t separate my from my gender and sexuality. it’s just a part of me that I didn’t choose.

and I just really want to at least try to change her mind, because I don’t know what i’m going to do if I can’t. anyway, I just really really needed to vent, and didn’t want to upset anyone else ik irl who also is friends with her, so I would really appreciate some aduce from you as well :)

Hi!

I can totally see why you're frustrated. Honestly, in my experience with people similar to this, arguing with them/trying to prove them wrong isn't helpful though. It just kind of makes them more determined to believe what they believe. But I think you're well within your rights to ask questions- why is she still friends with you? does she see you as who you are, or your agab? why does she read m/m fanfic? Don't ask in a rude way, just like...a curious way.

And if she's mean about who you are, even if she's nice in other instances...idk, it depends on how you feel, but I'm not sure I could look past that, personally.

Keep me updated!

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poem anon

omg im literally so gay for my best friend (ill call her L) its sort of embarrassing. like, earlier today when i was texting her (we were sending each other reels on insta (i downloaded insta to talk to her)) she was like "IF YOU WROTE ME A POEM I WOULD BE SO HAPPY" and then i... wrote her a poem. i was lowk scared that it wasnt good, but she loved it. i think she likes me too, but im also kind of in love with one of my other friends(ill call him B), and i think he likes me too. L is poly, and hopefully might be fine with me dating both of them, but im not sure about B. Idk man, im not sure, ive never been in love like this. im way too scared to confess to either of them, but i have been sort of hinting at it, like they are to me (i think), and i really love them both. any ways, i just needed to get that off my chest. ill send you the poem in another ask. thanks for reading, Cas.

Hi!!

Okay so based on the poem you sent, I feel like she has to know how you feel and also probably feels the same way bc like...it was an amazing poem and also very romantic. and she liked it so...it seems like she must like you too? I'm not sure how much that helps when thinking about B, but I feel like it's a good thing overall, right?

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outlet anon

hi hon!

I'm NOT disappointed <3 this is a HARD thing to deal with and many people struggle with it for years and years. I promise, I've been in a similar position before, and I am NOT judging you. I believe in you, though, and I know you can keep working to find healthy coping strategies.

And as far as your more recent ask-- what about like online chats or something? If I'm pushing too much, let me know, I just want you to have something when I'm not able to check my inboxes, you know?

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catholic guilt anon

Hey, Cas!

Catholic guilt anon here,

I have been trying to see my faith and religion as my own relationship instead of what others think of my relationship, and I think it’s been going pretty well! Honestly? Really well, I’d say. I feel my Higher Power’s presence more often, I pray earnestly more often, I feel Him more often, and it’s pretty cool. And the thing about the “self exploration” has gotten easier. It’s not as guilt-focused and more “why” focused. Like “maybe this isn’t inherently bad, but what it can lead to is bad. How can I prevent myself from doing bad things, when doing this morally neutral thing?” And I think I’ve gotten better at it,

So, thank you for being a listening ear :)

Have a blessed day <3

Hi! I'm so glad you're feeling good about your faith!!! That makes me really happy <3 I hope you have a great day as well!

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therapist anon

Hi cas! Therapist anon here ans I just wanted to tell you that I got my shoes! They're the green campuses ans I love them so much theyre so perfect and have that fresh shoe smell!

Only problem is now I have to wear them :/

Yay, I'm glad you got your shoes! And wait, is that a problem because you don't want to ruin them?