#I’m Dean coded

[fulltimesapphic]

Hey I love Destiel and all…

But if I was in supernatural and I was Cas’ friend I would be begging him to dump Dean. Like bestie I know you love him but he’s terrible to you pls leave him you could do so much better.

[morallygreyintrovert]

After my earlier post about writing what you know I was suddenly inspired to write my first poem ever?? And it definitely isn’t based on my life or has anything to do with me… totally not…

They say the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree

I plead with Mother Nature to set me free

The soil I grew from turned my juice bitter

Why must my roots be my futures predictor

How was I to be sweet when the branch that bore me was broken

Must my injustice remain unspoken

My harsh conditions left me weathered

In order to thrive these ties must be severed

In need of the light I looked up at the sun

My skin grew strong, my healing begun

I waited patiently as the seasons changed

And at last I fell and was released from my chains

My juices undesirable I lay stagnant on the ground

I patiently waited hoping to be found

The days passed me by and unpicked I remained

bitterness had festered and rot it became

With no hope left I began to decompose

But from my ruin a seedling arose

Spirit renewed, I grew and I grew

No longer a cursed apple for now I am new

The prophecy was right, I didn’t fall far from the tree

I outgrew it’s shadow and chose my own destiny

Also think it relates quite well to Dean and Sam for all of my Supernatural friends out there

They say to write what you know. What I know: 1. Childhood trauma 2. Being forced to grow up way too soon 3. Physically and emotionally unavailable parents who you’ll never be good enough for 4. Crippling self esteem that leads to abandonment issues 5. Chronic anxiety and depression from constantly living in fight and flight mode.

I don’t want to brag but I feel my particular skill set makes me a pretty knowledgeable Supernatural fanfiction writer

Dean Winchester core 🪛

[knotboy-dean]

It is truly crazy to me that you can see the exact moment that Dean’s view of Cas changes in 9x22.

Like imagine you’re Dean. Imagine your best friend has been continuously making questionable (and even bad) decisions and keeping them from you either to “protect” you or to keep from hurting your feelings. Imagine that you’ve begged him not to do this but he feels so genuinely that he’s right and he begs YOU to trust him, only for you to be right like you thought and for the cycle to continue. Imagine caring about him so much that you keep trying and trying to forgive him and put your faith in him, but a lifetime of trauma and disappointment keeps you from fully being able to forget.

Now imagine that guy has gone and done it again. He’s making questionable decisions and he’s not telling you about them but you’ve discovered it, and now he’s forced to explain himself and let you in on it. Imagine thinking huh, this seems too good to be true, idk about this but maybe I can help him, maybe I can be trusted enough to help do this? And then the guy’s new best friend says she doesn’t like you, you can’t be trusted, the only way to save everyone and keep their loyalty is for your guy to kill you.

In your mind you beg him not to, but deep down you know he’s never chosen you, not completely. He’s always chosen family, which you can sort of understand because you’d always put family first too. And the betrayal and hurt is so clear on your face.

But then he doesn’t. He refuses to hurt you, even if everyone is telling him that it’s the only way, even if he’ll lose their trust and support, because he’s already broken his trust with you and it’s not worth doing again. For once he trusts YOU. He chooses you.

He chooses you, and he doesn’t even say that he’s sorry.

[hoziersmilligan]

can someone please, please make a destiel edit to willie nelson’s version of “he was a friend of mine”. i’ll give you my soul and first born

[podado-t-memes]

If someone told me yesterday I’d be prepping for my coding final with a Destiel Omegaverse practice question…

I would have thought they were insane…

���But here we are…

(Anyone wanna try to solve it? I already know the output lol)

[mothstiel]

saturn by sleeping at last always makes me ugly sob as a destiel fan. wym "with shortness of breath you explain the infinite / how rare and beautiful it is to even exist" and "how the universe was made / to just be seen by my eyes" !!>?>?!>?!>?!!!!>?!>!?!?!?!?!??!.

[fallenangelblade]

can I just say???? crazy to get “nobody cares that you’re broken, cas” and “i’d rather have you, cursed or not” in the same fucking episode

[wrenwinchester]

I keep seeing stuff about Dean, and how he deserved better, or blamed himself for everything. And I have to keep myself from defending Sam because Dean isn’t the only one. (If you can’t tell I’m a very Dean-coded Samgirl, and I have to remind myself that most of the time the creators of the edit, or post know this and they’re just highlighting Dean’s experience. And I can appreciate that.) so this is my Sam appreciation/defense post because I have feelings.

Sam deserved everything and more, he wasn’t always the best brother, but neither was Dean, and the ways both brothers struggle are with things they superimpose on themselves because they don’t know how to handle their grief, or how to live without the other. Dean tries to fix it by taking his brother’s autonomy, Sam tries to respect Dean’s autonomy when he dies, or something happens, it’s why he didn’t just go call an ambulance like he wanted to in the finale (I know I usually say non-existent finale, but I’m making a point.) it’s why he didn’t look for Dean while he was in purgatory, he figured Dean was probably in heaven, and he couldn’t imagine a world where taking that away from him was good. (Also he was traumatized, and tired of losing people.)

He went through so much crap, and it’s so overlooked by the writers, directors, and a majority of the fandom. And as someone who was overlooked growing up (even now frankly, I mean my parents were doing steak dinners for our birthdays now since we’re all adults, and they did for both my brother’s previous birthdays and my birthday we did burgers and hotdogs with the whole family which was fine, but also still left me out. Anyway), because they hid what they were feeling and going through and hid it well, it’s so obvious to me when someone else is hurting and it just bothers me so much to see it ignored in the fandom. Claiming to be a Dean Stan and hating Sam is outrageous to me because Sam is someone Dean loves so much. How you can hate someone he loves just confuses me.

I see so much of myself in Sam, a tired, burnt out gifted kid who gave everything his all until it was taken away. Who had his hopes and dreams and interests shunned and criticized by the people who were supposed to encourage him, and when he finally got out of that situation, he got dragged back in. (I know it’s more complicated, but I’m focusing on specific aspects.)

Now you don’t have to like Sam, or even some or most of his choices, but to hate Sam in Dean’s name is wrong. Dean loved Sam more than anyone else (yes this includes Cas, it may have been different, but he still loved Sam more.)

Dean himself said it best, “that’s my job right. Look out for my pain in the ass little brother.” And “I had to look out for you. Thats my job.” And “that’s my job right. Show my little brother the ropes.”

No one loves Sam more than Dean, and the fact that someone could love Dean and hate Sam just doesn’t compute in my brain. And again I know that’s not usually what’s going through these creators’ minds, but it still irks me 😂

[post defending/appreciating dean]

[weirdbros]

it’s so funny to me when samdean get into a fight and they do the whole “wow i’m so glad to be away from him 🙄” thing like relax yall will be back together by tonight 😭😭

[wizarddogs]

(During an auror mission gone wrong)

Hermione: Look, we’re no strangers to situations like this. Harry: You know the rules and so do I. Hermione: Wait… Dean: A full commitment's what I'm thinking of. Ron: You wouldn't get this from any other guy. Hermione: Are you kidding me right now? Ron: Never gonna give you up! Dean: Never gonna let you down! Seamus: Never gonna run around and desert you! Draco: Never gonna make you cry! Harry: Never gonna say goodbye! Ron: Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you! Hermione: … Hermione: So, I officially hate all of you.

[soullessjack]

i think perhaps another layer of autism in jacks character is that he’s fine with being different, but is always upset to be treated or perceived differently.

[siriusly-writes]

Absoloute Nonsense 1

She lives on my road

She goes to my school

I watch her from my window and I see her climb the trees

She lived on my road

She went to my school

I used to see her climb the tree outside her house from my window to reach for the sky

As if there were other worlds just past her fingertips that only she could see

I saw her fall

Watched as her foot slipped and fingers were torn, flesh ripping against the bark as she fell

Fighting to climb

To stay with the sky, to never have to rejoin this world, even if only for another breath

I stayed at the window as the body hit the ground and the blood spread on the pavement

Trickling down to feed the weeds that grew between the cracks

Who like her fought for scraps of meaning in world that they were not built to live in

I waited

I watched

Heard the screams of her parents and those to which her life had belonged to

And I looked to the sky knowing she was now free to roam it untethered

[sam-winchesters-gay-lover]

spn fans out here treating (character) coded (character) girl like astrology and honestly i’m so here for it

[noxemma]

Currently listening to The Tortured Poets Department and I’m brainrot frothing at the mouth over Guilty as Sin? because the destiel coding is just perfect

Like:

“What if I roll the stone away?

They’re gonna crucify me anyway

What if the way you hold me is actually what’s holy?

If long suffering propriety is what they want from me

They don’t know how you’ve haunted me so stunningly

I choose you and me religiously”

Agsjskajsgxbnsihebshaba

[magickinthewillows]

Tonight I realised that I’m a bit more like Dean than I had initially realised. I mean, yes, there were the family struggles and trying to keep the family together when we were actually a family and shut up, bro, stop fighting with dad, why can’t we all just get along? and but now to do a therapy activity tonight as part of class and get a feeling about compassion and acceptance and how that sits with me and being like, I don’t deserve it. They can’t hurt me, and I can’t hurt me, if I keep myself shut off and don’t expect those things.

If anyone needs me, I’ll be re watching that scene of where Cas and Dean meet and Cas is like, ‘what’s the matter? You don’t think you deserve to be saved..’

Shut up, Cas

Please keep taking.

[all-yourn]

Dean Winchester and Lot’s wife

Feeling Backward: Loss and the Politics of Queer History (2007), Heather Love / 11x21 / In the Dream House (2019), Carmen Maria Machado / Genesis 19:24-26 / 6x20 / The Dean Winchester Beat Sheet (2019), saltyfeathers / 15x18