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Micheal hadn't planned to address so many topics at once, but each had come tumbling out of his mouth one after another without pause. The most pressing of his fears, regrets, ideas- it was almost a wonder that poor Rick didn't experienced literal whiplash from it all. But, of course, the human does manage to not just follow along with the killer's ramblings, but picked up on things that Mike hadn't necessarily meant to reveal. But his mouth had thrown out anyway.
“….Y-you… Y-you’re not… you’re not broken. Okay?”
Mike resisted the urge to look away upon hearing Rick's first response, though he wanted to. His brows pinched, obviously disbelieving on that sentiment.
“A-aaand even if you were, it… I-it’s because of me.”
......No. For once the trouble making drug dealer was not to blame. Mike had already been nothing but broken pieces, obscured cracks and hidden razor edges, by the time the pair had first crossed paths. Rick had done nothing but add his own finishing touches to the mess that was Krombopulos Micheal, for good and for ill.
Rick's hand in his own felt nice. Those deft calloused fingers rubbing against Micheal's grasper was a sensation the gromflomite hadn't realized he'd missed so much......as was the feeling of said hand sliding up his arm. Into that special hold Mike had shown the human so long ago, what felt like an entirely different lifetime at this point.
It was enough of a distraction that Mike doesn't comment on Rick finally realizing that a piece of his damn brain, stutter included, was stuck in Mike's head. The killer for hire only able to dredge up a dry look, brow raising. If Rick was tripped out by the bug man stuttering as he spoke out, imagine how HE felt doing the stuttering?!
“B-but I… I trust you.”
Trust. That topic always came up between them. Hearing that Rick was willing to trust him on things soothed down a tension in Mike's shoulders...
... and the almost desperate request for a kiss made something in his chest suddenly flutter up. The defector couldn't have stopped it even if he'd tried, too exhausted to wage the usual war he did against feelings he still wasn't sure were actually his own. Or just his artificially altered brain chemistry.
His feelings for Rick.
They were never far from the surface, double edged and one of his largest weaknesses. Rick would see it all in Mike's eyes.
Fondness. Worry. Devotion. Anguish. Tenderness. Hesitation.
Love.
When had their faces gotten so close together? When had Micheal's heart started to pound so?
"......okay..."
That's all he manages to mutter out before Mike is pressing his mouth to Rick's, his other claw moving to hold Rick's arm like the first. Completing the two armed hold reserved for the closest of bonds, both platonic and romantic. He didn't care about where they were, how out in the open it was, nor that they were meant to be having a "meeting" in the damn hallway.
His eyes closed and he pressed firmly into the lip lock. All that mattered was that Micheal wanted to kiss Rick like he'd been telling himself he hadn't wanted to for quite a while now. A not small part of his stupid, broken brain agreed that it felt better than kissing Ken, even-
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#Now with audio#Cause when I posted this last night I realized Youtube ate it#Probably because it was like no but really why do you want to upload this#And you know i dont know#Like i said the first time i posted this it's sort of like an audio diary for me to listen back to at some point i guess#Anyway for the 0 of you who care#This was all originally done with voice memos on Discord#And so I had to record all of those memos with Audacity to be able to make this#Because you cant download them off Discord 🙃#So this took a fuckin eternity to put together#Woo boy#Oh and theres 2 points where the audio skips I think#One before Still Ill and one...at another point#Discord ate those voice memos so#Sorry about that#the smiths
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i loooove when ocs unrealized development makes them feel like real people like no i dont know whether talon is genuinely attracted to women after years of both clinging to them for safety and years of putting them onto that untouchable idealized Perfect Protector Pedestal that must remain untainted by any bad experiences, so he doesn't even try to Be With any. He doesn't know either
#like i heart bisexual men so part of me is like no yeah he does like women. he literally loves women#>what if this is just love as general blind devotion solely on the basis of them not being men#we all know he likes men without much of what would be societal shame but he still grapples with it in that personal way#in the if i like men it means i like them despite what happened to me -> i secretly like what happened to me way#talon like i like men and women but i could never spend my eternal life with a man. as a way to just focus on one thing (finding said women#instead of letting himself think about anything else at all#oc text#ill let it float into my mind but idk because this would mess up his original plot before i kept him#though tbh i want to keep keeping him idk if ill ever let him go back home ykwim. long gone concept at dis point he's mine now. ours#talkys#also this makes things more interesting too in the way of#well it was previously thought that talon has a great interest in [smunker] because of smunkers Body#a sort of unintentional and subconscious rejecting of [smunker's] gender and seeing him#as not a man#now its like. what if its not that. it rly is just sole attraction to men because well al is also a pretty feminine guy#views challenged because no‚ men one way (bad) and women another way (good)#but theres TWO guys here who exhibit femininity so he's like wait hold onnnnnn waittttt#that subconscious conflict still exists though in the fearing al (at first) due to his body and both terrorizing and clinging to [smunker]#because of his#the terrorizing because talon sees his original self in smunker (weak and youthful‚ cherubic‚ naive)#theres so many layerssss#anyway yes. loving women as in of course i love women. beautiful and they keep me safe#but not in any way further than that... i love them i can and will kiss them and do much more but it doesnt feel The Same#i dont think i actually even have any fully gay guy characters [EXCEPT MAYBE THE SELF? LMAO IDK] bc i love bisexual men so much#groundbreaking...#wait sorry more oc rambling this actually would also make sense too because how i imagine talon with women is exaggerated#complete personality change to be pleasant and pliable and you can do whatever you want to me#when its also known that the reason he ''acts out'' with al and [smunker] is because he feels safe enough to drop any and all masks to do s#hmmmmmmmm i must keep thinking
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Thinking about Krok and his og squad again...
#mostly thinking about radar....#listened to mitski's ''a pearl'' one too many times while zoing out. and yeah... that goddamn finger man.....#(my scav inspired playlist is incomprehensible at this point. rip)#but like. thinking about all that led to another odd thought nugget about krok. his og squad. and the scavs#i think ive rambled about the concept of krok projecting his old squad onto the scavs before a bit. but i didnt think too deeply about it#but considering comparisons. and squad ''roles''. it struck me that radar was most likely the ''tech'' guy. krok's tech guy#and radar was possibly (or at least implied to be) who krok was closest too. (outside of his pet ofc :(...)#so that role. that space. that empty space. is important to him. greatly so#and until they found fulcrum. no one exactly fit that space. fit that role. krok was still searching for his squad#but now fulcrum is there. filling that empty meaningful space. playing that role. but its not the same. its too different#smth smth. another idea as to why krok holds a particular grudge with fulcrum for no obvious reason#because he wants radar back. but hes gone. and fulcrums there now. but hes not radar. kroks still mourning. and fulcrum just isnt radar#not that hes actively choosing to project radar onto fulcrum. but subconsciously hes trying to fill that space. and its not the same#hence the bitterness. a sorta uncertain discomfort about fulcrums presence and attempts at getting closer that disturbs the hole radar left#maybe im thinking too hars about these teeny tiny details. but theres so much underlying themes of grief in mtmte. esp with the LL crew#so?? like?? idk. it makes sense that itd be there with the scavs too?? or smth like it??#its probably way super obvious ive frequently thought too hard about the scavs and their grief by now#and not just like. grief in only the mourning death sense. but just loss in general. loss of purpose. loss of meaning. loss of stability#the way in which decepticon are made up of ''rejects''. but the scavs are the rejects of the rejects...#i could go on about how they each prob experienced alienation from their own. but i need to go back to sleep lol#the sleepiness has finally returned since i woke up a bit ago. so. not wasting the opportunity#but rq. thankss insomnia for making me associate krok with mitski songs again. thats very joyful and happy. ill sleep tear free.. totally...#also also. the posts and art and sthffs aboht radar and krok back whenever... so glad radar is fine and safe and happy and alive🥲👍#ok. jokes done. goodnight and goodmorning. bcs its like. 7am... oof
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Hey chat guess who's sacrificing another round of sleep just to finish a f*cking one shot that's been killing me for a damn week now :)
#fresco's chatterbox#random ik :]#fresco's writing hours#< kinda counts#istg im gonna cry#i feel guilty for having this one shot in my notes for a week now#like it's a one shot it's not supposed to be long#and yet ive been fighting with it for a week now#and the point is that it's a promised present to someone#and fuck i really really hope i didn't disappoint ghem or made them think I gave them false hope#when I didn't im actually just struggling with this thing#how the heck is writing the damn asf long TSoTT easier than this one shot i don't get it#i placed everything aside for this and yet I can't get it right#i never wrote a one shot before but shouldn't it be easier than writing smth that's as complex as TSoTT???#i wouldn't be mad at myself if it was just a regular attempt at a one shot ofc#but this is different bcuz I promised this to someone so now i have no fucking idea how did I made them feel with this#i won't be surprised if they just forgot bcuz fuck it a week#*head in hands*#i know that im a terrible writer during the day#and that im better at night#so here i am#sacrificing another night for this#istg i hope ill get it done tonight#im gonna cry of i don't get this done any time soon#it's supposed to be shirt#but oh my God im not made for making short stuff#and I know that a friend reassured me about this but I still don't feel like this is fine#im better than this#im terrible#i should've had this done already
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kaiju no. 8 chapter 114 moodboard
#kaiju no. 8#my brother in christ i am STRESSED OUT#if anything happens to mina ill lose my mind#she's become like... my second fave character because of this arc#and im looking back like ohhhh. ohhhhhhh those are death flags#ohhhhh this is gonna be another one piece ace situation where the lack of main character death lulls you into a false sense of security#SPECIFICALLY so that this will have more impact#and act as a turning point for the series#ive been here before i know this drill. i truly dont think theres any way to win this fight rn. this is gonna be a heavy defeat#which on one hand YAY because that means the manga is still going and defeating no. 9 isnt the end#but on the other hand OURUUURRHGGHHHHH#kn.8 spoilers#mina#ashiro mina#kn.8#kaiju no. 8 114
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replaying through pandae and getting some laughs at some of the comments that brea makes about azem, especially now with the headcanon that my azem's his adoptive kid, like honey i want to know what kind of antics you got into that the 2 of the 4 closest to her have a "i feel a headache coming on" reaction if azem is so much as mentioned while also quick to compliment their abilities, and the other 2 are just so very supportive of their dear friend
#i've kinda rounded out some things about my azem that i think i've settled on though i still idk about her brother lol#her dad was part of the words but a project gone awry did him in. her mom was a researcher on elpis who took ill before passing#so little fen was often tagging along to elpis already and more or less latched onto the first parental figure she spotted and didn't let g#she ends up a keyward for a while and i kinda think maybe her brother ends up working in elpis like their mom#so they kinda ended up in similar roles that their parents took. just think it would be a nice way to go#she always wanted to see the rest of etheirys so at one point or another she takes her leave to travel#starts nearby on her own before word makes it to venat and she ends up traveling and studying with her as her protege#and then eventually takes over as azem and then brings in emet lol#which honestly makes it kinda funny that there's at least 4 of the convocation that's either family a friend or a lover of azem#can't even imagine the nonsense she dragged them into#also i do still love the idea of azem emet and hyth knowing each other as kids
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As much as purity culture IS penetrating fandom spaces and sanitising them beyond their core intent, I feel like some of you are overusing the phrase "don't like, don't read" (and others like it). Rather in response to people being nitpicky about certain themes merely existing in content (fan-made or otherwise), you guys keep using it as a way to shut down critical discussions of your favourite medias in a way that feels oddly anti-intellectual and ironically puritanical in and of itself.
#my post#this isn't the only phrase this is being used for btw this is just the one I used as an example#“let people enjoy things” is also another big one#like I get why you'd be so hostile after so many people who are uneducated on fandom etiquette invaded our spaces and flipped them#upside down with the vitriolic cringe culture they cling to#but I feel like we're losing sight of our goal here#purity culture is a problem but someone isn't a “tiktok puriteen” for criticising your favourite media#freedom of speech means freedom to criticise#you can't advocate for a free and chaotic fandom space and then get mad when a fandom space is exactly that#you don't care about purity culture invading fandom spaces you just want to believe in and do whatever you want#without anyone challenging you for it#bit of a ramble I don't really want to tag this because I don't want to kick the hornet's nest too hard but hghhh#like I so get where these people are coming from#like this isn't really a finger wagging “don't do this” post more is it a “let's not do this” post#I actually saw someone make this point a while back on instagram reels and I completely agreed with them#this thought kind of just clicked with me right now tonight as I actually went through the logical journey to reach that conclusion myself#so now it's more believable to me than just someone telling me their perspective and me not having enough knowledge or wisdom#at the time to 100% validate their perspective even though logically I may agree with it at the time#fuck I was gonna say something else but I kind of forgot#OH YEAH#because I was definitely in the mindset of “omg purity culture in fandom is ruining everything this is ass”#which I still agree with btw it's just important not to swing too far because there's still valid criticisms to be brought up in fandom-#and media and it feels reductive to boil it all down to “purity culture”#even though sometimes people's criticisms can be ill-informed and slightly ridiculous in the way in which you can tell that this is a#insecure younger teenager who clings to insanely high moral standards so they can soothe their secret insecurities about how they're#somehow secretly a bad person for not living up to said standards#trust me I've been there before. Both the former and latter. But this is my take for now as I feel it's more informed and nuanced#than before#oh by the way when I say I've been the former before I DON'T mean I was ever a proshipper ew lol#may take down later
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why do i always get ideas for lore changes After posting. is he stupid?
#larry time#this one's not too serious ive just been toying with the idea of pushing the years kentaro gets sick + the move takes place#since i think that would make kirus silly attitude in middle school make more sense#kenny still being around means she gets a little more leeway and all#plus if he were to pass while she was in her third year of junior high#itd make her change in demeanor btwn then and high school being so Sudden make more sense#the only problem i run into here is her relationship with yanagida since they have less time as friends that way...#but maybe it's fine? because then their reunion can be like ''i never really understood you then so im happy to have a second chance''#plus fsr i find ive always gotten along best with the relatives i see least often so maybe i can just project that into them#maybe they were pen pals or something. idk. they definitely visited one another at some point before the move#ill think about if i wanna go this route or not... we shall see
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ive decided that my newest hobby is mixology this is who i am now
#i just made such a good shaken passionfruit daiquiri i can not stress enough how good this is#i would make another one but i forgot to make ice before i started so i barely had enough for the first one rip#winter came n i switched from ice coffees to hot ones and forgot to make ice for god knows how long apparently#yapping#anyway im tired of having to drink beer when ppl come over n we all drink i dont even like beer#i like my silly little cocktails and now i dont have to pay a fortune to have them YIPPEEE#i love how im acting as if ive never made cocktails before when i used to work as a literal bartender for like half a year AHHAHAHA#i dont drink a lot to be clear sometimes i wont touch alcohol for over a month it rly depends on the vibes of the functions i guess#also not a big fan of drinking by myself ngl#but i think sharing cocktails with dani and shady would be so fun actually#were thinking of having a jojo part 6 watch party with cocktails with the three of us yay !!!!#in the time ive sat here going “aw i dont have any ice :^(” my freezer would have made new ice by now#but yeah im still learning what i like taste wise i guess! but so far im sticking to what i know i like#so... mojito. pina colada. daiquiri... those vibes#i like cosmopolitans as well but i didnt buy shit to make those (i do have to be mindful of having a budget i guess.. maybe next month)#im talking too much rn but. point is. this is fun and cute and i like it#wish i had more than one cocktail glass i guess#but danis a 192cm clumsy man who keeps breaking any fragile glasses i own when he washes the dishes#but i refuse to wash the dishes myself so ill just buy new ones#he cant even fit his hand in my champagne glasses and i still insist on him washing them.. maybe i am the problem actually 😐
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I'm a little grumpy that we've been sitting in the waiting room for 30 minutes now (that's what I get for being early), but it's been great watching people's varying degrees of "oh wow I didn't know there was a dog"
#another day another doctor#beans beans the magickal fruit#we got two “oh shit”s#some “aw so good I didn't even know you were there”#still sitting still#waiting#service dog#dogblr#spoonie#chronic illness#waiting room#one “honey look theres a working dog here”#poor lady went#“What? where?”#her husband had to point Hek out to her before she saw her
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i think it's getting to be time
#for baldurs gate 3#i played for a few days in like September and couldn't continue#maybe ill give it another go soon if i can build the energy.... id like to#i made it through like the druids grove#and i was already running out of steam by that point#i think one of the last things i did was having to save scum the bridge encounter with the githyanki??#it was like what do you want me to do here ive done everything to this point and am still too weak to fight these guys#so i had to give laezel like guidance and bank on a good roll with the old guy i think#i can't remember if the giant spider cave was before or after that#i jumped down into the underdark and got a glimpse of it before splatting lol#love that the game lets you do that#dnds got to have like a featherfall type spell or effect sooner or later right?#anyways yeah sometimes i remember oh yeah there's like genuinely a new rpg for the first time in FOREVER#i wanna explore and experience it ;_;#well... explore whatever the dumbass patch notes writer didn't spoil?? they had spoiler markers but randomly didn't bother marking some??#that took the last of the wind out of my sails back then hehe#and i was already pushing it
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Cleaned up Juliet Loki and London's toyhouse pages a bit so that their info is more up to date, and I'm definitely going to have to do the same for the others I already typed stuff out for because man was I way too generous describing them these guys all fucking suck <3
#rat rambles#lobotomy posting#oc posting#also some of the descriptions were just straight up outdated 'loki rarely lashes out a ppl' incorrect buzzer sound#I was also going to update daniel's page but I broke london's page while editing it and spent like an hour trying to fix it </3#speaking of london heartbreaking hes no longer the only one of my nuggets whos canonically been pregnant 😔#theres now two whole other nuggets who have been pregnant now wow#and by two I mean one and one who's body was pregnant at one point before she was the one piloting it but yknow#so sad london gets no fun facts now hes not special anymore 😔#to be clear the other two are gabriella's dad (who I need to rename still) and maximin#maximin has no idea a past iteration of her has a daughter running around tho and neither did the three previous iterations before her#tbf one of them only existed for a few months before giving up but still thats quite a few individuals who didnt know they kinda have a kid#I should rly draw each of the maximins at some point Ive been thinking abt them a lot lately#every other maximin quitting life after a few years watching maximin tank a decade worth of lobcorp horrors and still having a will to live#ok tbf. the fourth one actually lasted for a good while and only sacrificed herself to protect her wife#Im still working out the exact timeline but Im thinking she lasted abt a decade? she had an established life and was happy for most of it#she wasnt the one who had the kid btw that would be the second iteration who was miserable and ditched everything before quitting#the third was the one who only lasted a few months before quitting since she spent the entire time fighting for her god damn life in the#backstreets after having been left with nothing to work with#the fith lasted for about a year or two before joining lob corp and instantly regretting it and making the current maximin#ok I got off topic Ill talk abt the maximins more another time
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#cw// ed#keep getting jumpscared via onedrive pulling the ole 'this day in 202X'#like what do you mean i looked like THAT#i am simultaneously revolted and upset/sad that i feel that way#i think of my past self with ao much compassion like no she did not deserve that#but current me deserves to die one million agonizing deaths#but i digress.#i was recently subjected to a pic of myself at my highest weight probably ever and i did not recognize myself for a sec.#idk. so weird how ive lost enough to be the same size i was in hs and having to buy a whole new pant wardrobe#and i am still not happy still not satisfied but what is the Point if i can never be happy???#i was thinking about the ever present question of 'what comes next' and tbh i still believe that if i am small enough#then i will be happy and my brain will magically fix itself and i will be universally loved and admired#and seen but in the way i want to be seen.#so basically have everything and everyone under my control#which is never gonna fucking happen!! but how the fuck do i get away from this idea??#anyway. i am still super anxious but if i take another prn ill pass out before finishing my Tasks
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