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deoidesign · 1 year ago

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 5 months ago

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Maybe we never had a chance.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #a-yuan #Ultimately...despite how hard we try to reach people - sometimes it just is not possible.#Sometimes all you can do is wish that things could have been different. You pen a note with all the things you want to say -#and then you let it go. The words stay unsent and unspoken. You just watch the rift between you grow until you're too far away to try again #It is a sad end! It is two people who want to be closer but do not have the right capacity to do anything but shut doors.#Worse yet; it's two people who feel it is not their place to try and impose anything more.#It takes so long to heal from endings like that. You never get enough closure when there is still a faint hope of 'another day'.#It's a false amicability. It's closing a door and telling yourself that at least the windows are unlocked.#WWX will keep up his friendliness as a way to hold LWJ at a distance. LWJ can only try to help so many times.#Speaking of tragedies of trying to help; Let's talk about the addiction metaphors in this episode.#WWX tells LWJ in fairly straightforward terms that he does not *want* do be doing ghost cultivation.#What he wants is to protect people - by any means necessary. If he had another option he would take it.#The path WWX 'chose' is one that is deeply mired in external shame and taboo. He jokes about it but it clearly doesn't feel great.#And I put 'chose' in quotes because just like many who find them selves in bad situations - the choice is an illusion.#He's adamant that this is 'his' choice. That he is in control.#Better to be villainized that endure the terrifying reality that you lack any ability to have choice anymore.#If he had the choice - truly had the choice - he would not be doing this.#You can't help those who don't want to be helped. So of course all LWJ can do is watch from the side. Offer a hand when he can.#This life was a tragedy and the countdown to it all blowing up started a long time ago...

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skatiet · 7 months ago

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#wicked #wicked musical #wicked the musical #wicked movie #wicked 2024 #elphaba thropp #galinda upland #glinda upland #polls #wkp*#(if there's one thing i'm going to do it's make a post about a fandom that has too many tag options)#(if this has already been done no it hasn't because i didn't see it so it doesn't count)#this post is brought to you by my whiplash from doing a double take every time i hear someone say they identify more with glinda.#i just like. forget that is possible.#much love to the glindas of the world.#we have fundamentally different worldviews in a way that doesn't matter at all and we should probably be (girl)friends about it.#btw if it isn't clear i'm a 0. maybe a 0.5 because i do enjoy the occasional pink/pastel/glitter aesthetic.#also if it isn't clear i love both these characters so much and if anyone is mean to either one of them in my notes i will be sad about it.

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canisalbus · 2 years ago

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hi i ride motorcycle year round and wanted to chime in. for vasco's small around-town trips he'd probably be fine with his ears free, but for longer trips at higher speeds or when its cold out he'd want them protected. probably by tucking them under his chin into the collar of a jacket and then putting a scarf or bandana on. also goggles would be helpful if a full helmet wasn't wanted. since they're in europe and around italy specifically he could have a nice ducati (fast rockety sport bikes) or a cafe racer (much more like a motorized bicycle but they can still have a lot of power) a cafe racer would offer a lot of seat space for machete to be thoroughly uncomfortable in lol

i love your ocs they're great thanks for all the cool art :)

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#oh that's really good practical advice actually! I've never riden a motorcycle so I wouldn't even know where to begin #the ears tucked under the jacket collar is a smart way to go about it #having hard time choosing a bike for him there's too many options #it looks like lots of ducatis have a very sleek and sporty vibe to them #loving the bright colors and the shapely design #cafe racers on the other hand come across as iconic looking to me and could potentially have a sort of vintage aura which I personally like #and the flat topline (I'm sorry I don't possess the right vocabulary for these things) that some of them have is visually pleasing #they'd be a nightmare to draw though since the frame is a lot less covered and there's a ton of complex mechanical detail in the midsection #bike viscera if you will #I don't know but it's fun to think about #thank you for chiming in! this was genuinely helpful #answered #anonymous #modern au

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freesiadotcom · 6 months ago

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we should call it "Going on the computer" like with that type of wording again. bring back the fun and novelty of it that i, at least, really felt when i was younger. existing in an online space is the type of thing that can kinda be whatever you want, so u gotta treat it the way that you want it to be :3

I'm going to go on the internet! [implied sense of adventure] see?

#there are very many bad things about social media #luckily many of the bad things are optional #but sometimes it takes very intentional discipline and working though the ways you approach it to get to that place #there be a wretched demon called 'caring too much about internet popularity i guess but like a really lame version of that even' that i #have to purposefully shoot in the head every couple weeks or so #and then i feel myself again #can you tell ive been reading the screwtape letters today again #look this is more complex than the way ive described it but yk. posting art online since the age of 12 kinda does smth less than ideal to u #i just need to be very intentional about truly engaging with the world around me and such #textpost tag #ok guys i guess u get some sorta fragmented diary entry here lol #i think thats fine

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sysig · 1 year ago

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Pretty clothes for you! ✨ (Patreon)

#My art #Solanaceae #Satine #Ahh!!! Even with this one being done I'm still so nervous about it somehow!! Haha ♪#It's been so so soooo long since I've participated in an Event that I've forgotten everything I've ever learned or done in one haha #But yes! This is an event piece! DCS put out an art call and I wanted to join and I'm very glad I did! :D #I would consider myself a very casual fan of Solanaceae like it's been way too long since I've reread in earnest but I like to stop by #Lovely art and characters and interesting movement and feelings and problems everyone runs into it's quite cool :D #Satine is probably my favourite of the bunch even if it has been too long since I've properly caught up with everyone!!#I remember always feelings very positive and like - mixed-love? They're complex in a way that I really like #Ahh all the more reason to catch up again! So I can properly express how I feel about Satine /now/ not just partially remembered haha #I'm also just generally a fan of DCS' art style and passion and ah <3 #I don't think I've mentioned it anywhere but DCS was one of my Very Big - maybe even Main inspirations to make VargasLovingHours #And then I also get to draw their pretty lad in Satine! Yes!!#I have a lot to feel thankful for inspiration-wise haha ♥#This was a fun outfit to design :D I really wanted Satine to feel pretty 'cause they are!#A kind of cool pink and scalloping I will always choose scalloping if there is an option for scalloping to be chosen #And I got to bring back a bit of the rainbow-opal look I used for Winter King a bit back as well! :D #And mirrors and sparklies and just - yes! Many good and fun things!!#I do think it's a bit funny since those were supposed to be thought bubbles but then I just - forgot to make the little bubble tails lol #Remembered them on the flowers! But not the thought bubbles! Haha oh well ♪#Does not diminish the cutes or the pretties ♫

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qoldenskies · 5 months ago

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CC!Donnie and his music-his music that the canon brothers have already expressed their audible dislike towards offhandedly, and how he likes to play it so loud. I know it doesn't sound too bad, but I'm sure a lot of people have had their taste in music mocked (especially when you're a teenager) and it's never a good feeling

i mentioned his fear to show passion not long ago and this definitely applies, especially when it comes to things like with the spreadsheet its obvious he'll try to connect things like little comments like that to any perceived current fault-- like an i should have seen this coming. its why even though they werent extremely specific about what he enjoyed in the family meeting, he got the impression-- they don't want to hear about what he likes, especially when it comes to things they've already expressed distaste for.

even if his tastes shift i dont think they'll ever know about it; pretty much anything he gets up to in his personal time is something he keeps close to his chest and never talks about, very rarely even when prompted. a year or two down the the line i think they're going to come to the realization that they dont even KNOW what donnie enjoys anymore, outside of tech. it makes gift-giving kind of hard, doesnt it?

#ask #canary continuity #holidays are so probably so hard for them dude like #they will jump on the chance to give as many big grandiose gestures as they can. like they killed in his honor this is NOTHING #but donnie goes out of his way to make as difficult as possible because What if they make fun of me ...... !!!!!#theyre gonna have to start going out of their way to pay attention to when he like. looks at things in stores for too long #they're desperate bro #which is funny because i think that is a very donnie thing to do ... they really ARE turning into him #i guess there's also the option of doing a full noir detective interrogation on shelldon because HE'D know but good luck #shelldon has lasers he's very willing to use and doesnt trust them either

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asgardian--angels · 4 months ago

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#ok just as a followup to my earlier post which i realize no one read which is fine but i gotta just say my piece even if it's in the tags #the truly astounding amount of jayvik biological kid content is frankly getting a bit uncomfortable lmao #look - i'm not trans so please tell me if i'm getting this wrong here. but like...#the fandom obsessing over the (fanon) trans male character being able to get pregnant (multiple times) just hits weird #like. idk the term for it but? forced feminization or smth? if you feel so strongly that he's trans then why push him into a mother role?#isn't that regressive? or fetishizing maybe? like hc'ing him as trans and turning around and having him carry babies srs #just to the extent im seeing it and a bit of the language surrounding it is bordering on excessive #like if i have to hear 'viktor's so fertile' 'fill his womb' etc one more time i might start muting on twitter tbh #i can understand hc'ing him as trans and it can fit well with his existing struggles surrounding identity and bodily autonomy #so like...why jump so gd hard on the chance to have him get pregnant #especially when harry's words were 'four beautiful ADOPTED children' which would work super well with their characters already #i'm not against mpreg lol but if viktor's going to get pregnant i prefer to explore more cosmic eldritch horror options #like where it's in the arcane or when he's the herald or something that's kinda far removed from natural biological pregnancy #and my reasoning for choosing viktor over jayce is purely because he's so enmeshed with the arcane and became nonhuman #im just into weird cool xenobiology stuff. (ah the garashir days)#idk. am i way off base here? like im sure many of the people saying these things are trans themselves and they can do w/e they want #but esp for prominent fandom names to go apeshit over viktor tpreg and then denounce cis fantasy mpreg as being too weird #esp when we're dealing with the 'transmutation into omnipotent god' character in the 'all timelines all possibilities' show #*gestures vaguely* what about poor blitzcrank

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monimolimnion · 7 days ago

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i feel so calloused to life and yet i do and say and experience so little

#momo talks #delete later #like i cant tell how much of my problems is that im just not trying hard enough #and how much of it is that i dont have a fucking life. i have nothing to draw from #i do not experience anything that i could draw from and strengthen myself with and use to create #i just. exist #and it's not even a depression thing this is just what my life is.#but i cant let anything i do experience touch me.#because guess what i read a manga like five days ago that isnt even in english and it upset me so violently #(upset as in to put off-kilter; it came too beautifully close to something that recognised me)#that ive been in a depression ever since.#it's ok this is just one of my bi-yearly surfacings. i am so happy most of the time despite the bare facts of my life.#because i am so good at just tuning it all out and getting on with the tasks i CAN do #but when that reflex stops and i float upwards. and i see just how wide the word is and just how many people are out there living a life #that i dont get to have #i feel some type of way about it.#i am so lonely. i think it's okay to admit that.#and i truly dont think there are many options for me to fix that. not where i am. not with the avenues i can go down.#and all of that is okay if i can just make things. if i can create stuff if i can make myself worth it to the world. but i can't.#i dont think i have anything to give anymore.#[leans over until the aching wound of my heart spills unfiltered ichor and despair into the tags] haha anyway. deltarune is good

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redstarfish-art · 2 months ago

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I'm struggling financially and can no longer deny that I need to look for income in every avenue I have access to.

Any insights would be really helpful.

If you have some spare coin, I do have a Ko-Fi that I created for my original work (WIP for now). But my main priority is getting some insights into what type of work people would want from me.

Please vote if you can!

#poll #desperate times call for desperate measures #I was very reluctant to post this #but hopefully people will be okay with me gathering info #please vote #even better if you could share but I know people don't always want to interrupt their curated blog #I don't have many examples of my art skills on here so I don't know if people think I can draw...#It's not been long since I got my motor skills back too...#I've put it as an option either way ^^;;;#my real skill is rambling but I don't think people will pay for that lol #man it's been a rough few months #again #yes I lost my job in Jan #and struggling to get another one thanks to our wonderful economy #these are unprecedented times #I say as if I didn't go through this exact thing back in 2008 #but I actually have work experience now!#stupid. corporate. hiring processes.#fanfic commissions #writing commissions #art commissions #polls #tumblr polls #my polls

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pickaropoprocks · 12 days ago

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Fighting battles that have ABSOLUTELY been seen before (wanting to restart my Animal Crossing New Leaf town so I can begin the game from scratch and as myself as I am now vs. not wanting to restart my town because nostalgia and I'd miss my villagers)

#papr yaps #the big problem of not wanting to continue the town is just. The disconnect I have with my player character now?#I learned the hard way that acnl is VERYYYYYYY much a perpetrator of stricter gender norms/stereotypes #I have everythimg unlocked so when I booted up the game recently and tried to dress up the character so I can be more Me(tm) in the game #I went to Gracie's store to get pants and she was like- and I quote-#<<oh this is part of a men's line but I'm sure a woman like you could pull it off>>#GOOD LORDDDDDDDDD IT FELT AWFUL READING THAT BRO #gen made me so uncomfy that I just quit the game and haven't opened it since #there's also Harriet initially limiting the hairstyles by gender but she does open it up as an option but it is also kinda a whole #<<oh yeah you're a girl but you can pull off men's hairstyles too :))))>> which doesn't come off NEARLY as derogatorily #I mean yeah it's good that the options are still opened up but god. They sure did make improvement with acnh in that regard LMAO #also there's a whole thing of. I don't know how many things I would still be able to unlock if I reset like #It's been a million years!! I don't remember how I unlocked stuff like the little consoles and or mii head!!#both of those are very important btw I spent SOOOOO much time playing the little console minigames and the mii head is really the only way #for me to have my actual skintone for my character (for those who don't know in acnl- and every mainline game before it afaik- your #character started out with the lightest skintone no matter what and the only way to darken it was to wait for clear sky days in summer #and look up and press A or whatever and then you get a tan and I think even then you had to do it on different days for each melanin gain #even me who's relatively fair-skinned would have to spend like half a week for it SOOOO thank you acnh for improving in that field LMAO)#Anyways it is obviously a whole thing of only really getting one or the other #It's already less than a 1% chance that I can even get ONE of the same starting villager it's just IMPOSSIBLE to get all of the same ones #even if I managed to get all their amiibo cards (which I don't think that's really possible either without spending A LOT) iirc if you have #a full town they randomly select one villager to kick out so. It'd be a whole thing really #and just buying a new copy of the game is prolly the better solution if I don't want to delete the old game but atp why bother 💀💀💀#it's just!!! agfhfhdhdjs if only it was as simple as just. Make a new save slot character and they can replace the old one #but alas!!!!!! Deleting the mayor character = deleting the save file as a whole #I say all this but also like. I CAN probably bring myself to delete the save file #I've done it a bunch of times with Tomodachi Life (only reason I'm not doing it again is because I have a bunch of people on there that I #straight up gen am never seeing again because they've either moved or graduated and it feels disrespectful at that point)#and I also did it with Happy Home Designer and Pokémon Moon and even New Horizons a WHOLE lot #idk why it feels like such a big deal for acnl????????????

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frameconfessions · 4 months ago

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I hope the protoframes remain relevant even after this story arc for the Drifter concludes, but I also recognize how complicated things would get with how many characters they could keep trying to make stay relevant, leading to a Konoha 13 Naruto type situation where we have too many relevant characters from Umbra & Ordis all the way to Kaya Velasco.

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#warframe confession #warframe #warframe 1999 #guessing you’re the previous anon and so yeah you meant like big picture story then mmm yeah I agree but I also see the counter point too #that you provided because like yeah once you start getting so many relevant characters it can be constricting a bit I would imagine #but I also agree I don’t want the hex syndicate members to be left in their own little time pocket bubble like the holdfasts #I don’t want them to be left behind only ‘relevant’ via optional skins you can farm and/or buy #for those who don’t get it from context the konoha 13 was a bunch of really good naruto characters and they all had interesting kits #and stories but the mangaka struggled to keep making them all stay relevant even though they were in part 1 of the series #it’s a whole thing but basically it’s like stretching yourself thin writing wise with too many main characters #I still wish Excalibur Umbra had more story than just that one quest though ngl #that’s a tricky part of Warframe is I’m always thinking I wish these characters got more screen time & story lore for them #yet I also want there to be consequences to the actions we do or the routes we choose in the KIM system and the quests #I want it to actually affect the narrative in game like with the shadow and light alignment introduced many years back #does drinking the kuva matter or not? does that choice affect anything? I want to know! xD #but I also understand all of these things cost money to make and program and write into an engaging experience and know this is a super #complicated subject that has a lot of nuance of whatever the word is to it #but yeah I too don’t want the protoframes to get left behind by the narrative and I imagine we aren’t the only ones who feel that way #you give us such compelling and interesting characters and then just expect us to move on? that’s not gonna probably go over well even if #the next arc is let’s go to the tau system! like... okay yay I’m hyped but what about Flare Kaya Velemir and the Hex???#if the answer is just ‘oh we’re completely done with them forever like no possible future arcs or story at all’ I’m going to be immensely #and severely disappointed in the lack of creativity that would feel like as an answer #if it really is a ‘yes and’ kind of story model then we shouldn’t write off a back to the future type story with the protos #why do we have to stay confined to the loop? could the operator pull us all out of 1999? who would consent to that and why or why not?#I have a lot of ideas and thoughts about this subject #putting these tags out of order since I know I went over the 20 tag system search results thing with my ramblings about this topic #Like on one hand I get don’t stretch yourself thin with too many main characters but also THIS IS THE MAIN CHARACTER’S FOUND FAMILY #mod rose

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adore-gregor · 9 days ago

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the way i think about learning and education changed sm compared to when I was younger

#like i cared so little about school when i was younger (altough maybe now i might do a little too much)#but not just that... i thought i'm just not that person who can do well at school #i can't memorise stuff well enough and i'm probably stupid anyway but who cares about that stuff and school #and i won't need it for life anyway other skills are important in the real world anyway that's all useless #i guess i also had that idea that one day i will just come up with some grand idea or business type thing to make money #i mean that's also that kind of stuff u see all over the internet and i def saw too much of that #and sure that's possible but how often and even then is it even so great having that type of job where ur never off #and like other jobs which are achieved though education have a lot of beauty too and there are many great routes which require education #at first i didn't even want to go to uni because i was so sick of school and i believed i wouldn't belong there anyway bc of those reasons #and because i thought i was too stupid in that way to make it #i also had this weird view of looking at some smart people as know it alls or being pretentious and i didn't wanna be all that??#still don't know why i thought that?? it honestly sounds sooo stupid and i also thought i wouldn't fit in with uni students anyway...#like i'm so different... couldn't have been more wrong #i never felt more belonging than at uni like this is where i'm supposed to be - the great people i met there and friends i made #and my awesome professors #i actually admire some of them so much 🥺#like i wanna be like them - whatever path i will end up in jobwise #might become a teacher too or even a professor (dare i dream lol) or sth with media could also be a great option 🤭#but what i mean why i admire them sm they're so intelligent but also many of them such great people #like empathetic helpful and idk i just love smart people #they're so well spoken and i highly value people who really know their stuff well by now and they certainly do #but not only that also having such great general knowledge u can have such interesting conversation with such people #and many professors actually have opened my eyes to many issues of our our world and made me rethink and change some of my views #or just things i wasn't even aware of bc we all live in our little bubble at time at least i certainly did #only obsessing over my little life and sometimes turning the head away from cruelities elsewhere #and i feel being an intelligent person is actually so cool now and i wanna know important stuff on many topics but especially...#about what i then can use for my future job or whatever i do in life and nothing i learn feels pointless now or almost nth #but even then useless stuff in school it wasn't all for nothing if u had approached it the right way #just learning by itself can teach you important skills and knowledge like how to learn - how to memorise stuff the best way...#or finding out what ur capable of and growing ur self esteem it's all valuable in some way

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arolesbianism · 1 year ago

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GUYS.

New dupe real! Also new pod????? Olivia is that you girlie speak to me

#rat rambles #oxygen not included #screenshots are from the steam page #there is ofc a Lot to unpack here gameplay wise and Im guessing some things will be tweaked design wise but Im lore pilled so.#anyways Im not sure how I feel abt this dupe's design but I will still welcome them with open arms hello #but more important here to me is the pod #because erm. thats a very very different looking pod.#I dont wanna jump to any conclusions or speculate too hard because chances are its just olivia getting new drip #but like. what if its not. what if this is like a new new printing pod #I assume that if it is a new pod then olivia will like be able to connect with it somehow but idk #because it rly depends on how ambitious theyd wanna be with this dlc given that to rly make a new pod thats super not olivia theyd have to #do a lot of work to make that change prevelant in the rest of the gameplay #now chances are if it is a new pod its one that doesn't have a human consciousness inside it #even if it was there rly arent many options for who it could be and no good options from a narrative standpoint #now this pod looks quite gutted so maybe it is just a normal printing pod that got kicked back online when olivia sent some guys to kick it #now heres the most negative thing Ill say abt these screenshots. the fox critters are rly ugly imo #I like the bunny guys tho WAUTWIATSWAUT WAIT #ARE THEY THE SAME SPECIES AS THE ANCIENT SPECIMEN SKELETON?#I dont think they line uo perfectly if I remember correctly but the big one has the same tusks and is also yknow big and fat like the #specimen is described to be in tbe story trait logs #Im willing to bet so much that theyre at least related in some way #maybe the one that was initially sent back in time was used as a basis for these guys or smth #my main reason for saying this is that I have to imagine these guys have to have some other purpose than being data storage #its seems that you can shave their coats which is probably the main thing but I imagine they probably drop a good amount of meat too #also important to note that they are grazers which is good to know #also I think the upside down plant is going to be this planet's muckroot equivalent #oh and for the fox deer I assume theyll be farmed for their antlers which will probably shed wood or smth #not a clue what the new plants will do but idrc #Ill care abt the gameplay after I get my new lore <3

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holydramon · 6 months ago

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legitimately feel tri would have been way better received (and honestly just a legitimately better series) if it didn’t treat the 02 kids like that

#sorry watching the first couple scenes knowing the context of what they actually did with them??? does in fact frustrate me a lot. it really #felt like they chose to build up a mystery of what happened to the 02 kids but the thing is like. they didn’t get rid of the 02 kids because #it would be interesting or they had a good idea around it. they did it because they just didn’t want to deal with them. and you can just #kinda TELL by how sloppily they were handled.#and like legitimately I do not envy their position because I do think discarding the 02 kids was the RIGHT decision because it’s already #hard enough to juggle all the original 8 and the movie characters but it’s just. man. MAN.#I will forever think that they should have gone with the option of the chosen genuinely believed the 02 kids died like a few years ago or #something. especially because I think that would actually HELP inform the way they did choose to handle the characters.#I know a lot of people hate how they made taichi a bit unsure… less steadfast… and the implication they go with in tri is just that as he #grows up he becomes more aware of collateral damage and danger. and I guess that’s FINE but. why not give him a better reason? I feel people #would be far more forgiving of how they wrote taichi if his hesitance was born from the fact that some of his fellow chosen have DIED. the #danger has always been there. he’s always had to deal with brushes with death. he has already experienced the loss of many good digimon but.#I feel like this would hit him different. the fact that his sister and Takeru would have died too if they hadn’t been busy that day… it #still haunts him. he knows fighting is what’s right but it’s becoming harder to ignore the danger everywhere - he doesn’t necessarily care #what happens to him but… what about everyone else?#I think also in general it would drive a bit of a wedge within the chosen - the ones who think they still need to fight no matter what -#that it’s their DUTY - and the ones that are unsure. the ones that are losing their confidence that it will ever end. the ones who want a #normal life.#THAT’S MY FEELINGS AT LEAST.#I definitely need to rewatch adventure and 02 to fully gauge how accurate I feel this thought process is but. this is my current thoughts #for how I want to handle tri and the 02 kids in YAoYD. if I ever actually. write it.#dramon thoughts

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gurorori · 1 year ago

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if you say shit like 'autism is not a disability' i hope you actually have really bad things happen to you and you are banned from the autism community for the foreseeable future. get another fun weird club if you so badly need one

so profoundly tired of people trying to make autism into this whimsical quirkiness when it's for most people a serious and debilitating life altering disorder

#im not even that high on the needs spectrum at all. i definitely need a lot of support but it doesn't nearly compare to hsn autistics for ex #but our autism have never been masked and it's always been apparent in obvious ways that stunted our social and personal development #we can't mask at all it's not an option to us. we are disturbing in person. we talk weirdly. we are monotone with very rare exceptions.#we do not understand the overwhelming majority of very important social cues and we can't pretend or mask that #we've always been singled out and our impairment has ostracized us from peers our entire life #especially with the struggle of getting daily tasks done. we are JUST a little more independent with things than we were as a kid #i always talk about not feeling like an adult and being stuck in kid (teen at best!) like mindset and abilities and understanding of things #that is autism too. we are stunted and disabled developmentally in many ways as a result and we were never on par with others of our age #and we will never be.#i hate this sentiment so much and i hate the 'disabilities wouldn't exist if society was perfect at accomodating us all to a T'#like yeah surely our violent outbursts and shutdowns and intense stimming wouldn't exist? our need to regulate stimuli #our Inability to regulate emotion or response to overstimulation?#like holy shit if you're autism lite jsut say that. some of us are actually significantly impaired and very much DISABLED and require #support to function. and surprise surprise some autistics need help with every step in their daily life. are they not disabled? fucker

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