#and that if they share music with me I’m expected to process and understand my feelings and thoughts and I CANT and that it needs to align

[starmaidengarden]

i really loved the hc about doing skincare with vil, i think that’s the cutest thing ever since i always struggle with consistently doing my skincare, but having someone to do it with would probably be really motivating 😭 which inspired my request! could i get scenarios of doing skincare together with the rest of the third years as well? maybe the reader also has a hard time doing it often but doing it with their partner makes it more enjoyable 🤍

— 3th Years : x gn!reader. no cw/tw. established relationship. dividers: uzmacchiato.

note: I’m so glad you liked it! I fully understand I need a keep a consistent routine when it comes to skincare, and I always need a little motivating!!

Trey Clover ༉⋆｡˚

Trey’s all about consistency, and he’s gentle when encouraging you. He’ll set up a short, manageable routine for you both and keep you company while doing it. He is the type to remember when your toner’s running low or recommend a cream that actually works for your skin type. He offers to do it with you, not in a flashy way, but a dependable, soothing presence. He sets up a quiet, comfortable space and walks you through a gentle routine — all while talking softly about your day. “You��re doing good. It’s okay if it’s not every day."

Cater Diamond ༉⋆｡˚

Cater makes skincare into a whole event. There’s music, mood lighting, face masks in all kinds of colors, and—of course—selfies. “Come on, let’s make this fun! It’s like a mini spa day!” He’s aware of how you struggle with it and gently encourages you without pressure. He’ll even pick out products for your skin type and cheer you on. “Say cheese~! Omg, we’re glowing already! Can you feel the self-love? Skincare is way more fun with you, babe!” With him, it feels less like a task and more like a hangout with a friend who knows how to hype you up.

Leona Kingscholar ༉⋆｡˚

Leona’s approach is minimal — he just hands you a jar of moisturizer and grumbles when you say you’re too tired. You mention how hard it is to stay consistent, and Leona just scoffs, lounging back. "Then don’t. Just do it when I do." He’s not fussy, but when he does do skincare, it’s all about efficiency and comfort. He’ll drag you to lie down beside him while he throws on a cooling mask. “Put yours on. Might as well make it worth the nap.” His laid-back attitude helps take the pressure off, and honestly, lounging with him while masks do their work becomes a little oasis of peace for you both.

Vil Schoenheit ༉⋆｡˚

Vil notices your inconsistent skincare habits almost immediately, but instead of scolding, he takes a gentler approach than you'd expect. One day, he invites you to his dorm under the pretense of helping him "test a new mask," but you quickly realize he's curated an entire beginner-friendly skincare regimen just for you. He explains each product with care, never condescending—his tone is calm, confident, and reassuring. Vil doesn't demand perfection. When you admit it's hard to keep up with routines, he nods knowingly. Soon, your skincare sessions become moments of quiet reflection and care with Vil beside you. He applies product to your face with practiced hands, giving tips in his elegant voice. It’s soothing, almost meditative. On nights when you feel too drained, he insists gently, “Just sit. I’ll take care of the rest.”

Rook Hunt ༉⋆｡˚

Rook treats skincare like an art form and insists on sharing that passion with you. When he notices your inconsistency, he proposes a “soirée de soin” — a self-care evening complete with candles, soothing music, and fancy French-named products. He applies your mask with elegant precision, humming softly. Whispering praises about how radiant your skin will become — but more than that, how radiant you are. His spirit turns the process from a chore to a performance, and his poetic admiration keeps your spirits up. "Ah, your skin sings when cared for. With me, let us bring out your véritable éclat!" He even lets you paint a mask on him in return, laughing gracefully at the mess you make.

Idia Shroud ༉⋆｡˚

Idia isn't big on skincare either, but when he hears you’ve been struggling to stick to it, he offers to try some tonight together — his version of a bonding event. “I-It’s not like I care if your skin is dry or anything… b-but if we have to do this dumb IRL stuff, I guess I’ll do it… for party synergy…” He awkwardly applies face masks (poorly, but cutely) while you both watch shows or stream games, grumbling about how “normie” it feels but secretly enjoying your presence.

Malleus Draconia ༉⋆｡˚

Malleus doesn’t really understand skincare, but is incredibly interested in it because you practice it. He listens intently as you explain the process, fascinated by the idea of humans caring for themselves in such gentle ways. When you’re too tired to do it alone, he offers to help—gently applying cream to your face with his cool hands and brushing your hair back with great care. This has become a nightly ritual that grounds both of you. “I find peace in this. If it brings you comfort, then I, too, will partake every night.”

Lilia Vanrouge ༉⋆｡˚

Lilia’s skincare game is wild—he’ll show up with vampire-themed sheet masks and glittery pink under-eye patches. One night, he brings a centuries-old potion that smells like herbs, and the next, he’s got a trending skincare set he saw in a Magicam ad. He makes it fun. “Oh, ho! Let’s see if these ancient techniques can turn back time!” You never know what to expect, but his presence makes the routine exciting rather than a chore. When he finds out you’re not great at keeping up with skincare, he turns it into a bonding moment. “No worries, little bat! We’ll make a night of it.” The laughter you share keeps you relaxed, and you stop worrying about doing it "right."

[gojos-fr-bae]

Deserving

Pairing: Gojo x gn!reader (ofc pleas lmk if I messed it up)

Warnings: Fluffy But Angsty, not proof-red so pls bare w me

Word Count: 680

A/N: Bro, this just popped into my head and I just HAD to. This is the result of Gege's interview abt boo. not EXACTLY but if u squint you'll see it.

Relaxing music radiated through the kitchen. You hummed along while cleaning up the set up you had spent hours on. Today is yours and Satoru’s sixth year anniversary and you had prepared a dinner for you two to share.

Likely the first meal you two would be sharing for months.

However, it had already been three hours since you expected him to and yet you were still alone. 

You were placing the leftovers you had saved for him in the fridge when you heard the door frantically slam open. You knew it was your boyfriend so you shut the fridge to go greet him at the door when suddenly you felt his hands wrap around you. He held you as close to his being as physically possible.

“I’m so, so, sorry my love, I p-promise I didn’t mean to come late. I was just randomly sent on a mission and I tried to refuse but they wouldn’t listen because it was a special grade and they couldn’t-” he was rambling frantically, clearly panicked and out of breath from rushing to you.

“Hey, hey, hey, sweetie, calm down, it’s okay, It really is,” you interrupted him, turning around to hold his face.

You reached up and pulled his blindfold down so that you could see his beautiful blue eyes. Your chest felt tight once you saw how red they were, without a doubt due to his lack of sleep. Your poor baby.

“But it’s not- I promised that I would c-come home early and I’ve-I’ve ruined our anniversary and I’m so sorry sugar cube.” His voice was starting to shake and you saw eyes begin to cloud up.

He felt so unbearably guilty. You had gone through the process of preparing this dinner for him, decorating the dinner table and kitchen with rose petals, candles and everything. All he had to do was show up and he let you down. Again. He wanted you to shout and scream and get angry like you deserved and yet here you were, looking up at him with a soft smile, eyes filled with nothing but love.

“Toru, really, it’s okay, I understand that you were busy, honestly, I kind of expected it. But nevertheless, I’m not angry,” you said with a soft voice.

“Why?” he questioned.

“Well when you are dating the strongest, buffest, most handsome man on earth, you learn to live with it.”

That upset him.

You didn’t deserve this. You didn't deserve to get accustomed to the disappointment. You deserve better.

“We can still do something. We c-c-can heat the food and still enjoy the night.It’s only ten-”

“Baby, you're exhausted. You’re barely standing and your eyes look like you soaked them in blood. Let’s just go to sleep sweetie- it’s okay, really.”

He couldn’t even meet your eyes as he let his wander to the dinner table. His eyes landed on a small gift box layed on the table. 

He let go of you and moved to reach for it. He carefully took the lid off of the velvet box. His balancing tears finally began to trickle down your face as he looked down at the golden locket in his hands. Inside of it was a picture of the two of you from your first anniversary. Smiles brighter than any star in the sky.

He turned to face you once again, much more distraught than before.

“I didn’t even g-get you flowers” his voice cracked, barely above a whisper. 

He laid the gift back on the table and ran to engulf you tight in his hands. He doesn’t deserve you. But he would be so lost without you. You felt his shoulders shake slightly as you stood there in his arms. Once he was finally calmed down, you kissed his forehead and led him to your room.

You two got ready to sleep in silence. You got tucked in and he laid behind you holding onto you for dear life. 

He doesn’t know what he did to deserve you, but he knew that he would never let you go. 

A tad bit short, mb

© gojos-fr-bae

[angelpink610]

You guys wanna know when the things I wished for, hoped for, visualized and manifested actually started to appear to me, to become my reality? When I understood and learned how to ENJOY THE PROCESS!

Let’s yap a bit… ;)

Us as immediate people in an immediate society end up focusing entirely on the results, we only see the things we wish for as results, as finish lines. What we fail to do is see the start line and the path that leads to the end.

I don’t want to sound corny, but it’s really all about that Hannah Montana movie song “The Climb”. We only think about how fast we will get there, how life will be when we get there, how happy it will be when we get there. Well, here’s the thing: if you’re not happy and grateful throughout the way, don’t even expect to be happy on the finish line. Our goals are not essentially what make us happy, they’re proofs of our capacity and work. What actually makes someone’s life happy and amazing, is the way that person behaves and conditions their mind WHILE chasing all of these dreams. It’s all about your methods, it’s all about your feelings, your reactions to the world, the way you act towards people. Don’t think you’ll be happy and achieve the greatest things when you live your life and answer to the world bitterly, in a rush, not paying much mind to it.

I know this is obvious, but just so that no one is confused and comes for me after: I’m not saying every day is going to be incredible, I’m not saying that you’re not allowed to be sad, angry, uncomfortable, jealous, disgusted. These are all perfectly normal and human emotions, and everyone should feel them—it just shows you’re alive. This concept of being 24/7 happy and grateful and “Oh my God, everything’s incredible all the time” it’s just not sustainable nor healthy (+, obviously, not real). What we should do, instead, is allow these emotions to be felt, and then act upon them understanding why they’re there and how we can soothe them, or make them a little less strong. For example, understand where your anger comes from, is it truly someone’s fault, why are we feeling it. Not block it, not try to stop it from being felt—but understand it. And then, after thinking (even meditating, if you like) about it, let it go, and let it be felt still, if you think it’s the right thing. Don’t ask too much of yourself always, sometimes we really just need to scream for a second on our pillow or shed a tear in our room. It’s perfectly alright and also healthy!

Have fun, make friends, create good memories with these friends, study, live your life to the fullest. Meet new people, go to new places, discover new music, books, art, movies that make you feel something. Laugh with people you love, create memories through pictures, do some risky things, you don’t need to always be so careful about everything. Some lesions make us stronger. And while you’re doing everything else, manifest your dreams, work towards it, put in the effort, visualize, believe you’re worth and destined for that, acknowledge you already have everything you need to get there and that, actually, you are already there.

Learn to actually live your life on the way to your dreams, not just survive the path. When you look at life with gratitude and love, life looks back—and you’ll feel it.

As always, you’re free to agree or disagree with me on the various topics I talk about. It’s my own experience and the way it’s been for me. Feel free to also share your stories on comments and/or reblogs! I’ll love to see it.

That’s it for today’s yapping session. Love, Seiko ♡

♡ borders credit: @anitalenia

[weirdmageddon]

22 audhd goth nerd and other-proclaimed “wizard”

🔞 blog may be suggestive. i’m likely not posting not straight up nsfw but i’d rate it 18+ anyway. just expect anything really.

ive finaly managed to lay it out my major interests. i dont know what took me so long to be able to do that. i posted it to bluesky but i’ll do it here too. i need a new pinned post anyway.

things i’m interested in:

science: ALL natural science, esp. neuroscience, neuropsychology, psychology (the mind), biology, anatomy & physiology, ecosystems, network theory

other realms: philosophy, sociology, anthropology, human ethology, personality differences

natural noumena: patterns in nature, emergence, self-organization / spontaneous order, chaos theory and fractals

tropes / archetypes

analytical psychology / jungian analysis (not in association to jordan peterson, whom i think is a chode. this is significant to me, because i feel like i share the phenomenological reality with jung that formed the basis of his ideas. many of these forces i’ve noticed on my own, separate from him, before i knew him. so seeing his ideas i was like “oh he put it into words. glad to know someone else has a keen sense for these phenomena”)

socionics model A

other typological systems: enneagram, mbti (not 16personalities), etc. quizzes are lazy minded and i dont give them much weight on principle. im into understanding the theoretical foundations

eclectic alternative music subcultures + history: esp. 70s-80s, experimental, psychedelic rock, punk, new wave, post-punk, goth rock, industrial

art and creativity in general

YTP and remix culture

the venture bros. (bonus points if you understand most of the references because this show is like my personal catnip)

jhonen vasquez: jthm, squee, i feel sick, invader zim (decade+ old fan)

david lynch: twin peaks, eraserhead, blue velvet, mulholland drive, etc

jon bois: pretty good, 17776/20020, chart party, team history documentaries, etc

blaseball / mmolb

vinesauce (decade+ old watcher)

pokemon: in general, but esp. knowledgeable about game mechanics (decade+ old fan)

undertale (decade+ fan) / deltarune (since beginning)

gravity falls (decade+ old fan)

homestuck (decade+ old fan)

mother series

star trek* (*slowly immersing myself)

lots of more stuff i probably missed

typology type profile: LII-Ne IN(T) INFJ 5w4 so/sp 514 RCOAI

things i might be known for:

original dirtygfconfessions crew member (mod dipper. 2014–idk when the shit went down where our posts got deleted)

original real-time fandub crew member (2016-2018; 2025-) [*note: real-time fandub games, like the sonic dubs, were a spinoff by crew member penny snapcube]

hs act omega artist (2017-2019)

three-time podcast guester on mystery shack lookback

figure in spamtonology

tumblr historian. i was probably there when it happened.

op of tumblr post screenshots circulating on google images

random things about me:

shit nobody cares about enthusiast

given enough time i think i could probably explain anything

ive been here since late 2011

i live in a very isolated pocket of my own taste in art/music where im not really aware of what everyone else is listening to because it just…doesnt really cross my mind ever? i found out brian eno said something similar, “If I tried to make a commercial album, it would be a complete flop. I have no idea what the world at large likes.” i told my friend the other day i feel like i understand my self through music and art, because of the accumulation of my taste i can actually experience my unconscious preference and know what i feel my own experiences reflected in

im best at self-reflection and observations of own my own mental processes. like catching the background of consciousness

if i were forced at gunpoint to kin a homestuck character it would be aradia megido. we’re very close in spirit

also dipper pines mannerisms but i think im a bit more eccentric and mature

dare i say the big joel of tumblr

another eno quote i strongly relate to: “Sometimes you recognize that there is a category of human experience that has not been identified but everyone knows about it. That is when I find a term to describe it.”

i’m asexual. i don’t know my romantic orientation because attraction is so rare for me (not enough data) but i think i always had a queer mentality. i just call myself grayromantic. i never had a partner but i want one because i’m feeling ready now but it has to feel like the right person. 6/15/25 budding romance arc unfolding with a sweet funny guy my type who doesnt need to do all that much to cosplay a convincing looking jerma

tags:

#mine ← my posts, if i remember to tag them. im reblog heavy.

#me ← relatable tag

#laugh rule ← if i laugh irl i have to tag it that

#fave ← self explanatory

my art insp/aesthetic/resources side blog: @bonewheel

[bimbolita]

I’m so glad everyone is having the same visceral reaction to episode 4 like I did. I thought I was being too sensitive but fucking no. It is painful. It is horrid. Knowing that this type of abuse actively happens to sex workers and those who are trafficked. It’s jarring because I didn’t expect to see this dark and explicit depiction in a cartoon that jokes about penises every 2 minutes. It’s like when light hearted coco melon shows start talking about death, it was just unexpected because I never took this show serious. I’m going to share more of my thoughts below! Trigger Warning: Mentions of SA ⚠️

I don’t think it’s my place to deny or confirm if the ‘poison’ scenes were fetishized, I personally believe it’s subjective. I know how I feel but I think no matter where you stand, you are right in your own way. Many things can be true at once. What we can all agree on, is that it was harsh. In a way, I hope the audience is able to understand how exploiting and non glamorous sex work is. There is nothing fun about having your body used multiple times a day by people you do not know and having said scenes recorded then plastered all over the media. Of course all forms of engaging in or creating adult content are different, I am specifically talking about sex workers who have no say or control over their bodies and finances. Like Angel. Let us put emphasis on WORK in sex work.

It is demanding. It is laborious It is scaring. Remember that and remember the unheard voices who must do this to simply survive.

There is a lot of criticism about angel’s personality and yes I agree it is annoying but you have to understand, it is a trauma response. Hypersexuality is a common trait among those who are sexually abused. Angel just outwardly expresses it all the time because it is all he knows. This thought process is the only way to tolerate his behavior. I say thought process because it is only an interpretation. It’s very obvious viv just adores writing sexed up characters with zero nuance or depth but let’s just pretend she can actually write male characters that think beyond their cock and balls. Let’s pretend that Angel Dust is a two dimensional character and not (grits teeth) fetish bait.

Now, let’s talk about Charlie. Alright great, she saw her friend being mistreated and was about to stand up to his abuser, ok good good. The victim (Angel) gets upset and wants her to leave because he was beaten. Yes, average response of someone who is an abusive relationship, he is afraid and wants to avoid more conflict between him and Val. The situation at hand couldn’t be more than obvious. How does Charlie respond? She cries. And not because she is frustratedly concerned for the safety of her friend. It is because he yelled and rejected all her poor attempts at helping. Charlie is weak as shit and I think that interaction was weirdly written. I wish she had the mental fortitude to understand how much danger Angel’s life was in at that moment. I cannot enjoy her ‘aggressive kindness’ cutie do no wrong baby girl type of character in a moment like that.

And I feel the same about Husk’s song. Out of all the responses you could’ve made, this is what made it to the final cut? Do better. I don’t care if I lack the mEdIa LiTeRaCy twitter keeps yapping about. It’s bad. You just showed a sexual assault montage and the rebuttal was basically “my uncle broke his neck tap dancing once :/“ lol we’re both losers and that’s ok, suck it up buttercup, I like you regardless. This was the best response to an SA victim? No degree in media literacy would ever help me think that was an acceptable response. I dunno about ya’ll but I major in common sense at the university of using my eyes and fucking ears. Now imagine, if that entire segment, when Husk and Angel are at the bar plus the musical number; imagine if all of that was placed BEFORE we see Angel and Val interact and then poison plays as the final song. It would be 10x more impactful because then the audience sees how deep and stuck Angel actually is. Trauma olympics is never acceptable but neither is trauma participation trophies. It is not right to make Husk’s issues be seen as the same as Angel’s issues. They are not the same and it is ok to acknowledge that Angel has it worst than Husk. It’d be more genuine if Husk were to just hug him in complete silence after dragging him out of the bar and have Angel tearfully embrace him back. The first non sexual and benevolent interaction between them. The first physical act of care with no ulterior motives of lust.

I grind my teeth at the wasted potential.

[queerprayers]

my dad put on the hymn station in the car today (i’m pretty deconstructed but just kind of in a gray area) and it’s such a weird feeling wondering why so many of these songs made me gross sob at like ten years old?? what even was that? i’ve heard of mega churches using music as emotional manipulation, would that be a similar thing? that one ‘blessings come through raindrops’ song especially, it was actually such an ongoing phenomenon when i was too little to really process it

Hi beloved,

When I was little my friends would call my church "boring"—there were no drums, the music was often plain and mostly settings of poems that taught theological concepts or were quiet meditations. Sure, someone who was grieving or especially overcome might cry, but that was not the norm. Emotion was something we might have, and was an understandable reaction to Love, but the liturgy was about participating in faith and mystery together, not about Feeling. A song might be written by someone experiencing peace or sadness, but we sang them to stand in solidarity with that emotion, not to manipulate our own. My childhood faith (thanks to my overly educated family) was quite academic. Looking back, I am so grateful. I don't know what I would have done with a mood disorder in a church that expected me to feel or perform certain ways, or a family that answered my questions with comforting phrases instead of handing me a book.

I am so sorry you were in an environment that made you sob regularly as a child—not because crying is bad, but because it sounds like it wasn't giving you space for emotion, but rather creating and expecting certain emotions. Music absolutely has a lot to do with this, based on everything I've heard from people who grew up in evangelical/non-denominational/non-liturgical churches.

You were a kid! And (based on my assumptions) instead of a space to be introduced to faith, be cared for, ask questions about difficult concepts, and react however you authentically would react, you were played songs meant to conjure up certain emotions, and probably expected to be overcome with reactions you didn't understand. Even if you weren't in a megachurch, there can be similar stuff going on. Churches so often want kids to be entertained rather than educated, convinced to keep coming back rather than given space to find inherent meaning, to become emotionally attached rather than to understand. It's not your fault if that's what you were given. They wanted you to internalize the lyrics when you were too young to process them—then they don't have to be especially meaningful or answer too many questions. They wanted you to Feel God—but that's not stable enough for a life of taking God seriously.

To be clear, I'm not against emotion in worship, and there are more lively churches than my own that have deep theology and respect for individual experiences. In my southern experience, "Black church" was always louder and more open to individual reactions than my quiet Lutheran one—gospel music is great! Dancing is holy! Communal response is generally a positive thing. But there can be more sinister or even just careless environments. If you're an adult with a fully formed faith, it can be cathartic to have a space to loudly Feel about it all. But in my opinion, this should not be the focus/purpose of liturgy. (Concerts/sharing opportunities/support groups all have a place—preferably a separate one.) Especially for kids, without that life experience and knowledge, being thrown into overly emotional faith without any groundwork can leave them reeling and confused as adults. And you hit the nail on the head with "emotional manipulation"—conjuring up sobbing is way easier than taking religion seriously.

I don't know if you've seen the tweet that's like, "I thought I was feeling God as a kid but then I went to a One Direction concert and realized I just liked pop music." Music does that to us! I love concerts! I rarely cry in church but I sobbed seeing My Chemical Romance (and feel no shame about it). But basing a community on that elevated experience is what fandom is for, not Church.

When you feel something and are told, "That's God," what happens when you don't feel it? Are you to understand that God is absent? What happens when you feel it at a pop concert? Is that a sin? My aforementioned mood disorder makes me very careful about assigning deeper meaning to emotion. God is not the emotion—God is the Love that, depending on our life and brain, we can feel many things about. There are all different kinds of churches for all different kinds of people, but I don't believe that one primarily bent on eliciting emotion will ever touch the full mystery of our God. And in fact, it too often drives people away when they want more than Experience.

God is a god of beauty, and Christianity (and most religions) have a special place for music, so I'm not ruling out that God can be present to people in "Blessings Come Through Raindrops," but. Y'know. There's more to it all. I support hymn stations in the car—a very appropriate time for casual cry-worthy pop songs—but I hope in your deconstructed gray area you can find more than overwhelmed crying. You deserve music that makes you think—I don't mean you have to only listen to Bach, but have art in your life that you connect with in a genuine thoughtful way, as well as a fun or cathartic way.

Ultimately, you deserve art/communities that take theology seriously, that hold space for more complicated feelings. You deserve a faith (or a meaningful agnostic life) that is present regardless of whether you feel like you're seeing One Direction or not.

<3 Johanna

[agirlsawalittlerose]

This is Me Trying

ModernAU!Aegon x OFC

Fresh out of rehab, Aegon Targaryen is looking for a way back into music when he meets Victoria, a talented but stubborn singer-songwriter who wants nothing to do with his family’s record label. Reluctantly thrown together, they form an unexpected creative partnership, finding common ground in music and shared struggles.

TW: Alcoholism, Addiction, Sexism

MASTERLIST

CHAPTER 9: You

That book was amazing.

Aegon had devoured it the night before, somewhere between a video call from his mother—checking that he was home and not out trying his best to die—and a half-hearted attempt to sleep.

He’d never really thought about the concept of anticipation, yet it had shaped his life so much that he almost believed Vic had worked some kind of witchcraft, understanding him before he even had the words for it.

At least, that’s how it felt after their last studio session.

There was no denying it—Aegon had to admit it had been a success. He hadn’t even thought it was possible, not after all the times he’d tried writing with other people, only for them to either fall for his provocations or treat him like an inconvenience while they did all the work for him.

But Vic had kept every unspoken promise they’d made to each other.

And that filled him with anticipation.

Maybe it was because he’d woken up with a hard-on more persistent than usual.

Maybe it was because when she’d been standing next to him, rewriting the bridge, he’d been hit with the sudden, overwhelming urge to pull her to sit onto his face.

Or maybe it was just because Huron had explained to him exactly how this psychological process worked.

Expectation triggered a series of emotional responses, each slipping in before he could catch them.

Reaction—like telling Vic to fuck off every time she annoyed him.

Tension—like not knowing why she hadn’t asked him to fuck yet.

Prediction—like calculating that two more sessions like the last one would end with her naked in his bed.

Imagination—like fantasizing about tracing his tongue along the outline of her tattoo. And then there was

Appraisal—according to Huron, that’s what happened once conscious thought kicked in, but Aegon preferred to imagine it as the moment when he would come on her tits.

“Jesus, Aegon, you scared the shit out of me,” Helaena yelped, appearing from behind a column, clearly not expecting to find him sprawled out on the chaise lounge in their parents’ living room.

He’d forced himself downstairs because if he stayed alone in his attic any longer, he was going to spend the entire morning jerking off.

“Sorry! Just taking advantage of Mum and Dad being out to mooch some food that isn’t Chinese takeaway,” he said with a lazy grin before sinking back into his book.

“Put a damn shirt on, it’s freezing,” Helaena muttered, pulling her robe tighter around herself as she made her way to the kettle on the kitchen island.

Yeah, okay, maybe lying around in just his boxers at the end of October was a bit much, but Aegon wasn’t about to explain to his sweet sister that he couldn’t shake this fucking heat that had been crawling over his skin since this morning.

“I’m okay,” he shrugged.

Helaena shot him another look as she filled the kettle. “Are you… reading?”

“Incredible, my siblings being astonished when I do completely normal things. Should we call Daeron in Paris and inform him I can, in fact, read?”

He sank deeper into the chaise lounge, twisting a lock of hair between his fingers, trying desperately to focus on the book.

“Touchy, aren’t we?” Helaena raised an eyebrow. “What is it?”

“A book by some psychologist explaining the emotional processes behind anticipation and how certain tricks in music—syncopation, cadence, meter, tonality, climax—can be used to satisfy a listener.”

“That actually sounds interesting,” Helaena mused, leaning against the counter with her cup of tea.

“It is! Vic lent it to me.”

Just saying her name was enough to make his dick stir back to life.

He smacked the open book against his groin, shifting slightly, trying to make sure Helaena didn’t notice.

Luckily, she was too busy gazing out the window, watching the sun hesitantly break through the otherwise gray and chilly autumn morning.

“Nice of her,” Helaena commented absently.

It was.

“It is,” Aegon echoed his own thoughts.

He should thank her.

“I should thank her,” he added, now completely incapable of redirecting blood flow away from the center of his body.

Helaena gave him a look—he wasn’t sure what she was searching for—but then she just shook her head and turned to leave with her cup of tea, muttering under her breath, “fucking weirdo.”

Aegon grabbed his phone, caught somewhere between carnal frustration and genuine excitement over everything this madman David Huron was teaching him. He wanted to talk to Vic. He wanted to discuss syncopation, test different meters and tonalities, and hell—maybe even reach a climax together.

He smirked at his own joke.

“Destroying yourself at the gym?” he texted, gathering his things and heading for the attic, but not before swiping a Naked bar from his parents’ pantry.

“No. Woke up too late,” Vic replied just as Aegon, devouring the bar in two bites, turned on the shower—cold, obviously.

“The book is fucking amazing! Want to meet up and try some of the things our good friend Huron talks about before heading to the studio?”

He stepped under the freezing water, letting it ground him a little. He didn’t even bother opening his eyes, just focused on the steady stream against his skin.

Then his phone buzzed from the sink.

He lunged for it, soaking everything in the process.

“Glad to hear you’re doing your homework! Could be an idea.”

Bingo.

“You could come here, then we could head to the studio together. And if you want, I’ll even drop you off after, as a thank you for the inconvenience.”

The water pounded against his back as he leaned over the sink, struggling with his screen as droplets made it glitch.

She was typing.

Then she stopped.

Then she started again.

“Thinking about it, we should be in the studio in a couple of hours anyway, and I need to take care of a couple of things, see you there."

Damn Victoria Dawson.

Well, it was worth a try.

The shower had helped—not completely, but enough to let him focus on the songwriting session rather than the session he actually wanted to have with Vic.

He’d arrived at the studio first, picked up coffee for everyone, and made himself comfortable on the sofa, the Huron book in his hands as he idly toyed with the arm of his sunglasses.

Psychologists were cool—at least, the good ones, like Huron, not the morons in rehab. If someone had explained to him that people fall into self-destructive behaviors because they crave control over the outcome, even if it’s a bad one, and if they’d used something as simple as expecting a C chord to resolve after an F and a G, maybe he would have left three months earlier. Maybe he wouldn’t feel so guilty every time he thought about getting high.

“You really liked the book, huh?”

Vic’s voice pulled him from his thoughts as she walked into the rehearsal room. Aegon should have kept his eyes down.

He hadn’t thought about sex for a whole ten minutes, and now, thanks to Vic, her leather skirt, and her bare legs under those high boots she’d decided to wear, he felt an overwhelming urge to sink his teeth into her thigh.

“Vic, it’s insane!” he said instead, forcing himself to sit up properly on the sofa. “It’s genius! I’d never thought about why a song works when it works. Now I get what you were saying the other day about that chord progression resolving.”

She smiled at him, then bent down—like a damn sadistic menace—to pick up one of the bass guitars resting on the stand. As Aegon realized he was leaning forward without thinking just to catch a glimpse of her ass, he had a fleeting thought: Naturally, Victoria Dawson played a dozen instruments—including bass.

“I was thinking we could switch the bridge to 3/4,” she said, slinging an Ibanez over her shoulder before plugging it into the bass amp.

“I think it fits with the new lyrics you tweaked the other day.”

That you did something warm to his chest—and, frankly, to his dick.

“I never really got how these weird-ass time signatures work, but we can try,” he said, finally putting the book aside and reaching for his favorite Telecaster.

“Of course you don’t,” came the voice of doom from the doorway.

Aemond.

He walked straight to the table where Aegon had left the coffees, picked up his, and—after cautiously inspecting the contents—took a sip without so much as a thank you.

Ungrateful bastard.

Then he turned to Vic. “You should stop by Laura’s office at the end of the day to give her your banking details so she can—”

Blah, blah, blah. Aegon tuned him out the second he realized it was something insufferably boring.

Luckily, his phone buzzed with a message.

It was Martin.

And that son of a bitch had impeccable timing because he was inviting Aegon to his Non-Halloween party.

“Martin and Leon are throwing a party in Brixton tonight,” he said casually to Aemond, slipping his phone back into his pocket.

Aemond, who was still mid conversation with Vic, shot him a look of weary disdain. “Good. I hope the police raid it,” he said dryly, clearly fishing for a laugh from Vic.

Aegon smirked. “Why? Planning to get arrested?”

Aemond froze for a second as he sat down on the sofa. His expression shifted as the meaning sank in. “Oh no, Aegon. Don’t even think about it. I’m not taking you.”

“And why not? Princess Victoria’s coming. We already made plans,” Aegon lied smoothly. In reality, he’d only promised her a lift to her place, but Brixton was on the way. If she had refused, he had a whole arsenal of excuses and pleas ready to rope her into playing along. But to his surprise, Vic didn’t object. She simply raised an eyebrow at him before glancing at Aemond, perhaps trying to gauge his reaction.

Weird.

“Because I’m exhausted! This week, I’ve slept maybe two hours a night dealing with all the mess with the technicians, drafting Victoria’s contract, and Cole constantly asking me to cover for idiots who can’t keep a commitment,” he snapped.

It was true—his dark circles were downright terrifying.

“Even better. At least you’ll get to relax a little,” Aegon countered with fake altruism.

Aemond’s eyes flicked between them, suspicion etched across his face, clearly trying to uncover the catch. No doubt wondering why Vic would willingly associate with the “bootlicking idiots who cling to Aegon,” as he so eloquently put it.

“Two beers, and then we’re leaving,” Aemond muttered with a resigned sigh, shooting another glance in Vic’s direction.

Perfect. No—better than perfect.

He felt a thrill of anticipation. It had been ages since he last saw his old friends and had some serious fun. And honestly, with Vic meticulously dodging his every attempt to get her to come to his place, he seriously needed to fuck.

His mind drifted to Cassandra. He hadn’t seen her since rehab, but if he remembered correctly she was a wild force of nature. Utterly insatiable in bed, with an ass that could stop traffic and the best blowjobs of his life.

Though, to be fair, he couldn’t recall most of their wild nights together, he was always so fucked up that his cock shooting its load felt more like a reflex than any real stimulation reaching his brain. But one image had alway remained seared into his memory: Cassandra’s face, her blue eyes glassy and pupils blown wide as she proudly showed off swallowing every inch of his dick.

After all, he was just a a man.

He suddenly got dragged back to earth when Vic leaned in and whispered, “You’re actually taking me to this party now.”

He stared at her for a second, trying to reassemble his lust-clouded brain, before smirking and wrapping an arm around her shoulders. “Perfect, love. Now I don’t even have to figure out how to keep Mr. Stick-Up-His-Ass entertained,” he said, nodding toward Aemond.

“Can we start working now?” That boring crow said exasperated.

****

Victoria knew exactly what her final thought would be before dying. She could see it clearly—old, maybe 80 if things went well and her liver held up, hooked to some machine, with Sara by her side. Proof, as always, that men were unreliable and they’d truly been forced to marry each other in the end. “I didn’t live enough.”

That was Vic’s kind of FOMO.

She loved the idea of parties. Ever since she’d seen the trailer for Skins on MTV at 12, the idea of chaotic, wild gatherings had enthralled her. Sure, she hadn’t been to many that reached that level of insanity, but she knew one thing for certain: she was no introvert.

Which is why, even though she loathed giving Aegon a helping hand—especially at poor Aemond’s expense—she hadn’t objected when that idiot roped her into his ridiculous plan.

On the Uber ride to this supposed party, the vibe between the brothers couldn’t have been more different. The older one was buzzing with excitement, staring out the window like a dog being taken to the vet. The younger one was glued to his phone, obsessively checking emails and occasionally shooting her glances, as if trying to figure out what she was thinking.

The house was one of those typical brown-brick homes you’d see around South London, complete with a small front gate, a backyard, and a sloping roof with modest windows.

As soon as they arrived, Aegon lunged at some blonde guy’s neck. He introduced himself, but between the blaring music pounding from the next room and her immediate disinterest, Victoria didn’t catch whether he was Martin or Leon. Didn’t matter. If forced, she’d just call him mate. That tactic never failed.

Martin-Leon led them into the next room, packed with people. Surprisingly, it was far tamer than Victoria had anticipated. This seemed to relax Aemond, though—he’d probably expected some post-apocalyptic chaos but instead found a crowd of relatively normal people laughing, chatting, and not dressed in costumes despite the claim of it being a Halloween party.

They were also treated to terrible music, and Aemond gave her a look, mock-hissing in disgust. She couldn’t help but laugh.

They settled on a sofa, the party swirling around them—loud but distant, like waves crashing on the shore while they sat just far enough away to stay dry. Victoria took a slow sip of her beer, the glass already half-empty. Aemond, arms crossed, leaned back, exhaling sharply through his nose as if resigning himself to being here.

“Are you always this much fun at parties?” she teased, tipping her glass toward him in mock salute.

“I don’t usually go to them,” he admitted. His voice wasn’t defensive, just matter-of-fact.

Vic hummed, stretching her legs out in front of her. “Yeah, I got that impression.”

He arched a brow. “What gave it away?”

“Oh, I don’t know. The brooding? The general air of ‘I’d rather be anywhere else’?” She smirked. “Not to mention, I think this might be the first time I’ve seen you sit still for more than five minutes. Usually, you’re pacing around the studio like a man on a mission.”

“That’s because I am,” he said simply, a confident smirk on his face.

Vic laughed. “Right. You do take this whole music thing very seriously.”

Aemond’s expression didn’t shift, but something flickered behind his eyes. “Shouldn’t I?”

She shrugged. “Sure. But there’s a difference between taking something seriously and letting it consume you.”

His gaze lingered on her for a beat, unreadable. “And which one do you think I’m doing?”

“Ask me again when we’re not at a party,” she said, flashing him a grin. “I charge for deep conversations in social settings.”

Aemond huffed, shaking his head slightly, but there was the ghost of something—almost amusement—at the corner of his mouth.

“So if you don’t go to parties, and you never take music lightly… what do you do for fun?”

Aemond huffed a quiet laugh, shaking his head slightly. “I work.”

“Come on, there’s got to be something else.”

“Reading,” he said, after a moment’s pause. “Boxing. Motorcycles.”

Victoria raised a brow. “Motorcycles?”

That earned her a glance, like he hadn’t expected her to be surprised by that detail. “Yes.”

“Do you actually ride, or are you one of those guys who just buys an expensive bike to look cool?”

His smirk was almost imperceptible. “I ride.”

She looked at him, weighing his answer. “Figures. You’ve got that whole lone-wolf aesthetic down. Let me guess—fast, sleek, all black?”

Aemond didn’t confirm or deny it, but the twitch at the corner of his mouth was enough.

“See, I’d picture you more in some vintage British bike. Classic. Precise. Maybe a Triumph,” she mused.

Aemond finally turned to face her fully. “You know motorcycles?”

“I know a little about a lot of things,” Victoria said with a smirk. “And I know bikes. My father was obsessed. I hate them.”

Aemond considered that for a moment before nodding. “That explains the tattoos.”

Victoria glanced down at her inked arm, lips twitching. “Yep, I got these to impress my dad’s biker gang”

“Wouldn’t be the worst strategy.”

She laughed, warm from the alcohol.

They lapsed into silence for a moment, the party humming around them. Vic glanced across the room, where Aegon had somehow found himself at the center of attention, dramatically reenacting some story, drink sloshing in his hand as he gestured wildly.

She turned back to Aemond, catching him watching the same thing. “Let me guess—you’re the designated responsible for Mr. Menace?”

Aemond didn’t react right away. He just blinked once, slowly, then took a sip of his drink. “It’s not exactly a choice.”

Vic nodded as if she understood. Because she did.

She followed his line of sight back to Aegon.

“Yeah. I get that,” she said after a beat, her voice light, almost absentminded. Her thoughts circled back to her own brother.

Aemond turned to her. “Do you?”

Vic just smiled, taking another sip. “Yeah. I do.”

His expression flickered—just a split second, like she’d struck something raw. But then he exhaled, tilting his head back against the couch again.

There was a pause.

And then, just like that, he was asleep.

Victoria stared. At first, she thought he was just ignoring her, but no—his breathing had slowed, his posture slackened. He’d actually passed out.

She let out a breath, shaking her head. “Wow. Riveting conversation, apparently.”

Still, she didn’t wake him. Instead, she sat back, finishing her beer, watching the party swirl around them.

Aegon, however, had vanished. Whether it was the beers or a sudden pang of sympathy for Aemond and his thankless role as his brother’s keeper, Vic instinctively got up from the sofa, took another beer from the messy kitchen, and started scanning the house. She wandered through the hallways, spotting Martin-Leon wielding an absurdly large bong, surrounded by a circle of partygoers. He coughed violently after taking a hit, earning cheers from his audience.

She pushed open the door to another room and, in a scene straight out of a bad cliché, stumbled upon a couple mid-hookup. But no, that wasn’t Aegon.

Determined, she kept exploring the house with as much precision as her tipsy state allowed, until muffled giggles from the pantry caught her attention.

She swung the door open to find Aegon on the floor, leaning against a shelf, laughing with a dark-haired girl straddling his lap. Of course.

But before she could dwell too long on the familiar sting of jealousy, her focus shifted. When the two noticed her presence and turned toward her, Vic saw Aegon holding a small bag of coke.

“Out,” she ordered, her voice firm, directed at the girl.

The brunette, with strikingly blue eyes, shot her a defiant look as if to say Vic had no authority here. Aegon’s expression, however, was unreadable, but he stayed silent.

“I said, out,” Vic repeated.

Maybe it was the steel in her voice or the glance she threw at Aegon—who merely shrugged and gave the girl a light pat on her thigh, a silent cue to leave—but the girl, clearly wasted, wobbled to her feet and stumbled past Vic, muttering a slurred “bitch” as she left.

Vic closed the door behind her and turned to Aegon, her eyes locking onto his. He was obviously enjoying himself, probably misinterpreting (or correctly interpreting?) the reason for her intrusion.

Still seated on the floor, Aegon swung one knee lazily, biting his lower lip in that infuriating smirk. He didn’t say a word.

Vic walked toward him, her steps deliberate, heavy, like an executioner approaching the condemned. She knelt to his level, and with her free hand, she snatched the bag of coke from his grip.

He didn’t react. She couldn’t tell if it was because he recognized he’d messed up or if he was simply too far gone.

“You do any?” she asked, straightening up.

“No,” he replied, almost offhandedly.

“Sure about that?” Vic pressed.

“Straight from the bag? Do you even know how it works?” he shot back, his tone laced with sarcasm, mean-spirited and amused.

No, she had no idea.

Vic scoffed. Without another word, she strode over to the small window at the back of the room, slid it open, and emptied the bag’s contents outside.

Snowfall, party edition.

Still, Aegon didn’t react. He watched her quietly, his gaze sharp and unwavering. Even when she shot him a triumphant look, expecting to see him get furious, he stood exactly where she’d left him, staring.

Suddenly, he pulled a face—the kind you make when you're impressed, mouth corners dipping downward, sarcasm radiating from every pore. With a groan, he stood, stepping toward her.

Vic felt her cheeks heat as Aegon stopped uncomfortably close, his eyes boring into hers. Mustering every ounce of her willpower, she straightened her spine, lifted her chin, and gave him a defiant glare.

Her newfound confidence, however, wavered slightly when he placed a hand on her shoulder. Slowly, he traced his fingers down her arm, brushing her tricep, then her forearm, before resting them on her wrist. Vic followed the movement with her eyes, and when his hand stilled, she shot him a questioning look.

He answered with a smirk.

Before she could process it, Aegon gently pried the beer from her grasp. Without hesitation, he stepped to the window and poured the remaining liquid out.

The empty glass landed with a deliberate clink on the windowsill. Aegon threw her one last glance before sinking back to the floor, lighting a cigarette with practiced ease.

And then Vic understood.

She saw it in his silence, the way he didn’t argue or make a snide remark when he took her beer—her own little crutch. He could’ve mocked her, turned her action into a joke, but he hadn’t.

This wasn’t a game. It wasn’t him trying to piss her off, or assert some kind of dominance.

It was a trade.

He let her take care of the reckless part of him, the part that still ached for something he couldn’t have. Aegon had chosen to stay clean.

And in return, he took care of the part of her that pretended it wasn’t aching at all.

This wasn’t about petty revenge or annoyance. He didn’t want to needle her; he wanted her to see him, to understand that no matter how neatly her addiction was wrapped in legality, he had seen through it.

Aegon wanted her to know they were the same.

The realization hit her hard. Without a word, Vic lowered herself to sit beside him, plucking the cigarette from his fingers. She took two drags, then leaned her head against his shoulder.

Aegon exhaled smoke into the silence.

When she handed the cigarette back, he rested his head lightly atop hers.

No words. No promises.

[dontlookbackjeane]

Dominic x Reader : The Rite of Spring

pt.3 to the dominic x dancer reader - pt.one pt.two

this gets lowkey toxic - i don't condone these actions & the real dom would never.

You were looking forward to the drive back from dinner. You had slipped out of your heels on the passenger side, Dominic had the music blaring and you stared out at the clear night sky.

For the first time in weeks, you felt relaxed, the dinner party had gone better than you expected. You didn’t want to get your hopes up but you felt Aleksi was going to choose you for the lead. You were blissfully lost in imagining the future of your career - completely unaware of Dominic’s racing thoughts. 

Dominic gripped the steering wheel tightly. His mind kept flashing to your conversation with Aleksi. How your eyes lit up when Aleksi spoke, how you had leaned in eagerly, hanging onto his every word. You were more alive with Aleksi tonight than you've been in weeks with him.

"You know," Dominic starts as he turns off the music. "I think Eleanor was trying to get my attention tonight."

“Eleanor?” you repeated. You assumed this was going to be about a fan interaction. You were surprised, she rarely played modern music in the changing rooms.

"Yeah," he said. "She kept looking over at me, you know? And when you walked away with Aleksi, she… implied things.”

“What did she imply?” You asked, half-amused. You trusted Dominic. And besides, Eleanor was essentially a coworker. She was bold but surely not enough to try something and face you on a regular basis.

“She said if you’d get the lead, you’d be working late. And the way she was saying it… like I guess, she’d be free for me,” he shrugged, keeping his eyes on the road.

“Oh,” you spoke quietly, trying to process the moment. It became clear if you were to get the lead over her, she had plans to retaliate. You felt jealously creeping up, the quiet, gnawing anger that had been festering since you’d met the bitch.

“And you know, obviously I didn’t say shit back to her.”

“You didn’t say anything?” You found that hard to believe. “Not even a hey I’m here with my girlfriend so kindly fuck off?” 

“Nope,” he said breaking into a smile. “I didn’t say a thing to her, just handed her my number and our address.” 

You shot him the most annoyed side-eye at his dumb joke. “That’s hilarious,” you said sarcastically. 

“You didn’t seem too bothered by it at dinner,” he mumbled. “Too busy with that prick.” He hadn’t meant to sound so accusatory but he was struggling to repress all the jealousy.

"Aleksi is the director, Dom. I don't have control over that." You felt disrespected by his implied accusation but you didn't want to fight over something so nonsensical. You sought to quickly dismiss the topic. “And Eleanor is just being Eleanor.“

“I know you want this role but you’re letting it… consume you,” He spoke quietly with frustration. “It’s all you talk about. I don’t know, it makes me feel like I'm not even in the picture anymore.”

You understood his grievances, more often it was you dealing with the frustrations of dating an artist. “I don’t want you to ever feel like you’re not important, Dominic. I love you,” your tone softened.

“I know,” Dominic sighed. “I love you, too.”

“I didn’t expect us to ever have this problem,” you shared honestly. “I thought we had an unspoken understanding about our careers. I’ve never complained when you have to lock yourself away to write or go sign a hundred autographs for a crowd full of girls.” 

“I’m not complaining,” Dominic shot back, his voice defensive again. 

“I don’t mean it like that-“

���I’m trying not to bottle things up, y/n. I want some clarity here. I don’t know what’s going on with you,” he interrupts. 

“Nothing is going on” you exclaimed. Truthfully, you were beginning to feel irritated. You've always put your emotions aside to support his career. But suddenly now that your career was potentially on the rise, it seemed like he couldn't handle it.

“I don’t want to only be known as some musician’s fucking girlfriend," you explained. "God knows how long that’ll even last.”

Dominic felt a flash of rage. He couldn’t hold it back anymore. Without thinking, he suddenly pulled to the side of the road, hitting the brakes. Your body jerked forward, you held your arms out to stop yourself from smashing into the glove compartment. “What the fuck are you doing?”

“I don’t know anymore!” Dominic shouted. He leaned back in his seat, his head spinning, his pulse pounding. He knew he was in the wrong but something in him couldn’t stop. Maybe it was the alcohol or the fact he’d never felt such anger towards you before. For a moment, you both sat in silence, breathing heavily.

"This is insane," you whispered mostly to yourself.

“Insane?” He laughed bitterly. “What's insane is you spending weeks running around to impress a guy who can’t even make up his mind about you."

"He's my fucking director" You snapped. "Should I drop my career because you're insecure?"

"No, why the fuck would you do that when God knows how long it's going to last anyways," he spits out as he slams his fist against the wheel.

You were in shock at how angry he was becoming. He looked over at you, his gaze meeting yours. Your expression unfamiliar, your eyes wide with a flash of something. He couldn’t tell if it was anger or fear. Or maybe guilt? But the knot in his chest twisted tighter.

"This is ridiculous, you know I don't care about Aleksi," you tried to reassure him. You needed him to calm down. "He's not..." You trailed off not knowing what more you could say to convince Dominic.

"He's not what?" He demanded. “Not into you? He’s just the director. I get it. But don’t play it off like I'm insecure, he clearly has a hold on you. And he clearly gets off on it.”

He couldn’t think straight. It wasn't solely about Aleksi, he felt you'd been slipping away for weeks. All the emotions that had been building - the loneliness, the worry, the insecurities - it was all coming down at once.

"Just stop," you sighed, you were exhausted. You didn't want this fight, there was no favourable outcome. Aleksi was your director whether your boyfriend liked it or not. You couldn't handle the thought of your career becoming a reoccurring point of tension.

"No one should be a problem in our relationship. I only want you," you promised, your tone gentle. You reached for his hand. You needed him to calm down.

He didn’t say anything, just sat there, letting you hold onto his hand, taking in your words. Then to your surprise, he leaned in to kiss you. After a moment, he pulled back, taking a deep breath, the jealously and anger simmering down. To your relief, his hand slipped out yours as he leaned forward to start the engine.

As he drove back onto the road, you both sat in silence. The tension hadn't vanished but it didn't feel as heavy.

"You’re going to get the part, aren’t you?" he asked after some time had passed.

"I don't know until Thursday," you answered honestly. All of a sudden the thought of getting the role you'd been dreaming about made your stomach drop.

[stormblessed95]

Hi!

I was slightly disappointed to find such short answers to some parts, but it was nice to see that there is a lot we seem to agree on (outside of whether to trust Jimin's words about love.... 😭).

I don’t know if it was the way I wrote or because you only answered some sections of my ask, but it seems that a lot of my thoughts were not understood or that people were projecting frustrations from other parties (tkkers, antis, insecure jkkers) onto me…

I want to make a few things clear before I delve into the responses 😃

I’m not against the “search for his inspiration/excitement with his art” theory

I don’t think that Jimin knows nothing about love in general

I am not analyzing MUSE through a shipping lens or to debunk Jikook

I am not dictating Jimin’s sexuality based on pronouns in a song

Anyways I’m going to go person by person, starting with Storm ofc!

Why is he releasing this in the military? I’d understand if he was planning on revealing a partner, but based on what Jimin, the producers, and WHO are saying, he’s single. So is he announcing that he’s looking for love once he’s discharged? Then we go back to it being assumed that he is already single… and not going to lie, that is a little strange to announce? Why make an entire album for that?

I don't think he is announcing anything exactly. Like it's not a release meant to be for an announcement. If that makes sense. He isn't trying to inform people he is single and/or ready to mingle. He is trying to share emotions and a story. Why during MS? Idk.

I don’t either necessarily, but the narrative that has been pushed by many based on his words and the song is that he is “lookin for love”, so I was wondering why he would do it this way and at this time if so (hypothetically)? I did state multiple times that I can see it as him sharing his emotions through some sort of story!

He may have used the concept of love to better articulate another deeper message

With this in mind, as well as the fact that BOTH Jimin and Namjoon talked about Jimin’s work, singing, and idol identity more than anything to do with love, made the idea that search for love = search for his inspiration/excitement with his art more possible

While Jimin still could be working through the idea of a concept about his inspiration

 He could have been using the feeling of not having that excitement to compare being alone….

With SGMB, the confusion for me was more about them mentioning it being about “expressing the process” and being conceptual after I had thoughts about WHO being more personal.

I really liked your take on the title of MUSE and relating it to inspiration and the Muses of Greek Mythology. It fits in line with what we’ve seen from Jimin, as well as what I was initially expecting.

The search for his inspiration and a version of himself that he’s fully satisfied with seemed likely to be the concept of MUSE.

If he is explaining his search for inspiration through the idea of romance, that is incredibly smart and endearing of him. It shows me how much his work and art matter to him. That he’s willing to work on bettering himself (even if I thought he was already amazing) to achieve even better results that he can truly be proud of.

Hearing that MUSE was born after Jimin was so excited to work on music, especially considering the darker topics discussed in FACE, makes me so unbelievably happy. The songs ending up as upbeat and hopeful, even romantic, really does make sense in that context.

It's true that conceptual doesn’t have to mean fake, but the question I’m often left with is “In what way is this album conceptual?” Is it his search for inspiration and excitement of his work through a romantic lens OR is it his search for his person through a made up love story?

So is he not LOOKING FOR A WOMAN? Or is he not SINGLE?

Is the album not about his LOVE LIFE but his work?

Because ANY of those would actually make more sense to misunderstand.

If it’s directly about Jimin and not just the concept of the song.

Jimin mentions that when he meets up with friends, they’re all feeling similarly flat. I wonder if that flatness is towards not being in a relationship or feeling uninspired with life and/or work? He goes on to say it’s not a sad or scary feeling, but it’s also not exciting. This could go for either concept (Love or Work) to be honest.

I’ve read through multiple analyses of the MV since my first viewing, and I’ve noticed a lot more details that are somewhat questionable.

Auto Calibration being the main one as it flashes on screen after Jimin dances with men and then leads into him dancing with women. This does give some queer vibes, and makes me interested in what “story” Jimin had in mind with WHO as the choreo also has similar vibes too.

Jimin also keeps mentioning the choreo feeling like a short film or musical, which makes all the film (play, pause, rewind) details in the MV fit.

His conversations with his friends come up again, about how there are few instances to feel really strong emotions and him thinking “Should I start feeling more passion?” while making WHO, and that the writers of WHO worded the story he wanted to tell in such a lovely way.

The choreo has a lot of fun theatrical elements as he seems to want to express a lot of picturesque scenes, and the dance suits him while being simpler and fresh. But he’s still concerned about how to express the emotions for this song, as it isn't a sad song, but it does kind of become one towards the end.

With the amount of story elements, I’m considering the song being more of a way to describe his feelings about needing passion in his life than a detailed recount of his “failing love life”. It’s still his thoughts and feelings, but maybe expressed in a more digestible way for the audience.

“He’s an Idol, of course he’ll say he’s single and doesn’t know what love is!” Ok, but why mention it at all?

Because with the concept and theme being what they are, it would be discussed to hell and back (low-key hello is us in this post) and it's "damage control" regardless of how I feel about that, it's most likely what it is. No matter how annoying

While I understand that, it does feel really weird and wrong just chopping up him, potentially, expressing his feelings as “damage control” though…

I could maybe see Jimin not being out to his producers (or more so with his possible relationship with Jungkook), but it’s also not hard to just take him at his word (via the producers) that he’s unfamiliar with romantic love.

I personally don't form my opinions too much based on things that are second hand. I still take them into account for sure. But I don't put too much stock into things that are via someone else on behalf of any of BTS. Because really, they can just say anything. Now don't take this as me dismissing things said, because I'm not. I'm just clarifying for everyone that I form 85% of my opinions ONLY on things that are direct from Jimin himself and based directly on Jimin's actions. Things are going to be influenced by personal bias always as well too

I’ve stated that the things the producers have said don’t really make sense in line with what Jimin has said, which is part of my confusion. But at the same time, saying “the producers are lying/wrong” when they actually know and have spoken to Jimin, is a little weird for me.

But I'm honestly more and more confused the more people talk about this album.

The producers say the album is about looking for some imaginary woman, while every song other than WHO is gender neutral. Even with WHO, we are shown a version that was gender neutral.

So why is Jimin not following that?

Most (if not all) of what I hear him talk about in relation to MUSE is gender neutral. I don’t have an issue with Jimin making love songs about women, but make it consistent with the rest of the album that THEY (Jimin and Producers) wrote then!

I could maybe see Jimin not being out to his producers (or more so with his possible relationship with Jungkook)

Now @roamingwildflower13

It is not about blurring the lines between what we think of his relationship status, it's about him as an artist. It's not fair to take his work and analyse it through a shipping lens, or as if he is Taylor Swift. He might have set a precedent for this with Face, by saying it is personal, but even then, he never gave explicit detail on those songs.

I was simply just trying to understand the concept of the album, and was confused if it was to be viewed conceptually as a whole or just the tracks that Jimin wrote (everything but WHO), after things said by both Jimin and the producers.

The only time I thought about Jikook in relation to MUSE was after contemplating if WHO was Jimin’s real feelings and if he might not be in a relationship like I had assumed.

For me also, his conversation with Namjoon is of more weight than anything else said in the recording studio, and by producers. As Stormy said, second hand narratives are not from his own words, they are an interpretation. And that is not even taking into account any translation issues, or the fact that footage from the behinds of the recording is cut in certain places, the conversation jumbled.

I have stated that Jimin and Namjoon’s conversation in MMM is a good explanation for the “work/inspiration” theory.

I went back to watch MMM immediately, and was almost horrified at how I managed to miss or maybe interpret parts of Jimin and Namjoon’d conversation differently

With this in mind, as well as the fact that BOTH Jimin and Namjoon talked about Jimin’s work, singing, and idol identity more than anything to do with love, made the idea that search for love = search for his inspiration/excitement with his art more possible

Like I said above, after going back and paying attention to what they were saying (I literally typed out the entire video to go over 💀), the search for his inspiration and a version of himself that he’s fully satisfied with seemed likely to be the concept of MUSE.

But Jimin and the producers mentioning Jimin’s difficulty with talking about romantic love confused me.

So I know a lot of people have been using the “pretend to go through experiences I haven’t had before” to explain the “looking for love” vibes of WHO, but my understanding of Jimin saying this was that it’s towards the first five tracks (where he sings about having a crush and falling in love). While both relate to it being a concept, it being about the rest of the album (the love part) does make it sound like he’s currently single.

With SGMB, the confusion for me was more about them mentioning it being about “expressing the process” and being conceptual after I had thoughts about WHO being more personal.

Now I wonder if they meant the process of falling in love.

The producers say the album is about looking for some imaginary woman, while every song other than WHO is gender neutral. Even with WHO, we are shown a version that was gender neutral.

Most (if not all) of what I hear him talk about in relation to MUSE is gender neutral. I don’t have an issue with Jimin making love songs about women, but make it consistent with the rest of the album that THEY (Jimin and Producers) wrote then!

According to the producers, the song was born out of Jimin having trouble relating to a love serenade they were trying to write initially, and thus ends up asking himself if he can ever really love someone. With the song apparently being about the reality of feeling lonely and melancholy, and asking yourself where the person for you is , it does make me think that he hasn’t been in a long term romantic relationship for years, if it’s directly about Jimin and not just the concept of the song.

I do want to take Jimin and Jungkook’s words and actions seriously, however part of what has been said about MUSE and WHO from Jimin and his producers, does make me question if I (and the rest of us) were mistaken about what the nature of their bond is.

That aside, Jimin getting ‘embarrassed’ over this is not really anything to go by, he could get shy when trying to explain to strangers, any part of his concept or feelings. Again, he is not going to tell strangers his innermost thoughts, or the actual truth of it all.

That section was me explaining WHY I felt confused/concerned about these statements Jimin made at the time of watching the Behind The Scenes for MUSE/WHO. These aren’t necessarily my final opinions nor do I think my assumptions are completely correct. My entire ask was just me going over my genuine thought process with MUSE. Not with exact conclusions, because I’m still confused.

I wanted to articulate exactly what my thoughts and concerns were, especially since this is a more serious topic regarding Jimin’s work and art, but I don’t think it came off that well before.

I’m not stuck on any of my assumptions or thoughts being the “correct” way to interpret MUSE

Looking back now, I don’t think I presented WHY I was so conflicted after that video that well in my initial ask.

I’m still confused, but I do think after reviewing things that there is more to MUSE than I think. Especially with stories and theatrics being involved in so much of the concept.

I really just want to know what MUSE is about. The misunderstanding thing was fun for like a couple days, now it just makes me anxious and stressed. But maybe it was supposed to be like this 😔

So, if you listen to his words to Joon, ‘Who’ became the song that reflected how he was feeling about his work, his passion, after Face. I think he recorded ‘Who’ in April when he was in NYC, but it also could have been March, when he was there for Fallon, but I think April. So, those were his words to Joon, that no he wasn’t really feeling ‘happy’ about his work at that time, after Face promo had ended, he literally explained this. Again, taking what he said to a close and trusted friend, about what was said in a recording studio with a translator and strangers, and second hand from producers.

BOTH the producers and I are talking about Jimin being happy about working on FACE, not MUSE. The darker topics discussed in FACE had me slightly concerned for Jimin, so to hear that he was actually happy while making FACE was relieving. That happiness about creating FACE being what inspired MUSE is part of why I am actually more committed to the “search for inspiration/excitement for work” theory. The only reason that I had/have doubts was/is Jimin and the producers mentioning Jimin not being able to relate to romantic love.

Hearing that MUSE was born after Jimin was so excited to work on music, especially considering the darker topics discussed in FACE, makes me so unbelievably happy. The songs ending up as upbeat and hopeful, even romantic, really does make sense in that context.

Pdogg: A lot of people felt depressed during the pandemic, and Jimin was no exception. He took his passion and appetite while holed up at home and channeled it into his music. I remember Jimin was so happy being in LA to record “Set Me Free Pt. 2” in the warm, sunny weather. (laughs) So it seems like working on FACE helped him feel better and helped lift his feelings. The idea behind MUSE was to express what he had felt then. That’s why all the songs ended up being upbeat and hopeful, even romantic.

While Jimin still could be working through the idea of a concept about his inspiration, when he says “It feels like someone found my diary”, to me it really did sound more personal to him than expected.

With this in mind, as well as the fact that BOTH Jimin and Namjoon talked about Jimin’s work, singing, and idol identity more than anything to do with love, made the idea that search for love = search for his inspiration/excitement with his art more possible.

If he is explaining his search for inspiration through the idea of romance, that is incredibly smart and endearing of him. It shows me how much his work and art matter to him. That he’s willing to work on bettering himself (even if I thought he was already amazing) to achieve even better results that he can truly be proud of.

With the amount of story elements, I’m considering the song being more of a way to describe his feelings about needing passion in his life than a detailed recount of his “failing love life”. It’s still his thoughts and feelings, but maybe expressed in a more digestible way for the audience.

Then the Behinds for Muse dropped….

Which led to my first ask:

https://stormblessed95.tumblr.com/post/758126579695190016/hi-ok-so-i-just-rewrote-everything-i-wanted-to

However Jimin talking about looking for love and not experiencing that, does make me question Jikook if this album is supposed to be speaking from Jimin’s personal experiences and/or thoughts.

So I know a lot of people have been using the “pretend to go through experiences I haven’t had before” to explain the “looking for love” vibes of WHO, but my understanding of Jimin saying this was that it’s towards the first five tracks (where he sings about having a crush and falling in love). While both relate to it being a concept, it being about the rest of the album (the love part) does make it sound like he’s currently single.

While Jimin still could be working through the idea of a concept about his inspiration, when he says “It feels like someone found my diary”, to me it really did sound more personal to him than expected.

Yes, technically he does LIVE ALONE or he could have been using the feeling of not having that excitement to being alone….

But I'm curious as to what he meant by “everyone’s just living alone, right?” within the context of WHO, MUSE, or even in general?

With SGMB, the confusion for me was more about them mentioning it being about “expressing the process” and being conceptual after I had thoughts about WHO being more personal.

Now I wonder if they meant the process of falling in love.

But I'm honestly more and more confused the more people talk about this album.

The producers say the album is about looking for some imaginary woman, while every song other than WHO is gender neutral. Even with WHO, we are shown a version that was gender neutral.

So why is Jimin not following that?

Most (if not all) of what I hear him talk about in relation to MUSE is gender neutral. I don’t have an issue with Jimin making love songs about women, but make it consistent with the rest of the album that THEY (Jimin and Producers) wrote then!

According to the producers, the song was born out of Jimin having trouble relating to a love serenade they were trying to write initially, and thus ends up asking himself if he can ever really love someone. With the song apparently being about the reality of feeling lonely and melancholy, and asking yourself where the person for you is , it does make me think that he hasn’t been in a long term romantic relationship for years, if it’s directly about Jimin and not just the concept of the song.

I do want to take Jimin and Jungkook’s words and actions seriously, however part of what has been said about MUSE and WHO from Jimin and his producers, does make me question if I (and the rest of us) were mistaken about what the nature of their bond is.

I think part of the reason that it's important to me to know if Jimin is legitimately saying he’s single, is that I do want to respect him and his words.

Add Letter added into that, and I am not going to state anything other than, no it is not a song for fans, it is a ‘fan’ song, for the person doing background vocals. Go talk to a wall.

First of all, watch your tone.

Secondly, I was implying that Letter wasn’t for fans 💀

Why is Closer Than This on the album? I’m desperately hoping it’s not some sick way of saying “At least I got ARMY”..... and then what is Letter for?

Especially because Jimin refers to “Closer Than This” as a letter to fans even though he already wrote one "for them"…

JM: (Closer Than This) Just think of it as a letter I’m writing to you all. It’s a song just for you.

The show being released not a month after Muse worked the opposite way to me than what you are saying in your ask. It solidified everything I already knew/thought.

I’m confused as to what you assume I thought of Are You Sure?!

Part of me was also curious if my thoughts on MUSE would change how I saw Jikook in Are You Sure. Honestly my surprise when I didn’t find anything that pointed to them breaking up or being just platonic, was nothing compared to seeing that my opinion was uncommon to quite a few in the Jikook Community….

So no, anon, Jimin does know what love is, he actually seems to love with his whole being, and it is important to him to value and care for people, he’s said this before.

NOWHERE IN MY ASK DID I SAY THAT JIMIN DOES NOT KNOW WHAT LOVE IN GENERAL IS!

I WAS REFERRING TO ROMANTIC LOVE 💀💀

Then as the track titles were revealed to be more romantic sounding, it felt like he may have used the concept of love to better articulate another deeper message. Or that he chose to write about a fictional love and focused more on vocal and production styles, in a similar way to what Jungkook did with Golden.

While watching the MMM video for the first time, I was confused because Jimin had mentioned MUSE being more vague (or conceptual) than FACE but that WHO was his “feelings” after the previous tracks. Ultimately, I took that as him wanting to write about love but not having current personal experiences to pull from, so he decided to make up a fictional love story/crush, and then WHO comes at the end being like “actually that’s not true. i’m not in love, though i want to be.”

So I know a lot of people have been using the “pretend to go through experiences I haven’t had before” to explain the “looking for love” vibes of WHO, but my understanding of Jimin saying this was that it’s towards the first five tracks (where he sings about having a crush and falling in love). While both relate to it being a concept, it being about the rest of the album (the love part) does make it sound like he’s currently single.

With SGMB, the confusion for me was more about them mentioning it being about “expressing the process” and being conceptual after I had thoughts about WHO being more personal.

Now I wonder if they meant the process of falling in love.

I’m happy though that even while in this search (whether for inspiration, satisfaction, or love) that he’s still able to be happy and content with where he is at and who he is.

It's true that conceptual doesn’t have to mean fake, but the question I’m often left with is “In what way is this album conceptual?” Is it his search for inspiration and excitement of his work through a romantic lens OR is it his search for his person through a made up love story?

The idea of most of the album being love songs about a made up relationship/crush just to be like “I’m actually single and alone!”, does frustrate me a little. Like he’s an Idol, it’s already assumed that he’s single.

According to the producers, the song was born out of Jimin having trouble relating to a love serenade they were trying to write initially, and thus ends up asking himself if he can ever really love someone. With the song apparently being about the reality of feeling lonely and melancholy, and asking yourself where the person for you is , it does make me think that he hasn’t been in a long term romantic relationship for years, if it’s directly about Jimin and not just the concept of the song.

I could maybe see Jimin not being out to his producers (or more so with his possible relationship with Jungkook), but it’s also not hard to just take him at his word (via the producers) that he’s unfamiliar with romantic love.

Jimin mentions that when he meets up with friends, they’re all feeling similarly flat. I wonder if that flatness is towards not being in a relationship or feeling uninspired with life and/or work? He goes on to say it’s not a sad or scary feeling, but it’s also not exciting. This could go for either concept (Love or Work) to be honest.

With the amount of story elements, I’m considering the song being more of a way to describe his feelings about needing passion in his life than a detailed recount of his “failing love life”. It’s still his thoughts and feelings, but maybe expressed in a more digestible way for the audience.

If he is being up front about his romantic past, then I really do hope he finds his person, whoever they might be.

I know Jimin, and all idols, needs to be careful when talking about love. It’s why I’m so confused as to why this concept, and why now? Though with Jin stating that he wrote Falling for someone, maybe this is just part of BTS being more honest and open.

A bit of mystery goes a long way when all is said and done. Potentially Knowing everything about every lyrics meaning, and picking apart the song, takes away from that somewhat. And as above, we may never know the truth of it all, in fact that is more likely, than ever knowing where Jimin is concerned honestly.

I was using what both Jimin and the Producers said about the song to form somewhat of an opinion on what the song is about and/or how it was created.

According to the producers, the song was born out of Jimin having trouble relating to a love serenade they were trying to write initially, and thus ends up asking himself if he can ever really love someone. With the song apparently being about the reality of feeling lonely and melancholy, and asking yourself where the person for you is , it does make me think that he hasn’t been in a long term romantic relationship for years, if it’s directly about Jimin and not just the concept of the song.

Jimin mentions that when he meets up with friends, they’re all feeling similarly flat. I wonder if that flatness is towards not being in a relationship or feeling uninspired with life and/or work? He goes on to say it’s not a sad or scary feeling, but it’s also not exciting. This could go for either concept (Love or Work) to be honest.

Really the only things I analyzed were the MV and the choreo.

Auto Calibration being the main one as it flashes on screen after Jimin dances with men and then leads into him dancing with women. This does give some queer vibes, and makes me interested in what “story” Jimin had in mind with WHO as the choreo also has similar vibes too.

Jimin mentioning people instead of just women as potential options when passing by is also interesting, especially when he has mostly talked about this album gender neutrally.

The billboard with SOMEONE’S EYES dropping after Jimin sings “Who is my heart waiting for?” does seem as though it's an answer for Jimin, or maybe others. Especially when WHO with NO QUESTION MARK and Keep Going are written on it. In my opinion, it does resemble Jungkook's eyes. But I find it hard to take it as a promotion of some sort when it quite literally interrupts the MV, seemingly for no reason, instead of being a poster in the back.

Then of course, there is the insane potential connection of Taeyang, someone Jimin is a known fan of and is now friends with, showcasing his then girlfriend (now wife) on a billboard in a MV….

During a Chorus part Jimin joins up with SIX OTHER MEN. I don’t know if this is supposed to be a BTS reference or just formations. But what is the point of having SIX when there is only FIVE later for the girls vs boys part? Why not just keep the seven men (including Jimin) and have seven girls? Where’d the other guy even go?

Next in Verse Two when Jimin sings about “taking her places they ain’t found yet, putting it all on the line, and being that someone she can count on”, he dances with two men. Why? Would it not be better for him to do some sort of partner choreo here?

In the bridge, he repeats “who is my heart, heart waiting for?” as he passes by BOTH WOMEN AND MEN. Sure he only tries to match with women, but he’s a kpop idol and the song uses female pronouns, so that’s expected. I’m sure the male dancers were most likely included just to have it look better, but considering Jimin saying people when talking about it, the gender neutral version of the song, and that Jimin was involved with the choreo, it’s something to consider!

Jimin also keeps mentioning the choreo feeling like a short film or musical, which makes all the film (play, pause, rewind) details in the MV fit.

I am a bit disappointed that he, once again, warned fans about him interacting with women in the choreo. Even to the point of saying “moments that you might find uncomfortable” and “please don’t be too disappointed”

The choreo has a lot of fun theatrical elements as he seems to want to express a lot of picturesque scenes, and the dance suits him while being simpler and fresh. But he’s still concerned about how to express the emotions for this song, as it isn't a sad song, but it does kind of become one towards the end.

And if THAT is what you’re going to use against me….

Which is why to me the ‘Who’ mv is important. Jimin told Joon he almost wanted a simple shoot – and I guess in a way it is, it is him dancing west side story style in a dark street. But the narrative of the mv is the giveaway. The color scheme, and the little details most people (solos) miss. The Screen is less about whose eyes they are (the eyes are most certainly a man’s eyes) but how it stops and changes Jimin’s direction and rewinds the plot. it is done with a purpose, and is almost crucial to the plot, it is not random. It is not about spoiling a future project, it is about how it changes Jimin’s direction, the tape rewinds and he goes back to the start, and voila, he no longer interacts with the female dancers, he walks past them. She is not “Who” his heart is waiting for…..

Next @akd06

As for anon, I feel kind of bad for you that you are trying so hard to understand Jimin's art, like it is an autobiographical book. No art is that way. It is always subjective.

Did you read my ask or??

Basically I thought MUSE was conceptual, Jimin AND the producers said things about Jimin in regards to romantic love that made me question if he’s been in a relationship (if they pertain directly to Jimin and not just a concept), so I decided to look more in depth at the album, WHO, the MV, and the choreo to see a better picture of what Jimin was potentially trying to say.

And there is no way I would ever use a pronoun to prove or disprove anything, especially in a song, that is their job. I hope for you that you can relax and just enjoy their beautiful voices and kind souls.💜

UMMMM????

I know people (antis) are going on about pronouns, but honestly I already think Jimin is queer or bisexual, so writing a love song about a woman or with female pronouns doesn’t negate that (especially since we’ve seen a version where the lyrics were gender neutral). Until Jimin outright says he has never and will never have romantic feelings towards a man, I’m under the assumption that he may be bisexual (regardless of if he wants a male or female partner).

I KNOW IT’S LONG, BUT DON’T SPEAK UNLESS YOU’VE READ MY ASK FULLY PLS 😃

I’ve seen the many anons that were spamming your and other Jikookers’ inboxes the second WHO and MUSE released because “OMG Jimin said she/her!! He’s single and looking for a woman to love!” became the newest narrative.

While I do think it would be perfectly okay for him to want a female partner, it does make me slightly upset and sad, that people resorted to being homophobic and honestly misogynistic as a response. There is a way to discuss Jimin's potential romantic partners without being nasty to queer fans or possibly invalidating Jimin’s identity (especially since it is not likely that he’d ever fully come out (if he is queer/bi) in the way most people think nor want, given where he lives and his line of work).

Even the way people were talking about women was questionable. Going on about how it is outrageous for Jimin to deny himself the chance to be with a woman, have a biological family, and overall is wasting himself on Jungkook (if they are in a romantic relationship).

Making women out to be objects for men to use and only worth making/raising families, the homophobic rhetoric towards the longevity of queer relationships and same sex parents, as well as the blatant disrespect to Jungkook (that he’s “not enough” or “not right” for Jimin). If someone thinks that Jikook are nothing but platonic friends, that is perfectly fine. But to degrade their bond, as well as Jimin and Jungkook’s characters, is just unnecessarily cruel.

The producers say the album is about looking for some imaginary woman, while every song other than WHO is gender neutral. Even with WHO, we are shown a version that was gender neutral.

Most (if not all) of what I hear him talk about in relation to MUSE is gender neutral. I don’t have an issue with Jimin making love songs about women, but make it consistent with the rest of the album that THEY (Jimin and Producers) wrote then!

So is he not LOOKING FOR A WOMAN? Or is he not SINGLE?

Is the album not about his LOVE LIFE but his work?

Because ANY of those would actually make more sense to misunderstand.

Auto Calibration being the main one as it flashes on screen after Jimin dances with men and then leads into him dancing with women. This does give some queer vibes, and makes me interested in what “story” Jimin had in mind with WHO as the choreo also has similar vibes too.

Jimin mentioning people instead of just women as potential options when passing by is also interesting, especially when he has mostly talked about this album gender neutrally.

During a Chorus part Jimin joins up with SIX OTHER MEN. I don’t know if this is supposed to be a BTS reference or just formations. But what is the point of having SIX when there is only FIVE later for the girls vs boys part? Why not just keep the seven men (including Jimin) and have seven girls? Where’d the other guy even go?

Next in Verse Two when Jimin sings about “taking her places they ain’t found yet, putting it all on the line, and being that someone she can count on”, he dances with two men. Why? Would it not be better for him to do some sort of partner choreo here?

In the bridge, he repeats “who is my heart, heart waiting for?” as he passes by BOTH WOMEN AND MEN. Sure he only tries to match with women, but he’s a kpop idol and the song uses female pronouns, so that’s expected. I’m sure the male dancers were most likely included just to have it look better, but considering Jimin saying people when talking about it, the gender neutral version of the song, and that Jimin was involved with the choreo, it’s something to consider!

If he is being up front about his romantic past, then I really do hope he finds his person, whoever they might be.

Now I’m a little confused on where I stand, and knowing what MUSE and WHO are about in relation to Jimin would help. I know you obviously can’t know exactly. But I’m hoping I’ll get something other than “Jikook is real! Stop doubting them! You’re projecting your internalized homophobia!” OR “Jikook isn’t real! Jimin is straight and looking for a woman!”

@queenofsweden

Can I weigh in on the tiny part about the tarot and the devil perspective!?

Firstly, it is not that Jimin thinks his relationship is the devil, or he views it negatively in terms of his feelings, it’s that he knows it has the potential to harm them, if anything were to be exposed. And he’s right, unfortunately, it’s very likely to impact them if they were exposed.

To me in a way, this perspective could somewhat explain the need to use a song like Who, or a concept for love songs as if he’s never been in love. It’s why they are all single. Especially if they are queer they would need a way to protect that, and with the release of the show, more so. The show could have exposed them a whole lot more than it did, but I guess it helps (again sadly) that half the fandom are tkkrs, and the others are made up of homophobes and others are ignorant solos.

I personally don’t feel like it’s ok to project outcomes from tarot readings that were done without the person being read for present nor without their permission or knowledge.

I don't think this much of a reply and more of me just copy and pasting my other ask 💀

If anyone actually cares, my final thoughts with MUSE as of February 8, 2025 are that it may be about how he felt excited to work on music (FACE) detailed through the first "crush/love" tracks and then after he had difficulty post FACE promotions, WHO comes in with him still struggles with finding inspiration and love for his art.

Still confused about the not relating to romantic love part...

Thank you so much for the response Storm 💜

— (Not So) Nice MUSE Anon 🎨

In response to this post:

Sorry it took me so long to get back to you, you even dated this so we really know how long I made you wait 😅 I just finally went and checked my inbox again.

This is turning less into a civil discussion and more into infighting from various sources which I am not loving getting into. So I'll post this, so you don't feel like I'm cutting you off. But I'll probably say for this particular avenue of discussion, I'm going to not post anymore.

🎨 Anon, im more than happy to continue discussing this topic with you in DMs. I'm also more than happy to post asks from you and discuss things with you over different things. I'm sorry that some of my replies back in the last post felt a little short. I only replied to the parts that I felt I had anything to say about. I didn't just want to go "ahh I see" to everything. Lol I promise I did read it and while there might've been parts that I still disagreed with partly, I felt like I didn't need to just keep repeating myself as I said most of it in our first post response and I didn't have anything new to add, Idk how else to say my thoughts other than how I already have in either our first post or the last one linked above. But I'm sorry if it came across like I misunderstood your words or didn't fully read your message. I promise I did!

As for everyone else responding, I can understand the frustration in being like "did you even read what I said" so I get that. I'm not wanting to get into any arguments with anyone or any further frustrations. I just don't have the mental bandwidth to deal with that right now. So if you want to have further correspondence with the other blogs, I'd recommend contacting them directly to continue to talk, either through DMs or if they have anons on as well there.

I still think you are nice. And I hope EVERYONE involved in this post, has a really wonderful rest of their day and hopefully we can all continue to have respectful agree to disagree conversations about things more in the future 💜💜

[pomefioredove]

I would’ve voted for Quasimodo anyway, but this is a nice bonus! I’d love a sweet flavor matchup.

Pronouns: She/Her

Personality: Probably the most important thing is I have ADHD and OCD, meaning I am a scattered ball of anxiety the vast majority of the time. I start a lot of projects, but rarely finish them. When I get hyperfixated on something it will be all I talk about, regardless of if the person I’m talking to actually understands what I’m talking about (though it’s nice if they do understand). Though it’s very difficult for me to start working on things that aren’t my current interest, once I do get started it’s even more difficult to get me to stop working. I end up being extremely productive, but have a tendency to overwork myself on accident as a result (what’s a break?). My memory is awful, and I have major time blindness problems, so I prefer to not schedule things when possible. I am either the most talkative or the quietest person in the room at any one time. If there’s only one person around, I can talk a lot, but if there is more than one person around, I get much quieter. Add 2 or 3 more people and I will only speak when spoken to. (Despite this, I’ve always been very good at public speaking, to the point where I kind of enjoy it sometimes.) My ADHD causes me to have many sensory issues, primarily with hearing and smell, so any large events overstimulate me very quickly. Because of this, I generally get a lot of anxiety in public, so I’d probably just stay in my room all day if I could. I pride myself on being very smart, at least in academics. Though I was good in other subjects in school, math and science were always my preferred subjects, cause I like numbers (thus why I’m studying to become an engineer!). I like the idea of taking care of someone (cooking for them, doing other chores for them, just helping out wherever I can), but considering my memory, it’s easiest if someone tells me what they need so I can do it right away, rather than them expecting me to remember or know without being told. I’m incredibly stubborn in arguments, and can get very angry very quickly. But, I never hold those arguments against someone. I am equally forgiving as I am stubborn, and can forgive someone for almost anything (to a concerning degree, according to friends lol). Emotionally, I’m quite sensitive, and I cry whenever I feel basically anything. But I’m also very empathetic and emotionally intelligent. I can usually tell when someone is feeling upset, and I’ll do whatever I can do make them feel better. I’m a very curious person. If I don’t know the answer to something, I’m looking it up immediately, and probably falling down a rabbit hole in the process. Finally, my sense of humor is that I am made of sarcasm. No jokes from me, just pure sarcastic remarks. I’m generally being sarcastic a good 50% of the time lol.

Hobbies: Gaming and content creation (live streaming, video editing, but basically an extension of gaming) primarily. Also reading, writing, and singing, though I do that less often now. I also like cooking and baking, but only if no one is watching me (idk why).

Likes: Music, gacha games (I have an addiction), anything purple, math, physics, roller coasters, owls, plushies, other cute things.

Dislikes: Bugs (terrified of them), loud noises, driving, showering (baths are fine, showers suck), hot days, parties.

Extra fact: Though I’m not diagnosed, we’re pretty sure I have POTS (since my heart rate gets concerningly high when I stand up). I haven’t fainted yet, but I’ve gotten close on multiple occasions. (It’s why I hate hot days, since heat makes the symptoms worse)

What I’m looking for in a partner: Someone who shares some of my interests, since I really struggle to bond with someone if they don’t. Though it’s also nice if they have at least one interest that they’re passionate about that I don’t know anything about. I like hearing my partner talk about things they’re passionate about, and I like learning about new things. Also someone who understands that I need alone time sometimes. Finally, someone who is satisfied with just existing in one another’s presence. Not necessarily talking or doing something together, but just existing in the same space while we do things separately. Though I’d like doing things together sometimes, I mostly just like them being there while I do my own thing.

That should be basically everything you need to know, and way more, probably, but I felt like being thorough lol. I’m excited to see what you decide! (Sorry for all the reading)

I match you with 𝐈𝐝𝐢𝐚 𝐒𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐝!

Overview

I was nodding along thinking of Rook until you said you'd like someone who shares your interests- and then I thought, oh, that is SUCH an Idia thing to say. there's no faster way to his heart than through his hyperfixations!! you've got a lot going for you- sarcasm, engineering and gaming, video editing, yada yada, you get me! I think Idia is also the king of saying Exactly What He Wants, no more no less, he hates the manipulative tactics of NRC students just as much as anyone ought to, and he wouldn't wish missing a social cue on his worst enemy... I think you could work something out (also sarcastic and smart and purple... I immediately thought of megara hehe)

The Relationship

speaking of! Idia's got a pretty set mind, he's good at mental organization, and he's got a good memory, so he'd be more than happy to help you with yours, should you need it! in exchange for taking care of him, of course, because someone's got to remind him to eat more than once a day. he would be really good about your sensory issues (I like to think he has a lot of his own!) and you'd just never run out of things to talk about, considering the shared interests and all! and, of course, he's always more than happy to just chill- he needs his quiet time, too

Secondary Suggestions

Rook Hunt :P

[kylieswift31]

Your post about Abigail, over half of it doesn't make sense, and it made me realise that Taylor's lyrics and easter eggs, etc, can be bent and twisted to fit whatever muse people want. That Taylor is the only person who actually knows who her muse is. And we won't find out who it is until she tells us if she ever does. So thanks for nothing.

Posts like this that introduce a new concept or topic are not designed to be easily understood by everyone else, they’re a chance for me to zoom in on a topic and info dump by sharing a lot of idea and thoughts at once before zooming out again to share new posts like this one that connect back to this main topic.

I knew that my first muse post would be controversial because I was introducing a new muse possibility that challenges the foundation of every other muse that others are already invested in. It’s important for all of us to understand that we could be wrong because we don’t know Taylor personally. This blog is a place for me to share my own thoughts and ideas with others, as well as an invitation to go off and do your own research. For example, try looking up what an unreliable narrator is and find some examples in the books you’ve or movies that you’ve seen before. Or perhaps try watching the Truman show a few times and see what patterns you pick up on. If you disagree with the references to quotes from interviews then go back and watch them for yourself. I’m not here to hold your hand and walk you through this particular post step by step if you disagree with me. It’s written in a way that’s designed to allow you to understand more and more if you keep coming back to it after investigating pieces of it until you can see how they intersect to create the bigger picture.

When I became more invested in the gaylor lore a lot of the theories surrounding muses felt too rigid because everyone seemed to be repeating the same interpretations as facts. Instead of following along with everyone else I started going through Taylor’s music, music videos and interviews and tried to remain as unbiased as possible as I came to my own conclusions as I viewed every character in Taylor’s story as a version of Taylor with no intention of delving into muses. Eventually it became apparent that there was a third main character that represented Taylor’s muse. I needed to lay all of my cards out on the table to announce that Abigail was my own personal prediction of who Taylor’s muse could be so that I can delve into differentiating between Taylor, Taylor™ and her muse. My future posts are bound to challenge the foundation of other muses, but if you’re willing to consider that I might be right about this one I’d like to invite you to learn about the tale of the blind doctors and the elephant.

“You don’t know what you don’t know” 🐘

We’re all invested in different specialties that branch off from the one thing we all have in common, believing Taylor is part of the LGBTQIA+ community. As we process our ideas out loud we’re all bound to get some things right, take it too far at times, or find something that others might not be ready to see for themselves. Expecting everything that’s shared to be digestible facts for gaylors focused on other branches of gaylor lore just hinders the collaborative process for those invested in the same branch of gaylor lore that you are. Sometimes we need to zoom in on an idea and put all our cards on the table so that we can then zoom back out to see what fits in with the bigger picture. Being open to new ideas and having grace for those you disagree with allows us all to stay focused on the one thing we have in common, Taylor Swift. 🌈

[guardian-of-fun-times]

Growing up, I was always the “weird kid.” The one who didn’t quite fit, who moved differently, thought differently, felt the world differently. I didn’t have the words for it then, and neither did anyone else—at least, not the right ones. Instead, I was bullied, isolated, and made to feel like my existence itself was an inconvenience. It wasn’t until much later in life that I received my autism diagnosis, and while it brought validation, it also stirred up emotions I didn’t expect.

I envy those who were diagnosed as children. Not because I believe their path was easy—far from it—but because they had the chance to understand themselves sooner, to receive support, to be given the tools to navigate a world that often isn’t built for us. Meanwhile, I spent years feeling broken, wondering why everything seemed so much harder for me than it did for others. I see people today struggling to get a diagnosis, fighting for resources, for acknowledgment, for the simple validation of being told: “Yes, this is real. You are not imagining it.” And yet, despite these struggles, self-diagnosis remains controversial. People scoff at it, dismiss it, call it fake. But for so many—myself included—self-recognition is the first step toward understanding.

My aunt saw me before I saw myself. She noticed the way I would stim—rocking on my old rocking horse while blasting music from my boombox, body rocking in the car as the world blurred past the window. These movements weren’t meaningless; they were comfort, a rhythm to existence that made sense in a world that often didn’t. As I grew older, that comfort expanded into maladaptive daydreaming—an escape, a sanctuary. My mind became my refuge, building intricate worlds where I wasn’t out of place, where I wasn’t the weird kid. And even now, as an adult, I still do these things. I still lose myself in daydreams, still slip into those worlds at a moment’s notice. But I don’t see it as a flaw.

If anything, those imaginary realms have become my greatest strength. They fuel my creativity, breathing life into stories and artwork that I now share with the world. What once felt like an isolating quirk has become a source of connection, a way to express myself in ways words never could. Autism is not just a diagnosis; it’s an explanation, a key to understanding myself. It’s why I experience the world so intensely, why I find solace in movement, why I retreat into my mind yet bring back something beautiful to share.

I’m still learning what it means to be me. Still processing the grief of not knowing sooner, still healing from the years of being misunderstood. But I know this: I was never broken. I was never less. I was simply different. And different was never a bad thing.

[caramelontoast]

— 2010 ELLE Korea

The young Cha Gang Jin from Will It Snow for Christmas?

Didn’t look particularly packaged. Throughout the drama, he wore only a school uniform and sneakers, and there were no accessories that made ‘Kim Soo Hyun’ stand out. The unexpected reversal he is enjoying now is purely due to his ‘cleverness.’

When I met him in person, Kim Soo Hyun turned out to be a bit of a different type of actor than I had expected.
 The first twist came as the shoot began. His slim, well-structured body transformed into a perfect subject the moment he stepped in front of the camera. His initial stiff poses, typically seen in a newcomer, were replaced by an instinctive understanding of how to flow with the light and the camera, adjusting his body rhythm with precision, checking the lighting along the way—more adept than many seasoned models. His remarkably small face, with eyes, nose, and mouth all in perfect alignment, was impressive. But what’s more striking is how this face gave life to the assertive character of Cha Gang Jin. On a Saturday afternoon, after skipping breakfast, he bit into a donut and casually shared stories that weren’t frantic or overly serious but entertaining and engaging. He said that instead of choosing a speech academy to overcome his reserved personality, he had picked an acting academy, and although it was his mother who opened the doors to acting, he himself was enjoying the process. He spoke while nibbling on the donut, and as he took another big bite, it felt like a fun story was about to unfold. I leaned in closer, ready to observe and steal a glance.

Was your start, as we know, in the sitcom Kimchi Cheese Smile?
Yes, I debuted in Kimchi Cheese Smile in July 2007. I had been preparing for a play, but I ended up going for the audition for Kimchi Cheese Smile at the last minute. Since I was so focused on the play, I didn’t have many expectations to get the role. I went to the audition in training clothes because I had been practicing for the play. I had really curly hair, and I had sweat a lot while practicing, so I even wore a headband to the audition. It wasn’t that I wasn’t serious about the audition, but because I was so absorbed in the play, I didn’t have time to prepare. Fortunately, when the director saw me, he immediately said, “That hairstyle is funny, let’s go with that one,” and after a quick reading, he gave me the role. I could say my curly hair was a hidden contributor to my casting.

Sitcoms and plays have very different acting patterns; did you originally dream of being a theater actor?
My ultimate goal was musical theater. So, I wanted to first hone my basics on stage in theater and slowly move toward musicals. (EG: Are you good at singing and dancing?) I wouldn't say I’m great, but I really enjoy them.

Did the play you were preparing ever make it to the stage?
At first, I balanced rehearsing the play and filming the sitcom. However, the filming schedule was so overwhelming, and since the sitcom aired every day, I had a significant amount of screen time. Eventually, I had to stop the play. It wouldn't have been fair to the other actors and the audience if I had left after starting the play. I felt so sorry for the actors I had rehearsed with, and I cried so much the day I had to quit.

What kind of play was it?
It was 12 Angry Men, which revolves around twelve jurors. I played Juror 6. Since the play’s setting was a trial, once you entered, you couldn’t leave. It added an interesting element, and I really wanted to do well in that role, but I still regret that I couldn’t perform in the play.

Is musical theater still your ultimate goal?
It’s changed now. My philosophy is “Within acting, I don’t limit myself to one genre.” So now, I’m an all-rounder. It’s always good to have big dreams and goals.

What do you think is your biggest strength that sets you apart from others?
My mindset control—I don’t get flustered in any situation. I try not to approach anything with preconceived notions or fear. To achieve that, I constantly use self-hypnosis. I remember a line from a comic book I read in elementary school: “Maybe I have a natural talent for this.” I loved it so much that I started identifying myself with the main character, and I’ve kept that thought in my mind ever since. I use it as a special tactic when I’m in a tough situation.

Isn’t that possible because of some level of confidence in yourself?
It’s not really confidence; it’s because I have a second special tactic that supports my first. “If not, then forget it.” In Will It Snow for Christmas?, my first scene was when I helped Jiwan who had fallen. My line was casually cynical, “Did you get hurt? Can you walk?” It needed to be just the right balance—not too cynical and not too caring. When I practiced the line, I added “If not, then forget it” after “Did you get hurt?” It helped me find the right tone, and when we shot the scene, I just removed that part. Fortunately, it worked well with the character of Gang Jin, and I used that tactic throughout my lines.

Do you feel a change in the way people view you after Will It Snow for Christmas?
I’m pretty familiar with the internet. Many actors avoid reading comments to avoid getting hurt, but I actually read everything about me carefully. Whether it’s praise or negative comments, it’s all a form of interest. Of course, if there are a lot of bad comments, it can affect your confidence and make you upset, but I try to swallow even the poisonous words and turn them into something useful. Fortunately, most of the comments about Will It Snow for Christmas? were positive.

What are you interested in these days?
Boxing. I went into the ring once with a close friend, and I think boxing is a great way to express different emotions through your eyes. I’m slowly learning it.

What is Kim Soo Hyun like at the age of 23, outside of acting?
He’s very ordinary. I like soccer and baseball. I really love games. When I meet friends, we go to karaoke, and when I’m resting at home, I watch sad movies and cry as much as I want. When I watch movies, I like to maximize my emotions, and I repeat my favorite movies many times. I’ve watched the animated film Grave of the Fireflies five times since middle school. The first time I watched it, I cried after 40 minutes, but by the second time, I was crying just 10 minutes in. When my emotions drop, I try to cry even more forcibly.

What songs do you sing as someone who dreamed of being in musical theater?
Whenever I go to karaoke, I always sing Kang Seong’s “I Love You” and the Japanese singer Penicillin’s “Romance.” Oh, and of course, when I go with friends, I also add fun by dancing to Kara’s butt dance and 2PM’s Taecyeon dance.

Finally, how much of Kim Soo Hyun’s talent have we seen so far?
It could be 1% or 99%.

— Rough translations and might contain errors.

[minimalist-language-learning]

名探偵コナン 第100話 !!

I watched 名探偵コナン episode 100 today!! :D

I still need to put in much more work into my listening comprehension and vocabulary but for now, this is a nice milestone. In this post I want to share my experiences.

What I did

I not only watched these episodes, I also worked my way through the subtitles. I changed my approach over time but it looked basically like this:

reading subtitles and looking up words (on my computer)

putting words and phrases into Anki for later review (details below)

watching the episode (via BluRay)

(repeat process with the next episode)

Unfortunately, I wasn't very consistent. Most of the time I didn’t manage to finish the whole process for one episode per day (I'm working full-time). Sometimes I watched several episodes a day (before reading the subtitles) and sometimes I didn't watched any episode for a few days or even weeks.

I wanted to be more consistent but working through one episode took more time than I thought. Plus, on some days I just wanted to do something different like reading a novel or manga or listening to a podcast in Japanese. “All Conan all the time“ would have been more beneficial for my listening comprehension (for this series) but I needed the variety.

Difficulty

Many Japanese learners recommend to start with slice of life anime to train your listening comprehension and I agree. But since I don’t really like slice of life and because I love 名探偵コナン I watch it despite the fact that my listening comprehension and vocabulary is not strong enough yet. So this choice obviously comes more from the heart than the brain. XD

I’ve read somewhere that after around 20 or 30 episodes, understanding a series becomes easier because at this point one is quite familiar with the regular vocabulary. With 名探偵コナン my experience is “a bit different“. (If it was easier for you, please tell me your secrets :D)

Even after 100 episodes it feels by no means easy. I understand some parts but most of the time I still struggle and miss a lot (even though I understood the subtitles). However, I also learned a lot along the way. Some episodes were less complex than others and I was able to understand most of what the characters said. This gave me hope that over time I will understand more and more of the complex episodes, too.

(There are several reasons but) one reason why this series is challenging is the wide range of topics: business/economy, crime/police, finance/money, law, medicine, traffic, chemistry, art, cinema/ TV, sport, music, botany/plants, and maybe even some more I don’t remember right now.

To comfortably watch this series you not only need to know the crime-related and daily-life vocabulary, but also a ton of words from other areas as well.

The topic changes with every case, which makes every case a new challenge. This means, learning words from this episode doesn’t necessarily prepare you that much for the next. (I mean, not as much as by watching a series with only a few central topics.)

When I started I expected that it will become easier after 50 or 60 episodes. It was interesting to see that even after working through so many episodes I still come across quite a lot new words (depending on the topic). For example: In episode 97 I looked up 37 new words and phrases.

Let's see if it gets better after another 100 episodes. :D

Review

I gave Anki (flashcard program) another chance and it works quite well so far. Over the course of 100 episodes, I collected 546 words and phrases in my deck. These were my criteria:

word/phrase came up at least 3 times in more than one episode or case

the sentence gives me enough context

word/phrase I know in writing but not (fast enough) when listening

Reviewing these words helps me to not only recognize more words in general but also understand them fast enough while listening.

So…

… even after 100 episodes I’m still far away from understanding 名探偵コナン comfortably. Partly because I wasn’t as consistent as I wanted to be and because I didn’t listen more often to each episode. But also because this series is very challenging language-wise, so I think it’s only natural that it takes much more time. But it's not as bad as it sounds! I love that there is so much to learn. Every episode is a new challenge and a new chance to grow.

On to the next 100 episodes!

(Please note that this is only what I experienced and what I think. Your approach, experiences and preferences may be different.)

[kaycode1999]

Hi! I was wondering if you would do a matchup for me?

I’m an Infp type 5 (so I have a lot of feelings but I’m also a really intellectual person), I’m a former gifted kid, autistic, and a straight female who’s kinda girly. I love writing and history and I plan to write novels and musicals. I’m also a professional singer and I play multiple instruments, but mainly piano and guitar. I don’t think I have a type, but in general I like a good heart, a big smile, and soft hair that’s kinda fluffy lol.

I’m the oldest daughter so I’d like somebody who would be able to let me relax and just take care of me sometimes and somebody who’d be like my safe space and stabilizer when I’m in the grasps of creativity but also really fun. will remind me to eat lol.

If you could do MHA and transformers for me I would be very grateful. Thanks 😊

*I get the feeling you’re around Mirio’s age, but if I am wrong I can redo it*

My Hero Academia

I match you with

Mirio Togata

Transformers (general)

I match you with

Bumblebee

So I could be wrong but from what I found type 5 is characterized by creativity, empathy, and a strong desire for authenticity and understanding.

This fits them to a T because they are also creative, empathetic and have a strong desire for authenticity and understanding

They appreciate that you are both emotional and intelligent, it’s nice to have a mix of both

They didn’t exactly go through the same things so they don’t have that experience of schooling and being gifted/in gifted programs, however both of them have a lot of expectations placed on them both internal and external ( Bee with being the best autobot scout, and Mirio within the hero world and his internship) so they are uniquely able to understand what that pressure does to a person/bot and want to help you in any way they can. You help them with their side too

They are both caring and understanding beings so they won’t judge you for autistic traits that others might. And they try to help you find things and processes that help keep you regulated

Bee in particular loves learning so I think you share that with him. He loves learning about earths history as well as telling you about his planets history. Mirio also enjoys it, but not to the same degree

They both really love your writing and are there to hype you up in all of your endeavors, and they think it’s awesome you want to write novels and musicals

They freaking love your singing voice and admire your talent

They are both very impressed and excited by your musical talent (both singing and instrumental)

Both have good hearts and big smiles and Mirio has soft and fluffy hair😂

Sounds like you need an adoring golden retriever boyfriend and boy did you ever get one with these two; they love to take care of you and help your relax

They are absolutely your safe space and stabilizer as well as fun and will never let you go without at least a snack or a meal

[trapangeles]

LateAfter8: A Journey of Authenticity and Growth with LifeFullOfSin/RideOrDie

In a world where music is often a reflection of the artist's soul, LateAfter8 emerges as a storyteller with an unfiltered lens on life's trials and triumphs. Hailing from the same area as his long-time collaborator @Fatboyslapz, LateAfter8’s latest release, LifeFullOfSin/RideOrDie, is more than just a song and video—it's a raw, emotional narrative of his journey. With gripping visuals and poignant lyrics, LateAfter8 invites his audience into a world shaped by struggle, resilience, and authenticity.

The Inspiration: Trials, Tribulations, and Realizations

The dual concept of LifeFullOfSin/RideOrDie is deeply personal. LateAfter8 explains, “The inspiration for LifeFullOfSin is me going through trials and tribulations in my life trying to find the right path. At the same time, there are individuals who don’t want to see you win. I like that—it makes me go hard.”

On the other side of the story, RideOrDie reflects his desire for unwavering support in his personal life. “The RideOrDie song is from me being so serious with my life decisions and career choices. I need a woman by my side who gets me.” Together, these tracks create a powerful narrative about perseverance and the importance of loyalty.

Bringing the Vision to Life

For years, LateAfter8 has collaborated with videographer @Fatboyslapz, and this partnership has allowed him to bring his creative visions to life seamlessly. “He kinda just knows how I want my videos,” LateAfter8 shares. This understanding made the process smoother, even when challenges arose. The most difficult part? “How I wanted to compose myself in front of the camera.”

The video itself is packed with emotion, with every scene reflecting pieces of LateAfter8’s personal experiences. “All of the scenes are really emotions I have in my life,” he reveals. This authenticity ties the video to his artistic journey, showcasing his growth. “It shows my progression from all my other work—more truthful lines and rhymes.”

Lyrics and Visuals: A Perfect Match

The beauty of LifeFullOfSin/RideOrDie lies in its simplicity. “The lyrics are straight to the point,” LateAfter8 explains. “The video just adds the perfect painting towards the viewer.” This fusion of music and visuals creates a layered experience for listeners and viewers alike, with themes of family, friends, enemies, and relationships.

LateAfter8 hopes his audience feels the weight of his emotions through the song. “I want my listeners to understand the deep feelings I have about certain situations,” he says.

The Audience Response: Real and Appreciated

Since the release of LifeFullOfSin/RideOrDie, the response has been overwhelmingly positive. “The response has been real and appreciated. Nothing but good support,” LateAfter8 shares. One comment, in particular, stood out: “Wait til ‘25.” This kind of feedback fuels his drive and confirms that his authenticity resonates with his audience.

Looking Ahead: Authenticity and Growth

The LifeFullOfSin/RideOrDie video isn’t just a standalone project—it’s a glimpse into what’s to come. “You can definitely expect more visuals like this for my upcoming project,” LateAfter8 says. With each release, he’s determined to showcase his true self. “This video sets the tone for me as an artist because I’m showing and giving my authentic self rather than imitating another artist’s style or flow.”

A Message of Resilience

LateAfter8’s story is one of resilience, authenticity, and self-expression. His music not only reflects his personal experiences but also serves as a source of inspiration for his listeners. LifeFullOfSin/RideOrDie is a testament to his growth and his commitment to staying true to himself.

With more visuals, deeper storytelling, and authentic connections, LateAfter8 is solidifying his place in the music scene as an artist unafraid to be vulnerable and real. As his fan said, “Wait til ‘25”—the future is looking bright for LateAfter8.

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