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ok hes not a new f/o but....i am officially with jumin han 07/01/23 ok!!!!!
#]]H0K0#]]???#QUEUE#07/01/23#we are kissing on mouth#V0ID TRAP . . .#SINCE THIS HASNT BEEN POSTED YET...#HAPPY ONE MONTH TO ME & JUMIN <3#working on one of his bad ends as we speak (the gay one.
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Here are some sketch versions of my drawings. Most of them are sketches that I used the pixel brush on since I sketch them out in a different program before putting them in IbisPaint.
#psychonauts#im not tagging the individual characters this time#if you are seeing this post before may 1st then the final version of that misha sketch hasnt been released yet#since its part of the april compilation#so i guess that makes it a preview? ooh#people from the future: thats the early version#my doodles#2025
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i havent posted in a thousand years but ive been so annoyed recently bc i feel like i keep seeing things in fandom about trans hcs where people will just complain about any and all trans hcs bc “but its literally not canon?” “theres no proof/evidence of this??” “why do u hc this character as trans it doesnt make any sense?”
who cares? idk when we got to the point where hcs have to make sense at all lmao. most of my trans hcs will have come from something about the character within canon, but i make trans hcs simply for fun as well. i obviously have no problem when people do either one, and i have no idea why people even care.
& on top of that, when people do begrudgingly accept a trans hc, they have such strict guidelines on how your trans character must look/act & what theyre allowed to do. why do we always forget not every trans person will look the same? or feel the same way about themselves or their body? youre genuinely not allowed to do anything in fandom anymore lmfao and especially not with trans hcs its so fucking frustrating omfg
#ranting#its so bleak oh my god#sorry i finally post just to complain but#once again my account is the safest space for your trans hc#come on man i used to draw akihiko w a chest thats not flat OR small#while being a MAN… gasp#it hasnt even been that long since then& yet i feel like id get my ass beat for it nowadays w how ppl act
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Thinking of vlr Akane is so conflicting cuz on one hand I’m so upset that she doesn’t ever get a moment to just rest and enjoy being alive again I’m upset that she just gets deeper and deeper into this role she’s built for herself and she loses her humanity and will never ever be that girl who died in the incinerator. But on the other hand, I need her to get so, so much worse I need her to be so obsessed with perfection she has this unique ability to change the course of history and she will burn everything and everyone to the ground in the blink of an eye if it means she can "reset" and get a perfect timeline and I desperately need her to never be satisfied with anything because really, is there anything that’s worth all the damage she’s caused?
#zero escape#akane kurashiki#virtues last reward#yeahhhhh just having so many thoughts about akane and sigma and junpei and yeah im screaming eyes bloodshot#i want akane to just like post 999 just do silly shit with aoi get a cat be a gamer try to heal the best she can#and i want her to be so evil i think theres still some crimes she hasnt committed yet she should do those#i really really really want her and junpei to just beat the shit out of each other in a boxing ring. specifically post vlr#need them being old as shit throwing chairs everyone is cheering#and damn like vlr akane just cant agree with junpei on his philosophy that a life with pain is still a life worth living cuz then thatd mean#everything she did in 999 was all for naught like to accept even the bad timelines where she died as valuable...#thats a kick to the dick especially when she fought so hard to live and how her death was so unfair#except she was just a scared kid with no choice then. now whats her excuse#i just want it to be possible you know? possible that akane didnt need to do this and she couldve been happy#cuz yeah the trauma would be horrible but surely itd be better than the trauma she has now since she took that dive#i wonder if she knows that no matter what she does she’ll never erase her trauma and eventually she will have to face it#or if she actually believes she can figure it all out and win the perfect timeline and magical mental stability will happen#basically akane is avoiding therapy soooooo hard but then again who would even be her therapist#no one can possibly understand her...right?
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I'm so unwell about these two I am so unwell they're so cuteee
#bloodborne#my ocs#jeans reeves#good hunter#the witcher#emiel regis#regis#witcher#oc x canon#regis x oc#crossover#im sooooooo <3333 i love them sm....#its actually been a whole year since i started my fanfiction.... it hasnt seen the light of publication yet but idk someday#theyre the only thing keeping me sane tbh#btw if you have any questions feel free to ask!!!!! even though i dont post my writing im super cool to talk about it :)
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NO!! SNAKE BITE BOOTHILL I'LL FOREVER WAIT FOR YOI...... MY BELOVED
Silliness apart I 100% understand. I'll love anything you write. Can you give a taste of what ur writing right now? The 18k draft? I'm curious.....
by the way, do you think boothill would like whiskey? With 2 ice cubes?
-Snake Bite anon
edit: i wrote most of this like right when i got the ask (like two months ago i am SO sorry 💀) and meant to finish it immediately after but uhhh obviously that didnt happen. and in retrospect it is extremely funny how nervous i was to talk about this considering how bad my newest newest draft is. anyway here you go
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oh god anon the can of worms youve just opened.. 😭 im sort of nervous talking about it but. im too obsessed with it to not finish and post it eventually so i guess i should just rip off the bandaid now.
cw pseudoincest under the cut but HEAR ME OUT HEAR ME OUT HEAR ME OUT
ok so for the record this is NOT MY FAULT. i was talking with (redacted) about how sad it is that one of my favorite writers sees him as an uncle. like, it's a familial thing. and we were joking like "well that wouldnt stop me lmao am i right guys" and it was all in good fun.
and then i started. Thinking About It. and entirely against my will my brain formed a plot. and at first i was just gonna write like a drabble or something to get it out of my system but uh. well.
yeah. so. yeah. so. ok. i know this looks bad but HEAR ME OUT. also spoilers for the first uhhhhh maybe half of the fic ?? two thirds of the fic???
ok so. this initially takes place before the IPC arrival. the reader gets adopted by one of his sisters when she's 5 because she was alone in the desert. she cant talk, and by the time she can, she doesnt remember what happened, so whatever. she meets boothill (who i am presently calling ahiga because i literally could not dodge around the name for that long) when she's 7 and LET ME EMPHASIZE THAT IT IS COMPLETELY PLATONIC AT THAT POINT. 100% PLATONIC. THERE IS NO GROOMING IN THIS FIC. OR UNDERAGE. ZERO. ZIP. ZILCH.
so reader is like.. cripplingly lonely with some major attachment issues. her mama's farm is pretty far from everyone else and there aren't many kids her age in the family, so she doesn't have many connections when she's younger. and she's a quiet kid, so she doesnt get much attention from the rest of her relatives. boothill can kinda see this to some degree, and i think hes sort of acquainted with loneliness (although his is largely self-inflicted at this point) so he kinda goes out of his way to include her in stuff and be nice to her. NOT in a creepy way, just in a regular cool uncle way. he teaches her how to ride horses, gives her sweets when mama isnt looking, that kind of thing. they don't see each other all that often but it's enough that they have a pretty solid, positive relationship.
so when shes like 16 she forms a teeny tiny itty bitty crush on him. just like. a little thing. and shes VERY aware that that's fucked up and she should cut that out immediately, but the thoughts kind of linger. but like.. presumably that'll just.. iron itself out eventually. with time. it's fine.
and almost immediately after that the IPC shows up and shit goes down. she and mama get kicked off their ranch and have to go shelter with nick and graey, and in the next week or so many other relatives follow. boothill ends up dropping off his daughter (who im calling manaba in this fic for the sake of naming consistency) to join the rebellion. reader helps out with the war effort, does supply runs, that kinda thing. when the ipc finally gives the kill order, shes between towns, and since they're targeting population centers, she escapes the direct blasts and shelters in a river to avoid the ensuing wildfires.
not everyone is so lucky, obviously. no one in her family (that she knows of) survives. some shit happens, but she ends up getting picked up by a group of survivors. skipping the details, several years go by. she doesnt really make any new friends, and the loneliness sinks its teeth into her - so she relies on the past to keep her grounded. the memories of her mom feel too painful, but her memories of her uncle feel.. safer. kinder, in a way. and in the back of her head, that tiny crush starts to fester. subconsciously, she starts to feed it, because the loneliness is ripping her apart, and this weird fucked up little fantasy feels like the safest way for her to keep it at bay. it's not a conscious thing, though. she's actively disgusted and disturbed by it every time it crosses her mind. it just kind of.. stews in the background.
she starts sleeping around to sate that loneliness. "There's a void in you that you haven't managed to fill. Something about having someone's hands on you makes the ache a little quieter, a little more manageable, but not by much." it's not born out of love, or any kind of affection - just a feral sort of desperation.
she never really feels like her partners fit her. when she finally realizes that shes chasing people with features that remind her of her dead fucking uncle, she promptly declares herself a freak forever and sentences herself to celibacy until she can figure out whatever the fuck is wrong with her brain.
she ends up leaving the planet, because staying is too painful. im a little foggy on the details here, but tldr she finds a mentor and gets into the tech scene, then the hacking scene, then starts doing what she can do fuck with the ipc wherever possible, etc etc. somehow, experiencing the impossible vastness of the universe, being surrounded by a functionally infinite amount of people, feels more lonely than ever. she's just kind of adrift in the world - sending money back home to help people make end's meet, generally just trying to find a reason to live beyond fear. there's a storm of emotions brewing inside of her - the hatred and the terror and the grief. she does all she can to spite the IPC, but it never feels like enough. it never feels like it does any good.
and then, years after the massacre, she's at a bar meeting with a client, and she sees him, and he sees her. and she's thinking "holy fucking shit that's my dead uncle" and he's thinking "holy fucking shit that's my dead niece" and they reunite and stuff. very heartwarming, very sweet, lots of tears (well. from her at least. he can't partake obviously 💀) and they start catching up over drinks.
and that's when he tells her his mission - that he knows who pulled the trigger, and who was behind the slaughter of their people. and she latches onto that HARD, because now she has a specific target for her emotional turmoil instead of the vague, amorphous concept of "the company." etc etc etc they agree to team up because he could use someone to help with behind-the-scenes stuff. and also because it's really nice to have someone around from home. so they exchange contact info and stuff, yay yay yippee
so they chat more, and they drink more, and reader maaaaaybe kinda sorta drinks a little too much. more than a little, actually. more than enough that her hold on her inner monologue slips and she starts thinking about how pretty he is. and suddenly that dormant little harmless crush that she was subconsciously feeding is swinging back around with a vengeance, because now it's real, and he's here, and he's ALIVE, and god did his lips always look that soft or-
and. well. eventually she uh. she might maybe kinda sorta ask if she can kiss him. and then processes the words that just came out of her mouth and starts CRYING because what the FUCK is wrong with her. and he like.. never addresses it directly. he just calms her down and makes sure she gets back to her hotel room and fucking DIPS.
BUT THE THING IS. THE THING IS. SHE WAKES UP THE NEXT MORNING. AND DOESN'T REMEMBER DOING IT. SO NOW HE KNOWS!! BUT SHE DOESN'T KNOW THAT HE KNOWS!!!! AND THEY HAVE TO ACT NORMAL!!!!!!!!!!!!
so the next bit is kinda loose and im probably gonna tweak some things. but. but. they have to go on a mission together. and.
yeah. im. yeah. they have to go to a bdsm club. together. and im sure you can guess. where im going with that. theres a particular section from the club scene that has been absolutely CONSUMING ME but idk if i should share that yet jawhbdjahwdbjawbajd unless somebody asks nicely ig. but jesus christtttttttttt it makes me feel insane. this whole fic makes me feel insane. the ending makes me want to chew my hands off but we'll get there when we get there. fucking pray for me because im not seeing the gates of heaven with this one
#sal.dcu#sal.snippets#god i have no idea how to tag this lmfao#cw pseudoincest#fem reader#the name for this fic is really funny to me. “don't cry uncle”#im not queuing this LMAO if you see it you see it#anyway yeah this one hasnt been on my mind quiteeee as much since the slasher au#but it's been rattling around back there. very persistently.#might do some more work on this actually. i think a break has done me some good#gotta move some things around i think. but i think everything here will still be accurate afterwards#i think i need to add another mission before the club.. not sure what yet tho.....#when i first started this draft i was sure this would be the thing to get me canceled#but honestly this reader is so miserable that idk if anything but the most bad-faith readings could take this as romanticizing incest LMAO#so wet cat coded. girl spends this entire fic wallowing in guilt#and so does he for the record. but we dont get his pov so we dont really know until later LOLLLL#also ily snake bite anon <3 i will post chapter 2 snippets for u at some point pinkie promise#snake bite anon#ALSO VERY SORRY THAT I TOOK SO LONG TO ANSWER THIS AKJHDJHABFJJHABW
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Frye Fest - Final Countdown
Start - Part 1 - Next ->
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🍕Team Grub🍕
Splatfest 24-09-2022
[Master Post]
#doing a little thing ive been wanting to do since i first got this game lol#well when i first fell in love with frye which was around the same time so whatever XD#anyway#lets hope i can keep on schedule#the plan is to draw ALL the splatfests we've had so far and post one every day until the grand fest....#as of making this post (which is 2 days prior to scheduling this lol) i only have this drawing done. with one sketch of the next done....#out of 19....#BUT HEY#im not backing down on thisa >:D#i will go insane but itll be worth it!#cross my fingers i can keep on schedule still fjsjkaa#also so wish i could schedule posts on instagram but the feature hasnt reached me yet#which means yall fellow tumblerinas will get to see my posts first XD#splatoon 3#splatfest#frye onaga#gear vs grub vs fun#team grub#my art#saltys art#frye fest
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I recently got a new laptop & having to setup my backups after moving everything over to it was the push I needed to finally switch from dropbox, which I've always hated & thought ran like shit (every time I wanted to access a file from laptop to tablet it would literally be faster to either save it as a tumblr draft or email jt to myself then wait for dropbox to sync & show the file on the other device??? & a million other things that sucked) so I started a 100% device backup for my phone and laptop on the new service I picked literally at lunchtime yesterday and it's still fucking going because I have a ton of shit. anyway all of this to get to the point of my phone is running like absolute shit bcus of the backup and despite its reputation for being constantly broken, tumblr is the ONLY app I've been able to run normally all day
#texticles#basics like my calendar & alarm app are running fine but like couldnt use amazon or depop or hungryroot or google meet or SEND AN EMAIL yet#ive been here all day posting just fine with some minor lag & gradient zoning. discord is hit or miss i can get jt to load unlike other shi#but at 6:30 i tried sending a msg w a small jpeg & its been loading ever since & still hasnt sent. lmao.
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Holy fuck, man. What a trip Fearne has been on, huh?
You tell her how grateful you are to have her in your life, you flatter her, you tell her you need her, that you have to do this together. You have her make a promise that has this woman, born of chaos and fey, agreeing through shaking hands and a trembling voice.
You make her deceive your friends; you make her follow where they cannot know; you make her help you into this contraption; you make her feed this thing into you despite the fact that you both have been warned extensively of the risks. You make her watch you crumble and splinter and shatter and fracture and burst and implode. You make her watch you die, over and over and over and over, for a minute in agonizing bullet time.
You make her do all these things, because when she tries to back out, when she tries to not be the one who let you do this—how could you do this—
you tell her, "YOU PROMISED."
Because if there's one thing you know, it's that the fey do not break a promise.
#cant wait for her to fucking pissed for a very long time. shes really packing the entire human experience in a very short period of time.#critical role#cr spoilers#c3e77#fearne calloway#ashton greymoore#bells hells#just gonna get ahead of the um actually mfs and state that i am aware that its not confirmed that thats why ash brought up the promise#but boy howdy would it make for some great drama down the line huh?#edit: apparently i did not get ahead enough cuz ive had to turn off replies#since ppl were somehow interpreting this mini introspection piece as me infantilizing fearne??#anyway the first line is now changed to something a bit more neutral. after sleeping on it i do see how it was a bit aggressive at the top#other than that im not sure how else to reword without completely disregarding the core of the post#i might make more posts addressing this but im not sure yet. i wanna try to approach it in the best way possible.#but if it helps any the point of the post was not to say fearne had no agency. she had plenty of moments where she tilted one way or the#other. the POINT was to just shine some light on the emotional pressure she had been put under.#hasnt your friend ever asked you to keep a secret or promise that felt wrong or unsafe or made you anxious?#it has nothing to do with the amount of agency she had. ash wasnt holding a knife to her throat and forcing her to follow against her will#all i was trying to do was take this detail about his reminder of the promise that i thought was interesting and have some fun writing an#overview of the kinda stress she was under BEFORE theyd reached that scene. this entire ep was everyone discussing how grateful they were#for this family theyd made. and while im not saying ash was PURPOSELY emotionally manipulating fearne..#there is a level of unintentional manipulation when you pair the severity of his request with the convo theyd had 2 seconds prior#as well as the desperate need they all have to save each other NO MATTER WHAT.#ash was giving incredibly strong energy of a friend who peer pressures you into helping them do something that you know in your gut WILL#cause problems. hes a fucked up guy. theyre all fucked up guys. even if he didnt mean to “force” her into anything the pressure was THERE.#<- i feel like all of this overall gets my message across. i think maybe ill clean it up later into its own post.#im gonna try not to rush myself to get it done tho.#im under no obligation to explain myself. especially when ppl approach the misunderstanding by being rude af. but i do think it CAN#be clarified so id at least like to try to some degree
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ok. extreeeeeemely tentatively. first chapter of 我朝你奔跑的距离 | the distance that i run to you (aka beiran ep15 coda fic) ...... arriving december 31st
#i am being egged on by my beta (mwah) and this gets me to my goal (post by the end of this year) on a technicality#while also being like. probably doable haha#i keep wondering why this fic took three damn months and then i remember [redacted] was like all of october and then it hasnt#even been two full months since that yet and also. the length of this damn fic#let me be free i need to go fill bcsdp prompts with freaky door sex for the spirealm !!!!#also i have so little time before the end of the year#and so much data analysis to do before the end of january (SIGH)#i think this will be a good balance to keep me writing without making me have to go too hard#hidey talks fic#beiran ep15 coda fic
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the most important thing about a ship is that one of them has to be a little bit dead
#usually figuratively but i cannot say i am opposed to literally. i have a normal amount of thoughts on marvel comics civil war.#aspen tag#u know. this post did just start as stevetony vkjc ideological betrayal the version of you i thought i knew is gone#the classics. im always saying this <- guy who probably hasnt talked abt this since 2022#but actually it can sort of extend further if you take it more loosely#bren is a dead boy so on and so forth. i could actually list the reasoning for every ship ive ever gotten seriously into#but also theres not actually that many more anyways. theres like ........... . um. perc'ahlia?#and dmo ofc. which is a new addition. hasnt even been two weeks yet thats how bad i got got#that might actually be it. both of those also work if u squint. do thr math urself#i flooded my brain with dormant blorboisms so bad i gave myself a headache and thats how im ending this post. goodnight
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Mood: I feel like indulging in Mileven in a way that I think neither Bylers nor Milevens will understand/appreciate.
(I'm so past the point of having any doubt about Byler being endgame that I feel safe to enjoy some Mileven content in a non-canon ship way, since I've always been a multi-shipper at heart. Their past relationship had its moments and I wanna appreciate what they meant to each other even if they don't end up together.)
#like im way too pro-byler to be accepted by milevens since im a byler endgame truther#but even admitting that i enjoy any part of mileven's relationship is basically heretical to bylers esp gay mike truthers#& i do like the gay mike interpretation as well it just hasnt been confirmed yet so can i still have a little bi mike & mileven as a treat#obviously if it turns out mike is gay i wont see mileven romantically at all anymore#and it's not that i think they're a healthy great relationship in the first place but like. idk i can enjoy pretty gifsets of them#i just dont want all my mutuals to be like “wtf is this” since ive never posted mileven even tho i made a disclaimer early on that#i dont hate the ship and might post content of them...i just never did cause i was too into byler lmao#but now im sick of the debunking and dunking idk idk!#byler is endgame but anyway#tbd#probably#IS THIS A SAFE SPACE??? IS THIS A SAFE SPACE TO SAY WHAT I ACTUALLY THINK
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I've been brainstorming design ideas for one of the side party characters and I have received visions that I 1 don't know if I can pull off 2 don't know if it'd fit amongst the rest of the side party and 3 fucking adore and wanna try drawing anyways. Raiden found dead in a ditch
#rat rambles#oc posting#her name is eiji shes the 'druid' of the party#idk if I've talked abt her at all but shes existed for a while shes just been being neglected#not as badly as orthodox was but still enough so that I genuinely forgot I named her until I double checked orthodox's name recently#which I know sounds worse but you just have to trust me that she took up nore space in my brain than them before they finally clicked#eiji has had decently well defined concepts for her since I came up with her she just hasnt had a turn to take over my brain yet#but yeah I haven't drawn her yet partially because Id need to design her other forms too but mainly because I wasnt satisfied with my#vision of her as its very similar to lace's design and while it fits the druid vibe I didnt want her to just feel like lace with different#hair and clothes so Ive been trying to think of how to spice her design up#and I do have some ideas but they lean real heavy into the inhuman and hand crafted vibe in a way the rest of the cast mostly doesnt#I can probably make it work tho so Im entertaining the idea#the main issue with it is that I dont know what to do with her hair and neck since most of the funkiness is in her face#Im also considering giving her some sort of nighttime vibe but Im not set on it#if I gave her a star motif then Id have to draw that every time and I have enough characters that make me do that already#but itd be cute so idk Ill probably try it
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yagami should get his back snapped in half like a toothpick if he wanna fuckin sleep on couches exclusively might as well be doin the same amount of damage
#snap chats#judgement posting real ??? <- hasnt played it yet#LISTEN MAYBE TOMORROW IDK#im thinkin to spend my morning on comms then in-between class time on judgement and then the rest of the night on comms#i may or may not be packed like a sardine... omg that reminds me of my train trip tho#the train system i was taking was kinda sketch on the lowest of keys but it was so funny transferring trains#cause the second train i had to take there was An Atom of room left and thankfully i have the body mass of a paper bag#so i just slipped in but then i was just fucking smooshed against the wall. it was hillarious#oh yeah. 'snap why are yo making this very specific post' because i didnt realize the benefits of sleeping on a bed#all summer when i was at my moms i slept on a couch in our basement since.#i refuse to sleep on the same floor as her at this point LMAO she dont make me feel safe in there#so yeah i just did That for three months and ive obvi been sleepin on a bed since going back to school#and dawg while i was over there for the weekend i only slept on a couch Again#the added benefit to sleeping on the couch is my dog is more likely to sleep near me.. hehe..#OH BUT YEAH NOW MY BACK HURT. ive never experience back pain like this before..#maybe the couch i was sleeping on sucked idk. the one i was sleeping on's cushions get pushed out real easy#my usual couch doesnt but... dog...... dog likes the other couch more lowkey....#anyways Get Yagami A Bed 2024
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most embarrassing thing abt my obsession with astarion has been that he sometimes gives me cute aggression.. why am i even confessing this
#it's trueeee it's like he's literally a cat to me 😒#this is the reason why sometimes i had to stop and pace around. i couldnt deal with this effect#FROM HIM of all characters to exist on planet earth. from the bastard vampire man#urghhhh im saying all this stupid shit bc it's been too long since i played/watched this game LMAO#but yeah. unfortunately he's soooooo silly so silly#i cant even explain further. i already talked too much ... it's nearly 2am that's why im like this#fuck everything tho i WILL play bg3 tomorrow after my exam lmaoooo#let's fall down that rabbit hole once again why not (hasnt even stopped falling for the first time yet)#🗒#playing bg3#i post all kinds of fucked up personal stuff recently im sorry everyone . if i really do end up playing again tmrw#after a loooooong break#i am already sorry for my potentially embarrassing behavior
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in case anybody has been waiting........... new chapter of puppy love will be posted this weekend :3 mark your calendars and stay tuned!!!
#unsure yet if it will be posted sat or sun.... depends how fast i can edit.....#also lets pretend that is hasnt been 10 months since i last updated ok#lets not talk about that
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