#UGH why is this so frustrating

[mossy-aro]

being aspec is weird sometimes because exploring my boundaries and (a)sexuality in my own way is such a personal and normal thing to do as you go through life but it feels like if you do something or experience something differently than aspec people are ‘supposed to’ it puts the validity of your whole identity in danger

[repost-account-yall]

This game would be like 30 min if they jus talked.

/j lol

[crybabydaydream]

really bugging me how all this conversation and discourse about polyamoury is cropping up and I'm not seeing anyone use the word

amatonormitivity

If you don't know this word you should learn it, its a really relevant concept to this conversation

[electricparchment]

power duo ⚡️

+ the humble origins of this painting

references are screenshots by the great @sunsetagain

[pangzi]

can we just talk about how incredible wandee goodday is with their narrative devices though? the foreshadowing is incredible. there's symbolism everywhere. the oyeicher/yakdee juxtapositions are so good. even though their words and actions might contradict each other, everything gets spelled out for us so clearly, it's beautiful.

[alluralater]

just finished moving around/reorganizing my entire bedroom. i have cried three times today but now i’m laying in bed, my room smells of roses, and i’m eating french bread. this was not the bipolar hot girl mania i was promised but damn if i don’t do it well

[autisticlancemcclain]

lately i’ve been on this kick of hating everything i’ve ever written and will write which is crazy bc like 🤨 girl you’re writing this for YOU with skills YOU DEVELOPED INTENTIONALLY where do u get the nerve

[bd-wlf]

something about Maurice(1987) and how it made me realize i do not want to spend my life alone and that i do in fact crave deeper more emotional bonds with those around me, the type of bond that blurs the lines of platonic and romantic like i want to know who I'm spending time with. some homoeroticism bullshit yknow?

and something about Sherlock Holmes(specifically Elementary) that made me realize I'm actually aro-ace and that I've been repressing those feelings. and more so that i really really want a QPR, someone to go crazy for in a platonic way yknow? someone who just gets me yeah?

[tomboyfriends]

also i think i prefer "desisted" to "desister". desisting is more or less a one and done deal. "desister" sounds like i'm constantly struggling with it and am having some weird on and off fling with acting like someone i'm not. also not a fan of detrans/desisted people saying they're "presenting" as "female" or "ftmtf" when the former isn't a matter of presentation and the latter isn't a thing. for me desisting was giving up on the crazy notion that i have to play along with gender at all. when it's all a made up fantasy to prop up males above women and girls.

when i'm barefaced and braless i'm not "not presenting female" and i'm not "masculine" either. i am female. that will be a part of me. forever. and i'm happy with that. and even if i like being called a boyfriend (usually hot goth tomboyfriend/tomboy girlfriend) or being called a guy in a funsy way, it's nothing more than that. because i'm literally just some woman. playing pretend. trying to have a little fun in life. i really wish everyone female would stop bowing to gender in some way. whether it's the one woman caked in makeup, or another shorthaired woman wearing a snapback and listing wacky pronouns in her dating bio. or the detransitioned/ing woman saying she's "presenting female" and forcing herself into femininity when it doesn't have anything to do with being female in the first place.

gender is nothing. it is a message to women to shut up and eliminate our female individuality. why are we pretending it's fun to "explore gender" and "play with gender". it's literally just misogyny/sex-based oppression. sidenote: and why is this all on the HER app. why am i seeing all this shit there when it's supposed to be the damn female hookup app. i mean i haven't been on there in years but i remember what it was like on there. and then a man got the account banned on twitter because he couldn't stop being a rape-advocating TIM, so that's lovely.

[secretagentsagainstwhatever]

Fuck first past the post. All my homies hate first past the post

[autisticlee]

no one knows just how hard I work at things. how I have to work 1000000x more than the average person to compensate for being autistic and adhd and probably other things i'm working out with therapist, and having a sort of physical disability i've not received any help or treatment for. everyone assumes I don't try or give up too soon. they think I just started, need more practice. they think I expect everything handed to me immediately with no work or effort and don't acknowledge the multiple years i've put into things. they think I have no right to be upset about still failing to get where I want even after working my entire life to get there, while watching people around me surpass even my meager goals within a fraction of the time and work i've out into the same thing. constantly getting surpassed by everyone around me who seem to barely do any work to get there compared to me. it's all handed to them and falls into their lap so easily. all because they don't have the extra obstacles to overcome and work around that I do. while they go from point A to Z immediately with no major stops in between, I have to go through every single letter and then some, often getting sent back to the start. but it's always *my* fault, according to everyone. it's not the fault of those around me who ignore me, don't support me, don't help me, don't believe in me, etc. it's my fault they don't do those things. because doing the work of 10 people in one isn't enough, just because it's me. and not reaching Z as fast as everyone else means I don't deserve any of the support or help or anything else and means i'm not trying hard enough. it doesn't matter that I *need* to work harder than 100 "normal" people combined to get even half the result! Just because I can't reach what they do means i'm not trying hard enough! ugh.

[skunkes]

experiencing a weird thing where im trying to go to sleep earlier (because im tired and sleepy) but i take so long to fall asleep its the exact same thing as just going to bed late...feel so hopeless and i always end up tired either way... im very big on "i can always try again tomorrow" mentality in any way it can be interpreted (interactions with others, mood, the amount of work i do etc) but its so hard to Try Again when you're always too tired to do anything...

[earlgodwin]

save me tumblr 2012 era...tumblr 2012 era....tumblr 2012 era save me...

[waitingfortheloginwalltobedown]

I don't think I've seen a character in any piece of media as infantilized as hunter is

[blackthornish]

reading bloodmarked like someone is threatening me to finish it

[soranker]

Heya! Saw your cry for a distraction and honestly such a mood.

I've got a question!

What's your least favorite thing to draw/do when you make art?

I'm on my own art journey right now and kind of dread the transition from lineart to coloring.

Trying to study anatomy right now and ignore rendering but I'm curious what other artists feel is challenging or just like 'ugh, ok time for [x]'

OHHH in terms of what's challenging, for me it's definitely coloring, rendering, backgrounds, and composition HAHA (<- chronic flat colors user who only draws character art on a floating white background)

i love focusing on gesture and lines when i draw ^_^ i rely mostly on intuition for the other stuff but it really only takes u so far T_T i'll spend hours trying to fix something by trial and error when i probably couldve saved that time by putting in more conscious studying/practice lol