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it’s because he’s actually attracted to suffering
Isn’t that funny how Vox is sexually attracted to two very different men
One is totally asexual and doesn’t even realize it
The other is LITERALLY the demon of lust and the porn king of hell
I wonder how this poor tv set is still running
#a theory just came to mind#that since he was originally pining hard after Alastor#and clearly rejected#he now makes up for the lack of sex from Al with the hypersexuality of Val#like a twisted subconscious game of fuck you#fine you don’t want me?#well the oVERLORd of LUst wants me!!!#look how very much he wants me!!#*makes out in desperate angry high-res LCD while flipping off a radio*#I think he must like Val for some… deeper reasons too#I have my hcs but the show leaves me starved for any real reasons so far#but I believe it began as a frenzied rebound from his spurned affections#I genuinely think Vox has no idea Al is ace either#he seems equally oblivious#but I know he swings hard on the all-or-nothing scale of things#so of course that would include the sexualities of his crushes#what a pathetic sap#(affectionate)
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did sister daniel have a lesbian situationship at her christian all girls school?
she fuckin ran through that thing like a train, you have no idea. there was nothing left.
……….my all-girls-catholic-high-school-lesbian-romance-having ass is listening intently
#ask me about the time me and all my gay homies tried to start a gsa and were rejected#because the ‘bishop diocese can’t support any political affiliations’#and then we showed them the school’s charter in which it clearly stated we weren’t formally a part of the bishop diocese#and then the pro-life club sent out some photos of abortions and told everyone to go to the right to life march#sanctioned by their faculty advisor the dean of the upper school#like that very same week. no political statements though right?#anyways run me over like a train sister daniel#EDIT —-#to make it CLEAR IM NOT IN HIGH SCHOOL NOR AM I DATING A HIGHSCHOOLER DEAR GOD NO THIS WAS PAST ME#dan and phil
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ROTJ ruled, as usual— it has more flaws than my beloved ESB for sure, and more than ANH, but the highs are so good and so rewarding in a way that never gets old.
One of my favorite parts this time around comes after Anakin tells Luke it's too late for him to ever go back (a belief explicitly shared by Palpatine, Yoda, and Obi-Wan, but not by Luke until that moment—and only for a little while). Luke withdrawing into "Then my father is truly dead" is always great, especially the shot of him in the lift, surrounded by taller men in Imperial uniforms with his shoulders and back rigidly straight and the warmth in his expression gone. But the thing that really makes it is not ending the scene with Luke disappearing, but letting that rejection linger by shifting to Anakin and just letting seconds tick by as he contemplates what's just happened.
He doesn't actually do much—just walks a few steps and reflects. His body language isn't overwhelmingly despondent or anything. Obviously we can't see his face. And yet we feel how hard that hit and how much he's dwelling on it. He's all but encouraged this response from Luke and yet it feels like it's really, truly sinking that this isn't at all what he wants from Luke.
He doesn't want Luke to call Palpatine (or anyone) master, I don't think; he just considers it inevitable, the only possibility other than Luke's death. And for Anakin, death above all is the thing to prevent.
Everything Anakin says is about things he or they must do, or what cannot be escaped, or destiny, but all of these things he says to Luke are ultimately about Not Getting Yourself Killed. There's no sense of choice beyond submission or destruction.
(Anakin does know he's done terrible things, clearly, but his takeaway from that understanding is that he's gone too far to turn back. That sense of powerlessness, the inability to make a choice that really means anything, pervades his characterization in ROTJ in particular.)
But I feel like, while he still feels powerless after Luke leaves, there's also this sense of a slow, half-buried epiphany. This isn't what he wants.
#anghraine babbles#anghraine's meta#cleft chins and cyborg hands#star wars#anakin skywalker#luke crying when anakin dies - luke who in rotj is so clearly the only person alive who would cry for darth vader - is so much too#and him crying out 'father i won't leave you' right before is like... both such a mirror of anakin with shmi in aotc#and the most meaningful thing that anakin could ever hear.#anakin spending his last moments accepting death/separation and trying to teach luke to accept it too - not like the pt jedi#but in a way that honors the intensity of the bond between them and the highly personal individualized love and grief they feel#but also is about acceptance. anakin's death is harder for luke than anakin himself and it's luke who's going to have to make peace w/ it.#in the end anakin did get what he really wanted. he got to make a choice that meant something and he got to see luke w/ his own eyes#(one of the edition changes i DO support: making anakin's eyes the same color as luke's as they look at each other. perfection)#but yeah - just letting luke's rejection sit with him and his obvious melancholy over it w/o a jarringly obvious indication of it?#perfect choice love it#oh and the emphasis on luke having time to /think/ about murdering palpatine and getting clearly warned about what it means#and attacking anyway... hell yeah. love beloved characters making informed bad choices.
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Remember this post where I talked about how funny Host!Vic’s gender neutrality is? Well now it’s even funnier because this episode seemingly confirmed something I have suspected to be true for a while now, which is that fictional Vic Michealis SOMEHOW DIDNT REALISE THEYRE BI?????
#this is so funny#suspected this because of their interactions with Leighanna and The Fourth Witch#compared to their interactions with male characters#with Leighanna they are obsessed with her they want her so bad but they seem to justify it by wanting to be LIKE her instead#the fourth witch on the other hand? very clearly flirting with them the whole episod#and they just don’t seem to pick up on it#meanwhile you have characters Jordache‚ Dr Milk‚#that frozen guy who’s name I forget#who they very openly flirt with once intrest is shown#and even in this episode I think vic would have reacted quite differently if it was Greg flirting with them#they seem so… hesitant and unsure‚ like they’re trying to reject Charlotte’s advances#which they like NEVER do with male characters‚ this guy wants love so bad#also god. the way they fall for Charlotte and become flattered by her advances as the episode goes on#and you’re just sitting there like. this woman cheated on her husband sixteen times. this will not end well#you just know vic is going to get unbelievabley attached after they hook up and charlottes going to lose intrest within seconds#also I love how Izzy was like ‘ok last time our characters relationship could pass as a friendship so this time I am NOT giving you an out’#god this episode was so good#the last couple haven’t really hit so well for me so this was a lovely reminder of why I love this show#MAN. the implications of this for their relationship with Bianca. they didn’t know. they had no idea.#shitpost#very important people#host!vic#vic michealis#vip#ALSO I believe irl vic prefers the term ‘queer’ over bi judging by that one interview I re read this morning#but I usd bi here because queer in certain contexts can be used for both sexuality and gender identity#so saying ‘they didn’t know they were queer’ might imply they didn’t know they were lgbt at all which clearly isn’t true#also host vic is not real vic so their sexuality could be different#dropout#dropout.tv
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I want your stories. And I want your songs. And you gon' have mine. [...] We will make beautiful music together.
sammick as a very toxic version of orpheus and eurydice... wdym that's not how it went?
#sinners#sammie moore#remmick#sammick#i finally watched it!!#crying at how extra remmick was#bc sammie was clearly intrigued by him and his music but no he tried for 3min; got rejected and went right away to the worst option...#what in the incel smh#♫ strange is the call of this strange man...
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TDFheads, want your opinions.
So the map from the game I think was using a more vague model of Neopia before Brightvale was added to the world map. TDF came out in 2005 and the Neopia map was updated in 2006.
In the game, Sophie lives in the Werelupe Woods, despite her title literally being Swamp Witch, so you would expect her to be closer to Bogshot.
In Tale of Woe, Sophie is pretty explicitly placed in a swamp somewhere in Haunted Woods.
Now, assuming that the TDF map is SOMEWHAT accurate though maybe not exact, do we think it is possible that Werelupe Woods/Bogshot are actually part of Haunted Woods territory even though the map is explicitly labeled "Kingdoms of Brightvale and Meridell"?
In the official canon map, Brightvale is close-ish to Haunted Woods, so it could be that Werelupe Woods and Bogshot are somewhere between Brightvale and Haunted Woods?
All of this is to ask: do we think that Sophie could possibly exist anywhere near Bogshot swamp?
I remember seeing a post recently where it was being discussed that she was immune to the Darkest Faerie's influence because she was in Werelupe Woods. Because she is somewhat of a neutral character, do we think it's possible that she relocated to Werelupe Woods temporarily because she somehow caught wind of the Werelupe King's deal with TDF and wanted to take advantage of it, but would normally be found somewhere out in the swamp?
We know from Neopedia that she definitely lives in a swamp *in Haunted Woods*, so if we consider Bogshot to be part of Brightvale and not Haunted Woods, then I don't think it would be possible for this to be canon. But as far as I can tell, Bogshot is already not really canon, and the in-game map is DEFINITELY not canon when compared to the live map. The official game lore says Bogshot is "north of Brightvale" but it also implies that Brightvale is east of Meridell and that appears to not be officially true, so we could maybe conclude that the residents just misdrew their maps based on a limited amount of information and misjudged the cardinal directions? 🤔 (or just consider it retconned since it's pretty inaccurate)
But yeah, feel free to weigh in. I really like Bogshot, I think it's a quaint little swamp town, and I like the idea of Sophie's home being somewhere in the Bogshot Swamp even if not in the village of Bogshot itself (I think she would be too much of a loner to live that close to other people)
Edit: To be clear, I can choose to believe this and headcanon it all I want of course, but if suddenly Bogshot were turned into a real location and were placed near Haunted Woods and Sophie's lore were updated to claim that she lived near Bogshot in the Haunted Woods, would that be TOO retconny based on what we know about Bogshot's lore from the game that it is closer to Brightvale?
#neopets#long post#tdf#i feel like a lot of stuff in any supporting game/product has dubious canon credibility at best but clearly a lot of TDF is canon#the events of the game are clearly documented on the site so I dont think we can just say nothing in the game is canon#this is not related to any upcoming on-site content btw this is purely me wanting to know if people would reject this idea or not
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"yeah but, communism doesn't work , we know that."
I totally understand where you're coming from, but that's American propaganda. not because i think communism necessarily does work - socialism absolutely does, and has, and can. but if you wanna talk about the breadlines in the Soviet Union than i want to talk about the lines outside food banks in major Canadian cities, I want to talk about our grocery bills, or how Americans have started rationing their eggs, I want to talk about how many people in this country are homeless, I want to talk about how education is becoming more and more inaccessible and how most of us will die paying off our student debt. I want to talk about the number of mass shootings in the states. I want to talk about how they don't have healthcare. I want to talk about how, in our democratic system, private industry always has more influence on government policy than voters, something that is seen clearly in the wealthy unelected tech oligarchy currently running America. my point is not, that i think communist governments are better, my point is not to diminish the injustices faced by people under those regimes, my point, is that if the crimes of past communist governments justify the entire theory being completely discarded and dismissed, than i do not understand why the crimes of our capitalist liberal democracy do not warrant the same treatment. i do not understand how you can look at the society we live in and think this is what working looks like. our governments tell us that our problems are reasonable and the problems of other governments are unreasonable so that you will accept the unacceptable. That is propaganda.
#i hope i have expressed my main point somewhat clearly#that just outright rejecting communism not even thinking about it is a legacy of the cold war#and is our governments attempting to prevent us from considering the possibility of other systems that would#potentially disadvantage the groups currently in charge
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just for fun this time during 'sea of blood' I counted out all the venatori corpses I think we can be pretty sure were lucanis' handiwork before we show up (not including the ones he kills in his initial cutscene, and with an assumption that he's been at work mainly up and down in the areas we move through until we find him, not behind the locked door -- I think that's mostly the work of rampaging undead and other venatori-hoisted-by-their-own-petard suchlikes). can thus happily inform you lucanis has killed at least 32 venatori before rook and company get there. at least one of them he's impaled on their own weird crystal spike things the venatori mages cast as an AOE attack and that they're trying to keep him contained with when we find him. so he's clearly been keeping busy lol. that's my boy dispensing poetic justice and claiming some enrichment in his enclosure while he's at it good for him!
#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#I think he's been scouting around found what's techincally the way out realized he can't leave without his blood#and been shepherded/cornered in the room where you find him. or just as likely he lured them in there to take them all out at once#and also he's not a mage. how the fuck is he going to actually get the door out open and then not just drown if he does#even though he found it. lucanis dellamorte's very bad no good extremely awful horrible day (300+ day streak)#CAN the non-mage venatori get in and out of here without a mage to take them. many questions#him coincidentally escaping right now seems to be down to everything falling the fuck apart down there after zara officially voided#whatever OSHA regulations they ever had and the fallout of solas' ritual made magic run wild across the continent#it's interesting to note that the ossuary we see in this is actually pretty much emptied -- she's already retrieved#what she considered her successes. there used to be way more experiments down here until like a week before this#it's just lucanis and the other rejects left lmao#I do like (well. like is probably the wrong word) to imagine that lucanis has spent a sisyphean year of nearly escaping in there#he's killed a guard gotten to look around for intel for five seconds and been thrown back into his cell multiple times before#this time he's just got chaos and rook (basically synonymous terms right lol) on his side#also to all the 'why is he in his full armor and already with a neat beard' complaints -- because this is a video game#and getting a whole new model for him done for all of 45 mins of content max would not be a wise or fruitful use of resources#hope that helps!#if we're going to go watsonian about it he must have been wearing something when he got there and he probably had luggage#so idk he found those in a store room or something b/c callivan... not the brighest bulb in the lamp store clearly
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idk why it wouldn’t let me answer this @kissmesharman but i absolutely love this, ghost not knowing how to process his omegan traits, to allow himself to be the one who is vulnerable and be protected instead of protecting is so ‼️ being soft, being open and accepting always came with consequences; it was always met with pain and betrayal and you only have to learn a lesson so many times before it sticks
the insidious ways roba and his ilk tried to force him into complacency, using their pheromones and rumbling and scruffing to trick his instincts into submitting- all they did was make ghost bury his omega so deep inside, he almost laughed at the irony of his own burial. even after he’s exhumed, he doesn’t hear it for years; naturally doesn’t heat even without suppressants, doesn’t purr, doesn’t feel that innate safety an alpha’s presence is supposed to bring
just being near other designations calms you down, whether they’re family, pack or even strangers thrown together in too-cramped barracks. it levels out your hormones, gives you people to act your instincts out on, and it’s never a surprise to walk into the cherries’ barracks and find them all tucked inside the resident omega’s nest; discordant purrs and chuffs layering over each other, too-big feet tangled together, still young enough for the milky smell of pup to cling to the edges of their scent especially clumped together like this. a lot of them won’t make it through selection, won’t find pack in each other but it’d be cruel to strip them of this simple comfort
ghost hasn’t stepped inside a nest in almost a decade
hasn’t felt the desire to build up softness and safety, to spread that feeling of home to the 141 even after he admits to himself that they’re pack. even after months of rejection - growling at soap’s happy chuffs whenever he saw him, pumping off bitterly aggressive pheromones to drown out gaz’s pack?home?safe?good? scent until he knew the beta felt sick with the sour poison, avoiding price whenever he was in pre-rut despite it being the most tempting and warm time of year for an omega to be near an alpha, those days before the terrible need when alphas are all affection, rut drunk with the happiness and safety of pack - they still welcomed him with open arms and bared necks as if he were a second pack alpha and not an omega
he’ll posture and loom over any unfamiliar presence, anyone that could potentially be a threat to his pack; his growls a thunderous undercurrent that shakes the very ground and makes anyone who hears it submit on instinct. soap and gaz happily submit to him; almost vibrating in place when he scents them, enduring their appeasing nibbles and licks at his hidden mouth, falling to heel whenever he decides to take over a situation. price shows it in other ways; nose blind after too many breaks and too many cigars, he lets ghost gentle him when his stress reaches its peak, hangs his head and just breathes as ghost threads his fingers together and cups them around his neck, squeezing his scent glands with his palms. ghost bumps their temples together and they’ll just stand there until the burnt scent of tension leaks out of the air
they’re not shy with their submission until most people just assume ghost’s an alpha based purely on the actions of his pack
they’ll never point it out, but the 141 has never suffered for lack of a pack nest. bc ghost unknowingly makes individual nests wherever they go
he’ll push soap into the comfiest sofa cushion after scoping out a safe house, tug gaz’s jacket straight when he uses it as a pillow and eye mask in one, pace in front of the bedroom price claimed to ensure his pack alpha is safe inside his den. he divies out rations, always opens them and switches the desserts so gaz and soap don’t argue over who got the better one; takes the instinctual first bite of anything scavenged or hunted to know it’s safe just to wait until everyone’s done eating and full before taking his own portion. they all present themselves for ghost’s inspection after missions; lets him run his hands and nose over them to check for injuries and it’s ghost who more often than not ends up taking care of them instead of sending them down to medical
they’ll never tell him, never make him face his own behaviour before he’s ready to come to terms with it himself. as much as ghost’s convinced himself otherwise, his omega is alive and well and his pack will welcome his shy return whenever he feels ready to step back into the light
#have i mentioned how much i love omegaverse#any one who still acts like its just a gross fuckfest has clearly never actually read it#behaviour and instincts and bucking societal expectations and norms my beloved#ghost not just acting like an alpha but fully developing the instincts of one#just for his omega traits to peak under the surface when he joins the 141 is beautiful#those alpha instincts dont go away; not when theyve kept him safe for so long#but every now and then he lets himself be soft with his pack#in his own way#anywhere else his little gestures would be firmly rejected; not good enough for an omega. still too alphan#but the 141 basks in them bc they understand what it means#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#mailbox#we’re a team. ghost team#ghoap#ghostsoap#soapghost#simon ghost riley#ghost cod#soap cod#john soap mactavish#john price#captain john price#price cod#gaz cod#kyle gaz garrick#task force 141#omegaverse#cod fic#poly 141#save post
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similar cinematographic choices to portray the same imagery with insanely different circumstantial contexts
#like being tricked into a room and locked off from the outside world with a pitcher of water‚ a waste bucket‚ and an army cot#as you slowly died while experiencing acute mental distress to the point of having a psychogenic seizure at the same time#that people discussed your fate as if it were a decision they had the authority to make (and they DO. unfortunately for you)#vs being tied to chair during which you're in pretty consistent communication and under the care of the person who put you there#and you're narratively given the opportunity to hunt this person down and you even have scenes with hand to hand combat#in which you're able to properly defend yourself. for the other person the idea of your life being in danger is carefully threaded risk#to be taken rather than (as per the previous circumstance described) a decision you have the authority to make#likeee i remember reblogging this post that ssid 'supernatural doesn't really have a concept of jail' but like absolutely yes it does#sam (and even other characters like mary and rowena) are both put in 'jail' as the direct effect to a fault#wrt the winchester familial dynamic and their role. it's one of the main differences here. sam is put in jail‚ dean is not#sam does not have the authority to put him there. it doesn't help that sam is literally pleading as the victim within his scene#while dean is able to victimise sam even as the monstrous body within the 10.03 scene#and the thing is that their identities are being compartmentalised in similar ways here. dean is attempting to save his sammy#from the encroaching (invariable) monstrous sam that which he spends the next season attempting to forgive for the shortcoming#of dean perceiving sam's efforts at independence as abandonment while sam is attempting to save his dean from the encroaching mark of cain#(chosen to be put there yet is still victimised by) and sam spends the rest of the season forgiving him over and over while even#taking misattributed responsibility and blame that which has to be made up for#4.21#10.03#se referat#edit: also adding onto chii's tags wrt the differences in capacity for consent regarding demon!dean#it's so interesting to compare demon!dean to soulless!sam in that demon!dean didn't have the capacity to reject competent!dean's consent#while both soulless!sam and 5.22!sam did not consent to be resouled in respectively active and precedingly passive ways#like 6.12 sam is clearly happy and grateful to have been resurrected and he doesn't even have any specific qualms#about dean keeping information relating to his ressurection from him but 5.22 explicitly made his consent‚ or lack thereof‚ regarding#ressurection clear unlike dean in early-s10... and the thing is that the last time sam didn't pursue dean's ressurection#he faced negative consequences for that decision! and yet dean is seen as objectively correct for his actions in s6#by both the audience and narrative‚ and much of his responsibility regarding sam's psychosis isn't acknowledged as directly related#to his actions vs the pinning of blame to much of early-s10 onto sam esp relating to the guy he had summon a demon‚ who sold his own soul#despite sam's advice‚ whom demon!dean killed
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oooh wait so the plot hole of “why doesnt a spirit medium just channel the victims spirit” is literally bc the DL-6 spirit channeling cant be repeated huh
#im so fucking slow I was brushing my teeth thinking abt Gregory edgeworth in mayas clothes#and I haven’t played aa1 so I don’t actually know the details of it in case I get to play it for myself#but they brought up the spirit channeling mistake with misty and how it basically shot down the kurain techniques credibility right#and like. I guess trying to do that again would be a repeat of that incident which ended up with an innocent person being convicted#so Phoenix not only has to channel Mia because she’s the smarter better lawyer but also because summoning the victim#isnt exactly the first time it’s happened and gotten someone the guilty verdict. huh#replaying justice for all 2-4 so the case with Maya spirit channeling#and after playing aa3 I can really appreciate how much thought they put into the fey family and how a lot of the games events#revolve around it.#Mayas powers arent a ‘long lost ancestor’ as an excuse for her having powers. it is clearly and heavily expanded on#and the infighting makes so much sense when you consider the power differences between branch and main families.. and Mia becoming a lawyer#to find out what happened to her mother AND after being aware of that bloodshed and what it means for Maya#the way she chose Maya and didn’t want that for them. the way she put distance between them on purpose so they wouldn’t become like that#and Pearl is acknowledged as having more power than Maya but she’s fucking eight and loves Maya that she doesn’t see that as any#kind of power imbalance. heck when Morgan uses her for her plan in bridge to the turnabout Pearl was happy to do it#because Morgan said it was for pearls good and Pearl assumed that meant it would be good for Maya too and I 😭😭#the branch system was originally made so that even if you weren’t chosen as the master you could still support the family by protecting the#main branch. and the irony of that being the reason why main family members are targeted to be usurped#iris outright rejecting the notion of communicating to the dead and everything the fey clan stands for#there’s so much fucking lore to this and I don’t see it talked abt enough?????????!?????#yapping#ace attorney#as
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loooooove how ford knows without a shadow of a doubt how stan will never say no to him. it doesnt cross his mind even a second that stan would ever refuse him. he knows the moment he makes a request, his brother would do it no questions asked, all ford has to do is request it <3
#stan is soooooooo r***able im sorry#i need ford to dubcon him and realize outright that stan is just straight up not rejecting him so clearly he wants this too#and stan isnt even sure if he wants this or not he just knows ford wants it so he would have to too right???#and his body does like it but it also just feels incredibly wrong#tw: dubcon#stancest
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as much as i dont like to be a constant negative voice here but man, it really is apparent that i have never actually and fully hated a piece of media before in the way i hate totk
i know know i talked about it alot but it feels almost weird to really have such a visceral hatred for something like this (and hopefully proof that i am not a guy that just hates everything or something, i dont love many things either (as in really really interested, thinking about it, writing things or drawing, possibly hyperfixation way, i do like things but thats more neutrally? idk how my brain works) but towards the vast majority of media and games i just feel neutral or a personal dislike for that just means im not gonna engage with it and nothing more)
and im now saying this bc i didnt expect that id react this strongly to seeing those weird new ... notes? or text stuff from totk (and even botw???) since the switch 2 released- maybe its a bit bc i was kinda surprised by it but boi i do NOT want to read anything of it, even if it gave me more stuff to be annoying about, its like scrolling past extremely smelly dog poo to me- and what may be the strangest thing is that .. that also goes for botw (which i used to love so so deeply)
i guess i myself missjudged just how much totk has really soured everything zelda for me, even if those notes say 'interesting' things i just .. cant take it seriously anymore, they were glued on afterwards, maybe its gonna try and fill any of the massive, continent wide gaps between the two games to try and artificially connect them after the fact, perhaps just some guys trying to think of what a character could say about a place with no real meaning to it, i dont know and i dont want to ................. everything feels insincere now, corporate.
(it feels like zelda too is turning from my beloved hyperfixation into something i dont want to engage with ever again, like its happend before, with other media, and i hated it happend, and now its happening again, i would lie if i said this isnt very distressing to me bc it is, even if it may look stupid, im feeling the best and happiest when i have something to latch onto like this, with this passion and care to work with the media- but it happens by chance, i dont control it, and losing it is really reminding me i am in fact very depressed with nothing to distract me anymore now. ... plus, this zelda hyperfixation felt like the longest running, most passionate, i ever had.)
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#personal#“that isnt nromal” did i claim to be normal?#“that sounds childish/stupid” i DO NOT CHOOSE TO FEEL LIKE I AM#this is when i hate being autistic#(aside from meltdowns which i would not wish upon anyone- they also dont happen willingly btw)#you care with all the force in the world about something stupid- but it will make you crash and burn just as hard#this isnt an attack or rejection of anyone following me for zelda or who doesnt feel like i do about it all- obviously#hashtag my diary blog lmao#i guess if i still gonna do the rant video thing i should try and gather as much info about the stupid game#but i am so done with it- and yes i hate it even more BECAUSE it soured and killed my love for botw and the rest of the franchise#if im gonna do it i can only happen if i just ramble about the game itself#no enhanced extra editions- no extra spin off titles#(............as a sidenote- none of my previous hyperfixations where popular like this either- which makes it all so much harder to cope-#-with bc its everywhere and you feel even more singled out- the dumb idiot who cared like you shouldnt care about a stupid game-#-games are just for fun not to think- if you dont like it ignore it lol - no one thinks like you do of it so clearly you are the odd one-#-theres something off with you if you dont like soemthing everyone likes and then you act like your life depends on it haha ...........)#anyway ... shuttign up again
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thinking about the question "is it better to never know love or to know it and lose it" and how it applies to ogata and tsurumi respectively and how both can easily make you a monster
also how tsurumi can manipulate people with love because he had experienced it himself and ogata fails at that at every turn because you can’t (intentionally) inspire what you can’t recognize
I also feel like ogata was the only one of the boytoy bunch whom tsurumi manipulated more with resentment (towards his position, his family) rather than affection because the latter wasn’t working on him
because even though ogata desires love expressing it doesn’t grant his loyalty, because he doesn’t believe he can be genuinely loved so is unresponsive to it
don’t have any point to make here, just reminiscing
#golden kamuy#I do believe avenging his family wasn’t tsurumi’s only goal but it was clearly a big part of what motivated hi#and ogata spent the entire story looking for love and acceptance and then rejecting it when it came his way#because he didn’t actually believe he deserved it#ogata#tsurumi
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Aaron telling him to go and not come back was particularly painful to watch bc its almost the exact words jack said to him when he kicked him out the first time round 😭
#robert sugden#emmerdale#robron#and we know robert remembers what jack said to him#because he quotes him directly in 2015 when he’s arguing aith andy#it clearly stuck in his mind#and hes almost certainly told aaron about it#either way aaron knows all about his rejection issues and how much jack kicking him out fucked with his head#and i know aaron is just saying whatever he can to push robert away but DAMN thats harsh
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This is the most compelled I've ever been by a love triangle and I'm not even rooting for any of the couples. Just rooting for the characters to be happy individually.
#senpai is an otokonoko#senpai wa otokonoko#it's so messy and interesting#we've got Aoi realizing she was actually less into Makoto and more into the idea of being in love. and distancing herself as a result.#we've got Ryuji being genuinely in love with Makoto for such a long time and just being so very afraid of rejection#and then there's Makoto who just wants to be as normal as possible while being a crossdresser#(and possibly non-binary or trans but we're nowhere near cracking that egg yet)#so thinking that this will make everything go back to normal Makoto tries to appease Ryuji by asking him out after he confesses his feelings#and those feelings are clearly one-sided so it's a terrible decision all around. but i get where it's coming from.#i just want all three to be friends again. they were so good as friends. please.
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