#and a compulsive lier

[yudol-skorbi]

is it romantic or concerning

[lichen-your-local-menace]

Y'know what would be like. great, at least interesting.

Tim lieing to Alfred.

Like- Tims lies to every other authority figure in his life, and he (only him) has reason to distrust Alfred.

Also I just like Tim who will lie to everyone and anyone if he thinks it's necessary.

[thetangibleghost]

uhg. I ran out of tags. but like what i mentioned in the last post is something that happens in our system a TON. like Certain "lier" alters will target (usually young) alters who are more trusted in the system and try to get them to believe lies. Usually things about them selves that make the seem like they have special knowledge or are "larger" than the system. I'm sure sometimes this comes from a place of genuine delusion from the Delusional Disorder but other times I don't think it is.

This Sailor Moon thing with Sal I feel like illustrates it really well. They'll usually guess about some information (the ending of sailor moon) that the target alter (me but I'm awesome :3) is interested in. They're pretty good at this usually like, they establish what you know, find some common ground and then claim that they have some sort of special knowledge, but that you have to help them 'figure it out' or 'unlock it'. Then they just kinda make you do their bidding. They also usually want you to spread the info around. I think the goal is to try and like "take over" the system evil dictator style.

These lies seem, for the most part, separate from the delusions?

A really common one they'll go for is trying to convince another alter that they know another language. I think that one is usually delusion based and it always falls apart pretty quickly lol.

Usually these lier alters are next to impossible to deal with and we try and keep them as far away from us as possible. The exceptions being Becca, Truck, Sal/Friday, and Beck.

I find this issue really hard to articulate and this is the first time I've actually gotten it down really. so that's fun!

[jeephendrix]

According to the Grand Dragon there are now Black & Brown jobs…

I’m just curious,

What exactly are the “White” jobs??

[arolesbianism]

Dusting off and reworking my old deep cut hcs and god I love these guys so much I need Shiver to drown

[lixiesstorys]

Vent (?)

NOT A FANFIC

Trigger warnings: talking abt self harm and suicide, addiction (?) to pain killers, abuse of pain killers, eating disorders, mental health problems/illnesses/issues

Normally I don't do those posts, because I don't want anyone to trigger theirselves with it or that people worry about me (or because if I write something like that, I feel like a burden XD) but I have to get this off my chest. (I'm about sorry and please don't read to trigger yourself or if you're senitive about those topics!)

I'm the quiet friend that nevere belongs anywhere. I'm the quiet friend that is the side kick you can go to when no one else is there and that you can abonton, but it stays with you. That is what I am. nothing but an annoying side kick that is only needed for listening to problems.

No one ever cared about my feelings. How I feel about that, what problems I have.

You know what the problem is when you're a perfectionist? You're as good as possible and most times that is good. But as soon as you write a worse mark than normally and you are sad about it (maybe from 9 - 10 to 7 - 8) you make things up and are too sensitive. 'that aren't even real problems'. Maybe it isn't a really failed grade, but for me it's as much pain as if someone really fails a grade. It is the same pain, but no one understands it. Maybe I don't really have to fight for my education, but it feels like that. And my marks don't come from donig nothing. I can't count the nights I skipped, so I was able to study, but got only a 7 - 8 (in Germany it's the mark 2).

For most people it looks like I ahd the perfect childhood, but in real life I didn't even have one. My father abononed me and my mom when I was 1. I got bullied in school (from my teachers). When I was 11, I was able to think like an adult. That may sound cool, but that is only the result of growing up to fast. I also got anorexia. With 9 I had nothing else in my head then grades, marks and studying. With 12 I burned out and got depression and social anxiety. I never had real friends, only those who didn't care about me.

I also lie alot. I don't want to, but as soon as I don't know what to say or if I'm overwhelmed, I start to lie. Those aren't big, but something like 'yes, I ate something' makes me feel bad for the person that asked. Another (maybe more understandable) lie is about my age. I won't say my age here, but I can say, that I'm still a minor.

Back to my time-line: when I was 9 i also started to hurt myself. Not by c&tting, but by punching, biting and insulting myself. With 13 I was (nearly) addicted to pain killers. They made me feel numba nd the pain would go away. I got bulimia in that time too. With 14 Io started to cut myself and with 15 I tried to kill myself several times. Those are the worst parts of my life, but no, I don't have problems, if anyone asks. I'm fine, don't worry about me. I was changing between binge eating and starving myself.

With 15/16 my mom wanted that I go into a clinic, but we agreed on therapy. There we found out, that i have PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder), ADD, depression, burn out, obsessive-compulsive disorders, anxiety and social anxiety. With 16 I found out about littlespace ans a coping mechanism.

Sometimes I wonder if that all wouldn't have happened, if someone had really listen to me. If someone watched my smile fade away. Or am I such a great lier that no one noticed?

I'm still the quiet but 'happy' friend. I'm still the perfectionist no one understands and everyone is annoyed of. Nothing really changed except that I know why I am who I am. That I actually am non-binary trans masc (wich also can lead to depression if you don't know who you are).

But isn't it sad, that people have to harm themselves or even try to kill themselves? That people have littlespace as coping meschanism as reaction to trauma?

And another thing: why are mental health issues accepted (what is important of course!) as long as it's not gender dysphoria?

There we are again. I'm still a minor and so much happened in my life. And you know what is kinda sad? There are other people outside, that have the same problems like me. To everyone whos suffers: I officially tell you: I am here for you! Talk to me and I try to help you! (This is okay for me, since I told you I want to help you) But in every case: please, if you don't feel happy anymore, please search yourself help! It's never too early, only too late. It doesn't have to come that far, like with me, just because I didn't see that I needed help (I still don't see that, but I'm working on it. Please, just reach out for help and don't fear to talk about your problems. That is important! You are important!

[the-moon-and-stars-4ever]

Heyy

I hope your still doing the marauders character thingy (dont wanna be annoyibg)

- i actially have a really good relptionship with all pf my family

- i play guitar (lead, rythm, bass and acoustic) and I enjiy singing (but I cant sung fpr the lofe of me-)

- i m indescisive af

- im one of the top of the class for of all three sciences, and maths (but i dont enjoy them - i just find them easy)

- i really Enjoy writing and readyng but eNglish is one of the only subjects i struggle at

- music is the knly class i can be botherd to study for

- my schuol didnt offer computer science so im learning it in my own time

- i have a small but close friend group

- but ive recently gotten better at talking to people i dont know that well in class!! (ive struggled for quite a while)

- im kinda a compulsive lier BUT I SWEAR IM TRYING TO FIX UT

- i also do maladaptive daydreaming but i cba to fix that

- i LOVE reading - i think i mightve already mentioned that

- i listen to all kinds pf music but my fav genre is probevly rock or indie or metal or country

- some fav artists: artic monkeys, poor mans poison, nivarna, abba, rhcp, tool, lily allen, led zeppelin, the doors, queen, beatles, pink floyd, david bowie, neighbourhood, joan jet & the blackhearrs, guns n roses, metalica, ani di franco

Ive just realised ive been rambling dor aged im so sorry ill stop now lol

i kind of want to say pete but i think i'm gonna go with remus <3

[rin-the-cat]

I don't understand. How. HOW!? How can so many people look at this compulsive lier, fascist, convicted felon and think, "yeah, that's who I want to be president."

What. The. Fuck.

Please tell me I'm going to wake up tomarrow and find out the last 8 years were just a nightmare.

[happy-and-gay-tortoise]

Reminder that people who compulsive liars/stealers are not bad people. As a recovering compulsive lier and stealer I had to do that to fucking survive. I lived in a horribly abusive household and needed to steal, lie, amd cheat the game to be able to exist in it. Most of us just need help/ are just like that due to trauma. Stop using us as an insult.

[timmburrton]

{in the Oogie Residence}

🚨Valentino: <<running away from Lotte>> You’ll never catch me ali- <<runs full force, face first into a wall and breaks his nose>> FUCK! <<holds his now broken nose and whines thrashing around>> This isn’t sexy pain- this is awful pain- <<flops letting the blood drip down his face>>

🎸Lotte: <<deadpans>> oh for fucks sake don’t get the floor dirty I just cleaned it- <<raises her brows>> what the fuck is sexy pain? Actually you know what I don’t want to know <<starts tugging him up>> I’m patching up your nose and you’re putting your muzzle back on.

🚨Valentino: :(

🔒Il-Seong: <<trying to sneak away while everyone is busy>>

🎰Leon: <<sitting and watching with so much disappointment before looking at Seong>> Where are you going?

🔒Il-Seong: <<screams before clearing their throat>> Um no where… <<hiding his hand>>

🎰Leon: 😐 shut up you compulsive lier let me see your hand-

🔒Il-Seong: …. <<slowly pulls his hand out a knife sticking right through it>>

🎰Leon: What the… <<groans>> why did I keep any of you <<whines into his hands>>

🚨Valentino: Cause you love us 🥰 <<blood still dripping down his nose>>

@creepypasta-cb

[mewhennooneisaround]

Maybe I’m fooling myself… been told I was nothing to you, was told you called me some guy you don’t like, told you said I don’t even look good to you, was told you called me just a friend you tried to get rid of, called a joke, laughed at, told even you laughed at the thought of you with me, told I’m the side guy, told you love another, told you submit to him, you do as he says, that you belong to him, told your his whore and you’ll stay no matter what, told I’m just one of many,

But

From your lips you say I’m the one, that you love me, that you belong to me, that you want me for the rest of you life, that you want me to keep loving you, that your mine again and again…

Do you really love me or is it a that’s what you want to believe.

I see all the signs that show you want to stay with him. That you’re holding on.

How do I fight against what you always known what you always perceived as love…

How can I hold your face and keep your eyes on me. Love… love means I shouldn’t have to hold your face… love is choosing not to entertain other men. Love is making the decision to make me a priority … I know the answers…. I know if it came down to being there for me or being there for him… it wouldn’t be me… if I told you I needed you but he needed you too …. I wouldn’t be chosen.

It’s why I’m hidden… he can talk to any women he wants even have some on standby but you hide me incase there still some light of him choosing you and making it work. You’re his and he still knows it… if you loved me you wouldn’t care what he thought or how he feels. You could move on if you wanted to… but like he said his house his rules your his whatever he feels like he just has to show he cares at the last minute or when he’s leading up to wanting some… Your mom and sister want better for you. Everyone knows what all you are to him and you still put his feeling and needs before me and even before yourself. He treats you all depending on his mood and what he wants and still you worry about him not having a vehicle or how he feels. When your just his fuck he has to be nice to to get and even then he doesn’t have to do much to get it. He talks bad about you to other shows off how he has this bitch at home that does what ever he wants that he has no intention of being serious with but teases that he does at times to let you hear pieces of what you need to keep you around. I know deep down you don’t want to live like that… that you hate knowing everyone you know knows what you really are to him.

I want to be proven wrong I want you to say daddy screw this I deserve better I want you I’m coming home.

You could be loved and cherished and come home to someone who loves you … really loves you and your scared or you maybe don’t even see yourself with me…

Come home… learn how it feel to be around family and friends who know nothing but that you are truly loved by me. Let your family see your with someone who loves you too… the right way. Let me show everyone the opposite of what your known for there with him.

Do you really want to risk losing me for a man that shows he cares to keep your mind fucked up. 5 years from now do you want to look back and say I wish I would of left to go home to him instead of crappy trailer with a man that may get you pregnant to trap you. To be treated still the same and maybe have a child to see you treated as such.

Do you want to become him… a narcissist who can’t see or choose to ignore what your doing may hurt others… a Compulsive Lier who only admit things when caught or to get your cake and eat it to. A Manipulator to say what you need to to get what you want … He’s showing you a wrong way to love someone and you’re doing it to me like he’s doing it to you…

I told you how I’ve been hurt and you told me how you been hurt but as I keep myself from doing those things to you you chose to do the opposite…

My cessa… my love don’t you want to be a Good Girl like a real good girl for a real daddy in all of the sense. The actual way it should be… not the warped way you been shown. A daddy that love cares and cherishes you … who has the patience to love you on your hard days as well as your good days during this transition of being taught and shown so you can love the right way as well

Who won’t yell at you cause you mess up who speaks to you. Who doesn’t cuss or scream or throw things. Who desires you for not only your body but for your smile, your childlike wonder in things, the way you get excited about little things, your voice, the way you laugh at random things. No set rules on affection I who look forward to my little girl excited for cuddles with daddy at night, who will hold you when your scared, affection not just when you need it most but just cause you exist in this world by my side,

You see yourself as not worthy of this love but that the thing… I want to show you love regardless wether you think your worthy or not.

You have my heart… I want your mom and sister and who ever knows you to know your safe to look at you and be like damn she found herself a good one. He looked past all that you done and still chose to love her despite the downfalls they see. To start a new.

No more chaos just to be loved and love in return.

Daddy’s Good Girl

Maybe fooling myself to believe you’ll actually come home to me… that I want to believe every I love you is real despite the signs.

I love you my cessa darling… show daddy you love him prove to your self and me you can really be a good girl this time. That your daddies strong princess and can leave that toxic place for Love. For daddys love… so you can look back and say I wish I would have came sooner… To be giddy and call your family one day and say … “I found the one and I love him so much and he’s good to me even though at times I’m difficult lol”

You told me I shown you what love is so many times let me continue to show you with your hand it mine…

[t0x1chellspwn]

vent.. Turn away if you don’t wanna listen to sm rando yap abt how “shitty” their life iz..(My DMz + ask box are alwayz open if you wanna check in on me n stuff) CW: Mentions of s/h, suicide and masochism

I fucking hate every aspect of myself, I constantly prove that I can never change.. I’m alwayz gonna be a failing moronic bastard who can’t do their schoolwork or ever really tell the truth.. I wanna try, honest but I don’t really have any faith that I CAN.. I still have those wordz that Magnus told me ringing in my ear with the additional words of my mama, constently telling me I strive to be “the victim” and how I’m “suffering” and every time she says it the sarcastic n mocking tone becomez more and more prominent.. All I really ever do anymore is see myself as the villain now cuz honestly.. I AM the villain.. I constently pull out lie after lie outta my ass, I tore down a perfectly good brothership cuz of ONE thing mag said, I can never do what i’m told on the first time, I’m cranky, and at this point I’m just kinda trying to work up the courage to kms so no one’ll have to deal with me anymore.. I’ll never be anything other than a rotting no good villain, I’m never gonna really be a good person cuz no matter how hard I try that all still lingers.. everything I’ve ever done, I did for that narcissistic high I get, not out of pure love I guess.. the moment I get home I wanna fucking cut my shoulderz wide open and I swear on my life I’m just gonna move out, become homeless and unemployed, get raped, and then kill myself.. my mom’z too emotionally numb to even wanna BOTHER trying to get me, alwayz trying to understand me from her perspective and “figure me out”.. I’m a shitty person.. I don’t get why people stay, after everything I’ve done n admitted, I SHOULDNT EVEN BE TALKING ABT THIZ FOR GRUBZ SAKE cuz I’m not a plural sys NOR do I have BPD.. I have NPD and am a compulsive lier that getz turned on by the thought of ppl hurting me.. I hate every single aspect of myself.. I wish ppl saw that part of me and left..

[ttiot]

If his one vote didn’t mean anything then why vote at all. Or better yet, he should appease his daughters, show them he cared for them more than politics and voted for Harris.

Obviously his vote does mean something at least to himself. He wanted to support someone who his daughters despised. He wanted to show his daughters they couldn’t make him vote for someone who supported them. He wanted to vote for a compulsive lier, someone who disparages women, someone who is proud to cause so much pain on women.

Yep, Dad you fucked up.

MAGA rapesplaining.

Hey Dad, you fucked up.

[x3rrorx]

it's really funny for me seeing people sending asks about the band disliking the fandon while in said fandon we have ex flings, compulsive liers, a person who keeps arguing with thenself, people that start a real fucking drama out of nowhere just because they have really bad reading skills, questions after questions if the band members are or are not in a relationship and deciding if they are allowed or not to do so. Amoung other things. See, it is very hard to like a group of people like this… Considering that they don't know who's who, they'll keep their distance of us all.

Facts

[intheestaars]

Astro Observations pt. 2

Disclaimer:

‼️Don't repost my Observations without consent and mentioning my page‼️

I very much respect non-binary or trans people. If i'm talking about man or woman, i'm talking about cis-men or woman i know, because often, due to societal coding/standards, there can be differences depending on the gender. But it could very much apply to you if you are non-binary or trans. Just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, as spiritual people like to say.🫶🏻

If you don't agree with my observations, please don't send any hate. It's personal observations that i'm posting just for fun. Especialy my very specific observations can only apply to certain people. So don't take anything you read too seriously. It's not a science, just pop-astrology!😎

So let's go!

Moon 3rd House: I have this placement and if i am going through something, i always need some close friend to talk to. And i feel like, if i had siblings i would probably always talk about it with them (if the relationship was great). I just really need to talk it out, sometimes it doesn't even matter who exactly it is. 🗯 I also am a singer, and this placement can indicate great singing abilities (not bragging lol), or just being great at expressing your emotions verbaly/ vocaly. You might also use singing as an emotional outlet (i did that when i was little and too shy to talk to people about the stuff i was going through). 🎤

Aries Moon: Aries Moon can have really big emotional outbursts and can be very direct and aggressive in communication without even noticing. They aren't necessarily always like this, the ones i've met were actualy very confident talkers and quite patient. But if they get too emotional or you say something that gets on their wrong nerve, they can have quite extreme reactions or be very mean, without meaning to. 🤬Also, some kind of sport might be a great emotional outlet for these people. 🥊

Saggitarius MC: I've heard this thing about Saggitarius MC being seen by the public as the "bad guy" which might not be true for everyone, but i've actualy noticed it in quite a few famous people. Billie Eilish has this placement for example, and one of her most famous songs is literaly called "bad guy". She is also known for this more dark and emo aesthetic/ music and is said to have created the new music genre "emo-pop". ☠️

Scorpio Venus: I personaly have this placement, and when i love i love DEEP, which can also lead to possesiveness and overjealousy. But i am very loyal, and just by my moral standards (my Venus is in my 9th house), i would never cheat on my partner.🖤

Scorpio Mercury: I also have this placement and i loved talking about deep stuff since i was little, and i also have no problem talking about taboo stuff. There is almost nothing that shocks me, and so sometimes i can also tend to overshare mine and others secrets, because i thinks that it's not that big of a deal, even though later on i realize it might actualy be. 🫢

Saturn in the 7th house: You might go through very messed up romantic relationship stuff at some point in your life that could very much traumatize you. It's a fucked up placement to be honest, i wouldn't wish it on anyone. (Cheating, compulsive liers, etc.). One famous example is Johnny Depp. 💔

Saturn 4th house: Your home life could be filled with fucked up experiences, especially in your family. It can go from just very stern parents to domestic abuse. You might need to free yourself from that and bild your own, secure home to have a happy and well regulated home life. 🏠

Jupiter 12th house: Could very much have a lot of secret enemies. People you considered friends might just suddenly cut contact or block you, for no apperant reason. But you could also, depending on what's going on subconciously with you, give off very weird vibes, which might be the reason people react to you like that. Some people just can't pinpoint why they don't like you and keep a friendship with you because they feel bad, and someday just cut off the relationship without explenation, because exept for the weird/bad vibe they get from you, they couldn't tell you why they don't like you. I'm not saying it's okay, but this might be the reason. People can really feel what's subconciously going on with you. So you really need to work on you subconcious stuff and listen to you intuition/ the universe, so you can tell which people are bad for you and which ones are not. Your strong intuition and connection to the universe is one good side of this placement, which can bring you a lot of great stuff if you tap into it. If you heal and give off very good vibes, you could maybe attract some amazing people and even heal people just with the vibe you give off. 🪬

Leo Sun men: I can't explain why, but every Leo sun men I've met has done some marshall art at some point in their life, and even quite successfuly. It doesn't matter if karate, jiujitsu, taekwondo or kickboxing, just something where it's about fighting. 🤼

That's it for today! I really enjoy writing these, so leave a like, comment or share/ repost this to show some love! Bye 🤟🏻

[jessie-writes-things]

untitled bullshittery

Started getting ready for work. Had a breakdown. Wrote this intead.

Don't have any expectations.

Warnings: mentions of pregnancy and abortion (no actual abortions happen, just Adrian is a compulsive lier).

‘Your boyfriend’s cheating on you.’

Everything stopped.

Hand gripped tightly around the water jug, you slowly turned to Danny, trying to keep your face neutral like you had no idea what he was on about.

He shouldn’t know about Adrian, let alone if he was cheating on you.

As if he would ever cheat on you. ‘What?’

‘Chase.’ Dan grabbed another bin bag. He couldn’t sound less interested in the conversation if he tried. ‘Saw him dancing outside. He boasted about how him and his girlfriend are having an abortion. Thought you should know before word spreads.’

‘Adrian? I’m not…We’re not-‘

‘I saw two of you kissing by his car earlier.’ Something close to realisation took over his face. He turned to you, slowly, eyes wide. ‘Shit, unless-‘

But you were already off, storming through the kitchen towards the fire exit at the back. ‘Never getting pregnant, dickhead.’

Adrian was still in the bin alley, fists punching the air with swinging hips. You waited for him to notice you leaning against the door but it quickly became clear that was never gonna happen.

‘Secret’s out.’

He whipped around to face you, not knowing whether he should smile or be confused. ‘What secret? Shit, did someone find out I’m Vigilante?’

‘What?’

A pause, and then. ‘What?’

‘You’re Vigilante?’

‘No.’

Now that you thought about it, and really you didn’t need to think that deeply, it made sense. All the late nights out. How he’d cancel dates out of the blue. The random bruises that apparently came from his mom’s dog when he was walking it. Why he was oddly fit for a nerd that only wanted to play DnD and Skyrim in his spare time.

Really, you were stupid not to see it. ‘Guess that actually makes a lot of sense.’

‘No. No it doesn’t.’

‘The two of you have the same voice.’  In any other circumstance, you wouldn’t laugh at the panic on his face. But honestly, with him and Dan nearly giving you a heart attack two minutes ago, you think you deserved a little fun. ‘And you both do that cute head tilt thing.’

As if to prove a point, Adrian swept his head to the right, a cheeky smile erasing any panic left. ‘You think I’m cute?’

Well, duh? Who wouldn’t find this fucker cute?

But that was a distraction for another time.

‘Be cuter if the whole kitchen didn’t think I was getting an abortion.’ You shot back, batting away his advances as he tried to grab your waist and pull you closer. Even then you couldn’t stay mad, your own laugh peaking through the fake scowl.

‘Technically, I didn’t say it was you.’

‘They all know we’re dating. Dan saw you groping my ass in the carpark before your shift.’

‘Damn, and I thought I was being sneaky.’ This time you let Adrian at you, large hands firmly pressed into your back so your front pressed against his. You wrapped your arms around his neck before you could fully crash into him. The stupid cap seriously was a crime hiding his fluffy curls from your wanting fingers. ‘Does that mean I can kiss you at work now?’

The fuckers had planned it, you swear. Something loud and metallic went crashing inside the kitchen followed by a chorus of groans and colourful swears. ‘No, I’m meant to be your manager. I’d get us both fired.’

It was like he put himself in some kind of daze, pressing his goofed up smile to your lips and making you laugh into the half-kiss he was attempting. ‘I’d let you manage me any day.’

‘What the fuck does that even mean?’

‘I don’t know. It sounded better in my head.’

Footsteps drew closer with yells of your name echoing through the chaos inside. Dan popped his head around the corner, eyed the two of you frozen like a deer in headlights, groaned, then promptly dipped back inside.

You knew Adrian wouldn’t feel embarrassed because apparently the guy didn’t have emotions like other people, but you could already feel a suns worth of heat soring through your blood.

‘I need to go sort out whatever they fucked up.’ Though you weren’t ready for the multitude of heckling about to come your way, you peeled yourself away from Adrian to drag yourself back into the hell hole that was work. ‘We need to talk about the whole Vigilante thing tonight.’

‘I’m not-‘

You rolled your eyes, honestly not believing he was still trying to pull the wool over your eyes. ‘Stop fucking lying, Chase.’