#and now im like. why was I so “familiar”?
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rini-yaki · 2 days ago
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A Natural Love.
ꕥ You died in the fire that ruined his life, he felt like he failed you, but of course, you came back as an angel to prove him wrong. <fluff, angst w/ comfort>
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extra: the biggest thing about this is that im scared shitless that i might change themes so when im colorful and people read this, it'll be monochrome and people will think its OLD... or something im crazy + THIS IS PART 1!! IM GONNA TRY TO DO ALL THE SAJA BOYS
male! reader x mystery
MASTERLIST | Baby | Abby | Jinu | Romance
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Mystery sat in front of his makeshift grave of you again.
He always came to this little home made altar and sat in front of it in your honor whenever he felt stressed, or if he felt like he was succumbing to becoming a true demon. And today just happened to be one of those bad days.
Fangs were bared, claws of his own dug into familiar lilac skin, temper’s flaring at nothing, patterns igniting with his uncontrolled emotions, violent flashbacks into his less than ideal past, then he remembers you. And shakes the shame off as much as he could.
‘No.. he wouldn’t like to see me like this…’ He thought.
You were his coworker in the past. A boy who seemed like he was sick from a young age, always coughing, always weaker than the average man, and yet, you still worked alongside him. Working just as hard to make a life for yourself, in the same way he was trying. You were the one who taught him the ropes of the job as well as being the person he spent the most time around in terms of humans.
It’s no wonder you guys got along so well, the two of you had bonded so well that he went as far as to show you his animal found family, and it seemed like the animals liked you too. And despite being in the village longer and being occupied with your sickness, you were so accommodating to him, always inviting him over to join the activities.
And even throughout the town, you were well liked amongst the villagers, seen as a hard worker in spite of your illness and a kind boy who always taught new hand games to the children. It was always natural that you were a well liked figure.
But he never cared about those things, you were just so nice to him, always the first one to mention and include him in a way no human had done for him in the past before.
Mystery, or better known as Seung back then, would always try to make you comfortable with your sick body because as years spurred on into your young adult years, your condition had worsened even further. 
Becoming bedridden at nineteen, you spent all your time in your home. Bad timing honestly because it was around this time where the villagers you grew up around started having a personal grudge against your friend.
Rumors of Seung being a beastly child and a curse spread even further when whispers of him being the reason why you were bedridden spread and only tainted his reputation further. And without you to hear any of this, you were just as oblivious as he was.
And with your move to a house closer to the wild forest as a measure made to keep you quarantined after your condition grew worse.
But it didn’t matter if Seung heard what they thought of him, his crush’s condition was getting even worse.
That’s right chat, somewhere in the sandstorm of his life events, Mystery had developed feelings for you. Your jokes and light personality never failed to brighten his day, you always sought him out and made sure he was alright. Care was always something Mystery was unfamiliar with, but it felt so natural when it came from you.
So to see you become restrained to the bed, his heart swelled with overprotectiveness, you put so much effort into him to feel simply welcomed and constantly included. So now it was his time to pay you back for all your kindness.
But then came the fateful day where everything he had built burned to the ground. Literally.
Seung was feeding his animals as usual until suddenly his hut had set ablaze. Burning everything inside and nearly him, he had narrowly escaped when one of the boars shoved him out as if it was trying to save him… which only breaks his heart even more.
Then his eyes caught sight of a wildfire, the forest where he came from and spent years in, his animal family was surely burnt to crisps now. But that wasn’t even the worst part.
Whether it was by accident or not, your abode has also caught fire too, and by the time he raced over, the entire house was in flames. The bright fire and warmth felt like it was mocking Mystery, burning the ends of his hair, he raced to grab a pail of water.
Barely managing to extinguish the fire on the door he raced inside, catching sight of your deceased body. He lost it.
And by ‘it’, I mean his humanity.
You were a partial reason as to why he became a demon, and when Gwi-Ma said he couldn’t guarantee that he could bring you back to life, he agreed to make the villagers into animals for him to eat which turned his fate into something tragic and demonic.
Going back to the present day, as usual, he kneels in front of your grave and mumbles prayers of apologies. You’ve been his anchor for centuries, always been and will continue to be his anchor. You're the reason why he hasn’t fully surrendered to his demon nature.
He refused to lose himself in all the madness, thinking that if you saw him like this, you’d be disgusted, disappointed, angry with him. And he never wanted to warrant any of those negative emotions from you to him. So he did everything in his power to keep his composure.
So imagine his surprise when he felt the imperceptible change in temperature. Light waves of warmth engulfed him from the back, his back entirely touched with this light embrace.
His head shoots up and turns to the side, surprised and his guard on high. 
But all he sees is… you.
Slightly translucent with the ends of your fingertips being near to nonexistent, a soft glow that borders on your body, outlining you to stand out in the gloomy landscape of the demon underworld.
But what sticks out the most is the halo at the top of your head as well as the pearl white wings that stick out from your back.
Your expression was kind, a lilt in your lips and a shine in your eyes that has been forgotten in Mystery’s mind. Your cheeks puffed from your smile, a light giggle when you saw his reaction to you.
He swivels his body around and hugs you, breaking his strong demon composure immediately. His arms wrapping around under your arms as you hugged the area around his upper abdomen due to your slight height difference.
“I thought I’d never see you again!” he screams into your shoulder. Your arms only pat his back, only reminding him further that you are here, with him.
You brush your hands through his hair, squeezing him tighter as you feel your own tears staining your face. The two of you curl your arms, pulling the other in like two trees that grew too close to each other, intertwining themselves into nature’s landscape.
A strange phenomenon in the grassy world, but a stranger one here. In a world that has been littered with regrets and hate, you, an angel that lives in clouds and eats naked babies with wings, loving him as a demon. It’s absurd.
But that doesn’t make it any less real.
When his face finally tilts to you again, you brush his slightly damp bangs away, showing the upper half of his face. Skin that had flames of a dark hue that represented his burn scars from the fire that ruined his life, the most sensitive part of him, now open.
Your hand rests on the side of his cheek as you look down at him so lovingly, it breaks his heart to see you again. Your touch and your gaze, it tells him everything.
An unspoken confession that was mumbled by the flutter of your wings and the tears that looked like tear drop shaped pearls that landed on his clothes, the subtle flush on your face and he found solace in your neck.
It’s easy to say and understand that Seung was so enthralled to see you again, even if you both were doomed by the narrative, there’s no way the two of you could love the same way you would’ve loved back then.
But that wouldn’t matter, Mystery would love new for you. He’d been yearning for you for centuries, and he would love you with every inch of his body, down to the last cell that swam in his crooked body.
Mystery promised himself in that moment, where your lips finally met his, that the next natural force that was going to sweep you away was going to be him.
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softness-and-shattering · 6 months ago
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#overthinking a shitty interaction fromna few days ago#ppl talking about me in the notes as if I wasnt there#someome said 'why is he being so familiar?'#i was talking like i normally talk. going for generally empathetic and understanding with an amount of snark bc they were being rude#i shouldnt have engaged to begin with but I was like oh i have good proof to refute this nonsense claim#forgot for a hot second that with some people its about their enotions and what they want to do with it and not. facts#nit like problemnsolving rather than listening it was a bullshit trans discourse claim based on very little of substance#and now im like. why was I so “familiar”?#i dont think I was overly familiar. idk if they were upset I wasnt rising to their bait and being aggressive so they could fight me#such a weird thing#also ran across a pill that makes you green comic with one of those guys who divert conversations like why are you trans im worried about#your mental health must be causing your transness friendo buddy bud my bestie#i dont think I was doing that#they were also really grasping at straws to misinterpret me which I think means I did a decent job being kind#im just spinning about it bc sleep is really eluding me#i should just forget about it#why is he so familiar?? am i supposed to talk like a formal fedora mlady dude?? am I just expected to be an aggressive asshole?#interact like its a legal proceeding??#i have no idea#hopefully now ive got it out i can think about something else#bc it was a totally ffuitless cinversation except as a reminder to not get involved in absurd and spiteful discourse!#tbh a bunch of recentish pills that make you green was making me uncomfortable but the metaphor is abstract enough that I cant logic through#where my disagreement is. just the vibes were kinda of....exclusionary? in ways I cant fully out my finger on?#im just q bit sad disappointed is all cause I have liked them before#i need to find something to do. if youve got this far can you reccomend me a good sleep podcast? doesnt need to be A Sleep Podcast TM#just white noise basically to keep my brain busy that doesnt matter if I only hear pieces of it#have a good one ❤#mine
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astranauticus · 1 year ago
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Director of the False Last Act
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ch1zzie · 1 year ago
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The original in the bottom
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Plus the picture I mainly drew but decided to draw the rest for funny
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#thats not my neighbor#milk man#just tried to draw something in my mind to post along with saying some updates#monday the people are gonna give my grandma the keys to the house! while i have to stay at my aunts place for wifi for school#(online school)#my moms gonna be moving things out of storage into the house! AAAA I CANT WAIT#also little welcome home update#im not sure if i said here? wait nevermind i just remembered while typing (it was that i got barnaby and the pins) AAA silly me#also im making a little julie out of clay (if i wake up and their messed up i am NOT redoing that😭)#the legs are a little messed up because julie was gonna be the size of an hatsune miku figure on accident so i chose to shorten her a bit#only because im not sure if im gonna make the others too AND because theres no way hes gonna be THAT tall😭#also! im making easter art#yes its barnaby and wally again just for fun! but a few changes like keeping their regular outfits because i cant think of anything else!!!#why not the ones in the old easter drawing? welllll a follower said that wallys outfit looked a bit familiar to another not so good thing#it wasnt on purpose just an accident because i hadn't notice BUT im glad i know now so i can be more careful!#im not sureeee if im gonna finish the easter art OR the julie clay thingy but I'd love too! and honestly HOPE to#high chance i will (well maybe the easter art could be late or not)#maaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAA trying to think if theres anything else but cant! ill try posting this hoping my wifi wont hate me...#also i know i said this account was for welcome home posting but i didnt have any cool welcome homey things to put here gahhhhh#ehehehhe once i get my new room and its allllll just me#imma post like crazy (wellll that IS the plan so i hope)#even if its little dumb posts#by the way this post was gonna say on top “i know i said this account is for welcome home posting but TAKE THIS FOR LITTLE UPDATES”#just removed it because i dunnooooo just didded#hehe didded
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lemongogo · 11 months ago
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#hi im j here 2 talk . saw this cow yday so i drew her and now u get 2 say hi#but omffgg my gd i dont know if any of u relate but i feel like my ability to socialize w others#specifically online and speciifically in interest-circles has gotten so much harder for no reason whatsoever#like im just becoming more self conscious ab how i portray myself and its so weird bc like . LIKEE I DONT KNOW like . ok#people r super njce . always super nice and reach out to me and talk w me or i reach out first and they respond and r soo sweet#and something happens in my brain where like . i feel like im suddenly like . inserting myself where i dont belong (not true) but why am i#the bus driver all of a sudden . in all of these situations . me when i just show up like hey#i think i j feel annoying >__< . and i dont want to bother other people but said people r literally never bothered ykwim like Will Reach Out#and im the one that pulls back but 4 no reason . i cant even think ab why i do that .why am i doing this 🧨#so many ppl i want to genuinely befriend in all of these spaces but im self sabotaging soo frwaking bad#literally rn thinking of some dms i left on read bc i panicked or mutuals ive talked w before who im nervous 2 be familiar w . hrmm#anyways . i kind of wish i had the ability 2 just talk to new people and not actually gaf ab the outcome#HELPP .. early tmblr or wcf or devart where u have thirty million friends 2 now where u r too scared 2 say hi to an almost friend .#me problem though . if not alr clear HEJAHHAAHA i think part of my reluctance also stems from the fact that i know i get this way#and so i dont want 2 rope someone else into that insecurity so i try to keep it at an arms length until i fix it#but i think i also know its a longer & more introspective thing to work on so i do need to just try anyways
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darcyolsson · 4 months ago
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also happy 1 year anniversary to me thinking i was going to get a 16-track album about joe alwyn and instead having the experience of pressing play on a song and thinking "ok time for some tea about joe.... hm. actually somehow this seems to be about... matty healy...? i didnt think she would ever speak about that man again. ah a direct 1975 reference OKAY" nearly 31 times in a row
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why-the-heck-not · 1 year ago
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your jobless friend is out there walking 4km to a grocery store just bc that one has the best atmosphere
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britneyshakespeare · 9 months ago
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you: nicholas alexander chavez, the actor from ryan murphy's recent work
me, a mama's girl and daytime tv viewer:
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#text post#general hospital#nicholas alexander chavez#spencer cassadine#sorry i'm still not over my shock at this lol#i remember asking my mom MONTHS ago (she follows general hospital news online) 'hey wheres spencer i havent seen him in awhile?'#'oh his character died off. the actor is doing some netflix show where he plays a murderer'#and you have to understand. i dont consume anything to do w true crime. but to my 63-year-old mother. ryan murphy doesnt exist#so bc of just how self-contained the archaic institution of network soap operas are. i just. idk i didnt assume it was a big role#it didnt register to me that it was the sequel to the dahmer show. is what i am saying. and i never thought about it again#mommy made it sound like he might be coming back bc soap opera characters fake-die all the time#and so i put the thought out of my head until completely independently i was watching a video about monsters: menendez being flawed#and i was like. going absolutely insane w how familiar he looked i was like 'ok i know that man cant be too famous but i KNOW him'#'i know him from something and i know him WELL from something. like whatever hes from is iconic to me'#and then the video creator said his name and i was like THATS INSANE WHERE DO I KNOW THAT NAME??!?!??#it's a name i read in the credits but probably never thought in my head at all bc sorry he's just spencer to me#so i googled it and i was gobsmacked. i was like MOM DIDNT SAY he was gonna be in THIS SHIT!?!?!?#i also do lay my life down on the defense that the cinematography of a prestige netflix drama makes him less recognizable to me#who knew him best under cheap soap opera lighting in basic back and forth dialogue shots. like#i have to be honest i never cared for his looks on gh bc he just kinda looked like too perfect. like he looked like a mannequin#i see it now though i get it#i get why he's very fan editable to the true crime girlies i get it#not that it matters. im just in mourning bc it never occurred to me the spencer era was over. i actually liked his character#i cant tell u why bc he wasnt all that distinguishable from all the other basic dramatic character archetypes. idk it was a good performanc#i cant explain to u what makes a soap opera character distinct while still being completely generic (they all are)#i also liked his relationship w his girlfriend in the show it was cute. he was evil but they were sweet#nicky please come back. im begging u. as your only general hospital era fan who is your age#i dont wanna watch monsters menendez i reeeeeally dont
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four-comma-five-verse · 4 months ago
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all my proffesors decided to teach remotely today so i doodled stuff while listening abt industrial sensors. dont ask me where the livgallia came from idk bro it apeared to me in a dream
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felixcosm · 10 months ago
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I know a lot of people don't like when episodes are confusing or full of information the first time they drop but honestly I looove relistening and then going oh yeahhh. I get it. I understand this now.
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lemongogo · 11 months ago
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#ran out of tags LOLLLL#and then .at least on fords end . be able to witness the moment of collapse . in which all his ‘righteous’ feelings r sucked out like a#vacuum or some star collapsing on itself bc not only is he like . having to come to terms w his own flaws#and the insidious like . stomach churning guilt associated w that but also the panic and fear (realized#w the portal or bills deception) into looking outwards and having that silent ‘oh’ moment where its like yeah#thats why he left . why wouldnt he#GRAAAAA LIKE I WANT DESTRUCTIONNN I WANT THINGS 2 FALL DOWN SO HE CAN FINALLY REBUILDDD#let me innn😭😭😭😭💥let me in to the self reflection those thirty years😭😭😭💥💥💥💥💥#who did you meet that reminded you of himm😭😭😭who wronged u in similar ways who gave u a reason to be betterrr whoo what did you see#and when you finally came back what did u FEEEL .. and dont lie and say there wasnt that wisp of nostalgia laced arnd ur heart#girl…..talk to me focus on me u know me u know these things#stanford pines#gravity falls#sry for taggingn these i need it for my own blog i prmmy i need to reference this . i will#ok im back bc i read fords end snd i want to rip my hair out bc fiddleford has such good ‘collapse’ imagery too#like we liteally got the soc of the blind eye videos . HIS DOCUMENTSRYYY#oohhhits rly over for us (me) now (and stanford and fiddleford.and stanley bc i feel bad excluding him💔)#only talking ab ford bc i need a reason to connect it to stan bc im sick in tbe brain and i need the familial conflict aspect too#but fidds .. ur misery does not go unnoticed by me ‼️#anyways. ik i said idc if they didnt get back together but the beauty of multiplicity is also liking the idea#HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHlike whenb im over the conflict im like dude they went through so much tgether it must be nice to find urself in the#familiarity again. uugughh.AUUUH./
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androcola · 8 months ago
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Why monkees hiatus? ☹️
ive been feeling as of late that no one is interested in my content as a whole anymore. I feel like I was always Begging people to interact with it and I felt annoying doing that. I feel like people only really wanna talk about torksmith doomed yaoi and head timeloop anymore 😓
I feel like no ones really interested in my art anymore. I mean it gets like 20 reblogs and 15 of those will be me. also no one Comments on art anymore. I get more interaction on my private instagram than I do on tumblr and I think that's sad
ive been feeling like I've really overstayed my welcome. I mean ive been here for 5 years. it was about time I burned out. and also I've been kinda depressed and losing interest in Everything I like so that's a part of it too. im not saying I'm going away forever, but it feels like the spark is fading and while I still think about mike and micky all the time, I feel like everyone's kinda over me now.its better to burn out than to fade away
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fairyofthehollow · 1 year ago
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#probably my last sunny walk at home :(#keeeeellll meeeee#i think one of the things i hate about going back to uni is not being able to experience autumn and winter at home like i used to#it’s weird because i’ve always loved them and considered them my favourite seasons.#but last year (and now this year) i’m realizing that oh! i think it’s because i got to come home after a long day and be in a safe familiar#space. and at uni everything is still a bit unfamiliar and not very comforting so the long cold days get so much harder#but i will surviveeeeeee#counting on gilmore girls to get me through it!! and also love is blind s7. i LOVE having things to look forward to every week it makes tim#fly by so fast. last yr every friday night was reserved for me and i ate frozen pizza or takeout and/or my favourite snacks and#watch my comfort films :( i cooked a lot those nights too 2 save money but yeah. it was rlly nice to have that comfy safe time to myself#i think it rlly got me thru uni.#ik it’s gonna be so hard to get back into a routine but im trying to tell myself that i need to like. focus on the basics first. adulting#can be so hard & i wanna do everything at once! i wanna b perfect in all areas. always do my hobbies. etc etc but i#i couldnt even get out of bed to make myself meals sometimes 💔 so i need to like remember if i don’t journal or read a whole book in a day#not the end of the world. and most importantly i need to be EATING and staying active and SLEEPING FIRST and foremost cause then hopefully#i won’t feel like a zombie.#okay anyways.#feeling sad feeling tired feeling unmotivated but also feeling a teensy bit excited for finally BEING ALONE!!!!#i have my cardiologist appt tmrw so maybe that’s why i feel so yuck also. just thinking abt it makes me wanna throw up#i hope everything goes well#anyways bye bye#♡ dear diary…
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doctorwhoisadhd · 18 days ago
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ultimate guitars thing of "if you submit a tab and its accepted you get free pro for a month" is honestly really smart
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stxrvel · 10 months ago
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so....... what would you guys say if i said that........ ive been writing a fic...... thats not icft....... but its jungkook x f!reader being idiots in love...... friends to lovers........ with angst bc if you dont know already i am A SUCKER for angst......... and that it currently has 8k words and im just halfway through.................................
like........ what would you say.
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starinthegarden · 10 months ago
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chat what if i said i was for some reason really fixated on the loki series and i really love the life series and that i was cooking
oh boy will this take me a while
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