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oh yeah, it's also his birthday today
#and before anyone asks no it's not because haha funny number#it's because in japanese the numbers 6 and 9 can be read as 'nothingness' and 'suffering/agony' respectively#so it's literally just a coincidence that happens to also kinda be fitting#masumii's birthday was originally the reverse (9/6) but im debating replacing one of the numbers with 4 since i've been leaning a lot more#into death with her thematically#so it'll probably be 6/4 or 9/4. still deciding which i think is more fitting#unfortunate that i missed it by a few days if i go with the former though :pensive:#oc shiz#shook doodles#takoshi (oc)#masumii (oc)
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I gave myself a writing challenge and I am fascinated by it
So basically I put the robins in a randomizer to give them a new order/role (because I just...kinda wanted to see what would happen + I like role-reversal AUs) and got results that are giving me a fucking brain blast.
Stephanie, the first sidekick who defines the role
Tim, the sidekick who dies and comes back wrong
Dick, the sidekick who saves Batman from himself
Damian, the sidekick who was never supposed to be a sidekick but would go on to prove everyone wrong
Jason, the youngest sidekick who is still the Kid Wonder
...So this is fucking wild. I've got some ideas and several of these fit perfectly (Dick's role is pretty similar to his one in canon), but some of these are fucking INCREDIBLE to explore (Steph being the first Robin is something I never even considered but tbh I kinda love it).
I probably won't write a fic or anything because tbh I don't like publishing my writing that much, but I might expand this into a full AU and post about it. I might randomize other stuff too (ie, stuff that I cannot change vs stuff that I cannot keep the same) but this fucking rules as a starting point.
#uhhh what am I calling this??#randomizedrobinsau#stephanie brown#oh my god I am so excited to figure out how tf to write this.#because she's my favorite of these characters and having HER be the first sidekick + the one who has a mentor/older sister relationship#with the others?? kickass. though I'll probably keep her and Tim's relationship as 'dating-then-exes' because I think it's funny#and then SHE can be the Robin who Tim got fixated on + figured out her identity?? holy fuck and then the angst of Tim later dying#Tim Drake#tbh I kinda wish he'd gotten a different position because 'sidekick who dies' Tim has kinda been done a lot with the standard#reverse robin aus. But it'll still be fun to write. Definitely going the Joker Junior route with this because Batman Beyond kicks ass#Dick Grayson#He'll honestly probably be the easiest. Like...his role has not changed much outside of being younger/not the one who defines this#But I still think it'll be good to see how well I know Dick beyond his eldest brother thing (which is my best way of relating to him)#Damian al ghul#damian wayne#oh this is gonna kick ass#Bruce does not want his son to be a sidekick but Damian just kinda forces his way into that role#and everybody doubts him because of his history with the league but he later proves himself more than capable#to the point that he can set out mostly on his own and still thrive#Jason Todd#Jason being the baby of the family is also something I have never thought about but holy shit it could kick ass#I really hope that I don't roll 'Jason must die' or 'Robin 5 must die' on the randomizer. I just kinda want Jason to live this time#But unfortunately I double-screwed him because he's on the 'must happen' wheel twice now. I did not think these prompts through#TBH I am so happy that none of them rolled their OG roles. because that would have been so fucking boring
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well, guess who lost control of my hands again and was compelled to scribble down designs for ANOTHER Deltarune AU? yeah. me. it doesn't really have a proper name yet so I've just been calling it Changeling AU for now, I'll figure that out later.
these would be the cast's dark world designs; they parallel early Deltarune concepts in which the lightners would turn into monsters in the dark world-- with a few medieval fantasy fae-flavored twists this time around. mortals become a variety of magical beasts in the fae's dark realm, with only 'Kris' strangely unaffected... aside from the hue shift and conspicuously pointed ears, that is.
the main 'Kris' of this AU isn't the only human in town. instead, they're ironically the only one in town who ISN'T human, though not even they know it yet. in reality they're a Changeling, a fae creature that was left as a 'gift' to replace a taken human child. they can do things, strange things. animals come to them in the night, and the cool touch of iron burns their skin. they're afraid of what they see in the mirror; human eyes don't gleam in the dark, and their teeth shouldn't be so sharp. so they hide their features, and they ignore the whispers of the townsfolk, and they keep their head down.
they made a mistake, a terrible one... and they need to set it right.
meanwhile, the human they replaced is still out there somewhere in the fae world, twisted by its curse into a cornered, desperate beast seeking any escape from the realm that has held them prisoner all their life. it's said that when the full moon casts deep shadows over the woods, you can still hear their anguished howls in the dark begging for the name that once was theirs. they can never leave the dark world without it. they'd do anything to get it back.
all they've ever really wanted was to find their way home.
#deltarune#deltarune AU#kris dreemurr#noelle holiday#susie deltarune#berdly#ralsei#my art#Changeling AU#oh i have a LOT of thoughts for this AU but it'll probably still be more of a side project compared to my other 2 AUs#i genuinely just HAD to throw this concept down or i was gonna actually explode. now i can go back to Dog HDJDHD#i know i'll revisit this in the future tho because there's so much to do with it. i have SO many plot beats for it already. man#the dog monster is actually not as scary as they seem. they're just a REALLY traumatized kid that thinks the Changeling is evil#it's a very unfortunate misunderstanding that almost ends in a kid losing their face to a very angry wolf monster! whoops!#the kids are NOT okay in this AU. sorry#tho the funniest part is that it's such a tragic AU and yet it still ends in a freakin' found family trope SOMEHOW. wack.#changeling kris coming home at the end: hey mom if you could adopt me a second time would you do it#toriel confused as heck: well... yes of course i would. why? is something on your mind my child?#kris hiding a second kris behind their back: uh. about that
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I heard this put so well, but hearing somebody say that conversion to judaism isn't just about the good - torah, being part of a peoplehood, the fulfilling parts - it's also about joining the tragic. You join the people who went through the shoah, pogroms, displacement, and all of this throughout history. It's a really scary thought, and I don't imagine it's any easier for jews post-conversion or born jews.
Learning to balance the sense of scale of jewish history with the joy of torah and peoplehood is something that's difficult. The joy must outweigh the horror though, I think. But knowing all of this has made me confident that I am making an informed decision, which makes me even more confident
#jumblr#jewish conversion#jew by choice#personal thoughts tag#antisemitism tw#shoah tw#i find myself frozen in fear when i think too hard about it... but then i read and learn about judaism and suddenly that melts away a bit#yes one must find joy in the people and the religion i think. but you have to be fully informed about this#the convert is in a very special condition that i think is unique and it's the choice to undergo all of this#it's learning about the good and the tragic and then deciding that you will still join the people#and seeing jews who are fulfilled and who are joyous has made me realize that... history will happen but that doesn't mean it's for nothing#i talk about this a lot but it's on my mind all the time#and i hope that as i go through learning with a(n irl) community that i will stop feeling as scared#because there is a sense of courage you find when you are with others and unfortunately i don't have that right now#my learning is very solitary right now in that i am doing it on my own#i am being taught by a VARIETY of people and i will always remember that kindness but it'll be different when there's actually others around
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Have you noticed your style change over time?
Hi!! Thank you for the ask. <3
We haven't really noticed that, no -- we're aware our older fics don't read quite the same as our more recent ones, but we don't tend to notice the changes happening in real time and would struggle to pinpoint exactly what changed.
Part of that is plurality-related. We don't all write the same to begin with -- actually part of our editing process now, especially for longer projects, consists of getting as many of us rereading the text as possible (separately over a period of time and/or together at the same time), so we can smooth out differences where needed or (more rarely) exaggerate them when warranted (e.g. for added character flavour in subjective narration). In the past we didn't go through that Collaborative Smoothening step, and we did a lot less editing to begin with (we same-day wrote-and-published a lot), so many of our older works are more clearly One Guy's Writing. We can usually tell who based on the way they're written, but this isn't style evolution so much as like... us writing differently at baseline.
Part of that is that we have two types of approach to writing: either we write so rarely that too much time passes in-between for us to remember our previous writings clearly, or we write so often that any overall changes are too gradual for us to notice. Nowadays it's more the latter -- with the MelloNears, we've been writing/editing at least a few words every single day since November 1st, in mostly the same two AUs/series, so we're not really seeing the style evolution that is probably taking place because we're standing too close to see the big picture.
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#saltposting#ask#lilbittymonster#ask game#writing post#One thing we *do* however notice as we go is just how much what we read influences the way we think up our sentences / arrange our words#and with us reading almost exclusively the Wheel of Time (two concurrent rereads at the moment; one with friends one solo) these days#well. We're subconsciously acquiring a lot of Robert Jordan's writing mannerisms and it's always fun spotting the similarities.#Sometimes we'll read a thing he wrote like a turn of phrase or the way he arranged a sentence or some such#and be surprised because we remember having put that same thing almost verbatim in a fic and it wasn't even imitated on purpose.#There's also the one (1) thing I *know* we picked up from Jonny Sims a couple years back: the everpresent “Still (comma)” lol.#If we're still doing that one without even thinking about it a few years down the line I think it'll be with us for life#fortunately or unfortunately.#Thank you for the ask!! Realising I may have answered slightly to the left of how the question was meant#but in my defence it is 3am and I am very bedtime!#Sending return asks to you & partners who asked us questions and then going to renew my acquaintance with our bed.
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Hi I'm making cakes for a bridal shower tomorrow and I'm STRESSED
#its not just one cake its a bunch of mini 3.5in cakes#30 to be exact#which isnt Terrible but its still A Lot#they're being picked up tomorrow at 1 and i haven't even gotten the first sheet in the oven 😭#once i get going it'll be quick i just need to get into a better rhythm#and my mom had to go out to get some stuff so unfortunately i have to take a break now#and i have a thing at 7:30 tonight so i have to take a break then too#they're not very intricately decorated tho so#but still im STRESSED#she was a baker girl
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girl he is not making out with you you are sixteen and he is a grown ass man
#fish.txt#diapt#i hateeeee this romance plot and unfortunately it just got a lot more relevant#urushihara come back#i like the emilia and maou platonic co-parenting#though. they're much more fun to watch imo#i guess what i really hate is rika continuing to insinuate they're a couple which is like. fine that's my own issue#but girl i cannot stand chiho's possessiveness get over itttt you had no chance anyway be bffs it'll be better for everyone here#tbhk still stands as the one show that pulls off the supernatural guy x normal girl trope
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realizing I have an issue where I hold onto feelings too long and then they start to fester and I start to resent some people because of it. it's so unhealthy and it really makes the mental health worse
#if i. could communicate better. it would probably solve a lot of my problems#but im still convinced i can just repress everything and it'll go away#unfortunately i was raised to not say shit tho#and that letting anxiety and depression eat me alive is better than showing vulnerability#i really hate who i am as a person.#ari speaks
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I feel a bit wary saying this because it doesn't feel quite real yet, but! had my last week of college classes last week. I still have to get through my last exam period but it's very odd to think this degree is almost over and done with. many thoughts about it in general.
#vi rambling#well. TIME TO RAMBLE#I think degrees in general are a very normalized stage of life but it felt so abnormal to me to go through so i thought id#share my thoughts. because theyre complicated!#i chose a degree solely based on my interests. which may haven't been the smartest choice all in all#considering i dont think it'll grant me any job opportunities and well.#considering my main aspirations is to Create some sorta something it at the very least widened my breadth of knowledge.#but i have to admit im mostly very frustrated. because while its obviously natural to laser focus on studies#my creativity's really stagnated over the last 3-4 years. kinda feels like i wasted my time on something and kinda missed the train whateve#that means. idk. art history was a lot more rewarding than film thats for sure because film theory is unfortunately mostly complete bs.#and honestly every year of college was a complete disaster on a personal note i dont feel like getting into but each year was surrounded by#so many bad circumstances that the fact its gonna be over feels like. it isnt over until its over. im still scared something will pop up an#will suddenly yet again fuck things up for me and this degree Wont happen. idk.#but yeah mostly i an very much looking forward to practical art studies. something to actually idk. make me feel like#im making the most out of myself. instead of trapping it under mountains of collegework. and stagnating#will probably be deleted later idk what im getting at writing this here. disillusionment or whatever
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the epic highs and lows of trying to read an ongoing shounen manga
#for me it uh. tends to have more epic lows than epic highs. im very unlucky with shounen#occasionally a few years after something i start reading it'll turn out to be good#but any time i follow something from the beginning it starts getting. worse#is it me? am i doing this? dont tell me to read your favourite shounen i'll turn it bad#did i ever mention that one manga. the moon is beautiful but first die#a mouthful of a title. it started kinda goofy but i really adored the main character for some reason#im still a bit attached to him. he cleans so well that he got the magic power to see real good. and now he can matrix bullet time#hes just like me for reeeeeeeaaaal hflkanjvdkfljfds but yeah that manga was. weird but fun BUT THEN#it got so wack you guys you dont understand. the first like one or two volumes? fun#everything else? god knows JHKFDJFDK i still read it all tho. i was invested in my guy with seeing real good powers#and im sorry to say. unfortunately it seems. a certain manga with a big tv adaptation that is pronounced oh she no co#my curse. its started. although that ones very much a epic high and epic low situation like itll be so so wack one minute#and suddenly get good again and then plummet back down HFKJDSBHJds we will see how it goes on#i started getting annoyed with the writing after the stageplay arc because they kept like. time skipping over so much#which i thought was a bit of a waste because there was a lot of interesting potential in a lot of the showbiz storylines. but we shall see#thats not shounen tho thats seinen but my curse applies to some seinen too LOL but most seinen i read is already finished#and shoujosei is spared from my curse. i think just because most i have the opportunity to read in english just tends to not#be drawn out or have weird scheduling things messing with the pacing. are there any weekly shoujosei magazines out there#i dont think weekly manga is good. for a lot of reasons mostly the mangakas health but also i find more weekly stuff i read#that isnt like. 4koma stuff suffers in its pacing a LOT. but again that might be my curse. the second i lay my eyes on it. the curse#(sorry ive been catching up on a lot of manga recently LOL ur getting my manga thoughts now)
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im teetering on the edge of something or another, feels like a breakdown but its more so falling back on old unhealthy habits that feel comforting to do but ultimately don't help me in the long run
anyway im coping somehow by comparing myself to dogs and going "haha im young, i got a ways to go before my evil villain arc"
#vent sht ig#unfortunately i do have mental illness (ik relatable whatever hhahaa)#my problems are never that serious but i get stuck in nothing mode a lot#im supposed to rest but i wanna do things and its not like im gonna lose this job anytime soon#so get used to being tired idiot and push through#adapt#improve#thats life and it'll get easier as you practice these things#its still hard#and i still wanna be lobotomized (HALF JOKING lobotomy's arent good for you)#i wanna have hobbies and interests#and time to think about them#AND TIME TO FUCKING THINK IN GENERAL#IF I SEEM LIKE IM NEVER FULLY HERE ITS CAUSE IM NOT ANYMORE IM IN NOTHING LAND AND IM TIRED#AND THIS IS AN ENDLESS CYCLE OF TIRED NOTHINGNESS ANGER AND SADNESS#and im the only one who can get me out of it#and thats scary to think about#if u read this than wow thanks bro#love you <3#k bed time and then i seriously gotta start practicing new things tomorrow k bye!!
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i wanr to be drawing homosexuals so bad.
#i was shaken. i was asked out by some guy and accidentally gave him my insta. in a state of panic.#today was i socialized too hard 2 days ago and coulodnt leave my room yesterday and im slowly gently doing what i can to take care#of myself by going to safe spaces for short periods of time day. such as lecture and eating. NOT come ask me out strange man day#i do not have the mental capacities ! i barely do on a good day ! i want to talk about stupid shit#(the rise of conservatism and how to have a society that can care for each other . then followed by#only 2 paths for youth of today. trump or gay porn. then corn puns.) with my friend who has seen me cry 9 million times. thats where i am#please leave me be ! anyway this all compounded i can barely do my work i want to draw homosexuals.#i only have homosexual energy today. unfortunately.#i hate. being. mentally odd :(#i will graduate uni. and get 70 in calc 2. more pertinently. i want someone to hug#i have been wanting that a lot recently. might be pms. unsure. want someone to hug really bad though.#do u guys know how many times ive been asked out this month.#also.#i need my tall hot friend back.#yes there were issues in the fact that he is tall and hot and is smart and also implies im like the smartest person hes ever met#and i am only so strong. but like at least no man would even think to come up to me. even if he appears gay. they would never. ugh.#it was so freeing to be able to go around. whenever and wherever. even if he is a bit of a coward. no one bother me ! except him !#he may make me cry sometimes . or piss me off. or i piss him off due to being a little too autistic. atleast not fuckn.#ughhh . ok i feel better im still unfocused due to it being Recharge Day but. i just need to finish this sort of. and then i can sleep an#ill do my calc tomorrow instead i guess.#i have time.#i do have time.#ive started it and im still working ahead of deadline. i have time.#this is a drawing it doesnt need to be finished i just need to bullshit relation to the myth well enough.#it'll look like i put effort bc im good at art and fast at art. i just hold myself to a higher standard.#it'll be chill wait im chill. its all fine.#I'm still doing way better than last semester.#ok. cool perspective regained it fills me with determination etc gonna work on this fpr like 30 minutes hand it in sleep#and ill feel better tomorrow.#i dont know when i'll have enough drawing time again though all i want to do is draw.
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Hey, you are not an embarrassment for not knowing how to do certain household chores/basic self-care. They do not come naturally to us. A lot of it takes practice! Maybe you had a neglectful guardian. Maybe you had one that was very coddling and never thought to teach you. Maybe you haven't lived in a place where these things were available to you or needed. Doesn't matter. It's okay to not know and far more common than you might realise.
That said, this website provides very simple instructions on how to do everyday tasks such as making your bed, using a washing machine, cooking different foods, washing dishes, taking a shower, etc. All you have to do is use the search bar to find the task you're struggling with, and it'll come up with what you need + other related how-to's:)
If you're having trouble navigating it, let me provide you with some examples:
How to clean dishes by hand
How to make your bed (with visual demonstrations of each step!)
How to fold clothes (with visual demonstrations of each step!)
How to take a shower & dry yourself off (also provides ways to shave beards, armpits, legs and genitals)
How to shave legs, armpits, beards, pubic areas, etc. (a more in-depth guide)
How to mop the floor
How to sweep the floor
How to swallow pills
How to make small talk
How to make eye contact in different situations (or how to avoid it while still looking natural)
It's also perfectly okay if these don't help or aren't appealing to you. Unfortunately, nothing helps everyone.
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Bro I'm losing my god damn mind and I haven't even messed around with the new gameplay shit like at all. Ive spent the past like 5 hours just reading and looking at shit I haven't even played the damn video game
#rat rambles#oni posting#and unfortunately playing the damn video game will have to wait til tomorrow because its late bug holy shitttttt#this isnt even all of the new content that will be in the full dlc like holy shit#now one bit of sad news for the gamers is that the mysterious machine does not appear to be the temporal bow but it still seems neat#its currently locked tho so I cant comment too much on its full deal#based on in game disriptions tho it appears to be a geothermal generator of sorts#which is actually super cool considering the environmental storytelling surrounding it#well what I assume to be I have only generated one world so it could be some wild coincidence#but Im pretty sure the magma biome is mostly obsidian with only bits and pieces of magma which combined with the geothermal generator#situations and said building being on the cold planet paints a cool pocture#also I wasnt able to 100% comfirm this but uh. erm. I think we Might be getting one extra new dupe once the dlc comes out proper#lets just say I have reason to believe that harold might not be the only moreson to have gotten his dna stolen#its so jover guys how the hell am I supposed to sleep tonight#and worst of all Ive seen like 2 ppl talk abt the beta and it's been minor stuff hello is anyone there can anyone hear me#Im losing my god damn mind someone at least make a video where they just talk abt the new plants and critters and such#like we might Finally have a new oxygen method even if its low key just a cold oxyfern#I forgive it tho because of the context of it using ice as fertilizer#like that doesnt mean a whole lot on this planet but on most other planetoids that provides a rly interested challenge#ultimately it's not That hard to make ice if you have access to any level of cooling but its still cool to imagine how one would go abt#automating the whole process and making it more applicable to late game oxygen demands#also this is a massive update for nosh bean enjoyers as we finally have a second way to get ethanol lol#also the deep fryer is a fun concept even if Im not sure how worth it it'll be to go for it
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Here's some summer advice from a guy who worked in skincare:
-you need to wear sunscreen if youre going out in the sun. No ifs, ands, or buts about it. You don't need the expensive designer stuff but please just wear sun protection.
-you still need sunscreen if you are black or dark-skinned. Not only can you still sunburn, but direct UV light exposure also increases your risk of skin cancer, no matter how much melanin you have. There's tons of brands out there that are made for darker skin tones that don't leave that ashy finish behind, you just need to know the terms to look for. Look for the words "tinted, matte, mattifying," and shea butter-based sunscreens. There's also lots of brands that are formulated with your skin tone in mind. I don't have any to recommend unfortunately because I don't have experience needing that, but I know they are out there.
-if youre very hairy and cream sunscreens get caught in your body hair and glob up, get a spray sunscreen instead. It'll get in all the nooks and crannies instead of getting caught in your hair. Spray sunscreens are also good for those who have troubles with the effort and time it takes to put on sunscreen. Just make sure you spray it in a well ventilated area or, better yet, under cover outside, like on a porch or balcony.
-dont believe the fearmongering about chemical sunscreens. They're much more reliably protective than mineral sunscreens are. Thats because theyre chemically formulated in lab settings to be consistently protective and keep on shelves for long periods of time, while mineral sunscreens have a bad habit of ingredient separation and uneven formula mixes. Really, unless youre swimming directly in the great barrier reef or you have a specific skin condition or allergy to the ingredients in chemical sunscreens (the only customer i actually recommended our mineral sunscreen to over our chemical one was a regular who had skin cancer), you don't need a mineral sunscreen. Your wallet will also suffer less.
-you might have to double cleanse in the shower to get all sunscreen residue off your skin. Thats a good thing actually, it means your sunscreen is really good at barrier protection, but its also annoying. The way to do this without drying out your skin too much is by doing one quick cleanse of your skin with about half the soap you's typically use just to loosen up that residue and dirt, and then another deep, proper clean like you usually would that will get it all off. While leftover residue isn't really a health risk at all, it can clog your pores over time and cause uncomfortable acne breakouts, as well as trap dust and dirt under all the gunk. It can also get on your bedsheets.
-if you double cleanse, I recommend moisturizing after because it does dry you out a bit. You don't need a big fancy designer moisturizer either, just go to the drug store and get their basic pump bottle of body lotion, and separate facial moisturizer (the separation matters, the skin on your face is a lot more thin and delicate than the skin on your body). The main thing you want to look for with any product is that you arent allergic or sensitive to the active ingredients and avoid anything that uses alcohol as a binding ingredient.
-hats, hats, hats!! They keep the sun out of your eyes and your face!! You cant put sunscreen on your eyeballs!! Wear hats!!
-go have fun!! You can have your beach days and sun fun without cancer risks!!
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Twist outs r so nice but unfortunately mean i need to twist hair Back In (<- unpracticed in self hairstyling and not very interested in doing so) so i never wear them. But. Super nice
#i love having relatively long hair i love having nice hairstyle#unfortunately i didnt get into haircare when i was younger n while im better abt it now#styling my own hair for hours and hours on end is still kinda Agony for me#thankful for hairstylists extra thankful for having the same hairstylist for abt 8 years straight#ma'am you have saved my life 1 million times over i owe you everythang#nighty chatter#i know theyre different practices but. insane how i can bang out a drawing or painting for a few hours little issue#but styling. like actual braiding n such not just warsh n dry. can drive me up a wall after 15 min#ig its a matter of a. cant rlly put that shit down or sleep on it cus then it'll be Worse#b. unused to it. unpracticed#c. giant patch of Tender Scalp in the middle of my hair Isnt fun#d. hair products feel so so bad. grease/oil textures awful and they smear on EVERYTHING#hairstylist hairstylist i love you so much thank you ma'am. if it twerent for covid i woulda invited u to my graduation maybe#...spent a lot more time talkin in the tags than i meant to. oh well !
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