#and ik they care abt me and would listen

[carp-esh-ove-lem]

wish i could figure out the right friends to talk to about the mental illness is getting bad again

[candiyaa]

do you think you could do hcs for the upper moons with an unattractive reader?

Ohhh sweet noo there's no such thing as an unattractive reader, all the readers are beautiful like gurlll or boy ? whatever prounouns you go by, look at us !! We're so beautiful really, or perhaps I didn't quite catch the meaning of your request but to me there's no such thing as an unattractive reader and that way I can't fulfill your request properly and I apologize ! But well I can try but maybe I'll put it as a "Upper Moons x a pretty gorgeous magnificent mesmerizing piece of art insecure reader" ?

And I shall serve, soo here we go.....

KNY MEN with their magnificient yet insecure reader ❤︎ ❤︎

Pairing : Upper Moons (1-3) + Muzan ; Gyutaro ; Giyuu ; Rengoku ; Sanemi ; Tengen ; Gyomei (just had to add them bc ik these are y'all favs too lol) x gn!reader

CONTENT WARNING ── .✦ : None ?

𝐌𝐔𝐙𝐀𝐍 𝐊𝐈𝐁𝐔𝐓𝐒𝐔𝐉𝐈.

Thought you were completely foolish bc how is it, his most grand possession treasure could possibly feel insecure ?

He would immediately stop you when you would talk bad abt yourself

Like instant cold glare

He would first off give the vibe that he doesn't care and that he couldn't care any less abt such things

Tho he DOES listen and is attentive to EVERY of your possible insecurities

That way he knows what to subtly work on with you to make you feel better abt yourself

Tries to logic your insecurities away like it’s a problem to solve, he struggles to understand that kind of softness.

If you cry, his entire world slows down. He doesn't know what to do and that scares him.

He'll try tho, his silence is not to be mistaken for him giving up on you, he's simply pondering in his head.

His eyes are, always, only and solely on you, always.

He's obviously not the type to compliment you out loud everyday, but he'll always have his subte ways of showing his "suport" to you

He would slip here and there "compliments".

When you'll catch on he'll act as if he has nothing to do with it, saying it's normal for your partner to compliment his s/o from time to time, let alone for humans.

"I like it."

"Wha- ?"

"The hair."

*goes back to what he's doing, acting like he didn't just compliment you out of nowhere*

"..."

*glance*

It was your everydays hair btw, he's just getting used to complimenting you without wounding his pride...

𝐊𝐎𝐊𝐔𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐁𝐎.

Baffled.

He doesn't even understand what you could possibly be insecure about because in his eyes you're just perfect.

And trust me being called perfect by the Supreme Moon is not just nothing.

Being the stoic Upper Moon that he is and being used to his own company for so long he's obviously not the loud type to scream at your beauty every chance he gets but he tries for you.

He's so used to speaking harshly and bluntly to the fellow moons, but I swear that man really tries his best when it comes to you

He's so confused as to why you're insecure in the first place and he genuinely feel a little pang whenever you voice one of your insecurities.

Feels shame that he doesn’t know how to comfort you with words, so he makes up for it with acts of service and physical presence.

He's not the shy type but rather afraid of hurting you with his words or not making them come out the way he intend to.

Sometimes it'll be completely out of the blue like you're doing an activity and he'll compliment you out of nowhere with that blank face of his.

But his eyes, especially the middle pair one, will give him away, voicing out for him his genuine want to make you feel loved and forget your insecurities.

"You're...beautiful today."

"..."

"Oh dear... I mean the previous days as well of course, it is simply that...well don't make me repeat myself. You understood what I intended to tell you."

Now he's embarressed, yes even if his face stays stoic he just hides it well.

He hopes he didn't actually made it worse.

𝐃𝐎𝐔𝐌𝐀.

Do I really need to explain ?

Being the emotionless moon that he is, he first thought it'll be a great advantage to manipulate you better.

But somehow it didn't sit right with him

Something about you was just different...

Instead of needing to feel in control, he actually wanted to be there for you even if in his own enigmatic way.

In private, when you’re truly hurting, he’s surprisingly grounded, listens more and jokes less.

Perhaps after meeting you something in him just clicked and you may have made new emotions resurface.

Perhaps not the loud and booming ones, but emotions nonetheless and it showed in the way he would compliment you here and there.

hum hum well... I MEANT OVERCOMPLIMENTING MY BADD.

Overly praising you any chance he gets.

He'll do anything to make you feel better about yourself.

Whereas he's aware of it or not, he genuinely cares for you deep inside.

He's your number one simp and actually feels something close to joy when you're in your "confident moments".

Like a proud dad (aghh okay maybe he's a cutie after all -in my universe)

You swear you can see a tiny genuine smile sometimes before it dissapears and leave it to his creepy fake smile again.

He supports you in his own way !

He’s not used to caring deeply, so your insecurity is the first time he truly needs to learn how to love properly, and oh dear he's giving it his best.

"You’re the first thing I’ve ever wanted to protect without being told to. Doesn’t that mean something?"

𝐀𝐊𝐀𝐙𝐀.

Notices your discomfort even before you speak, your body language gives it away.

Won’t let anyone (even other demons) say something that could make you feel worse.

You’ll find small gifts, things that reminds him of you, left silently.

Remembers every single thing you’re insecure about and gently tries to flip it.

Just like the others, he listens always.

Gets quiet when you talk bad about yourself, he takes it personally because he loves you too much for that.

He’s been through pain, loss, shame, so he recognizes your pain immediately. His first instinct is to prove you wrong by actions, not just words.

He’ll do small but meaningful things such as holding your hand tightly in front of others when you’re feeling insecure, or placing a kiss on a scar you hate.

Will physically pull you closer when you try to hide away.

"You are the reason I remember what love feels like. That is not a small thing."

𝐆𝐘𝐔𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐎 𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐁𝐀𝐍𝐀.

At first? He doesn't understand why you're insecure. Not in a dismissive way, but in a "self-hating" kind of way.

Because if YOU aka his most precious gift feels insecure then what that makes him ?

Sees a mirror of himself in your insecurity and it shakes him.

It deeply hurts him to hear you talk about yourself the way he talks about himself.

For the first time, he realizes how ugly those words actually are, when they're coming out of your mouth.

You healed a part of him without even realizing.

Feels awkward at first, he wants to help but doesn’t know how without making it worse.

Starts showing love in acts: brushing your hair, adjusting your clothes, shielding you from others’ looks.

He'll always try to hype you up in his own weird yet sincere way.

"If I had what you have... I’d treasure it. Don’t throw yourself away like I did."

𝐆𝐈𝐘𝐔𝐔 𝐓𝐎𝐌𝐈𝐎𝐊𝐀.

He saw himself in you

Being not the most confident himself, he absolutely HATES to see you insecure and that about anything!

He'll try to compliment you, which will always result in you laughing because he takes it wayyy too seriously.

He'll be like : "I like your *possible insecurity*. NO I love it ( •̀_•́ ). I really do ( •̀_•́ ). ", with that serious face as if he was about to ask for some duel.

He doesn't really understand why it makes you laugh, but if it makes you happy he'll keep going.

You compliment each other and boost your self esteem up !!

Healing each other in the most gentle way.

He's super attentive and could listen to you talk about your insecurities for DAYS if it could make you feel heard and secure.

He surprisingly contributes very well to the conversation instead of simply listening as you may have thought so, and he always got the right words.

He's not only listening, he hears you so deeply and wants to show his genuine support.

Without even meaning to, it helps him voice his thoughts more and bring out his talkative side !

But just because it's you...

"You're really beautiful. I like what you did with your hair today..." he says with a shy smile of his. (THAT CUTIEEEE)

"And you're handsome..."

HE DIED hearing that. (+ blushing mess)

𝐊𝐘𝐎𝐉𝐔𝐑𝐎 𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐆𝐎𝐊𝐔.

HEART.BROKEN.

Insecure ? Who ? MY SUNSHINE ? NO WAY. would be his mental reaction when he finds out.

He's so genuinely attentive and actually TAKES NOTES (that man is crazy...) to remember what to work on with you and make you feel better about EVERY of your possible insecurities.

He made a whole list and compliments you everyday.

NUMBER ONE SUPPORTER !

He sticks notes a bit everywhere in places he's sure you'll see with words of affirmation and compliments to boost you up !

There's like 100 of these.

He kisses. THAT MAN KISSES YOUR INSECURITIES LAWDDD

Any time he'll see you in a bit of an off mood, good luck to escape his embrace and kisses...(You prob died with those biceps encircling you but dw he died first Mugen Train OOP-)

At night, he whispers how beautiful you are. Even if you can't conciously hear it, he believes your soul will and remember it.

"You're so beautiful, I don't even understand where those insecurities come from..." he says kissing your tamp as he holds you securely in his arms.

*you waking up, half awake, hearing his mumbling*

"Huh...you said what?"

"YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL ACCEPT IT AS YOUR TRUTH NOW !"

"Woahh stop screaming in my ears this early I'm sleeping !!!"

"NOT ANYMORE!"

"Let me sleep....."

"NOT UNTIL YOU SAY IT !"

"COME ON !""

"JUST ONCE !"

"PLEASEEEE"

"WAIT NOO DON'T FALL BACK ASLEEP"

𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐍.

OHHH THAT MAN IS LOUD about how fine you are. But the second he notices you deflecting compliments or hiding behind insecurity? He drops his flashy side and gets real.

He lets you wear his rings, jewels, or even lets you try on his eyeliner if it makes you feel more confident.

He buys you any jewelry he thinks you might find attractive (not scared to go overdrawn either I'm tellin' you that man is RICH)

He brags about you to his wives constantly. (No jealousy here they're girls girl I promise)

+ Says it loud enough to make sure you hear it.

His wives are actually even more fond of you

Constantly reassures you with physical touch — hand on the waist, holding fingers, leaning close.

Sometimes he'll just hold your face and stare like you’re a masterpiece, without saying a word.

He worships the ground you walk on.

"You don’t have to be flashy. You don’t have to be loud. You just have to be you. And you are the most divine human being I’ve ever laid my eyes on."

𝐒𝐀𝐍𝐄𝐌𝐈 𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐙𝐔𝐆𝐀𝐖𝐀.

Now to our angry pomeranian.

Instant anger, but not at you, at the way you’re hurting. He’ll grit his teeth, avoid eye contact, clench his fists.

He’s not good with words that's for sure, but you notice how he hugs tighter when you're down. How his voice goes quiet. How he sticks around silently after you say something bad about yourself.

You can't hide anything from him, he may be short-tempered and impulsive at times but his observation skills are top-tier.

He notices when you think twice before picking your clothes or avoid mirrors and it upset him, because he wishes you could see yourself from his eyes.

No arguments needed. He'll never scream or be upset at you for being insecure.

Will compliment you in his own subtle ways, which will always leave him a bit flustered because he's not used to compliments himself but tries for you.

Will 100% beat up anyone who makes you feel smaller, even by accident. (pray for those...)

"Why would you ever think that? You think I’m here because I pity you? No, I’m here because you're the only person who’s ever made this shitty world feel worth fighting for."

He shows love by defending you, even from yourself.

𝐆𝐘𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐈 𝐇𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐉𝐈𝐌𝐀.

Felt deeply hurt when he found out you were insecure

But tbh he sensed it since the beginning, he's not the strongest Hashira for nothing (I'm not open to debate Inosuke said it 😭🙏)

He kept rassuring you on how it was human and that everyone has their own insecurities.

Though it was really tugging at him knowing his s/o felt like this.

He would pepper you with kisses and words of affirmation when he can (EVERYDAY.)

While tbh he already compliments you naturally, often and genuinely. Especially your soul, your heart and your strength.

As sacred as it is, I believe Gyomei would mention his s/o in his prayers, and that would be the genuine purest form of love.

He would do anything to make you feel loved and work on your confidence with you.

THAT MAN is ALWAYS listening and rassures you anytime he can, he could do it all day.

"I don't need to see you to know how beautiful you are...I'll say it in every language if I must but I'll say it again : You're simply beautiful. For now my hands alone can carve your face but the essence of your being is simply beautiful,if not heavenly and that's all I need to call you beautiful."

⋆˚✿˖° Hiii okay I went DEEP with that one lol, sending love to all of you !! Hope you guys liked this one as well! I apologize once again ,and probably will again lol, for the possible grammar mistakes 😭!! English is not my first language and I'm still learning, I try my best really ! xoxo ⋆˚✿˖°

[opiopal]

thinkin abt mammon being like, rly strong..

cause like, listen, Ik with like, dia or beel or s8n, yeah, clearly they could lift you up with EASE. No problem no questions ASKED.

but something about imagining mams just scooping up mc no problem makes me giggle and blush and kick my feet

cause imagine somethings going on and his first instinct is to just SCOOP mc and run. or him and mc are in the kitchen and mc can’t reach a shelf, and instead of his just grabbing it for them he lifts them by the waist as if they weighed absolutely NOTHING and raises them high enough to grab what they were reaching for. Or they’re both just hanging around and he lifts them to sit on his lap to cuddle. like dude, I can’t get over it, and it’s a little more blushy for me cause like, ofc I base a little bit of my Mc off of myself, and I’m on the chubbier side(as is my Mc) so it’s like “omg you can pick me up?!*bluesh*•3-“ (I am cringe but I am free, cringe culture died with Lilith)

but carrying on, like, I think it would be funny if he just picked mc up without thinking sometimes. Like if there’s a late night situation and he has to go check it out- but he doesn’t want to leave his warm cozy sleepy partner behind- so he just scoops and suddenly mc is groggily waking up with their head on mammons shoulder while all the brothers are looking at a fallen chandelier or something, and they’re just like “?????” Like half the time he picks them up either without fully processing it, or because he’s like “oh well [problem] can easily just be solved if I hold my partner above the ground”

also I like to imaging mc and mams dancing together, and just because he’s a dorky romantic he ends up scooping them up to kiss them instead of dipping them down, like it causes heads to turn and stuff but he doesn’t really care, he loves Mc so much and he thinks people should absolutely admire them and be dazzled by them exactly like how he is✨

[p1ercemyh34rt]

No I will never shut up about the glorious rep in Dr stone, especially queer rep

I know going “I love how they don’t make a big deal of it and it’s so natural” then going and making a big deal about it doesn’t make sense but THIS IS EXACTLY THE KIND OF STUFF I HOPED FOR FOR YEARS?? HELLO?? It’s written INTO their characters like it’s amazing

Senku, Stanley, Xeno, Ryusui, Francois , and Gen are the most like obvious.

Senku is clearly not heterosexual. I’m sorry no way a heterosexual man shows that much disgust when a girl confesses to him. I’m not saying he’s gay even if I HC him as such but at the very least he’s on the aromantic or asexual spectrum. I personally think if he wasn’t aroace he would be gay. Ik it’s probably a coping mechanism but it’s also funny to watch Senku flirt with guys whenever he’s terrified and or they’re abt to kill him

Stanley and Xenos relationship makes me want to drop to my knees and wail. So so beautiful. Xenos obviously a bad person but I love how they show his soft side for Stanley the way he looks at him when he’s a statue when he gives him little fake cigarettes it’s so elegant. Drst writes characters who are considered bad people to have soft sides like Xeno and also make the protagonists people who aren’t really saints at all, making them feel more human. Stanley is clearly in love with Xeno which is why he gets so damn peeved when he gets kidnapped and there’s no hetero explanation for the scene where Stanley gets revived again. And I love how they made Stanley the most masculine man who literally served in the military gay and wear makeup. Literally. Hes not afraid to wear lipstick like YES I ADORE IT. Again he SERVED IN THE MILITARY he has like a 10 pack and is masculine as hell and he’s still such a well written homosexual character who’s comfortable in his sexuality and gender. Epitome of masculinity fr fr.

Francois is enby, using they/them pronouns. I love how Ryusui says gender sex race nothing matters when it comes to sheer talent, which is why the writers don’t tell much too about them. They’re just pure talent and live to serve and even though they’re a butler they’re still not robotic and stuff, same with Senku- he’s not that into romance but he’s still definitely not nonchalant at all.

Ryusui , the greediest man in the world. He desires everyONE and everyTHING. My pansexual probably polyamorous KING. He don’t care abt ur gender or whatever he wants YOU!!

Gen Asagiri, this one.. he’s definitely queer... im not saying it just because he’s the most feminine out of all the men (though I LOVE how again they made a very feminine male character and made him so well written) , but because of the clear admiration he has towards Senku. You could say it’s not romantic that’s fine - QPR sengen still peak. In my opinion he’s either gay or bisexual. He barely also shows interest in women, when he does it’s clearly for keeping up his facade. Again, he’s genuinely mesmerized by Senku and what he does. I love sengen but if we’re talking canon, they’re definitely one sided. The way I see it, no way Gen doesn’t feel anything for Senku. Also cmon.. just look at the guy.. listen to his voice… cmon. Cmon. Cmon. Cmo-

Again I’m OBSESSED with the way their sexualities are written into their characters and personalities, and how it’s shown so well.. if that makes sense.. love this show so much please if you haven’t seen Dr Stone watch it if you want a show with glorious characters, story, and rep for neurodivergent people (autism specifically with Senku and Sai) and queer people.

[jnnul]

I JUST READ THE DATING RINA DRABBLE AND DIED HEADASS……………… do u have any thoughts for dating ning? :3

word count: 933 words a/n: LMAOOOO that's so real anonnie that's me with ningrina on any given day tbh genres: fluff and nsfw content

ningning is THE girlfriend tbh

very feminine, very princess vibes

but i feel like ningning is the epitome of a 50/50 girlie

she will definitely expect princess treatment but she will also def be giving princess treatment

it doesn't matter age, gender, race, nationality

you are her princess™️ just like she is your princess™️

for example, she might be the one to ask you out on a date

but once you hit it off, she'll expect you to be the one to make it official

i honestly feel like ningning would ask you out within like a couple hours of meeting you

she gets your number, thinks you're cute, and then asks you out on a date

and on that first date, she puts her expectations for a relationship out in the open and highkey she's just so confident in what she wants that you're like ???

i'm??? in love with her???

(she knows you are)

once you ask her to be your girlfriend, she absolutely dotes on you

there's a new side of her that you've never seen before

she's like a sweet best friend that also drops 2 grand on w/o batting an eye bc she saw you eyeing a pretty watch and what her baby looks at, her baby gets

and she expects that you love her like that too!!

not monetarily, but definitely at least in emotional aspects

affirm her feelings, express how much you love her, initiating dates, buying her flowers randomly to surprise her

but outside of that, she wants you to be her best friend and vice versa

like she genuinely wants to have inside jokes w you, do stupid things w you, and lowk wants to be your absolute best friend

def isn't very controlling and she herself has a lot of friends

but she def prioritizes you the most out of everyone

and kinda wants you to do the same (or at least have her in the top 3)

is actually the best person to rant to bc she'll just listen to you like this 😍 while you're swearing like a sailor

will def join in and bash whoever's making her bb feel bad

but thinks you're so incredibly lovable regardless

lowk loves showing you off in public?

like she doesn't care when you're wearing revealing clothing or when ppl are checking you out, in front of her, mind you

bc she knows that you're hot and she appreciates you knowing that too

what she draws the line at tho is literally anyone threatening her spot in closeness to you

lowk will get toxic abt it too

like if she feels like you met someone who's able to make you laugh like she does, she immediately brings it up to you

and asks you to distance yourself from them

unless she's 100% sure that it's platonic from their side

bc she trusts her baby

but not the rest of the world

hand in hand w the whole showing you off/best friend thing

she loves going clubbing w you!!

the best thing abt dating ningning is that she makes you embrace life to the fullest

genuinely 0 shits given to the world

you're violently drunk after 12 shots at the club? she's holding your hair/clothes back as you hurl your guts out and she's still having the time of her life

will take so many pics of you two together

like actually she has to upgrade her icloud storage every 3 months

bc she doesn't want to delete a single picture of you

or the two of you tgt

probably singlehandedly supporting apple atp

so incredibly in love w you <333

[NSFW CONTENT BELOW]

ik so many ppl hc her as a pillow princess

and she def has her moments!! where she just wants to be spoiled rotten

but she love love LOVES putting in the work when y'all are getting nasty

highkey that's one of the only things she'll rlly go 75/25 on

she has an y/n fixation so you can expect her to go down on you (wtv that looks like for you!!) 25/8

you're watching tv? her hands are in your pants

you're washing the dishes? she's backhugging you and her hands are in your pants

you're breathing? her hands are down your pants

NINGNING JUST WANTS TO MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD ALL THE DAMN TIME

i don't rlly think she's into power play

but she's def prone to 'taking the lead' in bed

i also think that once you guys get more comfortable w each other, she lets out her inner freak

like i genuinely think that she'd leave you tied to the bed w a vibrator at your core and just watch you

she thinks you look gorgeous when you cum

and therefore, overstimulates you whenever she can

not a fan of edging bc she hates seeing you cry

but she will use it against you if she ever feels like you're not loving her as hard as she wants to be!!

also lots of romantic, heated sex

where she pushes you up against a wall and kisses the shit out of you

and then takes you to the bedroom where she has a bunch of fairy lights and candles lit

she's v v spontaneous tho so she can flip the vibe however you want!! will never do the same thing twice!!

aftercare has to be 50/50 tho!! she runs you a bath and massages all of the sore spots and you make her cheese toasties <333

overall, ningning who is your needy/sexy/silly best friend and girlfriend all in one!!

[arrowlantern]

I feel like the reverse is also possible in the sense that Kyle automatically makes the most beautiful art within Connor's presence for he is a muse whose beauty he wouldn't be able to paint even if he had a hundred lifetimes while Connor is like "I wonder if he thinks we are friends"

the way ik exactly what post of mine this is referring to and i forgot. to answer. I AM SO SORRY ANON. anyways i think about this a lot. because 2 me… kyle has a very specific set of flirting techniques and tendencies that he uses on women his age. like there’s the before and the After of getting his lantern ring but the gist of it stays relatively the same.

compared to connor, who is generally unaware of his own attractiveness. kyle is a pretty boy and he *knows* this!!! i imagine his time during college before meeting alex was spent as a floater. not sticking with 1 specific friend group, chatting up lots of ppl, and enacting his evil flirting schemes. i loveee to imagine he pulls totally corny lines and stupid stereotypical scenarios… “oh no i dropped my sketchbook :((( would u mind grabbing it for me :3” and then Bam! trap is set

green lantern v2 #51

the issue with kyle ++ dating is that he isn’t the total sweetheart he portrays himself as, and definitely isn’t responsible enough to maintain a long term relationship. we see this with alex a lot, how he genuinely cares for her, but implements his dummy little puppy dog eyes and pushes important conversations aside .

he likes to have fun!!! and there is nothing wrong with that, however he does come to learn that moderation and communication r very important. especially when he gains his super powers 🙂‍↕️

back to connor now! kyle likes him a LOT. and i don’t even just mean in a hypothetical shipping romance scenario, we have lots of concrete proof that kyle is able to shed his more macho showboating protective mannerisms. this is rlly meaningful bc kyle fights with like. Every other male hero his age that he encounters on a regular basis

green arrow v2 #104 // excerpt from a sherwood forest letter abt the issue

the point of all this yap, is that as comfortable as kyle is with connor, i still think he’d have hang ups with his own sexuality. we see this in their next cross-over arc, the infamous hard travelling heroes sequel. kyle opens up to connor a ton, and this scares him. he’s used to kinda joking around and keeping his feelings + grief to himself. but something about the way connor comes across as so genuine, both in care and interest in kyle as a person — make it a lot easier to talk.

green lantern v3 #76 + 77 // green arrow v2 #110

and yeah kyle kind of. immediately goes on 2 sabotage this in the next issues, but connor listens!!! like this is the most important part, because connor could’ve just brushed him off or got mad. kyle can be an aggravating personality to deal with on the long term. so yeah anon like you said, connor is doing all this with zero ulterior motive — and solely because he considers kyle a Very good friend 🥳

green lantern v3 #77

ALRIGHT! finally. the point i was trying to achieve abt kyle rayner flirting with men methods. i do not believe he is as successful or as skilled, and i think he’d fuck up even *asking* connor if he could paint him close up. but even without any specifically canonized romantic feelings toward kyle as a person, connor always shows him so much kindness and compassion.

tl:dr — kyle rayner professional fumbler of men he is extremely attached to // but connor usually manages to reel him back in .

[funeralprocession]

omg i was gonna just send u this in a dm or s/t but since its pertinent to this blog ill send in an ask <3333 ok its related to... ill just explain lmao instead of giving a short overview bc i feel like its a pret decent support?

ok so we were talkin abt how - kichi seems to always have 1 person he likes to keep around - the person he keeps is... kinda losery? like either they would be easy to control/steer/get to do his bidding... it happened more than once

he seems to gravitate toward "pathetic" ppl like s/o more pathetic than himself... he has what looks like a controling streak (his talent is only partly to blame ESP if his talent itself is a lie... it would make total sense that hes his class's lucky student n being the supreme leader is just another lie he told bc thats what he fucken does lmfao

ANYWAYYY bc of how he kept picking out s/o he thought seemed weak/pathetic... plus he is not shy abt yelling at ppl/being annoying... i feel like both of those would connect into "he would prob be protective over this pathetic person" (bc he would lose a valuable asset if a/t happened to them but also he just seems to have a type rofl

omg this is getting so long im sorryyyy

a/w this is the thing i was gonna mention but bc its thematic for this blog... that one convo nagi-sama & kichi had where kichi kind of got after nagi-sama for his self deprecation... - kichi knows nagi-sama was looking at him right... like looking for info abt him/his organization on the internet - he already would PROB be interested in having nagi-sama as an asset (bc he seems pathetic/controllable n kichi has gone for that type in the past more than once)

specifically gesturing toward the fact that kichi asked monomi if nagi-sama was messing w him... like if his self deprecation was real or if he was just screwing around and lying... bc he was aware nagi-sama was tryna find info out abt him (n didnt ask a/t directly - in fact he wanted nagi-sama to ask him things so he could have some kind of upperhand over him? literally alluded to taking him in as a servant as payment for answering his questions - even if his answers were lies he would still have an advantage & nagi-sama would owe him atp)... he mighta assumed nagi-sama somehow found out abt his affinity/preference for weaklings/pathetic ppl? n mighta been like... nervous abt nagi-sama doing that intentionally bc he was aware of that (somehow)... ik this is where i fucken live lmfao e/t that happens JUUUUST confirms this ship for me lmfao but i swear its there? it was such a weird reaction out of him? asking monomi if nagi-sama ACTU hated himself or if he was just picking on kichi? what would he do that for? like ya they hadnt rly met before that so he couldnt know that was just the way that guy behaves in his everyday life.... but instead of having a normal reaction to it (or even neutral) he immediately got paranoid that nagi-sama was picking on him? only makes sense its bc he thought nagi-sama found out abt his fetish for pathetic individuals lmfao change my mind i dare u ROFLLLLLL

so this is long as fuck lmfao if it was a ramble i apologize i did my best myu <333

I hope you weren't actually expecting me to talk you out of it XD! Because that's incredibly solid support and only uses things in the source material instead of relying on feelings or impressions?

Kichi didn't really make any effort for strong people, he ignored them, mostly (because they would be difficult or even impossible to control). He didn't lash out at everybody, just like he didn't show special interest in everybody.

My theory (which this is just relying on feelings/impressions but hear me out XD!) is he wants to be useful. He has a preference for losers, pathetic individuals, etc. because he wants someone who would... First of all, listen to him XD! His stuff about being taken seriously as an evil overlord, the mastermind, etc. He lies constantly, they're usually huge/dramatic and he does not care about getting caught in one.

Anyway, he seems to have a preference for someone who isn't likely to turn away or not need him. I do think he has the inclination toward being controlling (because of his literal behaviour, he was forcing a lot of hands and calling/making bluffs, he's not exactly a team player but the "team" had turned against him, almost entirely.)

He was oddly gentle toward Nagito, it could have just been uncertainty? Or it could have been because his initial impression, how he'd picked out "pathetic" individuals in the past, just relying on his read of them to determine whether they were interesting (basically useful) or not, and his impression of Nagito would be that he could be useful.

And his response to Nagito bullying himself was odd XD! He was the only one who actually cared, I took that to mean he might have his own self opinion issues? That he obviously hides a lot better (and overcompensates with his control measures, controlling situations, people's opinions, everything he can steer, he's going to try to do so).

Anyway... It might not have been that he was alarmed by Nagito saying those things about himself, you could absolutely be right? Nagito mentioned on his own that he wasn't able to locate anything about Kichi or his organization when he was looking into it... it's not a leap to assume he might have been paranoid that Nagito did find something, and was just lying about it.

Kichi accidentally told on himself with that odd response to Nagito disparaging himself XD!! Excellent observation! ♡♡♡

[grotessquerie]

(ignore this) Reasons for me to stay alive

trying 2 not kms gets harder day by day so ^_^ some may be triggering so be careful <3 hidden under cut because its kinda long

all the canes i could eat if i didn't die...

my friend is either gonna buy me a 12 pack of a&w zero sugar root beer OR a three finger combo from canes when he gets the money

my ex (for multiple reasons, most of which revolving around "he could love me again one day")

my friends who come to me when somethings wrong/they just wanna hang out bc they feel down

adding on to reason 4, those friends would have basically no one to talk to about their problems because You know they come to me for a reason (their other friends don't take it seriously, don't seem to care, dont listen/dont give good advice, their friends jst dont like talking abt stuff like that, et cetera yk)

i like masturbating idk

i like to look at my body sometimes like i love my boobs i love my hipbones and my ribs and my collarbone

sometimes i do think im pretty

i wanna dye my hair all the colors someday (maybe all at once or maybe not, but i WOULD like to know what its like to have blue hair and pronouns)

i wanna get a diagnosis for (or to confirm that i don't have) whatever could be wrong with me and ill have to be 18 to be diagnosed with two of the possible disorders (which im NOT)

i wanna read all the books i think look interesting

i wanna write all the stories i think would be cool

i gotta outlive my great grandpa

i wanna make new friends like me and show them that they are capable of being loved and that someone actually does care about them

i wouldn't be able to play the games i like if i died

i wouldn't be able to doomscroll

id never be able to talk about myself again

i don't wanna fail and then wake up with terrible fucking stomach cramps like i did last time

id lose my 800 almost 900 day snapstreak with my dad (YES i use snap and YES i keep my streak w my dad going like its life or death)

i wanna be able to cut myself elsewhere on my body and NOT have it limited to just one ankle

i wanna get better at rhythm games

i need to finish all the shows i started and never finished (and find new ones to watch)

i need to finish reading the manga i never finished (and find new ones to read)

i wanna make a drawing that's so good that im proud of

i need to make more bracelets and kandi and charms

i like to collect trinkets and if i died i wouldn't be able to

my baby blanket

my stuffed bunny (unnamed)

i actually love big red zero sugar :drool: so good

i still need to try all the different kinds of macaroni

i need to become fluent/conversational in other languages besides English and german

if i ever do move on from my ex, i wanna experience falling in love again and ill do it right this time

i still have so much love to give and so many tears to cry

i need to be nicole dollangangers #1 fan

i wanna listen to all the music and find new artists i like and new songs and everything

my momma :(

the little kitty thing i keep on my laptop (she js sits there, isnt connected or anything)

i wanna find more cute clothes to wear

i love jokes i love to laugh

i either wanna be able to see myself lose more weight or recover from my ed

i wanna be clean from sh someday

i wanna find new hobbies that i love

i NEED to read the entirety of The Meg series (yes this is separate from finding new books to read)

i NEED to rewatch The Meg and The Meg 2 until I've seen them both 100 times (i LOVE the meg)

the poptart flavors I've never tried

the zero sugar drinks I've never tried

the people i could meet in the future

the pets i could own in the future

giving myself a chance at recovery for everything (Ik i said it already but its alright)

i like naps

[conversewithmyconverse]

Three Cheers for sweet revenge plot song by song according to me

My credentials are that uhmm ive listened to this album like weekly since i was like 12 and uhm im taking english A-Level (crime and tragedy) sooooo

Full disclaimer i could do a line by line analysis on pretty much all of these songs but then this would be stupidly long so im just touching on the points or lyrics i think are most important for the plot! Oh and i cant spell and im trieddd of writing academic essays so im kinda yapping ngl

HELENA

honestly i barely have anything to say here but i imagine its the demo woman’s funeral (yes ik its abt Gerard ways grandma but let me cook) kind of setting the tone and exploring his grief, creating the circumstances for his deal with the devil - especially in the bridge.

GIVE EM HELL KID

Ok so here!! Is where i start to have more to say!! So in my head the man (im just gonna call them tje man and the woman or like he/she from here on) has accepted the deal with satan to kill 1000 evil men and is basically on a killing spree? So from my immense medical knowledge of watching house im preity sure epidrene is a steroid, which like gives him energy (interestingly ive been on them a few times for asthma and they have a long list of mental side effects such as uhhh mania (fall out boy whooo) anxiety and depression which maybe foreshadows his sorta insanity towards the end as his guilt haunts him) acting as a symbol of his immense motivation to see his wife again, so verse one especially is before his downfall where hes like yippee killing people to see my wife again!! The chorus i imagine is sang by both him and the woman in heaven as they both long for each other uhm and later on in the song it does seem as if hes begining to kind of loose it a bit due to his grief? kind of foreshadowing his well everything later on in the album. In the bridge i imagine hes kind of mocking their teenage selves (linking to im not okay later on) especially in the line “we are young and we dont care” criticicing their hopefullness by comparing it to their current circumstance - ironic as it only gets worse from here.

TO THE END

Now i know this is based on a rose for emily (i tried to read it and there were a LOT of slurs from what i remeber so that was yeah) but for the sake of my silly little narrative were kinda just not gonna touch on that. So here i believe the man has been set to kill this couple, just to find the wife has killed her husband (with the “cyanide you drank” i assume) which drives him into a sort of crisis, questioning if this was what would have happened to him and his wife if she had lived and they had stayed married for this long (fueling his sexuality crisis in prison). I could go so much further into this, especially language wise but for the sake of everyones sanity ill leave it here :)

YOU KNOW WHAT THEY DO TO GUYS LIKE US IN PRISION

so hes literally in the middle of a gunfight in the centre of a resturant and the police come and theyre like come with ur arms raised high and ok so!!! Theres many people who could explain this better than me but the man gets arrested for killing all these people and gets sent to jailllll. Ive heard some people talk about it as an allegory for SA in prison and others who talk abt it as him realising his gay/bi ect and honestly i can see both. I really like the line “too much to late or just not enough of this, pain in my heart for your dying wish, i kiss your lips again!” Which, running with the latter intrepretation, suggests hes feeling regret for all the murdering hes done and is questioning if he ever did love his wife this much, and if he should move on and fix his mistakes. So to make a long story short he has a sexuality crisis in prision! Toward the end, he escapes prision and with his “friends” from jail, lilely from setting it on “fire” (i got the friends bit from the lyric “but ill go down with my friends”) escaping jail but at the cost of further loosing his sanity and grasp on morality.

IM NOT OKAY (I PROMISE)

for conveniences sake he either gets knocked out (the giggles at the end of prision i guess beinf from a concussion or something?) or just like goes to sleep somehwhere after the prison break with the other ex inmates and has a flashback to his time in high school, when he fell in love with his wife. As an audienve were kinds like dude she did not like you back then calm down which makes us question the morality of his mission, but for him it reminds him of what hes fighting for and erases the doubt he had in their love in to the end and prison. I will say im kinda pidgenholing this in with the flashback but uhm yeah!

THE GHOST OF YOU

This song acts as a continuation of his grief, back in the present day after im not okay made him remember what he was doing this all for. This basically confirms his belief that killing all these people is right because he needs to see her again. He battles with his morality knowing that she should be “never coming home” cause shes dead but then considering the deal with satan and its morality asking himself “could i? Should i?”. Towards the end, it seems like he decides killing the men to bring her back is the right thing to do. the line “If i fall, down” seems to show his commitment to her regardless of morality, hes willing to ‘fall down’ to hell if it means he gets more time with her which is ironic as he later does go to hell, but never gets to see her again.

THE JETSET LIFE IS GONNA KILL YOU

and hes back to killing again!! I think “her killing jar” is a metaphor for his fixation on his wife and the things its driving him to do. Hes trapped as if he was in a jar by the deal he made with satan for her. Its kind of difficult to explain but essentially hes assuring himself that hes doing it all for her and its all worth it as his sanity slowly dissipates, which i believe is demonstrated through the lyric “pull the plug” kinda symbolising hes giving up on himself and dedicating everything to her. Now this is obviously unhealthily obsessive and is the point where we definately start to question if what hes doing is right - is he not essentially playing god now? Should one man act as judge, jury and executioner?

INTERLUDE

ok its literally just the interlude but here i beleive he is praying for god, the “saints”, to “protect” his wife in heaven further showing his like motive? For all of his murders - his love for her however dangerously codependant.

THANK YOU FOR THE VENOM

HE KILLS MORE PEOPLE 🔥🔥 its almost like he has to kill 1000 evil men damn. BUT now hes starting to loose his grip on reality and is killing innocent people. I like to think he goes to the church he married his wife in and starts killing people - hence the line “sister im not much a poet but a criminal” - hes changed completely from the man he once was. They try to convince him to like stop saying its not what his wife would have wanted but he does not listen - in the lyric “preach all you want but whos gonna save me” - and continues to spiral into a life of crime and implied addiction (when in the chorus he says “give me all your posion and give me all your pills”)

HANG EM HIGH

THIS!! This is the one i can never fully figure out despite it being so good 🙏🙏 it feels like a cop out to say he suddenly becomes a cowboy or idk has to kill a cowboy but any other way i can interpret it is just the same old back to mourning his wife and dedicating his life to her so uhm yeah take any of those 3 or your own and run with it (please tell me if you know how to make this fit better than me)

ITS NOT A FASHION STATEMENT ITS A FUCKING DEATHWISH

Hes now so deep into his mission he cant quit despite the regret he feels. This kind of links back to his mocking of their younger selves in give em hell through the lyric “do you remeber back there when we met you told me this gets harder, well it did!”. Hes kind of pondering how his life got this bad wishing it didnt have to be this way. however he believes they will soon be reunited - evidenced through lines such as “im coming back from the dead” and the repeated references to resserection and him finding his wife, “your running out of places, to hide from me”. At the end, he says “i lost my fear of falling, i will be with you”, further showing he thinks he will soon see his wife again and simmilarly to the ghost of you shows hes willing to sacrafice his soul just to see her again

CEMETERY DRIVE

trust me the fake music video in my head for this goes HARD. So he visits the cemetary where his wife is buried to kinda tell her in a way? That hes almost finished and he’ll see her soon. And in my like the cool cinemetic imaganary music video he dances with her ghost but uhm plot wise hes kinda lamenting how much he misses here as the chorus goes “i miss you, so far”. Now theres some confusion as to how she died as here it says “and they found you on the bathroom floor” but in i never told you it says “they gave us two shots to the back of the head” so i imagine he got caught up in some like bad stuff and they killed her in their home - the bathroom - which does add some depth to his grief as he feels responsable for her death hence why he wants to bring her back so bad. His dedication to her is reinforced through the lyric “so i wont stop lying wont stop dying” which as ive said a lottt shows his like questionably large levels of motivation in this mission from satan. The repetition of “way down” at the end foreshadows the twist in the next song - that he's going to hell - and this idea has been building up throughout the narrative but its reaching its peak now and we begin to see it as a serious possibility considering the innocent people he has killed alongside the guilty ones.

I NEVER TOLD YOU WHAT I DO FOR A LIVING

Aaaaand im realising ive made it all the way through this without even having to check the tracklist which shows that i lack a life! But anyways this song communicates the concept so well and i genuienly could line by line delve into it but for the sake of conciceness as i have been i will just cover the basic concept

OK SO! Hes metholodically getting through this list (im inferring he has a list from the line “i keep a book of the names”) kind of rushing through them, seen through the fast pace of the first verse, in my head it resembles a video montage of the murder of multiple people off of the list. This is further evidenced through the lyric “another knife in my hands” showing this has somehow become his everyday life as hes become so detached from normalicy in his grief. NOW NOW NOW the lyric “a stain that never comes off the sheets” is an allusion to lady Macbeth (I FREAKING LOVE SHAKESPEARE) (im a hamlet girl tho honestly) where she couldnt wash the blood off of her hands which is a common literary symbol for guilt showing his mission has taken a massive toll on him mentally if we did not already realise this. “It aint the money and it sure as hell aint just for the fame” implies he does not enjoy killing these people despite the fact hes killed probably over a thousand people which againnnn shows his dedication to his wife. Now i know ive said that about a billion times but thats important to consider when we take into account that he does not get to see her again - everything he did was essentially worthless, in fact if anything everything he did just sealed his fate. Therefore, if we view him as a tragic hero (i can go so much more into this but thats for another day) then his hamartia is his love for her, his loyalty which kinda gave him tunnel vision meaning he could not see the flaws his plan and the way he was being exploited by satan.

now theres so much symbolism in the lyrics i could discuss (I LOVE THIS SONG) but i will refrain and kinda skip forward to the bridge/the end. I like to think he turns the last page in his book of names to just see his own name and then begins to spiral - this is where the song goes “and we all fall down”. Im preitty sure gerard ways like screams say “i tried” which like furthers this breakdown as he comes to understand all the wrong he has done and his inevatatable damnation. After a large moral debate he thinks it would have been better if they were both killed together originally “never again / they gave us two shots to the back of the head” and he shoots himself in the hope he will eventually be with her in the afterlife, and if not then a life without her is not a life worth living anyways. It ends with the lyric “were all dead now” (which they are) which reminds me of the rhyme/ game from when i was a kid ring a rosies (which i swear is about the plauge) and how that ends by saying “we all fall down” kinda showing the corruption he brought into the world and that everything must come to an end. This is typical of a tragic hero - his anagorisis (realisation of his flaw / mistake) and then his death - which is why i personally do veiw this album as mostly conforming to troupes of traditional greek tragedy :).

aaaaand thats it!! I dont count bury me in black or desert song as part of the album plot uhhh if anyone else does id love to hear how that sounds so cool but yeah!!! Oh and sorry again for any typos and spelling errors i cannot spell for the life of me uhmm this could be so incoherent for all i know (if so sorry!!) but i hope not 😛

lmk if you’d actualy wanna hear the full yap poetry annotation style for a song cause i love nothing more if not talking i might do the same for danger days if i feel like it so watch out 🔥🔥

[the-kr8tor]

Okay I'm gonna make a list of fics you guys have wanted from me- ik that you guys want maid r x prince hobie, but anything else?>:)

Daily Hobie HC!

General HCs..but make them angsty edition MUHEHE

- (I will say this as many times as i can) Hobie HATES the silent treatment during an argument. Even if you communicate that you need alone time, he can understand, but completely shutting everything down he can't handle.

He feels like a little kid again, begging and pleading for someone to just listen to him, tears flowing down his face.

- If you both had an argument earlier, the same night Hobie will ask if he can cuddle you. He doesn’t sleep well on a day where you’ve argued, even if it was resolved, without feeling at least a bit of skin to skin contact.

- When the world is too much to bear, Hobie has a habit of sleeping for hours on end. Normally you’d have to wake him up and make sure he is taken care of.

- Hobie always tries his best to stay calm and keep his voice down if you two argue, not wanting to yell at you like he was yelled at, and to keep the conflict minimal.

- Used to hate people touching his head/hair due to being bullied. He’s gotten used to it with time, but still flinches ever so slightly if someone moves a bit too fast near it.

- Gets a little unsettled at the sound of glass breaking, specifically glass bottles.

-🐦‍⬛

SKATER HOBIE!!!!! And that one witch! R!!!! Those are the ones that popped up in my head hmm and maybe a siren! Hobie too?

Daily Hobie HC ❤️❤️❤️

NOOO WHAT'S UP WITH U GUYS AND ANGST TODAY

Trueee i agree with you! Like he would understand that you need time after arguing but he will not stand for silent treatment like he'd absolutely hate that and might just straight up take a walk outside for a bit and let you simmer in your own anger before he comes back to continue talking

I think he'd be the type to not sleep angry especially at you so he'll try to talk it out with you and if there's a need to apologize (on both ends) he will/ you will since he cannot stand to sleep away from you not when the last thing you talked abt is just anger hurled at eachother

Awww 🥹 i can just imagine r waking him up so he could eat and drink and then r will let him sleep again but on the couch this time so that little by little they get him up and running again

Yeah 🥹 i feel he'll never yell at you bc he knows the feeling of getting yelled at by someone you love

Hobie needs a hug fr

[damagedcoda6669]

Hey Lucifer, i'm sorry I am telling you this since ik you and Al are close, but that's exactly why i'm telling you this...

As you know, Al used to be in birdie drama spaces, and he still is, but just under an alt.

Remember the borderline 12 drama? Al made that happen to see how the public would react since he is planning bigger things. He wants to see how fast your "fans" will turn on you, and he wanted to see how many would defend you. He knew doing the borderline 12 thing would get you in trouble, he even was surprised with how well it went considering YOU posted it when he actually wanted to post it on his account and mention you drew it.

I know this since i'm also in birder drama servers, but I just think Al is taking it too far...

He is truly playing the long game and trying to solidify your trust within him so that those leaks that are happening cannot be traced back to him. Al has truly formed an attachment to you, but not in a good way.

That borderline 12 drama was also to test your loyalty to him and it worked since you believed that he meant no harm when all he truly did mean was to harm you. You may think Al is genuine and would never, but just try to analyze a few of his messages pertaining to birder drama.... that's all i'm going to allude to because I don't want him to know who i am. I don't want him to doxx me.

I will say, Al does share a lot of interests with you and he does find you fun to be around, but that's because he sees you as a toy instead of a person.

Just- please be careful with Al, he is betraying you behind closed doors and PLEASE don't listen to him when he says all the anon's are lying, they are just scared of him finding out because right now he is really favored in birdie drama spaces since he infiltrated you so well.

Ik you might not believe me since i said I was in birdie drama spaces and i will admit, i do talk bad about you.... However, I never leaked anything nor have I been involved in what Al has been doing. I am mainly a lurker and to gain trust in the birder servers I just regurgitate the hate everyone else has for you. I feel really guilty, which is why i'm writing you this.

Other's have spoken out in anon asks on your moraltonz account, and Al was really upset with them and tried doxxing them to get them out of the birdie servers he's in so his plans don't get foiled by them, since he knows you get paranoid easily. Al is really worried about you finding out about him, so I'm hoping you get to this ask.

You may believe it's people trying to ruin you Lucifer, but other asks that pretty much imply it's birdie haters was just a tactic used to try to get the people truly coming forward to be discreditable.

Also, read my username and think back to all the birdie drama and all the people involved. I won't say too much, but I hope you can get what I am alluding to. If not, it's ok.

TLDR;

PLEASE BE CAREFUL WITH AL, LUCIFER. Please.

It's disheartening what Al is doing to you, with all the leaks, with the ploys, with how he talks about you, and just with everything he is doing.

Al has not stopped interacting in birdie drama spaces, he lied to you.

I truly think Synni is your only friend, because even though she used to be in birdie spaces, I don't think she has an alt.

I'm sorry i'm telling you all of this considering how close you and Al are, I really am sorry he is doing this to you. /gen

the lengths u guys go 2 2 try 2 induce my paranoia/delusions n turn me against ppl u dont know is crazy. if this is true, if u actually cared abt me, use ur main. say it 2 my face. give me evidence. ALSO ADMITTING U SHITTALK ME AND ACTIVELY PARTICIPATE IN BIRDIE DRAMA SERVERS IS CRAAAZY. I AM NOT GOING 2 LISTEN 2 A WORD U SAY, U R JUST ADMITTING 2 BEING A BAD PERSON. if u feel sooooo guilty, why r u still there? if al was rlly leaking shit in these spaces, scs and evidence wouldve gotten back 2 me by now. itd have spread online and id be able 2 see artwork n images that i havent sent 2 anyone besides them. also??? stop misgendering them??? weird ass

anyway yeah, good lie, u fabricated an interesting story, but gimme some proof. gimme gimme i want those discord scs that dont exist *rubs my hands 2gether nefariously*

heh u dont know this but.. jotaro is leaking everything

[neversendmesadpb5editsbciwillcry]

someone PLEASE make an edit of pazzi with these songs (i’ve been cooking up a list and pls tell me if there alr some good ones w them) or a fic based on these songs i’ll explain which one for each i have an idea for lol and these songs are also just like play in the background while reading type thing too lol and tag me if you use these ideas pleaseee and im sorry if i repeat songs i tried my best not to lol

you are in love - taylor swift

close to you - gracie abrams

i love you i’m sorry - gracie abrams (i think there is one i just can’t find it again 😔)

make you mine - public

red wine supernova - chappell roan 💞❤️‍🔥

king of my heart - taylor swift

good luck babe - chappell roan (self explanatory atp)

afterglow - taylor swift (a to p)

daylight - taylor swift

cornelia street - taylor swift (like never going back to uconn if that makes sense or something stupid idk figure it out lol)

les - childish gambino 💞❤️‍🔥 (like they’re in the club or ted’s)

heartbeat - childish gambino ❤️‍🩹💞❤️‍🔥 (in the club or ted’s and paige is forcing azzi out of there bc she is ready to go yk lol and also she is sorta jealous of az getting hit on by guys after they got into a fight or just take the lyrics like that but end up good in the end)

electric touch - taylor swift (i’ve been thinking ab this for like ever and im too lazy to make my own edit lol and if it was a fic like explaining how whenever they touch each other or are near each other they get extreme butterflies lol)

i can see you - taylor swift

we fell in love in october - girl in red (explaining their love story kinda)

you belong with me - taylor swift (each lyric describing paige pining over azzi in high school while listening to azzi complain abt her boyfriend)

fearless - taylor swift

enchanted - taylor swift

here with me - d4vd (sweet moment at the beach or something like the album cover)

national anthem - lana del ray (paige being fascinated by az [who wouldn’t be])

tongue tied - grouplove (lyrics)

animal - neon trees (lyrics)

pink pony club - chappell roan (all of uconn wbb kinda like the ‘pink pony club’ would be uconn bc its like college and you can be yourself)

until i found you (em beihold version) - stephen sanchez (i hate happy couples)

boyfriend - dove cameron (jealous p before she found out she was in love w az)

hey there delilah - plain white tees (like imagine them writing letters back and forth)

slim pickins - sabrina carpenter (one shot of them doing the tiktok trend)

sweet nothing - taylor swift (i pretty sure there is one but i just can’t find it 😔)

lover - taylor swift

paper rings - taylor swift

the alchemy - taylor swift (lyrics)

guilty as sin? - taylor swift

style - taylor swift

wildest dreams - taylor swift

harvey - alex g (yk that tt trend w this song like that but it’s written out w azzi taking care of paige if that makes sense)

treehouse - alex g

ribs - lorde (young pazzi)

so american - olivia rodrigo

birds of a feather - billie eilish

picture you - chappell roan

guilty pleasure - chappell roan

she’s my collar - gorillaz

r u mine? - artic monkeys

lovers rock - tv girl

a kiss - the driver era

feel you now - driver era

yellow - coldplay

lovesong - the cure

just like heaven - the cure

friday i’m in love - the cure

apocalypse - cigarettes after sex

sunsetz - cigarettes after sex

linger - the cranberries

snow on the beach - taylor swift ft lana del ray

golden - harry styles

time to pretend - mgmt

kids - mgmt

disco - surf curse

invisible string - taylor swift

die with a smile - bruno mars ft lady gaga

beautiful boy - john lennon

sofia - clairo

kids - current joys

girls and boys - blur

sailor song - gigi perez (i alr know there’s a few but still yk)

pretty fly (for a white guy) - the offspring (more just for an edit for paige but still lol)

as it was - harry styles

livin la vida loca - ricky martin

closer - nine inch nails (for p really and ik someone will make it lol)

lunch - billie eilish

love story - taylor swift

delicate - taylor swift

mastermind - taylor swift

bags - clairo

glue song - beabadoobee

watch you sleep - girl in red

california girls - the beach boys

don’t trust a hoe - 30h!3

my strange addiction- billie eilish

love me anyway - chappell roan

bad kids - black lips (more of a whole uconn wbb edit song)

my love mine all mine - mitski

the great war - taylor swift

piano man - billy joel (i think i have to explain it bc it sounds like it’ll be sad which yes in my head it would be but also sweet like the lyrics ‘bill i believe this is killing me’ but instead of bill it would be azzi and the clip would be p at the bench when she couldn’t play w her torn acl [im sorry 😓] and and it would just be a sad edit really of p like not playing with az the whole time there tg and how she’s leaving and their injuries)

i love you so - the walters (bittersweet leaving for the wnba)

pretty girls - renee rapp

not my fault - renee rapp (more of an azzi edit just like fun and girly yk)

never grow up - taylor swift

how you get the girl - taylor swift

i wanna be your girlfriend - girl in red

girls - girl in red

say anything - girl in red

juna - clairo

after midnight - chappell roan

kaleidoscope- chappell roan

i invented sex - trey songz ft drake

ecstasy (slowed) - suicidal-idol

cupids chokehold/breakfast in america - gym class heroes

the adults are talking - the strokes

talk too much - coin

mr brightside - the killers

somebody told me - the killers

agora hills - doja cat

freak - doja cat

chemistry - gigi perez

fable - gigi perez ❤️‍🩹(p)

mirrorball - taylor swift

tumblr girls - g-eazy

nobody gets me - sza

love language - sza

halley’s comet - billie eilish

my boo - usher feat alicia keys

iris - pastel ghost

ocean eyes - billie eilish

it’s nice to have a friend - taylor swift

i think he knows - taylor swift

all the stars - kendrick lamar ft sza

sidelines - phoebe bridgers

teenage girl - cherry glazer

every breath you take - the police

teenage dirtbag - wheatus

dress - taylor swift

no. 1 party anthem - artic monkeys

last nite - the strokes

505 - artic monkeys

why’d you only call me when you’re high - artic monkeys

guess - charli xcx ft billie eilish

anxious - ginuwine

white girl - shy glizzy

wrong way - sublime

you’re invited - the dare

girls - the dare

just can’t get enough- depeche mode

the diner - billie eilish

pretty boy - the neighbourhood

femininomenon - chappell roan

cake by the ocean - dnce

please me - cardi b and bruno mars

sweater weather - the neighbourhood

you get me so high - the neighbourhood

21 guns - green day

symphonia IX - current joys

oxytocin - billie eilish

need a freak - mighty bay

hot demon b!tches near u ! ! ! - corpse

pornstar - nessa barrett

everlong - foo fighters

we are the people - empire of the sun

call it what you want - taylor swift

so i’m too lazy to explain the rest of them so pls message me if you want me to elaborate bc i have so many ideas im just too lazy to write them out here lol and i might come back later to write out some explanations too

[adoriwintry]

WE MUST TALK ABOUT COARLLLL

I feel like they wasted the potential of the scene in the church where Rick talks to Carl about not letting his guard down. And they also kinda fucked up Carl's character development (Even tho I haven't finished the show yet, I feel like they could've done better with Carl around season 4-season 5).

Post-Outbreak

Carl Grimes is the son of Rick Grimes (main character) and Lori Grimes. He was around eight (?) during the outbreak. Rick was shot and put in hospital before going out to find Carl and Lori. At first, Carl was written as just an innocent kid that Rick would protect (also being the reason he pushes through: to be there for Carl). But then, Carl also probably had some influence from being with Shane (Rick's old bestie) during Rick's absence. Shane was kinda violent and someshit so that probably influenced Carl to become more rebellious when he grew up.

Oh yea, we can't forget, after Judith was born in the prison, Carl had to shoot his own mother after she died to prevent her from turning. This was trauma too.

First Prison Attack from Woodbury

During the first prison attack, Carl shot a young man who posed no threat because he lowered his gun. And then, Carl lied to his father about it. This was probably under the pressure of doing his job and convincing himself that he actually did something to protect the prison. As a result, Rick took his gun away.

Prison Destroyed

During the final prison attack, which destroyed the prison and seperated the people, Carl ended up with an injured Rick, making them both vulnerable to attack. Carl was mad and blamed his father for the destruction of the prison. This caused him to scout for food on his own with bravery and foolishness. But this didn't scare him nearly as much as other things.

When Carl thought Rick was dead, he immediately took back his harsh words and even surrendered to being bit by him. But lol turns out Rick wasn't dead. Then Michonne found them.

Claimers Attack and Its Effects

When the three of them made camp, they were met up by Daryl and the Claimers. THIS is the event that scared Carl more than any walker he's encountered. (He was around 14 maybe?)

Since then, Carl was hesitant to go by himself. When the group reunited and they heard a voice screaming (Gabriel), Carl wanted to help. But instead of charging over by himself as he usually did, he stayed put and waited for his father to come with him. And he stayed in the church and took care of Judith just like his father told him to. He actually listened.

My Concerns

Like only up until then, his trauma actually affected his character. But there was never a moment where Carl and his dad actually had a real talk about it. During their talk in the church, I think it would be better if Carl actually opened up about what happened rather than the writers having him say some bs abt "I'm strong, we're strong, we should help Gabriel cuz he seems like a good person."

Also, during early Alexandria, for some weird reason, Carl suddenly had no problem fitting in with the other kids. Even as far as following another kid outside the wall like his earlier fear was gone. This made me feel like his earlier trauma was just brushed off (they kinda focused more on the other characters' trauma) ike it didn't pose any obstacle for making connections with others, almost like they wanted Carl to just revert back to the innocent treasure that Rick needs to protect along with Judith.

In short, I love Corl and relate to him a lot so I feel like his trauma and character development could've been handled better. 🫶

[sugar-omi]

good lord I was trying to study but out of nowhere I know where🩸this came into my mind:

having a night in at ur grown up house w cove derek and baxter (only dating cove) and everyone gets wasted asf so they sleep over and late at night the other two can hear u and cove in ur bedroom 👀 ykwim?

the smut and angst potential of them getting off to listening to u two from their respective guest rooms and the irony of both ur guests doing it omggggggg 🫣

in the morning neither of them can properly look at u two out of shame and u and cove r just embarrassed cause u think it’s just cause they heard u (and ofc ur only half right)

these ideas fr come to me at the worst time lol

-🗑️

I AM SCREAMING. YOU'RE SO BRILLIANT I CAN'T.... derek would really try not to, but i feel like it'd end up seeping into his dreams and he just can't resist. and baxterrrr omg... he'd be so embarrassed n ashamed, i dont think he'd be able to sleep the rest of the night at all, even once you n cove are done... pls you sent this at the perfect time bc i was about to start writing n i cannot focus until i write this now, i must have this in a fic.. n ik it isn't what you're talking about, but this is also so good n i instantly thought abt this scenario. i will take ANY chance for derek n baxter to fall in love or into bed LOL

tags : NSFW, baxter x derek, one night stand (UNLESS), you and cove drink, auralism*, oral (derek receiving), top/dom baxter, bottom derek, derek has a crush on you/MC, baxter has a thing for both of you or maybe he's just a kinky bastard

*to be aroused by sound. (can be compared with voyeurism)

synopsis : baxter and derek are staying with you for an extended vacation (much needed for both of them.) and while you two have been considerate and lovely hosts, you're a bit loud... not that it's a problem. quite the opposite actually..

imagine baxter is pouring himself a glass of wine, unable to get your and cove's muffled moans out of his head.

he's generous with his pouring, since everyone already had a lot to drink during dinner, being reserved is unnecessary.

baxter tips back his cup, licking his lips, savoring the sweet taste of this wine, humming at the taste. not bad..

he's checking the label, wanting to remember the brand so he can add it to his shelves at home.

"oh."

baxter looks up, tired eyes wide at the sudden guest. he's met with derek's wide eyes, equally tired..

baxter gives a lopsided smile, trying to be friendly with his new friend. he gestures to the barstools across from him, "care to join me?"

derek rubs his neck shyly, "ah, i wouldn't want to impose. i just came for some water.."

baxter shakes his head, leaning back on the island, taking a sip of his wine. if he knew he'd have company, he wouldn't have poured so much at once.

he licks his lips, trying not to eye his glass to see if it looks like an reasonable amount of wine. trying to preserve his put together image is fruitless anyway, baxter is a hot mess walking and you could probably smell his issues all the way from france.

"nonsense, i wouldn't mind company. the best conversations are best shared under the stars, i'd say. although, i won't blame if you're going bak to bed." baxter laughs to himself humorlessly. "probably a better idea than getting drunk again."

derek laughs, "well, if you don't mind the company then.." and goes about grabbing some water before sitting across from baxter, trying to be quiet when he drags out the barstool.

there's a stretch of silence between them, the two of them sipping their drinks and baxter plays off his awkwardness by admiring the photo collage in the hallway, visible through the wide doorway.

baxter turns back to derek, who's holding his water with both hands, dozily looking into the glass. he looks up and is surprised to meet baxter's sharp gaze, but plays it off with a smile.

baxter speaks lazily, his movements languished and his bones heavy. he's feeling warm from the wine, and a bit chatty. "couldn't sleep either, huh?"

derek laughs, "that obvious?"

baxter shrugs, speaking around the lip of his wineglass. "i figured we're in the same boat."

derek stills, his cheeks slowly filling red, and he looks up, trying to figure out if he's trying to say he also heard you and cove doing... it. the other night.

baxter bounces his eyebrows, and that makes derek flush brightly, looking down. "y-yeah, i guess we are.."

he laughs, covering his mouth to muffle the noise.

derek seems to relax a bit at his amusement, and eventually they relax a bit more, and baxter goes on to tell derek more of his wedding horror stories when he asks.

they're laughing, trying to muffle the sound with their hands when they get too loud, and baxter is leaned over the counter, rambling to derek as softly as possible.

baxter signs and shakes his head, a smile still on his lips as he takes another sip. he's definitely getting buzzed again.

and at some point baxter even sits next to him and derek seems to greatly enjoy baxter's open laughter and his wide gestures as he narrates his stories, even throwing up his own chaotic stories about what it was like growing up with his brothers.

"hey.." derek calls, and baxter hums curiously in response. "does that taste good?"

baxter raises his brow but tips his glass towards derek. "it is. it has notes of peach and honey... wanna try?"

derek glances between baxter's eyes and the wine, nodding, taking the glass from his hands and taking a long sip...

baxter's eyes are stuck on derek's lips, his eyes following how his throat bobs when he swallows and his tongue dashes out to lick the wine running down the corner of his lips..

baxter snaps his eyes back towards derek's, who's already looking back at him.

the silence seems long, and the distance between derek and baxter's lips seems even longer, and he feels antsy even though they're both leaning in, their lips meeting in the middle in a soft kiss.

derek deepens the kiss, leaning into baxter, and humming into the kiss when baxter starts rubbing his thigh, his fingers sliding down th fabric of his sweatpants until he's touching his inner thigh, dangerously close to his bulge..

a moan echoes, and baxter and derek break apart, panting and their lips wet and swollen. then they hear it again, and some muffled talking.

they look into each others eyes, unable to move. they're both wide awake now, both because of that hot kiss and the sounds of cove's deep, and futile muffled moans.

their chests rise and fall, tension in the air, mingling with something else...

derek speaks first, taking baxter's hand before he can pull away. "do you... should we go to your room?"

baxter blinks owlishly, shocked and flustered. but really fucking turned on.

"yes, yeah, yeah okay.." he stumbles his words, totally knocked off his feet by the way derek looks at him, his green eyes deep with lust, and the whole turn of events.

derek leads him down the hall, and baxter is grateful he didn't somehow knock over the barstool or the flower vase in the hall.

they walk past your shared bedroom, baxter's designated room for his stay, at the end of the hall.

baxter tries to ignore the way his cock throb when he hears cove curse and growl, "fuck, you're so warm..." he tries not to think about it, but the idea of what you two are getting up to, how you both look and sound, what you're doing to each other...

he's trying not to let his mind run away with him but he's admittedly, a weak man. and so is derek, if the way he clutches his hand tighter and all but shoves baxter through the door and closes the door a bit louder than he should.

you and cove always drown out all other forms of life when you're together, and baxter doubts it's much different in the bedroom, if not "worse."

derek pushes baxter to sit on the bed, standing over him, his legs on either side of baxter's lap and he pulls off his shirt, throwing it on the floor.

baxter licks his lips, his hands sliding up derek's waist and stomach, his body thick and toned with muscles... "goddamn..." baxter exhales, all but drooling at the sight.

derek laughs shyly, lifting his arm to rub his neck (a nervous tick baxter has come to realize) and the muscles in his arm stretches and flex. baxter has a distant thought about derek being able to manhandle him...

"is this okay?" derek asks, suddenly shy now.

baxter nods, leaning in to kiss along derek's bronze stomach, his lips trailing down his happy trail to his bulge. "more than okay.."

baxter tugs on derek's sweatpants, looking up at him. "let me know if you want to stop..."

he tugs down derek's pants and underwear, letting his cock spring free. baxter strokes his cock to full mast, and derek holds onto baxter's hand for support, his other hand coming up to muffle his moan.

baxter wraps his lips around derek's flushed tip, sucking and circling his tongue over the head.

"b-baxter..." derek gasps, his thighs shaking.

baxter takes him deeper down his throat, keeping eye contact as he swallows around his cock, reaching down to palm his own bulge through his satin pajamas.

he groans, the vibrations sending shivers up derek's spine and derek mumbles, his fingers finding their way to baxter's hair, clinging onto the already messy locks.

baxter tears his hand away from his hard-on, to undo the buttons on his pajama shirt, the buttons slipping through his fingers until his shirt is wide open.

"mhm-!" baxter startles, gripping onto derek's thighs, his hips bucking up into his warm mouth.

derek moans shakily, "oh f- i'm sorry. sorry.." he babbles, pushing back baxter's fringe, his thighs twitching and his muscles clenching under baxter's hands.

baxter hums around derek's length, patting his thigh. his tongue drags along the underside of his cock, baxter's lips pulling off him with a pop, his lips wet and puffy.

baxter's sharp, lustful eyes meeting derek's equally horny gaze. derek's flushed cheeks are a feast for baxter's eyes, he can't wait to have him in bed..

"do you.. wanna go further?" baxter asks, his hand making obscene wet noises from all the pre-cum and spit, as he strokes derek's cock in his fist.

derek nods, his throat bobbing as he tries not to fall to his knees or cry out and alert you and cove to what they're doing in here.. "yes, please.."

baxter pulls away, standing up to tug off the rest of his clothes while derek tugs off his pants, almost tripping when the leg gets stuck on his ankle but baxter ignores it since he's not very elegant either, the wine still buzzing through him.

he throws his clothes on the floor, all but throwing himself into the bed with derek, straddling his lap as he captures his lips in a kiss, his tongue slipping past derek's lips, guiding his tongue to move with his own.

derek grips baxter's waist, his hands pulling him down to grind him into his lap, their cocks sliding together.

baxter breaks the kiss, his lips falling to derek's neck...

"cove- cove- cove!" your cry is heard through the wall, followed by muffled moans and whimpers.

"ah!" derek moans, his fingrs digging into the plush of baxter's hips when he bites down on his neck.

"oh- sorry. did i hurt you?" he worries, kissing the area soothingly. he didn't expect you to.. cry out so loudly. not that you aren't allowed to be loud in your own home, or anything like that. he just didn't think you'd sound so hot.

he's trying not to think about if he wishes it was his name on your lips, or what cove is doing to make you call his name so loudly and lewdly...

derek shakes his head, or tries too with baxter under his chin. "i mean, it hurt but.. it wasn't bad..." derek admits shyly.

baxter smiles, pulling off his neck to kiss his lips again, smiling too much to kiss properly but they have all night for that anyway...

he leans over the edge of the bed for his bag, fumbling through the open inner pocket for a condom and lube.

it's not that baxter planned to get laid on this trip, it's just bad to be unprepared.

"do you want to be on top?" baxter inquires, pointing the condom at derek.

he flushes, licking his lips and glancing off to the side. "um.. if you don't mind, you can be on top..."

baxter raises his brows, a blush high on his cheeks.

ohh derek really is interesting.

"not at all." baxter purrs, fixing their position so one of derek's legs is on his shoulder, and the other over his thigh.

he slowly sinks one, then two, then three digits into derek's hole, scissoring his fingers and rubbing derek's thigh soothingly. he's such a mess just from his fingers alone, derek's face half buried in the pillow and his hips bucking up and his thighs shaking.

"that's-" derek pants, swallowing thickly. "that's enough... put it in.. please..." he gasps, peeking at baxter through his lashes.

"fuck..." baxter curses, his stomach dipping with lust.

he fumbles, trying to open the condom but his fingers are covered in lube and he ends up ripping it with his teeth impatiently. baxter rolls it over his length, leaning over to pull derek into a kiss as he sinks into him.

"hmmn!" derek mewls into the kiss, his arms coming to lock around baxter's neck.

baxter slams his hips into derek, a loud slap sounding through the room from baxter's hips meeting his ass. baxter breaks the kiss, hissing.

that was definitely too loud, but it's also been so long since he's been with someone, and derek is so charming, that he's not sure he cares..

derek moans, trying to stifle it by biting his lips.

they pant, letting derek adjust to his length and for them to catch their breath, baxter feels like the air has been knocked out of him with how derek's hot walls are wrapped around him, his hole clenching and flutter around him, trying to take him deeper.

"mn, y/n-" cove voice is muffled, keeping them from hearing the rest of his sentence. although it was probably cut short, if the deep groan they hear through the wall is anything to go by.

baxter pants, "i'm.. i'mma start moving..." he gasps, moving so he's sitting up again, his hand pushing derek's knee up towards his chest.

derek covers his mouth with his hand, baxter's cock dragging so slowly against his walls, his eyes rolling and fluttering shut when his tip bumps against a sensitive spot in his walls, dangerously close to his prostate..

"harder!- ha- oh fuck!" you curse and moan unabashedly loud, followed by your bed frame thumping against the wall.

it quiets down to some creaking, with dull thumps every now and then.

baxter picks up the pace of his thrusts, spurred on by all your sounds from the other room and derek's lewd expressions.

derek whimpers, his moans and cries barely muffled by his hand and when baxter's hips slam into his repeatedly, he can't hold onto his barrage of moans and whines, babbling nonsense.

baxter leans over him, forcing his legs against his chest so he can whisper in derek's ear, stuffing his fingers down derek's throat, his middle and ring fingers pressing on his tongue.

"shh, darling. they'll hear us..." baxter purrs, although he laughs and nods his head to the side, "although, i think being quiet is a bit useless for all of us at this point."

derek whimpers around baxter's fingers, drool pooling in his mouth. he closes his lips around the digits and sucks, swallowing, dragging his tongue along baxter's fingers seductively..

"god." baxter grunts, his face scrunching up in pleasure.

his hips thrust up into derek's g-spot, his thrusts shallow as they both get closer and closer to finishing.

baxter pulls his fingers from derek's lips, a string of spit connecting derek's lips to the digits before it breaks, his hand slipping between their bodies to stroke derek's weeping cock, pre-cum pooling along the valley of his abs...

baxter captures derek in a sloppy kiss, neither of them really trying to hold back their sounds anymore. and from the sounds of it, you and cove aren't worried about being quiet either, your moans more frequent and totally unrestrained.

"i'm gonna-" derek pants, his nails dragging down baxter's shoulder.

"go ahead. cum. cum for me." baxter growls, his hand abusing derek's sensitive tip, making short strokes.

derek's legs shake on either side of him, his eyes rolling as he cums into baxter's hand. baxter groans, his hips stuttering as derek clenched around him, filling the condom.

they melt into each other, their chests rising and falling, and their heavy breathing match.

baxter turns his head to the side, seeing the sky turn from night to early morning..

"i'll.." he pants, pushing himself off derek's chest. "i'll run a bath... wanna join me?"

[vivivillian]

some of my MANY Nanami headcanons lmk if you all want relationship ones,cos trust me....I HAVE MORE!- Toko

彡 Listened to MCR in highschool and he def freaked out over the reunion

彡 Will not read horror books, he already faces life and death at his job ((BBG plz retire i luv u <3333))

彡 Had a bad habit of idly snacking when he was working at his desk

彡 IF he played video games his favorite would be smth more story-driven like Ace Attorney ((Trials and Tribulations or Investigations 2))

彡 Recommended The Hunger Games movies to Yuji ((Jennifer Lawrence plays Katniss))

彡 Married to me- WHAT WHO SAID THAT?!?!?!?11/?!?/1

彡 His favorite book is The Time Machine by H.G Wells ((I recommend it, great older book! Kind of a commentary on society...? idk im shit at explaining things go read it))

彡 Biromantic Demisexual <3 ((queer king))

彡 Since I mentioned his music taste in the first one, imma just say it. He listens to Chappell Roan and Lana Del Rey. ((But Vivi, The first one didnt exist mainstream till 2023. Yes. Ik. I DONT CARE.))

彡 annnddd thats it for now, next post will be abt how he interacts w/ my jjk oc Blitz and some of their CANON shenanigans. I hope you liked my simp ramblings- Toko

Its 2:47 when i type this and im listening to the Gehnna project sekai cover hehe <3 'we have no choice to live' dear boy stop making sob mizuena yuriiii ((silly))

Reblogs appreciated!

[lazarusrisingx]

pretty sfw post, just yandere caleb

summary : just me rambling abt caleb with a disabled baddie (me) idk wtf im talkin abt tbh im in a lot of pain rn.

okay yeah part of me is like ‘no! caleb! dont kidnap me and keep me with you forever rah thats bad ahhh!!’

but then im also like

so you mean id get to stay home… cook whenever i want (cooking is my special interest i love cooking) play video games… he would probs make the house easy to maneuver in and everything tbh… and just wait for you to come home and take care of me like the little prince i am!!?? and omg i just know he would make that kitchen so violently accesible for me so that i can do what i love and not cause my pain to flare up or havw the standing/sitting down make my heart rate spike and make me get dizzy like ik he would do it in a heart beat

your telling me id get the colonels top doctors and top medical care, that i wouldnt have to go into the hell hole that is a hospital to get my infusions? or get my check ups? or my blood drawn? that he would just send them straight to the house to come check on me and get my meds adjusted when they needed it and have the script ready within 30 mins???

YOUR TELLIN ME!!!! That I would be able to have a sexy obssesed robot man to lay on when he comes home and he will rub my back and probs learn to do massages on my spine to help reduce my leg pain and back pain???!!! that i could just be kept in a safe room, not have to worry about talking to people and have the overstimulation of the outside world and people shoved into my face, that i wouldnt have to go anywhere alone, that i could just turn my brain off and not have to be responsible and just exist to be loved on and taken care of and have my pain listened to and treated.

yeah… yeah that sounds nice right aboit now.

i feel loke yandere caleb woild become a specialist in my medical conditions over night and log my symptoms and my high and low days and track the progress of my infections to know when i need to go get antibiotics again, track my pain levels so he knows exactly how to make me the most comfortable, he would design a HEAVENLY shower room for me so when i need to get in the shower cause im in a vomiting cycle or i just need hot hot water all over my body to ease my joints and stiffened legs id be able to do so in the most comfortable shower possible. so i can get releif that only opiods would be able to give me. that he woild make it so accesible for me that i woildnt have to stand under the water even when om dizzy and my heart is racing, that i could comfortably lay on the floor and prop my feet up under the hot water to calm my tachycardia and get the blood that pools in my legs out.

idk it just sounds so amazing right now im in so much pain from my spine and my period and my fuckin heart doesnt know how to not beat at 130 bpm all i wanna do is get in a heavenly shower and be babied and have my forehead kissed and not have to deal with my disabilities just have it all taken care of for me and i feel like yandere caleb would do just that. yall can fight me on that fr